#64 The End of my Off Grid Dream..

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I embarked on the journey to turn our abandoned land into a green haven, building my own home, living off grid and becoming self-sufficient in terms of food and energy. The goal for these first years was to create a place more in balance with planet earth, to grow my own food and life a more self sufficient life 💛🌱🌸
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[@PatrickVBentsen]

Very valuable content Eugenia. Contructive, responsible and realistic. Thank you!

[@ginabin6644]

My husband and I bought a beautiful home in the country just before Covid hit here in Canada, with the dreams to transpose it to garden spaces of our dreams. Most suddenly, unexpectedly my husband passed away three months ago and I find myself asking what am I to do without his presence and his support. I do turn to strenth of women like you to give me strength, inspiration and motivation. My journey journey without him has changed and i have to find a way to reinvent myself, but I want to continue the dream of moving forward with plans for this country home in his honour. Its challenging, and most times heartbreaking. Your Journey inspires me so. Blessings to you and all that you do.

[@joseluisc8891]

Sending you lots of love

[@kristiecox7350]

Oh I’m so sorry, that definitely changes things. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@Cs-ry3fx]

So sorry for your loss... 🙏🏻

[@deenice5444]

Sorry for your loss.🙏💐

[@Julie-bq6iz]

Blessings Gina! I will pray that you find that new path. I have suffered a couple very serious changes recently. Life has let me know that her name is Change. Sometimes good, and sometimes not. It's constant flow, like water. A screaming flood, and then a peaceful stream. May you soon encounter the peaceful stream.❤

[@nguday2003]

My partner and I love the design you show - it’s a mix of off the grid and mixed with beautiful scenery. Thank you for your stories!

[@kellymaisonet2039]

This honestly just shook me emotionally. I just found your channel recently and I must say that it has been life altering for me. You are a beautiful woman inside and out. You hold MANY of the same dreams as I. Your grace and persistence really encouraged me. I understand completely that putting your self first is the most important part of all this. I pray that through all of this you realize how impactful you have been for so many people. You have changed lives and perspectives and many look up to you. It is heartbreaking to think we will not get to see you. Your honesty is beautiful. We all struggle and certainly at times we all go through anxiety and depression. Some struggle more than others. I will pray for you and your family (including your fur babies). You are loved and will be missed. Thank you for sharing your life ❤️❤️❤️

[@carmennava1662]

Thank you for sharing such a thoughtful and insightful story.. Very best wishes for you and Lolita!

[@vireviri]

Sending loving healing vibes to Lolita...

[@learnenglishwithdayamudra704]

Yes. Take time to rest & heal!

[@robertamurphy1124]

You have learned life's greatest lesson. CONTINUE TO BE AMAZED! Also..where did you get that beautiful linen dress?

[@doria551]

I really love your videos and I'm looking forward to each new one! Can you tell me, if your workshop works well for you as a greenhouse? Which panels did you use and is there enough light inside for the seedlings? Get well soon and my best wishes for Lolita!❤

[@VermerschJacques]

Thanks for your so inspiring videos! How do you imagine the future, when you are much older and unable to take care of your garden?

[@heleneconway8411]

My heart is hurting and also praying for you precious pets - TYVM for the beautiful videos you share - and there is only optimism from me to you

[@yasminaraya]

I wish you all the best in your life, you deserve it. Please take care of your health and Lolita and Aspen and Pepe. I will miss you... ❤❤❤❤

[@jenniferwolf545]

Get Well Soon to You and your beautiful beautiful kitty . Much Love and Healing 🙏💖💐

[@nedatata]

I never write comments but here is something I want to say and hope that you’ll read it, Eugenia. Your shared experience gave me the inspiration and courage to move to a house in the forest and start my own offgrid journey. A single mom with two kids. It’s been the happiest time of my life and I’ll be forever grateful to you - a stranger, who you will never know is telling you that with your work and resilience you’re changing lives. Stay bold and uplifted. It’s just a phase you’re going through.

[@anashappydays]

Your words are very inspiring ❤ thank you for sharing. All of us with our actions can change someone’s life.

[@dimagenpersonal]

You are beautiful and you've got the courage to do that with your kids. I did it also, not inspired in anyone, it was my dream since I was a little child (6yo). It hasn't been easy. I agree that some jobs weren't meant to be to a single woman, but I don't give up. I have been at my new home almost a year, it is a slow, very slow process but I have to be a carpenter, painter, builder... and everything we need to be a little bit comfort 😅 The country, the forest aren't for everyone, they are hard, but the peaceful that you get there... priceless.

[@down-to-earth-mystery-school]

I grew up on a near off grid farm in Oregon. People don’t understand how physical this type of life is. Start very small, then grow it, rather than trying to make acres of property quickly developed. Farming is very hard work, that’s why food is so expensive.

[@samanthahoos9827]

I just took 9 days off work to enjoy my gardens, finish home fix ups and throw a birthday party for myself. It was lovely, recharged and today I’m going back to work. Dreams are great, plans are wonderful, but in the end we have to take care of ourselves. Be smart, relax and know that we are always here for you! 😊

[@teraengsf]

So happy you recognized the need to pause to slow down and rest I wish you and Pepe well. May you return to us fully restored.

[@cookingforthesoul-modernmystic]

I so relate to your story, been off grid for 2.5 yrs now. The body doesn't get any younger but my sense of impatience is still as youthful as ever. My to do list just keeps getting longer and some days I feel overwhelmed when the day I'm 'finished' seems to grow further away. It's been 10mths since our cabin was built and I am only now laying the flooring,. 3 winters in a caravan is rough yet we are so close to having more comfort, we haven't even started building our main house yet. From time to time the frustration erupts, delays with contractors, weeks of rain, the solar power playing up, family crisis' etc but it is getting easier to surrender, to not be so focused on results, to live in the moment, to be inspired by our achievements so far, and to be at peace and awe with the natural world. Apart from raising 3 wonderful human beings to adulthood this will be my magnus opus. I cannot fight against time and nature, and things out of my control. I look out my window at the rain and the garden turning wild and think it's a great time to meditate, rest, and plan.

[@thewriterstuff]

I am in awe of your journey. You are the poster child for tenacity and resilience.

[@arianne.nicole]

AGREE

[@camilamhf]

I hope that at some point in your journey, you'll find a lovely support community. Humans are not designed to live alone all the time, we are a tribe species. It's important to learn to ask for help, we don't have to do it all by ourselves all the time, even if we can do it. I hope you'll have all the help you need!

[@SaralinaLove]

Absolutely 💯 ❤❤❤ so critical, we all realize this!! We need each other. We are communal beings ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉

[@goldeneastzotywschod5882]

I can totally relate. Four years ago I moved to the land where my grandparents used to live. I have cleaned it, took down two old houses and build my strawbale house. I also started to work on another bulding to convert it into a meeting house. I have a small garden. I am interested in permaculture but did not have space to get into it. I was exhausted many times, fell to my knees many times but I am still going. And yes, life in the village is beautiful but it is also so full of everything else and so many things that I have done should not be done by a woman, especially that I went through severe neurological Lyme disease just before moving in. But life is what it is. And it is a gift and a miracle and our dreams are worth following. Much love to you sister

[@manuc1697]

Hello, Hope you don't mind toi much that i'm a bit out of contexte but you mentionnés lyme.. Could you Sare with me ( ,if you know ), wich test IS repliable. and if you healed , how was it possible.. I live in France and they dont take this very seriously,I think. Again,

[@Tasmetu]

I feel you so much! We have been renovating and trying to transform old cowpatches on the Azores and it has been *so hard* and yet everyone always thinks our life is so perfect. Romanticing it only works to a certain degree. Eventually you break. It broke both of us on every single level. Now we took half a year off of it all and now slowly I start to have the will to continue again. So I feel you in your pain, I truly do. If you ever need to talk to someone who has been in the same position, feel free to reach out. It is a lonely journey and barely anyone understands

[@lorraineyanez4301]

I just wanted a small garden and it's hard so I can only imagine a huge project. Romanticizing is exactly what we do.

[@Tasmetu]

@@lorraineyanez4301 Romanticizing also helps (I should have done more of that) - but only to a certain degree. At some point you have to face reality, especially when you are tackling multiple big projects at once. If you never rest and recharge, you will reach your limits :/

[@Sammiejammie521]

Why do you do it then? Wouldn’t it be better to change in a way that you can manage? Not just push yourself to the point of unhappiness

[@Tasmetu]

@@Sammiejammie521 Because the idea of having to be happy in your "dream life" 24/7 is so, so toxic and unrealistic. You can still stand in for your dream and fight for it while admitting that it is the hardest thing you ever had to go through. Humans are capable of doing hard things, of dealing with discomfort and pain to get the reward in the end. But what is very tiring (and I think this is what this video was partially about) is the pressure from outside to pretend like every step of the way is blissful and beautiful and full of joy when it sometimes really, really isn't. The world isn't black or white, good or bad. Real life and social media highlights rarely overlap. There are many layers in between. And you can know that you are on the right path and still struggle to take the next step. That's valid and I am glad more people are being honest about it.

[@saffanna725]

Are you selling up and going somewhere else? Or just taking time off from KZbin? It was a bit unclear to me.

[@jacquibarhouch8104]

I’ve realised the video titles lately are a bit more controversial / clickable but the content is total opposite, positive and lovely.

[@FiammaTortoli]

​@@jacquibarhouch8104 I don't think so. I think that the building of this house so big with so much cement, plastic, engineering complexity for two people is too much. This project is too big to be built with their only own strength. And in my opinion is so far from Eugenia's way of thinking, with her idea of life and sustainability. They put all of their energies on this house, but this not her project. Or perhaps she

[@FiammaTortoli]

Perhaps she had a different idea of what it would be like to build this house and now realize that this is not her dream, not the way of sustainability that she love to live.

[@saffanna725]

@@jacquibarhouch8104 I've noticed that too which is a bit confusing.

[@imogenspoor1701]

I thought she means it's the end of the dream because it's now becoming reality

[@justbynature]

The beauty you share through very skilled camera work and story telling is invaluable Eugenia, even if it wasn’t ever part of your calculated return on investment. The vibration of what you two have created here reach far beyond what is possible for you to perceive. You always share just the right amount of real life woes to remind us that it isn’t all a highlight reel, while still maintaining heaps of inspiration to us all and an overall positive channel that brings joy and comfort. As a small woman I completely get the frustration of having a physical limit-but even bigger dreams! It may be time to consider a creative approach to growing some community around your channel IRL, like taking on permaculture or construction live/work volunteers :) Because working a big piece of land with only two people, and maintaining regular jobs for income, is no simple task (as you have made clear). Your channel has been my absolute favorite since you started posting, actually the first thing I really liked on KZbin and showed another more beautiful way to use the platform. I appreciate all the work you have put in to sharing your journey. Wishing you 4 all the very best and look forward to your return if and when you choose ❤

[@phoebemackay3585]

Well said!

[@whatever2873]

It's so brave of you to make this video. I have also been going through a similar journey and I also resonate with your experience as a child. Ironically I think it is because of our childhood experiences that we are trying to get away and build a healthier and more wholesome home - because we did a lot of soul searching, and we are, dare I say, Hyper independent, which is a strength, but it also can be a big handicap, because as you mentioned, we find it hard to reach out to other people for help. It's important to see that such journeys can fail, and that I am not the only one. There isn't something wrong with me, I am just trying to do something difficult and it takes multiple attempts and different approaches, and to learn many lessons - this is my life.

[@ViolaLabi]

Thank you

[@lenoreball8798]

Have a peaceful rest! My garden in Muskoka, ON, Canada is also a great deal of work. Our soil is sand and must be amended each year, but I keep working on it, and it is now an enjoyable and peaceful place, producing much of our food in season and preserved for winter, which is quite a long winter here. But the lilacs are blooming, the bees are buzzing, and seedlings are growing; I can now begin to enjoy everything. This is our retirement home, and I have always gardened, but never have I put so much effort into growing our food. You have done so much to transform your land to usable space and I understand the effort. May it bring you great joy this year. Thank you for your lovely videos.

[@mifinedrefined7446]

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" is a false statement. What doesnt kill you will leave trauma in the body that you need to work thru to eventually become stronger.

[@joy2253]

I certainly agree that we must take care of ourselves and remember that we are not robots. We are beautiful human beings who need times of ebb and flow, times of work and rest . ❤

[@christinebeames712]

When people said that to me whilst on chemo , I felt like replying “ oh I hope you get a similar chance to get stronger “ I think they would have felt insulted , yet I was suppose to take it as support?

[@MAYK1NG]

❔Question: (roughly) What kind of financial investment does it take to buy land, develop an off grid garden and tiny home, build a big home. ❔Did you choose the drier half of Portugal because it was cheaper, because you couldn’t afford the other, wetter climate. ❔Can you speak Portuguese fluently or just enough to get by. Is it difficult to learn or because you already have the command of Spanish and English. ❔Hope this isint too personal but, what is it about your lifestyle choices that have made your family disapprove of.

[@charlottestocker5025]

Wishing full health and recovery to you and your beautiful cat . So true life isn’t always plain sailing and it’s through navigating the though times we learn about ourselves and hopefully find ways forward we maybe weren’t able to before . I love the work you two have managed to date , I’m glad you’re taking some time off for yourselves . Take care . Much love ❤

[@calindafleishman]

Hola Eugenia! I can hear from your narrative that you struggle so much in isolation. I think it is a false ideology to try to be "self-sufficient". Even if you could be self-sufficient, you still need the sunlight and rain, pollinators and air for your plants to grow so they can feed you -- one can't exist in complete independence. So my question for you is: would you consider seeking out community where you live so you can thrive more, in the essence of "co-sufficiency" instead of being so independent that you become physically and emotionally overwhelmed? Wishing you the very best on your beautiful journey.

[@Anna-qs5bt]

Ay Eugenia, hermana. Cómo tus palabras hablan de mí también. He pasado un año tremendo, sin querer hablar con nadie por no quejarme y vivir la cosa en soledad. Te entiendo perfectamente. Un abrazo grande.

[@greyandgutsy4629]

Eugenia, please keep us posted on Lolita's health. She is so special!

[@dianaschulz8101]

Eugenia, I love watching your videos. They touch my very soul, somehow. Although I never dreamed of living off the grid, planting and living off of what I plant, my life went completely in another direction. I served in the military and one of my assignments was in the Lajes Air Base, in the Azores - which to this day is among my favorite places that I have lived. I took an interest in your story, namely because of your location in Portugal, and the grit by which you and Pepe built your tiny house and your storage area - and came so far with those accommodations. The simplicity appeals to me, and being able to see and enjoy the work that one puts into their daily lives has always been very fulfilling to me. All those last words simply mean all of your efforts (put into the gardening and harvesting healthy foods to sustain you both) is not wasted on efforts with "no return". Then going even further by sharing you gardening experience and the recipes you have created yourself with us through your cook books etc, appears to me to be "life energy and time" not wasted. You can look at what you've done and been able to do so many things "with what you've done" for your benefit and for ours. I never minded hard work with my hands and my back, but truly it was because it was effort "not wasted" and something good was "created". So much of time today in a person's life (a very general statement, not meant to insult any of my fellow viewers lives...) seems to be non productive - and seems like it is time wasted. By the time we are old enough to realize that, we are too old to do much of anything that requires hard work that would result in such fulfillment. I only wish that I could be there as "moral support" for your strained emotional state - and "back support" for your exhausted physical condition. So with this note, I am determined to try and accomplish "some kind of support" that you may get from these words. I have my fingers crossed for you and Pepe! I am in awe of you both building your home and the plans and hard work it has demanded of you. I, as I am sure my fellow viewers are as well, rooting for you and Pepe and will continue to be with you in spirit and any other way we can help to see your "dreams" fulfilled. Love to you both and bless your dreams and accomplishments.

[@nicoeeek.7181]

What a gorgeous, spot on comment!

[@dianaschulz8101]

@@nicoeeek.7181 Thank you. I hope Euginia can feel the "love" like a band aid for her pains and loneliness. I never mentioned Lola in all those words I wrote the other day. I sincerely hope Lola is up and around being her "expressive" self soon. Thank you for your comment.

[@conniemerrell9855]

Thank you for your honesty and being genuine. We all go through our highs and lows in our lives. We know when we need to just slow down all we have to do is listen to ourselves. 🇨🇦❤️

[@YourGreenLady]

No questions just a big thank you ... thank you for sharing this vulnerable video ... I needed these beautiful words today as I am in a similar situation. So much love to you and your family 🥰

[@copperpenny0209]

Thank you for sharing your inspirational journey. There's nothing more important than taking care of ourselves.

[@jenniferward5216]

I am just a subscriber on KZbin and many times for my own sanity I have to take a break from some You Tubers away from all the negativity. I have 3 autoimmune diseases and this comes with anxiety and don't need the extra mental burdens so I stay away from them for some time. I have a nasty habit of internalizing the problems of others and that is the worst and toxic burden to bare. I love your spirit and determination and honesty. Be well and whole❤

[@isabelmatias7966]

EUGENIA desejo as melhoras. Do vosso cansaço e as melhoras da Lolita . vocês merecem .muito vosso trabalho é devido ao grande esforço e luta parabéns ❤❤

[@99ways2tarot]

Thank you for sharing. I totally understand. Stay well...

[@nguday2003]

Love your content from California!

[@MariaVargas-kc1cg]

Wow! I remember finding your videos when your just started and admired your drive and I STILL do! You will achieve in anything, even if you feel like you failed, you inspired so many!

[@margaritakitane2207]

Sending hugs to you from Manila Philippines 🇵🇭 you deserve a break God bless you.

[@reecityfarmette9292]

Thank you for sharing your hardships. Everything you do is so beautiful and looks effortless for you. Love that you are sharing the truth behind the beauty you create.

[@MarMarti1780]

Thank you for this video Eugenia! I really needed it, I hope you get your time to rest and recover 🤍 Much love to Lolita as well in her recovery!

[@ankeetapatel3137]

How far is the new house to the new garden? Could you maybe show us a Ariel view of the distance? I am so curious because the food forest is going to look incredible! ❤

[@michelewynn9140]

You are one of the reasons I work so hard on my garden beds. I see the beautiful food that you make and all the beautiful flowers. Thanks for your wonderful videos.

[@port-pharillon]

Thank you for all your videos. When life is hard, I play on of this, and begin to do some work in the garden, in the house, on my own business... And I remember everyone choose one way of life, and sometimes, it's not exactly the same as the picture on the social media. Thank you for sharing many sides of the consequences of your choice.

[@ulrikereisenauer6895]

Dear Eugenia you are such a strong and inspiring woman! Im about to start a garden on a hillside in a deserty region of Mexico. Im a bit afraid of my project! 😅 But you are my inspiration❤. Its good that you take a break and don’t get trapped in the chase of “likes” and “subscriptions” for your channel and rather take care of your health. I hope to see you again here...Love you and wish you all the happiness and success!

[@jackiedamico8236]

Building a home with four hands by yourselves AND turning all of that land into a workable space is a tremendous on-taking. I don't know anyone who could have done what both of you have. Your tiny house and land already working is quite impressive and beautiful in itself. Is this close to your new property? I am so impressed by your hard work and perseverance. Whatever your decisions are, they are yours and yours alone. Thank you for sharing so much of your life with your subscribers and patreon and lots of prayers to you, your husband and your beautiful animals.

[@francescawollaston2227]

Dearest Eugenia, You are braver than you know, stronger than you think and more loved than you will ever know ❤…… thank you for sharing your journey. Life is not easy but we all do the best we know how. Just know one thing……..YOU ARE ENOUGH! Sending you all lots of love and light and a special healing for little Lolita 🐱 big arms around you , Francesca xxx ❤❤💐💐

[@macynthiamagbanua6522]

You and Pepe have always inspired me to think that all is possible so long as we , to borrow' Pepe's words, " show up everyday". Your realization that you can only do so much is so grounding and uplifting and I wish you only the best. The honesty and ability to face things squarely is I think the by- product of your grit and daily showing up. Please rest up and give your bodies the much needed time to recover. I look forward to seeing you again re-charged and better versions of yourselves. God Bless you and Pepe.

[@almadennis8596]

@eugenia diaz Jesus is the way, the truth and the life…Matthew 11:28 NKJV - Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

[@ester_cac]

Eugenia, your videos are always a happy moment on my Sunday evenings. Seeing all the hard work that you and Pepe are putting into making your dreams come true, it's inspiring! But hard work also requires hard resting sometimes, and that is so easily forgotten about. So, take your time to get well and come back when you feel it's time. We'll be here, as always. I hope Lolita gets better soon! I'm sending you love from Brazil

[@isabelmatias7966]

Amo seus vídeos suas flores são lindas. EUGENIA PODE DIZER ONDE COMPRA SUAS SEMENTES OBRIGADA PARABÉNS PELO EXCELENTE TRABALHO. ❤❤

[@karenfunez93]

Eugenia, I’ve never seen any of your videos. This is my first and I must say I am beyond happy to have stumbled upon your channel. The way you express yourself and the honesty is beautiful. I am going to binge watch your videos! Thank you for your content and sharing your life with us. I hope your cat (Lola?) gets well soon ❤

[@elisaa9981]

Women have worked hard with their bodies doing manual labor for thousands of years and it has been imperative for the survival of human kind. That you couldn't do isn't explained by you being a woman. Just look around here on KZbin snd you'll find plenty of women on homesteads and elsewhere doing tough manual labor. It's true that men easier build muscle mass, but it's also about endurance. You're telling your story and this wasn't for you, and that's just fine. Thank you for sharing. But please don't lean on backwards conceptions about feminine delicacy that throws us back a century or two.

[@thelordlovesyou.777]

Ihave been feeling this also. You spoke it very well. i noticed dreams and aspirations are good, but nothing is good without living a life completely surrendered to Christ Jesus

[@sibi5991]

Thanks for the truth behind the courtains. I go through something similar as these days I got forced to stop and look around rather than staying in the mind. I decided to enjoy the reality and not the idealization. At least I try. Much light to Lolita . I hope she will be recovering soon.

[@cookysmith5215]

Eugenia, I’m praying for Lolita. And for you and Pepe. You know, we’re here to learn and teach. Not to do things perfectly. And learning and teaching you both arre very well. 🌻

[@irmagranger7148]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. This is real life and I found your honesty very refreshing. Take care of yourself and Lolita. I look forward to your next video.

[@LeaveMyCatAlone]

Beautiful work. This is why I believe a version of a commune is what works for those of us trying to be off grid and be like the pioneers of yesteryear. I think if you have companions on your land with the same philosophy it would work. Thank you for sharing all your experiences. It’s been lovely. ❤

[@Meanderinghomestead]

Thank you for this video! I have been struggling with these feelings as well. It isn’t easy doing physical work all the time. Telling myself to do more and to stop being lazy. Trying to do too much and being disappointed when my body can’t handle it. Starting a homestead or farm by yourself and from nothing is too much. I have been working for 3 years and still am disappointed with my progress. Thank you for saying what you did! Maybe I can allow myself to let go of some of the things and rest. I wish you all the best!

[@Cynthia-sg3yc]

I just started my farm. I understand that I can't do it alone, so I do what I can. I am an older person and I have a full time job. Allow yourself to rest.

[@walterbettencourt6142]

What a great inspirational message. Thank you, >

[@roxanaanielaoroian5245]

I really appreciate your authenticity. My question for you is how do you build resilience to frustration? As practical tools and methods you are using. Best of luck with all upcoming challenges, a warm hug, thank you so much for the inspiration and health to Lolita.

[@fabjustfab3264]

My partner and I built a house in Romania, the roof is on it, and all the underground work is finished. We were so burnt out we moved to Japan. It’s still there, being used as a barn

[@sheisofthewoods]

The hardest thing for humans is the acceptance of our own limitations & realizing that limitations aren't failures.

[@maryegerton6848]

Are you leaving? What are you done with. I don’t get it.

[@MarMarti1780]

Have you watched the video? It's pretty well explained 🤔

[@almostthere.]

Being off grid shes taking some time off

[@spiritdancing7311]

You were/are my Wonder Woman/Hero… I to am following my dream… It is sort of a different dream then yours…however… Your sharing your life with me/us…has been instrumental in making the following of my dream so much more “easy” and palatable… You lived your challenged dream with such beauty, love, eloquence and tenacity, it helped me to inspire the same for me….AND….for this… I want to thank you from the bottom to the top of my heart…THANK YOU…. Also…thank you for recording your journey….as I will refer back to your KZbin postings when I need to lean on your story for support… My prayers and intentions go with and to you where ever you are/go…. You are a Wonder Woman and a diamond… Be good to you and all of your beloveds….know you are loved… Spiritdancing….🥰🥰💞💞😇😇💯💯

[@madelynsclosets]

What beautiful heartfelt words that especially for me and many many women hear so deep. Wow! We survive and are soooo strong but takes great self reflection and honesty to get to a place of healing and time for your self. I'm so proud of you that you are doing this at your young age. I say this because i feel your words are the thread of my life going going going, work work work at my age of 64. And just now this year I left my job to choose another path. My path...with no judgement ...releasing 'The Dream State" of my life to live in truly the present of my feelings. It's almost like going back to being a little girl when I felt so free and easy and happy for the day. So to you Eugenia I say...God Bless your time. Nurture yourself and Pepe and your animals. But most of all give yourself time to just be YOU. YOU TIME! xo with love, Madelyn

[@beverlycharleston6107]

👏👏👏👏👏👏💕

[@anyagee9467]

So sharing the struggles is totally okay and even encouraged. If anything you may have mislead others into the same dream. Also it seems like you didn't do your research about the land before moving there. Finally, this kind of project needs to be done in community. There are many things that went wrong that could have been prevented with some basic research.

[@terranicia1]

Thank you so much for your honesty and vulnerability! It's been a pleasure watching your journey over the years. In terms of questions, I'm wondering given what you now know about the process of building your own home and becoming self-sufficient is there anything you would do differently or plan to change/do differently moving forward? Also, given the demands of your garden(s) and home build, how will you make sure to put yourself and your care first so that you don't burn out? I find your journey so inspiring and am grateful for your willingness to share. Wishing you all great health and a speedy recovery! ❤

[@gypsygirl1291]

I liked the sharing of your struggles. It's a good reminder ton not compare on what we see. I hope you will rest well ❤

[@joyslove3858]

Clean clothes while gardening and farming 🤣🤔

[@tinabailey4083]

Take care of you. Thank you for being inspirational to so many❤️

[@susanasilva5319]

Thank you so much for your vulnerability! I wish Lolita recovers really fast! Sendíng you all my love and humbling reminding you that we can always follow a different path when things don’t go as exepected. It is not giving up it is having a break and choosing comfort to feel energized and look at things from a different perspective! Thank you for sharing❤

[@juliaulrich68]

I am sorry to hear about your struggles, Eugenia. To maybe make you feel better... After I saw your content, I got in contact with the most wonderful therapist with betterhelp and was able to tweek my life into a better direction. Dreams aren´t always easy... and some dreams are so wonderful, that it might be enough to dream about. But I feel the urge of coming over and helping you guys with building your house. If you ever need some support... without knowing each other... feel free to reach out. Dreamers must dream together! Stay strong!

[@driddle4685]

With True Grit and Amazing Grace you’ve shown us that dreams do come true with hard work. Now this new season is the lesson in the PAUSE from Doing, you are blessed in the moment of Being. The present is the gift in Life’s Lessons & Blessings🙏🏽 I see a new chapter! You are not going, you’re growing, and I’ve saved this video for the beauty in Surrendering…… Thank you for these experiences, and much Love & Light to you and yours💜

[@hance2601]

The most beautiful things in life are not things. They are moments of joy, love, and connection with the people around us. The beauty of nature, the kindness of strangers, and the feeling of achieving a personal goal are also some of the most beautiful things in life. Just keep going Eugenia.... No one can stop you hugs🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@dm.b7560]

If you are done, is because you did it alone.

[@lkonny9200]

I am so happy you are talking about this. Not many people say how difficult and exhausting it can be. This year we have reduced our veggie green to about half as we are working on the house as well as working full time, so I don’t have enough time or energy as I had last year. Eventually when the house is done it will get better again and we will have time for the things we enjoy but that will be in a few years.

[@Orientalbackyardgarden]

Beautiful Eugenia, wherever you go...stay the little girl with dreams 🎈🎈🌸🌺🌹🎈🎈 Love from Melissa

[@creativekimberly110]

Thank you for sharing your story and vulnerability. I’m rooting for you and wishing you all the best. 💕

[@ShannonHassouneh-gg9gn]

Absolutely beautiful- thank you for sharing your experiences- enjoy your time off-

[@sarahp3676]

I wish you peace during this time and sending you big hugs for strength and contentment. I would love to know more about your journey leading up to buy ing your land and settling where you are... What really led you to want to live in the country the way you do. xo Much healing love to you all.

[@worksofhands]

This video was recommended after I watched reports about climate warming. I guess it's the best to make indoor gardening, is that an option?

[@susanwenger2126]

Sending brilliant light for healing for Lolita, your little fur Goddess. I love her onesie! I might be behind what is currently happening so I am hoping all is healing for her, and for your body and soul and heart Eugenia. You have such courage. I love how your are continuing to evolve and allowing the land to be a guide and talisman for your beautiful journey. Deep gratitude for all you and Pepe do. And your fur babes

[@inspired9239]

What a beautiful message for this wonderful video, Eugenia! Those of us that have gone through life-altering challenges in life and came out stronger because of them, we certainly understand your message loud and clear. For me, it was late-stage 3 cancer. And for those of us who are now stronger, we face new challenges, one of them being to tolerate the weakness of others and hope they can hear the messages we're sending to them, although I'm not convinced they do so much, not to the same depths as we understand. It's like you have to actually experience the tough times in order to become tougher. For that, I'm truly thankful. My heart goes out to Lolita because animals can't understand. They truly are victims when bad things happen to them. She's in the best of hands and because of it will come through beautifully. 🙏Prayers for Lolita.🙏

[@gabrielleszafir]

I really relate to your experience - I make KZbin videos in a similar spirit as you and just finished a huge project of renovating my first little "tiny home" - how you described how you have felt having to put yourself last while tending to the hundreds of things that you have to do and how it affects your whole well being after a while, that was also me. I really hope you can take the time and space you need to tend to your self! We also have foxtail grass here and it is the absolute worst!! I am so sorry for your precious kitty - may she heal rapidly! Sending love from my little corner of the world to yours kindred spirit friend

[@kgold5962]

Thank you for sharing your struggles. We must always try to keep a good balance of work and rest. If we don't then we can burnout. May God bless you in your work and in all you do.

[@anitarodriguez-rudell2211]

Thank you for letting me into your journey. I hope you and your cat get feeling better and heal. It's been fun watching what you both have created and it doesn't look easy. Blessing and hugs from Michigan.

[@LebenskompetenzForum]

I feel so much with you. I also nearly went into a "Garden Burnout" trying to be self sufficient. One day I realized, this is no one woman show. This could only work with a supporting team which I did not really have. So I woke up to reality and downsized the project a lot. Now I am happy because in the meanwhile I found out that a lot of my unique talents do not lie in gardening, but it was hard and tearful to bury this dream of being selfsufficient. All the best to you and take care! Love, Christina from Austria

[@CraigAnderson-h2h]

I did it, when young, decades ago. One thing I learned is that it is very difficult to become self sufficient. I realized just how hard my cousins had worked on their family farm, from dawn to dusk while I was in the suburbs. You have to have the habits, discipline and many skills to face all the challenges living off grid brings!

[@evies_home]

Hello Evgeniya I have been watching your videos for the second day, which I had no time to watch before, and I like everything very much. Thank you for your creativity!❤

[@taisha_music]

dearest eugenia, you are such a precious human being ❤️ thank you for your honesty and insights which you share with us all. please take as much time and space as you want and need for yourself and your dearest ones (sending prayers and love to lolita! ❤️) and for nurturing your own soul and body and mind and giving yourself rest, you are a gift to us all! :) my question for your Q&A would be: what kind of brand of electrolytes are you using in the morning? can you say something about it? :) thank you so much! 🙏🏽 sending sunrays of love to you and your family and your home! :)

[@ellenzamboim9134]

Olá Eugenia! Perdoe-me por escrever em português... Sou brasileira e não domino muito o inglês. Mas gostaria que soubesse que encontrei seu canal por acaso, há algum tempo atrás. E desde então se tornou uma grande, enorme inspiração para mim. Tenho um pequeno jardim e horta e duas filhas pequenas a quem eu espero ensinar sobre o que é verdadeiramente o mundo, e seus vídeos muito me inspiraram. Obrigada por partilhar suas experiências aqui conosco. Desejo melhoras, sinceramente.

[@cleonawallace376]

I must admit sometimes I have not watched your videos because you seemed to have everything so under control, and it just made me feel inadequate as my own dream is slow and chaotic! We are in Italy, and I struggle between keeping all our plants alive in the intense heat, working full time, two kids, and a weedy patch of about 9 acres which are 15 minute drive from our home. Your project seemed so beautiful and that you had brought it all to life in an incredibly short time, while we are making the slowest of progress... but you do need that time to rest and recover. Self sufficiency is a journey, and also our bodies and minds do have limitations on what we can do, that don't always match up to our dreams. So despite the title you are continuing with the project? I think it seems a good idea to take some time to rest... do you have sulphur springs near you? We are lucky to have a very simple one locally where the water comes out at 15 degrees, and we try to go at least a few times a week as it is the most healing and regenerative experience. Wishing you lots of self care healing xxxx

[@anansue]

Hi Eugenia! Beautiful video, I hope you recover soon and I love that you are putting your health first over youtube. Maybe a meetup with some of your subscribers could cheer you up? I'm in Madrid if you ever want to do it here but I am happy to go to Portugal. I wish you well and hope Lolita recovers soon. Un abrazo!

[@danettegallaher8493]

🙏🐾….🙏❤️🌟🌸

[@guelkaratas5164]

Thank you ❤ this video was so heartly

[@sweetelements]

Thats why we should not look at other people's life online and think all it's perfect as they mainly show perfect moments ... trying to live "off grid" its a hard work not for everyone .. Good luck to you !

[@graceful-shakti9019]

Its amazing what you and Pepe have created by yourselves. I think what has worn you down, is the overwhelming amount of responsibilities that you have. Most people build a house with a crew you don't have a crew. Being a woman has nothing to do with your need to surrender, being exhausted has everything to do with it. What do you and Pepe do for fun?