Ever Felt

[@helenmerrigancolfer6942]

In the last 41.52 mins I've just listened to the last 50 years of my own constant internal narrative... The utter relief to know that I'm not alone in being wired this way is wonderful! Lockdown was a joy for me & if possible the country coming out of Lockdown was like a time of immense mourning for me... I constantly have to repeat the words 'its not about me' to foece myself to go outside the door if I have to turn up at some event...time spent at any social affair (even with just one person) is always a build up of dread, what to say, how to look, stand, even down to practicing facial expressions because I used to 'grin' as a child/teenager when I felt awkward & was constantly given out to for my inappropriate response to situations...being in the social situation itself there's always that internal dialogue going on while I'm trying to pretend to act natural & confident...fighting the thought of escape, watching for that moment when I can leave but also can't stop the nervous low level inane rubbish spilling out of my mouth trying to fill the void, trying to say the right thing, trying to stop the other person from having that time to judge me in silence... Sometimes I say far too much, let too much truth fall out while other times I'm completely mute... I am polar opposite depending on while way the wind is blowing... Then the aftermath, the self judgement when I remember all the absolute crap that fell out of my mouth, those times I turned the other way to avoid someone, those times I should've turned the other way to avoid but didn't...the feeling like lve managed to loose yet more people who might've thought that I was 'nice' or 'normal'... How good does it feel to not feel alone in feeling all of this! Thank you so much Lorna & to those others brave enough to speak out! 🙌✨👏👏👏🤗🥰

[@LornaMQuinn]

Thank you so much for your generous words and honest sharing Helen. I am so glad that you have found strength, comfort, reassurance and support in Ever Felt - It definitely helps to know that you are not alone : ) Your words will also help so many - Thank you! ❤Lorna xx

[@eddiemcgovern5352]

Fantastic Lorna! Honest and brave.

[@LornaMQuinn]

Thank you so much Eddie : )❤️

[@geraldinepoet5292]

Thank you for this, it's like you reached into my life and scattered me like a spread of playing cards, I always feel like I'm not interesting, not funny, not enough. Shops are my nightmare. This is such a good thing you have produced... Big love to you ❤️💯

[@LornaMQuinn]

Thank you Geraldine for your very kind and generous words : ) I am so glad that 'Ever Felt' spoke to you in the way that it has. You are certainly not alone in the sentiments you express : ) Big love to you too ❤️Lorna : ) xx

[@rdhickey]

Amazing, Lorna. So brave and so brilliantly done. The video is incredibly articulate and heartfelt and while upsetting to watch is so honest. Wow!

[@LornaMQuinn]

Thank you very much Ronan : ) Thank you for taking the time to watch 'Ever Felt'. I greatly appreciate it, and your kind and generous words also. Thank you : ) ❤️

[@nick-ly6nk]

Thank you Lorna, so much of that rings true. Just hearing 'eating in front of people' took me to an awful place and my coping was often four of five pints to transform myself into someone worthy of the company of others at that 'social lunch'. Congratulations on 'Ever Felt' - it's great to see something like this raising a bit of awareness :)

[@LornaMQuinn]

Thank you so much for your message Nick : ) I hope by watching 'Ever Felt' you know you're not alone in those insecurities, and I also hope you have reached a place in your life where you know you ARE worthy of the company of others : ) Thank you so much again for your message of support Nick. I greatly appreciate it : )❤️

[@grainnelord6594]

Thank you so much. Came across this. Really real and brave. So honest true and helpful. Thank you for your honesty x

[@LornaMQuinn]

Thank you so much for your message Grainne : ) And also, for taking the time to watch 'Ever Felt'. I am so glad you found it helpful - That is important to me : ) Reading your words is very reassuring - Thank you!❤️

[@grainnelord6594]

Thank you Lorna. Really meant it x

[@LornaMQuinn]

Thank you Grainne : ) xx