Experiencing Anxiety at the Mall.. **breakdown warning** Vlogmas Day 18. Niki DeMar

[@lindseyscammell1431]

I really don't think people watch you're vlogs or main channel videos because they want "perfection"....they watch them because of you and your personality. Noone is perfect....and that just makes you relatable. Merry Crimbo xxx

[@latasialovely7647]

Girl you stressing about Christmas shopping last minute meanwhile I’m stressing bc I can’t afford anything for anyone 😂

[@nikidiys5659]

Don’t be stressed Niki we love u!

[@vivamcc2491]

Niki, don’t be so hard on yourself...your such a beautiful person that you shouldn’t be bringing yourself down!!!! Just know that we all are behind you, and whether or not the video is good or bad, we will just all be grateful that YOU put in the effort to edit it and get it up for us!!!

[@bellar.9915]

Your the only KZbinr I know who usually doesn't vlog much and has actually kept going with vlogmas! YOU ROCK

[@niapg.1358]

you are doing great!! take a deep breath, we all love you niki!!

[@Alexziaa]

Niki, tbfh your editing / videos you do for all the platforms, yours, yours and Gabi’s is phenomenal, you have to remember that we’re your viewers and we appreciate your hard work, we see it , and I feel like the videos are always edited so well anyways, you need to chill, I feel like you’re super anal with everything you do! Give yourself more credit and just breathe and know that we’ll love the videos regardless because you’re you & Gabi is gabi!

[@luccx8032]

Yesssss preach💞💞💞💞

[@swatisorenart]

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[@PinkLove961]

Girl i just wrote my last (college) exam this semester so i completely feel you on the break down thing. Just listened to your and Gabi's episode on shane's podcast (yes it was a while ago :p ) and i just wanted to share that I'm one of those subscribers who grew up with you guys and I stopped watching you guys for a couple years when i felt like i grew out of your content. But I've been loving seeing more of the authentic "grown up" version of you on your vlog channels and occasionally on your main channel! I get that the transition can be hard so I just wanted to share that y'all are awesome just being yourselves and there are tons of people out there (like me!!) who are here for it!! happy holidays :)

[@heathere7772]

Love when you vent to us! I love that you show that you're not perfect! Thank you for doing vlogmas!

[@chloehill6321]

Love the fact you've managed to do vlogmas this year Niki xx

[@jocelyn9494]

aw love you Niki. we appreciate all that you do for both of your channels. your hard work pays off for sure

[@crystalfeliz93]

Niki you’re amazing. We don’t expect you to be perfect. That’s not realistic. Your doing the best you can at everything and we all appreciate the time and effort you put into stuff. I love you and I hope everything that’s bothering you or stressing you out turns out great.

[@GoldieSixer202]

This felt more real. We love you, Niki. 💘💘💘

[@simoneacote]

Try not to stress! You are such a hard worker, it will all be great in the end. I am loving vlogmas!

[@livingroomutube262]

awee please don’t stress niki it isn’t worth it i love uuuu i hope u have a happy New Years i love uu 💙

[@nancytang6087]

niki, your blogs are perfect already. It is imposible to be 100% perfect because we are all humans. Just do your best and all your real fans will support you no matter what. We are here because of you as a person. A little mistake won't matter to us because we know your essence and your good vibes. Good luck

[@stellabrown8228]

Niki looked soooo good in this vlog with her outfit, new bangs, hair color, makeup

[@tracyreina21]

The bangs look amazing.. And the bun with the bangs even more!! 💜

[@DIYluva]

It'll all be okay!

[@myuhhmaya2613]

Don't let it get you down, girl. You are literally slaying everything you do, and if you have a bad day every once in a while that's okay too. Love you Niki!!!!

[@n4jmaaaa]

Don’t be stressed out girlfriend!! We Love You Niki

[@thedailyhunters9602]

Xxnajijixx Lilly Hi, hope you don’t mind subscribing to me? My 2017 goal was to hit 1k. 🥀

[@n4jmaaaa]

Miss Clare of course I will subscribe but what’s your KZbin name?

[@n4jmaaaa]

I went and subscribed! I love your channel

[@jessicalawrence8573]

stay strong niki you ARE sslaying vlogmas AND the main channel with Gabi

[@alainap7530]

Niki STOP!!!!! You’re freaking perfect.💓

[@tx2845]

Niki you actually need to stop vlogmas. Ngl, your daily videos making my whole week so so so so much better. My faveourite part of the day when i sit down at the night all cozy and watch vlogmas, but when it comes to that point wehn you are not comfortable making these videos, i dont care about myself. I want you to have a break in vlogmas, please do it for us. You need it. It breaks my heart watching these videos knowing that it makes you stressed. And i know the biggest reason for you to not quit vlogmas is bc you dont like to lose. But sometimes you had to admit that you taking this way too far. I love you so much and i hope you take this advixe from me. iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

[@Ego-de4dt]

Grace DeMar ???

[@tx2845]

Your Ego what? Xxx

[@GalStudent]

OMG NIKKI DONT BE SO STRESSED WE LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT!!!😄

[@deontoms1]

I honestly think you shouldn’t care if it’s a rubbish video I feel like we’ll all love it! Just don’t stress about the video so much I’m sure it’ll still be a great video! Don’t work yourself up we all love you & gabi !! ❤️ xx

[@Farah-ss4hj]

Nikiii be easy on urself, we understand that the lighting and editing cant always be perfect and we're completely fine with that, we love u and Gabi a lotttt and we dont want you to stress. And besides, no matter how the lighting or editing looks, your BEAUTIFULLL FACE IS STILL UP THERE AND THATS ENOUGH FOR US HAHAHA 😍❤️❤️ We love u loads, take care of urself xoxo

[@madisonnichole8044]

Don't be stressed girl! We love you and nobody gets everything perfect all the time. Everything will be okay. We appreciate everything you do for us fans and theres no way id ever stop watching your videos. Your beautiful, have great style, and a fun personality. I remember watching some of the very first videos you and Gabi ever uploaded and have been hooked since.

[@daradiaz5652]

Love you girl, keep doing you. Love you seeing so happy with Nate and mostly happy with yourself.

[@Juliezeneth]

Dara Díaz 💙

[@vickislays9605]

It’s okay your makeup will always be perfect

[@sheymoti]

niki keep calm, we don’t like to see you in that way! there’s always be people saying that you guys are not enough, haters will always be there. i understand the fact that you want everything done and well, but we appreciate A LOT all the work that you and gabi put in it. you are doing vlogmas with all your heart and we all know that sometimes can be f*cked up and gabi have her own solo endeavors (like u) and sometimes is hard to do everything. but we love u guys

[@arreonline]

Does Gabi ever help edit because it seems like you're the only one who stresses out and puts hard work in on that channel...

[@mcgil8891]

Arre Lashai ikr

[@Ray-bz6po]

Arre Lashai she said in another video that Gabi has asked to edit but niki said no no it's fine. And stuff like that because she's a perfectionist. But I can see what your saying

[@Userc3393]

No not rlly but don’t blame it on gabi niki agrees to do it’s just anxiety pls don’t blame it on gabi

[@roseabedmusa8576]

We love you!! You don’t have to be stressed. Btw, you look stunning with and without makeup

[@aseeltalouli5635]

Niki, I wish I could reach through the screen right now and hug you. Please don't stress yourself out

[@aneibyd8513]

We love the content you upload for us no matter how the quality is or the video overall :) don’t worry about it 👍🏻🙌🏼always be there for you

[@bobbartek327]

Awww poor Niki just know we all love you

[@MariahMacDonald]

Shout out to the boyfriends for putting up with us at stores and making us feel better when we get stressed out at the mall! I definitely had the same thing happen this year, you’re not alone!!

[@kiulanitaimani6885]

Aww Niki! We wish you’d be easier on yourself, trust me we know how hard you work on your channels. We’ll be around on your off days 😊💕

[@rws4301]

Niki it's okay the vlog was great and we're all here for you, we support you and we always will 💙💙

[@amanim7ajne4]

NIKI!! you are so beautiful, creative, and such an amazing person.. So i think you should trust yourself MOREEE. We all love your beautiful soul. And i actually follow you and watch your videos because you are so natural 💖..

[@rosa-mr9xu]

Don’t be stressed!!! The editing is amazing on your video’s and I know I’m not the only one who appreciates it ❤️❤️

[@Ego-de4dt]

Yay! keep going THATS YOUR PERFECTIONISM SNEAKING IN! I'm sure the video is great! You're slaying. Keep going girl xo everyone is LOVING all these videos

[@noemarie8]

niki i appreciate your efforts to make everything great on your youtube channels and i don’t think you should feel pressured to be perfect because your true fans love you for you and that’s all that matters. ♥️♥️♥️

[@ryleeann9964]

All your videos are perfect Niki, don't stress, we love you❤️

[@morganroberts7636]

you ARE sleighing vlogmas! sending lots of love and positivity to you nikki!! take your time and do whats best for you xx

[@ireneshomali9382]

It’s okay niki we love u❤️

[@thedailyhunters9602]

Irene Shomali Hi, hope you don’t mind subscribing to me? My 2017 goal was to hit 1k. 🥀

[@DropsOfJupit3r]

I think it goes without saying that your fans love you for you, and would watch your content regardless! We are always our own worst critics. Don't be so hard on yourself. ❤❤ You do amazing work.

[@LifeWithKristen]

Don't stress Niki! Just do what you can, I know it's hard and you want to upload a perfect video that your proud of but just take this as a lesson and learn from it. Regardless I'm sure you will continue to upload amazing content even if this one isn't your favourite😊

[@elizabethnotti7733]

Niki don’t worry! Your makeup in that video looked beautiful and you are such a caring person. Who cares if you couldn’t get this one to come out how you pictured. The thought is what counts and we are still proud of you!! Love you xo. Stay strong and please de stress 💙

[@annikajanae6]

Niki, you are doing amazing!!! I totally understand being a perfectionist but just know that you are amazing and doing incredible!!!

[@Maria-992]

i love you for being genuine

[@MoonChild-yd3ez]

We love you Niki dont stress out 😘❤

[@fangirl-hi5th]

My mom is making me do chores and niki uploads so i stop what i am doing hide under the bed to watch

[@nadiaaaaa]

I guess you DO have a reason to stress out, unlike other people saying you shoulda stress, I think this is your job and your creations and I get how you totally wished they were perfect and it's not something you just do again, it takes a lot of work to do a video once. Just take it as it is, leanr and move on, that's all there is to do in these situations, it's like delivering a homework you are not proud of but still you have a due date so it is what it is. Sending you a big hug!; ❤️

[@kennedyw9743]

Nikki’s hair is always so cute! She can seriously pull of any cut and any color. I’m forever jealous

[@DC-MarvelGirl1997]

Don't worry about the main channel Niki even though it doesn't look the way that you want it to, we are still going to love it and enjoy it. Anything makeup related I love so I am really excited for the main channel video. I can only guess it's the one related to Kylie Cosmetics because Gabi mentioned it in a vlog she posted. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@giette832]

Your videos doesn't always have to be perfect we just love to see you and wait for Christmas with you!☺🎅

[@8MsSunshine]

but that is why I love watching your videos, you are down to earth and not afraid to admit when things aren't going perfect- because no one is perfect!

[@liv5776]

Don’t beat yourself up Niki. You can only do so much. You always put in such hard work. Not every is going to be your best and that’s ok.Love you 💙

[@AliGiavanni]

Sending you positive vibes!

[@liadobec7299]

Niki you cried..are u ok? You know people love you not cause of the lightening in your main channel videos but cause of who you are: your personality,... we all love you and no matter what choices you're going to make in the future we will support you ALWAYS❣

[@katjavestergaard489]

Don't be too hard on yourself girl. I just enjoy seeing YOU. Hugs 😘

[@Primroseonfire]

Love you Niki❤ we support you always, i'm pretty sure the video is going to be really cool, don't worry!!

[@oladoci9477]

I feel u nikki,take ur time girl

[@nictheredhead7787]

Also dont stress I'm sure the video will still be amazing 😍😍

[@ItsDiannah]

Niki is so pretty. Like a natural, pale skin, chill, gorgeous type of pretty. She's gorgeous !!!

[@NikiVarga]

We love you Niki, no matter what, it's okay that you're feeling the pressure, but don't forget that we're standing by your side always

[@LoveLeopardDoll]

Niki your vlogmases are definitely my fave this year! You’re the only person who I’ve watched everyday! 💙❄️

[@kristinadj1018]

samee, shes so real and dgaf whether shes aesthetically pleasing or funny or whatever, shes just herself,i love it

[@SilahMaeWorld]

Coming this far from VLOGMAS , I give you credit girl 😍💕.

[@evilhag8792]

It's okay Niki, everyone has problems sometimes. We know you tried really hard and we appreciate it!❤️

[@charlottewahlert2775]

Niki no matter what we’ll support you! I️ love you so much girly❤️

[@user-ws4cc9dq7j]

I love how raw your vlogs are. wasn't feeling too good today cuz I had a fight with my mom. I can't wait until I can move out so I can just date who I want to. But realistically that's not really possible because it's really hard to save up etc. plus I'm from Britain so our economy isn't too well. ok now I'm just ranting a sob story. sorry x

[@kristinadj1018]

sorry to hear that, but still thats your mom, I'm sure she has better intentions for you than yourself even. One day you'll realize she meant no harm

[@jazielo9814]

It must be kind of weird having so many people say how much they love you but honestly watching all of your videos for the last almost 4 years now I can truly say I feel like your my best friend lol idk you’ll probably never read this but thanks for your videos, thanks for your time and your character. God bless you Niki ♥️

[@charleagenrich1227]

Niki! Don’t be so hard on yourself! The effort you put into your vlogs and main channel videos is amazing and don’t worry about what the haters say about you. I love you sooo much and I’m certain that what you do and your effort for KZbin is absolutely incredible. Also, your editing is on point! 💗😍

[@baileywocks6179]

Notification Squad where you at????? Love you Niki 💙💙

[@fatimaiqbal2591]

Niki... Please don't give a shit just post whatever you filmed because I literally love whatever you post whether the lighting is good or not or whatever the issue is.... ily♥♥

[@michelleleigh7200]

Omg girl I am right there with you. I hate Christmas shopping! And I get super stressed at times too. I'm glad someone vlogs the real holiday stress! It's relatable!

[@fatimaramirez9123]

Kind of sucks that you do all the editing for you and gabi’s channel

[@mcgil8891]

Fatima Ramirez ikr

[@bobbartek327]

We don't mind if your video isn't perfect! We just love you guys and want you to be happy!!!

[@hartofgold1022]

Love you, Nikki!❤️

[@pandicorn1177]

I loooveee you so much Niki!!! 💙💙❤️❤️

[@vkerr4567]

Don't worry Niki I'm a perfectionist too! Don't beat yourself up over a video which the majority of the people watching it will be in awe of how beautiful and talented u are NOT the lighting or how it looks! U have to experience a bad time to appreciate the good ones💓🔥

[@milkytea1193]

Love you Nikki! And the holidays are always very stressful so I feel your pain. Really enjoying vlogmas this year tho❤️💕☺️

[@JennsCrazyLife]

YAS AUNTIE ANNES IS LIFE

[@reginagretano2517]

I’m sure the video will be amazing as always. ❤️

[@lilyabbott4351]

Early an notif squad. . You and your sister are goals.

[@kooohi2980]

I’m sure the video is going to be amazing as always, you have tons of amazing beautiful fans, who will always understand

[@Sophiacreative222]

it's ok Niki I'm sure we will love the main channel video. they are always great . I love watching them . no need to stress out . love u so much Niki 😘😘

[@PixiehollowNora]

Your bangs 😍killing it

[@DancingFlicka]

Don't stress Nikki!! Giving you lots of love and support!!

[@hayleydon8282]

I’m so proud of you Niki. I feel the same way you do about my videos. I’m a perfectionist when it comes to videos but Niki I promise you no matter what you do it will look great to us!! We love what you do no matter what

[@jules7425]

I️ love how nikis so real in her vlogs I️ love them

[@dino9849]

I love you💗Demar doll for years now😍

[@fire_flyer_horse4261]

We love you Niki, you don't have to be perfect we will always support you! And if the videos not perfect so what, we just love that every video you make makes us smile!

[@vaishnavi3899]

Take care Niki. We love you and we're always there to support no matter what❤

[@mariamorris6144]

I think you're makeup looked really pretty ☺ also, we love you Niki. Nobody is perfect and we (fans/subscribers) don't expect you to be. I appreciate all of the hard work you do and I really enjoy your videos! Merry Christmas 🎄

[@LB-32450]

the Niki and Gabi video is amazing!!! isn't it the Nice and Naughty palette video? I loved it!! It's so good ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love you Niki ❤️

[@shannonconn2421]

Feel better Niki!! You are doing great!!

[@alexruby8928]

Love you niki!❤

[@nikidiys5659]

Don’t be stressed Niki we love u!

[@kristapettibone7896]

yes you and your sister are the best