Exploring Myhouse.wad (Doom II Mod)

[@arbitrary2868]

0:09 Intro 0:59 Backstory 3:58 Gameplay Start 4:45 Breaching and Clearing (Cycle 1) 8:08 Zamor Sphear to the Chest (Death) 10:25 Librarian Creeping Himself Out 10:47 Relatable 11:04 No Walking on the Superflat World (End of Cycle 1) 11:36 Underhalls (Map 02 of Doom II) 11:53 Potential Technical Difficulties 12:13 Journal Reading (Librarian Reads Section, but also integral to understanding what's going on story wise, so, listen to this whole chunk) 19:11 He heard growling... From the Fog? 27:04 Good 'Ol Creepypasta Feelin' 40:52 Tinfoil Hat Theory 46:32 Looking Through the -X- Picture Files 47:11 Scrambles (Booper) 50:06 Screenshots 50:48 Discord Ar- I mean, Sketchbook 51:15 Last Files 51:41 Our House (Cycle 2) 53:22 It's Time to Kick Gum and Chew A**. And I'm All Out of A**. 56:18 House of Leaves (No Way In! No Way Out!) 57:45 Other Mother's House 59:16 Thomas' Hell (Burned Home) 1:02:37 Concrete House (Lim-space Nightmare) 1:03:44 Good Boy 1:04:28 Regarding Dream Moments in Games 1:04:43 Librarian Childhood Memory 1:05:57 Bad Boy 1:06:23 Torn Apart (Death) 1:06:52 Doctors House (Hospital) 1:09:13 Resurrected Into Hell 1:09:28 Goodbye Boy 1:09:53 Pumpkin Rick 1:10:34 Never Forget Boy 1:11:39 Cars House (Parking Garage) 1:12:15 Tourists House (Airport Terminal) 1:13:47 Understanding the Correlation with the Journal Dreams 1:14:10 Bathroom Sequence (Plus Chris just completely freaks out, rips the power cord out of his wall, throws his computer out a window, and sells his house to move away from the planet.) 1:16:01 Funnily enough I was thinking the same thing. The bathroom sequence was like one of Simons psychological breaks, and this level is reminding me of the subway station level. 1:16:40 Boarding Flight 227 (or for a fictional reference, Wayfarer 515) 1:18:03 Blue Skidoo, We Can Too! 1:18:09 What Was Thomas' House 1:19:38 IT WAS RELATED TO HOUSE OF LEAVES! Good to see a Navidson got out and decided to make a business that removes anomalous homes. 1:20:00 Still No Walking on the Superflat World (End of Cycle 2) 1:20:25 False Ending (Plus Ending Thoughts I) 1:22:18 Next Play Session (Cycle 3) 1:24:23 Childhood Nightmare 1:24:45 Drowning House (Water Womb World) 1:26:36 Poolrooms (because of course there are poolrooms. There's ALWAYS poolrooms.) 1:28:02 Skybox 1:29:14 xobykS 1:29:58 Exploration Log 4 (Cycle 4) 1:30:09 Exploring the Pool House 1:31:20 SMULE goes to the PULE (nobody's gonna get that reference but might as well use it.) 1:33:11 Drowning (Death) 1:34:10 Hell Valley Sky -Trees- 1:34:50 Back to Concrete House 1:35:35 Outside Help (plus Librarian Hates Dogs) 1:37:20 Back to The Airport 1:37:49 Bathroom Sequence Take 2 1:38:08 Regarding The Airplane 1:38:47 Back At What Was Thomas' House 1:39:01 End of Cycle 4 and Some Thoughts 1:39:38 Cycle 5 1:40:45 Through the Looking Glass and What Chris Found There (or Mirror Land if you're familiar with Vyormouth on YT) 1:43:49 Follow the toys! Why couldn't it be follow the butterflies?! 1:44:19 Down the Rabbit Hole 1:44:27 Oh hey it's the ball pit! Hopefully there isn't any horrifying monster lurking around this time. (If you haven't, go watch that Librarian video it's short but good.) 1:44:39 Nevermind, I think we found the monster already. 1:44:48 At least it isn't Happy Sun Daycare (plus childhood memories) 1:46:27 Regarding the Mood of This Space 1:47:33 Oookay, yup, that was the monster. 1:47:48 Welcome to The Painground, Nerd (Shrek Is Love, Shrek Is Life) 1:48:15 Get Shrek't 1:49:04 NOW he notices. 1:50:13 Trial and Error (and Eventual Leap of Faith) 1:51:05 Finally Trying Out the Plasma Gun 1:51:36 The Item Board 1:53:07 It's Just Another Plank in The Wall 1:53:32 WWE Match Scheduled to be Out in The Woods 1:54:40 The Song With No Origin 1:55:17 -S-hell 1:57:31 Thoughts and Outside Help II 1:57:52 Back to Mirror Land 1:58:17 Toluca Forest 1:59:19 Devils Pitstop 2:00:38 Steve + A 2:01:26 False Paradise 2:02:46 Outside Help III and Cycle 6 2:03:30 Smoke Monster Chase 2:05:37 WWE Demon Royale 2:06:30 Hell 2:07:26 Reflecting 2:10:12 Objective: Survive 2:11:18 Tonal Dissonance 2:13:13 End of the WWE Demon Royale 2:13:31 Thoughts on Demon Royale 2:14:12 Incoming Hell Wave and Speculation 2:15:42 Sunset (True Ending) 2:16:51 Ending Thoughts II 2:19:13 One Last Twist 2:21:21 Back to Ending Thoughts II 2:22:07 Outro 2:22:38 Patrons

[@SixArmedSweater]

Ah, so The Librarian IS vulnerable to antidermis!

[@coffee-with-sprats]

@@SixArmedSweater What ? Why ?

[@SixArmedSweater]

@@coffee-with-sprats Zamor spheres contain antidermis. It’s a Bionicle reference.

[@matthewgonzales7529]

Bro zamor sphere lmaoooo I'm dead

[@MEGATHEEGG]

I JUST REFUNDED DOOM 2 ON STEAM NOOOO

[@F_I_J_I_W_A_T_E_R]

For anyone wondering, small details like the PS1 at 5:30 are considered "doomcute" like the description for the mod said.

[@oliyes406]

It’s so nice to be in Librarian’s house.

[@kingofhorror4489]

True

[@rick-deckard]

😂

[@mistakesregretsandimperfec7740]

Quite a roomy house he has, ey?

[@judathian]

All the dead bodies bring out the wonderful color contrast of the walls

[@3RR0RNULL]

Ive always found his name “The librarian” to be quite interesting. It gives me the kind of feeling of a cosmic entity or some character in a fourth-wall breaking show or movie that is important but never shown, such as the narrator. It’s hard to describe.

[@da_real_Fish]

Fun fact about dooms engine: with how the map maker and engine works it is impossible to get a floor to exist above or below another floor so the fact that the basement and upstairs room are seemless transitions is insane

[@GreatNaturalStupidity]

The entire map is basically build on seemless teleporters. In fact: openning the map in Slade reveals that there are at least a dozen of Main house copies alone. It's also just a giant reference to House of Leaves (from the word "house" being highlighted in the journal down to the fact that in bad endings Navidsons are mentioned (a family in a fictional story inside that book))

[@QuotePilgrim]

With modern source ports you can actually get a floor above another. There are some limitations that come with that, but it's definitely possible. It isn't how the transition from upstairs to basement is done here, though, that is done with line portals. I'm sorry to ruin a bit of the magic for you, but all it takes to set a line portal in a map editor is right click a line, select the option to edit its properties, and assign it the "Line_SetPortal" special, with the tag of the sector the portal should take you to as an argument. Getting the transition to look smooth is a matter of ensuring the sector on both sides of the portal have matching textures and the same height. There are tutorials on KZbin that teach you how to do it in like 5 minutes, if not less. Not to diminish the amount of effort it must have taken to make this map, it is extremely impressive, but because of the whole scale of the project. Any of the tricks this map does, on its own, is super easy to do, what really makes it impressive is how many different tricks there are, and all of the different ways in which they were implemented.

[@Pixxeell___]

UDMF silent teleports:

[@LankyMidget-eh4wh]

I do now believe that the original story being that a childhood friend is just to make the map more atmospheric, cause I was watching people play this map and bare in mind i've barely played doom in my life but after further understanding the engine and other stuff like that, I was watching this generally wondering how the fuck this dude's friend did this, this probably took ages to make but it's super cool, thinking of buying doom to play this.

[@angel-ok1to]

The airport upstairs isn't a set line teleport (I don't believe) and someone opened the downstairs merch room from upstairs

[@FreshSqueezedSlugs]

1:14:28 Dear god, the scream followed by the sudden blackscreen and silence genuinely got me more than anything in the map.

[@JACKED_LOBSTER1]

U mean 1:14:28 ?

[@FreshSqueezedSlugs]

@@JACKED_LOBSTER1 Whoops, you right, fixed

[@OrganicSuperlube]

It's 3 in the morning here in The Netherlands and I watched this video on my phone in the dark of my room, its screen my only illumination... ...so in that moment with his scream punctuating the sudden blackness that consumed my entire vision, for a brief second, I genuinely thought I died!

[@kingsnakke6888]

The moment a let's player becomes scarier than the game

[@novacil1217]

it was a genuine scream of fear too, scared me more than the scares ingame

[@Ennello]

The single scariest moment in this map is when you spot the shadow archvile in the mirror in the attic (in the regular house, not the mirrored one) after having awoken him. He's just standing there ominously, and it sent shivers down my spine.

[@ImaPizzaK]

standing there menacingly

[@vomgurl]

hes just standing there,,,,,,, MENACINGLY!!!!!

[@SanityHarvey]

You're the first youtuber I've seen whose gone through *the entire journal* in their video without being a lore explaining video or a secrets video

[@hecticscone]

i can't describe how happy i am that you're playing this

[@RoboPlaysYT]

I searched it yesterday to see if he did and he is now

[@colossusqw3632]

Honestly i see the gmod maps and stuff in general he's been covering recently and i can't help but feel he'd have a hell of a time with Skinamarink. The weird surreal old school memory vibes are there.

[@kingofhorror4489]

Same

[@postminchoppa]

I know right, Yesterday i was watching the channel with someone and said about myhouse and wondered when he'd play it

[@sneakythechild8934]

Same fr tho I audibly said YES in the middle of my class

[@dymaxion3988]

Love the order you did it in - first the wad, then the whole journal, and then the pk3! I feel like you’re the first YTer to share the true, full experience of this map

[@dymaxion3988]

Also: it’s such a Librarian thing to get jumpscared more by the clown suit than shrek lol

[@sarahtwycross422]

PowerPak did an extremely good video on it too, a video essay I'd consider a genuine 'piece of media' on is own merits. kzbin.info/www/bejne/a6ikoGhqea13j5I&pp=ygUIcG93ZXJwYWs%3D

[@dustball_3443]

As much as I love watching Librarian stumble through a wad inspired by a really great book, others have done a better job at explaining the pk3 itself (or rather, taken it apart, since they're mappers themselves).

[@dymaxion3988]

@@dustball_3443 That’s true. DavidXNewton has a great series explaining how the map works in detail from a doom expert’s perspective, I highly recommend it. What I meant by “the true full experience” is that Librarian took us through the entire story as presented, in first person, not cutting or skipping anything important, and sharing his thoughts on everything as it happened.

[@Transference90]

​@@dustball_3443Sure, it would have been so much better had he had a solid background in doom-engine knowledge, but for someone with absolutely no knowledge about Doom, I think he did a fine job of experiencing the map.

[@shibainu2528]

A few details of this map that The Librarian may or may not have missed because I only got to around 1:38:00. 1) You are actually a bit taller in the modified "My House" map, and the height increase maintains throughout Doom 2's second level, Underhalls. 2) On the second loop through the house, the doors, mirrors, and gun animations get fancy. Alongside the music changing to a similar, yet slightly "wrong" version of the normal Doom music. The gun animation's FPS increase stays enabled, even thoughout Underhalls. Speaking of fancy, you shouldn't be able to have layered rooms in Doom unless if you find a way to do it seamlessly... 3) If you were to beat Underhalls, which is an original Doom 2 map as a reminder, you go back to My House automatically. This, aside from the creepy "fake escape" feel you get, allows you to restock on ammo and reset any dead ends you may have ended up with originally. Plus, the double barrel shotgun "Super Shotgun" is found here, which may come in handy. 4) In the mirror world, the exit door reappears, but if you were to leave you instead go to "sllahrednU:20paM" Which is of course, a mirrored version of Underhalls, and if you were to beat *that* you go back to My House but in the mirror world. 5) If you try to use cheats, most of them don't work except Noclip and Godmode, and the toggle messages are changed. Noclip is "Be careful noclipping in the wrong areas" and "Better safe than sorry". Godmode is "My reflection winked at me, I've covered the mirror in the attic, just in case." and "Nothing good comes from a house fire". Also, if it wasn't obvious already, Noclip sends you to the backrooms if you go out of bounds, which also happens in sllahrednU. 6) Not really a detail, but there's a BFG in the airport ladies' room, if you manage to cover every surface except the entrance in blood, and there's a backpack for extra ammo capacity in a locker nearby the pool with the giant fish in it. Also not as useful, but there is a chainsaw located in the cardboard box in the garage, but if you go here in the house with the fancy doors, you'll only find a chalk outline of where it should be instead, should've brought ~5000 CoD Zombies points.

[@shibainu2528]

Also, something else for number 6) The dark medkit known as a "Berserk Pack" (You know which one) can be obtained by going to the bathroom located behind the closet, then interacting with the crack on the other side of the wall. This should make the kit fall and let you get it. This gives you a permanent buff, at least until you go to the next level.

[@shibainu2528]

Last one : The items you collect fill up the portrait in both the regular, AND mirrored world, for a total of 16 items. You'll fill up the original world's portrait first which changes the flower painting, then collect the last item you need for the mirrored world, which gives you another hint with the flower painting. Items like the baseball are obvious, but the others are more symbollic like a Baby's rattle / bottle, a christmas TREE ornament, a can of tuna FISH, an ICE CREAM milkshake, etc. Happiness is found in the small things... and happiness... has to be fought for...

[@itsshrimp91]

Also what was interesting is that the moment I saw in the journal that the dates had red numbers, I thought that it was a code sequence which would be needed during the game but oddly enough it didn't seem to mean anything.

[@shibainu2528]

@@itsshrimp91 I think it actually *is* a sequence, First number is about the mirror world, Second number is about the baby / daycare, Third number is about the bathtub. You have to go to the mirror world first to open the daycare path, but if you do the bathtub dream out of order you can't get back to the house without locking yourself out of at least one item, which will put you through the fire dream or the abandoned house. (If you go to the airport to get the pills, you have to wake up in the abandoned house, if you leave through the staircase portal, you won't get the pills and the bathtub is now inaccessible, forcing you to start the house fire if you don't know the secret path) Also, the fire nightmare is crossed out, suggesting that you aren't supposed to do it in your final run.

[@zobook]

About (6) in order to get the chainsaw, you must enter the house directly through the garage. If you use any door it will disappear and leave out the chalk mark.

[@IronBoy-hf2lp]

I'm slightly sad you didn't notice the new doors when they kicked in. For a bit of context, doors in the Doom engine typically only operate on up and down closing. Anything more fancy, such as in-and-out, is typically not something you see. Doors that function on hinges are *right out* for most. Seeing a door open on a hinge in the Doom engine... for many, that was the "SHUT THE FUCK UP. HOLD THE FUCKING PHONE" moment when all bets officially went off the table.

[@THEBEEEANSS]

Same, he noticed all the paintings and pictures but not the damn doors!

[@dylanpelo]

Being a long time DOOM veteran, it took me a minute to notice the doors and that Smooth Doom weapons were added. Also seen a few others play MyHouse and some never even acknowledged the door/weapons changes. My guess is that it's how doors are supposed to work so your brain doesn't pick up on it right away.

[@nachgeben]

He has never played Doom 2. Or Doom 1. Or any Doom but a little Doom 3. Of course he wouldn't notice that.

[@AvariaDemon]

i did notice this too but i think i kinda just didn't think much of it at the time, but yeah this is completly right good eye

[@kaiyotee2475]

Not to mention different floors stacked on top of each other.

[@k9vendettathewolfofmordor529]

The doom modding community will never truly die. The engine is as pliable as clay

[@lukeofender2071]

Doom, Half-Life, and Minecraft are the pillars of strong video game modding communities

[@k9vendettathewolfofmordor529]

@LukeofEnder any source game really

[@shy7155]

​@@lukeofender2071 Don't forget Fallout/Skyrim

[@hazzmati]

It's not the same engine all the stuff you in the vid are only possible because of a modern platform called gzdoom. You can't pull this off in vanilla doom 2

[@XSilver_WaterX]

Moral of Game Design: If want fans, have a modding community and not use copyright as a WEAPON!

[@michelangelomichaelmorrice6910]

My theory is Steve and Tom died in the same house fire. This also takes HEAVY inspiration from the book House of Leaves.

[@floppavevo5920]

Major House of Leaves spoilers below Hate it when my House collapses and my brother dies saving my kids 😔😔😔😔

[@10C45E]

Having one room above another in Doom is almost impossible due to the way the game uses 2D rooms to render 3D environments. There are many little things like this that make the map so creepy to seasoned Doom players

[@OperatorVanta]

In the very first variant of the house when you open the map, the second floor is just a simple discrete teleport to another floor. On the second version of the map, the map is updated with GZDOOM UDMF features, so you can use actual 3d floors, and mirrors and portals and stuff

[@the_furry_inside_your_walls639]

@@OperatorVanta Most of the map is made up of various rooms that are connected via teleporters. GZdoom is still not able to get past the fact that Doom maps are rendered from 2D to 3D, it can just make maps look more 3D with greater, more detailed Inclines(if map makers choose to design their maps that way). This, coupled with GZdoom's more seamless teleporters, and clever use of them, allows for you to make the illusion of Room on Room Geometry.

[@cjnewman7550]

​@@the_furry_inside_your_walls639cute profile pic, what is it? Do you know the artist?

[@creditsunknown7974]

If you liked this mod, youd definetley like the main inspiraion of this mod, the book "House of Leaves", (its where the fact that "house" is in blue comes from). Its a horror laberynth of a book and its atmosphere is a wonderful nightmare.

[@floppavevo5920]

Also, Navidson Realtor is a fun nod towards the book

[@colbyboucher6391]

Also half of it is some dude whining about not having any tits to fondle.

[@patcat1276]

seconded! that book kickstarted my love of experimental and ergodic fiction. 10/10 book, terrifying (though im still not sure in what way)

[@gaminganimators7000]

I'd be shocked if Librarian hasnt read House Of Leaves

[@ChrisRyot]

Holy fuck, this map crossed my path yesterday completely randomly. I have no connection to the Doom franchise nor am I particularly versed in anything that's concerned with it. I was just looking for spooky video game content and there was this in-depth video about this map. I immediately thought of you and that this would be ideal for your channel. So glad you've checked it out. I'm certainly in for the ride! :)

[@brianburkhardt3692]

Was it Power Pak’s video? That’s what got me into this map a couple days ago.

[@Vito_ScaIetta]

I think I saw the same video too! It’s kinda funny because as I was watching it, I was thinking to myself “Librarian really needs to cover this” as this was right up his alley, lol.

[@nhooj8882]

Man, the Algorithm works in mysterious ways. Mere days ago I also got exposed to this map with zero connection to Doom. Then only yesterday I got exposed to mr Librarian here. This'll be a good vid

[@ChrisRyot]

@@brianburkhardt3692 ye it was :D Also never seen one of his videos. Bless the algorithm for once I guess ^^

[@ChrisRyot]

@@nhooj8882 if you're new to Librarian, you're in for a treat my friend. Especially his liminal space videos are second to none.

[@nekomataumbreon]

That area you assumed was the ground floor could've been a basement. I live in the Midwest and most basements I've seen here are like that. Sometimes poking out of the ground, often having various games and furniture, sometimes even tvs and gym equipment.

[@23not32]

I already played this wad, but this was a nice walkthrough. As others have noted, the mod is heavily inspired by Danielewski "House of Leaves", and there's something you should see. When you first exit and reenter the house, go into the bedroom you visit at 54.37. Try opening the closet door multiple times. That's a random chance that you'll see another place. Go into it. Find the huge hall with the stairway in the ground.

[@TheRogueWolf]

It was interesting watching this being played by someone with little or no knowledge of old-school Doom's conventions and tropes. There were a few things you did that I hadn't even thought to do because it didn't occur to me that you could do them in this game.

[@s01itarygaming]

A lot of the stuff done in this map will fly over the head of even people that are fans of the doom games. Only a small handful of youtubers really caught onto everything right away on their playthroughs.

[@Kipwich]

1:14:25 I think that’s the biggest jumpscare reaction I’ve seen in a while. Although, there’s something weird there, the monsters that pop up there aren’t the ones that normally appear, from what I’ve seen in other videos of this map. Hmm, to use that saying, perhaps every copy of Myhouse.wad is personalized. It knows you now.

[@Sorta8]

I think it depends on the difficulty

[@Xhepyxopila]

It's probably tied to the difficulty, most KZbinrs i've seen play this choose the 2nd hardest while The Librarian chose normal

[@TehCakeIzALie1]

It's funny how the easy-mode spawns look scarier

[@lrobin-is8dg]

@@TehCakeIzALie1 instead of red pinkies you got funny flesh blobs

[@Ariamaki]

That is absolutely the vibe, although the real reason is that Librarian is playing on Easy, and this map has very different enemy layouts on each difficulty: In fact it even has custom load-in text for Doom 2's highest standard difficulty Nightmare, which is arguably (for this specific map) much easier than the difficulty right below it, Ultraviolence, which most playthroughs I have seen are on.

[@lukeofender2071]

The moment I discovered this mod, my first thought was "this would be right up Librarian's alley"

[@classicaudioadventures]

I just watched Power Pak's video on myhouse and thought, how cool it would be if Librarian did a playthrough of it. And here we are.

[@sadboiinasweater6104]

One of the more interesting things is that in the readme, where it states where you can find the wad, it simply says "no" also there is a House of Leaves reference

[@MikeHoliday]

Honestly the way Librarian plays this not only makes the whole experience even more terrifying but also gives you more insight and perspective you didn't have before, that dreaded moment was genuinely scarier than most actual horror games and the natural progression to it made it way better.

[@TuchNGoh]

Genuine question, is this voiced over commentary, or not his first time reaction? It feels narrated 😭

[@PotatoPL-]

@@TuchNGohthis is just how he is

[@therealnumber7]

i literally just got obsessed over this mod a couple weeks ago and now you're playing it. not something i would've expected, but something that makes sense!

[@Evaisa]

LETS GOOOO I AM SO GLAD YOU PLAYED THIS I am surprised how long you avoided the cerberus, i immediately ran into it

[@bluejayofevil]

I recently discovered you from your From the Fog series, and this Doom map also popped into my feed shortly after. Now you're playing it. (Power Pak was my introduction to this work of Doom wonder.) For those of us who have played Doom since around the time of release, subtle changes in this wad are noticeable and contribute to the overall eeriness of it. The player is taller, the music has subtle changes that you wouldn't notice unless you REALLY know your Doom music, the weapon sprites have more frames (smoother animations from Smooth Doom), etc. Both the normal world and mirror world both have 8 secret trinkets for you to find (that fill up on the wall pictures as you noticed.) The part with the ledge above the dog can be reached, but you need to be running (default is holding shift, you can also toggle 'always run' in GZDoom settings.) You might need to use SR50 to reach it (Strafe Run speed 50, a technique frequently used by speedrunners.) It can take several tries to get it right. In the bloody bathroom, if you angle yourself just right in a corner to view the entire thing as the bloody scene except for the entryway you can find the BFG9000 in an alcove instead of a doorway out. There's ways to jump across the liminal space concrete drop into some of the other rooms, where you can trigger a weird feature that turns on all TVs in the wad. Also, activate the noclip cheat (either using the cheatcode IDCLIP or type noclip in the GZDoom console by pressing ~ ) and walk into the exit teleporter. Welcome the to Backrooms. I recall Power Pak's connection of the journal to the final showdowns you encounter. "Happiness is worth fighting for." And here you are, armed to the teeth, waves of hell monsters standing between you and your happy ending, and the "most mysterious song on the internet" playing from your crashed car. Happiness is worth fighting for. RIP AND TEAR UNTIL IT IS DONE! This wad is a better gameplay and storytelling experience than most AAA titles these days. John Romero once said id Software set out to create the ultimate game, the "coolest thing on earth no one had ever seen before", and 30 years later I'd say they've delivered. Doom's legacy is eternal. EDIT: It should also be mentioned this wad is heavily inspired by the book "House of Leaves" by Mark Z. Danielewski published in 2000. Also, one of the doors shortly after entering the house can be opened a few times to reveal a dark passageway that takes several minutes to do down. Many of these changing/guiding aspects of the house came from the House of Leaves book. EDIT 2: Typing in various Doom cheat codes gives you hints to progression and some hidden hints.

[@ObsidianHunter99]

The genuine terror that came across his voice after triggering the burned house the first time just perfectly encapsulates how I felt my first time playing through this map

[@seeya_le]

I like to interpret the entire game as representing the emotions a loved one would go through after a close friend dies. You go back to old places and try to relive these nice, comforting old memories, until they suddenly become...hollow, and feel less safe now that the person who made those memories so special is gone from your life. It leads to frustration, longing, so many confusing and upsetting emotions, which leads to this place you once loved becoming twisted and almost unrecognizable. It's why I think so many of the locations, like the Liminal Hotel and the Liminal Swimming Pool and the Airport, all share similar layouts to the original house. It's the perceived impossibility of trying to go back to normal like nothing ever happened. Something *did* happen, and it feels impossible to live on without that person. It all comes to a climax after you've collected all these items, jumped through all of these hoops to try to bring back the one you loved. At the gas station, with all these enemies ready to tear you to shreds in this place you've had nightmares about, that you realize you can't keep avoiding or trying to run from these emotions. You have to face them head on and actually try to overcome them, to cope with them, rather than be scared of them. And once you finally defeat this giant hoard of enemies, all of these negative emotions, you can finally relax and find peace in a beautiful, sunset beach. They may be gone, but that's okay. It's about the comfort they gave you while they were alive. They aren't around anymore, but you have to live on without them, to make them proud. And you can only be at peace once you finally realize this. It's not an easy thing to do, but it feels immensely satisfying once you do, almost like overcoming a gauntlet in a game like Doom. It took me a few playthroughs and watching let's plays to come to this conclusion, but this is what I believe was trying to be conveyed. And I think it's really beautiful.

[@seeya_le]

And no, I will not try to explain how fighting Nightmare Shrek plays into this.

[@catgckool428]

@@seeya_le Well it's name IS Childhood Nightmare

[@FaiaHalo]

​@@seeya_le except these two were more than just "close friends."

[@nachyo_taco2399]

@@seeya_lelmao

[@user-pipis]

I AUDIBLY GASPED when I saw the notification lmao. I've been obsessed with this map for the past month, so I'm stoked to see your thoughts/commentary on it

[@hunterofthemist7159]

From the fact you missed the word House being blue, and the sign Navidson realty not having an effect. Im going to assume you've never read house of leaves, since how heavily this map is influenced by it. you should absolutely give it a read, its an amazing and confusing book

[@StreetofCrocodiles]

Yeah i was thinking "has the man that made his youtube career discussing the horror of liminal and impossible spaces not read house of leaves?" Might just be showing his age though.

[@hunterofthemist7159]

@@StreetofCrocodiles maybe, still hope he reads it. same with just anyone else who has an interest in this type of horror

[@asteriskhearts]

Gosh I hope he does, I feel like it'd give him some interesting perspectives/ideas

[@KefkeWren]

I've been seeing things about this on my feed lately, and just when I finally decided to see what it was all about, you upload on it. Great timing. If I'm going to learn about some big horror thing, it's way better to see through the lens of someone familiar. Next best thing to checking it out with friends.

[@lumpytacos2097]

When i originally saw this mod my first thought was that i'd love to see you experience it. So glad you are!

[@iwest6256]

I was just hoping that you would do a video on this! I figured it might be outside your usual wheelhouse though. Super excited to watch.

[@calciumboxer8239]

Yeah, I was hoping they would do this wad (pk3) too. I wanted to recommend it in the comments but I wasn't sure if the Librarian would want to go through the trouble of installing GZDoom and messing with the giant settings menu for 30 minutes just to play 1 map. I'm happy they played it!

[@agentbasil618]

the way it just doesnt comply with DOOM IIs laws of reality is really interesting lol

[@FriedrichTheGreatest]

First you heard of House Of Leaves now get ready for Leaves The House

[@SanityHarvey]

Imagine being new to doom maps and you deal with the final swarm of monsters in a map like My house

[@theincursion5898]

so happy that you played this map, and so happy that the airport bathroom jumpscare has so far gotten everyone ive watched

[@spete7]

I literally can’t stop watching this channel, easily one of my favourites on KZbin. Keep doing your thing librarian, awesome to see you cover this one!

[@eyvweblog]

This is truly one of the most beautifully haunting game experiences I've seen in my life. Thanks for playing this because I certainly wouldn't have found out about it on my own.

[@harrywarden9159]

Surprised he didn't realize how the door animation changed. At first it was the normal DOOM sound effect. Then it turned into a normal door.

[@madbruv]

He said he has only played doom 3. What diference does it make

[@harrywarden9159]

@@madbruv It shows that the map is slowly getting more realistic. It's a really cool feature.

[@theluigibro656]

I've recently gotten into doom mapping and I love to see The Librarian playing doom

[@cinfdef]

SICK! I just binged a video on this and I was thinking about how cool it would be if you went through it! Really cool that you actually did it!

[@V0ID_X5]

I’ve been seeing videos on this around KZbin, but because I don’t have much of any knowledge of the Doom games- I didn’t look further into it. But now I see YOU playing it and I’m intrigued...

[@vaele723]

Heck yeah! The Librarian playing Classic Doom. Although that texture filtering did hurt my soul; I'm perplexed why GZDoom has that by default to be honest.

[@CuppaBro1]

Because Graf Zahl is a perplexing human being.

[@vaele723]

@@CuppaBro1 Salt Zahl.

[@BreezeInMonochromeNight]

Yeah, as someone who immediately turns off texture filtering and most other modern effects in any old game, the blurry sprites really took some getting used to here... it really should be an option buried in a menu, not a default!

[@countsaintgermain393]

I just saw a video explaining and exploring most of this map earlier today, and was like „darn, sure wish the librarian would give this the old college try“ and boom. Thank you so much :D

[@shinyrayquaza9]

you're the first person I've seen read that journal, so cool how much relates back to the wad

[@oliverroystone2253]

For this first section I was just screaming YOU NEED TO GO THROUGH UNDERHALLS

[@RadiantMantra]

This wad is so insanely good, i was really hoping you'd check it out

[@Songbearer]

"Doom was a little before my time" Oh... oh. I'm not crying. I'm not! I'm still young! I might have bad legs and vision but I'm still young, damn you!! YOU'RE THE GRANDAD NOT ME

[@mistakesregretsandimperfec7740]

God, I feel that on a different level. Feckin' 'ell, I'm barely in my mid 20s and I felt like a grandma even 15 years ago...

[@afflixion8970]

I did like a full on happy giggle when this video popped up on my page, like I stood up and took a walk around the house to calm myself, I am serious 🗿 (I've watched like 5 different playthroughs of this, some even more than once)

[@Touya82TT]

Found you by searching up people playing this map blind, your raw reactions were great and you're one of the most eloquent streamers I think I've ever listened to. Great work and I'm subscribed now.

[@THEDoctorScientist101]

Wanted to point out that at 1:54:40 the song playing on the radio is nicknamed "The Most Mysterious Song on The Internet" because we don't know who made it or what the song is even called and the only reason we even know about it is because it played on a random radio station in the middle of Germany (or somewhere else I can't remember exactly).

[@saggingzebra2578]

Yeah I noticed that too it definitely makes the environment more creepy knowing the history of the song

[@king_aeron]

Certainly didn't expect this. A welcome surprise.

[@TreWilder]

YES. Okay- I've been seeing this game floating around in my recommendations for like the past... Week or so? And I know absolutely nothing about it, but the title screen thumbnails I kept seeing just looked like a prime Librarian video waiting to happen, so I stayed away from them. And my patience is finally rewarded!

[@Infernale]

The Librarian playing DOOM II is something I'd thought I'd never see.

[@_gorillazfreakinc._2]

I had to do a double take because this is the exact same as my comment except DOOM II

[@Vilde321]

Easily the most pleasing playthrough of this ive seen. Other people dont have tje patience and curiosity ... And the way you talk the whole time like a storyteller, theorising stuff... just so great!

[@BananaWisp]

Oh! Been obsessed with this lately, great timing - hope it goes well.. EDIT: A wonderful examination of it all.

[@holojet]

I just watched a video on this and was going to recommend it to you, really excited to see you play it!

[@thatnicyolo]

so I seen some explain some things about the map (updating this as I watch more) "Doomcute" is when you recreate things in the doom engine so like how you compared it to the thing in the Hammer Editor. Something that you probably don't know is that one of the uncanny off things about this map that I've heard people talk about is the Doom itself uses a 2D map then generates a 3D environment (probably doing a poor job of explaining it) but doom 2 and GZ doom cannot normally have floors of levels stacked onto of each other like how the house is.

[@proctormarwood]

I chanced upon this channel but a few weeks ago, yet it's already become one of my most frequently watched. I'm glad to see you covering this mod!

[@finnthefox5568]

This dude sounds like he'd give you a hug regardless of who you are :)

[@lazality]

Bro this is legit perfect timing, I just got into Doom and Doom Modding by my friend. I watched an analysis of this level and it's crazy. I love you and your content so much man, keep up the amazing work.

[@Dollar_Store_Cacodemon]

Amazing to see how something like this is possible with Doom II. That's the impressive versatility of the GZDoom sourceport for you!

[@NotOnLand]

So wild that everyone I've seen play this discovers something completely different

[@bw000m]

youre KIDDING me me and my friends have just gotten into this. what timing

[@pikakirby1119]

5:21 The monster sprites from doom were actually made by taking pictures of real world objects made of clay

[@FadedDaWolfgaming]

Fun fact the music playing at the crashed car with the gas station is a song that is "the most mysterious song on the internet" no one knows who its from or what the confirmed name is but people have called it "like the wind" but its thought to be a song that was played in the 80s on a german radio station

[@errorperson13]

the game does a little trolling, then says sorry and gives you nearly a full refill on health honestly im starting to wonder how many people noticed the letters of the last six flight labels at 1:16:30 (visible the first time he passes it too) reads "HELPME"

[@bloowalrus272]

i am unbelievably happy to see you make this.

[@EmeraldEmsiron]

so, fun tidbit, the song at the crash scene is often called the most mysterious song on earth or something, but the nostalgic feeling it gives for a song ive never heard is amazing, and fit this mod in a way that I cant disconnect that nostalgic feeling from the combat. ALSO, there is a very common and probably very likely theory that I think just adds a nice touch to the story, it seems likely that the creator is a trans man. during the bathroom jumpscare, you enter the woman's washroom, the mens washroom is completely normal, but the womans, just to word it supporting this theory, is terrifying. you enter with an empty medication bottle, then when you leave, the medication bottle is full, *and* the signs on the doors have swapped. that plus the love symbol showing s+a rather than s+t or something also implies that to a lesser degree, assuming "A" was refering to his deadname. that scene, given that there was a dog and no cat, is likely some kind of memory of a time long ago.

[@S0URS0P]

wowww, i'd only just started diving into this mod/story yesterday and i totally picked up on the "steve and tom were probably lovers" overtone... but that tiny detail about the bathrooms swapping totally gave me a subtle trans allegory vibe that i hadn't seen anyone else really talk about!!! i nearly chalked it up to just me projecting LOL. it's such a blink-and-you-miss-it detail i can't help but hyperfocus onto it. theory goggles on but; the obituaries purposefully using non-gendered language when referring to steve & tom's "partners" also stood out to me, and the themes of wanting children but it "not being meant to be" all gives me this picture that steve and tom (or, "A" at the time) were friends with a mutual crush & not-so-great upbringings; maybe there was a big emphasis on steve growing up to live that suburban wife-and-kids lifestyle; but they reconnect years later to find that Tom transitioned but the spark remains. steve referring to tom very purposefully as just a "friend" despite them obviously being More puts more focus on that past baggage... but thats just a gayme theory

[@clayleone9111]

I'm so glad someone else recognized the most mysterious song! I jumped out of my seat when I heard that. Librarian probably was happy to realize in editing that he wouldn't have to worry about copywrite strikes lol

[@alan_b_scary]

oh my god, i'm so glad i'm not the only one who thought about one of them being trans, that was the only explanation i could think of. neither obituary explicitly mentioned a wife or even anyone the name A could refer to, and honestly? kinda refreshing not to have to go through the typical hetero tropes in the mod. very very cool stuff

[@mudkipzforlife]

I never thought of the theory of the creator being trans. I was in favor of the theory that the creator and the friend were lovers and that the A was a nickname or something based on him last name of Allord (getting that idea from Power Pak's video). Also I knew that song sounded so familiar, then I remember hearing it from a Whang! Tales from the internet video. Hope that song's origins gets discovered one day since it sounds really good.

[@crylune]

yeah no thanks

[@BreezeInMonochromeNight]

Excellent playthrough. Captured the sense of gradual discovery and mounting horror better than any I've seen. MyHouse is incredible; I got back into playing classic Doom and Doom II recently and this came along just at the right time.

[@someguy8375]

"Nothings happening... my ui is still there though?" at 2:02:40, taking into consideration whats said in the journal, that statement is far more apt than you perhaps meant

[@bernardobjs1]

Im shocked, i requested this mod 12 hours ago on the last video, and 12 hours later, it’s here.

[@michaelmcd64]

That was such a crazy map. Great video!

[@Sawrunner.]

1:16:01 This is EXACTLY what I was thinking! Character seemingly plunging deep into insanity, nightmare sequences, oh my god, does this relate to Cry of Fear.

[@brianburkhardt3692]

Just posted on another video of this map, I *love* that I found out about this map as it’s gaining traction on YT. Seeing different people’s reactions. And now it’s being done by my favorite horror lets player. I don’t think I can watch it right now, but you better believe that I’m going to thoroughly enjoy this video when I have the chance. I’m *so* excited.

[@gunslingerbunny3001]

What a perfectly normal house and house tour

[@roflc0re]

This mod is probably one of the biggest mindfucks I've ever witnessed in gaming. Like how it can be a basement in Doom, and swimming mechanics and how the animation got more fluedly after awhile. And everything else ofc

[@LockeLamont]

I know this might have been said already but this map is so effing intuitive, because yeah you can play the map w/out reading the “Journal” and probably get most of the secrets. But you can also read it and know what to do immediately (e.g : filling the tub and falling in, walking through the mirror, the car crash, the attic) But the third way is my favourite, you can figure it out as you’re going through.

[@curlybrace4984]

Man, I loved the video, Librarian. Please do more 2+ hour long videos. Suuuuuch good background noise to listen to while playing games.

[@katking9574]

100% wasn't ever hoping for this, but love every minute of it, good shite~!

[@Anths_art]

I just decided to look into this whole MyHouse thing today. Watched Power Pak's video on it and Vinesauce's playthrough of it. And then you're vid comes out today lol. This is awesome

[@droson8712]

i was just watching the video by Power Pak explaining this mod and am glad you are too

[@Xhepyxopila]

To anyone watching with Vanced/SponsorBlock PLEASE go to your settings and turn off "Skip Previews" when watching this, if you don't it skips over the part where he reads the journal

[@NoahPusateri]

Librarian's reaction to the house fire was just as I expected

[@creeperjo7]

I just got done watching an hour long analysis video on this doom map and I thought it’d be cool if you played it *AND THEN LATER ON IN THE DAY, HERE YOU GO*

[@Nihilyth]

Saem

[@ThomasGrillo]

Thank you for presenting this memorial Doom mod. It was very moving, and touching. I think I was in my early 20s, when Doom came out. I had a lot of good times with that game, as did a close friend of mine, who is still living, but whom I've not heard from in many years. It's not often, you run across a game which takes from dreams, and reality. I had no idea so much detail could be put into a mod for Doom. Oh, and as I suspected, you are an excellent reader. Great voice. :)

[@CecilioSprayetti]

Great map. Surprisingly, there are still quite a few things you didn't discover

[@phaeste]

Some might say that Steve and Tom were roommates, maybe even besties

[@Dovah_Slayer]

Yeah, the big dog and the small dog are the same entity killing one kills the other. A theory is the houses are the authors' perceptions as a child (big house) and an adult (small house)

[@evilocto22]

Was thinking about you playing this

[@donjabucha]

I live like 10 minutes away from Oswego! I’ve spent quite a bit of time there actually.

[@blevenox1916]

It’s so uncanny. I live right by Oswego. Having it be so close..that’s concerning

[@MyNameFishy_Channel]

I've now noticed just how much this map develops like a dream. Like the house will suddenly keep changing and you just kinda move along

[@Jarewill]

I must admit, seeing you play this is a surprise.

[@wutaguy]

Went in expecting a funny gag of The Librarian's house in a doom game, come on the other end of an emotional roller coaster.

Thank you for this, you earned a new subscriber. I actually went to see what else you have uploaded and I'm very intrigued, but I also noticed I've watched one of your videos over 6 years ago 😅

[@ScatterBrain783]

Anything you lose comes around in another form...

[@voxicore]

Thank you for covering this, Librarian. I played it myself when it first appeared and it has to be the most innovative and well made map for Doom 2. I've seen a few others playing it since but because they're doing it live they're just doing what chat says and not really taking it in so its great to see somebody else getting submerged into the lore of it!