06/08/24 Struggling to keep a promise.

[@andycruickshank1671]

We all have our own ways of dealing with grief.Non are better than the other.

[@joeeverett8390]

Upstand your feelings, I lost my mum,dad and three brothers in 16 months starting in 1972, I still miss them and think of them. We have also got the ashes of 3 of our cats in the loft

[@MrDbone75]

A very good Sunday morning to you all

[@maevephipson2803]

A wonderful Testimony to your beloved Mother, Farmer P ❤😊. There is a very special bond between mother and son as there is between father and daughter. Thank you for sharing this wonderful moment with us all. It was very special 💕💖👥🫶

[@simonbrittan3896]

There is nothing daft about it Ian , one of the last things my mum said to me was “ as long as I am in your heart and in your head I am always with you “ and I believe it.

[@jamesboyd7984]

I stayed. As usual. I still think back to your video you made when your mum passed. Just a son talking about his mum and what she had instilled in him. It was a lovely video and very heartfelt. I don’t know if I could let my mum go either. Thankfully, I haven’t gone through that yet, but of course it will happen. Best wishes.

[@SteveButterworth-n9m]

Hi … memories are yours to keep !… promises in those memories were their desire to be fulfilled. I loved my dad and think of him often and his wishes were fulfilled.

[@gillharding6736]

Your Mum will always enjoy the view thru your eyes Ian. You know she is in your heart . Take care❤

[@2626stephen]

You never forget your or I should say we all never forget our loved ones weather our loved one is with other family members. Biskit no you can't drive 😂😂 I stayed till the end 😂

[@DeirdreHickey-nx8nt]

Ian, you sweet man. Your Mam will always be with you. She is with you every day. You have the right attitude with regard to your mama ashes in the little box. It is so important for all of us. Why don’t you have a t8ny amount of her ashes buried outside your window and perhaps plant something for her and you. Love is love always. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@spannermonkey]

I'm glad I'm not the only one to talk to a beloved memory, my dad's ashes are by a tree, so every now and again i go talk to the tree! Was a lovely video mate, take care👍

[@billstaley03]

It all makes perfect sense to me, but I understand where the family is coming from. Thoughts and prayers are with you 😢

[@michaelking9254]

Your comments about your mum are fantastic. It’s very important that you maintain your memories and spiritual contact with loved ones. You say you’re not emotional but I could tell it in your voice that you are. There’s a little indistinct quaver there.

[@GTFarming]

Ian , I was in the same boat Thursday just gone - went up to Warwick for my grandads funeral. Hadn't really hit me but when they got to Reading the service notes oh boy it hit me hard as I'd spent the most time with him when he was working as he used to be a chimney sweep and do some grass cutting for people and I went with him alot of the time

[@carolmcc59]

You're always a very very good boy! Yes I watched to the end hehehe. I always do ;) Talking to your Mum is completely normal Ian. You don't need the ashes there to do so. You can talk to her anywhere, anytime. How lovely to now have 2 new seats to help your posterior comfort. People are generous cos you give so much to us your viewers. Thank you :)

[@patrickmurphy9115]

Ian I feel your pain, you did the thing that is right for you and Mum.

[@kevingoodlad]

Think of the good times with your mum and god bless you and your family for many years to come. You are know when it is the write time to lay your mum to rest. God will bless you for doing this

[@firan67]

Not daft. For those of us lucky enough to have parents we loved, liked, and got on with, not daft at all. As always, thanks for sharing 🙂

[@MichaelBradley-j6z]

I can relate to that we did the same with my mother in law promised to take her back to Leominster, where she was from, and we took her back last year and we kept a bit of her ash's to take to Cornwall because we would never had gone if she hadn't paid for us great vid farmer P

[@Wilkes_guitars_and_stuff]

We all need time to heal others take longer than others, you will never get over your loss but all will be ok in the end. All our love and sympathy Ian your a good person and a brilliant son.

[@manyproject5]

Always here to the end 👍

[@antonythomas2934]

Bless you! My mum is still with me 12 years on, in a picnic basket in our conservatory where she loved to sit.

[@antonystroud2956]

Mr P, it is very hard to say your final goodbye, but very well done for saying what you said, I felt your love that you had for mum, don't feel sad be happy because that is what your mum would had have wanted.

[@bobuncle8704]

I completely understand about mum. Mines been gone these past 10 years now, and I’ve not brought myself to clean out her room.

[@christopherwhatcott6235]

Hi Ian...was still here when you started loading woodchip...very emotional start to this video it's time to keep your promises to your late dear mum.....and none of us I'm sure thought your reasons for keeping her at the farm so long were anything else but because of the love you had for her

[@eriks1256]

Hi Buddy. I've been watching you for a long time. Glad I'm not the only one who feels similar to the way your feeling. Just remember your mum will always be with you. For my mum , 19yrs past, this year , no head stone, it's a stone near Evening, her ashes scattered in the lake district. But at night I look up to the stars and talk to her and my friends /relatives who are no longer with us. It warms my heart to know she can see and hear me, even though i can't see her or hear her. God speed

[@s.m.1959]

Boy, when the cattle come back in later in the year, they'll prob struggle to recognize the place! Their accommodations are turning out downright luxurious 🙂And I definitely wouldn't say you achieved nothing for the day - between paperwork, phone calls, random trips out, you've prob achieved more than most people would in a week. Even if you don't think so. Sure, maybe it wasn't all things you WANTED to do, but they still NEEDED to be done. I'm much the same - I'll put things off for weeks sometimes, particularly things that realistically take mere minutes. Just because I don't feel like it (for one reason or another). But such is life... Good news about the offered support from KZbin - just mind that you don't go getting all "fancy" now. There's something to be said about keeping things as "person-oriented" as possible, unlike some others that have changed quite a bit when their channel grew. I mean, of course I still enjoy watching the likes of Tom Pemberton too, but the overall "feel" is just so different from what you, Richard or someone like Ed Jones & Jamie do. Which is completely fine, different strokes for different folks - but YOU and YOUR channel I think are popular because of its genuine feel of authenticity. Just my two cents (again) 😁

[@kevingovier5090]

Farmer P , I’m with you all the way on the start of this video, lost my dad 2008,, he was everything to me, i still struggle even now but talking about him and saying,,,Oh he would iiked that! What ever, does help, then you get people saying,,,,,,time is a great healer, no ! time just makes it a bit easier, anyway keep up with these videos and spend time with your dad (very special) 👍👍🍻

[@jimginn7163]

Mum will always be with you in your heart Ian 👍

[@ZEKEV1]

Completely understand your sentiments Ian. There in no bond like Mum and son. She will still look at the view through your eyes and be proud of what you have achieved for your family. Family always come first. The main thing is you are keeping your promise as difficult as it is for you. Take care mate!

[@tommyboyuk1968]

Ian your mum will always be with you and always be proud of you and your families achievements unconditionally , speaking from experience went to the crem last week to visit my mum and dad . They always look after me and are always with me in spirit .

[@miketaylor8777]

Always see every video through to the end, you make the effort to film/produce them so it is rude not to enjoy them all the way through. On that note don't let KZbin mess up what is a most excellent channel.

[@everythingunplanned6276]

My mum passed away last year, I have her ashes in my room, keeping her ashes with me makes me feel that she’s still by my side, she was my best friend, she was always there for me when I needed support. I know she’s with me which makes me feel stronger inside. Keeping your mums ashes for two years is not so bad, but always remember, no matter what, your mum will always be with you, always.

[@trevorsidley7697]

Your Mum will never be gone Ian - She will live on in your Heart & your Memory. You will keep things, events and locations in mind forever. She will not be forgotten by You, your Family, your Friends and many here who watch your channel and recall the main reason for the daily posts. Lost my Mum in June 2021 and feel similar. We had our recent Wedding Reception in the same "room" in the same Pub as her wake. She was with us in Spirit. RIP.

[@alwynjones422]

P.s. saw your message, "still here"

[@jeanetteblowen8315]

Thank you for sharing. No need for analysis. All makes sense. Take care. ❤

[@alexkennedy119]

Great video Ian thinking of you at this time

[@bgslade1]

My Grandmother kept her husband's, my Grandfather's ashes for 35 years. She couldn't let him go. When she passed away 4 years ago, we buried them both together. They were originally from England, her remaining daughter wanted some of their ashes. We got a small amount of both of them and took them back to England. I believe my aunt still has the ashes as she can't let them go either.

[@chrispenn715]

Good on you Ian. Nothing to feel guilty about - hope it all goes well.

[@Rentsco]

Still here sir. You are a lovable chap. And I think it is lovely that you kept your mum with you for a bit. Next chapter will be with her parents ❤

[@aaronpickering5659]

I saw the saw the seat the over day and thought you could do with one , have been beating to it , thanks for the videos your mum would be bloody proud of what you have become 👍

[@paulbarr3981]

Well spoke Ian and thank you for sharing. I do certainly understand as after a couple years my sistyer handed me our mothers box and said you can have this. Surprise. The ashes in the box or urn is simply a physical reminder of the one we lost. Again, thank you for your strength in sharing. You forgot you achieved delivering the mulch to Carol the neighbor. Man you dad's tractor seat is really destroyed.

[@template16]

A lovely personal video and fully understandable sentiment.

[@russell449]

Always remember that half of you is from your mother and part of your heart and mind, and you can talk with her at any time. I’m 61 and I still love and talk to my dad who passed away 2017. And I still miss him a lot, but it’s ok to miss him, it’s called everlasting love.

[@michaellane9873]

At least you are going to keep a promise Ian.

[@tinagibbs618]

I do that with my sister. No harm done. xx

[@SimonGreener]

Still here Ian. Don't think *anyone* who watches your vlogs would not stay with you.

[@BrendanWhite-e3y]

Your mum left a big mark on the world true you and the people you contacted with your videos . I consider myself lucky to have my mum and dad still around as I'm of a similar vintage to your self that is 21+++++😊

[@shirleycarson646]

Wonderful vlog, Farmer P. I understand your sentiments. Your Mum will always be in your thoughts and heart.

[@michaelslinn7472]

Ian please don't be too hard with yourself I'm in a similar situation when I lost my mum in 2017 I really miss my mum's voice especially when I'm under the weather, I believe that she still watches over me if people make fun of you they are the sad ones. Thank you for being honest and upfront.

[@fredharrowven1040]

Good Evening Ian, I hope you don’t think this is all about me and her indoors, When my son past away he was cremated and we was the same as you I son was in our Cabernet for about 3 to 3.5 years we couldn’t part with him but as you know we also lost our daughter so my daughter just wanted a burial so now we have son and daughter so after a lot of thought we buried them together, Well we to get permission to put them together, ( Now this is a bit like yourself ) we didn’t want them to be on there own so they are together with a headstone with both names on, So no you are not potty you have a heart like any one who loved there mum dad or children, This may not make you feel better but you are not alone, We go to Norwich once a fortnight round trip of 40 miles and we tork to them. Take care of yourself and stay safe.

[@markring9336]

I feel your pain Ian I was in a similar situation but no matter where your mum is buried you just close your eyes and she always be there and no one can ever take that away from you.👍👍

[@Ronjobbins1951]

Still here and what a lovely sentimental story. 🙏

[@paulmiller8886]

You are grieving.

[@anthhonymiddleton2991]

Always hard for the loss of a mother i found it hard for years also take care Ian

[@brendariley5341]

You’re not being soft or silly at all - it’s perfectly normal to feel that way. My husband always talks to his mum, she died when he was 16 and ever since then he always said he was talking to himself but he’s talking to her. He got great comfort from that and I think it’s lovely. She’s always with you Farmer P, bless your sweet heart 💐

[@lindacarter679]

Maybe you could plant a fruit tree in the orchard and that way you can still talk to her. I had a rose tree called Mary Rose which was her name planted in my front garden. Xx I'm sure she is proud of you xx

[@peterlockyer1348]

i lost my dad in 2011 still miss him loads ❤😊😊😊😊😊😊

[@davidtitcombe4686]

No Ian you're not daft, I promised my mum we would scatter her ashes over at Portland Bill as she wished and she used to joke about the wind blowing her back into our faces. Sure enough as we let her go the wind changed direction and sure enough some of her ashes blew back into our faces. Both my sister and I kept a small amount which is planted in a large lot with "Mum In a Million" rose, which will go with us when we move. I often talk to my mum and dad at least a couple of days a week. So no Ian we've not daft.

[@timward8335]

Big love from us and the woofers in scottyland. It's lovely for you to still think of your mum as you do. I'm dreading of when I have to make these decisions. Feel for you bud.

[@ritamgilsenan629]

Oh Ian, I'm in tears listening to you chat about your late Mother, may she rest in peace. Having lost my father 19 months ago I totally understand you.

[@markmaas8198]

We totaly understand

[@paulleaver8820]

It's what ever you need and best for you and you had a close relationship with your family you are lucky to have that

[@ingramj777]

Your mum was a wonderful woman Ian. It's a massive thing to say that finally goodbye but remember she will always be with you she will always be in your Hart an she is a massive part of the make up of you. I remember seeing to odd bit of mum In some of the old videos an she is wonderful. God bless the dragon ❤

[@johnwonder9466]

Well said Ian 👏 rest in peace dragon lady

[@koolaskoalas]

My Mum passed 19years ago , I still talk to her daily, they are only gone when we let them go .

[@stablefairy9437]

aww Ian. what a time you are going through and trying to do the best for your Mum. we are all with you, and we all know you will do what is right for you and the rest of the family. May God bless and protect you all xxx

[@slimmy5656]

Im here as i have the the past 4 years. Hightlight of my day. Beautiful video today my love to you and all of you famliy. Thank you for your hard work.

[@Robertbarlow802]

Not depressed, your just showing your love for your family ❤

[@patrickconnolly9079]

Well done Ian we all love our mother.❤

[@jerrypike3530]

Yes farmer P I'm still here you not boring i agree with alot of your veiws know how you feel about your mum we were the same in 2013 when we lost our dad mum really struggled after over 50ys of marriage

[@TheIrishwelder_farm]

Lost my dad and brother a few years ago,it's never easy Ian. Always good to talk . Thanks for another great video.

[@maddog2866]

Know what you mean I miss my grand parents Only lived 500 yards away always in and out of there house as a kid. I'm lucky though grandad did an interview for imperial war museum so i can here him when ever i want.

[@norplan9050]

Ian. That's Life, Talking it Out Can Help. Your a Good Man to Keep the Promise to Your Mom, never fails to encounter a Hic Up or Two. Carry On Sir..

[@markmaas8198]

Jup still here always see the hole video

[@gregphillips24]

No offence intended Ian but I'm glad each day when your video is finished because my hearing in both ears returns to normal as I only have hearing in one ear while it's on.

[@barbarariddick5321]

Tears in my eyes, been there❤

[@JOSH-rj3pj]

@25:06 im still here supporting haha 💪

[@rogerg1840]

I'm still watching

[@944steph]

Out. Your mum will still be with you. I lost my much-loved wife when we were in our 20s, 30-odd years later, and I still talk to her every night. it hurts it really hurts even now, but she lives on with me.

[@barrymurray7635]

It's like the wheelbarrow , it's in front of us all

[@dayvewatson8596]

LoL. sorry. to ear that. 👂 .brilliant

[@jimpolk]

I stayed til the end. God love and comfort you Ian. It's your Mom. I fully understand. You can still talk to her. From wherever you are. Her ashes only represent her body. She's been released from that. So talk to her. I talk to my sisters that have passed all the time. They're in Oklahoma and I'm in NY. I get it. I understand. It will get easier. Promise.

[@123456BobJackson]

Ian I feel your struggle.

[@petetheresellerandscrapper849]

Good on you for sticking to your word takes as long as it takes my gran died everything got cleared sold given to family had the funeral nothing felt final till her house was sold now I go see her and my brother regularly buried close together so I have a talk to them both at the same time

[@stevemortimer4549]

Lovely thoughts for your mum, probate is a nightmare, ridiculously

[@normandagger7542]

Say what you feel, its only yourself who knows your feelings, well done for sharing.

[@jimginn7163]

Still here, i always stay to the end!

[@andrewdougal2262]

Loader brackets on your case for the loader to go from dad's tractor to your tractor with Aircon for biscuit 🐶🐕

[@westlad8494]

Ian how your feeling is perfectly normal their is no correct way of dealing with grief remember you will always have the fun loving memories of your mum she will always be with you can I suggest having a bench made and placed somewhere on the farm with good view it can be somewhere you can sit and still have them conversation with your mum

[@stephenbrockway1626]

You’re being Human , Ian . That’s good , we are close to some in life . Most of all your mother . Life’s complicated Even in passing . Unfortunately Probate and all that crap . Chin up . Lets hear some Ian Banter . 😂😂

[@marionstephen4972]

You will always miss your mum I feel for you as I lost my mum in 1999 plant something or buy something does not have b expensive it b hard for you and rest of your family on the day if your mum liked afternoon tea have that or something else

[@irvenrathburn9421]

Hi MR, P tomorrow is another day I hope you feel better.

[@chrischeltenham]

Most of us can fully understand your reasoning for wanting to keep her close. It is a very sad time when you have to finally say goodbye for good. I am lucky both of my parents are alive still but I worry every day that that day is nearer and I know I won't be able to deal with it well. One thing you could possibly do is have some of her ashes turned into a pendant for you to wear so you always have part of her with you.

[@thomasjones3946]

Well said nothing wrong with getting a little emotional mum's know best stay till the end every time 🙏🙏👏👏

[@VinniePlasterer]

Take it easy

[@JRattheranch]

Ian, I lost my father 30 years ago and believe you me, he's still there with me every day in everything that I do and say! 🙏 Funny thing, watching you driving the 695 down your lanes,, reminded me of your visit to Adrian in Meath last year and if lanes back home in Pembrokeshire and Shropshire! 👌

[@erikklein-x6u]

A man is as good as his word

[@neiljenkins5213]

Re being a good boy first time for everything ian 😂😂😂

[@davidarmstrong1452]

I still talk to my grandad who was my father figure when i was a child, I'm the same age as you Ian 59 and my grandad has been gone 47 years so no, I don't think you're being daft, your mum will always be watching over Ian wherever she is.