Fentanyl and Crack Addict interview-Maggie (follow up)

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Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Maggie, a fentanyl and crack addict in Los Angeles. Here's a link to Maggie's first video: • Heroin Addict intervie...
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@kamroc1
@kamroc1 11 ай бұрын
“Anything I judge, I’m definitely going to experience in my life” Wow! what an insight. Thank you so much.
@MG-zu4st
@MG-zu4st 11 ай бұрын
Big time.That one stopped me in my tracks, as well.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 11 ай бұрын
True. I’ve experienced it in my life.
@eileenhaslof1696
@eileenhaslof1696 11 ай бұрын
That's how I feel about judging! So maybe I'm not done...
@kamroc1
@kamroc1 11 ай бұрын
@@eileenhaslof1696 It’s human to judge but there is wisdom in understanding the consequences.
@stashnormanok8878
@stashnormanok8878 11 ай бұрын
So true. Literally every single thing I've ever judged has been a teacher to me one way or another. So important to realize this. ❤
@lindseywalker4730
@lindseywalker4730 10 ай бұрын
We were in rehab together about 7 years ago. She was the most put together stable person in the whole program. Crazy to see her on here from the other side of the country! If you see this Maggie you were an inspiration in there for alot of us. You can get back there, girl! ❤
@kayciemonsibay5689
@kayciemonsibay5689 10 ай бұрын
i was in rehab with you and maggie also! i was really sad to see her on here also. breaks my heart she was an inspiration and a truly amazing person inside and out. hope you are doing well lindsey! rooting for you maggie! you got this girl! ❤
@feelthejoy
@feelthejoy 10 ай бұрын
She seems so intelligent and articulate despite her addiction. I hope she can get back to sobriety.
@sopiosurguladze3565
@sopiosurguladze3565 9 ай бұрын
Girls, It tears me up to see you support each other ❤️ from other side of the world, from someone who has never experienced this life, Im so proud and inspired by this girl power as a woman myself ❤️
@RougeMaster
@RougeMaster 9 ай бұрын
​@@sopiosurguladze3565 for reals us girls need to stick together
@456ism
@456ism 11 ай бұрын
Her photo is breathtaking and the look in her eyes haunting. You caught her beauty and essence - the pain, the tragedy, but also resilience. The way she holds herself up .. there’s strength left there.
@ivaloowilson3524
@ivaloowilson3524 11 ай бұрын
I agree. And if or when she gets clean she would be so much more beautiful.💔❤️‍🩹❤️
@jaymegallo5575
@jaymegallo5575 10 ай бұрын
@Mr.McBigMacFattyhow old are you?
@ilovekatieasmr
@ilovekatieasmr 5 күн бұрын
yeah cuz that's all that matters...her being beautiful
@456ism
@456ism 5 күн бұрын
@ god job missing the point. The beauty is in the human and the story her whole being conveys.
@ilovekatieasmr
@ilovekatieasmr 5 күн бұрын
@@456ismwhat if she was a man, would you still call it a “breathtaking “ photo
@tacubocu
@tacubocu 11 ай бұрын
Girl, if you're watching this, please take care, sending positive vibes your way! You've been through a lot, love.
@mustachadon
@mustachadon 11 ай бұрын
Shes so down to earth about everything. I wish the best for you girl. It takes a special kindof person to maintain that kindof awareness in the depths of addiction. I was a heroin addict for 10 years, fentanyl for 5, now ive been clean for 8. Youll get there. You see the problems which is alot more than most can say.
@betsbullins9442
@betsbullins9442 11 ай бұрын
You're so intelligent Maggie. I'm astounded and envious at your ability to self reflect and your wisdom behind that. I pray that you're able to continue the reduction of your daily habit and eventually get completely clean. I also pray that you're able to reconnect with your family. I believe in you Maggie. Elizabeth from NC
@Robertarelli666
@Robertarelli666 11 ай бұрын
Wow if you're truly envious of her "intellect" then you must be really dumb 😂
@ZariaG720
@ZariaG720 11 ай бұрын
Well put, I wish the same for this intelligent beautiful lady, Miss Maggie
@christoth2705
@christoth2705 10 ай бұрын
she is just like every other junkie.
@danielapardo7982
@danielapardo7982 7 ай бұрын
same! you got this, Maggie!
@esrealwilleatit8574
@esrealwilleatit8574 11 ай бұрын
Man this girl could really make a difference in the lives of addicts if she would get clean. She’s smart and well spoken even in her current state. I pray she gets some help.
@gol788
@gol788 11 ай бұрын
she not going to date you bro
@Cognitoman
@Cognitoman 11 ай бұрын
@@gol788😂
@esrealwilleatit8574
@esrealwilleatit8574 11 ай бұрын
@@gol788 dude I’m very happy with the life and the wife that I have. Maybe you should look deeper into yourself and find out what makes you the way you are. Someone leaves a positive comment about someone and you come and try to make it something that it isn’t. Maybe you have some deep seated issues that you need to resolve so you can be happy with yourself.
@Last_Chance.
@Last_Chance. 11 ай бұрын
​@@gol788don't be such an ignorant beta
@Aldatas
@Aldatas 11 ай бұрын
@@esrealwilleatit8574 I feel like the user just made a silly joke. Nothing serious...
@mollymarsden2274
@mollymarsden2274 11 ай бұрын
Hi there! Another chronic pain sufferer here - I wish I could give you a big hug. You didn’t deserve any of the abuse you went through, and I don’t judge you for how you’re dealing with your pain (physical and emotional). You’re beautiful, highly intelligent and articulate, and worthy of all of the love, Maggie. 💕 I wish you the world.
@arybolanos752
@arybolanos752 11 ай бұрын
Substance nor circumstance is the cause nor condition that leads to addiction. Trauma is the general truth of an addict and this can be transformed with a honesty and change of actions. It takes tremendous amount of work and fearless soul searching with some guidance. Detox and therapy will not be sufficient. A new lifestyle of honesty and principled living may help but there is work to be done to get there. She is not the sort to be SCARED into a new life. I am in recovery and run across addiction daily. I see the guise that people use to explain WHY they are addicted. Triggers and events are but on the surface and it is below the surface that the essential problems festers. You can get an adcict clean and talking about their deep pain. If they do not seek some sort of action that differs in the midst of the storm they will likely seek out what changes the way they feel, since they do not practice a new manner of walking and wrestling with what they feel. We do not find a new way to be comfortable. We find a new way to react to pain. That is very different.
@NickPappapetru
@NickPappapetru 11 ай бұрын
Get on methadone work s for me I can work not steAl and you are a good person for society
@NickPappapetru
@NickPappapetru 11 ай бұрын
Suboxone is bullshit
@NickPappapetru
@NickPappapetru 11 ай бұрын
Putting an opiate with a naloxone which is a opiate antagonist is just insane take them both and you will go through withdrawal period methadone is the way to go been living normal for 22 years now on the juice
@NickPappapetru
@NickPappapetru 11 ай бұрын
@@arybolanos752 you need a shrink
@flysky6248
@flysky6248 11 ай бұрын
Mark thank you for your empathy,kindness,compassion and unconditional love.
@celestialcircledance
@celestialcircledance 11 ай бұрын
When Maggie spoke about reflecting on finding self-acceptance even if she never makes a complete recovery it struck me as humble and wise. Her fragile appearance does make her seem more vulnerable to all the abuse she's putting her body through and I hope she'll be okay .I also like what she said about tent etiquette being the same as house etiquette which is something to be mindful of .
@buddhaganesh6318
@buddhaganesh6318 11 ай бұрын
Early childhood trauma is behind so many mental health addiction issues
@Here4TheHeckOfIt
@Here4TheHeckOfIt 10 ай бұрын
Trauma is behind so many mental health, addiction, and anti-social behavior. Abuse creates such a strain on society.
@anndhupelia8175
@anndhupelia8175 7 ай бұрын
So so true 🥲
@55linka
@55linka 5 ай бұрын
All of them ....
@melissamartin9615
@melissamartin9615 11 ай бұрын
Is so sad to see the difference in her now versus 4 years ago she even sounds different when she speaks. May God lift you up and help you recover baby girl
@Saer-s9u
@Saer-s9u 11 ай бұрын
✨️💞🕊💞✨️
@angelmarie1112
@angelmarie1112 4 ай бұрын
Yes it really is so sad to see. Esp as someone in recovery. I hope she is able to find peace in her life
@DEGZATION
@DEGZATION 11 ай бұрын
Love your black and white portrait of her. Her beauty shows through even with all she has been through , but you also captured the fragility in her eyes…
@NAT-turners-Revenge
@NAT-turners-Revenge 11 ай бұрын
Cant wait to see your black N white photo 😊
@andrewslagle1974
@andrewslagle1974 11 ай бұрын
@@NAT-turners-Revenge creep!
@nicksterp2805
@nicksterp2805 10 ай бұрын
As a health care worker, I think it's disgusting how the health system gets ppl hooked on these drug, takes them away and then ppl have to resort to illegal drugs for their pain
@guillermofranco3635
@guillermofranco3635 8 ай бұрын
Thank you health care worker. As far as I’m concerned, the health care system has created the fentanyl epidemic. People who have chronic pain need pain meds. The distribution and oversight of pain meds is very controlled. We who were once on pain meds in the healthcare system were NOT the problem. However, so many of us became the problem once we were cold turkey’ed from the system.
@TinyGrim-vx1lu
@TinyGrim-vx1lu 7 ай бұрын
When ever I had my many surgeries, I always was very careful. And docs I had gave me just enough. Then take Tylenol or too bad . Even with broken bones. I always asked for Percocet. They gave me a crap load of straight up morphine tabs once, and I didn't like them...took em back lol the pharmacist looked at me like I was crazy. Docs should straight up ask do you have potential for dependency , I want to prescribe the right type and dor only such and such a time frame. Certainly more communication is best. 50/50 at fault ... person and care system I believe.
@Wentr-z
@Wentr-z 6 ай бұрын
@@TinyGrim-vx1lu "then tylenol or too bad" is such a shitty and not realistic outlook. thats why we have pain patients unable to get their medications today and are being pushed on to suboxone and gabapentin even tho gabapentin isnt recommend or approved for pain treatement. just because i or you were a addict doesnt mean you have the right to treat everyone like a addict.,
@Brobro37372
@Brobro37372 5 ай бұрын
Exactly - so many people were left behind in the opioid crisis
@TheValenya91
@TheValenya91 2 ай бұрын
I think its mostly in the US, here in Europe is more controlled ans tested in comparison. Altought I am so scared of getting addicted to meds that I would prefer to be in pain than addicted in the long run. I know its not a solution to be in pain but there should be more control on prescriptions
@lynnehuff7059
@lynnehuff7059 11 ай бұрын
The drugs are so hard on you Maggie. Poor babe, I'm so sorry to hear that you went through that.
@Last_Chance.
@Last_Chance. 11 ай бұрын
Same. God bless you. I hope you have a beautiful day sweetheart
@youtooaromatherapyyoga2991
@youtooaromatherapyyoga2991 11 ай бұрын
Ooof! Such a scary difference in 4 years. Her voice is so much more gruff from the smoking and she looks like an addict now whereas she didn’t before. Poor girl. She still speaks very quickly so I watched on 0.75 so I could get what she was saying 🌹
@stuff1784
@stuff1784 11 ай бұрын
Yeah 😢
@mandykitson7039
@mandykitson7039 10 ай бұрын
Her voice is the Fentanyl, i was a heroin addict for years and it tends to ' strangle ' the voice - she's very out of it :(
@sethchapman8001
@sethchapman8001 10 ай бұрын
I really appreciate people getting to see and hear an addict as intelligent as Maggie. People need to realize and be reminded that every addict out there is a PERSON, with hopes, loves, fears, dreams, etc. and deserves to be treated with kindness and respect. In my life I have made the mistake of judging, and every time I eventually experience it from the other side.
@siddhartha740
@siddhartha740 6 ай бұрын
"Whatever you have judgment towards, you will experience." That hit me like a ton of bricks! She's a smart woman
@VIP-ry6vv
@VIP-ry6vv 11 ай бұрын
I was engaged to a woman exactly like this. Prescribed pain meds for a chronic condition, then failed by the healthcare system and turned to street drugs. I remember her ranting ten years ago that fent was going to be the breakthrough she needed to get clean. I didn't know what fent was then, but I do now and it's obviously so much worse. I don't know if she's alive or how she's doing. It's really sad.
@NickPappapetru
@NickPappapetru 11 ай бұрын
It's such a common problem here in the States
@waitaminute2015
@waitaminute2015 11 ай бұрын
I belong to a support group for a condition, caused by epidurals gone wrong, and cause chronic pain among other problems. Some end up on the street after being cut off of meds if they don't commit suicide. Right now there's literally millions still getting prescribed pain meds that are managing, and although we rely on meds, we are functioning and have quality of life, not buying meds on the street and following protocol. There's a fear for all of us, if cut off, that we will turn to dangerous methods to help with pain.
@NAT-turners-Revenge
@NAT-turners-Revenge 11 ай бұрын
Shes at my house
@Last_Chance.
@Last_Chance. 11 ай бұрын
​@@NAT-turners-Revengecongratulations!! Your mom and I are so proud of you!! You did such a good job little guy.
@karenfryberger4260
@karenfryberger4260 11 ай бұрын
@@NAT-turners-Revenge If you're considering comedy...don't quit your day job, if you have one.
@Stephanie-lb4yo
@Stephanie-lb4yo 11 ай бұрын
She sounds very smart and aware of what she wants. Praying she can get clean from everything. She will get sick of it again one day, if she makes it that far. PRAYING FOR HER RECOVERY!! ❤
@desultorilypanacea
@desultorilypanacea 11 ай бұрын
Damn it, Maggie! We care if you live or die. Total strangers care about you more than you will ever know.
@cbearz-ul7fl
@cbearz-ul7fl 11 ай бұрын
I’m sobbing watching this so hard. Please god help get clean and living the life she truly deserves 🥹💕💕
@ginaann864
@ginaann864 11 ай бұрын
Man, she seems really in tune with everything, she has so much potential and I really hope that she finds her way. She could do great things….fantastic interview.
@Krinsta1
@Krinsta1 11 ай бұрын
I just watched the first interview. It's very sad to see the two together. I liked her comment that the opposite of addiction is connection and purpose. Easily said almost impossible to do. Thank goodness she hasn't had children. The honesty was really confronting and sad. She will be an addict for life. The sexual abuse kicked this young woman down a horrendous path.
@cbean0017
@cbean0017 11 ай бұрын
You sound pretty ignorant. Clearly not in recovery. We do recover
@Krinsta1
@Krinsta1 11 ай бұрын
@cbean0017 I hope she does recover. She said she believed her life would probably not change because of the sexual abuse and the time that has passed. You think I am ignorant. You don't know me.
@asdzt123
@asdzt123 11 ай бұрын
I hope that she gets clean, it's really disheartening to see the effects of that poison in such a beautiful and intelligent woman. But even if she doesn't I hope she at least can get some happy moments in between the drugs, the chronic pain and the trauma. I feel for you Maggie, take care and don't give up on life.
@candacecarlson2456
@candacecarlson2456 11 ай бұрын
Hello Mark. This is Mama and Candy from Alabama. We have faithfully followed you and the Whitakers( I’m not sure on my spelling). We love you. We really do and we can tell that you are sincerely broken about all that’s been going on. I want to encourage you to keep doing what your doing and don’t give up. You have done so much good for so many….more than just the Whitaker family. I just think of the next family that you are supposed to meet that will need you just like Ray. There will always be credits and those troublemakers. And I’ve noticed that since this happened all the rats came out to tell lies. I pray you will keep up the good work and not let this discourage you. You are a good man with a good heart.
@AmyTimmons-y7j
@AmyTimmons-y7j 11 ай бұрын
Such an honest insightful interview. I've been working in drug and alcohol treatment for many years, and I wish everyone would learn to love themselves. She would be an amazing peer support.
@indyo7
@indyo7 11 ай бұрын
Poor girl keep fighting. Plenty of wisdom be strong
@amyhammon5437
@amyhammon5437 11 ай бұрын
Hearing her speak of Judgment Karma the way I have for the last several years is very validating. I have tried to explain this phenomena in my life to ppl.. She said it well. Many blessings and much respect. 🙏
@amstergal
@amstergal 11 ай бұрын
How is anyone supposed to "get clean" if they suffer chronic pain as I think Maggie said she continues to have from the motorcycle accident? Knowing the addiction that is created, I'd be terrified if I were ever in a situation where pain meds were offered or administered. Maggie you are beautiful, intelligent and so interesting. I hope you are able to get back on the program you mentioned to also enable you to stop the fentanyl and crack addiction.
@breed_2349
@breed_2349 11 ай бұрын
Sending love to Maggie, hope the next time we here form her she’s in a better and happier situation, she has heart and personality, with the right push and a little direction she will come back far stronger
@leachville3001
@leachville3001 11 ай бұрын
So sad to see how much she's changed in 4yrs. My heart goes out to you❤
@nay0916
@nay0916 11 ай бұрын
Oh Maggie. I pray you can get clean. I lost my best friend to Fentanyl 2 years ago.
@baghodler508
@baghodler508 11 ай бұрын
It really sucks to see someone either away. I was a bad crack addict for years and I didn't realize my physical appearance deteriorating in front of everyone I love and cared about. It's a never ending grind to get that rock and do it over and over again.
@baghodler508
@baghodler508 11 ай бұрын
Wither away
@Freddybender123
@Freddybender123 11 ай бұрын
I know that all to well..23 years sober for me ..hope this girl realizes that the drug is the master and your the puppet and it will take you down don’t let it sweetheart ❤
@stuff1784
@stuff1784 11 ай бұрын
Congratulations on your sobriety ❤
@Freddybender123
@Freddybender123 11 ай бұрын
@@stuff1784 thank u!!
@cracked29
@cracked29 11 ай бұрын
Hi, Maggie. ❤️ You truly are a fighter. I’m proud of you. You have such a light inside you, and you truly deserve to know your words have spoken to me. I relate to you: big accident; chronic pain, sexual trauma, our age.. You have the world in front of you -I am cheering you on! Your introspection is amazing.. thanks for your time. Prayers, hugs.. stay safe - Kate
@onepartyroule
@onepartyroule 11 ай бұрын
This lady is keeping it real and seems determined to retain her humanity and moral standards; that gives me hope that she can get clean and onto a healthier track. Maggie, if you’re reading this, I’ll be thinking of you and willing you on. You have that beautiful light in you, please don’t let your mind and this world block it! X
@lindasacks8572
@lindasacks8572 11 ай бұрын
What a beautiful woman. So intelligent and interesting. I wonder what would make her truly happy, and hope she finds it.
@rosieposie9564
@rosieposie9564 11 ай бұрын
This is one smart woman. I wish her full recovery. With her intelligence, self reflection and honesty she could make a real difference to the life of others. Even in her addiction she is still lucid and wise. She has so many strengths that I fully believe that she can definitely pull through even though it might be hard. She looks so young too, that lifestyle has not aged her at all.
@sylwiakowalczyk3270
@sylwiakowalczyk3270 11 ай бұрын
What do you mean by smart? I see a broken addict. Yes, she had it rough. Yes, she had an accident but many people do. I don’t see smart. Unfortunately. I see an addict, that manipulates the truth. She is obviously a new person. Not the addict she was, when she was 18. And is managing her addiction? The addiction is in her family, so she is excused to be one. My whole family is made of hard core alcoholics, and I don’t touch alcohol and drugs. She is right about one thing though. Addiction is a choice. Not a decease. As harsh as it may sound it is true. She was considering giving her eggs to another woman? Lord please, if you are watching don’t let her ever get pregnant. I wish her all the best in the world, but I cannot say, that she is very smart and applaud her for her lifestyle.
@rosieposie9564
@rosieposie9564 11 ай бұрын
@@sylwiakowalczyk3270 You see a broken addict, I see a person with a sharp analytical, intelligent mind despite her addiction. She is likely truthful too. Unlike many others featured on SWU her story, dates and details always remain very consistent as it was 3 years ago. Also, she has made no excuses for her addiction. She even said at one point that she did not fully understand it which is understandable because addiction is complex in many cases especially where childhood sexual abuse, physical pain management issues etc present. She absolutely did not say she actually wanted to give her eggs to another for conception. She gave a speculative, hypothetical scenario under which she could have had children due her thinking she would not have been able to carry children due to pelvic damage, she only mentioned this when Mark asked her about why she never had children. You seem so harsh, unempathetic and judgemental to me, SWU usually inspires people to be the very opposite of that. You also demonstrated a very poor understanding of what the lady actually said.
@rosieposie9564
@rosieposie9564 11 ай бұрын
​@@sylwiakowalczyk3270 You see a broken addict, I see a person with a sharp analytical, intelligent mind despite her addiction. She is likely truthful too. Unlike many others featured on SWU her story, dates and details always remain very consistent as it was 3 years ago. Also, she has made no excuses for her addiction. She even said at one point that she did not fully understand it which is understandably because addiction is complex in many cases especially where childhood sexual abuse, physical pain management etc present. She absolutely did not say she wanted to give her eggs to another for conception. She gave a speculative, hypothetical scenario under which she could have had children due her thinking she would not have been able to carry children due to pelvic damage, she only mentioned this when Mark asked her about why she never had children. This lady is better served with encouragement, lack of harshness, judgment and comparison. It is the least we can do for all the wisdom most of us here see in her despite all she is going through. You also demonstrated a very poor understanding of what the lady actually said.
@rosieposie9564
@rosieposie9564 11 ай бұрын
@@sylwiakowalczyk3270 I hope this reply to do remains posted. You see a broken addict, I see a person with a sharp analytical, intelligent mind despite her addiction. She is likely truthful too. Unlike some others featured on SWU her story, dates and details always remain very consistent as it was 3 years ago. Also, she has made no excuses for her addiction. She even said at one point that she did not fully understand it which is understandable because addiction is complex in many cases especially where childhood sexual abuse, physical pain management issues etc are present. She absolutely did not say she wanted to give her eggs to another for conception. She gave a speculative, hypothetical scenario under which she could have had children due her thinking she would not have been able to carry children due to pelvic damage, she only mentioned this when Mark asked her about why she never had children. This lady is better served with encouragement, lack of harshness, judgment and comparison. It is the least we can do for all the wisdom most of us here see in her despite all she is going through. Very strangely, you have demonstrated a very poor understanding of what the lady has actually said for some reason.
@rosieposie9564
@rosieposie9564 11 ай бұрын
@@sylwiakowalczyk3270 I have posted a reply to your comment but somehow it is not remaining posted as frequently happens with this channel. I will attempt to reply again later,
@klbbeeswillow
@klbbeeswillow 11 ай бұрын
Maggie, I myself was injured years ago in a car accident and prior to that,I've always had chronic back pain since I was young. Doctors are so quick to prescribe this and that ,and when it doesn't have the effect,prescribe stronger meds. That is how I went down the rabbit hole and I went so deep I felt I couldn't get out but I did ,and it took around 3-4 years to get a hold on and fight. That was ions ago it seems now and I am so grateful that it has been 21 years of sobriety for me. Please even for a short minute or 2 ,look into a mirror or anywhere you can see your reflection and in that short moment ,tell yourself I want to love myself and I will love myself and fight for myself dammit because I am important and I fricking want more. Something that might be laughed at or not taken seriously telling you this but that helped me start small like taking less pills and every now and then passing up a chance to score and made myself crave and feel sick and I grew a tolerance to more pain and I found alternatives like getting into pottery making and gardening, even meditating helped and continues to . I hope you read this Maggie. I can sense you are strong and a true blue and know I am rooting for you 🌻
@andrewslagle1974
@andrewslagle1974 11 ай бұрын
How do you deal with massive physical pain then ?
@klbbeeswillow
@klbbeeswillow 11 ай бұрын
@@andrewslagle1974 topical creams, acupuncture biweekly ( it used to be weekly) yoga and certain exercises, medicinal teas I've grown some of the herbs for, heating pads, and I worked hard building a tolerance to the pain I have. It's not easy,trust me because every now and then I want to give in .I'm so grateful that all this I've done has been enough for me but honestly I am a bit scared for when I get much older because I know the back pains eventually will cause me to not be able to walk and I do pray. I pray I won't need what the doctors will be eager to prescribe to me to "help".
@klbbeeswillow
@klbbeeswillow 10 ай бұрын
​@@andrewslagle1974 not sure why my reply was deleted but I'll try to comment again. I use topical creams , acupuncture, certain exercises and I've changed my diet and simply just built a tolerance for the pain I have at times relentlessly in my lower back. I do get nervous at times with thoughts of when I become elderly and have to be in a wheelchair due to the crippling pain over time ,but I feel I will be ready to face that head on when I get there someday ,so for now I just live in the now. It started with day by day week by week, month by month .
@andrewslagle1974
@andrewslagle1974 10 ай бұрын
@@klbbeeswillow My comment was deleted also i was in a bad work accident multi level fusion chronic pain .You know the deal .The DRs have me on a regiment that works for me but i would like to talk to you if your ok with that. I dont know how to reach out to you ?Thanx Andrew.
@troyswarts7353
@troyswarts7353 10 ай бұрын
@@klbbeeswillow I too have chronic back pain, have had for years. Wearing a compression belt helps but like you said the years seem to add on to intensity of pain. Going around the corner too fast in a car will trigger massive pain spasms in my back. I’m going to try yoga and stretching to try to help also. Sometimes realizing that other people suffer much worse helps. I like your comment about living in the now.
@UrbanKiwiana
@UrbanKiwiana 11 ай бұрын
Magie has such a beautiful deep soul, its like her spirit is seeking more but shes on the journey and though she's an addict shes still vibrant an open and living her life,, I wish her only the best much love an Light Magie, and much respect Marc.
@ilovebuyers
@ilovebuyers 11 ай бұрын
I hate addiction! I wish I could cure the world of addiction! So may awesome people dealing with that sick decease. I pray that one day you are free! I know addiction!
@dannyrenehan7875
@dannyrenehan7875 11 ай бұрын
Shes such a character, really compelling person. Can see a real life force potential in her. Thanks for another great portrait!
@Schlimpiwe
@Schlimpiwe 11 ай бұрын
i really believe you have a lot to offer. if not to yourself, then to other people. the compassion you speak with is very imminent, please dont let that go to waste on mere acquaintances, its not well spent there. im a recovering addict myself and sharing a good time with my friends is my main motivation, not for my sake but for theirs. if youre reading this please consider trying to give your time and energy to people that truly appreciate it. by looking at what the past 4 years have done to you it doesnt seem like youve had good company. if you cant make yourself happy maybe at least some other people worthy of it
@judymedina3280
@judymedina3280 10 ай бұрын
Oh Maggie. Please take care of yourself. You have so much to offer when you get clean for good. My daughter was a heroin/coke addict, then alcoholic and has been clean for 20 years and doing great. She did it on her own after 3 rehab fails. I have so much respect for her for climbing out of that deep hole. She has taught us so much. You’ve got this sweetie! You can do it.
@medokarbo
@medokarbo 11 ай бұрын
I agree with Maggie’s lesson learned. Judging is the precursor to experiencing that which I judged. This has played out in my life as well, in probably all our lives if we’re being honest.
@cheryleaston6820
@cheryleaston6820 11 ай бұрын
Actually shes 38 and looks pretty good in her situation. Shes a very bright intelligent woman. I hope she finds her peace.
@jorb1903
@jorb1903 11 ай бұрын
Yea holy shit I thought she was in her 20s
@celinemccutcheon1988
@celinemccutcheon1988 11 ай бұрын
Yeh. I thought late 20's or 30 tops
@enaidu58
@enaidu58 11 ай бұрын
I certainly thought she was younger than 38. God bless her! I hope she finds freedom from her addition. She has so much potential.
@booshank2327
@booshank2327 10 ай бұрын
Are you 4 people due opticians appointments?
@janegilbert6280
@janegilbert6280 11 ай бұрын
What a beautiful and thoughtful person. Wishing you peace and contentment, no matter what path you take, but I certainly hope you can find your way to a happier situation.
@daughterofwater
@daughterofwater 8 күн бұрын
Maggie, I felt you and your humanity so much in this interview. Your heart is wise, you have such a huge capacity for love and understanding. You are a beautiful person, truly. I pray that you feel this huge circle of support holding prayer for you and your triumph over the things that are binding you. So much love, beauty.
@shanalazarone828
@shanalazarone828 10 ай бұрын
Maggie 🫶🏼 Hi gorgeous! I love your interview. I think it’s probably in my top 10 videos of SWU. I love in the beginning you mention going back to read the comments to lift your spirit when you are down. This comment section is great! So many people adore you. You have such a lovely inner light. You seem very kind and thoughtful. I would love to hug you and hang out with you. You seem like a really amazing person to be around. Regardless of you using or not. Thank you so much for your honestly, humility and intelligence. You have so much to offer others. Especially other women! Sending love to you my friend 🖤
@Inbedwithbrandon
@Inbedwithbrandon 11 ай бұрын
I’m so sorry you’re going thru this.
@aspartamekillsyaknow9019
@aspartamekillsyaknow9019 11 ай бұрын
It's a choice, she wasn't born like that
@Cotillion308
@Cotillion308 11 ай бұрын
What about babies born addicted? There are tons of people born addicted in this country. ​@@aspartamekillsyaknow9019
@minawanderer8196
@minawanderer8196 11 ай бұрын
​@@aspartamekillsyaknow9019pls hold on!It's not a choice it's often from mental illness,abuse&more.
@fivestaramethyst
@fivestaramethyst 11 ай бұрын
i think this is by far one of my favorite interviews! i also believe that everything i judge i will experience!! i think it’s kind of a way of well you’re being judgmental then it’ll come back to you ten fold, type of thing so i totally understand your concept on that. maggie you are so well spoken and a very intelligent individual. don’t give up, you still got time to get clean! wishing you the best of luck!
@Timberon
@Timberon 11 ай бұрын
Maggie, you should watch the original video. You need to see what you used to be like and what you're like now. Sobriety is a choice. Addiction is real, but sobriety is a choice. I know firsthand. It's not an easy choice, but it is. Life is good being sober. Stop making excuses. You have so much to offer and a long happy life to live.
@edieseltzer4896
@edieseltzer4896 11 ай бұрын
This is so amazingly genuine! Ty 4 sharing❤
@john.wick.111
@john.wick.111 11 ай бұрын
What a difference 4 years makes
@TheTfroggy912
@TheTfroggy912 11 ай бұрын
I can genuinely tell that she’s a good person. I really want her to succeed.
@gerryncadd
@gerryncadd 10 ай бұрын
Man, what an intelligent well spoken woman, I hope she can get through this, thankyou again Mark for the work you do!
@Lindsey-cq9io
@Lindsey-cq9io 11 ай бұрын
Sending you love and light sweetheart. You owe yourself a better life baby girl don't stop fighting. You're a warrior.
@cassier3242
@cassier3242 4 ай бұрын
Oh Maggie, i’m sending you so much light, love, and positivity. Please take care of yourself. We all care about you and want you to succeed. You are stronger than you know. You got this girl. I will be rooting for you.
@flirtwd
@flirtwd 11 ай бұрын
I just saw her interview from 4 years ago. She was so beautiful and intelligent. Now she over the edge of darkness. What a shame.
@briannaburke2572
@briannaburke2572 11 ай бұрын
Extremely rare I genuinely like an addict because they tend to all end up the same shitty way… I for one am on her side she seems intelligent and decent. Good luck please get well soon you matter
@averyplainman
@averyplainman 10 ай бұрын
I love when it’s an update and they’re doing better. ❤
@carissapaglino4591
@carissapaglino4591 9 күн бұрын
She’s not doing better she’s doing much worse.
@gregthomas2448
@gregthomas2448 11 ай бұрын
I was a skeptic of Mark, now I stand with him. Excellent work with empathy and a genuine care and concern for people. 👍
@1eyedwilli3
@1eyedwilli3 11 ай бұрын
I hope she finds peace. I hope she stays clean and lives a happy life.
@miniharez
@miniharez 11 ай бұрын
the photos are so generous with these people, its like a gateway into their potential. then you get into the real interview, the way they really look, move, and act, and its like woof! geez addiction is so horrible.
@ClaudiaImbriano-fg4cp
@ClaudiaImbriano-fg4cp 10 ай бұрын
So true and such a great way to say it.
@kkalning
@kkalning 3 ай бұрын
This video knocked me out. Maggie, you are a force. You are smart as hell and a gifted speaker. It is your superpower.
@ralphromeo7066
@ralphromeo7066 11 ай бұрын
I feel Maggie would thrive under different circumstances. We're undoubtedly products of our environment. It's a cruel world.
@MEL2theJ
@MEL2theJ 10 ай бұрын
Thank you for the follow-up interview Maggie & SWU
@mad.is.on13
@mad.is.on13 11 ай бұрын
she's so well spoken
@kraigskraigs.kraigs6484
@kraigskraigs.kraigs6484 11 ай бұрын
Maggie,thanks for adding your good to humanity
@kdizzle081
@kdizzle081 11 ай бұрын
Loved the comparison of life situations and how to respect one another
@MG-zu4st
@MG-zu4st 11 ай бұрын
It doesn't matter how many times you have tried and failed, when you are ready, you CAN, absolutely, find sobriety and have a totally different and better life. I wish it for you, Maggie. Good luck.
@tko2072
@tko2072 11 ай бұрын
My heart breaks for this young lady. Best wishes for her recovery .
@craigslist6988
@craigslist6988 11 ай бұрын
I don't think all addicts can get clean, at least not without a ton of help, but for her I genuinely believe she could. Because she is smart and perceptve enough, and she doesn't seem to have strong cultural ties to this lifestyle. She could get out, if she ever really wants it. If she accepts that she can't expect to be able to solve any of her problems when she's addicted. She has to square up against the addiction first and be determined to fight to get out. If she can get into that space mentally she is capable of winning that fight... for now. If she continues to not want a sober life.. she will soon lose that intelligence and with it the opportunity to choose. And that is assuming none of the other risks associated with that life take it away sooner. Maggie if you read these comments, I hope you think about it and find something inside of you that motivates you to want something better. The world isn't nice but that doesn't mean you can't be happy. And don't wait on 'god' to figure it out, it's just us humans out here and we all have to figure it out together.
@HeavyHardDrive
@HeavyHardDrive 11 ай бұрын
The drugs have taken a toll but I still see the same person Maggie. The future is what we make of it. You make the choices, you own up to them, and you keep up with strong will power to continue down the right path and life will turn around.
@tiefensucht
@tiefensucht 11 ай бұрын
But you can't make the right choices when you are drugged and in that situation.
@Skumpakrig1984
@Skumpakrig1984 10 ай бұрын
Great to see an update! Wish you all the best
@jasonboltz8255
@jasonboltz8255 11 ай бұрын
Such an incredibly interesting woman. I hope she gets the help she needs.
@GeorgeWHaydukeIII6396
@GeorgeWHaydukeIII6396 11 ай бұрын
Poor girl. Its sad how bad of a job we do talking care of each other. Especially here in America.😢
@soccerchick1
@soccerchick1 11 ай бұрын
This. The sense of community is so lost.
@kaylanicoletran
@kaylanicoletran 10 ай бұрын
She is so self aware and well spoken. Breaks my heart to see her and others struggle like this.
@kosejin83
@kosejin83 Ай бұрын
Hey Mags, I know you didn't want me to watch your interviews while I was sitting next to you which, you were right, would've been kinda weird. We shared bits and pieces of our stories other day but hearing your story like this, I dunno, you're awesome!!!! Your view on addiction, life on the streets of skid row, and your general outlook on life completely opened my eyes!
@liebs1973
@liebs1973 11 ай бұрын
This lovely lady. I went from fentanyl to suboxone works wonders. I wish I could help her.
@irenes6627
@irenes6627 10 ай бұрын
Hi Maggie I suffer with C PTSD which then manifested into Chronic pain and ME/CFS. My life has been hurtful, traumatic, lonely, crushing basically then I get hit with physical illness.....I'm still asking Why? You are an absolute warrior and in touch with what's not good for you. Your very aware, bright, switched on, beautiful and here in every sense. I live in Scotland and monitored closely whilst taking strong pain meds, I'm housebound with my pain and ME/CFS.....basically had my life taken away but I'm still breathing! I use disassociation to help me through my days (don't know if that's a good thing but it helps me). We can look back and wonder why? If? How dare they? Etc but i can't go there anymore, no more therapy etc. I just want to get back to my life. Take care Irene ❤
@JimSande
@JimSande 10 ай бұрын
Clearly a very intelligent person, who can articulate her experience with great understanding. I hope she can become clean and put her energy into building her health in mind and body. She could help a lot of people.
@farcenter
@farcenter 11 ай бұрын
It's not her look change that got me, it's her speech.
@Sparrowinthepines
@Sparrowinthepines 9 ай бұрын
I completely agree. It’s very heartbreaking to witness.
@watchoutitsthisguy
@watchoutitsthisguy 11 ай бұрын
been sober 12 years. this dear lady speaks truth and speaks so well - more than anyone ive met in recovery. if she could find the right path out of addiction, shed be unstoppable. 🙏🏻🖤
@buddhaganesh6318
@buddhaganesh6318 11 ай бұрын
She is extremely articulate
@angelastars27
@angelastars27 11 ай бұрын
Praying for this woman. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
@robertafarrell2338
@robertafarrell2338 11 ай бұрын
Praying for a miracle for this lost soul. 🙏 Its amazing how intelligent she is. I hope she turns her life around . #Maggiematters
@lasmluclasm3781
@lasmluclasm3781 11 ай бұрын
Can you lot shut up about her looks and simply treat her as a human being.
@princess2upretty
@princess2upretty 11 ай бұрын
It is noticeable and it shows the audience what drugs (aka poison) do to a person.
@alexvanniekerk9473
@alexvanniekerk9473 10 ай бұрын
This woman has blown my mind. I would never have thought that a 20 year addict could be so articulate and insightful. I hope she gets back to a good place soon, whatever that means for her.
@murderycatdoll1380
@murderycatdoll1380 11 ай бұрын
Drugs are so horrible ....she clearly is SO intelligent and wäre and could be so incredible in a "normal" Life. Drugs overwrite really anything sane. Hope at some point she can get Off them. All the best.
@Rachel-zc3ww
@Rachel-zc3ww 10 ай бұрын
What lovely person, - I would like to pray for Maggie that a good safer path opens up !
@DarcyFuhrman
@DarcyFuhrman 10 ай бұрын
Maggie, I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope you can find the strength, courage and path to recovery again. I am on the other side and I can promise you, sober will feel better in a short time. Your brain like mine, keeps telling us that we have to have it to feel normal and to fear being sick. All the while, deep down we know that it is better on the other side. Don't fear sober. Stand and face it and show the world you live for you and not a feeling. I will never judge you but I am cheering for you!
@fastbreak0822
@fastbreak0822 11 ай бұрын
Sending good positive vibes your way...... You are extremely intelligent and aware and often this intelligence causes us to analyze ourselves into a corner..... From my experience over the years I believe we as a society could up the successful sustainable recovery percentages by giving long term support with much more extensive rehabilitation times in a controlled setting...... The brain needs a long time to adjust for sustainability to take place..... We need to overhaul the current rehab models..... They are mostly money grab short stay spots where insurance covers the minimal amount of time..... This gal could have a much higher quality of life with better treatment options ....... Wish you the best.. One x
@gooniemike33
@gooniemike33 11 ай бұрын
The worst thing an addict can do is tell themselves they’ll always be an addict even when sober.. that’s what’s wrong with AA and rehabs…
@HitTheBricks89
@HitTheBricks89 11 ай бұрын
There's pro's ad cons to all approaches. I personally think about it like if you have very fair skin , to avoid sunburn, stay out of the midday sun. Where still thinking of yourself as being prone to addiction issues is useful , is that most Addicts on giving up their primary substance will start to find issues with using or doing other things addictively. Many an ex cocaine addict has been found in deep trouble and debt with the bookmakers for instance. I think it's very useful if not totally necessary to try and understand how addiction works and why you are prone to it and what void in you it fills. Then how to heal and fill that void with things not detrimental to your health and liufe.
@a.marvellehoneyman4560
@a.marvellehoneyman4560 21 күн бұрын
Are you an addict? I find there is pride before the fall…staying real as an addict and being honest, following the 12 steps, relying on God…etc., actually does help. If I ever think. I’m okay and doing well, I can get lost in a bad situation. It’s a daily thing…
@gooniemike33
@gooniemike33 21 күн бұрын
@ I’m coming on two years sober from booze and weed.. you can’t tell yourself you’ll always be an addict and you can go back to it at any moment. That’s counter productive. Tell yourself you are done and don’t dwell on it. The power of the mind and thoughts has great power for both positive and negative..
@gooniemike33
@gooniemike33 19 күн бұрын
@a.marvellehoneyman4560
@jackmiddleton2080
@jackmiddleton2080 11 ай бұрын
Her voice, look, and manner of speaking are way different than 4 years ago.
@maspapi6003
@maspapi6003 11 ай бұрын
Man, she is amazingly articulate and intelligent. Goes to show, ANYONE can be an addict. The smartest of the smart, rich, successful, politicians, bankers, doctors. Some people just hide it well. Anyways, I wish the best for her. She seems like a genuine young lady with insane potential.
@nitropowrd
@nitropowrd 10 ай бұрын
Another important testiment to the impact of chronic pain. It's a difficult journey even for the strongest. Mark- I think it might be helpful to even have these in a playlist for those that could learn, even though many cases share other overlaps
@jandersson2053
@jandersson2053 11 ай бұрын
What a lovely person. Our life experiences seem so different, and yet our outlook on life seems so similiar. Thanks for sharing, and best of luck going forward.❤
@almo33YO
@almo33YO 11 ай бұрын
Good for you for not bringing kids into this.
@froggy9191
@froggy9191 11 ай бұрын
Was thinking the same time when she talked about it.
@helenezinszner2561
@helenezinszner2561 10 ай бұрын
This lady is very aware and articulate
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