Fi’s Fight Back 🌟

This ended up being an amalgamation of two days, all explained in the video.
Appointment day, which ended up being a difficult day. But I completed another hot meal, and a challenge for snack.
#anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #recoveryispossible #dayinthelife #inpatient #recovery

[@michielou02]

If only you saw yourself the way we see you. You are so incredibly strong just by deciding to choose your recovery even when you don't want to. You aren't boring, not to us. You show us everyday how magnificent you are, even through the anxiety redness on your beautiful face. My heart is with you and your wonderful parents. You're doing such a great job fighting. Much love to you and your family.

[@tootsla1252]

Absolutely!

[@Finding_Fi]

Thankyou. I needed to read this today 🥺❤️❤️

[@bethhuntington850]

@@Finding_Fi I completely agree with all of that 💞💞💞 you’re doing amazing from an outside perspective you are recovering everyday and as a recovered from anorexia myself, you’re doing everything right x

[@alimoore589]

I wholeheartedly agree x

[@abbymiller1892]

Nobody is bored of you sweetheart, that’s just another way the anorexia is battling you and trying to make you feel guilty. Everyone here is in awe of your strength and loves seeing your progress, so I can only imagine how proud your parents must be! You mustn’t treat yourself as a burden as you are totally worthy of a true recovery, and all the support that recovery requires. Trust that you’re making progress even though it doesn’t feel like it ❤️

[@valnc1232]

Sweet Fi, if you need to scream, scream. If you need to cry, cry. It’s ok to not feel ok. You are strong, beautiful and deserve happiness 🤗🤗

[@kerrywhatley5022]

None of us are bored of hearing you express yourself Your doing incredible! Keep expressing yourself and keep going! You have got this!

[@tomwinn1887]

No one is bored of you.. keep fighting Fi! I’d like to know what you were studying at Uni? You will get back there! You’re strong!

[@MyArig]

We’re not bored with you, Fi! Keep on going, girl you can do it!

[@sgp1489]

I have no experience with eating disorders, but I have some experience with feeling boring and isolated. When I lost my husband, the grieving process consumed me. I said the exact same thing. I felt stalled and stuck in despair, but the world just kept turning without any participation from me. I finally just got sick of myself and decided to make some small changes. I started checking on my friends. I started making an effort to be as good of a listener to them as they had for me. I started doing small projects outside. I started to heal when I started looking outside of myself and focus more on the needs of my loved ones. I don't know if that's relevant to your situation. Just know, that I do pray for you.

[@jesshosler9870]

You are a beautiful, brave and introspective young woman. Eating Disorders eat away at our mental, spiritual and physical health. The fear can be debilitating. And you are fighting the good fight. You are fighting for your life and we are all rooting for you! You are recovering, it's incremental and maybe difficult to see - those of us watching are in awe of the strides you are making!. Keep fighting Fi! You are an inspiration to those of us who face ED.

[@caitlinhamilton1061]

You are so great at expressing your feelings. It must be so difficult going through this. You are such an inspiration to me. I am extremely overweight and in many ways I understand how you feel. Always picking apart everything that you put in your mouth. Watching you push yourself so hard reminds me that I can do hard things too. Thank you, Fi. Keep fighting, we can do this together!

[@cindylee7319]

You help me every single day Fiona...even though I'm not anorexic. I have complex PTSD. And you're an inspiration to me! ❤ The other day I had to do something that I was afraid of, and I thought of you and everything you've said, and I did it! Never ever think you don't matter or that the things you share don't matter, because they have helped me! And I guarantee you're helping others as well. 😊

[@teainortakoy]

We're not bored or sick of you, you're our warrior. You will find Fi, just keep doing what you're doing. You might not see it or feel it but you are making progress.

[@pepperminttea2460]

“It’s a horrible feeling when you feel boring”… it’s as if you got in my head and spoke my words Fi 😭 I feel most days that I can’t stand to be around myself, how can I expect others to be? But they will, because they love you. And they aren’t bored of you, because they love you. Love will conquer and defeat any pain, any battle, any endurance. You will survive this, because you’re a fighter, and because of those around you. You’re doing amazing Fi, and you’re an inspiration to so many 💚 keep on keepin’ on, chicky 🌱

[@finalxdictvm]

I found you on tiktok and I have been rooting for you ever since. You’re not boring whatsoever. You’re an inspiration and we all love you so damn much.

[@summerfun20111]

I love you Fi. Nothing about this is boring. You are a fighter, and you will fight through this. Much love. ❤️

[@SalingerNYC]

This recovery is about you, no one is bored, scream, shout, cry but please don't ever give up! I relapsed during this pandemic and that's how I found your channel. I was going to give up myself, recovery was so hard but I didn't. I kept powering through the pain and one day, it just clicked! I finally surrendered to my body needs, it's created by God and so much smarter than me. I'm almost weight restored now and I've never been happier. YOU CAN DO THIS! Never forget, you are so wonderful and loved 🥰

[@juliebergeron2138]

Fiona, Please those of us that follow you...support you...You are never Boring to me...I look forward to seeing you everyday...Please continue to fight!!

[@applecheekedgirl]

No! No-one is bored of you. We're watching our favourite mountain climber persevere. Every day we root for you and you've never let us down!! It's not possible for you let us down, what you're doing is so difficult but you will get better...the darkest hour is just before dawn.

[@joyceschirmer3359]

Scream cry yell! We're here for you! We love you ❤❤

[@teamtuckersfunadventures951]

No one is bored with you. You are so brave for putting yourself out there. I've learned things from you and look forward to your posts. You are so honest.

[@katyshumaker6202]

Oh my dear girl. I hope you know, how much you are helping others by sharing your journey. I’m not sure what you were studying in school, but just giving you something to ponder, WHEN we get Fi back, have you considered counseling others who are going through what you’ve been through? After all, there is no greater teacher than one who has had the experience….we love you Fi, keep moving forward, you are not alone.

[@prayer_tent]

Hon, you are not boring and your family loves you so much that they are honoured to be there with you helping you through. You are a very bright, articulate young woman who right now needs time to heal. This bit of down time will not stop you from accomplishing all the things you want to do, including finishing off uni. You are beautiful Fi and loved and supported by many people all over the world. Keep sharing and expressing your thoughts and feelings, this is all part of the healing and one day it will all make sense and this will be behind you. Lifting you up in prayer dear one.

[@alexswistro9294]

You’re not boring my love, you’re a shining beacon of light to all of us. ❤️

[@lynda9900]

Fiona, you need to take hour by hour. You can't look beyond that it's too daunting and exhausting for you. No one is bored of you, and you will get better, you are getting better. Try to be kind to yourself.💜

[@charaharris5455]

Sweet sweet girl. No one is bored of you. I’m sorry you’re struggling. I wish there was a way to shoulder some of your burden. Love and hugs ❤️❤️

[@moonysmistress]

We aren’t bored of you! We are rooting for you and are so proud of you. You’ll find Fi. I know it.

[@glynis7970]

NO NO everyone is not bored of you Fi,think about it sweetheart,we are watching and admiring and awestruck at your courage and tenacity,would we still be here rooting for you if we were bored? Your amazing mum and dad,your specialist etc. Please don’t think we are bored. 💐❤️

[@robinsedey5847]

Just wanted to say that we aren’t bored by you - we wouldn’t still watch if that is the case. Many people (myself included) have seen other go through treatment and know it’s not a highway to recovered. It a turtle pace that winds around a mountain, sometimes feeling like you are going in the wrong direction but eventually you will get to the top

[@lemonlime8363]

We’re not bored of you, Fi! We are all rooting for you 💫 Anorexia is an @$$hole. It’s not fair you have to struggle with this on a daily basis. You are so much more than your ED & we are all excited for you to find yourself again 🖤 you are worth it. Mental illness are so tricky and complex & they take time to sort out. Keep going 🖤

[@xristinas2767]

Also i am not bored of you. With every upload i see a little bit more of your personality, you are shining more and more, so i am really glad that i watch you. I like the way you talk about your feelings. You have talent i think at that. Keep up the good work!!

[@christinemcginily5071]

The anorexia is fighting hard to stay in control. You are so close to breaking through that barrier. I certainly do not find your journey boring you are an amazing person who will get back to being who you want to be.

[@zoemcpeake6948]

Oh I think that is a brilliant way of explaining why ED’s are so difficult. The course of treatment is left pretty much entirely to the ability of the person to overcome it themselves. There really isn’t any other illness like that. You get treatment and it’s taken out of your hands. Thank you for sharing that Fi. That is so clarifying and helpful.

[@alimoore589]

We are NOT bored of you! We think you're incredible. The effort and determination you're putting into you recovery despite it terrifying you inspires me. You're educating people about eating disorders, their causes and how it feels to battle one, and that is important. We love you Fi 🤗 xxx P.S you're beautiful.

[@nicolapettman8310]

You are not boring, recovery is a long and hard process and you are doing remarkably well. Well done, you should be so proud of yourself 🥰💕

[@dianaroper5362]

You have plenty of time Fi. You have the rest of your life. Take the time you need to recover once and for all. The world is there waiting for you. It isn't going anywhere. You are just doing so wonderfully. Making such amazing progress and being so very brave. What a wonderful women you are x

[@tootsla1252]

Absolutely agree.

[@renaeclarke3128]

No one is bored of you. We are here to watch you get better and encourage you. Your world is huge because none of us knew you before.

[@LouiseT2405]

No one is bored of you!! Don’t let the bad thoughts on your head win ❤️

[@sharonowens8546]

You are not boring you are beautiful inside and out, we love hearing you.x

[@laurabridge6986]

You are the only reason why I go on KZbin. You are not boring. You are amazing. You are stronger than you think. You are going to Find Fi! You feel detached now but when you have recovered you will be more attached than ever before! You got this x

[@tootsla1252]

You are so generous to share your journey to recovery with us. You are not boring. You are putting yourself out there in the most personal and trusting way. We are all learning from you. What you are doing matters. You matter. You are enough. More than enough.

[@ksabat9]

You, my dear, are far from boring. I look forward to your updates. I look forward to seeing the progress you've made, no matter how small that progress may be. Progress is progress, no matter how small it may be. Much love from across the world in Michigan, USA.

[@BuinidhMoChridheDoAlba]

You will beat this Fi. The anorexia is fighting as hard as it can, because it knows that you've done it before and WILL do it again.

[@gemxlovesxbeautyxxx9734]

Keep going!!! Your doing fabulous!!!! Xxx

[@elizabethwallace189]

Fi, you will never be boring! Your story is so inspiring, and you are so strong. I have been able to fight alongside you. Your smile and joy is worth fighting for. The most important thing is pushing through the difficult thoughts and the fears. As long as you are still fighting you are on track to recovery. I am praying for you through this battle. 💕

[@donnalewis6323]

You are truly the bravest woman I know,you tackle things with gusto and are most of the time terrified but you still have what you need to have! Much love sweetheart 🥰🥰

[@harrietprice]

No one is bored of you. This is how it is, we can’t rewrite what’s happened and therefore how it’s supposed to be, it’s your journey. So one step at a time, you ARE doing well, it’s okay. There will be ups and downs but it won’t last forever. It’ll be worth it, keep going. We’re behind you, and we are inspired by you, scream if you need to! Then keep going.

[@kimunder1]

Your ED is seeing that you aren’t giving up so it’s fighting harder!! Hang in there kiddo!! You didn’t ask for this. Your goals will happen in time. Hang in there!! I know when my youngest went through this, they weren’t progressing as fast as they (MD’s) would like. Everyone progresses at different levels. Hugs 🤗 💜 just keep swimming 🐠

[@terradonahue7729]

Stop being so hard on yourself, sweet girl. It's going to take as long as it takes - some things you just cannot hurry. Breathe and one bite at a time. 🥰

[@flotride119]

Fears are really hard to overcome. People have fear of spiders, flying and any number of other things but it is pretty easy for people to avoid those things. Fears very often aren’t rational. The thing that makes it soooo hard for you is that you have a fear of something that ultimately keeps you alive so you are unable to avoid it. You are so brave to be able to face your biggest fear multiple times in a day. We love you and are rooting for you xx

[@heatherspencer3676]

You’re not boring at all honey, I pray you win your battle. I have my own eating disorder and I understand your fear of food and gaining weight. We just want you healthy Fi ❤️

[@lotteg.6817]

hi fi🌞 i just wanted to tell you how much i appreciate you sharing your thoughts with the world. if you only knew how much you've helped me understand my thought processes better and therefore slowly get better in general.. i genuinely believe, i've never seen a person as determined and strong as you are. it is so hard for you every single hour of every day of the week and yet you do not only keep fighting, keep doing the next right thing but you also manage to express so so well what is going on in your mind, you are helping others by setting such a good example. (and i don't mean to put pressure on you or act like everything is going perfect for you, clearly it is not, and i acknowledge that!) you are such an inspiration and i strongly believe, that soon you will be spinning as fast as the world does again and then you'll look back and see that all the panics, tears and horrible, horrible days were worth it!!

[@nixayp]

Spring is coming; the time of rebirth and new beginnings... hang in there and keep on pushing forward, These 'impossible' days (which you made it through!) will soon be behind you x

[@clarethomas1677]

I’m not bored of you. I’m willing you on every step of the way. This is a constant internal battle you are fighting and you are doing so well. This is a marathon not a sprint and step by step you are getting Fi back. Xxx

[@faith41018]

You are enough! It's not always easy to believe it but you are enough and you deserve to get better!

[@mojcapokraculja5416]

Hold on Fi its gonna get better we are with you... cry if you need to ..you have so much love from your followers

[@jennifertaylor5716]

Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being so vulnerable and transparent. Being as authentic as you are will only help you in your journey. We are all here with you, supporting you, and we are so proud of you! ♥️

[@gretabearden6321]

Your world has shrank but also gotten so large. There are thousands of us out here that are wishing you well. We all want you to succeed. You are awesome and incredibly strong.

[@rrr3355]

You are not boring. You are brave in sharing your recovery and the everyday struggles it entails. I hope you are able to get some mental emotional support along with your support for the physical part of your recovery? Hang in there. Love and hugs.

[@allisonhamilton1245]

I've been where you are. You cannot see your own value. You cannot see anything but the struggle. I can promise you you are valued, you are worthy. One thing I can say is accept the process. You didn't get to this point overnight, you will not get back to Fi overnight. And that is ok. Part of most mental illnesses is the feeling of what should be, what we perceive others think and feel. Eventually you will see the finish line. To answer "when" is when you can get that persistent voice to stop and it is hour by hour at times.

[@cecivsalazar1]

You are so strong. You are in no way boring. Doing the next right thing is not boring it is brave.

[@donnabattistoni3076]

I am not bored with you and as far as how hard it is lady you are a hero! As horrible as you feel you still keep going. You dont stop . even when you want to. Hero! And you have opened the whole world to alot of people dont feel like your world shrunk. You are right so much has changed . you have . your teaching yourself and us how to not stop . how to be strong even when we feel scared and small. You are amazing even if in these moments dont feel that way. Plz remember feelings lie and we are here for you. We are praying for you too.

[@Agostinaadlp]

No one is bored of you... We are all here to suport you and cherish you. You are loved and you're doing amazing!! It's a really difficult mental illness but you will beat it. Lots of hugs!

[@lorenspath6538]

You are definitely NOT boring! You are a very special person dealing with a very hard illness. i can completely relate to everything you are going through. i battlle this thing everyday as well, and it is very,very, hard. take one step at a time, you are doing great! Please dont give up! You are a huge inspiration to me personally. Love,Loren

[@sherylshannon3660]

Oh sweetheart. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. If anyone out there is telling you that they're bored of you please don't listen to them. Recovery isn't easy, just talk it one day at a time heck one hour at a time. I am here for you and not going ANYWHERE.

[@vanessarose9620]

Your being so so brave and so so strong at the same time of feeling so lost, but remember One step is a step less so hold on to this. you will slowly turn a large corner. Stay determined and hang in there. Sending big hugs and hang on to that will power it’s there and you’ve got this ❤️❤️xx

[@harmonyhope1709]

Keep pushing forwards, I recently gained weight and it took me over some kind of mental threshold and it's made everything so much better/cleaner and I feel more relaxed. It just was through consistently gaining weight past the tricky chicken and egg situation..... I was amazed at how different I felt and do feel and it's so worth it. I feel more motivated than ever. Keep going. It WILL happen to you too and the noise quietening down a bit is amazing and not so boring!!!!❤️❤️❤️ Baby steps will get you there eventually. Don't worry about how long it takes. Just take it day by day otherwise it's too overhelming xx

[@universum_nummer_7]

Take your time honey, there's nothing wrong with taking a break to heal. I also have an eating disorder, just not the same. But I can understand how difficult it can be to teach yourself and your body to be healthier. I wish you get better soon because being happy is what counts.

[@DarcySantosSmith]

You are so, so brave. Keep on fighting. You’re doing so amazing. ❤️

[@susanfraser9985]

You are doing a amazing job and sharing your journey is so brave. Keep up the good work. May the sun shine on you and give you strength.

[@monicabrennan6624]

You are amazing because face this every day. You are making things better by focusing on you. You are doing that. I want to give you a hug with every post. Nothing you are doing is tiny. It is difficult because you are making progress. If it were easy you wouldn’t be healing properly. Sending hugs and best wishes. I am the mom of and ED survivor. I have seen your struggles. You are amazing.

[@amandawalters9297]

Your strong keep telling yourself you can do this. Your not boring nor alone. We are here for you and if you need to talk I'm here. I love talking but I'm also a great listener.

[@andreag9913]

I don’t know what to say. I just want you to know that I’ve learned a great deal from watching your videos and your journey. And I’m glad you are brave enough to share this with all of us. You are seen and you are appreciated ❤️❤️❤️

[@charl427]

I don’t know if watching other people’s success stories is helpful? But “ro recovering” on here is amazing! She went all in on recovery last year and her life is completely different now (in a good way) You’re amazing ❤️

[@teainortakoy]

Elzani too! :)

[@gemmi1]

I'm not bored with you! ❤️✨❤️✨❤️

[@jennifercarrillo1277]

Your amazing 🤩 BE STRONG 💪 GOD LOVES YOU! 💯

[@brendamedlin5887]

Hi Fi, I look forward to seeing your progress every post. I will never get bored of you. You can do this one day at a time.

[@annereeves5646]

one day at a time hour by hour minute by minute every little step is a step forward xxxx

[@laurennorman1814]

This was such an inspirational video. It is so clear that you are so so determined and strong, and we're all in your corner rooting for you. I completely empathise on feeling guilty for impacting others - it is such a hard part of mental illness. I also blame myself for being unwell and get frustrated that I can't "just get better". It is so hard. Sending you so much love xx

[@dianagreen4483]

That was an awesome explanation Fi..I feel so honoured that u let us see into your world and the difficulties that you face...its brave of you! So when u say u need to be more brave, you have that braveness in u in buckets! Huge hugzzzz.xxx

[@annereeves5646]

keep going fi your doing so well xxxx

[@Seoulsearch616]

I am so sorry you are going through this. Your video had me in tears. 😭 Praying for you and wishing I could give you a hug. 🌹😰💕

[@jackiemaynard6718]

Sweetheart, try not to overthink it all..Be present in the moment and nothing more...You will drive yourself completely insane if you keep over analyzing all the if's,buts and whys..Your doing brilliant right now for you,remember that,you have control because you are stronger than you realize, x

[@avateller1200]

You are phenomenal. I’m boring you are not you are an inspiration. And yes it feels like tiny steps but we need to put those tiny steps together and before we know it we’ve made a bigger step. It’s easy for us to put pressure on ourselves I get it but try not to be too hard on yourself. It’s going to take time and you have that on your side. Love you

[@teresahunt5521]

It is so so hard when nothing makes sense. One minute at a time. ❤

[@jenniferwilliams9170]

You're so strong. You can do this.

[@lauranorwar]

You are a gift.

[@carriep5967]

You are amazing and I’m in awe of your strength and bravery!!

[@mariahmaxwell-barrett7121]

We are still here. Standing with you. You are finding Fi! Keep going!!

[@sar12389]

I can relate to so many the feelings you have expressed here. Your so not alone. Keep fighting. X

[@UnnaturalBrunette]

We are all rooting for you!!

[@sandee1000]

Fi. You r not boring. And recovery is not linear. You will get you back! One minute at a time!!!!!!!!

[@annemehlhorn7562]

Fi is and keeps calling you. Fi has a much longer breath that you can imagine right now, so don’t panic. Close your eyes, keep listening to Fi‘s call, smile against your fears because you and Fi know that you‘ll find her. For sure, trust Fi, Fiona :)

[@amymargison1570]

My sweet girl!! While I have never walked the path that you are walking, as someone who is limited and restricted by chronic illness, I feel, Experience and acknowledge your pain. This is you year! It is hard to see when you are in the throes of it, but each day you are stronger, even if you feel weaker!

[@cw9452]

Your mum is so right!

[@isabellaeisenberger9431]

Hey! I know recovering and healing can make you feel alone and exhausted but you are so strong! I love watching your videos of you succeeding:)) you inspire me that I can do anything if I put my mind to it.

[@anniesoernym]

Thank you so very much for your videos, Fi. They help me understand and they remind me of how important (self-)compassion is. And today's poem is beautiful (and a bit frightening, as I'm _still_ struggling with that). Thank you for being here 💚

[@Heartgirl1488]

I’m praying for you!

[@misacrazycat6094]

Things take a day at a time. You got this fi! There are people still rooting for you!

[@EMara0901]

Thank you for sharing that last page omg did I need that

[@hw2050]

Your hair really suits you when you wear it down. 😊

[@NinasHere4U]

You feel that way because when you relapsed you gave power back to the voices of anorexia so keep going in the right direction and you will beat it. Please Fi do this and tell the voices to shut up! I don't know if you are a believer but I promise that Jesus loves you and talk to him about your troubles. I turned my life over to the Lord when I was a young girl, I just found out that I have a deadly rare cancer and I can't imagine what I would do without Jesus, HE brings me such peace. Life is short but eternity is forever.