Finding my next breath

[@JAMERRILL]

I’ve been asked several times, “what about women who cannot afford therapy,” this is an absolutely excellent and valid question. I am linking some of my most trusted resources in this pinned comment for you. These are great starting points. There’s a lot of self advocacy education that can be done, simply by starting to listen through the podcast that are offered by these different resources link below. You can learn many therapeutic realities and tools through this self education as a starting point. That is what I started to do in September 2023, even before I started therapy a few months later. Some days all I could do was listen to Natalie Hoffman’s free podcast on repeat and that’s what got me through. One of the resources I’m linking has “DV crisis support groups,” that are led by a trauma/grief therapist, and are extremely affordable. Please look through these resources if you need to do so. 👉🏻👉🏻look under “DV Crisis Support Groups” www.mountaincitychristiancounseling.com/services - also heatherelizabeth.org - and www.wildernesstowild.com/ and www.flyingfreenow.com/ www.psalm82initiative.org/ - I will be adding more resources and do videos on this over time.

[@theothermrs.randle3416]

I'm so proud of you 🥹🥹

[@moonglow7710]

I'm very thankful you're doing these videos! I've been learning a ton but I have a way far way to go!!?

[@gabryylpierce8586]

My dear friend of over 30 years, Liz, passed unexpectedly Friday night. She's the one who introduced me to your channel and we would often have a laugh over some of your craziness. I know you brought her a lot of joy. She took in her 6 nieces and nephews so they didn't go to foster care...there wasn't a lot of money but thanks to you sharing your recipes they had good food on their table. She loved to share which freezer meal she had or what new recipe she was trying, and how grateful she was that the Lord had started you on this journey. She will be missed, but I'll smile every time I watch your videos and think of her.

[@naturalsimpleliving]

I'm so sorry for your loss!

[@leannethompson9693]

I am so very sorry for your loss.

[@JAMERRILL]

I’m do very very sorry for the loss of your sister 💗

[@sewingstoryprojects6178]

Ohmy heart....so sorry for your loss.

[@dellawhalen3937]

Hugs to you😇🙏

[@kristita_888]

Jamerrill, thank you so much for supporting the fact that Christians can need therapy, and there is nothing wrong with that. The wisdom you are sharing here could literally save a life. God bless you! 💗

[@HisSecretSmile]

It absolutely could ❤

[@nikki27ish]

❤ amen

[@sherryzimmerman9220]

AMEN AMEN AMEN

[@kikomartin-pr]

Jamerrill, thank you for mentioning that us men have issues too. I’m in therapy because of you. I found a therapist because of you. Thank you. It’s just my sons and I. Their mother, my ex wife, walked out on all of us. She signed off her rights to our children and decided to date a woman with convicted paedoph*les for sons. We’re better now but I hide my feelings from my boys. They’re happy and I don’t want to change that for them.

[@danamama6766]

hugs and love 💙

[@gloriadavidson8599]

❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@MarthaAnderson-jv8ph]

🩷🙏🩷

[@greenrockgarden2851]

Finding yourself, outside of serving others, will also help you deal with empty nest syndrome way in the future. Glad you are learning self-care during your crisis. Mama can’t help others, until she cares for herself. 😉🫶🏻 You’re doing it!

[@thebusyhomeschoolingmomfiles]

He is a guy😢​@@greenrockgarden2851

[@ImallamaToo]

Sweet Jamerrill, I love these bathroom conversations! As a sister in Christ who has also suffered, I so empathize with you. I have learned life drags you with it whether you want it to or not. Sometimes the best prayer we can pray is, "HELP!!" My husband and I lost a daughter to stillbirth at full term in 1995. I was devastated on a level I never knew was humanly possible and still live. My dad, who had lost a child to cancer in his first marriage, gave me some of the best advice I had ever been given when I asked him how you get through it. He said, "You have to have hope. You have to have something to hope for." I just wanted the heartbreak, the pain, to end. I started trying to find small things to be thankful for, even if it was only the air I was breathing. Those of us who have been in the pit have learned we can give a hand to help the hurting folks find their way back out. It takes so much time to heal from trauma, and that's the one thing we never want to hear. I had thoughtless people say some really cruel things to me in their effort to "help". Forgive them, because they have not walked in your shoes. I've had to learn to take care of myself, or I can't take care of anyone else. Saving your children's mother resonated so strongly with me, because it's truth. It takes unimaginable strength to put one foot in front of the other. Last year, my husband was diagnosed with a very rare auto-immune disease that almost killed him. He was in the hospital for almost 2 weeks, and off work for months. I was praying for HELP when that still, soft voice asked me, "How is steel made?" I sat there stunned for a moment before I replied, "Through fire." The Lord softly said, "You will be steel." Jamerrill, I humbly say to you, that you too will be steel. Your faith forged in the fire of trials that only the Lord understands will sustain you. I don't believe it's wrong to ask WHY. I have done so many times over the years. I know one day the Lord will explain it in a way I can understand. As the poem The Weaving says, He sees the upper, and I the underside. I know this is long, but it was written with tears, love, and prayers. Thank you for sharing your journey. God bless you to overflowing.

[@patn4615]

Jesus wants to perfect us through his word. When you become one with his word no weapon formed against you will prosper. You will have overcome This world and it's trials and tribulations.

[@sayhello2jen]

I'm a licensed therapist who is also a Christian. I truly appreciate you supporting therapy on your channel! So many of my clients think that it's either/or with their Christian faith vs. therapy and I love helping them better understand that therapy is simply a supportive relationship driven by science that God created! Wishing you all the best, Jamerrill.

[@karenswartz8280]

I’m sitting here listening to your video, while scrolling through Facebook, and this meme popped up on my screen, and I think it describes your new channel perfectly: “The most beautiful souls are the ones who walk out of the fire and then return with water for those who are still in it.” Many of us are still walking in the fire, but thankful for whatever refreshing, lifesaving drops of water we receive from those who have been there, are there still, but somehow able to share that refreshment with others.

[@JamerrillStewart]

Oh, I definitely pray that’s what I’m able to do! I am literally still a flame myself, but I do hope to either pour water on others or help them in someway for sure. ❤❤❤

[@busybaldaufs896]

Oh my gosh i cannot handle toxic positivity. When something bad is going down it's so much nicer to hear "That's sucks. I'm so sorry" instead of being told to look at the bright side.💜🌵

[@JamerrillStewart]

I am so guilty of this. I used toxic positivity as a survival and coping mechanism. But now that I see it, I can’t unsee it. I agree that hard stuff is hard. We should do the best we can. And some stuff we just have to say like you said, yeah, that really sucks, I’m sorry.

[@tinabutts2540]

Amen!!!

[@busybaldaufs896]

​@@JamerrillStewartUntil I experienced trauma myself I was guilty of it too. It's almost like you don't know what else to say. You don't want to be negative to the person and kick them while they're down, but when the shoe is on the other side you just want brutal honesty. You want someone to acknowledge that, yes, what you are feeling is real and it is terrible. You want someone to validate your feelings because when you are a victim you aren't always able to validate it yourself and people tend to blame themselves before they blame the person/situation that traumatized and/or abused you. You are kicking butt and as bad as it is now, you have to accept it could get worse or better but the only thing you can do is ride out the storm and see where you land. 💜🌵

[@RamonaBienka]

Finally someone who shows mental health is real and is important. Society needs to stop turning a blind eye to people struggling because it is real not made up. As a nurse and someone who has been in a crisis/trauma situation it is very real and you don’t know where your next breath is coming from. I love how you say you are just trying to “freaking live” because that’s exactly what you are doing. It really is ok to say you’re hurting and to draw strength from whatever helps.

[@nozzleram]

At the age of 43, I was suddenly widowed and 3 weeks later, we lost my father-in-law who was the only remaining paternal figure in my life. 28 years of identity were tied to being a partner, a wife and mother. I was lost and deeply consumed by grief. I sought counselling, which was helpful. My faith remained strong. I learned that God's plan is not necessarily my plan, and that I had to learn how to move forward. The first year was the hardest, because everything was a first without my husband being present. It was all about survival. The second year was one of steps forward. I went back to school, I found joy in my daughters' successes, and the little things that can bring sudden joy. It takes time. It also requires baby steps along the path to healing. Time and effort are the only things that ease the pain. Watching you go through all of this so publicly broke my heart, but I have been so proud of you for sharing what you could when you were ready. That's where the true healing begins. My favorite sweatshirt says "Behind every strong woman is a story that didn't give her a choice." You are stronger than you know.

[@c.s.s.8117]

I owned a small business for 30 years, employing about 25 people. I retired a year ago. The part of your message that really resonated was how responsible you feel for the other families that depend on your business, no matter the personal trauma you're experiencing. It isn't easy running a small business, so i admire that you have carried on. Very inspirational.

[@BWN79]

Sweet girl thank you. I am 65 yo, married for 45 yrs, 2 adult married daughters and 4 grandchildren. About the only thing we have in common is our faith. I know exactly the day “I broke”. In so many ways your journey is much more difficult than mine, but like you I have been and I suppose am still a hurting person. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

[@loribagby7907]

I am feeling hopelessness right now in my life and your videos are so helpful to me. I am starting therapy soon and hope is all I have right now

[@JamerrillStewart]

I’m so very glad! I’m sorry you have experienced the depths of that emotion and I’m thankful you’re going to learn some tools to face whatever your reality is and work through that. ❤❤❤

[@user-ns4yk1lm7j95]

I love your other channel but this one feels so needed. Keep caring for the girl who has your name!!

[@janehickenbottom4558]

I started therapy in December 2016. I’m 65 years old. I too am a Christian and to felt I needed more help then the leaders of my religion could give me. I too faced crisis and needed to find a way to survive. At 65 I find myself working again to take care of my husband who has dementia. I now have it as part of my mental and physical maintenance . Thank you❣️❣️

[@JamerrillStewart]

I’m so glad!

[@tinas8085]

My husband had an affair and left me in March of this year. He still thinks I don't know about her because he never gave me enough credit. Last night, we accepted an offer on our home. So excited. I stood outside the agents office last night having her glear at me like it was her husband I'd taken from her and I laughed with the man I thought I'd spend my entire life with. There is beauty in the breakdown. Walking has been my sanity too. Sending so much love and many prayers for your continued growth and wellbeing xx

[@jberg2332]

@tinas8085 I have been through a similar journey.

[@nikkisworld6711]

Been through it, thought my life was over. He doesn't deserve u. I wish u the best

[@karenmurray5970]

Jamerrill don’t count yourself short you are such an inspiration to all women. What you have had to do keeping your children happy running a house and business you are a miracle. I separated and divorced at 61 it was hard I and 73 now and life is good. Maybe slow down a little and take time for yourself.❤️

[@JamerrillStewart]

I definitely consider my time walking, running, and sometimes hiking as time for myself. I also spend a good hour or sometimes two in my chair with my feet up most mornings. Everyone is old enough to get up and get their day going if they get up while I’m still having my morning chair time. I journal and read, and that time is very precious to me as well. I pretty much put my needs first at the top of the list because I have to take care of everyone else and I have to be glued together enough to do a pretty good job at that. Thank you for sharing your story and I’m glad to hear you’re in a good place now. ❤❤❤

[@katiedavis3249]

My sadness and hopelessness came with a stage 4 cancer diagnosis with 5 young kids…. A different pain than what you have/are walking through but I still can completely relate to your words and what you shared. Thank you. I’ve followed you for years but am excited to also follow this new channel.

[@HisSecretSmile]

❤ I'm continuously stunned by your honesty and gentle yet powerful consistent presence in this life, Jamerrill ❤

[@JamerrillStewart]

You know, I found myself saying today that my plan was to live a quiet life. But I’m just getting louder and louder. ❤❤❤

[@HomesteadwithEhlers-Danlos]

Girl, you missex the opportunity to name this channel "Just Jamerrill". So happy you created a place and space for yourself and others to get real. You sre an inspiration to so many...

[@JAMERRILL]

Do you remember back when I called my first channel that over a decade ago?

[@trenarichardson690]

I’m not religious at all, but I find it positivity amazing.

[@tricarb01]

Me neither. I like this channel though.

[@tricarb01]

I'm not religious at all. I like this channel though.

[@FearofGodmom]

Jesus loves you!

[@laurie9377]

Jamerill I am so sorry for whatever trauma you experience, but I'm also very grateful that my long time food friend is now my broken friend with me while I am broken also. I am so completely and utterly lost and just trying to survive everyday and I don't even have any little kids. I don't know how you do it. I also have a new awareness and empathy and didn't realize how many broken people were in this world until I was one of them. God bless the broken, may God find us all and bring us peace ❤

[@kristita_888]

I am sending you so much love, my friend. You are enough. You are worthy and we need you here in this world. 🤍

[@jberg2332]

This season has been brutal. I have been trying so hard not to let my fear cancel my faith. Im still alive and struggling. Prayers for all of us.

[@chalicat2]

The bathroom conversations just make things seem more relaxed and safe. How many of us have cried in our bathrooms over our struggles. Covid messed up my whole world in early 2021, and long covid just will not end. But I still have to get up, get my two kids on the spectrum to school, commute to work, try and be functional and productive, come home to figure out dinner, help with homework, and everything. I’d rather just crawl in bed with a few cats and sleep.

[@MrsKfive]

I already love this channel, and think you are doing a fantastic job. You have comforted us more than you know, I’m sure. Hopefully this channel can let us return the favor and support you. Life spares no one and we should lean on each other. AND you look fabulous!

[@rosearellanes5648]

Hi Jammerrill. We will all walk through this journey together. Praying for u and your family

[@nikki27ish]

I so applaud you being so honest about how hard mental health, crisis and trauma is as a Christian. You are going to save others by doing these videos, sending you a huge hug.

[@IntotheFray84]

There are many who don’t understand trauma and what it’s like to try to live a “normal” life while going through tumultuous periods. I’ve been let down by church peeps, who were not equipped with dealing with abuse and trauma. Ppl want to sweep difficult emotions and situations under the rug, because it makes them comfortable, all the while you need support…. It’s so difficult to have people who you thought were your friends basically turn their backs on you and leave you. Journaling, weightlifting and Called to Peace Ministries have all helped me. And I’m taking an advocacy course on helping others who are going through the same thing. Much love and blessings to all here who are going through hard times. ❤️

[@JAMERRILL]

Ah yes, Called to Peace is a wonderful resource. Very needed. I’d like to take their advocacy class one day, too.

[@IntotheFray84]

@@JAMERRILLyou would be an amazing advocate ❤❤❤❤

[@dawnsparrow2311]

Yes! We need to normalize mental health needs. If you get sick, you take medicine to get better. This is exactly the same thing. I’m proud of you for stepping out of your comfort zone and sharing what you can. Thank you for what you’re doing.

[@CorgiFrizz]

My first walk through trauma was when I was a young adult. I was a very abused child & needed to heal from that. My 2nd walk started 5 years ago when my only child was critically ill 3 different times & at one point, she only had a 5% chance of recovery. She did recover with some lasting issues, but that retriggered my cptsd & I've been working through that ever since. God is good & He provided us with resources like therapists to help us. Faith makes things possible, not easy.

[@JamerrillStewart]

I am sorry this has been your path you’ve had to walk. I am thankful to hear you have therapy as one of your resources.❤

[@DaisyLovesDerek]

My dear, your videos bring me joy and hope. Thank you for being “real” with us. The pain from trauma can be paralyzing. I get it. I’m living it too. I appreciate you!

[@MrSarahlynn]

I needed this sooo much tonight. This up coming holiday season is going to be soo hard I lost my momma in 1/8/24 suddenly and this whole year has been sooo hard. I’m struggling everyday but I’m trying to do my best and you just help me remember to good in life

[@JamerrillStewart]

I am so incredibly sorry that you lost your dear mama! ❤❤❤

[@shelleylynn3033]

Reading the comments and smiling. You have such kind, beautiful subscribers. It’s a true reflection of you, attracting like minded spirits. ❤

Love it...bawling in my sweet potato.....poured ourselves into others,as we should....sharing...pray a prayer......the Lord gave us feelings for a purpose....naturally an optimist....😍😍😍😍😍😃😃😃

[@kiwanaki]

Jamerill, I hoped to see a video from you tonight, and here you are! What a blessing.

[@dellawhalen3937]

I love you Jamerrill! You share your life with us & help people- knowingly & unknowingly. Keep being you. God sees all. ❤️🙏🙏

[@larah287]

Ultimately....we rescue ourselves with the support of our love of Jesus Christ. You've got this sister! ❤❤❤

[@saraarmstrong1556]

Hard times remind me that my life isn't mine, it's the Lord's. I had my dream life starting, then it all got taken away. Things spiraled and got worse. They continue to get worse. I just tell myself that my dreams might not work out right now, but maybe I'll be a better person when they do. Maybe Im meant for something beyond my own understanding. Maybe my capacity will grow exponentially once I reach shore. Right now I might feel like drowning, but God is there keeping me afloat. Praying is necessary, but God also gave us 2 hands to take care of ourselves with. I love this channel and am excited to hear you share these type of convos! They are very real!

[@trenarichardson690]

I’m finding your new channel very helpful.

[@brendawiggs9246]

Jamerrill you are brave, strong and are speaking the total truth. You have so much to be proud of. Taking good care of yourself and YOUR children. And yes Christian’s in crisis do need more help than normally found at church. Keep smiling when you can and crying when you need to. God understands all our pains and joys! 🏵️🥰

[@wandaledbetter5465]

I am proud of us too! I love you and pray always for you. Rock on ! ❤

[@Christyvelez]

Yes! No one talks about this in the church. I was taught that if you are struggling, then God is not with you. That really messed me up!

[@TheRealAngelGrace]

"Care for the girl who has my name." What a beautiful sentence ❤

[@nikkisworld6711]

I have endured plenty of trauma as a child and an adult. I have 2 kids and i feel like if i do anything right its making sure my kids are well taken care of and not around anyone thats toxic. And that they are always safe. There is no book that says this is how u should deal with life. Ur journey is different than mine. But im glad ur giving yourself time to heal and deal. U are an inspiration JAMERRILL and seeing u push foward is something we dont always see. Some people its sad but easier to look away and not want to ruin there so called fairytale life.

[@vivianzuniga8814]

I love both your channels. I just wanted to remind you when you’re down or hurting or angry or confused or exhausted or all the above. We can only do what we can do. You have been the provider. You have been the doer. You have been the homemaker, businesses owner, teacher, creative momma, all of it all along. It has always been you and Jesus. Seeing you do for yourself, taking care of yourself does my heart so much good. All those folks that look like you need their momma . More importantly you need their momma to be good, to get better n better. Bravo sister, bravo!

[@barbaraweber3084]

I am 63, two children, nine grand children. I would never ever write anything in a journal, I'd be too afraid of someone finding it and reading it and having hurt feelings from it that would " scar them" for life. But that's just me. Thankfully with older age I forget a lot of who did what or who said what and when, that at the time, wounded me somehow. Thank you Jesus. My favorite quote from the Bible is in Romans. Romans 5: 3&4 it speaks of why there is suffering.

[@karinjudge7277]

Hi Lady. Sorry for your sorrow. I’ve been following you for years. This new channel is nice 😊 Thank you. Life sure can be rough. I’ve known Trauma and grief for the majority of my 60 years. Melancholy is my friend it would seem. I am struggling to hold on. I am chronically ill.( Disabled). Spend 90 percent of my days alone. It’s so hard. But I removed all the toxic people from my life. I choose happiness and peace. Started reading my Bible before bed every day. Feels good. I don’t know why we go through what we do but God is always with us. Even times we don’t feel his presence. I watch nature channels on KZbin. It’s calming for me. Hang on everyone. God is good. Always ❤

[@barbaracheeseman5912]

JAMERRILL I’ve watched you for years and love and appreciate you , by far this was my favourite video. Your honesty and knowledge is going to reach so many people and help them through. Thank you so much for caring so much about your followers. Your positivity is not lost on me. God BLESS YOU❤️

[@lisascott4314]

I love you because you are REAl your not alone all the people who have been let down are going on living best life we can and it gets better❤Thankyou Jamerrill I love Jesus too😊🎉❤

[@dianedouberley8161]

Jamerrill , I have watched your channel for years and have enjoyed it so much . I am so sorry you have to go through this right now but even with all the hurt you have you are still trying to help others. I hope that soon you will be happy again and will have all the hopes and dreams you want in your life !!! Hugs !

[@jamiesmith3837]

Love you and love these videos from the bathroom! ❤🫶🙏

[@jayrow1978]

You are telling my story, which began in 1976. I thought I couldn't survive the shame and fear, the form belief that God had not created me strong enough to deal with the trauma. Thank you for sharing your journey and validating our story of trauma and loss.

[@debbieembury6885]

I am a pastors wife and I spent 1.5 years in therapy God gives us the tools we need to help us. It was the only thing I was able to do to function.

[@cath8113]

Thanks for you sharing in this video, it has helped me. Being the breadwinner and unemployed for two months now and really not a lot of hope for a new job until we'll after the holidays your words helped me. Please keep these videos going and sharing the story, it is encouraging and I love your content.

[@luciamancini9518]

Hi jamerill im so happy that you're putting yourself first mental is so important if mamma is well the home is calm and healthy the Lord is good and follows you on your path you are a Survivor give it time for you and your kids ❤❤❤❤❤

[@onThisJourney]

David wrote Psalms through his depression. I love the Psalms⚓

[@JamerrillStewart]

Yes he did!! ❤❤

[@naomitomlinson8932]

I understand everything you are saying! I wish I could just hug you Been there!!!! Single mom of 6. And I am doing it!

[@mikemontehess9529]

Jamerrill, I believe what you are doing is what the Lord calls us to do. To share our lives in order to help others. So thank for sharing your life in all the ups and downs and the things that have worked and have not. Take encouragement that you are helping others. You may never know who that is, but your words and actions will help someone, and maybe many. Love you❤

[@Glowupby40]

Thank you so much for sharing all this. I am just exiting the crisis mode, and now I am getting to work through some of the stuff. I felt it so deeply when you said that life cannot be stopped for the crisis. I heard a lot of nice advice to relax and slow down. But they were saying it to a drowning person! I needed to survive first! And now I have. One day I will say “I’m relaxing” and it will be true, and I will know what that means😊

[@lindamartin7580]

Jamerrill, you are letting Jesus heal your heart and soul. That’s a huge step! It’s not a shame to ask for help. It’s a shame to need help and not seek it. May God bless you and yours. Blessings, Miss Linda🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@Lauraly217]

My circumstances are different (never married, 25 yo, agnostic) but I am navigating a multitude of health challenges as well as some painful family stuff. I've watched your other channel many years for recipes and to learn about gardening but these "talks" you post have been so helpful in a different way. Listening to you explain your journey provides a lot of comfort and inspiration. I hope you know how impactful your vulnerability is.

[@doodlebug5105]

Jamerill, you are so dear. Thanks for being you.

[@fizz13-yf8yk]

You are a survivor...the pain that you and your family have had to face ...is hard...but from what i think happened...you made right choice for your family ❤and sometimes a person we think we know...we dont really know...and that is a hard pill to swallow ❤

[@cherylcranford8908]

I love that you share this for women or man who are struggling with whatever has been thrown at us I'm our life. We all need to feel encouraged, yes the Bible can guide us but He also wanted us to be together and share our lives the good the bad and even the ugly. When you do this for others you do this for me. I may not be stating this correctly but the sentiment is true. Thank you for sharing you have truly encouraged me to take the time to care about myself because we can not care for others when we don't care for ourselves. We need to learn to love ourselves. How can we love our neighbors as ourselves if we don't care or love ourselves. Thank you for this channel JAMERRILL😎

[@PreciousLife-w3j]

I just adore you passion for family❤❤❤❤😊

[@libbysworld7649]

Thank you, sister. 💖

[@judithbutler9695]

Profound 😭😭😭. You are perfect. This video was perfect, perfect. Spoke to me.❤. Hope. What a channel. Thank, so wonderful to know we are not alone.❤

[@mistythompsen4719]

Thank you for your sharing!! There’s so much pain. Some days taking a shower is to hard. And I start with a cup of coffee. The simple things.

[@simplecountryliving7555]

I might be going through some of the same things you are and have been. Things for me totally feel apart less than two years ago. My life has and is completely changing in many ways. I just try and get through one day at a time.❤️🙏

[@tracyc160]

Oh I feel this 100%. I have always leaned on “things happen for reasons” and could justify things. Always got me through. But losing the king of my world totally unexpectedly has completely erased that validation I could always lean on. Just totally lost…. No one can tell me there was any reason for that

[@dinape]

Life is hard, but God is good! Thank you for sharing and helping others along the way. ❤

[@Ellie-hn6vg]

Amen! Thank you so very much for this video sweet one! 💕🙏🙏🙏💕

[@PrayereeFarm]

Refiners fires are rough...been through many....my 13 year old grand daughter...daughter because we're raising her...has mental and emotional issues due to a bully in the 6th grade....20 plus months later reprocussions are still here....she's doing good though ...we can't quit either..we got GOD...he's got us. Feel you dearheart ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@woodlandexplorers]

I’m walking out a journey too. God puts comfort in our life to remind us He is never going to leave or forsake (you are that comfort for me). You are tremendously encouraging. Thank you.

[@ThisJoyfulJourney]

Jamerill, you are such an inspiration! I have been following you for years! You have helped me start my own journey again in walking and eating healthy. ❤ also finding my own framework of joy. Controlling the things we can control . Hang in there you are helping alot of people including me. 🙂🙏❤

[@AliciaCardwell]

Jamerrill coming from a 23 year old, newly married, African American woman who is not religious. You have taught me so much. And I just need you to know that. Wishing you all the best and happy moments this holiday season.

[@kris10capulet48]

These videos on this channel mean so much to me. Please don’t stop them.

[@danamama6766]

Jamerrill this new chanel is perfect. It is therapy for you as well being brave to get stuff off your chest AND it is wonderful therapy for me, and I am sure so many others, to feel not alone and give us encouragement that yes life still goes on and the sun will still shine like you say. And I think it is important to express ourselves you are showing me that. And I am so getting encouragement to laugh again on the shopping trips. And honestly the chicken shower curtain in the bathroom with some socks haaaaaaa. Just perfect. Could not be any better. True life. much love and hugs

[@MelissasKitchenTable]

Thank you The hopeless feeling is overwhelming, at times.

[@gloriadavidson8599]

Your 1st video on a fragile framework of Joy had such a impact on my way of coping and this video really just puts things in prospective take a breath and step forward. Girl you are strong and determined and my hope for you is may your heart hurt a little bit less every day.🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉With lots of love and hugs from the UK x

[@awesomesaucetothemax]

Love this. So proud of you. You're doing it. You're doing the things

[@g.r.102]

heartfelt bathroom banter with a thoughtful friend thank you

[@roxyjinks9643]

Every day above ground is a good day to praise Jesus, the best thing I did was go back to church and get involved!

[@tinakresse6120]

❤ Thank you, you are helping so many of us, me included! ❤

[@BeatrizGarcia-l8g]

Apparently, you have been clawing yourself out of a very deep hole, you are very brave and resilient, while still managing to be generous and compassionate. My respect and admiration! You do you!

[@RobinKomindo-ei4vz]

Thanks Jamerell, I really appreciate your support, I too am going through in some sorts the same thing, after the loss of 40 year marriage. Thanks for giving me days I know I will make it thru. I will be thinking of you as I do. I have been watching since you were in your first farmhouse, sitting on your porch chatting with us. God bless, prayers your way

[@rebeccakramp1953]

Thank you for your message today

[@maegene2378]

Another really amazing book that talks about learning "the language of lament" and really gets into the fact that we have lost a huge part of our christianity by losing the ability to lament, has been such a good book. It's called "No More Faking Fine" by Esther Fleece Allen. She talks about her life and how she found her own "language of lament" .. she doesnt try to pretend its all fine and it was a very refreshing, real, authetic, healing read

[@joycajet]

Hi Jammeril. Thanks for sharing this. I have been through very difficult times and still am. I understand what your going through. I keep strong for my kids. Sending love and hugs to you ❤

[@alanawemple6074]

I have been through a divorce and was raising two boys by myself in my 20s. The only thing I could do for our little family was run to the Lord. He provided and protected us. I never thought of it as trauma, but it was. You really just take one day at a time. I pray for your healing and that your story will help others.

[@danielledineen5891]

I just want to say thank you! My family has been walking through trauma for the past year and a half. Your sharing so vulnerably and being encouraging is everything for me right now. You really are the hands and feet. (I hope that makes sense.)

[@janetfuhrmaneck3149]

I’m walking this healing path myself right now too. You are doing Amazingly well! Thank you for sharing your story!

[@annewashington1657]

Such true words. Grief and trauma suck. They do, but we need to find our joy too. Small though they may be. The colors of fall leaves, just a moment watching a bird fly across the sky, reflections in a puddle and hugs from my sons. The little things help. I always tell people Jesus walks with me, comforts. God is not one who allows these horrible events to happen. God walks is through them. Bless you.

[@jennifernorris3160]

I absolutely love watching both of your channels. You are so real. I find comfort and encouragement in watching your videos. It brings me moments of joy seeing what you are learning and working through. My life is so chaotic and such a mess at the moment, and you have given me so much to think about! ❤

[@Erin-ll4rs]

Thank you, Jamerrill. Your Mega Mama channel has helped me get through a very tough time in life and now this new channel is inspiring and encouraging on another level. Sending you virtual hugs. ❤

[@candice514]

Thank you so much for sharing. My heart goes out to you and your growing empire

[@ashernette1]

YES!!!! THIS!!!! 1000%!!!! Over spiritualizing pain, trauma and deep sorrow is just a religious spirit!!! If it was easy why would we need Jesus?? And therapy helps us learn so much about why we got where we are!!! I love this video and I have to tell you, I’ve seen ALLLLLLLL of your videos!!! Well done Momma!!!! I see you!!!! ❤

[@sillygoosefarm4225]

Thank you for having the courage to not only lean into the love and confort of Jesus but also proclaimg healing in his name.

[@Su-ij5vg]

You are a blessing. You speak truth. I have good days & crying days. You're doing all the things! God bless you & your family. We will not let abuse win. (I've struggled from it too.) God's got us!❤

[@janetlovesjesus100]

People who like to appear to be 'super spiritual', like to paint a picture that they never have a down day, never experience trauma, never have doubts and live in this magical, positive bubble. That is fake. We are human with very real emotions and very real problems. Wouldn't life be great if we could say a prayer and every problem be gone in a hearbeat? That's not reality. Getting out of bed can be a struggle.