Sharing My Fragile Framework of Joy

[@nancyjohnson1075]

“I had to save my children’s mother.” My goodness I felt that in my soul.

[@makingithome8493]

😭❤❤❤

[@annettejones7777]

Yes!

[@raising_arrows_mama]

Same 💞

[@ForeverEdsGirl]

POWERFUL statement!✝️❤

[@69cancerflipflopgirl]

Yes ❤❤ great message

[@NennaLena]

I think this channel is where I’m gonna be living. I’ve watched the other channel for years even though I’m a young, black, single mother of 1, living in Los Angeles so nowhere like what your channel. Idk why I watched your videos for so long because I never buy as much food as you, garden, homeschool, big batch cook, but I just really like YOU. Stay Strong Mama and in the words of our great new elect FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT

[@denisebutcher7717]

God bless you and keep you safe… I love watching Jams video and seeing her going through a hard time is so sad 😞 but sending you prayers from Southeast Texas because being a single mom is so hard ❤

[@teresamcreynolds5879]

When my marriage broke up I had a 6 month old and a 6 year old. I needed to go back to the work force. I found a pretty good job and decided I needed to do something for me. You ran, I went back to college. I worked night shifts got my children to where they needed to be in the day and went to college part time. It was hard and took me a long time. My oldest son graduated high school the same year I finished my degree. But I was proud of me. We did it.

[@joyceprice6749]

Congratulations to you and your son. You accomplished a lot with what you went through. God bless you all.

[@kezru1581]

That is fabulous. Congratulations, well done you! You should be very proud.

[@carmendoyle9786]

Congratulations ❤

[@AH1016Vafarmer]

The best “revenge” you can do for yourself is to show someone that you can live well without them. I was 6 months pregnant with my 4th kid when my ex and I split. It was devastating to let my family know because I felt I failed. I was living in a run down trailer, barely able to feed my kids. I decided I could either sulk in my sorrow or pick myself up and move on. I eventually got remarried, got my nursing degree, had 2 more babies and now live back home in Virginia running our family farm. Don’t ever count yourself out. God will not put more on you than you can handle.

[@wendybowler2514]

As women i think there is so much pressure o. Us to be the perfect housewife mother and keep everythi g on an even keel and keeping everythi ng runni g smoothley that we forget to make time for ourselves That doing little things to keep us happy helps us get through the bad times. Im 63 and have been a d are continuing to go through some rough times but im learni g to make more time for myself. My time to myself is k itting and decrating my house to make i to a cosy warm home. Its so easy to forget to look after yourself when youve been putti g your family first for a lo ng time me time is important just a few little moments each day. They make all the difference so you dont forget you are a person in your own right that you are doing your best and thats good enough and you are special. Thankyou enjoyed the video

[@marciamartin5559]

My husband of 52 years passed away in March and I’m trying to find JOY and purpose again.

[@JAMERRILL]

I’m so sorry for your loss ❤ praying joy for you as you find your way.

[@michellegrew77]

Big hugs too you ...just know he's waiting for you x

[@shawn9431]

I am so sorry. My husband passed in his sleep 3 weeks ago.

[@SuzieQ-lw2kp]

​🙏🏼🫂🙏🏼

[@SuzieQ-lw2kp]

​@@shawn9431🙏🏼🫂🙏🏼

[@whittribe1517]

I have watched you for many many years now. When I went through my separation I was 33 weeks pregnant with a very high risk pregnancy. I had a 2 year old and a 3 year old and I lived 18hrs from family. My dad came and picked me and the kids up and we drove over 3 days to not stress out my body into early labor to get back home. When I got home my granny who was 86 held my hand and told me Romans 8:18 “the pain you are feeling, can’t compare to the joy that is coming” It was a painful time period but she was absolutely right. Many good things came from it. But the most important one is I became strong because I had no other option. You are loved keep sharing your voice.

[@dorrilambert1632]

When I wAs an 8 year old child going through my parents divorce and trying to help my mom along-we cried many nights but there was wallpaper in her wall and a boat was on it! Many nights/days what got us through was the saying “we have to keep rowing, we can’t top over and sink”!! To this day -my 89 year old mom remembers the struggles but the joy when we got through it! It also was The Lord that guided us through!! Keep your head up!

[@JAMERRILL]

That’s beautiful ❤

[@ImAMusician8]

Jesus being your glue made me think of this. ❤❤❤ "Kintsugi is a Japanese art that repairs broken pottery with gold, rendering a new piece that is more exquisite than it was before the break."

[@taraschmidheini4674]

This‼️‼️😘

[@JAMERRILL]

Beauty 😭 ❤

[@annettejones7777]

Yes, and with God as the Master Potter...

[@dorieb1711]

My life took a turn about the same time yours did. My husband walked away from God, his family and me. I have lost my house, homeschooling and my stay at home mom dream status. Grief is a unique thing. God carried me through it all. There are moments that grief still comes. It may not be a rush like before but a trickle. We don’t know the why’s or maybe the exact future and that’s the hardest for me. I do hear Jesus saying be patient in the wait. This video was the reminder I needed today. I too have walked, journaled and worshipped through it. My happy place is meal prepping the kitchen or dinner with a friend. Thankyou for being candid and vulnerable (still protecting your children) with this season. We’ve got this sister💪🏻

[@Cathy1223]

When I was 36 and my husband turned 38, we found out he had cancer and they gave us a devastating life expectancy of one year if it was a good year! We had 4 daughters and two dogs! Surely the Lord would heal him! He was a pastor and singer! I was his wife and my daughters’ mommy! We prayed and the church prayed! People all over prayed! He passed away! The first Bible study I attended after his death, I was placed in the singles small group (mostly older widowed) and separated from those who had been my friends (married) I really felt I lost my identity! I know it is different than your situation; but I do think I went through feelings of abandonment! (Dreamed over and over seeing him but he didn’t want to be with me. He would disappear.) Feelings I wasn’t good enough so God didn’t heal him and took him. I knew and believe God was good and I never felt angry with him! I just wasn’t so sure about myself. I certainly was not perfect. The time after his sickness and death, I lost so much weight from stress I was scared. I know there were many times I felt God’s presence and His love! Listening to worship music brought me to tears but helped me to heal! I know God doesn’t leave us alone in our hardest times! He loves us! It was a struggle though! After putting kids to bed at night, I would feel the walls closing in on me! Sometimes I would feel like I was literally sinking into the floor! I would call my sister and ask her to pray right then! He never ever failed to lift me immediately as she prayed! It will be 30 years very soon! I’ve made plenty of mistakes in those years! But I still love my Lord and Savior and He loves me!

[@JAMERRILL]

Thank you for sharing your story and encouragement. ❤❤❤

[@nozzleram]

At the age of 43, I found myself a widow (together for 28 yrs, married 20) with 1 in college and one in HS. My whole world imploded that day. We were dealing with a lot leading up so his accident, His father had cancer and died 3 weeks later, money issues, and of the daily stuff that happens. Grief sucks everything from you - Do not feel ashamed of a divorce. Remember, our plans may not be God's plans despite our best efforts. He calls us to pivot, because there are good things that will eventually come your way again.You have been in my thoughts and prayers all through this, and I am grateful you finally feel more comfortable in sharing your story. Talking things out helps. Especially when sharing with strangers. Sending you more encouragement, and hugs.

[@BillieOtero-qe1jq]

My mantra during the time my life imploded was " the joy of the Lord is my strength " or turning it around is " the strength of the Lord is my joy." I also needed to eat differently. Supposed to be on the paleo diet, not possible in my circumstances right now. Need my own home and kitchen and haven't had either one in over twenty five years. So it's hard to eat the way I should to control my health issues. I had been walking but then hurricane Laura hit, plus other issues put an end to that. Listening to you makes me tell myself to get up and move, get some motivation. You know your body best so do what's right for you, your rockin it lady I was at 156lbs, when I said enough is enough and decided to lose the weight. I didn't set a goal except to lose until I felt better. I gave up sugar, dairy, gluten, fried foods, fast food, snacks foods and soda pop. Took awhile but lost down to 126, whet from a size 12/14 to a size 6. Now I'm back to 154. But that's because my living situation isn't stable and not having the meds I'm suppose to be taking for the last year and a half hasn't help. But this to shall pass. With God all things are possible. So just keep up the good work. Your doing fine. God bless you and your family.

[@lesliec.7796]

❤❤❤

[@deshanclan4006]

I’ve learned in my postpartum journey that all people want to be seen, heard and loved. Jamerrill, I see you, hear you and love your message!

[@LasonjaHunter]

How i relate to you. Im a 48 single mom of 5 from ages 4 to 21. Was married 20 years when he decided he didnt want to be married anymore. And i was diagnosed with cancer during this new season. Ive said 2020 up till today has been me going thru hell but when I'm going thru it I'm not gonna stop...why would i stop in hell. Brighter days are on the horizon. When i broke God said now i can use you. Blessings to all of us doing the best we can ❤

[@i2sky532]

Watching you is helping me take that next breath, wash that next dish, fold that next towel--during a time when I really just want to jump into the car and keep driving.

[@JAMERRILL]

I hear you. I think that’s how we make it through ❤

[@i2sky532]

@JAMERRILL some time back, you shared a lot about your childhood and--though details were different--I related to so much. God is using your voice. Thank you for helping me learn what it means to "take care of yourself "❤️

[@annettejones7777]

You're going to be better than okay. Believe in you. I do!

[@theothermrs.randle3416]

When you say " look at is! I'm proud of us!" IT helps to heal the little girl who shares my name❤️

[@JAMERRILL]

I’m so glad ❤

[@RowesRising]

🌻🌻🌻🌻

[@brendalehman1950]

When I was 22, I lost my Momma. She passed unexpectedly at the young age of 53. I was still at home navigating a new career as a nurse, starting to plan my leap into an independent life. I was heartbroken, my soul crushed and lost. I didn't even know what and how to ask God for help in my prayers. I couldn't put into words and express my needs. I just prayed the Lord's Prayer over and over and over , knowing that He would hear me; hear my pain, and know from my heart how to help and comfort me. He came near to me and into my heart. He knew my need. He knows my need! I always tell my son that God will hear all your prayers even if you can't say the exact words to ask him. Thank you for reminding me that my strength comes from Him!

[@roxyjinks9643]

I’m 56 and just now I’m realizing I need to take care of me I should have done it sooner, if my pitcher is empty I can’t pour out to anyone else! Thanks for sharing ❤

[@gailots]

I feel you. Divorced this year after 40 yrs. Found out my husband was living a double life for 30 yrs of our marriage. I’ve forgiven him and am staying Christlike for kids’ and grandchild’s sake. Having to find my joys also in this scary part of life. But I know God has this handled. I’m encouraged by your story too. Piecing a new life back together with the help of Jesus ❤. I adore the Anne of Green Gables series and reread the House of Dreams and Anne of Ingleside many times. So healing to my spirit. You should listen to the Jan Karon Mitford series also.

[@danamama6766]

I will never be able to forgive mine. Proud of you. hugs

[@lauriekerze3461]

Sorry, you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.

[@lesleywatkins1172]

Several years ago I was made disabled. It changed my life completely. I lost all of my independence, I can’t work, drive, leave the house on my own. Like you I’m learning about little things that bring me joy! It’s a struggle but day by day it gets better.

[@debgordon6542]

I'm so sorry. I pray that you have help, and someone to talk to. My daughter went thru a similar story at 23yo. She's 30 now. I've been her caregiver. I can relate and know that you must be a strong person to have overcome these life changing challenges. Many blessings and prayers to you. ❤

[@jilliebean2709]

"When my life flatlined..........." What a good descriptor of the unforeseen ways life throws a curve we have to choice but to navigate. You are an inspiration. After watching your video story of your childhood, it's easy to see that you are filled with faith, love, strength and determination. 💗

[@jackiehoward7300]

Jamerill, I am sorry for everything you and your family went through. Sometimes, learning to take care of yourself is the hardest. You are not alone. No matter what happens, God never fails us. He never lets us down. A Bible verse for you: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” ~Proverbs 3:5-6

[@trishajones1608]

I also had a very traumatic event that happened in my life also a little over 15 months ago. My beautiful, healthy, full of life, 28 year old daughter passed away in front of me. Imagine having to do CPR on your child while you are waiting for 911 to get to your house. They got here very quick and tried to save her for over 30 minutes. But i knew when I was doing cpr on her she was gone. Joy does not come all that easy anymore. Tears and Greif sure do come easy. I do enjoy watching your video's...your tube video's have gotten me through many sleepless nights.

[@JAMERRILL]

I’m so very sorry for your unimaginable loss 💗 it’s also ok if joy doesn’t come easy

[@cjjjones8123]

I'm so sorry for your loss, no mama should have to face this, my heart goes out to you.

[@susiewolfgong3496]

My husband ripped my heart out!! I’m 71 now it still is devastating to me.

[@TheSchnoodlemom]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I became a single mom after 24yrs. of marriage. It's hard in the beginning but you will find what works for you. I'm happy to say I found a kind. loving partner who treats my kids as his own and we've been together 17yrs. Hang in there, the best is yet to come.

[@kathyjaeger5749]

I so needed this today. I too am a nurse. Over the last 4yrs+ i have worked 50+hrs a week plus call shifts. My husband left my 4 children and myself 20yrs ago. I saw your video and can so relate. Today was the first time i have given myself permission to grieve what I thought my life would be like at this point in my life. Thank you for giving us permission (it sounds stupid to some) to allow us time for ourselves. Thank you Jamerrill . We appreciate, love, and support you.

[@LM-my1ss]

You are so awesome and you are so strong, you are also helping others and you may not know it, but you are. May God be with you and may he help you, he already has. TFS

[@sarabyrd9708]

I have been where you are. So glad you are taking care of yourself. It’s a slow walk to healing. It is a grieving process. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@JAMERRILL]

It is indeed a deep grieving process of so many things. Many layers ❤❤❤

[@lisafrom-indy3618]

​@@JAMERRILLYou aren't just dealing with your own grief but you also have to help your children deal with their grief as well. That's a heavy load! I'm glad you realize that you have to take care of yourself in order to help them. You're doing great!

[@crystalyork2840]

My 27 yrs marriage is over after my husband left. I started walking and lost a 100lbs. Only think that helped me get through it. 40 more to go slowly but surely. Loved this video sometimes I feel like I’m all alone in this 💜

[@cheryllindley3990]

I have watched for a while and learned so much about meal planning, canning, bulk shopping, etc. But, the one think I am so grateful I am learning is that it is ok to not be ok. I'm taking one day at a time. Thank you!

[@christinem.alwaysbelieve]

You're a strong woman Jammeral and very inspiring. Thanks for sharing your journey. ❤😊

[@JAMERRILL]

Thank you for your support!! 💕

[@christinem.alwaysbelieve]

@@JAMERRILL you are very welcome 😊

[@heidiDonato]

Love the talk

[@luvsunshine4825]

I just wanted to encourage you ❤ One day, your heart WILL be healed again. You WILL feel like yourself again. You WILL have more joy again. Life WILL feel 'normal' again. And even though you know this; life won't always be this hard! You're doing great ❤ God bless

[@Aurelia6190]

You have a whole new energy to you and it’s incredible to see. Sometimes we don’t see in ourselves what others do, but you are truly an inspiration. I don’t have children, but I have been through so tough seasons and watching another woman walk through hardships and still honor herself is amazing. Your confidence and self worth is a wonderful example to follow. Thank you.

[@Gowwoman]

I have been a long time lurker who doesn't comment on You tube ever, but wanted to share with you an interesting tidbit. Francine Shapiro discovered EMDR (Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing) whilst walking in a park. It is a psychotherapy technique that has helped a lot of first responders and veterans deal with PTSD by connecting the right brain and the left brain while putting the trauma in it's appropriate place in our memories/brains. Your walking is multi-faceted and you instinctively knew that was what you needed. Good on you! "In 1987, Francine Shapiro was walking in the park when she realized that eye movements appeared to decrease the negative emotion associated with her own distressing memories" This season in life will pass and I am glad you have found solace in the Lord, your family, your intuition, survival instincts, strength and tenacity. You got this Lady.

[@paulamorgan4401]

Thank you for shedding light on your journey and how you're coping with in this season. It reminds me and encourages me that I'm not alone. Breathe, walk, smile, cry and know this too shall pass. XOXOXO from a fellow sojourner❤❤❤

[@susanh3936]

I walked your walk and many years later I can say Everything is as it should be. 💕

[@auroranight3779]

Single Mom of twelve blessings and nineteen grandblessings and three great-grandbleasings. Husband passed away in 2018. You're looking and sounding much better than you did a year or year and a half ago. Sometimes you do what ya can and you choose your battles. I'm just learning the self-love, giving myself a little grace and mercy. My entire life has been about every one else. I am exhausted and burnt out. I got to the point of sheer exhaustion and my cup was empty and I have no spoons left. You have been such a beautiful inspiration and motivation for me.

[@familyofmany4646]

Mama of 10 here. I had made the very difficult decision to leave, for a long list of reasons. His behavior had been getting more and more erratic, involvement had become less and less. I’d been a SAHM for 22 years. I started cleaning houses, I was gaining clients, I was doing well. And then…. My husband had a stroke,requiring emergency brain surgery. He’s only 45. I had to give up everything to take care of him. I thought maybe…. Maybe will this be a wake up call for him? But no, there’s nothing new under the sun. It’s been 4 months. He cannot take care of himself… yet. I will still continue with my plan, just a different time frame. I can’t get past, what would people say? Only a monster would leave a man who had a stroke. But I have all these little people who need to know how to be good people, and all they see all day is mom working or cleaning/cooking, and dad on the couch on his phone, and he hasn’t moved all day. (Nothing to do with the stroke, it’s been more years than I can count)

[@JAMERRILL]

Boy, do I hear you, sweetie. Part of my lived experience, as far as the opinions of others judging our decisions is, “I’m darned if I do, and I’m darned if I don’t.” And ultimately, I have to make decisions to save my own one life, which in turn saves my children’s mother. Some of this has been intuitively from the Holy Spirit within me. A lot of encouragement I have had to play on repeat during different seasons is from @flyingfree Natalie Hoffman’s podcast. Natalie, along with her incredible slew of guests (Patrick Doyle, Megan Cox, Gretchen Baskerville so many!) have helped me find strength and language for many many things. I’m thankful for their work. This channel will at times be more of a love fest on how much those resources have helped me. it sounds like you have a plan that you’re working in a vision for a brighter day. Your children are watching you and you are very strong. If you haven’t read this yet, here is a good resource by Gretchen Baskerville lifesavingdivorce.com/

[@truejoie]

Sending prayers for you mama to have wisdom from God and supernatural strength. At the end of the day, what God thinks and the example you are showing your children matters more than anything. (I know that doesn't make it easy.)❤

[@debbiekoenig7376]

May the Lord bless you and give you his strength and peace.

[@serobinson1]

I've been with my husband since I was 16. And I'm 38. We got a grown kid a grandkid. I cannot imagine how much strength it would take to restart my life at this point. The fact that you have and have so many people that depend on you to show up every day And you do that and you made yourself better is so amazing❤

[@debgordon6542]

Best advice ever: listen to your body & say no to unnecessary stress. It does get better with time...and God. btw That chicken shower curtain is everything ❤

[@herbanfarmstead]

I feel like I could talk about nervous system stuff allllll day with all the stuff I’m learning lately. I’m going through the Primal Trust program after a life of trauma and my nervous system completely…breaking from being stuck in flight or fight for most of my 40 years (think 8 hours of panic attacks a day and sleeping 3-4 hours every OTHER night). You’re amazing, Jamerrill, I’m proud of us, too 🎉

[@JAMERRILL]

Sigh yes, the nervous system is definitely a whole thing! I’m still in crisis so I only learn survival surface level things in this season. I’m much more in tuned with my body, senses, and needs though so I think that’s the right direction ❤❤❤

[@sonicx2464]

I felt this so deep in my Soul. God Bless You! When my husband of 30 years passed away very suddenly 2 1/2 yrs ago I think I became half of who I was. I'm still working through that Trauma, and honestly, I don't know if I will ever feel close to Who I Was, and That's OK!!! I'm 64 raising my 12 year old grandson, and trying each day to Remember I have to save myself for HIM! There are days I just can't do life, and That's Ok...I have a family that pushes me and helps me so much; for that, I'm extremely Grateful! Blessings to you on your journey!!! Much Love

[@MarthaAzari]

Your awesome. Have great joy that all of this fell apart sooner than later. I’m in a hard season at 64…… still looking for those elusive “golden years”. But as a woman, we do sacrifice for the ones that we love. In this season, my alone time joy comes in the form of a nap. lol. I should be walking. I have MS and it’s too cold out to keep my legs working. You will get through this. Keep your focus on what you have now and not what you have lost. I know it’s hard. I’m there! I buried my 42 year old son less than 6 months ago. And now have had to move from my little farm on the east coast to the west coast. All of this to keep my grandson safe. I have found just allowing my self to focus on losses and to be sad for only a few minutes a day keeps my heart happier. Then I have to push forward. I only need to give the sadness a few minutes a day because my Lord is carrying me through. You are doing all the things and will do more each day. Hugs!

[@JAMERRILL]

I’m very sorry for the loss of your son ❤

[@MarthaAzari]

@@JAMERRILL Thank you! I’m truly sorry for your loss and pain. Prayers!

[@alicebunt5453]

You have a right to share as much or as little as you can. I was 59 when I went through a divorce after being married for 28 years. Not my choice! I was lost! I didn’t even know who I was. I still have moments after all this time but I survived and I’m grateful for the “good times “. You are loved by your family and your KZbin family. Be gentle on yourself. Keeping you in my prayers

[@ShirleyCousins]

Such an uplifting message. Thank you, you are truly an inspiration for so many. May God continue to bless you and your family. 🙏🌹💕

[@bassfamily7606]

Hello sweet friend! This verse came to me tonight as I was listening to you. But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31) Keep running sister! We are cheering you on. =)

[@RowesRising]

Yes and amen! You helped encourage me as I started my channel 7 years ago- thanks watched you and listened to how you wanted to cover groceries. Me too! And now I’m doing that and so much more with my channel- I never quit! I never gave up. The neglected and abused little girl inside me is still here- she sees me. She sees us keep rising everyday! Thank you Jamerrill ❤ ((Hugs)) I know you encouraged me and so many other moms to keep going. 🌻🌻🌻

[@tamarawatson-simon631]

Life has changed so much!! Didn’t think my heart could be broken into a million pieces until my husband passed away 3 and half months ago. We have 7 children 4 still under 18. It is so stressful doing thia alone and listening to you brings me comfort and hope that life will get better as time goes on. God is good!

[@JamerrillStewart]

I’m so sorry for your loss ❤❤❤

[@debgordon6542]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Condolences and prayers for your strength and resilience 🙏

[@annewashington1657]

You are doing it, you also touched me and got me to thinking. First time in a long time I was blessed with a free respite over night stay at a comfortable hotel and a dinner out with special needs mommas. It can be so hard. I am in tears that the state provided a grant that allows us this. Hoping I can find my own kindnesses for my body and myself. Thank you dear lady and I pray all goes well as you heal through out your life.

[@JAMERRILL]

Wow, I’m glad you’re getting this special time!!

[@MelissasKitchenTable]

Your videos are my Anne of Green Gables during my own trauma. Jesus loves us all. ❤

[@PaulaEngles-z2n]

Sometimes I feel the Lord has me on fast dial. I have had losses my husband my daughter to Cancer. My heart broke and it is still cracked but like you said we have to help our self. There are days when I hold on by a string but the Lord knows and provides me strength to carry on. I love watching you you are so positive and beautiful inside and out. God Bless I do mini momma meals for my family and they love it

[@susanr791]

This lovely and so hopeful!! I appreciate you very much.

[@ClaraBowInThisLight]

Jamerrill, I hope you know your struggles right now will be a blueprint for other women in the future. Show all the frustration, struggles and vulnerability. Your words about makeup and “not needing to do that right now” have actually been so helpful for me this week. Do what you can. It won’t be like this forever. You are such an inspiration and a warrior among women.

[@traceythompson7895]

I also appreciated her Walmart makeup story. It made me laugh and I thought about things in my life that I'm trying to adapt but I cant do it all. I love watching KZbin and i follow many. Sometimes the picture perfect everything is nice to watch but it's also great when ppl are just real. Makes me feel not so alone.

[@yvettegerry9862]

Jamerrill you are so beautiful ! I still can’t figure out who I am or what I’m supposed to be doing since I lost my daughter two years ago. Watching Your old videos when I couldn’t sleep at night saved me , so I thank you . I love the new channel! Thank you for sharing! ❤️

[@kma7567]

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[@marilynpeppers1356]

My 3 year old son went to God many years ago. I’ve aged into a grandmother with grown grands. There is some JOY in knowing I will see him again sooner now rather than later. I’ll know him when I see him and he will know me. Warmest regards.💜

[@JAMERRILL]

I’m so very sorry for your loss ❤

[@annettejones7777]

Yvette, I am so sorry. I understand. I lost my daughter 4 yrs ago. It's hard to breathe, isn't it? But breathe, we must. We are the "surviving " ones. The ones left behind. Our daughters took a big part of our souls with them, but we are still here. We can do this, Sis. ❤

[@yvettegerry9862]

@@annettejones7777 thank you Annette my daughter’s name is Yvette I’m Gerry. She did my computer this way and I don’t have the heart to change it . Thank you for your kindness.

[@BengeFamily98]

You are such an encouragement Jamerill! You are the first KZbinr I ever watched. We've been through a lot together. Haha About 13 years ago my husband and boys had been mushroom hunting. I fried them later that day, and unbeknownst to me, I ate a darker colored mushroom that I was apparently allergic to, or had some sort of reaction to..I was very ill for 3 days. My husband contemplated calling an ambulance, but I pulled through. My husband introduced me to KZbin, and that's when I found you! I watched all of the videos you had made while in bed. Now here we are! 😂 I'm 50 years old ( I will be 51 on November 15th), and I'm trying to get back to running again, but have been struggling (thank you menopause.😐) I'm very encouraged! Thank you for letting all of us get to know you even a little better. Many Blessings to you and your family!💖

[@danielleyoder4247]

My birthday too! I’ll be 48 (Happy Birthday!)

[@01sgolke]

I really appreciate you doing this, what you said about it's ok to save yourself so you can be the mom you need to be is extremely inspirational for me to do the same and not feel selfish in doing so 💐❤ I love you Jamerill!! Been watching you for 10 years or so I love you soool much!!! You're such an inspiration ❤

[@RachelFindingJoy]

Thank you, my friend. I am proud of you. You've seen my journey (including the running) -- from my divorce over a decade ago to being the single mom to changing my life. I'm so thankful you stuck with me all those years as a friend. I appreciate you. Keep fighting, keep being brave, keep your framework of joy. Much love. ~Rachel

[@ginaf8234]

🌸 I want you to know you helped me to get out & walk! I’ve been doing 20 minutes everyday since end of July. We unfortunately couldn’t have children so my life is much less hectic than yours but, I just never felt like exercising. I said if she can make time so can I. In January I’m going to add more time. Baby steps 🌸 I’m glad you’re starting your new chapter on you and hope you take baby steps too 🌸

[@davidcooper1535]

I’m here with you digging and clawing and scratching to get better with Jesus as my glue. Proud of you!

[@eleanormendiola-neal3136]

Hi Jammerill i love you you’re my motivation along With Becky from Acre Homestead along with God Almighty thank you for sharing your journey i appreciate you and i appreciate you sharing your journey i too have my good days and bad days so far i have lost 34 lbs and i still have a long way to go i fell off the paddy wagon when my son committed suicide and now I’m back and im claiming motherhood in a new prospective and i know my son would want me to live life to the fullest but it hurts and i realize today that this is the second year that my son isn’t hear for the holidays

[@georgianative5735]

I love the new channel. Thank you for sharing your healing with us. God bless you precious sister. I am praying for you & your family.

[@DianeWaite-l4x]

Thank you so much for sharing such personal insight into your life you helped millions of women to realize they are worth something

[@JAMERRILL]

I hope so ❤we all indeed matter and have worth

[@irisruiz8980]

As the saying goes: when life gives you lemons make lemonade. I think you are making lemonade; your recipe may vary from day to day; it's probably sweeter some days than others but youre doing it!❤❤❤

[@rachellowe5514]

Precious Jamerrill, I have watched you for years! ♥️ My family is walking a difficult journey in this life, and you have been a tremendous blessing and treasure to me. 🥹Thank you for sharing the joys and sorrows of this life, I have learned so much from you. ❤All our hope is in Jesus, much love to you Sister.❤

Walking is great for the soul and body.Whatever makes YOU MOMMA happy!❤

[@TheEverydayMumma]

Hi Jamerrill, I wanted to share something with you. I have already told you, you inspired me to start my own channel however you have helped me in a much deeper way. I went through unimaginable prolonged stress which lead to my body practically starting to shut down, I was unable to do anything that brought me joy, I had to have 8 months of unpaid leave from work to just rest my body, I had never experienced anything like this, I went from being such a busy, productive person (studying a duel degree then a masters while also swimming professionally and working to later working full time as a therapist) with no mental or physical issues to someone who was just trying to shower. At the same time, I was watching you share how you were going through a traumatic event and how it was affecting you. Hearing how you were trying to be so kind to yourself really, I mean REALLY helped me do the same. I felt I could relate to how you were feeling (although I don’t know what happened, I could understand the mental, emotional and physical impact of a crazy level of stress). Thank you for sharing your story and your journey. I now hold my first baby in my arm, I’m returning to work from parental leave soon and I’m in such a better metal and physical state. I not only have the energy once for my 6month old but I have found sooo much joy in making my KZbin content. Thank you

[@JAMERRILL]

Thank you for sharing your story ❤❤❤ it means a lot to me. I’m so glad you’re making good progress, too!

[@zb2363]

Good on you mama! When my marriage ended and my ex was horrid and I was a single mom I heard a parable that helped me through. It goes like this: The devil came and whispered in my ear, “The storm is coming” I turned to the devil and replied, “I AM THE STORM.” Divorce is awful and no child is left unscathed unfortunately, but I think children gain strength by seeing us overcome challenges and learn love when we choose joy. I went back to school in my 50s to become a social worker- one of my classmates was going through a terrible divorce and becoming a single mom and I shared my parable with her. We just graduated and she gave me a beautiful necklace with a pendant that says “I am the storm.” Hang in there mama, one foot in front of the other. ❤

[@jemrose104]

I'm so glad I found you a couple months ago. I'm on my own weight loss journey. I've lost my religion - you're helping bring it back. You are so inspiring! Look at us! We're doing it!

[@lizpring1003]

I really needed to hear this today. Sending love, strength and joy.

[@lr9152]

As a momma of 4 and grandma to 11 I wish I could express to you how your words have blessed me. I've been hurt and lost....but I'm coming back!

[@melissakennedy2849]

Thank you Jamerill ❤

[@dsbeyondblessed3384]

Your videos have brought me joy for years. You are my sister in Christ and such a blessing. God is so good and I am so proud of you for continuing to push forward through the warfare.

[@JaninesPlace]

Oh, Jamerrill! I have watched since the original old farmhouse and I too, have completely neglected my emotional and physical health for decades and I’m currently on the journey of self preservation because my world is about to crash down around me and I’ll be needing to rebuild.

[@SJD36]

Wow, good for you for taking care of yourself during this hard time.. It truly is important and sometimes us moms put it on the backburner when that's the thing that will give us what we really need to help others better. Yes, turning to Jesus is a life saver for sure during these times. He fills us up and then we can pour out. I have had seasons when I needed much healing and time to receive that. I had to learn also that is ok. Great job with reaching for some personal goals! That's awesome about the running and weight loss! I have been taking steps also with weight loss and it's so encouraging when I start seeing results to keep going with it. Your story is inspiring me to keep going also. Thanks for sharing! Prayers for you sister :) ~Sarah

[@lisatakeitorleaveit]

One of the best things we can do is check in with ourselves and take what we want and leave the rest than check in again. When I had the traumatic break up of my marriage, I started walking too. While Walking. I was able to process what happened and also relieve myself of sone of my inner stress. And you are doing it for all us girls out here! Also, the other amazing thing is your teaching your daughters and your sons that mothers also have to pour into themselves. It’s an important lesson.

[@loribrocato145]

I love you and your family. I'm so proud of you. Prayers for you and your family. I'm still trying to save my children's mother. Upcoming heart surgery. Hoping God's will is for me to survive and enjoy the blessings of being their Mom for a long time more. Thank you for the inspiration.

[@fleurmp3820]

looking forward to watching the 52 videos x

[@freedomthroughdivorce]

Thank you so much for sharing! I went through a horrific divorce and child custody situation that lasted 4 years. During that time I did nothing to take care of myself, I just had to freakin live and get through it and I did that by crying in the presence of God every chance I got. Now that the case is over, I’m just now finally having to put my life back together piece by piece. I’m finally having to save myself. Thanks for allowing us on your journey as we walk through ours. I’m praying for you! Also I’m in your KZbinr extraordinaire course and I love the new content!

[@IoneEvans]

I've always loved your chats. Our lives couldn't be more polar opposites and yet the exact same. I am always encouraged by your videos ❤

[@angelaelliott9791]

Bless you. The Lord loves us, and you're right, He's right there with you. I pray you'll continue to heal and feel the love of Jesus.

[@jtcoffee6225]

Appreciate your legs and ability to walk. I struggle to walk at 60 and I miss being able to walk fast. I hobble along with a cane. So be glad to have the blessing of being able to walk and run.

[@PrayereeFarm]

GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU ALWAYS...KEEP SOLDIERING ON DEARHEART ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@janetswain2354]

I'm so proud of you and all you've accomplished. My life has flatlined a few times the most recent being about a year ago and I'm 83. However all is well now. Thanks to God's unending mercy i can still live alone completely unassisted in any way and also live pain free. I had never thought of the term flatlined in relation to life itself. My guess is that you did because you're a nurse. But the term is exactly what it feels like when everything falls apart. I have such great regard and respect for you and how you handle life's slings and arrows with such grace and beauty. I pray God's blessings on you and your family

[@DonnaAnders-w4d]

Loved, loved, loved this personal video. Keep on keeping on ❤

[@kiwanaki]

Jamerill, I am so grateful for your testimony, and your willingness to be vulnerable and share with us. You have my love and support always!

[@heathervanek8762]

Thank you so much for your honesty ❤ one day at a time sweet Jesus, some days that is all we should focus on is one day at a time 🙏

[@sandrafinnegan]

Love this, we are going through something and it helps with people like yourself being so honest and real. You are looking fabulous and so glad you are taking time for yourself, because if we don't we can't help others. Our children always know when we are sad and it helps knowing they are with us and can help too. Fresh air is always good for lifting the mind. Love your posts. Love from Belfast, Ireland 🇮🇪 💖

[@stephanielupo2756]

I became a single Mom of seven children almost two years ago, I have struggled to see the Joy. Thank you for sharing your story! ❤

[@conniekline9881]

You are an amazing woman, and have found the secrets to healing yourself and being able to give to others. Thank you for sharing your wisdom and may God bless your steps forward.

[@trenarichardson690]

Looking forward to the future with you ❤

[@darynstar4646]

Give yourself grace. Baby steps. You're doing it.

[@bravehearticus]

Jamerill. I admired you before 15 months ago. But since 15 months ago, I've seen you sparkle and shine. You're amazing. I have tears rolling watching this. Beautiful soul ❤

[@vivianzuniga8814]

When my life exploded I learned to run. 8 miles each evening. It saved me and my children. I’d always been strong and athletic but didn’t think I could run. Idk why. Jesus is my everything and has been for many many years. You are doing an amazing job! Keep moving forward sweetheart. You n Jesus can do this!!!

[@pajamamama5965]

Thank you for sharing all of this. It's very encouraging. I'm sad for all of your suffering. The verse you shared at the end about how the Lord is near to the broken hearted, the second part is that he saves those who are of a contrite spirit. When I was going through the worst tragedy of my life, I learned that verse and the word contrite means shattered to pieces like a bowl that's dropped to the floor and can't be salvaged. That's exactly how I felt at that time. Completely helpless apart from him. I just had to learn how to live 1 day at a time one moment at a time constantly asking for his help to do the next thing. It was extremely humbling but I believe that was all in his plan for me at that time. To this day, one of my favorite prayers to pray is Jesus help me. 🙏

[@okeating3663]

I can relate, thought I believe what happened to you is way different, I went through a series of upheavals for a very long time. I was forced into raising a small baby , but needed to work. I endured that journey for over 14 years. Sadly relying on day care and assuming a huge cost with that. I still feel isolated after it all. Trying to function, working 50 - 60 hours a week at one job. Traveling 2 hours a day just to and from work, then an extra hour to and from a nursing home with our young child. Daily feeling lost, not knowing what will be thrown towards me the next day. Dealing with a child that shut down after my husband got sick. Sadly for about 6 years my son wouldn't talk. Today he is great , working and well adjusted. It took time. Hiwever I still feel I failed. Its hard to not feel that way. I walked through such dark years. Hiw I made it I can not say. God was a huge part of my life. Church folks kept me alive, even if it was just at church. They told me many times im stronger than I feel. As did the many staff at the nursing home. Our joyrneys are different, but the stresses, pain, heart ache and turmoil is similar. I enjoy hearing you newest journey of hope. These days seems I need a bit of hope, prays and positive vibes. Covid took me away from church. Afraid to venture back. I know God lives me, I need to find my inner strength and hope for a new venture. I really want it to work out. I want it to be a start of our new life. Thank you for your positive vibes and healing thoughts. I know I can use these. Much love to you.

[@danamama6766]

Love and hugs to you sweet sister. You have already the strenghth you are very powerful you just do not realize it. Your little dragonfly is why you chose it for a reason. 💕

[@EnderlinHomes]

You nailed this. Well done. You named how I have survived the last four years. I had to learn my stress levels.

[@aidarivera9193]

Good for you Jamerill. I love your videos. I’ve had trauma in my life and I had good and bad days as well. God bless you and your beautiful family.

[@bettyruth9142]

I forgot, I love my Walmart make up. Cover girl and oil of Olay!! Been wearing the same color of lipstick forever!! I am 72 with some medical problems!! Keeping the Lord in all we do is so awesome!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@simplyfreedom171]

I remember writing on another of your videos that I knew you would be ok if you were up and walking. Those energies need to move through. Great message about finding our own joy, prioritizing ourselves, and letting go of things that are stressful or too much. ❤❤

[@deaniek1180]

Been there! So sorry you're having to go through it. I hope you feel all the hugs from all of us (subs). That bag of makeup isn't judging BUT that hen behind you is judging everyone! Lol Hugs sweet momma.

[@heatherrogers9432]

This was very encouraging. You are not alone sister. ❤

[@grandmasewhappyhomestead187]

I am a single mom. I went through a divorce several years ago. I have 4 children. All I can say. Is God is so good?He not only carried my family and I threw those years of the journey and healing, But he also took me through a journey of me being able to say I was so precious to the Lord. I have been a Christian since a very young age. And I knew the Lord loved me, but I couldn't say the word precious and now I can!!! thank you, Jesus. You are such a powerful testimony! I wish years ago I could have walked through my journey a little more Beauty and not so much messy. That's the beauty of the Lord. He is the Potter. We are the clay. He reminds us and remakes us new everyday.❤ I will say he's the best fixer. Upper and he fixed all those cracks and all the little Dent in me as a vessel. And now I can pour out and be filled up daily by him the Lord. I had to learn to take care of me. I was so used to giving out to everybody. I had to find the new restored me, the healed me in Jesus. The Lord is using you mightily and I thank you for what you share. You encourage others to know so many times we feel alone and we aren't.