Finding SUCCESS On My Own TERMS As An Artist

[@multifacetedmaven6925]

Thank you so much for this message. It’s exactly what I needed to hear in exactly the right time. ❤

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@multifacetedmaven6925 I'm so glad this video was helpful 🥰❤️ thank you so much for watching ✨️

[@Observant_Truth]

Your advice, perspective and honesty, resonate with me in a way that made my head and heart harmonize. There was a lovely and calming hum, an "A-ha!"epiphany. Last year, I started seeing a new therapist. In one of our first appointments, she inquired; " what do you do with all your emotions?" I didn't understand what she meant exactly, "do you mean like how do I cope with my emotions?" My therapist rephrased; "What do you do with all the energy that your emotions create? " I was still confused, and it was obvious. I was giving homework for the first time. I've been in therapy on and off for about 15 years. I've never had homework. I want you take this canvas, and I want you to get some acrylic paint and a few brushes. Sit with those items and ask yourself how you feel, and then paint it for me. I did what I was instructed to do , but after 15 mins nothing was painted. I sat for 30 more mins. Then an hour before scofffing and giving up. I just couldn't get the question out of my mind. I was really taken aback to realize I didn't have an answer. 4 days went by with intermittenly sitting and staring at a blank canvas. I had no idea what the fuck my therapist wanted me to fucking do! I'm not an artist! I decided to look up "painting emotions" on Reddit, Pinterest, and KZbin. I watch and read tons of things about how some people utilize art to express themselves, their experiences, and their emotions. Okay, I knew that! Duh, I know what art is. But I had no idea HOW to paint my emotions!! Nothing. Was helping me solve my problem and I only had 2 days until therapy. WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN, "PAINT MY EMOTIONS??! HOW ABOUT I PAINT YOU MY ASSHOLE! " I was getting really frustrated with. I knowing WTF I should do. In a childish fit I took the canvas and threw it on the ground. I slammed the paints on the floor, I stepped on them,kicked it all round, and then when there was paint all over everything in the garage. I cried. Hard. I just didn't understand!! Then I look at the canvas, half way across the room, with the most hypnotizing and consuming spiral of paint splashed all over it. Then I understood. What my therapist meant. Ever since, I've been trying to learn how to draw and paint, ( both are fucking overwhelming to learn sometimes.) for the first time in my whole life painting has allowed me to feel proud of something I've done. I've always been ignored, corrected, or made fun by my family. It was hard growing up in an abusive household, it caused me to date abusive people. Painful. Those abusive situations made me hate myself, and I sought to be kinda like rosemary kennedy. A pretty zombie. This only lead to more pain. I landed a dream job of mine when I was 25, only to encounter a coworker who refused to accept my opinions and my rejection. I was stalked, harassed and eventually assaulted. When your in survival mode for so long, you stop enjoying things, easy things are difficult, you struggle leaving the house, you have panic attacks waiting in check out lines... When I showed the painting to my therapist her jaw dropped! She said yes that what I wanted you do to. Ive fallen for the process of creation. Thank you for reassuring me that I don't have to be the best, I don't need to make insane amounts of money.....I don't have to know every technique. Thank you for reminding me to be flexible with the process because I'm not doing this for anyone but myself first. It's a very beautiful way to work through my trauma! 💜🩵

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@Observant_Truth wow, thank you so much for opening your heart and sharing your story. Sounds like the painting experience was extremely cathartic. It's such a raw way to release all the trauma that the body holds. I'm so grateful to hear that this video helped in some way. Really appreciate you watching and commenting. I'm really happy to hear that you're still creating ✨️ ❤️❤️‼️

[@MarisaArtCrafts]

I couldn't agree more ! you took the words right out of my typing😁🤣 now I don't have type it!😊 this video is full of wisdom Thank you Zhanna Tsysyn 😊

[@PaigeOutLoud]

I love that your name is observant truth. I love that you observed and spoke your truth with your emotions. I love that you shared all of this because I had the same experience once and fell in love with the process. When I feel misunderstood my art supplies understand how to support me by being the fluid emotions I need them to be.

[@Observant_Truth]

@@PaigeOutLoud thank you! What materials do you like working with?

[@TheUntamedJournal]

So useful. Thank you 🙏

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

Glad it was helpful! Thank you so much for watching ❤✨️

[@skyyflower36]

This popped up on my feed and I had to stop by and say, WOW! I LOVE your painting in the background. ❤

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@skyyflower36 🥰thank you so much, really appreciate it ❤️✨️

[@MarisaArtCrafts]

Yes!.. focus on the Why ! keeps you on track

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@MarisaArtCrafts 💯🎯‼️

[@RachelRiner]

I LOVE the art studio as your own laboratory, where you hold a vision but everything is an experiment, and where curiosity is king, and humility to play around with others ideas through commissions, and see it all as experiments and practice while not loosing sight of your nugget if a vision

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@RachelRiner YES! I'm so happy to hear that it resonated. Exactly this!❤️✨️❤️

[@Dreamaster2012]

There are so many gems here. Thank you for stepping up 🎉❤🎉

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

I'm so happy to hear you found it helpful ❤✨️

[@pinkybearpaints]

i often struggle with the feeling that art is not good enough and i wonder how professional artists deal with this mental setback.

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

Struggling with a feeling of your art not being good enough is often a good indicator that you really care about what you create. Because you care, you will put time and energy into your craft and you will become better and better over time. I have never met a professional artist who doesn't at some point in their career (usually in the beginning stages of learning how to trust yourself as an artist) feel this way. What one learns over time is that the process is more important than the outcome. Who you as an artist become during the process is how you develop your trust in your art and skill. You will get to the point where your distinct use of line, color, and shape which holds the artists essence will overtime become your signature as an artist. Embrace it, that's what makes you, YOU! ❤

[@goddesskindled]

Thank you for reminding me to hold my vision.

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

Yes! always holding the vision 🌀✨👁

Great info, thank you so much for taking the time to make these helpful videos. 🌸

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

I'm so glad it was helpful. Thank you so much for watching ✨️ ❤

[@lynnethrelfall2625]

❤Thank you for your very grounding message.😊

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@lynnethrelfall2625 thank you so much for watching ❤️✨️

[@mcqueenbrown]

Your art is gorgeous! 😍 thank you for your inspiring channel. Trying to gather the courage and get organized to start mine. 🙌

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@mcqueenbrown thank you so much for your kind words and for watching. Let me know when you start yours. I'd love to support you in any way I can. ❤️

[@Rockin.Bakken]

Love your outlook ❤ I feel all of this deeply & I agree with you ✨ thank you for sharing your truth

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@Rockin.Bakken thank you so much for watching, I'm so glad it resonated ✨️❤️🌀

[@theflowinartt]

This was an amazing video, thank you for sharing your wisdom ❤️❤❤❤

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@theflowinartt thank you so much for watching, and I'm so happy to hear that it resonated ❤️ 💖

[@valentinesvids]

Thank you for sharing. Was good information

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@valentinesvids I'm so glad you found it helpful. Thank you so much for watching ✨️

[@krystal.alexandria]

I love your inspired riffs so much. Thank you ❤

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

Thank you so much for letting me know. I'm so glad to hear that it resonates 🥰❤

[@freedomskr]

Thank you, I needed to hear all of this

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@freedomskr you are very welcome! Thank you so much for watching ✨️ ❤️

[@chefiq]

Really enjoyed this video! Learned a lot about how important it is to be authentic and true to your self.

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

I'm so glad! Thank you so much for watching❤❤❤

[@JCarrera_ll]

Definitely, vision lead overall👏

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@JCarrera_ll yes! 💯✨️❤️

[@michellenunes193]

Thank you for your generosity and mentoring us ❤

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@michellenunes193 Thank you so much for watching. I'm really happy to hear that the videos are helpful in some way.❤️✨️❤️

[@stall4time104]

Every video you've put out so far is golden! I love you words. It's so rare to hear someone speak from a place of knowing deeply

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@stall4time104 I'm really touched by your comment. Thank you so much, I'm so glad to hear that the videos resonated. ❤️✨️

[@agneskumonart]

You are so inspirational ❤

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@@agneskumonart thank you so much ❤️

[@Piasays]

Wow wow wow. Just beautiful work! 😮‍💨

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@Piasays thank you so much, really appreciate it.❤️

[@LoveVibezSigns2]

Your content is speaking to me. I needed this. Thank you for sharing. ❤

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@LoveVibezSigns2 thank you so much for watching! Happy to hear that it resonated ✨️♥️

[@lunarseas6144]

I always appreciate what you have to say. And it is applicable beyond just art. Are you in Portland OR? I'm in the general Seattle area.

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

Thank you so much! Yes, I'm in Portland, OR, but we make the trip up to Seattle frequently. Love that city❤

[@lunarseas6144]

@@ZhannaTsytsyn 💜 I love Oregon. I usually visit the coast once a year.

[@pinkybearpaints]

i love this episode !!

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

thank you, I'm so happy to hear that🥰

[@MarisaArtCrafts]

Subscribed !!😁

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@MarisaArtCrafts thank you so much for watching and for subscribing. Really appreciate the support ✨️❤️✨️

[@pinkybearpaints]

thanks for sharing

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

❤❤❤

[@Piasays]

How do you pronounce Tsytsyn?

[@ZhannaTsytsyn]

@Piasays The "TS" makes the same sound as saying "Its" without the "I"...and the "y" in Tsytsyn sounds like the "I" in "Its"...so pronunciation is "Tsitsin"