First Time Hearing One by Metallica | Su!c!de Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@DevilsInc323]

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[@91GT347]

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[@jakesmith6233]

This was my first Metallica song I ever listened to. The clips came from a movie called Johnny got his gun. It may lead to some sleepless nights.

[@Janaesp12]

Youre all good girl. I had anxiety and went sleepless to this video when I was around 14. The song is superpowerful on its own. Pair it with the video (which won awards btw in the early days of MTV) and it and it can give you a full on panic attack. The dude in this video is essentially cut off from all sensation. Including sight.

[@waded2129]

We love you girl. Hugs from afar. Utah

[@GreathSentina]

FYI the lyrics at the end are: "Landmine has taken my sight, Taken my speech, Taken my hearing, Taken my arms, Taken my legs." So he was a Quadriplegic, with no voice, sight, or hearing. The only way he could communicate was through Morse Code, via rapidly banging his head. This song was based on a novel titled "Johnny Got His Gun" and the videoclips are from the movie by the same name. I know what it feels like to have no voice; be kept alive by vents and feeding tube. After my suicide attempt in '07 I've yet to regain my voice, and still have the tube in my stomach that jabs me throughout the night. But I'm still hanging on and going strong. I owe you, Amanda, a lot of thanks for helping me see my worth to never let my light go out. So, Thank-You! Your videos have helped me a lot.

[@Charlie_Alpha_Echo]

He was more than a quadriplegic - he was essentially a vegetable. But he was self aware. His bottom jaw was GONE. His arms and legs had to be amputated. Blind and deaf. He was absolutely in a living hell.

[@GreathSentina]

@@Charlie_Alpha_Echo yeah I know, didn’t know about the bottom jaw part.

[@dathorndike4908]

@@GreathSentina thats news to me. But that is why that device is covering most of his face. That explains alot.

[@GreathSentina]

@@dathorndike4908 yeah I never thought of it.

[@CollideFan1]

I don't know why the doctors would keep him alive, its inhumane. You would go insane in your own mind

[@91GT347]

Coincidentally you said "soldiers that feel disposable." They have a song called "Disposable Heroes." On a lighter note. This tour was awesome. I got the same shirt Lars was wearing here. My Dad was a Vietnam vet as well. Still actually live by Camp Lejeune.

[@hullbarrett]

Dispolable Heroes is one of my favorite Metallica songs. The Message is just as clear as the Heavy Metal!

[@nickrizzo4635]

Isn’t it hard to believe she did that by accident? Amazing coincidence

[@pmcollum]

I immediately thought the same.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you for your dad's service, making life better for me and my son.

[@tattooedman42]

I'm a 59 year old combat vet...this song moves me to tears every time I watch it, and it was even a bit worse this time due to watching you holding on to your own emotions.

[@trucksntrainsfan7559]

Thank you for your service sir. And may God help you with any trauma and PSTD haunting you.

[@MentalAmanda]

Your sacrifice and service is greatly appreciated. My son and I have a safe place to live thanks to people like you.

[@IceSword1728]

I'm also in my 50's .. and even after all these years.. this song still hits my emotions... never gets old as I slowly do. :)

[@alexandremaireno-ni4ec]

"He's a product of your profession, not mine" 👊👊👊

[@neilpatrickhairless]

That line coming from the Padre (priest) is one of the hardest lines in any film ever.

[@snailmessia]

It's a joint effort, let's be honest.

[@geoffreyclaunch2449]

Which always makes my blood boil. For a normal priest, preacher, rabbi, whatever, that would be true. But military clergy convince young men that it's biblically acceptable to fight, to kill, to do horrendous things in service to their nation. But when it goes wrong and that kid is left a wreck and needs an explanation or comfort from the priest? "He's a product of your profession, not mine."

[@johnfarley4492]

This is one of the baddest ass heavy metal songs of all time.

[@victorherrero4790]

Actually ONE is one of the best songs ever written..no matter the genre.

[@spooky4439]

My granny was the baby of 9 children. She had 3 brothers, all 3 served in WW2. My favorite uncle was on the beaches of Normandy on D day. I remember when we started learning about the war, my granny sat us down and told us that he had been on the beaches that day, and though we may want to, we were to NEVER ask him about what he had seen.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you to you and your family for their service. My son and I have a home because of veterans like your family.

[@spooky4439]

I myself did not and could not serve due to medical issues. But my whole family is military. I am so proud of all of them. Even my vietnam vet family.

[@jstube36]

I am a veteran. Joined the US Navy in 1990. I had awareness of not only the anxiety of being in a war-zone, but also aware of what can happen at Sea. I learned early -on that the best achievement in any Military service: Go home in one piece and with a sound mind, Not all were so fortunate.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you very much for your service.

[@DreamersNights]

I had to read "johnny got his gun" in high school. It was very close to a horror story. There is definitely a statement in the book about the horror of war. He lost most of his face, his arms and legs and could only communicate by bobbing his head in Morse Code. It takes them months to notice what he's doing.

[@adifferentformoflife3724]

I've watched the most brutal horror movies, that movie, though, that one haunted me a little

[@gabby15107]

It's been 40 years since I read it, but if I remember right, the nurse used to be a telegraph operator before the war. They had to keep putting pillows around his head because he was hurting himself. But finally the nurse heard him banging and recognized it. I believe she started communicating with him by tapping on his chest?

[@harley4230]

@@gabby15107you are correct. I had to read it in high school and it was one of, if not, the most impactful story I’ve ever read. It’s the only book that’s ever made me cry.

[@neilpatrickhairless]

The book and the movie are both creepy as hell. Definitely a horror story

[@Shawn-mo6dh]

Seeing others hearing one for the first time gives this old time Metallica fan an even more appreciation for this classic. I've been listening to Metallica since I was a teenager. And I get chills watching you hearing a song I've been listening to for decades

[@Rogue0257]

Me too, I still love this song.

[@azraelf.6287]

When I first found your channel, I knew you would have to react to this song. But, I almost didn't want you to because I knew it could break you. I appreciate everything you do and send you a virtual hug for getting through this.

[@petey7692]

seeing your demeanour change when the solo kicked in gave me chills

[@abertoparaconferencia]

"i don't know the extent of his injuries" Oh my sweet angel... you're bout to find out...

[@dancing_odie]

Just bought the book, and am currently reading it every night. Its called Johnny Got His Gun. Sometimes, there are fates worse than death.

[@charliemac64]

Powerful frickin' book. Banned back in the day of WWII. Check out the life of the author, Dalton Trumbo. They made it easy...the biopic is called "Trumbo." 😊 Amazing story.

[@SkinnyTar]

this is one of the biggest anti-war songs - the fragments in the clip are from "Johnny got his gun" it's about a soldier who lost all his senses and all his limbs and is kept alive by force

[@williamedmonds-gx7sq]

This video hurts me so much every time I watch it, yet I watch it often just to remind myself that it can be worse, keep moving. And to listen to people, you might be the only one who care hear a plea for help.

[@feliciarudd2982]

Very well said

[@chevelle8091]

Most people who listen to this song or the music video don’t at all pay attention to the deep meaning of the lyrics and the video. It flies over so many people’s heads and it’s refreshing to see someone who actually understands what the song is about. You’re a great reactor and a great person, glad you stuck around! 👍

[@metalmark1214]

Ironic you mentioned "Disposable" about soldiers after the war is over. Metallica has a song called "Disposable Heroes" that is just about that. This video was Metallica's very first music video. The video incorporates clips from the movie "Johnny Got His Gun" which Metallica bought the rights to so they didn't have to pay a royalty every time it played. The character, as mentioned in the lyrics, lost his arms, legs, sight and hearing and is unable to speak and uses Morse code by moving his head. The line I like best is when the military officer asks the Padre "Don't you have some message Padre? and the Padre says "He's a product of your profession, not mine" I like how you empathized with this victim Amanda, though it would be very difficult to truly know what it's like to be him.

[@johnwalker6977]

I know this song very well, Metallica is my favorite band. I have Asperger's, ADHD, Anxiety and Panic disorders with a side of depression. This is one thing I know from being around people with mental disorders. Talking about suicide is a health conversations that normal people don't understand and want to shut down. But for people like me, we have these thoughts, so having discussions about this, getting the thoughts out of our heads is healthy. Also, if someone takes their own life because of mental disabilities, they aren't cowards. They fought a fight we don't understand and couldn't fight no more. It's an exhausting battle to live this life everyday. The best thing to do when you have these thoughts, talk about them with someone. You aren't suicidal if you are just having thoughts.

[@MentalAmanda]

You are absolutely right. And once we realize that those other people just don't understand, we can stop being upset when they don't give us the responses we are looking for and we can focus our energy on connecting with people we can relate to who will listen and hold space for us. I hope you've found that here!

[@nigeldepledge3790]

Although this video intercuts scenes from the movie Johnny Got His Gun, and although the book served to flesh out the ideas and mold the song, the guys had the idea for this song before they ever heard of Dalton Trombaugh (sp?). This song started as a question - what would it be like to be incapable of communicating, unable to move, trapped inside yourself? The title of the song is elucidated by the lyric "Now the world is gone, I'm just one . . ."

[@vinniedixon1140]

Lars Ulrich was watching the movie and came up with the idea for the song

[@nigeldepledge3790]

@vinniedixon1140 - that's not what he said in an interview in 1988 on Radio One's Friday Rock Show. In my comment, I was paraphrasing what Lars said in that interview.

[@nielsdegroot9138]

Dalton Trumbo wrote the book.

[@MetallicAAlabamA]

James Hetfield will tell their fans and anyone that listens to their music will tell them that they can take these songs and take em in whatever direction they choose to. One person may get a certain perspective themselves, but someone else may get a totally different feeling from the songs. And I think that is so cool and ads a respect James Hetfield holds for the fans of MetallicA. I remember when I was 8 yrs old and watching this video, listening to this lyrical and musical masterpiece of a song. Chills up and down my spine, and still does to this day. James Hetfield doesn't get enough praise for his lyrics.

[@SynthApprentice]

Amanda, that wasn't just anxiety. You were showing all the physical signs of a panic attack. I was genuinely concerned for your well-being watching your reactions. Please remember to care for yourself. You are much more important than the content you produce.

[@adrianonhilton]

This song always makes me think of Sophie Delezio. In Australia 2003, at 2 years old she was badly injured when a car crashed into her day care centre and caught fire on top of her. She suffered burns to 85% of her body, was hospitalised for several months, and lost both feet, one hand, and her right ear. I hate myself for thinking at the time that it would be kinder to let her pass. She faced another trial 3 years later when her wheelchair was hit by a car and thrown 18 metres. Delezio suffered a heart attack, a broken jaw, a broken shoulder, bruising to her head, numerous rib fractures and a tear to her left lung.

[@PHILPOP2]

You will be happy to know she's doing well now she's engaged to be married , pregnant and working as a journalist.

[@RedsFan1995]

This is my all-time favorite song. Hats off to James, Kirk, Lars, and Jason for writing this masterpiece! 🤘🏻

[@darrenverni3662]

Isn’t it amazing how a music video can spark so many feelings?

[@TheNightOwl11683]

Apocalyptica released a cover of this yesterday featuring James Hetfield & Rob Trujillo of Metallica that's worth checking out. It gives a different feel to it, yet the message is just as powerful. This song still holds relevance to this day.

[@adiandodson5636]

Fun fact: Every aspect of the song is designed to represent a descent into madness. From the vocals to the instruments.

[@coyotej4895]

Based off the movie Johnney got his gun. A WW1 story where a solder is horribly wounded, loosing there eyes voice herring arms and legs. It was not based off any real person but my Mom was doing research for the CDC back in 98 on the Spanish flue outbake in ww1 and she ran across a file of a soldier who this fit to a tee. She was a mess after reading the file on him and I could not bring myself to.

[@JariJuslin]

There were people so horribly injured in WW1 that they were locked to distant rooms in hospitals. In some cases they even told their relatives they had died to spare them from the pain of seeing how little was left of their loved one. In which case there was absolutely no one visiting them. So while the novel, movie and this song are not directly about any single real person, the themes certainly are based on real life.

[@insufferablethrashelitist9305]

Metallica does have songs that aren't depressing too. I know it's sort of the basis of your channel, but you should check out their other awesome music too.

[@donovandelaney3171]

Johnny Got His Gun. This movie was ahead of it's time and needs a reboot.

[@endike]

I could imagine a new version where he gets cybernetic implants so he has eyes, ears, hands and feet again

[@dogdue4588]

Wow! Really hits home. I am a senior man. At age 64, I was violently attacked on my posted property, by my neighbors, David and Sage Elder. It started as an argument, but was later attacked. A friend of mine stopped by as David was yelling at me. My friend is a disabled Navy Veteran. Walks with a cane. They told him to leave, or he would get his ass kicked. Threaten a 71 y o man, with a cane? They attacked me, knocked me to the ground, got on top and slugged, kicked, me in the head and ribs! Almost lost my right eye, ribs on right side were fractured, had such a horrible concussion, my Dr. was concerned for my life!!! End result is PTSD. Hate it.

[@joeswofford8519]

That's horrible. Wish I was there...

[@dogdue4588]

@joeswofford8519 thanks Joe!

[@Steven-lb4bl]

Hope they went to jail for that.

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm truly sorry to hear about your traumatic experience. It's devastating to go through such an attack, especially on your own property and by those you might have known. The fact that they would threaten an elderly man with a cane and attack you is evidence that they are not well. I hope you took legal action against them. Your feelings are completely valid, and it's important to address the PTSD you are experiencing. Remember, you are not alone in this. There are many resources and people who can offer support and understanding as you navigate through this difficult time. If you need help finding some to connect with, please let me know.

[@randycomerford2038]

That was not only the best reaction, but the best analysis of this song I've ever heard, excellent job!

[@christamichelleortloff2195]

This song for many years didn't hit me as hard as it does now since my life threatening illness and the heavy part of his cries is what I endured for 2 and a half months,

[@Samurai_Stoner]

Sending healing vibes to you Namaste

[@christamichelleortloff2195]

​@@Samurai_StonerThe first month I was in a medically induced coma. But unbeknownst to the physicians treating me. I was lockedqa in a repeating cyclical nightmare. And after suffering that I then was awoken with a trach, unable to be heard, I had no voice to speak

[@kellyk9429]

Wow, me too, oct 2021, 5 wk coma

[@christamichelleortloff2195]

@@kellyk9429 damn, mine was just a month, like maybe 3-4 weeks, while on a ventilator so my lungs could heal. I still after two years remember the horrible nightmares

[@kellyk9429]

@@christamichelleortloff2195 was on vent first, first 48hrs I wasn’t expected to live, was found with 20% oxygen left, I had a vision of my spouse come down for me, died just 2yrs short of this happening, I said I’m not ready, the final thing to save me at 5 weeks, was the drug im allergic to, had to be given to me in small doses, when woke up had no clue where I was, only knew I went across country coast to coast and left kids back there, had a lot of mental breakdowns, finally out after 2 1/2 months, took about 3 months to get my walking back, still have lots of issues

[@deantodd8103]

Thank you for your kind words for veterans. Although I was unable to serve myself, due to my asthma, I come from a family of military service. Both of my grandfathers, my dad, and the dad of my oldest half sister, all served in the Armed Forces. My grandfathers fought in World War II. My dad and my sisters dad were in Vietnam. The soldier in this movie/video was blown up by a landmine according to the book and the lyrics (although the visual seemed to show a fiery rocket coming down from above). In the case of this character, he is not only rendered quadriplegic, but also rendered blind, deaf, and mute. So he's basically trapped in darkness and silence, not aware of where he is or if anyone else is even around. All he can sense is that something (life support/IV) is keeping him alive and he's in physical pain. This is an extreme (and hypothetical/fictional) case. This character is basically never going to "live" again. Once again, I have to say that I appreciate that you have encouraged wounded veterans who are not quite that badly off to realize that they do still have hope, and to point them to resources to help them put their lives back together. I always get a little bit choked up watching this video when I get to the point where the character is thinking, "Mother, where are you? Help me, mother, I'm having a nightmare and I can't wake up!" The despair and horror in his voice just haunt me.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you for your families service, and your work in support as well.

[@davidjenkins3981]

My dad was a veteran but he never talked about it, in fact I didn't know he was a veteran until I was in college. My mom was a navy brat and grew up in Okinawa but again my mom and grandfather rarely talked about it. I was born disabled with spina bifida and have had dozens of surgeries as a result. My mom once told me that she wonders if my dad or grandfather was exposed to something that could have affected her to cause my birth defect. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 6 years old and diagnosed with CPTSD in my early twenties because of watching my mom get beat all the time. My mom has been divorced 3 times and her current marriage has been a happy one for her but not so much for me. My mom's current husband sexually abused me throughout my teens. As for how my mom treated me growing up, I feel like she had overly high expectations of me probably due to being raised a navy brat. The way my mom treated me growing up I felt like I was never good enough. Also my mom never let me do things other kids did and I was constantly being punished for things other kids got away with. In school I was constantly teased and harrassed all day long which made me feel even worse. On top of all this I was having surgery at least once a year and I even got held back twice for missing too much school. As an adult I've struggled keeping a job despite having a college education. Between the abuse I dealt with in my family and the difficulties of finding steady work I've spent most of my adult life homeless. I'm now currently in a nursing home in Texas and dealing with some of the nursing aides ignoring call lights and neglecting me and other patients so there's not a day that goes by that I'm not dealing with depression and anxiety and my only anger outlet is skyrim.

[@ghiocadrian7399]

I'm sorry you went through this hell but I hope you'll find a way to slay these demons in your mind so you can find peace and happiness

[@deantodd8103]

I'm so sorry to hear about what you've gone through. 😢

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you for sharing your story with me. It's clear that you've faced a tremendous amount of adversity throughout your life, and I'm truly sorry for all the pain and challenges you've endured. You never deserved the abuse or neglect. I hope you know that. Your strength in continuing to move forward is incredibly inspiring. My dad was a Vietnam vet and I knew it all my life, but he never actually confirmed it until I was 20. Given everything you've experienced, it's understandable that you're dealing with depression and anxiety. It's important to have an outlet like Skyrim, but it's also crucial to ensure you're receiving the care and support you need, especially in your current situation at the nursing home. Contacting a patient advocate through an external organization, can help address the neglect you're experiencing and ensure that your needs are met. While therapy has its place, sometimes connecting with others who have faced similar challenges can provide a sense of community and understanding. There are many veterans, disabled individuals and abuse survivors here in our community on the channel, but you can also look for online support groups for individuals with PTSD, depression, or those who have experienced abuse. Given your family’s military background, there might be resources available through veterans' organizations that could provide support. Additionally, disability organizations can offer advocacy, resources, and community support tailored to your needs. There are programs designed to help individuals with disabilities find and maintain employment. These resources can provide training, job placement, and ongoing support. Your story is a testament to your resilience and strength. Despite all the hardships, you're continuing to fight for a better life. Remember that there are people and organizations out there who care and can offer the help you need. If you need help finding one, please IG me @mentalamanda or email me (in video description).

[@jacasoasheland6815]

Great Vid. This is about Physical Problems (from war) causing deep Mental anguish. Don't take things for granted kids

[@evanfurlong84]

The true meaning behind this song is really deep It's about a World War 1 veteran who was blown up. Buy a landmine and was kept alive by tubes, but was wanting to die because he didn't know whether or not he was alive or dead

[@mikeamidon3021]

Got here after watching your "fire away" video. I lost someone very very close to my heart when she lost her battle with mental health. 4 years later and I still feel guilty that she is gone because I let her push me away. I hope you can see you're not only helping those with "mental" problems but also the "normal" people who are on your side and will always be.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you!

[@MetalClown1974]

This is a very powerful song. Thanks for reacting to it. Love you, sis.

[@brom00]

The film the clips are from is very good. It's 1971's Johnny Got His Gun', which was based on a 1938 novel of the same name. It's about a WW1soldier that id hit by a shell and hr loses his eyes, ears, mouth, nose, and limbs, but remains conscious.

[@bighorn1994]

Interesting and inspiring watching you act in spite of your emotions. It shows your inner strength has grown since you first started this channel. ❤

[@Jjoker74]

This song hits hard. Its a tough listen. The lyrics, the visuals, the movie lines, and the music all combine for a intense experience that i havent had since 30 yrs ago. But it is a truly amazing song by itself, one of my favorite Metallica songs

[@johngarringerful]

Just want to thank you for what you are doing to help people.

[@razor-1]

Hi Amanda what u do for mental health is amazing your reaction when u were hear him say those words was true emotion sray strong and safe from New Zealand 🇳🇿

[@mfree80286]

Probably the most important thing to take from the music video is actually from the movie. This young man is experiencing the most horrific existence imaginable, and at the end while he's in the hospital bed feeling the sun on his face slowly wane as it sets, three wishes come to his mind. - If I had arms I could kill myself If I had legs I could run away If I had a voice, I could talk and be some kind of company for myself - Here's the catch; in his mind, in the worst place possible, these are equivalents. Fight, flight, or humanity... communication, reason. To be able to communicate and reason, even if it's just with one's self, is ultimately more powerful than any instinct. Inner knowledge is limited, outer knowledge is infinite, and communication is the key to utilizing the latter. Tie that in to the current moment. We're all watching the exercise of power in 'defeating' these sorts of mental entropy.... by communication, by passing the knowledge in how to deal with the subterfuge the mind casts on itself.... by *you* helping spread the information of how and why. Johnny has faith that therapy can aid him, even in this unimaginable situation.

[@sulistyorini2335]

From the first time I heard this song, it was actually not as cliche as in the video about soldiers dying, maimed and suffering. but the song is about giving voice to frustrated people in their lives, depression who need mental help. Metallica's lyrics are mostly genius metaphors. Here, Amanda from the beginning of the song has been very intelligent and careful in capturing the meaning of this masterpiece. Welldone!

[@victorramsey5575]

Im so glad I found your channel. Keep rockin' pretty lady!

[@raytull3922]

GREATEST MUSIC VIDEO OF ALL-TIME!!!

[@sKaraptor2]

Metallica's music speaks to the soul. It's ok to cry Amanda 🙂 Always look forward to your reaction videos

[@waynefinnicumbb7218]

My late dad couldn't watch the video because of the war sound effects, he was a disabled Vietnam Vet. But this song cemented my love of metal. Pretty much metal is my only escape when my depression hits and the dark thoughts hit. I can hide in the music, the energy of metal. Dad came home and alcoholic and the VA hooked him on drugs. It was before I was born, and I grew up seeing the effects of war on my dad. Was severely abused by him and mom, which lead to my depression, but he taught me respect, taught me how I should live, not like him. Like I said before, though, I still feel like I let him down and grew up to fail.

[@nobuddyimportant2106]

Bro don't be so hard on yourself. You were dealt a shit sandwich and still here to tell the story. Your dad did the best he could I'm sure, but war breaks many minds. I don't know you but you're not a failure. Stay strong, keep fighting, don't give up. You're in my thoughts and prayers brother 🙏

[@waynefinnicumbb7218]

@@nobuddyimportant2106 thank you. But the way I was brought up, it may be ingrained in me, but whatever I do, I don't think it's good enough. I'm not a success, anything short of that I've failed them.

[@neilpatrickhairless]

I know a girl who was in service in the Middle East all through the 2000s and she can't watch this video because it freaks her completely out within the first few seconds. Metallica were genius with this... A lot of metal bands were doing the fake Satanist goofy horror stuff and Metallica does this for a debut video. Horror based entirely on reality

[@sovereigndayyouthkafir3943]

I feel so bad for you, and part of that is from going through my own struggles with depression and inadequacy. Please give yourself some love. It only hurts you to hate yourself like that, and I get it, I really do, like nothing matters unless you succeed fully and without anybody's help. Putting that weight on yourself isn't healthy. Don't give up, and don't let it consume you. You're allowed to fall and get up again. You're allowed to make mistakes. Just learn and move on. There's no need to carry the guilt with you. My heart and prayers go out to you!

[@nobuddyimportant2106]

@@waynefinnicumbb7218 I can only try to understand how you feel, I was so lucky to have 2 loving parents growing up. I did so many things wrong and they still picked me up when I fell. I hope you have someone in your life to talk to, I don't anymore as my parents have passed on. It's very difficult, but I found Dr Jordan Peterson on KZbin and he has done so much for me and countless other men, just by listening to him talk. Check him out, maybe it'll help. Anyways, stay strong and don't give up brother, you are worth fighting for!!

[@josephstalin5374]

This song really hits different for anyone who experienced war or suffered injuries at work or accidents 👍

[@hughlannon61]

❤ I feel for you Amanda Your videos have helped me "deal" with things. Keep up the good fight. You made me emotional too.

[@katpocalypsemeow4554]

The song "Disposable Heroes" is an amazing companion to this.

[@JamieLycronisMcCutchen]

Amanda, I already loved you, but seeing your reaction to this song really hit home with me! You are such an amazing person, and you bring so much insight and understanding to these tough subjects that very few people can even imagine! For that, I once again thank you for what you do! Such an amazing person! Much love!!!

[@rongarofalo3482]

Your explanation and comparison of lyrics to real life experiences make perfect sense. One of the many reasons i listen to your reactions. Thank you

[@knighth2452]

The movie clips are from a movie based on the book Johnny Got His Gun.

[@davidward9737]

Wow my friend. You are straight rocking that red sparkly dress!!! It is fire i love it, but more so the person wearing it is awesome 😊 the dress doesnt make you look good, you make the dress look good. Love ya as always ❤

[@dancing_odie]

this man is speaking facts. You do make that dress look good.

[@giovannimansfield6009]

Thank you very much for reacting to this song. I've enjoyed your channel forever & this song is maybe the Mt. Everest of musical heaviness & emotional deepness. So much so I assumed it was the very first reaction video you ever did back when you started your channel! Thanks again. There's truly no time like the present. XOXO Giovanni

[@bm03431]

May you always be extraordinary Amanda

[@kianr2200]

amazing song and reaction! feels like im listening for the first time again!

[@twisterdavemd1]

This is very relevant today because the injuries sustained in today's conflicts would have been fatal in generations past, so now we have veterans with multiple amputation and traumatic brain injuries surviving with little to no VA care able to help. Coming out of such a severe procedure as decerebration; he would have likely had emergence delirium; as I did earlier after a near-fatal transplant with complations: no concept of self, location, or awareness. I did 40+ days of this.

[@darkdeb4185]

Its an extremely powerful filmclip. I remember watching this for the first time when i was in high school when it was first released and watching it again just now ...brilliant executed song, clip...amazing work from metallica at the same time very confronting and even somewhat disturbing.

[@ryanwarren5951]

Damn you did well to keep it together in this reaction! 🤣 Keep up the great work legend, loving your reactions.. 🙏🙂

[@ernesttobler6014]

Haven't seen your content in a while. You've grown alot, congratulations on the hard work. And still as pretty as always.

[@Nolimit_Lou]

Both the song and video are deep. Metallica and Sabaton are two of my favorite metal bands due to their deep lyrics.

[@hexstatick3383]

I’m proud of you, You are super brave to make it through this song. I myself didn’t suffer through any of that but I tear up every time I listen to this song. It’s a hard song for me to me to listen to. But it’s an important song nonetheless. It shows the horrors of war.

[@garyzigler452]

Oh WOW, I've heard that song alot but never watched the video. That just blew my mind. I'm sorry that you almost had a panic attack. It saddened my heart when the young man was sending an S.O.S for help and wanted them to end his life. The following statement was that he is a product of yours, not mine. It's really sad because that kind of mentality still goes on today. I really felt for the young man. Thank you again for your viewpoint on this video. ❤you Amanda and keep it coming. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@buzzbiadasz3437]

The movie is a a long drawn out drama war film "johnny got his gun" 1972. Great movie....

[@Patriotic_Danny247]

Aye Ma'am. Thank you for reviewing this video. Thank you for supporting the Veterans.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thanks to you and all Veterans for your sacrifice and service.

[@stevejordan9567]

I heard that song so many times before really understanding it. It’s deep that’s for sure.

[@user-dw8mj8tb2l]

Perfect person to watch and react to this song !!!!!!

[@bretttodd6470]

We waited patiently for this album to break and played it over and over when we were teens. The Duran Duran fans never understood.

[@ligthbringer99]

One of their most famous song but so touching it's take ptsd issues and level up to the extreme consequences saddenly nothing more to say that doesn't has say it about this song and video as well before i knew this would be hard to you listen to and visualize also but I think you're a strong woman at this point of ur life journey greetings Amanda keeps healthy 😊

[@mattaneshansley4358]

Feeling the feels- Metalica

[@Adam-hh5xl]

I've been a Metallica fan since the Ride the Lightning album. My oldest son was born twenty years ago, non-verbal, non-mobile and globally delayed. Since then, One has taken a different meaning to me and I often wonder what is going on in my boys head. I really hope it's nothing like this song or in Fade to Black, despite him seeming very happy. That's my anxiety, always striving to give him the best life possible and avoid dark thoughts or feelings of despair setting in him.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you for sharing such a personal and heartfelt part of your life. Being a parent to a child with significant challenges is incredibly demanding and filled with emotional complexities. It’s evident how deeply you care for your son and strive to give him the best life possible. Music can have a profound impact, and it’s understandable how songs like One and Fade to Black could evoke strong feelings given your circumstances. Your love for Metallica and the way their music has intertwined with your life’s experiences is powerful. It’s natural to worry about your son’s internal world, especially when you want so much to protect him from any suffering. Despite your anxiety, it sounds like your son’s happiness is a testament to the love and care you provide. His joy reflects the nurturing environment you’ve created for him. It’s important to remember that you’re doing everything you can to ensure his well-being and happiness. If you ever feel overwhelmed by these thoughts, seeking support from others in similar situations might help. Connecting with other parents of non-verbal or globally delayed children can also provide a sense of community and shared understanding. I know that raisingspecialkids.org/ provides free support, but there are also support groups on Facebook where you could get more interaction with other families.

[@MentalAmanda]

Your dedication to your son is evident, and your efforts are making a difference in his life. Your love and commitment shine through, and that's what truly matters.

[@user-kp9go7ml2e]

Im very proud of you ❤

[@user-mg4nv7kc1f]

Love you!!!!!! gorgeous and kind woman Bless you!!

[@TheJohmac]

People often refer to this song as "anti-war" although it is not. It does; however, bring awareness and consideration for the possible consequences for war. It is really more about dealing with trauma and the ethical dilemnas associated with war and medicine.

[@user-cv4nq2ym7n]

I love the way you make me feel

[@trevorcraythorn4558]

I need the shirt u have that says "exhausted by existence"

[@CollideFan1]

I was brought up like a lot of boys where of the era, play with your GI Joes, watch war movies, play "war" as kids, hear about do your duty as a good American patriot and enlist in the arm forces etc. I've had relatives who were in war, most notably my grandfather who was in World War 2. He ended up drinking himself to death. So I had the mindset to enlist when I graduated school. But as I became an older teenager, I listen to metal bands like Metallica and Slayer, who bring up war in their songs. So with some wisdom gains I started to look at war movies differently like Platoon and Full Metal Jacket and understand the message they are trying to tell the viewer. I graduated in 90 and the First Gulf War got under way. A lot of my friends enlisted and I'm like no, not me. I'm not going to put my life on the line for saving some rich man's oil. We've fought a lot of wars that we had no business getting into but that's what happens when you have politicians and having their agendas who make the decisions. Don't get me wrong, there comes a time when you do have to fight, like if someone invaded America, I'll be up front leading the charge or World War 2, that was a necessary involvement we needed to win.

[@JamesAdair0018965]

this song hits hard forreal....

[@phoenixaki3458]

As others have commented or alluded to, this song was written to portray a WW1 soldier who is wounded and seen as being incapacitated in hospital but actually being conscious and trying to communicate for help. The video features clips from "Johnny Got His Gun" movie, which as a fun fact, Metallica ended up buying the rights to the film so they could use it how they want to avoid having to constantly deal with royalty fees. Dedication! The song itself doesn't have those dialogue bits intertwined, so maybe hearing the non-video version would be a bit less difficult for your anxiety? To most, this is one of the most important and great metal songs of all time and I'm inclined to agree even if their style isn't what I personally run to often.

[@ryannelson3220]

along with this topic, their song Screaming Suicide... is another good one to watch and react to

[@alexei095]

So you stand on the right way of listening, nice. Alex from Moscow.

[@nicktepuni3916]

I was living with no hope when I first heard Metallica. The emotional release their music gave me, and still gives me, put me on a path to healing. But this song...to me One is two different songs. The album version and the video version. The album version is a powerful, strength enhancing, outlet for raging against the machine which leaves me feeling stronger and angrier at the injustices of the world. The music video though just make me cry, especially when I ponder the futile nature of war. Don't get me wrong, I still love both versions, but experiencing it Live is something else.

[@omarfernandez1620]

Your facial expretions ane emotions were the perfect exampe how the music video wants you to exprience!

[@mattmarkowitz8894]

Metallica was my start as a kid. Now 30 years later I realized that my family, recovery, and metal (in all its widely varied forms) saved my life, maybe this isn't on topic but I need to say it. Through trial and error and error finally it came to me, not through someone else's fairy tale god or the recovery force f*uckers. The best thing is to have an interest, a passion. I love metal and owe it my continued life. I like people falling into the best "rabbit hole" there is.

[@n5iln]

This is an incredibly difficult song to analyze simply because of the subject matter. The movie “Johnny Got His Gun” is even darker than the clips shown in this video. I tip my hat to your bravery and intestinal fortitude in delving into it.

[@HoodRatt32]

One of the best things but Metallica is that they aren't afraid to take on the hard subjects. Addiction (Master of Puppets), mental illness (Sanitarium:welcome home) ans after effects of war (One)

[@hullbarrett]

Thanks for not being icky and cheating on me! ... !!! ... When this song was written, recorded, and performed in 1988, PTSD was still referred to as Shell Shock and/or Weakness while the term PTSD was still gaining ground, despite the fact that the movie clips are from the *1971* film *Johnny Got His Gun.* ... FYI, the Army Slogan during WWI was *Johnny Get Your Gun.* So, this is what happened when Johnny Got His Gun. P.S. I understand that you're not a fan of Heavy Metal and I respect that. To each her own, but Heavy Metal is often about these emotions and disagreements that we have with that thing that we call *Society.* P.P.S. The way you collected yourself at 8:18 is beyond admirable and what we should all be striving for. It's not always easy, and definitely exhausting, but something that we should strive and focus for. 🙂

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you. I am learning to really appreciate all music.

[@TheJrl420]

No worries on feeling a whole bunch of things. If someone doesn't feel anything from the dude saying "kill me" over and over, that's a cause for concern.

[@somecallmetim2112]

If you're going to cry at a Metallica video, this is the One. 💝

[@marksimonson672]

There is a cello group called Apocalyptica that did a cover of this song, with James Hetfield and Robert Trujillo from Metallica providing vocals and bass on the cover, respectively. Think James Hetfield does spoken word on their cover, though.

[@p7530]

Try being paralyzed for the better part of two months and being in an induced coma. I was suffering from guilainne barre syndrome. It’s an autoimmune disorder and I felt as if my body was on fire. My nervous system was being attacked from my own body. This song sums up my feelings of isolation and not being able to communicate. Paralyzed and with a trach there was no talking for me. I ended up in icu psychosis. Terrible Hell of a place to be!

[@MentalAmanda]

I can't imagine. My sympathies and I hope for a brighter future. Thanks for sharing.

[@JeremyMiller-sn6nh]

This was my first experience with Metallica as a teenager watching the video on MTV. Few songs have ever impacted me harder.The definition of living Hell. Now thirty years later as a Veteran who has fought in a war I am grateful for not having such a fate.

[@thesongsingernoob8484]

I got arms and legs and i feel every bit of it

[@gabby15107]

A teacher of mine in high school was a Vietnam Veteran, and read us Jonny Get Your Gun. It has stuck with me for life. I highly recommend reading it.

[@matthewgoodA1206]

Absolutely a harrowing and horrifying song and video. I don’t know if Metallica still writes tunes like this. But that they did compose this track is a testament to their elite status as a metal band. I know it was hard and tough to watch this, as it is for everyone, but especially for you by having to weather extra anxiety. Bravo for pushing through it. As always you had intelligent, worthwhile bits to interject. The field of mental health is very clearly your specialty. Lastly, I know you take the time to look lovely for your reactions, and you always succeed.

[@shadeknyt4722]

"if i had arms i could kill myself. if i had legs, i could run away. if i had a voice, i could talk and keep company to myself." honestly gives me goosebumps every damn time

[@williamkramer9731]

Insane song, insane video….I know the movie inspired James, but I’m guessing there’s plenty that he related to his own life. Also, since you’re in Metallica, I know you spoke of struggles losing your mom, for me, it was my grandmother, who was more of a parent to me than my own…. I’d suggest checking out Mama Said……I personally struggle to listen to it, but it’s definitely with a spin.