First Time Hearing One Voice by Home Free and Billy Gilman | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@JulieAnn02261990]

Home Free is not only amazingly talented, they also care about others. They did a great job on this song for suicide awareness, I cry every time I watch it. Like you, I'm a suicide survivor. I have PTSD and Bipolar 1 and listening to Home Free is part of my coping mechanism.

[@rfitzsimons55]

I believe we are God's instruments to help others and spread his unconditional love throughout the world. That is our purpose for being here, and because of that, no one is a waste of space. I'm proud of you for helping others and being a light in this dark world for people going through what you did. Keep up the great work, and God bless. 🙂❤

[@trumphatesyou]

"The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That's the only lasting thing you can create" This isnt me. Please Chuck, don't sue me. I wont talk about it anymore

[@steveray9655]

When I was in High School, a friend of mine decided he'd had enough, and hung himself on his 17th birthday. In his note, he said that he didn't have any friends. All of us who considered ourselves to be his friends wondered, "what did I do wrong, what didn't I do that would have shown him that I was his friend?" Make sure your friends know how much they mean to you. Telling this still brings tears to my eyes, and it was 40 years ago.

[@MentalAmanda]

Depression distorts your thoughts so intensely. Coming from someone who has been there, I can assure you that he knew how much you guys cared beneath that darkness. I'm sorry that you lost his light. You did nothing wrong. When we struggle like that, we get better and better at hiding it.

[@BBBYpsi]

Amazing how 22 years ago when Billy Gilman had this as a hit song when he was 12 years old has so much relevance still today. I hope you check out his original version when he was only 12 years old. It almost won him a Grammy award, Best male performance Country Music. Nominated for Song of the Year in Country, Album of the year country. He did win favorite new Country artist at 12 years old. His song "I surrender" he did on the voice was beyond amazing.

[@RevanJJ]

Saw the title and said to myself “no way she makes it one minute into this without breaking down.” Tough song.

[@DyvmSlorm]

The way I hear this song is that the one voice could come from anywhere. It could be religious, it could be simply your own voice realizing that it's not a solution, but I believe the most powerful voice is that of a friend and it really could just be one simply word.

[@user-rn1hn3fg5y]

Keep your voice heard, Amanda!

[@miamidolphinsfan]

Welcome to Home Free, they are the only "country" acapella band, but they are oh so much more than that. Their music & harmonies are addicting...they sing all genre's. This was a special one for me. I tried suicide when I was in 8th grade....I hated my life, I was the skinny, nerd kid that wore glasses & was "the smart kid". I had lived through a rape a month eariier (for years I repressed it & the anger and my wife had me finall get therapy & I got the anger out, expunged so to speak. Please react to a few more Home Free covers & originals...they are "THE REAL DEAL"

[@MentalAmanda]

While I am sorry that you had to go through that trauma, I am proud of your for fighting and getting help!

[@denisewelden9568]

Thank you for your reaction to this song!! I have been a fan of @BillyGilman since this song first came out!! I've been hoping for more from him. Still waiting.

[@christophergauthier5149]

I actually grew up in that house, that yard, that neighborhood. Now suffer from PTSD and clinical depression from combat. Your videos always help during the dark times. Thank you!!

[@MentalAmanda]

I'm humbled to offer solace to you during your darkness. You're never alone!

[@christophergauthier5149]

@@MentalAmanda People like you DO exist. To all who suffer, reach out. We have brothers and sisters who will gladly help. I love that for a slogan, " You are not alone".

[@williamboyd5990]

Kudos to you for showing this video. Too many reactors avoid playing this message. Thank you.

[@jodywells7519]

Your pain has made you a beautiful beacon for others! Thank you for everything beautiful lady !

[@belinda9696]

Many groups would probably never think of singing about this subject because it's true all of us want to gloss things over like we are ok, even if we are not. I'm glad Home Free and Billy Gilman took this on because it is an important message.

[@babyfry4775]

Home Free did a wonderful collaboration with Billy Gilmore. Such beautiful voices. The pandemic has been especially hard on our young people. Talk to someone. Anyone. There will always be trials and tribulations but God is with us and loves each and every one of us. The sun will rise. I went through a dark period in my life when I was young but it was temporary. Life is always challenging but love will get you through. God bless you and all those with mental health issues.

[@milomurphy9178]

Such a strong and powerful song and performed so well by both the actors and Home Free with Billy. Home Free is willing to share important messages with their music. I would recommend their version of Everybody Walkin This Land which is their response to the epidemic of xenophobia and racism.

[@chrismorin1318]

This video was released intentionally for mental health awareness month last year. I don't care how many times I see this, I still find myself holding my breath until that gun splashes into the river. I have my own mental health issues that i deal with on a daily basis. Not to the point of suicide thankfully. But something that helps me is by being mindful of everyone around me and that they could be in a tough place mentally. I try to make eye contact with people, I smile and say hello. I give a random compliment to a stranger about their shoes, their shirt, the way they do their makeup, their hairstyle, their cologne. It doesn't matter what it is. That one interaction could be the thing that a person needs to hold on or reach out. It costs nothing to be kind, but the cost of not speaking up about how common mental health issues are, that price can be the literal death of someone. The subject of mental health is becoming more open, but we need to keep pushing the subject out there front and center! That's the only way the stigmas will be removed. Thank you for the beautiful reaction. And, I too, also considered that the gun was going to be used for a school shooting or something like that. Because I believe the 1st time this came out, it was not too long after the Colombine school shooting. I could be wrong about the timing though. You're the 1st person that I've heard consider that option. Keep your light shining like a beacon. It's worth it! ❤

[@twcline]

I'm struggling myself here and watching your videos and hearing you helps, wish I had someone that would be willing to help me. I've lost my family and have only 1 friend left. Thank you

[@elsiew1413]

You are loved and your not alone. No matter how dark it seems there is always a light. I just started watching this channel today and I saw your post and I wanted you to know I heard you and your not alone.

[@MentalAmanda]

Please message or email me anytime (contact info in description.) You're not alone!

[@dalepettiner5036]

Glad you backed off the edge. Loved your reaction to the song. Whether you react or not, please listen to more Home Free. Most of their music is heartwarming and happy.

[@rhondasawyer7792]

Amanda I found you when you did this reaction. I tried to end my life in 1994, I took a lot of pills but after 20 minutes I couldn’t go through with it. I told my nieces and nephews they would never lose me they were my life. In 2003 when I held my newborn son I would be there for him. He is now 18 and this is his favorite song. He plays it on repeat on Spotify. He has struggled with mental health all his life. We talk all the time that how he is worthy of living. He knows about my fight and his father’s fight. He knows we are there for him when he voices tell him to kill himself. Meds don’t always work, but it is worth trying to find the right ones and the right person to talk to. Thank you for doing this reaction. I also play it on repeat at least once a week.

[@MentalAmanda]

I was guinea pigged on meds for over a decade and they were all awful. It wasn't my path. But there are SO many options for healing. Very proud of you for fighting and for keeping the mental health conversation open with your loved ones. It's so important!

[@dawnmanzetti1633]

Powerful song, much needed awareness, and love & hugs to you. Your strength and course will make a difference.

[@anthonyramirez1311]

Thank you for sharing your reaction to this video. I love this song and I just love these groups (HomeFree and Billy Gilman)! Amanda, I want to personally thank you for sharing what you do. It is much appreciated. Especially from a suicide survivor and a guy with PTSD and other mental issues. I became a minister so that I can help people just like you do in your videos. So, again, thank you thank you thank you! Bless you!

[@louisetemples7011]

Thank you Amanda! Powerful message that needs to be heard! Home Free is so caring and Billy being in this is wonderful! Yes, beautiful harmonies!

[@sharonmortimer3843]

If you want to know a little more check the Home Free channel on May 7, 2021. Austin and Billy have a pre-preiere chat. This is one amazing song. Thank you for your reaction.

[@gingerjohnson1095]

I appreciate you for standing up and speaking out. Sometimes we are going through so much that no one else sees. I used to get through the day with the support of my animals that just knew when I needed them while the people around me just didn't see. Then one day the animals were taken from me and I fell apart. My whole world shifted and I just wanted it to all stop. Didn't care what came next... it couldn't be worse than just waking up to more of my existence. I filled 65 insulin syringes with insulin, about 20% long acting insulin and started injecting them. There was still insulin in the bottles so I refilled the used needles... what difference did it make if they were sterile... I wasn't waking up tomorrow anyway. Finally slipped under... only to come up to someone screaming and groaning. That was me... my teeth were clenched but it didn't stop the screams. Every muscle in my body was 100% cramped up. My stomach was hard as a rock. My legs were pulled up at a 45 degree angle and I could not put them down. I was freezing cold and never stopped screaming. The ambulance techs were loading me into the ambulance for transport. They had put me on a dextrose drip to raise my sugar from the 20 that it was when they got to me. As my sugar came up the cramp began to ease. My muscles began to loosen up and my legs gradually dropped to the stretcher. Don't remember the trip to the hospital, but when we got there they gave my OJ with a lot of sugar in it to drink. They were having problems stabilizing me due to the long acting insulin I took. They put me in ICU on monitors, a dextrose drip and a pick line into my heart covered with a sterile adhesive covering that I scratched and clawed at till they had to replace it. Turns out I was allergic to the adhesive. They put me on a liquid Benedryl shot for the itching. I was there for 3 days then transported to Mental Health for 10 more days to begin my meds for the undiagnosed depression I had been suffering. I'm still on meds for the past nine years, but suicide has never been considered again. I couldn't go back to the situation I was in so I left everything behind and moved somewhere I could get treatment if and when I needed it. Somewhere people would recognize if I was floundering. Regular visits to Mental Health professionals to observe me and get me to talk about my issues... something I never used to do... talk to people I mean. I will always have depression but now I know how to recognize when it is taking hold of me, who to call if I need help. I didn't even know I needed help before. One thing I have learned is no matter how bad you feel, there is someone out there who feels worse that you do and needs help too. I am very much a loner. I could not do what you are doing, but that doesn't mean I don't appreciate it. I'm better now. I know my symptoms, what to watch for. But I learned it the hard way. Others out there have not learned how to deal yet and they need a voice to speak for them. Thanks for being that voice.

[@MentalAmanda]

What an incredible survival story. I am so glad that they found you and that you are still here with us. I'm also very proud of you. Once you came back, you started listening to and trusting yourself to get the help that you needed, even if it wasn't easy. That takes a LOT of conviction, courage and strength. I am so happy that you have found healing and that you can help others with your story - whether it's one person or a million.

[@briansgamesandanime]

i remember seeing this music video as a teen and genuinely balled my eyes out. I was had recently been diagnosed with anxiety and depression.

[@patrickhumphreys5851]

Another Home Free song for you to react to is Christmas ain't for the lonely.

[@4703857]

Thank you for this reaction! It helps people to know they're not alone!

[@marlahudgins7038]

Thank you for understanding

[@russellschell4812]

Thank you, I requested this from you a few months back. Please look into more Home Free. They have so much feel good, happy music and are such an other worldly talented acapella group!

[@MentalAmanda]

I did Man of Constant Sorrow by them a few months back as well :)

[@miamidolphinsfan]

Wished you had done more Home Free reactions....please do them, I believe you'll love them

[@invinciblefeelings1439]

This is a beautiful song, thank you for your reaction on this song 😊

[@TheRepublican777]

This was Billy Gilman's original song when he was a kid he was great then but even better as an adult i am glad he did a re make of it

[@tj7264]

You're fantastic! So glad you chose life! You tossed it in the river below!!

[@lunarose698]

Girl, I understand just what was song and video was touching on because I had suicidal thoughts when I was younger. But I'm happy that I never went through with it. All we need is a lending ear if we want to be heard.

[@jillchamberlain6478]

Thank you for reacting to this, beautiful reaction, beautiful performance!

[@moonshadow5382]

I never got the help when I was lost in the dark. I don't even remember how many times I held a knife to my wrist and prayed for the strength to press down. I am not here today because I couldn't find the strength to follow through. I am not here because someone reached out. I am here because every time I held the knife to my wrist, I found one good reason not to press down. Not always the same reason. But every time it only took one good reason to save my life. I still struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts but those thoughts are getting fewer and further between. I haven't picked the knife back up in years. Every time I have even the thought, I start thinking about all my blessings that I recognize in my life and it pushes the dark thoughts back before I reach for my knife. I never stopped owning or carrying one. I just found ways not to use them against myself. Life isn't beautiful all the time. It hurts. It can feel like the world is crushing me. But when I feel like I have a million reasons to follow through, all it takes is one good reason not to.

[@MentalAmanda]

That is beautiful and so true. It only takes one reason. I'm glad you found yours and am so proud of you for continuing to fight!

[@leftalone4264]

I was raised in a unique way. Mentored to never be overwhelmed. At 56, and crippled...I was overwhelmed. Almost destroyed myself. Luckily, after 14 months, my foot twitched for the first time. I'm a very active person now. Pain is persistent, but tolerable. The only thing I lost is those that were around me As an empath, I am drawn to those who are in that place I once was.

[@MentalAmanda]

You are a fighter! Very proud of you!

[@cenewton3221]

I think we all underestimate the power behind our words, our voice. I've heard this song before but not in your context. This makes me re-think so many things. Truly. One voice can change someone's life. This is what Christ taught. Even to the non-believer, Christ leads the way with love and compassion to everyone.

[@kathykeys7872]

This reminds me of the time when I was out walking, and saw a lady whose face and eyes told me she was struggling with something. I did something I don't normally do with strangers. I said, "Hi." She looked at me and replied, "Hi" back. I hope it helped, even just a little.

[@MentalAmanda]

She knew then that she wasn't invisible. It helped.

[@larrytanksley1119]

Everyone can be the hero in someone else's life, as anyone can be the hero in your life. We must be aware of those around us.

[@LynnRamsay]

Thank you for your reaction to this Very emotional powerful song and video both Home Free and Billy are amazing I’m glad they collaborated and brought this song back for everyone to one to hear😢 There’s another collaboration Home Free did Don’t Laugh At Me with the original artist Mark Wills

[@johnchurch8372]

I published a book of poems I wrote over a span of 40 years that kept the gun barrel out of my mouth. Just to write my feelings down on paper really helped.

[@kylesummers1565]

Never give up, please (I'm asking). Peace, Love! These problems are not socioeconomic. I know quite a few "rich" people and many of them suffer just the same. That old saying is true (that "Money can't buy Happiness"). Most people struggle in some way or another. The trick is to find YOUR sweet spot. Don't ever compare yourself to others, just set your own goals. Sometimes sitting in the grass is a goal. Peace, Love!

[@gregplowman4132]

Thank you for bringing attention to the subject of mental health and suicide prevention. I am a combat veteran with 2 deployments. I have seen things that no one needs to see or experience and yes I have thought about suicide on more than one occasion. I even tried it once. Luckily I was saved by timely intervention. Now I am a caregiver to a fiancée who is disabled. Maybe that was why I was saved? I don’t know. What I do know is that everyone has a purpose, a calling and a talent.

[@MentalAmanda]

I appreciate your sacrifice. Thank you. I can't fathom what you have seen but I hope you find the peace and healing you deserve and I am so happy that you are still here with us.

[@jwernerschultz]

Fantastic reaction! You have a beautiful soul and heart! Keep doing what you do. Home Free has done so many Fantastic songs and meaningful ones also. Here are a few newer ones to check out. ( Bless the broken road, Mary did you know, Brothers in Arms) take special care!

[@hollyprudom671]

Thank you for blessing us with your reaction to this video... #letstalk Canada....Mental Health Matters, I'm here if you need to talk, I CARE! I WILL LISTEN! Let's be there for each other... Peace and Love KZbin.

[@wackymutt5654]

Went to you're link and feel I understand you a little better :)

[@oceanchaos1]

I kept waiting to see what that "one voice" would be that makes him change his mind. It isn't in the video, but thank you for coming back from the edge and being that one voice for so many. I wish you would do Dimash's 2021 "SOS d'un terrian en detresse" since you speak French and can speak to the suicidal struggle in the lyrics without being sidetracked by what many feel is the best voice in the world. Also, I'd love to hear your take on Diana Navarro's deathbed songs "El Perdon" and "Adios" to a dying bad and good lover respectively. Both have important messages for mental health.

[@ChrisKinsley-jx8oq]

Don't know if you know but Billy did this song when he was like 12 or 13 years old.

[@invinciblefeelings1439]

We have to help ourselves and eachother that is so true... 👍🏼🤗

[@passionsquietrage]

While I love Billy's original version of this song(that he recorded at the age of 11 years old btw), this version is absolutely amazing!

[@randycarlton3227]

GOD bless you Amanda for staying here with us. I know and believe the Lord above had a bigger purpose for you here on earth. And your journey what you went through is the truest testament to your calling in life.

[@markschmidt9607]

This is one great A capella song.

[@sonofthesea3298]

Hewwo gorgeous sweetheart!🐶🥰I had no idea who this guy was,so i had no expectations......but right out the gates with the light strong high notes! DAYMN SON!😧I completely agree with you. Being bullied out of gradeschool (my body shut down on me,but my mind was like "Dont you give up on me,ill be damned if i let thoose bastards win!",it got to a point where i thought being toxic,hurtful and as mean as possible to others was the norm. Because i tried soo hard to befriend whoever bullied me,even shared candy etc with them....call it "bribing",but it was my genuine desperation of having friends... What i got back each time,was violence and mental terror. Mom finally realized what was up,the day i came in with tears on my face,and bleeding......from my head. They had waited until i turned my back on them and tried to run away,before they threw a gigantic rock at the back of my head. Normally i would have fainted i guess,everyone from a hit like that would.... But i did not give in until i opened up the front door,and stumbled my way in,calling for mom. I had a hole in my head.... After that i fantasized about executing everyone.....torturing them and executing them at school. I never got hold of weapons or tried to get a hold on some. But in my fantasy the hatred grew and grew towards them. I hated violence (i still do),and i hate toxic people. So im really happy i never reached my breaking point there......because i dont know what i would have been capable of. I can count on 1 hand the amount of time i have been "violent" towards others,and most of the times has been as a withness to others being bullied,or attacked) And broke it all up (in extreme situations....well yeah i had to go all in,and someone ended up bloody and bruised... not proud of that fact,but it was the best outcome,as people would have been potentially beaten up,raped or tormented much worse,then the damage i had to force on them to make them stop,that also will and has healed a long time ago) It is sad to see so many people thriving from making other people suffer..... I know,in some cases i keep hearing that they must be going through some shit themselfs,but that is NEVER any excuse for being mean,toxic,violent to people that doesnt deserve it. Like i said,i have had plenty of reasons to become a terrorizing killer,a violent douchebag etc,but i didnt. I choosed not to be that guy,i wouldnt want to make it even worse for myself. I kept hearing people saying to my stories of being a victim from childhood on,of being bullied in extreme ways: "But you were only kids......kids dont know better". I call bullshit,even if you are just barely starting your teens or whatever,you know perfectly well right from wrongs. What i hate with my younger self,was that i actually "rewarded them" for bullying me. I should have never given them sodas,candy from pocketmoney I got from my mom,so that i could get myself something nice. Because theyr behaviour patterns showed me that "okay he is okay with us being rude to him,he even rewards us....lets get worse!". And that is exactly what happened....... I hate myself for that. But the amount of people i have met online,that opened up as being bullied and that my advice and stories helped them realize what to do,so that they could feel better and healthier has been a good reward. When a Brazilian girl that had started cutting herself on the regular,said that i had saved her.....man,i was like a bucket of water. She broke me completely.....but it was happy tears. It took a toll to listen to her stories,somehow she wanted to show pictures of what she had done. It was the worst ..... because i felt her pain all too well. She actually came into a streamer wich is a good friend of mine,and that i moderated for during his streams. And we both spent hours of letting her air out in chat,then we invited her into his discord. Kept telling her not to do anything that would hurt herself,she didnt always listen......she had gotten into that bad mental loop of negative choices. But our conversations helped her from giving up she said. Today ...... she has stopped punishing herself. She has her days,like you describe your "not so good" days Amanda. But shes so joyful,and has transformed into such a stunning young lady,her aura glows again finally. She desribed that all my experience,managed to reach into her deepest darkest corners,where no educated professional has managed to come close. I feel exactly like that often,the ones i feel help me most,is people that has been there themselfs. I have never been the guy that got help from laying on a couch,with some shrink digging up old dirt,and asking me to deliever him my inner feelings about everything. They know things from books,and its not the answer for everyone.... And i have tried like 8-10 different ones,ever since my teens lol. I have worn them out,and i felt like shit afterwards. Ooops,looks like i slipped on a soapbox again. But yeah,i would call myself a "reversed troll" if need be online theese days. After so many years of being terrorized daily,i have gotten to a point where it doesnt stick with me anymore. But i do get upset on others behalf. Recently i exposed someone that ruined 3 peoples day online (for no reason,they just wanted to be douchebags) and i went in on them. My mental warfare is nasty today (disclaimer: i dont use it on good,positive,wonderful people EVER!),as i can set myself into someones mentally from what i see them write to others or me personally. And i absolutely devastate them......this last time to the point of the toxic douchebag threatening to report me. I laughed and was like "To who??? And let me remind you,i document everything with logs and pictures. You got nothing but your own ass to worry about!". He was not in a good mental state when i was done with him,but i did it in a educational way. He had nothing else to say after he realized i had argumented him into pieces,while upseting and maybe even hurting him in the process. Call it being a "reversed troll" online. If just people like that grew a solid pair,and became a good human. Maybe we wouldnt have such a high rate of depression,suicidal thoughts,anxiethy,low or no self asteem or confidence. I know i can only gain confidence by other people telling me what i need to hear. By the way,that reminds me. See how i went really complimentary towards that Brazilian lady,and i opened up this "book" comment with being the same towards you? Its not me being superficially extra,i mean every word i say. But i might add abit of extra,when knowing that people have struggled or still do. Only thing that hurts from this,is that if i f.ex is being really polite,wholesome and respectable towards some "hot looking lady" online,lets say Instagram. I notice that i keep getting blocked the next time im like "hey wait,i havent been visiting this person in forever or seen any updates,let me check if shes okay",and i never find that account. Then i log out,try the same adress and there she is..... People are soo shallow,egoistic and mean on IG. Its not like i have ever been creepy or perverted towards ladies,or hammer them with a gazillion comments or whatever. This is mostly 1 comment/like where im wishing them a good day,and of course a follow. So thats another part of me constantly thinking that "maybe i just should be a careless douchebag,because they obviously only like "badboys" out there) But i got raised by mom with the ideal of making every girl/woman i met on my way feel special,make theyr day,and be the best friend they could possibly get. Well,that turned out GREAT! (Sorry,my sarcasm kicked in) Dont get me wrong,i got some lovely friends too,its just that they are soo busy with theyr own lifes now,we rarely have contact anymore. But we do appreciate eachother. As far as love goes,let me quote Haddaway "What Is Love,Baby Dont Hurt Me,Dont Hurt Me....No More!"

[@carinalindberg7377]

I think that voice is always our own, but it can speak through other people, through anything really, when we don't listen it directly. Most of us have not leaned that we even have an inner voice that guides us.

[@pnutbutrncrackers]

While I think the song is obviously addressing God ("We need some help down here on earth" / "Thanks for the help" (looking upward), "a million prayers", "golden rule", etc.) I think the idea that God's answers to our prayers and the actions of caring people are mutually exclusive is a false dichotomy -- and that's almost how I took what you were saying. Every blessing. Beautiful song (the one in 2000 as well as this sublime new version with HF).

[@garywilliams4099]

Be blessed!

[@josefhammond5997]

Another amazing acapella group is Pentatonix and their songs and covers are amazing

[@wackymutt5654]

Did you know the Wrights from your home town? I think they owned the newspaper. I enlisted one of them that would have been around your age I think he went by JD?

[@Spocker789]

Been there, the only thing that keep me going is knowing it could be worse, so I keep up the struggle, but it just gets worse. I can not sleep a normal day as I am in constant pain and drugs can not touch the pain. I was about to give up when my wonderful doctor gave me drugs which added panic attacks on top which made it so much worse. Luckily the doctor gave me new drug to take away those pesky panic attacks, as I do not think I could live though that. I glad you got you life in order. I am very old so no one even cares any more sadly. At least you have someone who supports you even if it is just me and your 22.5k subcribers.....grin

[@MentalAmanda]

Meds did the same to me! Cause horrific panic attacks and other side effects. SO glad you found something that works for you. I promise, there's always another side. There's always something else to try. And the other side is SO worth it!

[@sjgavenger37]

I was there one time. I was taken there by bullies in middle school up into highschool.

[@MentalAmanda]

We share that bit of backstory. But hey, all superheroes have tragic backstories! Keep fighting!

[@sjgavenger37]

@@MentalAmanda Yeah I am long past that now. That was all 30+ years ago. 15 years ago I met my soulmate and life has never been better. No matter what happens in my life as long as I have her, life is perfect.

[@swbigfan1]

Gotta love some Home Free! If you haven't heard it they also do an incredible cover of the Boyz 2 Men song "End of the Road". Though you'll want to bring the tissues as it hits the feels at least as hard as the original.

[@robertb5810]

Amanda thank you so much for these videos. I can't remember anytime in my life that I haven't had thoughts of suicide for many many reasons. I guess the only reason I didn't end my life is the fact that if I did then the world would win. I still have those thoughts but I've gone too far in life to quit now. Your thoughts on all of this gives me a lot of comfort thank you for your kindness.

[@DyvmSlorm]

Robert, I see it the exact opposite. If anyone leaves this world the world becomes less bright and the world looses. While it might be hard to realize at times it really is amazing how many lives each of our lives touch. When any of those lives stops touching our own or others those who have lost the connection suffer. Think of it this way. If you go to the gas station, pump your gas, enter the store to pay and buy a soda, and give the clerk a little casual smile, that clerk might have been in a very dark place but your smile might have lit a tinny light in the clerks day that will only bring them light. Those are the kinds of connections we don't think about.

[@MentalAmanda]

While I admire your fighter personality, I have to agree with Mike here: the world loses if you lose your battle. You care. You have so much to give (even if it's just validation for others, joy to be had, inspiration to be given, a friendly gesture.) I'm proud of you!

[@robertb5810]

@@MentalAmanda I really do appreciate your reply and thoughts, but I've just had the last bit of heart and trust taken from me by someone which makes it even harder to find my way through a world for which I seem to have no place and should have never existed in. I'm still going to go on just because I just can't let all of this win over me. I wish you and your son well on your journey though life and I hope you will find the happiness that I never could. Thanks again.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@robertb5810 You will either let another person's actions destroy you. Or you will use them as a catalyst to go far beyond what you thought possible. I was faced with the same choice after being backstabbed, abandoned and screwed over by nearly every person I let close. The choice is yours. Fall or fight.

[@robertb5810]

@@MentalAmanda Thanks Amanda I really do appreciate your thoughts. I will be okay. Like I have always said I will find a way.

[@marcgarrett4401]

Pentatonix has done several original songs dealing with mental health. Be my eyes Love me when I don't.

[@carinalindberg7377]

I'm new to your channel, but not new to Home Free and not new to the inner well-being subject. I wonder if you know about Dr Joe Dispenza and his work. His meditations literally put the mind in order and move us into our present moment, our hearts, our love for life and into our feelings of the future we desire, and the human being's ability to heal ourselves. The scientific evidence is astonishing. If you want to heal and feel whole, from whatever, he's the way to go. ❤️

[@emanuellawton7942]

I think I prefer Billy Gilman's original 2000 version. It came out not long after the Columbine High School shooting massacre in 1999.Billy Gilman was about 12 years-old at the when he did the original recording back in 2000. I think it resonated more with me because the song was released shortly after Columbine and I had watched the funerals of some of the victims ( one of them open casket) on tv.This is still a beautiful updated rendition of the song.

[@Nighteye2]

Beautiful reaction - and indeed, we all have our demons to fight. If you want a positive song about that, a few hours ago Bloodywood released the video for "Aaj" which is all about finding new strength after conquering your own demons. kzbin.info/www/bejne/oZjZeWmqjZl4oJI I have no personal experience, but being an ethics liaison at work I encounter a lot of stories in the people I help and support...

[@MatthewvMayo]

Two songs that you should check out are Rascal Flatts Why and Blaine Larson How Do You Get That Lonely.

[@thomasmacdiarmid8251]

You should try Home Free's fairly recent video, Don't Laugh at Me. You will appreciate it.

[@davidbeckham1760]

I can see the side looking into a suicide scenario. I've seen what my wife was going through with her ex. One night she texted me saying "I love you and I'm sorry." After questioning her briefly I found out she was about to commit suicide. I was able to get her to tell me where she was and convinced her to not do it for her kids. That was around 8 years ago now and she is still alive and taking care of her kids - my stepkids.

[@MentalAmanda]

Thank you for helping to keep her light shining bright!

[@paulfournier1342]

Paul Fournier What's the meaning of life one of the worst feelings is being alone. The most meaningful in life is to be known by another person how do we find meaningful relationships? God wants to be in a relationship with you, no matter what your fear and failures.

[@MentalAmanda]

One of the worst feelings is being LONELY. Being alone can be wonderful!

[@mikebradshaw9113]

Unfortunately I agree we need to help each other but without God we can do nothing because all things are though God bless you and keep helping everyone because we never know who we thouch Amen

[@MentalAmanda]

I respectfully disagree, but I am glad that you have found peace, purpose and strength in your faith.

[@minneyruth]

❤️❤️

[@laurencethomas219]

Why did Home Free do this song? One explanation is that they are Christians. Check out their rendition of "How Great Thou Art." Often those who reach out to those in pain have heard the word themselves, and they find you and reach out, as you have. Keep up the good work. Be strong and stay safe, Amanda. Bless you and the work you do.

[@KeatingChick]

God always hears...

[@DyvmSlorm]

and he can send us that one voice in some very unexpected ways.

[@intermenater]

Thnx. Don't look at me like that. I only have on blue eye. Chimera.

[@cathyhilton5298]

Mental health of people is at a high whether its elderly school age kids collage kids elementary age veterans these last Couple years have been hard on the general emotions of everyone coming out of May as mental health awareness month it doesn't and shouldnt stop there.

[@donnypham9759]

Hey lady, you should see an angelic song by Pearl Jam, live black. Very beautiful song, won’t regret it, I promise.

[@rickjenkins1740]

Wow! Amazing job!!! Do what the pros do = Promo'SM!

[@emilyvoytenko7390]

I am being bullied

[@MentalAmanda]

Email me [e-mail] Let's look at options to get you safe.

[@bubby-un34benny-un46]

My little pony