First Time Hearing Screaming Suicide by Metallica | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@MentalAmanda]

@rumblefish1421 Not at all! Just doesn't react well with me.

[@ford1546]

You are doing one thing verry wrong in your videos! your voice volume is much higher than the video and it is very wrong!! Suddenly when you start talking, bang in the ear!! Therefore I have stopped!!! watching your videos

[@effenbergerjindrich6011]

i'm from eastern europe and my english is terrible that's why i can't discuss with you but i love you because of what you do for people

[@MentalAmanda]

@@effenbergerjindrich6011 Your english is fine! Don't sell yourself short!

[@BrandonTK]

This song dropped the day I was really struggling with thoughts. My favorite band saves my life again

[@klaasvankleef6299]

Betamale

[@BrandonTK]

@@klaasvankleef6299 lmao

[@lukewithers5564]

i hope you get better

[@lukewithers5564]

@@klaasvankleef6299what the hell is wrong with you

[@blw4089]

​@@klaasvankleef6299yeah, making fun of someone struggling is so manly. 🙄🙄

[@JStephens_73]

James' lyrics, or the meanings of the songs he writes, are never hit or miss, this one included. The song speaks on the stigma put on the word 'suicide' itself, not the act of or the shadow of it over you, but the word itself.

[@gianwinters]

The whole 72 Seasons album provides hope and acceptance of human nature light or darkness inside

[@nzstump0152]

The final chorus is the most important lines, "don't you keep me inside, screaming suicide" the message to voice your inner demons need to be more common and not ignored when people manage to

[@fixxxer6663]

Bleading me, until is sleeps, no leaf clover, these songs will move you 😢👍

[@anthonyjones8014]

Until it sleeps amd no leaf glover are two of my favourites ❤

[@JosephWilkovich-g8p]

From what I've observed, your life experiences seem to have brought you more at peace with yourself. GREAT TO SEE YOU THAT WAY!!!!!💞

[@davidwillard8908]

Yesss!! You nailed it. I just found this channel among other Metallica reactions. I have no idea of your familiarity with Metallica music. I think your really captured the song meaning and your enjoyment of this song is infectious.

[@artwhitacre3379]

Love this band since I was 11 and so many Metallica songs have got me through addiction and some very dark thoughts and times in my life I can honestly say Metallica has saved my life

[@theredrooster7143]

Until it sleeps has great lyrics. I think it would make sense to you. The whole Load album is great and got me through a lot. Helped me get over myself.

[@TheScorpio1999]

A Metallica video right after the Megadeth one??? Dave Mustaine's gonna be PISSED! LOL I'm playin' around Amanda. It's so cool of James Hetfield to challenge the taboo and talk about lyrical themes such as the idea of death on the "Death Magnetic" album, as a theme through the entire record, or this song where again he's sort of saying "people don't want to talk about this. Maybe that's the problem." Cause it is. I admire that; that daring, that defiance, in the approach. Cause that's what rock is all about. Rebellion.

[@cockynanderson]

I was waiting on this reaction! This band seems to always have a way to lay out their thoughts in a way we all can relate to it.

[@codyhall6279]

I'm not sure if you've done a video of "Room of Mirrors" or "Shadow's Follow" yet, but you need to. Room of Mirrors helped me last year during manic episodes from my PTSD. When you cover Shadow's Follow do one of the live shows; the emotion from James and the lyrics helped me during my really depressed/suicide attempts last year.

[@ak2nda695]

Amanda's momma bear came out for a second. Threatening someone with some colorful words!! Great job as usual Amanda.

[@hugofernandes9318]

Greetings from Portugal Amanda. I'm a huge Metallica fan and I guarantee you that if there is an Metallica album that you should listen to everything single songs, this is it. All the lyrics that James wrote are about mental illness (depression, suicide, etc, etc). Enjoy it and talk about it!

[@craigrodgers4267]

This album is definitely James's most deeply intense lyrical album for sure

[@Zikkar]

Agreed. This is one you should listen to them all

[@robertkranenburg7084]

Hi Amanda I’m glad you listen and break down the lyrics loved Metallica for years only thing that helped me get through when I was younger ignore the bad voices as much as possible

[@stevencalogero7758]

I love your reactions your so BEAUTIFUL ❤... Your messages are so inspiring and powerful...Great choices of music too.. love your channel

[@jemstar4162]

This is amazing! Also I prevail - breaking down and the amity affliction - all f*cked up are two amazing examples also, I found those songs to be Eye opening when I was going through the worst stages of my life 🖤

[@SpencerHelle3128]

I think she will cave in eventually and do All Fucked Up. Seriously the most powerful song I’ve heard. And you need to check out Drown by Bring Me The Horizon.

[@donaldstefanovich8124]

Amanda, your opening there was solid and anyone here that is reading this or heard what she said. That is a place you need to get to. Oh. Very good song.

[@adifferentformoflife3724]

I really love the positive vibes here, never fails to lift my spirits at least a little

[@stephenfaircloth3882]

James always delivers, one way or another!! Have you ever reacted to Three Days Grace? I’d love to hear your reaction to I am Machine.

[@shaunmorris8176]

This song is so cool, I love your reaction to this song and how your feeling ❤

[@neilforrest6747]

Well said Amanda. The song is still growing on me. A strange but clever mix of a grim title & lyrics but an upbeat sort of happy sound. 🔥🤘✊

[@a.t.3192]

Well, the song is ultimately about overcoming suicidal thoughts and choosing to live instead, so I think the upbeat music reflects that victory.

[@Pierce-xb6vi]

As someone who struggles with my own suicidal thoughts tendencies and actions,this song hits close to home for me. The inner demons I battle everyday get louder and louder and the pain grows, I've learned to just keep it inside just like this song says and I know one day this will be my end but this is the path I walk and I'm just putting one foot in front of the other.

[@shaunmoller2997]

What a great song from the legends Metallica while listening to this song one thing come to mind. Love conquer suicide. Love your reaction Amanda take care cheers

[@AllAboutLuhig]

You must react to another song on this album called: "If The Darkness Had a Son."

[@vincegedeon6583]

Best song on the new album IMO

[@seanmartin1308]

I'm trying to get out of a rut but I can't get to DC to get the surgery I need that would potentially save the one leg I still have and alleviate a ton on pain.

[@MentalAmanda]

Email me (in description).

[@kellybrown7172]

I love this band. they have been my voice over the past year of sorrow. their songs have given my pain a voice. I attempted suicide last June. sadly I am facing that decision again now. I am so overwhelmed by life that I can't see any hope of surviving

[@MentalAmanda]

My email is in the video description or you can IG me @mentalamanda. I care if your light goes out 💖

[@kellybrown7172]

thank you for reaching out. I sent you a message through your website.

[@JeremyMiller-sn6nh]

So many Metallica songs have helped me through so much 💩. Metallica has saved my life, countless times. Forever a fan

[@mariano.tiberi]

I don't really know if I will survive, but these videos undo the pain inside me, at least for a while

[@MentalAmanda]

If you ever feel like you're losing the battle, reach out to me via IG or email (both in video description). I care if your light goes out!

[@ΧαρηςΙστατκωφ]

My past is full of panic attacks, and deep DEPRESSION. I feel the dark.

[@ΧαρηςΙστατκωφ]

Or bleeding me

[@MentalAmanda]

What about your future?

[@LionsHeadProductions]

not just dopamine, but copium. The substance that allows anyone to cope with anything.

[@politicalscientist8880]

this song is about talking about these things... 'keep me inside my name is suicide' aka dont talk about me... yet youtube is basically trying to ban the word

[@jackmark5532]

You are awesome!

[@BashTheWiza]

I would love to see you react to the song napalm dreams by fit for an autopsy this was one of the songs that helped me would love see how you view the song. Along with the man i was not they write some of the most heart wrenching songs due too the frontmans and guitarist trauma from childhood.

[@mrcjc9298]

Stoicism isn’t really about bottling up emotions. It’s about taking the things you can control and applying them to predicaments that are beyond your control. It’s ultimate goal is the state of Eudaimonia. A balance of emotions and inner peace.

[@MentalAmanda]

I was using stoic in it's modern usage to describe someone devoid of emotion and expression, not someone who practices Stoicism, a philosophy I actually deeply resonate with 😊

[@mrcjc9298]

@@MentalAmanda 👍

[@flcasketman]

Great song and great reaction! You should do songs by Shinedown. They are big advocates on mental health and an awesome band as well.

[@gothicwolf9221]

ive finger death punch coming down is how i have felt often.... i was diagnosed with disassociation and other mental health issues. thank god i live in Canada so counseling is covered. i'm on o.d.s.p so meds is also covered ,when i feel like i'm starting to loose my self i go to that song..i like your content just happened on it today.

[@MentalAmanda]

Here is my reaction to FFDP Coming Down kzbin.info/www/bejne/b4W2pHqmmJiVkLs

[@sunamaruna4608]

Hey, so I know I'm an outsider, but I wanna say, I'm not alright. Very much not so. Never actually hurt myself or anything, just drowning a bit. My win, is that before this "relapse", I've made massive progress with how my mental health is overall. I've also opened up to my therapist. I'm getting better. Or maybe worse and I'll need actual medication for it and then I'll find myself in a psych ward, which doesn't feel like a bad idea but I'd probably go crazy from lack of safe interaction and then I'd dle anyway. This is my small baby step when it comes to reaching out or something like that. But it'll get better, right? It has to.

[@MentalAmanda]

You're part of the pack now! Those are great wins! The truth is, no matter how far we've come, sometimes we get knocked down. We find ourselves entangled in old patterns, traumas or struggles. The good news is that you got through it before and you will do it again!

[@theoriginalpizzalicious]

Tallica boys hit the nail on the head with this song

[@deadman1847]

Maybe you should listen to You Cant Bring Me Down, by Suicidal Tendency. Great song, fun band, really opens your eyes.

[@juanacosta4500]

How about inamorata.

[@ruimiguel1976]

Epic song

[@captainred22449]

I don't so much as to listen to this song for the lyrical themes, but for the rhythm and beat. But I got to admit the chorus is nice

[@mattgraham2835]

what a good song that has a very upbeat energetic

[@jeffreypullis696]

Good groove too!

[@cockynanderson]

I teach my son that sadness and such are valid emotions and tears are ok but I not to just cry about every little thing. I teach him that he will be better served to talk to his mother, myself or a teacher about his feelings than just crying to himself or locking it inside. Crying during the death of a loved one is completely understandable. Crying because Dad didn't let you try to skateboard down the roof of our house isn't. If that makes sense?

[@GalacticEmpire-sl2ij]

You should listen to the pain remains trilogy by Lorna shore, it’s very emotional

[@nickdotjpg]

its the most emotional trilogy of songs ive heard in a long time. those songs are phenomenal, and they really sold me on new lorna shore.

[@dmitrykosnichenko2505]

Keep me inside, don't you keep me inside, screaming suicide!!!

[@effenbergerjindrich6011]

I'm not sure if that means considering suicide as a solution or moving on

[@MentalAmanda]

It means being open about your feelings or thoughts, even if they are dark.

[@AleFerrari81]

You are great Amanda!!! Reacts Metallica Room of mirrors please 🙏 I still strugglin with my depression and for some reasons your videos help me to make me feeling better! I think you really know what I'm talking about... Alessandro from Italy❤

[@bonded14]

LISTEN TO Too Far Gone OR Inamorata by Mettalica

[@carlgibbons5777]

Amanda, I would suggest doing The Pass by Rush. Beautiful anti-suicide song with a great message. Thanks!

[@MassimoRicciardi-y6k]

My mental health is not looking good right now metal is keeping me from doing myself in.

[@MentalAmanda]

We are here for you. You can also reach me on IG @mentalamanda or email me at [e-mail]

[@metalfanoh]

You should do a review of Gloomy Sunday!

[@MRxMADHATTER]

The best apology is changed behavior. The definition of repentance is changed behavior. So repentance is not just an apology, it's a change in your life. It's growth. It's progression towards righteousness.... toward Christ-like perfection. It's a journey, not a destination.

[@mauriciomijares7286]

Master of Puppets it's a must in your channel, I hope to see it soon!

[@pkj77]

after loosing both my mom and dad, close to each other in 2021 Sep 19th my dad, 5th nov. mom i love every bit of love for life only live for my big sister...but i´d rather not be around

[@justawhisperintheuniverse8257]

It's hard losing parents. I've lost both of mine. I wish they could have been around longer, but life is what it is. I'd give a lot to have them back. But, children are supposed to outlive their parents. Now is the time to make them proud. Continue forward and whatever good lessons they gave you, give forward. The love doesn't die with them.

[@pkj77]

@@justawhisperintheuniverse8257 i know they were both in their 70´s dad pretty good health mom i knew was at risk diabetic and a lot more stuff going on but my father was pretty healthy he passed first, i dont wanna go into details but after a heart surgery one of the flaps was leaking or something and the artificial veins implants was put in and worked fine until infection came along all went too hell i try to live day by day for them

[@MentalAmanda]

I felt the exact same way after I lost my mom (two years after losing my dad.) But I realized after a long battle that I was the only person left to share their love and wisdom with the world and that drove me to keep fighting. 💖

[@jeremiahg6645]

I have a reaction request, now the song I would like you to react to is Rise Again by Hardriver now this song was made for the weekend event Defqon.1 and it’s part of the closing ritual but it has some deep lyrics to it but it’s also not your typical reaction because the music genre is called Hardstyle so if you know what Techno is and genres similar to it and you enjoy them then you’ll probably like this one too

[@TheJohmac]

Metallica has always been willing to broach tough topics and put them to amazing music.

[@kokaroka69]

I have a suggestion for another or maybe a future reaction to a mental illness song by a band, Dream Theater and the song is titled The Enemy Inside. I suggest reacting to the lyric video so you can read what is being sung about. Take care! - Gene A.

[@ilarijarvinen784]

You should REALLY do Save Us by Mushroomhead! 🙏 The ultimate depression-anthem. 😪

[@run-of-the-mill]

React to “Shadows Follow” by them.

[@nayz_one]

you need to listn to "NF - How Could You Leave Us"

[@jeffreypullis696]

Listen well!

[@WestVicOffroad]

My problem is I feel if I talk im seeking pitty,.

[@MentalAmanda]

Because that's what ignorant people say. Only you know your inner feelings!

[@ryananthony4670]

You need to check out wish you were here by Pink Floyd

[@SUMUAL-PERMESTA]

PLEASE REACT...pearl jam black mtv unplugged👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

[@sondresnas8980]

Listen to Fixxxer by Metallica 🎸 Like your videos!

[@SpencerHelle3128]

Please do All fucked up amity affliction

[@jemstar4162]

An amazing song and video!! I went through some hard times when I found that song and it really helped

[@SpencerHelle3128]

@@jemstar4162 I’m trying to get her to react to it

[@capncook9492]

Listen psychonaut 4

[@GodlessFiend]

AMANDA, can you please react to where’d you go by fort minor? It’s very emotional I bet you would like it and most likely cry as well. PLEASE!!!!!! Please do the live version at summer sonic 2006 Chester sings the chorus for that, you will love it

[@GodlessFiend]

@user-qe5ou8vn3unot interested Bot

[@paulojorge3704]

Please cover Shinedown's awesome song 45

[@jeffreypullis696]

Identity!

[@Officially.secret.squirrelly]

Shinedown song 45

[@motorousv8]

I highly recommend to watch a Metallica Documentary :)

[@scorpionking4012]

Not my favorite song, but James really good in putting emotions and lyrics out.

[@trick9037]

i love Metallica

[@nesthi]

🥰💙💙

[@anthonywilliams8849]

🌻

[@jimmywilliams4329]

You should listen to Metallica fade to black good song 😢

[@MentalAmanda]

Great video, reaction hit me hard. Here you go: kzbin.info/www/bejne/gWSlZGeAZd-ifqssi=HRHy_bw8HfRl9zvU

[@effenbergerjindrich6011]

i love you

[@FredHunley-v6o]

Like luffy I know who I am. Don’t care what other people think ❤

[@ΧαρηςΙστατκωφ]

HALO ON FIRE.

[@FredHunley-v6o]

Um no look in to James hetfield’s up bringing 😢

[@markwalker4485]

Suicide is an excuse not an end. I have forgotten of how many friends killed them selves and it’s us that have to live with there memories not them. I bet most can’t live my life and I take it on. I was a mercenary for ten years if anyone had a reason to remove the top of their skull it’s me. I just don’t have the urge to give a self inflicted lobotomy due to the fact it’s no fun. And metal-licka sucked since Burton died. I expect both myself and my son to be strong but not the way you suggested He has no stress and knows He doesn’t have to live up to my life. He actually can’t and I know this so really don’t want him to be a soldier but I don’t run his life or goals. He just knows I will wup his ass if he listens to anything after Puppets 🤣😱😇 He probably has bit is smart enough to not tell me or make me listen. But I also don’t make Him hear my music. My music is all about willing death and just accept the death. Be a Man with no name you never want your child to be one of us

[@MentalAmanda]

Every brain is different, thus the responses that people have to trauma or life stress is different. What is easy for you, as you said, many couldn't handle. On the flipside, what someone else could handle, you might struggle with. Yes, you have to live with the memories but they had to live in torturous mental agony every single second with no reprieve. I never advocate that people "think of their loved ones." I advocate that you think of yourself and that you deserve to heal.