First Time Reaction | Ren X Chinchilla- Chalk Outlines | FOR NICHOLAS, Gone but never forgotten!

[@BigMikeReactions]

Thank you everyone for checking this out. Nicholas Theisen was a courageous person who battled a lot of his demons in silence. He really wanted to be better but hated the side effects of the medication that was helping him. I only wish I had a better understanding at the time of what he was dealing with. He would rather suffer in silence then burden you with his problems. He felt like less of a man if he said anything & I hate he went through it alone. Thank You Ren & Chinchilla for this song. You really painted a perfect picture of the struggles people have with this & really helps me organize my own issues & gives me strength to keep trying & know tomorrow can always be better when you feel better. Thank you everyone!

[@Minorbird1972]

Mike, thank you for sharing that with us. I am so sorry, you lost him. Sending you love. ❤

[@Butterflyandhearts95]

🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@ZephyrsLoki]

Damn. I'm only 6 mins in, but I had to tell you how sorry I am you went through that. Just please remember everyone grieves differently. Hell, a single person can grieve 3 deaths in 3 different ways. The what-ifs have to go away. What helped me was talking about them. Regaling stories of adventure, and how they affected your life. You could do it here! Maybe react to a song he loved, or a song that makes you think of him? Hugs 💜

[@HaroldGreb]

Some of manage to dance the eternal dance longer than others, RIP Nicholas

[@carolmillins9199]

Dear Mike, thankyou for sharing your story. Sorry for your loss. Sending love to you and your family. Another great, thought provoking reaction ❤

[@BigMikeReactions]

I AT A LOSS❤🥹 Seriously… thank you to everyone who has left unbelievably kind thoughts here. I never thought ever that a song would hit like this did for me. It really was therapeutic & very unexpected. Just another way to keep his memory alive & just maybe might help someone else get through their pain. It’s never easy dealing with a loss like this but getting his story out could help someone else who might be struggling to know you’re ok even if you don’t think you’re ok & know this temporary circumstance is not your permanent situation. Thank you REN & Chinchilla for this masterpiece. Really helped me in ways I never knew it could. 😮😊❤

[@guinevere7494]

I really think there is a thing to Rentherapy and it’s helped me many days and times lately. Thank you for sharing your story. Peace and love

[@jimb8333]

Sorry for your loss. You are right, Ren is very therapeutic. He is just an amazing artist. More people should be introduced to his music. Let's keep spreading his music to help more people. love your reaction.

[@Punatik]

I’m so sorry for your loss. FYI Chinchilla suffers from anxiety and she preforms with the nails and, usually, a hat & outfit as a barrier between her and the world. Nail less she’s just Daisy, nails and whatever else she’s CHINCHILLA.

[@cocoanco7]

...and YES...she could definitely KILL with those nails..."Little Girl GONE" 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@krystalIvy1996]

Chinchilla has bad anxiety and her nails are apart of her persona as chinchilla, like her armour 😊 Great Reaction! Really enjoyed it.

[@garysherwin3316]

The loud chair is an Easter egg cherophobia (pronounced chair) is the fear of being happy 🇬🇧😊

[@Shiroar]

The best musical “siblings”. Ren has called her his sister from another mister and a female version of himself due to their similar approach to music. For me I think it shows in the fact that they both have that something special that draws you in and demands attention. To see it fully for Chinchilla, check out her live version of Fingers. This song always reminds me that one of the (many) things that makes Ren so great is his ability to know exactly when to be complex, keep it simple, or even use silence to get his message across. He isn’t flexing his guitar skills in this, just playing exactly what is needed with that beautiful guitar tone. And my favourite line in this is so simple, totally devoid of all the clever metaphors that he is so good at using, but it hits soooo hard: “I’m scared of being okay cause all things change”. I think anyone who has been through any struggles can relate to that feeling of not trusting that anything good will last. You can’t just enjoy it because you’re busy worrying about how long it will last and the feeling that will come when it’s gone. And then good days just make the darkness feel so much worse because you remember the light that’s gone… Ren is so special. He keeps being so relatable that it reminds us that we’re not alone. And we will always make room for more RENegades down the Ren rabbit hole cause we all need his light in the darkness 🐰🕳️ Also… I am sorry for your loss 🖤 Ren has a few songs that might be very worth checking out though I am sure they will also be tough: Freckled Angels -> Suic!de -> For Joe. Maybe you can find a bit of solace in his music?

[@BigMikeReactions]

I can see that for sure!! I really hope it to be true cause their chemistry is unbelievable

[@Sdt526]

This was a lovely reaction, and I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my father to bipolar, but luckily I was young enough to not realise what had happened. I think you’d appreciate How to be Me by Ren and Chincilla too, there’s a tribute to Joe, who Ren lost as a teen. Chincilla Fingers live and 1:5 are amazing too, I can’t see you appreciate her voice

[@yilomina2047]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Mike - thank you for sharing some of your story with us. This is a powerful song, and I get chills every time I hear it! I took meds for years, and sometimes they helped, sometimes they didn't. You're right - it's a really difficult balance to find. Chinchilla is definitely worth checking out - her solo stuff is very different. She said once in an interview that a lot of her songs reflect the things that she wishes she would have/could have said in various situations. As others have noted, Chinchilla is actually quite shy in "real life," but when she puts on those nails and an elaborate costume (usually with a hat that she made herself!), she's ready to become FIERCE! I would suggest you start with her live performance of Fingers for Hunger TV.

[@BigMikeReactions]

They play off each other so well! Thank you for your empathy. Means a ton!

[@Dr.Brummel]

I'm so sorry for your loss 🫂❤🫂❤🫂❤ Don't apologize when the music touches you. Ren's music is touching. And you're such a good soul, you just feel it. Your reaction is just human. Don't apologize for being human. And Rens music is therapy for so many people. Including me. I have cried to so many songs so many times 😢. But it's okay and it helps 🙂. Ren calls Chinchilla his musical sibling. Their chemistry is unbelievable.

[@stevodidge]

Chinchilla wears the nails as part of her on stage persona. She suffers stage fright and her alter ego helps her with confidence for performing.

[@lysfleming3331]

I'm sorry about your nephew. You are correct, after you're on meds you feel better and decide you don't need meds. It's a catch 22. There was nothing you could have done. Thank you for sharing your story. Ren is remarkable. So is Chinchilla. Looking forward to more Ren/Chinchilla/Big Push reactions. ❤

[@piplevett4783]

When youre ready, take a look at How to be me (live).. Ren and Chinchilla reach places i never knew existed in that one

[@anfala80]

I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your nephew's story. Big love for you and your family. Chinchilla is a vocal powerhouse. Her Fingers live for Hunger TV really displays her talent. Also, 1:5 is one of my favorites of hers. Loving your reactions and looking forward to more!

[@salishseamermaid]

No need to apologize; we've all been there

[@103Alex1]

It's theraputic indeed, and very beautiful. R.I.P. Nicholas - so sorry he never found a path through in time. ❤

[@nataliehughes5902]

I’m so sorry for your loss Mike and thank you for this beautiful heartfelt reaction and for sharing your story with us. Much love from the UK xxx

[@cwilliamson6572]

Nothing to be sorry over. Take care and 💘 to U and Fam.

[@stevodidge]

Really enjoying your Ren reactions. 'For Joe' is a very relevant song in relation to your experience with your nephew. Worth a watch.

[@DusCostea-kt1dg]

REN always pure 🔥🔥 but PLEASE try some of Chinchilla's earlier catalogue like ELEMENT'S or ONE TIME or FABULOUS or TERMS AND CONDITIONS or LOCKDOWN GET DOWN or TRIGGER or SHADOWS 🎶🎵🍯🤌. This young lady is an absolute BEAST 🤯🙏💪🐝🍀🇬🇧

[@ceciliablackburn2827]

We totally understand as many of us have similar events in our lives. Ren, through his music helps us deal those demons together

[@Nanersbananers]

I’m scared of being okay gets me everytime. I’m sorry for your loss ❤

[@darkmatter6714]

Yeah…this is the same guy who did Halftime and The Hunger!

[@DazzleMonroe]

Much love to you brother. You're not alone in your loss. I knew Niall since 1977, and in 1997 he found his tranquillity after struggling for so very long. He came to see me two days before he found it, and we talked for the longest time. We always knew him as Pokerface as he never let anything show. I wish I'd seen past that face the day he came.

[@staceyharris4937]

Next react to How to be me!!! ❤

[@hellebachmann8260]

This is what Ren and his music does. Making people opening up and share. Sorry for your loss and thank you ♥️🙏 More goosebumps, Ren vs Chinchilla “How to be me” live version.

[@BigMikeReactions]

Already did. This song has done more for his mom than me by far! She carries a lot of guilt not taking his bipolar diagnosis more seriously until he was consumed by it. I think it’s a hard thing for my previous generation to really empathize with how delicate one’s mental state cannot be fixed by a simple pill. So sad to look back & hear from my dad to “suck it up & stop crying! What is wrong with you?” Heard it so many times. Sad but true. Thank you again

[@Dr.Brummel]

@@BigMikeReactions Dealing with the feelings of guilt is so difficult. I know this from my own experience when a friend of mine ended his live. Rationally, I knew that I couldn't have done anything. But I still asked myself that question over and over again.

[@Dr.Brummel]

@@BigMikeReactions Regarding your experience of having to be tough. I had a similar experience. I'm approaching 60 now and my father grew up in WW2 (I'm from Germany). He probably always had to be tough and never managed/learned to change that later on. I think it's our job to do better. Every generation has to get a little better. That way we can develop further. Unfortunately only slowly, but at least. ❤🫂

[@davidhabgood]

Beautifully poigniant reaction, thank you for sharing your nephew's name. Sounds like he suffered quietly as many do, hopefully your reaction and his story will touch lives and create a legacy where your family's loss will impact on others and carry them through to a positive future.

[@jxclarke7774]

We are all here with u bro !!! U got so many more fantastic ren and now chinchilla tracks to get swept away by

[@cocoanco7]

Thanks Mike... welcome to CHINCHILLA 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 REN'S "TWIN" in music and art. Go for "Little Girl GONE" ....before more heartbreaking stuff...🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@StefanVillkatt]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your nephew, Mike. Great reaction as usual.

[@StefanVillkatt]

If you want som more of the Chinchilla-force-of-nature you can try her: 1:5 (the live version).

[@karlalyne3558]

I’m there,big Mike. Definitely made me cry 😢

[@BigMikeReactions]

Thank you & thanks for the support

[@crazycrotalus6942]

Hi Mike, I'm sure we all agree that not only do we hear your take on Rens lyrics, we see that many of them hit you very hard without any commentary needed ! Especially evident in your reaction to The Tales of Jenny, Screech and Violet..... Ren always portrays the pain with such Powerful & Beautiful lyrics/ words that most can't find, he's a voice for so many people already & only more people will learn this in the future. Sorry to hear about Nicholas, the photo makes me think of a quote from Immanuel Kant , a German philosopher from the 1700 and early 1800's..... " He who is cruel to animals becomes hard also in his dealings with men....We can judge the heart of a man by his treatment of animals.” As for suggestions Rens " 1990's " or " What You Want " & Chinchillas " MF Diamond ", will lift you spirits for sure ! P.S. Close to that 1000 subs, my friend !

[@suesee4855]

Thank you for sharing. I know it's hard, but Ren reminds people thar they aren't alone. Much love ❤️ Sue

[@AartUUD2]

Ren's band the Big Push with "War Pigs" live busking. Peace✌️

[@mastertoymaker5249]

Virtual hugs my brother.. ❤

[@TanyaQueen182]

So very sorry for your loss.

[@guinevere7494]

I guess everyone knows someone fighting the fight and those who couldn’t anymore. I’m 50 and still fight those thoughts. It’s horrible to lose someone so close. This song and a few others have been on repeat in my head these days with these battles I’m dealing with. This song like many of his do hit hard. He does have lighter stuff as well. I hope you get a balance through this ride or it can be overwhelming. Your genuineness is a beautiful thing. Thank you for sharing as too many understand too well. Take care. Peace and live

[@belindamelville2270]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@michaelwalsh7359]

Beautiful reaction man! Thank you for sharing a little of your story with us. Wish you all the best my friend! Looking forward to the next react!

[@BigMikeReactions]

Thank you for the thoughtfulness! Have this song on repeat all day! Hits you in the “feels” in a good way. His mom really loved how it turned out…. Despite the low audio & visual hiccup… but the editing is getting better. Still pretty green on that part. 🙏

[@michaelwalsh7359]

@ nah man your doin just fine! No one comes for the edits and they will get a little better each time. Keep up the great work. And as for that hitting you in the feels… a lot of RENs music will do that! Just space it out with some happy stuff too! The love music 1-4 is great, power, streetlights, halftime, back on 74…. So many feel good songs in the mix too! Never mind when you start looking at Collins and the big push! lol I would like to suggest a song for you that is new but it is a little heavy if you want to put it off. “Baggage” with Chris Webby and ten. I think you’ll really appreciate that one like you do chalk outlines.

[@DanBarry-p9j]

Great review, buddy.

[@bdlbbdlb1]

Sorry for your loss Brother.❤

[@BADGERrenfangirl]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 no words .

[@Mamma_Kinzie]

It hard to be me is another one with these 2 and very powerful. A lot more powerful then chalk outlines

[@BigMikeReactions]

Thank you. This is still in my rotation. She has such a powerful voice & Ren matches it perfectly plus the story. Any music that makes you “feel” is why people love it!!

[@MizCriz46]

It's How To Be Me. And you're so right about it's power.

[@Mamma_Kinzie]

The voice got it wrong when they let Chinchilla go. But she is winning now. She has a huge following in the uk and usa. You should go down the Chinchilla rabbit hole. Its worth it

[@Mamma_Kinzie]

Freckled angles is the song that is hard for me to hear. I love the song. But it makes me think about my dad who we lost a few years ago. He died from cancer. The ability to make so many people feel the words and song is truly a great artist. 99 % of artist cant make people feel the words and music like ren does.

[@BigMikeReactions]

I really appreciate you sharing. These kind of comments are ones I take to heart ❤️ Stay strong and try to be positive. Music is a form of therapy for me & I hope it helps. Thank you for the support

[@davec4955]

Your pain comes through in your reaction. If you are in pain you need to share it , you can't keep it inside, it destroys you. Apart from Ren's physical problems he's also suffered the loss of people very close to him. He shares is loss and pain in some of his work, if he didn't he may not have made it himself and we will be poorer for it. Sorry for your loss mate 🙏

[@ceciliablackburn2827]

Sending a huge hug x

[@stevekeale4395]

Sorry for your loss. 😢

[@bern4556]

[@SandraP3796]

I went off my meds because I felt better and became a suicide survivor. I now religiously take them. I wish I was someone else in the morning just to have one day of no chronic pain. Thank you for sharing and I’m so sorry 😞.

[@BigMikeReactions]

Same to you. More stories like yours need to be shared. One of my guilts I still have is not sharing my mental health struggles I’ve had for many years because I didn’t want to burden my family with/ more of my issues. Now, I use it as a teaching tool to show that you are not alone. Might be a little late now but maybe not for someone else. Stay strong & know that if you are in a bad place…. Your temporary circumstance doesn’t have to be a permanent situation. Words I repeat everyday & comments like this make me so thankful I started this channel. A healthy therapeutic release for me. 🙏

[@SandraP3796]

@@BigMikeReactions For me, It was also hard to show the state I was in. I was a super Mom. My arm was damaged in a mountain bike race and my Health took a dive from there. Shortly afterwards My Dad died in my arms from a heart attack and a year later my Mom disappeared off my property and was only found 20 days later. I hit the deepest black hole but my Husband or 4 kids did not notice. Thank God I survived my suicide attempt because I hurt my kids badly. My Health is still bad and living with severe chronic pain is not fun. Ren makes my day happier. I hope your channel grows and grows. Hugs :)

[@pikewelfare]

Mike, you sound level compared to the track make you almost inaudible.

[@BigMikeReactions]

Noticed that when its on a TV. Still learning