The Antlers - Hospice (Full Album - Official Audio)

[@PsychoNada]

every night i am drunk and i go back to this album, every time i think of my twin sister. the unlucky one, dying from something that i never had. i think about how it should have been me, in the hospice, in the morgue, in the grave. but for some reason i was chosen to stay. perhaps so i can remember how beautiful and how truly awful she was, slowly dying before my eyes. someone with my face, wasting away. every time i think it was a mistake. i should have been the one to go. but still, i am here. a soul without a half. only there to remember her.

[@Shakeythemoil]

I lost my twin David to multiple cancers 8yrs ago this month. I just stumbled on these songs an hour ago. My brother was and is the Love of my life. And to watch him go from healthy and happy to skin on bones with large tumors in his abdominal region was horrible. I'm grateful that I was able to be with him to the last heart beat. I too drink nightly to stave off the dreams of he and I having conversations only to wake to he not being here. I pray that we both can heal and make a life our siblings would be proud of! God bless you!

[@Shakeythemoil]

P.S. : I love you for sharing! Thank you!

[@vjdakingable]

Just came in to say this is one of the best records I've ever heard. Truly one to come back to in 20 years time. While I'm writing this I'm reminded of what my Grandfather used to say about his favorite book, "Siddharta" by Hesse. He said that you could read it in every stage of your life and new aspects of the book would reveal themselves to you. No reading would be like the others. I feel the same here. Thank you.

[@zorkk2000]

i think its good but its over rated

[@Radioheader]

Well said

[@MrRiley-Is-Not-Amused]

Inspiring comment. Thanks.

[@bipolar-polar-bear-east9717]

Yeah who's to rate anything anyway?

[@elisotod9511]

@@zorkk2000 I don't think that, but i think that people should not just listen to this and listen to their other stuff, especially their second album, In the Attic of the Universe, IMO it's a better album than hospice

[@divineatrocity2441]

This album has helped me through so much. When I was four my mom got diagnosed with stage four breast cancer, so cancer was just something that I lived around a lot. Her cancer had gone into remission a few years back, but last year it went out of remission and we were sure she was gonna die. But we were wrong. Instead it was my dad who had lung cancer that wasn't caught until it was too late. I had to take care of him, lift him up just so he could drink. He went from a strong truck driver who handled fixing everything in the house to just skin and bones... This album really made it easier to get through, every night I would put it on and fall asleep. The day he died I was playing "wake" on guitar in my room. I miss him so much and I wish I could tell him how much he meant to me, even though I never showed it.

[@fabriziocaceres1327]

I'm so sorry for your loss...

[@Gringle_]

shuddup

[@willbutzer1967]

Ditto

[@Captain_Ogilvy]

I think you showed him through how much you helped him. It takes a lot to be there for people at their lowest and hardest points. It's messy, and hard and important.

[@viklepikle]

This is the only album that I've ever cried from.

[@waynec2376]

viklepikle a crow looked at me is suicidecore straight up

[@viklepikle]

Oh wow.

[@kirgizikable]

bruh moment right there

[@comedybearsfriendizesvan]

Huh, I'm not sure rather to laugh or not.

[@KeirThomas]

Same, and it gets me every single time.

[@krabiat]

The callback of "His/your face is up against yours/mine and you're/I'm too terrified to speak" is sooooo. Really drives home the point of Sylvia being a troubled and traumatised person and creating another troubled and traumatised person as a result.

[@yyyyyyyay]

For mobile users: Tracklist: 0:00 Prologue 2:34 Kettering 7:38 Sylvia 13:00 Atrophy 20:37 Bear 24:33 Thirteen 27:35 Two 33:27 Shiva 37:08 Wake 45:53 Epilogue

[@ronangough978]

MVP

[@Golgibaby]

This still hits deep in 2024. Cheers!

[@thevirtualjonathan1284]

A friend of mine just told me her old best friend is being moved to a hospice. She has cirrhosis and only family are allowed to visit. I have had the misfortune of knowing many people whose lives were cut short and it never gets easier. I never want to give up or lose empathy. I remember stumbling upon this album shortly after it's release, a dear friend and former lover had just passed away a couple months prior. This album reminds me of so many people now.

[@archimedesskullkrusher9752]

man, the way certain lines and melodies are repeated throughout the album tie it all together so well, thematically. the consistency of this album is so magnificent.

[@michaelb9260]

Bear hits so close to home it should be a crime. the guilt one feels after such a decision will weigh on them forever. Bear nails that feeling and describes it in vivid detail. Two is another spot on song. the emotions this album goes through are so raw and personal. truly an absolute masterpiece.

[@comedybearsfriendizesvan]

Couldn't have spoken those words any better myself.

[@sappho7278]

A masterpiece beyond words. This is the only album that comes close to, and could arguably beat, In the Aeroplane over the sea. The sadness, the beauty, the joy, the subject matter. The final track especially is so, so wonderful and haunting. It's an album as close to great literature I've heard, and melodies that are just as brilliant as the words they accompany. Sometimes it seems like an absolute miracle that such a work of art could come into existence. It makes you wonder how deeply someone had to feel to write this.

[@tonyrandall3146]

It is to me the greatest concept album of all time - better than Pink Floyd's The Wall.

[@TheCivildecay]

My wife just broke up with me and will leave me soon (taking our 2 kids with her)... this album is just what I need now.. The lines: "Tell me when you think that we became so unhappy Wearing silver rings with nobody clapping When we moved here together we were so disappointed Sleeping out of tune with our dreams disjointed" is so accurate that it kills me everytime...

[@shannonharvey8300]

And possibly all your fault.

[@camilrodriguezc]

Fucking Karen give the kids back you harlot

[@mattcrowley7867]

@@shannonharvey8300 twat

[@honestabe5153]

I hope you are doing alright now, friend.

[@g0dzilla_au]

@@shannonharvey8300 damn, you're kinda a piece of shit, huh?

[@ramenruu]

YOU GUYS NEED MORE RECOGNITION OH MY GOD THIS WERE THE BEST MINUTES IN MY LIFE.

[@josikinz]

oh boy, they finally made an album that makes me cry about my two biggest traumas simultaneously, an abusive relationship AND the death of a loved one via terminal illness. Thank you Antlers! ^_^

[@Chicken-ev1ln]

Epilogue and Sylvia really hit different after losing someone

[@KeirThomas]

Epilogue absolutely broke me after losing my mum to cancer.4 years on and the first 5 seconds ruin me.

[@anukigiorgelashvili79]

best discovery during covid19 isolation

[@bengalitucktuck]

Believe that shit homeboy

[@MG-mn7ig]

Ok, wow, didn't think I was gonna cry tonight. I always thought this album was specifically about losing to someone to illness. I guess that's the beauty of it, is we can all find ways to relate. Reading the lyrics, I cannot believe how much I relate in the sense of being in an abusive relationship. God damn. What a timeless record. I hope anybody who can relate to this album in anyway is able to find peace. We're all going through it, but that doesn't mean we can't support each other.

[@comedybearsfriendizesvan]

I know this isnt really my place to vent, being I saw some comments that were pretty upsetting. But I'd like to just say, the line, "The bone that had abused you" hit harder then how my dad would. I come here and play this nearly every night reminding myself of my past, through the sexual assaults too the suave abuse. And knowing how strong I was to make it ontop, half of the time I think the abuse I've gone through was nothing, being my mom and dad would always tell me, "My mom would've went way harder" just to put the hammer of guilt upon me. But, its songs like these that just open me up like a book, and allows me to just cry my pain out. I've never really vented to anyone, I avoided pills, therapy, being that after years of endless abuse and being put down everytime I tried fighting back. And not too long ago, I tried to take my own life. I've tried 3 times now, and well everytime I try, I just get flash backs and waves of guilt leading me to fail every single time, but to only step foot back on the chair. And wear my necklace of freedom. But I won't say too much being I still think what I've been through Isn't worse then having to take care of your mom and dad with cancer. Or being stuck with emotional abuse. Take care everyone. This road is rocky, but the wheels are only stronger on the flat end.

[@chimerasofhafgufa]

I hope you're doing well or at least still alive, but, like, y'know I hope about you in a caring way Your pain deserves to be, it's still just as valid as other's I've suffered through medical neglect, sexual, physical and of course emotional abuse done to me by my family On top of that, I was forced by circumstances to take care of my dying father and watch him go through all the stages of abuse that happens in my family To me, personally The death of the most loved person in my life was way easier to accept and live through than all the neglect and unjustice done to me and people I loved, I am fine with death to the point of trying to take my life dozens of times- I feel you. You deserve love and help like all of us do and I hope you'll get better.

[@tonyrandall3146]

it is soothing to cry with people - even if we cry for different things. The road to recovery is the road back to you and who you ought to be, and deserve.

[@Meeptian]

Hey. You are a living, breathing, work of art. Don’t give up on yourself and remember that your light is a star in the darkest night, inspiring all of us.

[@ZachGuajardo]

Thirteen Lyrics [Verse 1: Sharon Van Etten] Pull me out Pull me out Can't you stop this all from happening? Close the doors and keep them out [Verse 2: Sharon Van Etten & Peter Silberman] Dig me out Oh, dig me out Couldn't you have kept this all from happening? Dig me out from under our house

[@ZachGuajardo]

Kettering Lyrics [Verse 1] I wish that I had known in that first minute we met The unpayable debt that I owed you Because you'd been abused by the bone that refused you And you hired me to make up for that [Verse 2] Walking in that room when you had tubes in your arms Those singing morphine alarms out of tune Kept you sleeping and even, and I didn't believe them When they called you a hurricane thunderclap [Verse 3] When I was checking vitals, I suggested a smile You didn't talk for a while, you were freezing You said you hated my tone, it made you feel so alone And so you told me I ought to be leaving [Verse 4] But something kept me standing by that hospital bed I should have quit, but instead I took care of you You made me sleep and uneven, and I didn't believe them When they told me that there was no saving you [Instrumental Outro]

[@ZachGuajardo]

Two Lyrics [Verse 1] In the middle of the night I was sleeping sitting up When a doctor came to tell me, "Enough is enough." He brought me out into the hall, I could have sworn it was haunted And told me something that I didn't know that I wanted: To hear that there was nothing that I could do to save you The choir's gonna sing, and this thing is gonna kill you Something in my throat made my next words shake And something in the wires made the light-bulbs break There was glass inside my feet and raining down from the ceiling It opened up the scars that had just finished healing It tore apart the canyon running down your femur I thought that it was beautiful, it made me a believer And as it opened I could hear you howling from your room But I hid out in the hall until the hurricane blew When I reappeared and tried to give you something for the pain You came to hating me again and just sang your refrain: [Chorus] You had a new dream, it was more like a nightmare You were just a little kid, and they cut your hair Then they stuck you in machines, you came so close to dying They should have listened, they thought that you were lying Your daddy was an asshole and he fucked you up Built the gears in your head, now he greases them up And no one paid attention when you just stopped eating "Eighty-seven pounds!" and this all bears repeating [Verse 2] Tell me when you think that we became so unhappy Wearing silver rings with nobody clapping When we moved here together we were so disappointed Sleeping out of tune with our dreams disjointed It killed me to see you getting always rejected But I didn't mind the things you threw, the phones I deflected I didn't mind you blaming me for your mistakes I just held you in the door-frame through all of the earthquakes But you packed up your clothes in that bag every night I would try to grab your ankles, what a pitiful sight But after over a year, I stopped trying to stop you from stomping out that door Coming back like you always do [Bridge] Well no one's gonna fix it for us, no one can You say that "No one's gonna listen, no one understands." And so there's no open doors, there's no way to get through There's no other witnesses, just us two [Verse 3] There's two people living in one small room From your two half-families tearing at you Two ways to tell the story, no one worries Two silver rings on our fingers in a hurry Two people talking inside your brain Two people believing that I'm the one to blame Two different voices coming out of your mouth While I'm too cold to care and too sick to shout [Chorus] Had a new dream, it was more like a nightmare You were just a little kid, and they cut your hair Then they stuck you in machines, you came so close to dying They should have listened, they thought that you were lying Your daddy was an asshole and he fucked you up Built the gears in your head, now he greases them up And no one paid attention when you just stopped eating "Eighty-seven pounds!" and this all bears repeating

[@KevinBurke88]

this album is badass

[@Radioheader]

This album is brilliant

[@Zakum]

absolutely phenomenal album

[@ZachGuajardo]

Wake Lyrics [Verse 1] With the door closed, shades drawn, the world shrinks Let's open up those blinds But someone has to sweep the floor, pick up her dirty clothes That job's not mine Now that everyone's an enemy, my heart sinks Let's put away those claws I don't blame them for their curtain calls 'cause I pulled the rope I want to call them back out for applause [Verse 2] Spring and Thompson on the first of May is horrible We hid in catacombs So now I'm sleeping next to mouse traps in a bed of all our clothes While I hope that she won't come home It was easier to lock the door and kill the phones Than to show my skin Because the hardest thing is never to repent for someone else It's letting people in [Verse 3] Well, you can come inside, unlock the door, take off your shoes But this might take all night To explain to you, I would have walked out those sliding doors But the timing never seemed right When your helicopter came and tried to lift me out I put its rope around my neck And after that you didn't bother with the airlift or the rescue You knew just what to expect [Verse 4] That with the door closed, shades drawn, we're dead enough They don't open from outside And someone has to speak with their teeth behind their tongue To never let that right be denied We can't rely on photographs and visitation time But I just don't know where to begin I want to bust down the door if you're willing to forgive I've got the keys, I'm letting people in [Instrumental Interlude] [Outro] Don't be scared to speak, don't speak with someone's tooth Don't bargain when you're weak, don't take that sharp abuse Some patients can't be saved, but that burden's not on you Don't ever let anyone tell you you deserve that Don't ever let anyone tell you you deserve that Don't ever let anyone tell you you deserve that Don't ever let anyone tell you you deserve that Don't ever let anyone tell you you deserve that Don't ever let anyone tell you you deserve that Don't ever let anyone tell you you deserve that Don't ever let anyone tell you you deserve that

[@ZachGuajardo]

Sylvia Lyrics [Verse 1] Please curtains in Start us off, you swing first Sorry, I don't know what I said, but you're crying now again And that only makes it worse [Pre-Chorus] Let me do my job Let me do my job [Chorus] Sylvia, get your head out of the oven Go back to screaming and cursing Remind me again how everyone betrayed you Sylvia, get your head out of the covers Let me take your temperature You can throw the thermometer right back at me If that's what you want to do, okay? [Verse 2] Please, please calm down Steady out, I'm terrified Sorry, I want us to ally, but you swing on little knives They're only sharp on one side [Pre-Chorus] Let me do my job And let me do my job [Chorus] Sylvia, get your head out of the oven Go back to screaming and cursing Remind me again how everyone betrayed you Sylvia, get your head out of the covers Let me take your temperature You can throw the thermometer right back at me If that's what you want to do, okay? [Outro] Sylvia, can't you see what you are doing? Can't you see I'm scared to speak And I hate my voice 'cause it only makes you angry Sylvia, I only talk when you are sleeping That's when I tell you everything And I imagine that somehow you're going to hear me

[@ZachGuajardo]

Epilogue Lyrics [Verse 1] In a nightmare, I am falling from the ceiling into bed beside you You're asleep, I'm screaming, shoving you to try to wake you up And like before, you've got no interest in the life you live when you're awake Your dreams still follow storylines like fictions you would make So I lie down against your back until we're both back in the hospital But now it's not a cancer ward, we're sleeping in the morgue Men and women in blue and white, they are singing all around you With heavy shovels holding earth, you're being buried to your neck In that hospital bed, being buried quite alive now I'm trying to dig you out but all you want is to be buried there together [Chorus] You're screaming And cursing And angry And hurting me And then smiling And crying Apologizing [Verse 2] I've woken up, I'm in our bed, but there's no breathing body there beside me Someone must have taken you while I was stuck asleep But I know better as my eyes adjust, you've been gone for quite a while now And I don't work there in the hospital, they had to let me go When I try to move my arms sometimes, they weigh too much to lift I think you buried me awake, my one and only parting gift But you return to me at night just when I think I may have fallen asleep Your face is up against mine, and I'm too terrified to speak [Chorus] You're screaming And cursing And angry And hurting me And then smiling And crying Apologizing You're screaming And cursing And angry And hurting me And then smiling And crying Apologizing You're screaming And cursing And angry And hurting me And then smiling And crying Apologizing

[@ZachGuajardo]

Shiva Lyrics [Intro] Suddenly every machine stopped at once And the monitors beeped the last time Hundreds of thousands of hospital beds And all of them empty but mine [Verse 1] Well, I was lying down with my feet in the air Completely unable to move The bed was misshapen, and awkward and tall And clearly intended for you [Verse 2] You checked yourself out when you put me to bed And tore that old band off your wrist But you came back to see me for a minute or less And left me your ring in my fist [Verse 3] My hair started growing, my face became yours My femur was breaking in half The sensation was scissors and too much to scream So instead I just started to laugh [Outro] Suddenly every machine stopped at once And the monitors beeped the last time Hundreds of thousands of hospital beds And all of them empty but mine

[@wilburwj90]

you guys are way to underrated!!!!

[@ZachGuajardo]

Bear Lyrics [Verse 1] There's a bear inside your stomach A cub's been kicking from within He's loud, though without vocal cords We'll put an end to him We'll make all the right appointments No one ever has to know And then tomorrow I'll turn twenty-one We'll script another show We'll play charades up in the Chelsea Drink champagne although you shouldn't be We'll be blind and dumb until we fall asleep None of our friends will come, they dodge our calls And they have for quite awhile now It's not a shock, you don't seem to mind And I just can't see how [Chorus] We're too old We're not old at all Just too old We're not old at all [Verse 2] There's a bear inside your stomach A cub's been kicking you for weeks And if this isn't all a dream Well then we'll cut him from beneath Well we're not scared of making caves Or finding food for him to eat We're terrified of one another And terrified of what that means But we'll make only quick decisions And you'll just keep me in the waiting room And all the while I'll know we're fucked And not getting un-fucked soon When we get home we're bigger strangers Than we've ever been before You sit in front of snowy television Suitcase on the floor [Chorus] We're too old We're not old at all Just too old We're not old at all [Outro] Just too old We're not old at all Just too old We're not old at all Just too old We're not old at all Just too old We're not old at all

[@bipolar-polar-bear-east9717]

Atrophy is really good

[@kimbosan1]

I loved this album but listening to it after breaking up from not so happy relationship still feeling a lot of guilt and grief, it hits different. Too much even

[@valentinefabre2971]

Merci Sense 8 !

[@ashishraj9866]

Yeah Sense 8 helped us find Kettering, so much grateful

[@marinfrancois7195]

merci

[@Meeptian]

This album encompasses my first 8 year relationship experience to an alcoholic. To those who resonate with the “unsaveable” side, just remember that it takes time and the right people who understand you. Don’t give up on yourself just because one person doesn’t get you. You are worth it and you are good enough.

[@brendavizcarra7836]

Gracias a dios los volví a encontrar

[@joserenansantosleite794]

This is the fucking album of my LIFE. ♡

[@MrRiley-Is-Not-Amused]

Underrated af

[@bipolar-polar-bear-east9717]

Oh Thanks a lot.

[@ZachGuajardo]

Atrophy Lyrics [Verse 1] You've been living a while in the front of my skull making orders You've been writing me rules, shrinking maps and redrawing borders I've been repeating your speeches, but the audience just doesn't follow Because I'm leaving out words, punctuation, and it sounds pretty hollow I've been living in bed because now you tell me to sleep I've been hiding my voice and my face, and you decide when I eat In your dreams I'm a criminal, horrible, sleeping around While you're awake, I'm impossible, constantly letting you down [Verse 2] Little porcelain figurines, glass bullets you shoot at the wall Threats of castration for crimes you imagine when I miss your call With the bite of the teeth of that ring on my finger, I'm bound to your bedside, your eulogy singer I'd happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself [Instrumental Interlude] [Outro] Someone, oh, anyone, tell me how to stop this She's screaming, expiring, and I'm her only witness I'm freezing, infected, and rigid in that room inside her No one's gonna come as long as I lay still in bed beside her Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh

[@dannielle749]

Algum Brasileiro ai???

[@joker4real14.88]

Ультрамегахарош

[@jinamatcharia8027]

9:23

[@stusis]

#2019

[@thekidfromcastlerock3891]

Lvl me mate 2020 :p

[@thekidfromcastlerock3891]

@Dante Snyder swagalicious *cringes* :)

[@thekidfromcastlerock3891]

@Dante Snyder i respond to you 'live' while listening to snl boys dance party lol :p 'eclectic' taste Also, me commenting 'swagalicious' on this vid will be one of my 'life moments' i see flash before my eyes lol :)

[@thekidfromcastlerock3891]

@Dante Snyder Good wishes to you friend :) was good to interact with a nice person on the internet for once :)

[@thekidfromcastlerock3891]

truly this is a boy dance party (I need to get a sex change first but whatever) :D

[@gscodeseeker]

I know why this album was written; I just cut my arm tag; coroner called it. Unfortunately for them Im a repeat customer. Love and life are both a complex clusterfuck of awful to deal with sometimes.

[@ZachGuajardo]

Atrophy Lyrics [Verse 1] You've been living a while in the front of my skull making orders You've been writing me rules, shrinking maps and redrawing borders I've been repeating your speeches, but the audience just doesn't follow Because I'm leaving out words, punctuation, and it sounds pretty hollow I've been living in bed because now you tell me to sleep I've been hiding my voice and my face, and you decide when I eat In your dreams I'm a criminal, horrible, sleeping around While you're awake, I'm impossible, constantly letting you down [Verse 2] Little porcelain figurines, glass bullets you shoot at the wall Threats of castration for crimes you imagine when I miss your call With the bite of the teeth of that ring on my finger, I'm bound to your bedside, your eulogy singer I'd happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself [Instrumental Interlude] [Outro] Someone, oh, anyone, tell me how to stop this She's screaming, expiring, and I'm her only witness I'm freezing, infected, and rigid in that room inside her No one's gonna come as long as I lay still in bed beside her Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh