from full-time influencer to a full-time job (yes, a 9-5)

howdy y'all, thanks for stopping by for a chat :-)

[@aryelle7396]

Honestly getting a 9 to 5 pretty much saved me. It got me the daily structure my life desperately needed.

[@dannyllerenatv8635]

Working a 9-5 over the last several years is probably one of the few things that has kept. me from falling into a deep deep depression.

[@PurplePower71]

You’re so fucking real for this and a breath of fresh air. I was in a similar position as you a few years ago where I was freelancing and basically making no money because I was too depressed to make myself work. I made the decision to get a 9-5 when I thought I’d never do it. Starting that job honestly saved me, I needed that stability! I did the 9-5 for about a year until I started getting the itch for a job with a bigger purpose and started selling my art at markets and teaching art at a local studio and as a travel art teacher in schools. I never would have gotten to this point if I didn’t get that job to get me back on stable ground. So hold on, keep doing what you’re doing and find your footing. There’s no rush. Your higher purpose is forming right in front of you and you are following each step exactly as intended 🤍🤍🤍 so proud of you!!!! I thought of you last week &, I checked your channel and hoped you were doing okay, so I am relieved to see this video.

[@rachelrandolph2579]

I'm in such a similar position right now! I have a great 9-5 and supportive bosses as well as a crochet business that I bring to local markets. I feel so fulfilled and life finally is starting to feel stable. I'm so glad she posted this and gave us all a glimpse into a normal life.

[@basicallyreese]

thank u 🥹💗

[@samiabamia]

Curious are you still ina. 9-5 or back to being your own boss

[@juliannaazevedo1892]

Girl is the 25 brain kicking in! I swear something literally changes in your brain and you see your life a whole different way! Hope everything keeps getting better for you ❤✨️

[@isabellevogel900]

yeahh!! The pre frontal cortex is likely finished developing which explains the change :)

[@itssabrinaaaaaa]

I’m still waiting for it to kick in😅. I’m turning 26 this September and I’ve been spiraling since I turned 25 last year. Send help lol

[@spacebar9733]

@@itssabrinaaaaaa 25 is the youngest age. But for some people, especially men, it won’t stop until age 30ish or something in between 25-30.

[@bubblezzxxd15]

I felt myself become a different person on my 27th birthday. I wonder if it's just me (and my brother I talked to about this) the older you get the more sure you are of who you are? I know it makes sense, but it was still surprising to me 😅

[@mckenziejeanne4508]

I think it’s great that you got a full-time job! Working full time has been really good for my mental health and I hope that’s the same case for you! ☺️

[@ANeal-gq5qz]

we love you bestie! as a 33 year old, it DEFINITELY gets better after 25!!!

[@adelondrasova]

to be honest after dropping out of college i was stuck in a consistent 3 year long depressive episode, literally rotting away and getting a 9-5 literally saved my life and my mental health !! it seems counterintuitive, because i was used to having like a 3 month long periods of doing practically nothing but the structure, routine and real responsibility keeps my head above the ground. hopefully it helps you as well !! wishing the best for you and hopefully you will still make videos on here or tiktok too !!

[@lindsaypatterson8395]

i've been going through a depressive episode and if it weren't for my full time job, i would have absolutely crumbled. having that job and pay consistency and security sincerely saved me. congrats!

[@MissieK]

Having a full time that forces you to do things is life saving. I know we glorify freelancing and working from home and not having a schedule. But it's so helpful to have structure in your day. To know that these hours are working hours so if i want to sulk and cry i have to do it before and after it. It forces you to work, get a schedule in sleep, gym, eat which are important and when you go through a depressive episode you tend to ignore them. Also..I love watching creators with an actual job. I just love it. It's so much closer to how people live and how we all deal with life.

[@bubblezzxxd15]

Also the income! You know if you go to work you're guaranteed to make money, and that's one less thing to worry about

[@tan261]

This is actually really inspiring to me. I recently was told I wasn’t well enough to work but been unemployed makes me feel so awful & isolated. I want to be well enough so seeing you able to push yourself and hold down a steady job gives me hope that I can get there. Thank you and keep thriving lovely

[@basicallyreese]

wishing you lots of luck and love!

[@gusg.5916]

Congrats Reese. Finding a job that you love with people you love, that is living the dream. 😊

[@sylvielafleur]

i love my 9-5. It has saved me in every possible way. It gets me out of bed, forces to take care of myself and be responsible. Ppl who hate on 9-5 just dont get it sometimes.

It's not body dysmorphia. It's depersonalization, girl.

[@emilialurig]

Im so happy for you reese. I was scared that you were depressed or that something happend. But im happy you are working, that would help you a lot Sending you lots of love from Argentina ! I have been watching your videos since 2015 so i feel like i grew up with you !

[@oneezashenara]

Omg Reese !!!! I MISSED YOUUU ❤ Always coming to ur channel to check whether a video is up 🥹❤

[@Dominika3458]

I honestly feel this video so much. I struggle with depression and anxiety a lot and I personally feel like my 9-5 is such a good distraction most of the time and it forces me to keep a routine and it’s honestly keeping me above water most days. So your video is so real and relatable. I absolutely love that you have a job that you love with people that you like! ❤

[@AlyssaRenee116]

one thing i always love about reese is how she talks about the fact that depressive episodes or Dark Days are reoccurring. they don't just happen once or twice, they keep happening if you have depression. makes me feel less alone for struggling so often

[@kelseyedwards7931]

I can imagine it being so worth it if you get a job you love! I hate my job so I hate the 9-5. 😅

[@CarterSullivan]

Love this for you!! I honestly LOVE the balance of doing content creation and working my 9-5. It's been great for my mental health to have routine for my depression/anxiety!!

[@starm1nt]

i have never felt so seen. i struggle with the same issues. from the body dysmorphia to the instability and identity issues. thank you for talking about this ❤️❤️❤️ thank you thank you thank you i feel so much less crazy knowing someone else goes through the same thing

[@luisadilanda9848]

Hi Reese!! @basicallyreese How are you? Hope I'm not bothering you but since you keep talking about these depressive episodes that come and go and based on all that you said on your videos, I was thinking have you ever considered that you might have ADHD? On your video "am I going to be mentally ill forever" I thought many symptoms checked out and I saw in the comments that it wasn't only me thinking that... I hope I'm not crossing any boundaries with these comments but I discovered having PMDD thanks to you and feel obliged to at least suggest it so that you can see for yourself if you might have it or not, kinda to return the favor. Btw love your videos, you're amazing and I hope you can feel better and better ❤

[@luisadilanda9848]

If you are interested you can look up "ADHD in adult women" because the symptoms a lot of the times present differently in men and women

[@basicallyreese]

i've asked my psychiatrist about ADHD and she doesn't think I have it, rather just bad major depressive disorder that puts me into these long episodes

[@luisadilanda9848]

I'm glad that you could have the opinion of a professional, and I hope the best for you ❤, you truly are amazing and thank you for your videos, you are a breath of fresh air

[@jonathanbrown6751]

Did you need to sneeze? 😂 looked like you had to but you were trying so hard not to

[@sammyfigs]

I’m so happy for you!!! Now content creation can be your creative outlet and can be more of a fulfillment/relax thing instead of something you HAVE to do to survive. I feel like following trends and having to track views/revenue must be so exhausting for creators.

[@basicallyreese]

yeah i have a hard time following trends that i'm not interested in and it's hard to get videos out into the algorithm that aren't following what's popular - i love making videos, but my own style is not what's gonna bring in the full time income lol

[@Uhhit67]

I do not think you are describing body dysmorphia rather dpdr- depersonalization derealiazation, it is a form of dissociation, am sending support your way, know how difficult it can all be, you totally got this!

[@GringoLoco1980]

I'm curious, do your worst episodes happen around the same time each year? I understand a lot of how you feel and how you describe your episodes. You're not alone.

[@angelicavlogs7724]

you're are an important person

[@Sydneyfc77]

Influencers don’t even influence anything

[@12lovelyfe]

I clicked on your page so quick, I feel your page is always genuine, realistic and good vibes. Always stay true to your self beautiful.💗 I know this world can be tough, do what you need to. Mental health is everything & self care ✨🥰🌷

[@bubblezzxxd15]

I think what you described, about looking in the mirror, is actually dissociation. But don't be alarmed! If it is, what youre doing to make yourself feel better now is treating it ❤

[@simran6382]

girl, im soooooooo happyy at this point of yours, hoping you have a fantastic birthday ahead

[@samanthaholland3136]

People don’t understand when I say my brain runs too fast so my 9-5 gives me a sense of peace. The autopilot dulls my brain and it’s incredible.

[@mansoor3159]

Yayyyy!! Finally Finally After a Long Long time Reese is back with a another new vlog and I really really missed your vlogs so so much and I wish you have a blessed weekend🥹🥹💖

[@ashleyf450]

Thank you for showing us the other side of influencing. I feel like a lot of us 9-5ers are being sold this “dream” of being your own boss, but it’s not necessarily for everyone. Especially those who struggle with mental health where structure is beneficial 😊

[@hunterlecole226]

i can honestly say that my 9-5 helps me so much. it gives me a set schedule and i can freely know how it’s going to go and when to play all my fun time. you’re such a fresh breath of air for being so raw and honest. i am so incredibly proud of you.

[@MeuTomdePINK]

I recommend you look into depersonalization and derealization, makes you feel more “normal” and real to know that there’s a name and more people that feel what you mentioned as dysmorphia.

[@sarahkay923]

Hey what your talking about at 11:00 sounds like derealisation or depersonalization, its a mental health side effect worth researching!

[@Uhhit67]

yessss, thought the same, just commented it

[@ShannMarie33]

I'm so glad you're doing better! Congrats on the full-time job, that's super awesome! I've had a similar realization in the past that my job, for better or worse, is a really important structure for keeping me anchored to live the rest of my life. I'm proud of you for the steps you've taken and I hope things stay good for you!

[@ambertaryn]

So happy to hear this update! I’m glad things are looking up for you! Happy early birthday🎉.

[@meg659]

I personally could never work from home even though I have social anxiety and am introverted. I need to be around other people and have some sort of structure forced upon me by other people. I don’t know how people can work from home and make their own schedules. My brain just doesn’t work that way, lol.

[@ashboo28]

I'm glad you're doing better right now and I hope it continues! I always come by and check so it's so nice to see you in my feed today.

[@the100kphotographer]

I got a 9-5 after going through a rough depression as well. The routine was needed!

[@iCeleste7]

Girl, good for you!!! I am proud of you for making this lifestyle change and being vulnerable enough to share. You’re doing great, friend!

[@morgaanfoley]

oh boyyyyy. I am a mentally ill girly who suddenly blew up on social media as i was graduating collage and have never worked a regular job. this video spoke to my soul. this is the first video of yours that i have seen but wow i think we are the same person. thank you for making this video

[@ManicMaidenASMR]

I am mentally ill/part time failed creator 😂 KZbin wasn’t doing it for me anymore and I’ve been having writers block. Online university is one of the only things keeping me going. Been in a slump lately

[@muffin800]

The mirror thing sounds like depersonalisation which I first started having during my first depressive episode. It is very uncomfortable but there are some rare but good resources out there that really helped me. Sending love 🧡

[@kellyj817]

Miss your videos soooo much. You've always been my favorite/comfort KZbinr so having you take bigger breaks has been so sad :( Please post more if you're able? I hope you're well ❤❤

[@sophia.povedano]

Reese

[@Ar13888]

So glad to see a new video from you, I really missed you! Happy to hear you’re feeling better and finally getting some sleep (I have very similar sleep issues so I relate so much). I have a 9@5 and the structure of it is actually really helpful for my mental health. I don’t know why people always critique it. It can actually be a great type of work when you need the money and if your coworkers are nice and you like what you’re doing 💝

[@basicallyreese]

sleep issues are so hard I hope we find some answers girl 🤝🏻

[@dreamsatnight]

This randomly popped up on my timeline and was so soothing to watch. Been struggling with the same shit and can relate to how getting a new job just put me right back where I needed to function in life without constantly failing at it on my own. Also, this is something I've been doing to become kinder to myself, is seeing my brain as a best friend who is looking out for me rather than an enemy trying to tear me down. If I feel tired after work and need a nap, I tell myself it's fine to just take a nap or drink coffee in peace without rushing to a hobby or chore right away. Try cutting yourself some slack on some of the things you're struggling with atm - you're already doing great as is :)

[@Seolhwaneul]

OH YOU'RE BACK OMG We missed you soooo much ❤

[@e4rth4ngel]

you're the most relatable person on youtube for me & i'm so sorry😭body dysmorphia (especially your experience) & constant depressive episodes are such horrible things to go through. so glad you're feeling better, keep doing what works for you and don't forget to treat yourself gently when you're going through it

[@adriannabrewer4686]

Never been this early 😮 love you always Reese

[@yourfavoritetiktokers4112]

Have you tried antidepressants Hun? I am 23 and i had severe anxiety and ptsd and deepression and i started taking lexapro (10 mg) and it literally changed my life!!!! I dont know if you maybe take medications but whether u do or not i would rly advice you to ask a doctor for this specific medicine and see. Hope to see you get out of this shell because deepression is HELL

[@sophiahamdan7866]

Please post vlogs and routines like you use to do back in the day. Have been watching you since u were in high school 🏫😊.

[@gobunny8268]

I've missed your content but so glad you were able to take some time for yourself and are feeling a bit better! I'm a huge mental health advocate and I love how open and vulnerable you are (not that you owe anyone your story). I'm proud of you and happy for you that you are enjoying your job!

[@mayteornelas566]

Ahhhh it’s so nice to see you again! I’m glad you are doing better remember to always give yourself grace we’ll be cheering for you no matter what ❤

[@thephamilybusiness9485]

I HIGHLY recommend the Maximum Ride series if you’d like to branch out with reading, books not the manga

[@glassclaws]

super glad to see you doing well!!

[@skylarmattheney389]

Thanks for the life update! Honestly I was getting a bit worried. As a long time subscriber, I know you sometimes stopped posting due to mental health and this time was really long! And I do remember you talking about money struggles before then too and I was worried about you supporting yourself. You are literally one of my favorite KZbinrs so I was like if I had the ability, I would totally pay each month on patreon literally without extra content. So I was so happy to hear you got a job you really enjoy and is giving life to your life essentially! And working with people you actually enjoy is huge. As someone who has always wanted to work for myself, because I prefer being alone and the flexibility and struggle mental health myself, I have actually been thinking about whether I need to find a job with stable hours and income too. As I’ve gotten older and still struggling at 23 (almost 24!) to find something that I love enough that will get me out of bed and make me excited about life, I’ve been wondering if the stable income and the force to work specific hours might actually be the answer. Thank you for sharing that transition, as I always see the other way round. So happy to see you again!! ❤

[@basicallyreese]

💗💗💗

[@sj4761]

@basicallyreese holy shit how much our mental brains are the same fuckery! I either have days with optimism and stupidly smiling and happy, or literally bed rotting wondering what the point of anything is. Also the face dismorphia: i cant believe you also experience that, i tbought i was the only one! I literally look at my face sometimes and trip out that it's me, my face. Your videos have WORTH especially when you share so candidly. You make mental gals like me feel less alone. I appreciate you and know that you are contributing to the world in a positive way.

[@gemmagilmore8090]

i’ve been watching you since you were living at your parents and shipt shopping and i am so proud of you :) i also deal with depression and it’s so comforting to watch an “influencer” who is so real and deals with the same struggles ❤

[@emma-fy1xi]

hey! i dont know if that's entirely body dysmorphia, i think it's dissociating straight up. i get that too

[@monib6188]

I suffer from the same issue…. I’m still struggling with it even after getting into a new manager job too……. It’s stressful and sometimes I dread it….. I may have made a mistake 😬

[@bizarrecharizard]

miss u bestie, hope you are doing well

[@amengrock]

FIRST!!! I MISSED YOU!!!!

[@hannah-vv9ru]

reese, i've been watching your videos since about 2018 (i think) but i haven't always been consistent. I decided to watch this video just on a whim and i feel really inspired. I recently graduated from college about a month ago and it's been really frustrating applying to jobs bc it feels like i'm not good enough but you really inspired me to go for a job that's more in my range. thank you for being you.

[@MeditationWithAmber]

So happy to hear that you’re doing well ❤ wishing you peace and calm in this new chapter! You deserve it.

[@영-x6r3m]

thank you for sharing this!! currently I’m going thru something similar. Been out of job since Jan this year and it’s been so hard staying positive in this horrible job market. I hope the routine with a full time job (that’s not content creation) will help you in some way ❤

[@ratotilaura6408]

I’ve been watching your videos for so many years now, you are my comfort youtuber. Glad you are feeling better, missed you very much! So excited you’re posting again! 💜

[@caimbeauty9628]

Feel better reese! Congrats on both getting through your depression and believing in yourself! Don’t feel too ashamed to seek help. We ❤ you

[@morenasilvestroni]

So happy for and proud of you! I’m sure now content creation (when you feel like it) will be more fun because it won’t be your main thing

[@rociop44]

hey reese! hi, im a suscriber since about two years and you’ve been one of my favourite content creators of all time you’ve been with me in my mental health journey all along! i really feel conected with your journey and i have felt the same things so many times i think you are such a creative person and i relate maybe too much😅 i feel THE SAME about coffee, i really felt that i needed it to exist and do the bare minimum i’ve been recently diagnosed with inattentive adhd and i feel so much freedom now and i feel like maybe many of us as a comunity, may be neurodivergent… whats makes me wonder… maybe you could be too? im sorry because i think that maybe is a rough aproach, im argentinan and my english is not very good so im not very good at making a point🙃 you are SUCH a nice and amazing person and your content inspires me thank you reese for sharing little bits of your life and i wish you always the best❤️

[@lucyella626]

i have been a silent viewer for years but i wanted to say that i am proud of you reese! so happy for u ♥ you got this

[@Lala2lulu]

Omg how much did you make before u get a job?

[@BradMono-i3h]

Feel you there 😂have the things you go through

[@simonealyssa]

As a full time creator who has only been leaving my house to walk my dog, I feel this to my core. Proud of you for making a change that’s best for you!

[@loveIy_lucyy]

i love love listening to you talk! you should start a podcast!

[@Noah-yz7yx]

Getting hired literally saved my life when I found out my ex was cheating on me and I was having suici... thoughts . After finding about it, I would wake up and spend all day in the sofa with a bottle of cheap alcohol on the side trying to fall asleep without pills. When I took the job, I was forced to wake up take a shower and pretend that I was ok during the day. I ended up meeting wonderful people with whom I would laugh, even if it took a while to feel hapiness again. I still think about my ex every week, I still feel depressed from time to time, but that's how life goes. I'm not working there anymore, but I'm really grateful for the impact that it had in my life. If anyone needs to read this, it really gets better ♡

[@paigesom]

Reese, I've been following you for years, I don't even know how many. But as always, I so appreciate your authenticity and rawness. I'm so glad to see you again and really look forward to what you create. Wishing you all the best!!

[@kad0rr]

thank you for sharing your experience and being vulnerable on the internet. you cant believe how much it helps

[@nanawordie7967]

congrats on your job!! i definitely agree with you i do't think i could do a fully remote job because it'd lose my mind being inside all the time. i think this is why it's important for influencers to go to college/ have a passion outside of content because as you get older your goals might change and creating content might not be what you want to do long term

[@ak7940]

You;re so naturally pretty, I love the dark hair and features

[@lauren7429]

dog days are over 🗣️🗣️

[@myriamgagnon68]

You could call it the challenging Q1

[@dannyllerenatv8635]

As much as people can dog them at times, a 9-5 that you love can provide a much-needed structure and social environment. I also have just climbed out of a depressive episode. However, something that I have noted since starting my career a few years ago is that I still remain functional during depressive episodes. It can make a huge difference. After all, sometimes we simply need to do what we must!

[@Maroon58]

I was just thinking that I hadn’t seen any of your videos for a long time. Glad you are doing well! Starting part time and going full time was so smart!

[@dianagorobets7209]

Would you consider doing a 9-5 morning routine or evening routine?

[@basicallyreese]

maybe at some point :-)

[@Chrisjb8583]

I can relate to what you're saying about things like depression and anxiety and the insomnia and the burnout from posting videos on a regular basis. I have taken a step back from posting videos for a little bit. But come September I will have been working at my job for a year and i also like my job and the people I work with. It does me good to get out of the house and break up the monotony of things. Anyway sorry for the long rant but I felt like sharing my thoughts and I'm glad that you have found something that helps you deal with everything and I'm glad you found something that makes you happy and keep up the good work 👍🙂.

[@rhi963]

can you give some tips on how to find an easy higherish paying 9-5? indeed is not indeeding for me anymore 😂

[@rhi963]

also I LOVE the black hair

[@seraphicus9831]

no fr. i had a bad depressive episode during high school and when i graduated i got a full time job for a year and going to work and therapy were the only things i did. had i not needed to go to work every day i would have actually rotted away in bed every day. that dumbass job that required very little skill and thinking might have actually saved my life lmfao

[@seraphicus9831]

im in my second year of uni now and i‘m doing a lot better but it‘s still rough sometimes tbh

[@seraphicus9831]

i‘m so happy for you!!

[@starfish0607]

As someone just coming out of a 8 month long depressive episode, thank you. I'm so proud of us

[@lauren7429]

dog days are over 🗣️🗣️

[@kxmii]

oh girl there’s so much I wanna say! What a lovely surprise to see a new video! Thank you for sharing this

[@mandeepkaurtamber55]

Listening to u feels like listening to someone talking about myself. Keep going girl.

[@santanalikesbanana6304]

Come back 😢❤

[@jadelouise8032]

I have been subscribed to you for so many years, despite being my favourite comfort KZbinr you’re also nothing short of a complete breath of fresh air. You’re so real. So honest and you help more people than you know ❤

[@_lilly347]

I miss youu

[@obscuraxxxx]

No idea who you are but you describing my sleep schedule makes me mad as I am sipping a natural energy drink and I am a coffee person... I wake every hour or so most nights, it's so irritating. ;A; Glad your job is giving you stability! I had to quit my bad job a month ago, I'm taking some time to study but I definitely miss making money so I'm thinking of trying to find a part time job to keep me going.

[@pixelspaws]

you’re so funny and i don’t feel this way about people i see on the internet a lot

[@annah.3532]

girl, we're literally in the same damn timeline. i felt like absolute shit in the months leading up to my 25th birthday in december and the last 6 months since then have probably been THE months in which my whole outlook on life just.. changed. i always just though "yah, right", whenever I heard people talk about the changes you go through mentally when you're around 25, but damn. it's so true.

[@violetchan8129]

Hi Reese. I have no idea if you mentioned this before but have you ever tried TMS for depression? I have treatment resistant depression and I’m currently going through the treatment. While I can’t personally report on if it’s effective or not because it’s still early I’ve heard many good reviews on it for those with trd. Congrats on the new job btw! :)

[@elsaturcios9567]

ILY Reese 🥺 I’ve watched you since we were both 16 and I feel like I’ve gotten to know you over the last few years . Idk if this means you’ll quit KZbin but the thought makes me so sad . But I’ll always support no matter what makes you happy. I , too have gone through mental health issues, including a few attempts. The only thing that really has helped get me out of it was to follow the word of god. It felt soo freeing and I stopped feeling so alone . I’m not here to advocate for Christianity bc I myself am no where near perfect but suggesting what helped me and thousands others in the world. I know your beliefs are different but looking out for god never harmed anyone . It might be the peace of mind you’ve been looking for . Take care and ily ❤