Gay guy falls in love with a straight guy... our story

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[@jorgeoquendo7514]

"Gay falls for straight guy"? So a regular day of the week?

[@theuglypaulus]

jorge oquendo i am falling in love with my straight friend and honestly it’s really hard conditioning

[@jorgeoquendo7514]

@@theuglypaulus It's a bitch, all the way through. I fell for my best friend and even told him, but he was straight so... we're still best friends, he was accepting of everything.

[@KnowTrentTimoy]

@@jorgeoquendo7514 One of the cardinal rules of a gay male is to NEVER EVER get involved with a straight dude. It's a NO-WIN proposition. The one that ALWAYS ends up getting hurt is the gay guy. I can't imagine being in a secret relationship with a "straight" dude and giving him head once or twice a week and him giving you NOTHING except an assurance that his dick will ALWAYS be available for your mouth (or ass). Sorry chump.....Next stop: getting it on with an ACTUAL GAY DUDE.

[@jorgeoquendo7514]

@@KnowTrentTimoy Yeah, exactly...

[@BrianTerada]

@@KnowTrentTimoy Yeah that would be a pretty unhealthy dynamic for sure. Fortunately, Ryan and I weren't involved like that. We were just friends and I had feelings. It took a long time but I finally was able to tell him how I felt. Over a long period of time and with a lot of conversations, I was able to get over him and now we are still able to be friends today. That wouldn't be the case for everyone, just our story though. But yes I agree- if you're gay, try to never fall for a straight guy!!

[@danielc4267]

When I came out and confess my feelings to my straight best bud, it got awkward and we stopped talking for two days. Afterwards he came to me and we had a good talk. We are still best buds to this day. I was in studying at UT Austin back then.

[@haintedhouse3052]

i was in a band for two years before i came out to them. i was afraid of causing tension but they were glad i did - we got along better than ever and were together for 4 more years, much more relaxed and having honest fun instead of me always having fake girlfriends.

[@ScribblebytesWorldwide]

Yeah it's always good to have "the talk"!

[@proudexmuslim2354]

@@haintedhouse3052 you guys can be good friends with me even though i am straight.gay people are nice and caring

[@RSSaha-ly1zz]

When you know he's straight, why did you even confess him... Its obvious it's weird for him

[@MattNelson-do4sc]

Yes! The talk although can be difficult it will set you free

[@marcusmagnificus1984]

I remember a few years back, I mustered all my courage to write a letter of confession to the guy I've been secretly pining for seven years. It was unrequited and painful. A year later he was shot and didn't make it. I was devastated. I was relieved somehow that at least I was able to tell him my thoughts and feelings. I didn't regret it. Lesson: In love, we become vulnerable due to the possibility of rejection but I got tell you it's worth taking the risk. Don't wait too long to tell that person that you love him or her, if it's unrequited then you can start moving on and heal. If it becomes mutual, then you're the happiest person on earth.

[@michaelmartel]

The thing about this is that straight guys are roughly 90% of the male population and gay guys are roughly 10% of males. Taking this into consideration, gay men will find themselves being attracted to straight men much more often than they would be to other gay men. It's a matter of proportion. This is a dilemma that can't be avoided.

[@TimeIdle]

Exactly. It's part of the rite of passage for most gay people. Also love should be authentic with young people. You should only love the one who you are close to and best friends with, not not through browsing Grindr and Tinder. It's confusing, but it's not something to be ashamed over.

[@jameslaney3608]

I truly think its the other way around. 90 gay 10 straight. The only thing is 80% of the gay men will never come out and 50% will never have the courage to do anything about it. just live a miserable life and make there wife as miserable as they are. so sad!!!

[@Sean-dl8ym]

gay men make up closer to 1-3% of the population. The 10% number has always been a myth!

[@michaelmartel]

@@Sean-dl8ym Where are you getting these figures? Don't call something a "myth" without a good reason which you are probably doing here. It's difficult to get anything near accuracy when determining the % of gay people in the population. Usually people who have a problem with gay people offer estimations that are very low. So, what is your source exactly for the numbers you offer?

[@Sean-dl8ym]

@@michaelmartel I'm gay too! I offer estimates closer to reality because I think it's important. www.google.com/amp/s/amp.theatlantic.com/amp/article/257753/ www.npr.org/2011/06/08/137057974/-institute-of-medicine-finds-lgbt-health-research-gaps-in-us news.gallup.com/poll/234863/estimate-lgbt-population-rises.aspx In that Gallup poll, remember that 4.5% includes bisexual and trans people. I certainly don't find myself in the company of that many gays on a day-to-day basis. One out of every hundred people I meet sounds about right to me. Has your experience been different?

[@MrTunapie]

Brian, that was very sweet. In a world filled with apathy, distrust and hate, your video fills me with hope for humanity. Love both of you :)

[@BrianTerada]

Thank you Stanley for sharing. You're so right. What else should I make a video about?

[@peterwilliamskelhorn6675]

​@@BrianTeradaI think I've fallen in love with a male cousin of a old school friend but he's straight and I'm gay

[@chetanvinayak6799]

@@BrianTerada hi my name is chetan from England sometimes we may like someone who we know for example if a boy likes a girl 👧 then if they decide they made for each other that’s great 😃 same with two boys or men I am gay myself be proud of who you are I am very proud you should make a video of how you came out plus are you a good cook 👨‍🍳 you can make something with your boyfriend or make a quiz ask each other questions about each other make a tickling barefeet video I am extremely very very ticklish from head to toe aspeasily on my barefeet nice to meet you

[@peterwilliamskelhorn6675]

​@@BrianTeradai know what it feels like. I'm gay and my friend Liam is straight. I admitted how much i loved him even though he had a girlfriend. I can't stop thinking of him and get a lovesick feeling in my belly

[@redhood8141]

I swear you two are the definition of "Friendship goals". This my first video of yours and I love it 😄 Happy to be a new Subscriber

[@BrianTerada]

Thank you RED! I promise to be making more soon-- the response on this one video has really inspired me- including your message.

[@redhood8141]

@@BrianTerada No thanks needed, just telling the truth. I'm glad I could brighten up your day/Night, even if only for a second. I hope you are doing well bud, you are amazing

[@loulouyanis937]

Who's the gay guy?

[@BrianTerada]

lol ummmm?

[@johnnydominguez1365]

Exactly.... And why would anybody waste their time crushing on a straight guy? Life's too short.. but then that's just my opinion

[@BrianTerada]

@@johnnydominguez1365 true I finally stopped!!

[@TerryFreak389]

😹🤦🏿‍♂️

[@marcusgray2799]

I said same thing

[@tomdeininger7379]

I fell in love with a married guy. Our affair went on for over 2 years. One time in my bed, with our arms around each other, we kissed and he said "I love you". I think it scared him. Guess he ran to his wife after that, it was safe for him. Haven't been with him in quite some time. He has called to say "hello, how are you"., that it. Strange thing is that I never said "I love you".. even though I do love him. Oh well, guess I'll get over it. Sorry if I bored everyone. Didn't mean to ramble.

[@tomdeininger7379]

@@tonydrabenstott4745Nice😊

[@caberful]

who was the top???

[@tonydrabenstott4745]

@@tomdeininger7379 Hi so are you looking for a boy friend

[@sydneygrace2665]

TELL HIM YOU LOVE HIM

[@rose-rv5yz]

Poor wife. I hope she finds someone who truly loves her.

[@lextrelex]

So I’m watching this after the latest video between you two. I gotta admit I was slightly thinking this was fake but now that I’m watching THIS video, I know it’s for real. Y’all are a great friendship and props to all y’all have been through. Way to be mature grown ups~ Lolz.

[@ColleenTheDancer]

Really beautiful story ❤ I see why you fell in love with him. You two are wonderful people.

[@devinpickering3176]

I'm currently going through something similar. I'm a guy who is madly in love with one of my close friends and it kills me everyday. Needless to say he is straight. We love and appreciate each other very much as friends.. brothers even (hope that's not weird). He's very aware of my situation yet doesn't want to lose me as a friend over it, nor do I want to lose him either (I think I'd literally die). So in order to protect that which I love most, I choose to suffer in silence. 🤐😞

[@Mouanology]

Truly loving him means letting him go because he will be happy with someone who he has the capacity to love. It hurts bro, but ya gotta find yours too. Good luck

[@lizalohan01]

Unrequited

[@Pistonhammer]

@@lizalohan01 you summed up my situation in one word !! thats exactly what am currently going through right now with a guy !! His gay am straight.

[@lizalohan01]

@@Pistonhammer if it is meant to be, it will be. Spend your energy doing you boo lol. The universe will respond accordingly.

[@seancampbell9740]

Same here ..we continuely embrace each other but like u suffer in silence

[@maceyr.6583]

You know, you just have to be strong and neverrrrr settle for less. Don't devalue yourself for a guy, we're better than that. ❤

[@matterinthehatter]

I'll comment for this reason: Today (I don't celebrate commercial holidays) my best friend and a soulmate took time away from their family today and spent a few hours with me. This is a very straight guy who was once (still am in ways and times) very in love with romantically. It took many many years to work out, but at this point we have been friends off and on for about 12 years and strong best friends for like 5 or 6 years. We have been painfully honest with each other over the years and at this point I couldn't imagine my existence without his existence. It was a rough road, but loving this man has taught me how truly unselfish real love needs to be. I would absolutely support him at his wedding one day. Thanks for the vulnerability!

[@BrianTerada]

Thank YOU for the vulnerability. That is such a beautiful story- I think your honesty and communication- and humility is what has kept your friendship strong. Thank you again for sharing

[@DennisSmith]

Hi Matthew. You put the work into this relationship. The reward is how strong the love is from both of you. You are an example of having unconditional love. As painful as it's been for you, now you can step back and appreciate all that you have put into it. I applaud you! You show a great example of seeing through the relationship and adjusting to the vulnerabilities along the way.

[@pradeepsunny9024]

Hello brother Can i message you personally, im going through a lot of mess i think you can help me.

[@Cons_88]

That shows strength in both your characters. The world would be a better place if more people had the emotional maturity of the two of you. Good to hear decent people do exist.

[@BrianTerada]

There are so many good people out there you're right! And we gotta fight for the friendships with them even when it gets hard!

[@Cons_88]

@@BrianTerada couldn't agree more.

[@rcn94]

Who’s here after Brian’s twitch stream?! Love you Brian! ❤️

[@TimeIdle]

I listened to this podcast and blown away by the honesty from both of you. In this case, it's the "straight guy" who's the more maternal and sensitive one. And the gay guy the more brooding and tempestuous one. It's a really beautiful chemistry and love story. Thanks so much for sharing.

[@diffcontroversy]

So touching. Just listened to the podcast too. Such a special bond you guys have.

[@BrianTerada]

diffcontroversy thank you so much for the kind words! I’m so happy to share this story :)

[@BrianTerada]

Thank you so much :) I hope its a hopeful mssage :)

[@jackf1841]

No offence, but I love how the gay guy has the more 'manlier' voice :D

[@BrianTerada]

no offense taken...but what does manly mean anyway?? ;)

[@tomdeininger7379]

Yes, I don't understand.

[@juliofernandez7305]

@@BrianTerada I don't blame you if you have crushed on Ryan, because Ryan has a gay vibes too..ok i got it

[@xxxcharlie5604]

Ryan looks straight for me, and he is straight, his voice good, no problem..

[@venicesurfer]

Is it set in stone that straight guys have to have a "manlier" voice?

[@sky42O]

Glad you guys are still friends!❤️

[@JohnTurri]

Beautiful, man. Thanks so much for sharing.

[@BrianTerada]

of course dude :) miss you

[@chopin65]

That's nice. I am glad you two are still friends. That shows how smart you were when you fell in love with him.

[@sass_king5576]

same thing is happening in my life, im in college rn, 1st year, and i still have some feelings for my first crush (and only crush ever), I met him in high school he was in my class the first year of HSC and we kept contact ever since. He is straight he’s one of my best friends and I just can’t help thinking about him it just makes me sad most nights

[@fraybirch1930]

You'll get over it I promise. Focus on finding people who can love you back romantically .

[@sass_king5576]

A Hoe Thank you, well to be honest, i’ve never been in a relationship and i don’t think its gonna happen anytime soo, i don’t think im at the right time and environment for dating (im still closeted, only my close friends know, and I don’t « look » gay to people so im pretty hidden when it comes to my personal life) I just don’t think its going to happen for me because of all of the things that could lead too problem wise. I dunno I guess i’ll stay like i am and try to work on myself, Thanks again tho !

[@pakana4976]

Cuz, your in college to become financially self supportive. If its that you don't want your home town folk to know at this point. You be able to put distance and then find someone. Which I hope to God is a soulmate type. Not afly by night good timer. Then you can come out. Learn the persons values, hardships and very important how soft hearted he is about people being done wrong and emotionally hurt. How he feels about people being emotionally hurt by someone they trust. Try to find a true case and ask a third party 1st about what they think of the guy that did so & so wrong. Then get your boyfriends opinion. Also once in a while ask him to do some small but slightly inconvient task for you that you could do yourself. If he jumps up and does it without complaining that helps show how much he respects you above himself and loves you. One time I had my friend which had been dumping money on his girlfriend to go ask her for just $5. He said well sure she'll give that to me in the last week I gave her $600. She would not give it to him. He said you open my eyes. I thought she love me. I told him. If one really loves you there will never be anything that is inconvient for them to do for you no matter how small it seems. When you love someone you must become blind. Let only your heart see. This way it will always lead you to the one who is your heart.

[@jaysenseataooSEATTLE]

Any update to your life after 3 years now?

[@sass_king5576]

@@jaysenseataooSEATTLE oh hi ! that’s very nice of you to ask, just graduated from university 3 weeks ago, so i’m very happy, i’m starting a master’s degree next in september ! when it comes to my love life well nothing really changed, i just got over the guy like a year after i wrote this comment, haven’t met someone since so it’s pretty lonely but i still have my closest friends with me and figured my time to meet a guy will come so i’m not really that sad about still not having a boyfriend. I’m only 22, i believe i will meet someone one day! hope you’re doing well too! (sorry for the english btw, french people were never known for their talents in english lol)

[@rishabhdeb]

I can't stop laughing. Who is the straight guy??

[@BrandonClarke7]

I had fell in love with so many straight guys it's not even funny. So I stopped being around them. And if they try to be friends with me i run away. I'm tired of always being the third wheel and never being the one that the guy wants. I'm tired of always being the friend. So If a guy wont let me have sex with them and give me a relationship I dont want nothing to do with them. I dont even acknowledge there presence

[@BrandonClarke7]

@@tonydrabenstott4745 yes.i.am.looking for a relationship

[@BrandonClarke7]

@@tonydrabenstott4745 i live in salem,.ma. you ?

[@BrandonClarke7]

@@tonydrabenstott4745 i dont even.know you or what you look like ?

[@BrandonClarke7]

@@tonydrabenstott4745 how are you straight when.you just called me.sexy.and.said you wanted to make.love.with me

[@tonydrabenstott4745]

Hi

[@dankgabe9958]

Well I guess I'm the rare bunch of a guy that did fall in love with a gay guy. Our chemistry connects. In all due respect love has no gender. The labels gotta stop. Love who you want to, be happy with yourself.

[@bharatseth1394]

U are telling a lie.

[@10GOLDENWOOD20]

Awesome. Love is as ancient as freedom. They endure.

[@kylerider7125]

I’m going through this for the second time in my life and it is absolutely devastating to love someone you just can’t have at all

[@BrianTerada]

I'm sorry Kyle, I hope things have gotten better

[@MattNelson-do4sc]

But if a Friendship happens out of it you are golden. I have gone through the same thing I promise if you have an open honest real discussion it will get better but you have to put the work in to move on

[@Mickey-bo6cv]

Awesome! I just listened the your podcast. Beautiful story. Beautiful narration. I’m not a Christian but I can totally relate to the story in a deep way. The excitement. The wonderment. The pain. The longing. The confusion. The anger. The revelation. Thank you for sharing your story with us! I’m touched.

[@BrianTerada]

Thank you again for listening to the story. So glad to share it with you. Happy Holidays Mickey!

[@davidfryer9359]

The story of my life without the marriage nonsense. That's off limits. I have been in love with straight boys who weren't in love with me. And I have had many straight boys fall in love with me. They had a girlfriend, and I could not reciprocate. Then I fell for a soccer player. He fell in love back. It lasted 12 years sleeping in the same bed together. I have never felt so married in my life. It was beyond the moon while it lasted.

[@robertsterett4260]

Awesome opportunity to show how life and love can be. You help to open a lot of paths for others to realize their own potential in being free with love big life.

[@kaistevens7668]

love your story so much, Brian.

[@BrianTerada]

thank you maria :)

[@suhugo9546]

I just got done listening to the podcast! I love the story and love the message. Be free. All love ❤️

[@BrianTerada]

Thank you SU! If you want, I can add you to the email list to invite you to the be free events!

[@myles8366]

My best friend & I are both 19. I've known his since we were 13. I had no idea he was gay until two years ago when he came out to me. I'm the only person he told. I was real surprised since he had dated girls too & always talked about one & how much sex they had. I had no problem that he's gay but I was surprised & asked why he waited so long to tell me since he always knew I was ok with gay dudes. All was fine. We both play baseball, do gaming & like same music & vids so we always hung out & he stayed over a lot in my room since I have two twin beds in my bedroom. We always stayed up late & had fun watching vids, gaming etc. Then, last October when I was asleep, I woke up with him doing something in my bed. I sleep in boxer briefs but woke when he had them part down & was doing something that felt good but I was so shocked, I pretended to be asleep. He started doing that every time he stayed over. We never said anything about it but I kept letting him cause it does feel good what he likes to do. Anyway, that was one thing but now I think he's in love with me. Us doing stuff together or even that one type sex thing is ok but I'm real worried about this other stuff since I don't know what to do. He's like obsessed & has to know every minute of a day what I'm doing or where I am at like my ex gf was. I have no idea what to do.

[@fraybirch1930]

You need to put clear limits. Do not consent his obsessive behaviour because it will get worst. It's not easy for everyone to separate sex and love so maybe come clear on that topic because you might make the situation worst. He must be thinking you are reciprocating what he is feeling.

[@myles8366]

@@fraybirch1930 Thanks for advice. I'm worried he does think I love him a certain way. I know he's in love with me. I do love him too as my best friend as if he's really my brother but that's not the same as I think he feels. The big problem is we both like how a certain thing feels but we have not even talked about it ever happening. It's as if that part doesn't happen so the next day nothing is said. He can't believe I'm really asleep during that. I'll have to be the one to bring it up but I don't know how yet. No matter what I do, he's going to get hurt. If I keep letting stuff happen or if I say something that I like how that feels but I don't feel the same emotional part. Do you know how I should bring it up?

[@fraybirch1930]

@@myles8366 some conversations need to happen and the only right moment is the one you make. English is not my first language so I don't really know which phrase is the best. I don't know your personality but if you are able go straight to the point and bring what you do together up. Ask him what he is feeling for you and then try to explain what you told me, that you love him but not in a romantic way and you are scared to hurt him. Conversations started from a place of caring don't usually go wrong. If your friendship is strong enough you'll get through it. Good luck Myles. And please I'd love an update on your story.

[@myles8366]

@@fraybirch1930 Hi, maybe next wkend I'll say something. My first language isn't English. I'd do better explaining in German but that's not his first language. I think more in German but it's mixed. I'll write it out in German then translate to English until I get it best then maybe use that way to talk to him. Part of it isn't just his feelings but that's most important. There is always a kinda greed part or selfish part for me. One is I don't want to lose him as a friend then another thing is I like how it feels when he does something cause he does that so good. I want him to keep doing that some if he wants but between his feelings then regular stuff we do then that other thing, I think everything will change but I hope it is good way. I'm gonna tell him I like what he does if he likes to keep doing that. I'm mostly scared that I know he's gonna then want me to be his first with the top thng. I just have idea he wants that & me to be first dude. I'm not sure about all that either.

[@fraybirch1930]

@@myles8366 that sounds like a plan. If you are interested in experimenting a little more then good for both of you. It's a privilege to be able to experiment with close friends. So I'd say go for it.

[@elizabethhair9017]

I'm female and love male romance novels (my mum and brother know and just think I'm wierd), not that I think it's easy but I feel if I'd been born male, I'd be gay and very proud !!👨‍❤‍💋‍👨

[@keirthBrun]

Love your content.. love and acceptance 💕 FREEDOM 👏👌

[@markrobinson5221]

Keirth Patrick Papistol how do I get a copy of a be free t shirt, 4 x large ?

[@BrianTerada]

Mark Robinson hey Mark!! You can order it at befreestories.com !

[@BrianTerada]

I love this. Love And accept EVERYONE

[@keirthBrun]

@@BrianTerada 💕💕🙏🙏

[@markncl100]

Proof that your soulmate doesn't have to be your sex partner.

[@billycarroll9153]

Mark. Your statement is so true. Thanks.

[@NZer-t2i]

My childhood friend confessed his love for me at 19, I was like yeah, I love you too. He was like nah I actually am in love with you. At first, I laughed, and he was sitting there serious as. I was like wtf you're for real?! I walked out and avoided him, he ended up shooting himself with a nail gun, luckily, he survived, and my mom called me, and I frantically rushed to his hospital bed. He lay there staring into space and I slapped him across the face then held him and we cried. His mom was there, and she kept asking him why he did it. I told him I loved him so much and don't do this, this isn't the answer. You see my father took his life in 1983 and the pain of losing him was immense. Carl and I drifted apart, and he moved on and is living his authentic self with a partner. I got married, have 5 kids and 2 grandchildren. We did hook up before we drifted apart though. Yes, I ended up experimenting with Charlie lol

[@davidbosquette6604]

Gay guy and straight guy become lifetime friends. No biggy.

[@JAnotherday]

Always be true to yourself that is the first rule 2 happiness with yourself!

[@Slothfromthegoonies]

Not me being in love with my straight friend Ryan I-

[@lucifer9805]

So this is my story..i am from India and like similar thing happened me with me in 10th grade when i fell for a straight guy..its been like five years now..i never told him but i know that somehow he knew..coz once he used a fale fb id to talk to a girl n he talk to me too n once he asked from that fake id ..if i love that guy..who was actually him ? N i said yes..he liked asked me several times if m gay..but i was never be able to tell him the truth..its been five years now..we barely talk on whatsapp n i used to met him like once in a year..its like totally dishearteaning to me..i feel broken ..n today only i saw him on the bike hanging out with his friends..i got a little upset after seeing him..i dont know if someday i ll be able to tell him..i still.love him n will always🥰😭

[@ohc1492]

I've been in love with a straight guy for the last 19 years. No, I don't know how to end it, not sure if I want to. We have been co-workers all this time, but also business partners.. so my life has revolved around him since what it seems to be forever. I've never been in a romantic relationship ever, so this is the only love I know. I'm aware that it's wrong.. but I don't know any better. At 46, the solution to this problem evades me because I feel too old (and downright foolish and silly) to be going around "looking for love"... I might as well accept I'm a lost cause.

[@paulkumar1698]

Enrique Ortiz dude, spend some time in self-love. take a break from life, find a sex buddy, travel around a bit and see if u've found any clarity aftet a few weeks. there r no lost causes.

[@BrianTerada]

That is soo hard. Wow--- I can't imagine. You are not a lost cause though. You can always make changes that will be better and healthier for you.

[@DennisSmith]

Enrique, You are exactly where you want to be. 19 years is a lifetime. You would have fallen in love with someone else along the way if you weren't satisfied with your associate and friend. It's true. You are exactly where you want to be. At 46, you aren't old or a lost cause. You are vibrant and happy that you could share your life with someone you love and appreciate so much. Why would you end it? If he is giving you love, it seems that it is a good relationship. You aren't bound to him. There are no chains. You can still meet someone and have "Another" loving relationship. 19 years...how lucky to love someone so long that you would give yourself regardless of the reciprocation. Love comes in all forms. It's never too late to have another relationship. It seem to me that you would be someone we all would look up to for guidance. I hope I can love my straight friend for 19 years. Wow! that's amazing.Good for you!

[@BodybuilderKingViky]

Nonsense! Straight men never fall for gay or bisexual men. I have fallen in love with 3 straight men over the time of 25 years and they all rejected me. Not just rejected me, threw me in the trash while I gave my heart and soul to them. The last one ended just this Sunday, where I had fallen in love after 5 years.

[@j.a.7993]

The same thing happened to me 3 times. I'm sure every one of the guys is at least bi. Or I suffer from delusions 😅

[@chrisallen7911]

The straight guy isn't gay???

[@MJ-oi6ul]

Honestly I don't blame you for thinking your friend is gay lol Honestly he could be bisexual maybe if you had told him how you felt before he got married you might have had a chance but even for them it is easier to be with the opposite gender to have a "normal" life so it's fine.

[@adriandc9761]

I cried listening to some parts of the podcast cause I’m going thru the same thing.. the only difference is that perform oral sex to him twice which the first time he initiated it.. now I’m lost and don’t know what to do? He’s also married with one kid...

[@arturovaldemar]

Well, I can tell you that you can start by realizing that despite how much you love him, you deserve someone that's willing to be with you proudly, clearly and exclusively and not just like a fun thing on the side. No matter how great you think he is, you deserve better.

[@KnowTrentTimoy]

This dude is not straight. He's BI. He wants his cake and eating it as well. I'm sorry to say but you're crazy for even doing this shit. WHY? WHY? WHY? I've got several hot (VERY Fucking) STRAIGHT friends and it NEVER crosses my mind. I don't care how close we get....it's just NOT in the cards. There's plenty of gay dudes out there to be with.

[@src3360]

This is a relationship you need to let go. It’s the healthiest thing you can do. 🙏🏻

[@adriandc9761]

Trent Timoy we been friends for over 10 years it never crossed my mind till he Initiated few time but nothing ever happen till last few months. We're still friends and not awkward..

[@KnowTrentTimoy]

@@adriandc9761 DOESN'T MATTER...You should've said NO. What kind of true friend does that to another friend?? I have a feeling you wanted this to happen. And now you're stuck with a one-way transaction.

[@shaunkos]

I’m currently in love with a guy I work with. He’ll never see this, so his name is Hunter. He comes off as basically straight as they come. I’m not sure what to do… I’m a wreck.

[@thijsblom2886]

Waitttttt he is NOT gay????????

[@DverseScotty]

thank you for your post i needed it today, going through almost the same with no hel

[@mileyslayrus8477]

15 years later we’re still friends but I still love him

[@Sean-dl8ym]

My "love life" has just been a succession of straight crushes until I finally stopped feeling romantic feelings for anyone lol

[@BrianTerada]

omggg youre boy is coming Sean

[@Sean-dl8ym]

@@BrianTerada bahaha nah it's fine tho I'm nearing 30 and basically lost interest

[@ScribblebytesWorldwide]

@@Sean-dl8ym yah wait until Venus gets you. Then you'll be singing a different tune 😂😂😂

[@ShivamSingh-qz3kh]

I'm going through it right now.

[@BrianTerada]

I'm sorry Ambika.. make sure you do what is best for you.. even if it means you need to take a break from the friendship

[@ShivamSingh-qz3kh]

@@BrianTerada m trying to, but it's just very painful. I just cAnt get him out of my heart. The fact that he is so kind to me makes it even worse for me to stay away from him.

[@inuyashashasha7051]

that had warm my heart thank a lot

[@joellebrown539]

Ryan and Brian are HOT, they would make such a cute couple but only in Brian's College Dreams 😂❤. I wish Ryan was Gay or Bi cuz i want Brian to be happy💕

[@pàrés_wtf69]

It's hard to find the right person

[@dab7963]

Sorry he may be married but ... The gay guy is much more masculine. Sexuality is very complicated

[@yoyofjdo]

Subscribed !

[@BrianTerada]

You're so sweet thank you!! What else should I make a video about?

[@ninomiranda8089]

I am literally moved by the story. Hopefully I can also get the shirt :)

[@BrianTerada]

Niño Miranda Aw Im so glad niño :) yes you can get a shirt at befreestories.com !!

[@anthonyglee1710]

He def is gay. Sorry Natalie.

[@dfbvfgb2128]

Lol This is a canard. Ryan is by no means a straight man. I am actually very familiar with men like him. I pay close attention to them, and their behavior, in my psychology analysis work. They support, to an extent, gay men and their self-acceptance, all while they can't come to grips with their own sexual orientation. It's sort of a mask or a veil, if you will, to hide from their true self or an attempt to anesthetize their own sexual feelings; removing the weight and responsibility of accepting their homosexuality (or bisexuality) and putting it onto someone else as means to escape. Often times, they are very marriage-oriented or staunch champions of the institution of marriage. So, it is interestingly no coincidence that he is a marriage counselor. Also, they tend to be radically religious. I'm willing to bet this guy is a Christian. Sometimes, they tend to have a painful experience of this identity in their childhood. It's quite sad really.

[@ulrich101]

dfbvfgb feels like you’re projecting

[@shishkebab6267]

I knew a guy exactly like what your describing. Im not saying brians friend is but i know the type you are talking about and its sad they cant live in their truth :/

[@casmoq9732]

whoa you only have 793 subscribers. underappreciated

[@BrianTerada]

casmoq you’re so sweet! I really want to post more videos

[@casmoq9732]

Brian Terada you should honestly . Maybe once a month so it’s not too overwhelming

[@BrianTerada]

hey we're at 850 now! What else should I make videos about?!

[@casmoq9732]

Brian Terada hmm maybe related to your company about being free . Going out to the street and asking people what they thought ? Or maybe just like life advice either from your own topics or you asking the audience 🤷🏻‍♂️

[@BrianTerada]

@@casmoq9732 Those are great ideas... thank you so much! I actually filmed one about my story of having an eating disorder because I was so depressed while I was in the closet and how I got past it

[@SwiftLogical]

Mine didn’t go well, we are strangers now…😢

[@alweb360]

Wow great friendship. I always wonder what that's like. I feel tolerated in social situations. Acquaintances say they will see me when they see me.

[@bowhunter8235]

THAT was Way Awesome. But I dont see a link...

[@BrianTerada]

Bow Hunter a link to what??

[@bowhunter8235]

@@BrianTerada the link you refer to the pod cast that you did not want to give any spoilers to...the link that explains the 'bigger story'.

[@danfriendutfpr]

Who's gonna tell him that the "straight" friend isn't straight? He can be married and everything but he doesn't fool me lol

[@mattiagnagno757]

The video starts at 3:25 everybody

[@ivysmith2794]

Too typical.. it's too many gay men out there to be out here falling for straight dudes or bisexual guys who doesn't accept or act on their bisexuality.

[@ivysmith2794]

@queen dewdrop dazzle wtf, is English your second language? The improper grammar and spelling is giving me anxiety

[@sum_rand0m]

*Video starts* "Sigh, ok-" *Crash*

[@eduardoquiroga6804]

Im gay, and i just came out

[@ahmedzone100]

Congratulations

[@Robsav-yx6vi]

Truth and joy to you.

[@hughkwan9681]

why is every clip with such a title always the same - the gay guy appears/acts/talks more like a straight man than the "straight man"? the world has gone nuts.

[@beto868]

I’m living this experience right now with a straight guy, but I’m kind of a sugar daddy and this guy I fell for is heterosexual and has clearly told me many times we will never have anything more than a friendship, at most, yet he has no problem letting me pay for his every expense (literally) to the point that now he asks me for money frequently. I’ve bought him and furnished his house (nice one), 2 cars (one of them a sports car), all of his clothing, you name it. I don’t care about the money, but this situation is killing me because I’m in love with him but I understand we’ll never have anything, pitty sex at least, hell, I’d be okay with it. Due to all this, I’ve been having suicidal thoughts everyday for months now. I just want to die.

[@jasonthomas6684]

How do you let something like that affect you to the point of being suicidal everyday? That is absolutely crazy.

[@beto868]

@@jasonthomas6684 I honestly do not know how I got to this point and the worst is that I cannot seem to be able to get out of it. Thank you so much for taking the time to react to my comment (first one ever). I never ever talk about these feelings with anyone so this is my way to try to keep some peace of mind.

[@mikejones2405]

How did I know Ryan was going to be religious lol I of course can’t speak on another’s sexuality but Ryan comes across as a textbook closet case. Marriage oriented, very religious, accepting of a gay lifestyle despite the opposing position of his religion. All to compensate for his lack of self acceptance and internalized homophobia. It’s a shame that he couldn’t just accept himself and had to take you down with him. You’re much better off

[@jenniboo9441]

Don't do that. This is such a shitty disrespectful take. Who are you to tell someone what their sexuality is? You judge him based on 5 mins of a video. You have no idea what you're talking about

[@erenaltuntas4302]

Damn . Thas so cool . When I came out my crush he told me to get treatment . :/

[@duffyrobert19]

Sounds like he's the one who needs treatment, what a tool! You're best of without him. Sorry. I'm sure it hurt very much.

[@sneakerking85]

The straight guy comes off as gay and shockingly, the "gay" guy presents like a normal straight dude...to me anyway...

[@actemple3282]

Great blog super cool

[@crazyone1067]

I'm gay and have more straight friends than gay ones.

[@gabrielhernandez_]

im gay and i don't have "friends" seriously

[@aniruddhbhawnani6759]

hey so imm goin through a same thing but i wanted to ask a question ( i might know the answer already but..) are u guys now also bestfriends??

[@almudenamarbandl2898]

Im a straight girl and I have no idea what im doing here, but whatever 😂🤦‍♀️

[@darktruth9421]

I m str8 man

[@sendneutrals]

I think about my straight friend who i fell in love with...very often

[@Derrchar]

Anyone have a link for the Podcast Episode that works? I can’t find it anywhere

[@DongExplorer]

i could see a cute couple if Ryan is not striaght lol

[@arnie3631]

Jho Nash Ryan is straight? He looks more gay than Bryan heheh. I seriously think he hasn’t come to terms with his gayness hehe

[@DongExplorer]

Arnie that’s my first impression when I saw Ryan and heard how he talks lol, I could feel that’s there’s something behind of him being Ryan heheh.. we have the same observation 😜

[@BrianTerada]

lol in my college dreams hahaha

[@BrianTerada]

@@arnie3631 Ryan is definitely straight!!

[@DongExplorer]

Brian Terada you looks straight than Ryan 😘😘

[@jonasalden29201]

I wonder if it's embarrassing to be the one who feels the need to publicly rehash it, particularly IN SUCH EMOTIONAL DETAIL? No shade honestly, but my pride would prevent me from publicly "being that guy". That's all I'm saying.

[@ScribblebytesWorldwide]

Are you a Leo?

[@dwaynehitchcock3206]

How can i get a be free shirt. I tried looking it up could not find any.

[@BrianTerada]

Hey dwayne! They’re on befreestories.com :)

[@anyichibuogwu9086]

Gross this is too similar to my situation. Don’t give me hope though I’m still blocked by him cuz I confessed.

[@ScribblebytesWorldwide]

What about now? Can you give us an update?

[@johnathanballard1304]

I had this happen twice.

[@itscodyhilton]

The amount of times this has happened to me

[@ScribblebytesWorldwide]

Honey chile! 😆 welcome to Night Game!!! #howtoplaynightgamearg

[@HandsomeBoyGarion]

That means you bisexual not straight

[@khaotic81]

The shoes on the bed is killing me

[@iiiioands2]

am i the only one who is embarrassed for noo reason 🌚 ?

[@dahabizizy]

The gay guy has more masculine vouce than the other one jyst saying...

[@jimmyisherenow]

I'd fall in love with him too

[@mgakabeks9258]

Handsome

[@olegariocamara9308]

It happened to me

[@BurnerAddress95]

Went thru the same thing my mine turned out the opposite. In weight training at school, my partner was a bit older and a varsity wrestler. We started hanging out, I went to all his matches, he’d always talk about girls but by the time we started calling each other best friends, I was in love. One night I got into a fight with my family so I grabbed my bag and went to sleep at his house. We slept in the same tiny bed in our undies and I woke up and he had his arm over me against me spooning. I turned to face him and he smiled and said good morning and we just smiled and laughed for ten minutes before getting up then off to school. Another two or three months down the road my best girl friend also falls for him and coincidentally, we were riding in a car with four guys going camping and we hit this long dark tunnel and in the midddle I hear a shhh then someone starts kissing me and when the sun comes back I look at him and he leans to me and whispers, “I love you.” I was so scared that one of the other guys would suspect something so I leaned to him and said, “dude, no I’m not like that.” He went quiet and didn’t talk to me all all weekend. In fact by the end of the weekend he was dating my best girl friend. He joined the military and a year later they got married and three weeks into their marriage his wife calls me and to my surprise says, “I need you to come over and sleep with my husband.” He told her he was still in love with me and needed to figure it all out. I went there and feeling bad about the situation, the three of us got drunk, Nekkid ran down the street nekkid and were all three together. I was out finally by then but I felt too guilty to break them up so I just left that morning and didn’t look back. Fifteen years later he’s never felt anything or been attracted to another guy so I just have no clue what happened and he is without a doubt not gay. He claims he fell in love with me the person and it didn’t matter I was a boy. I still just don’t understand it but if only that kiss happened when we were alone I have a feeling we’d be together and I wouldn’t be alone as I am now. Why I couldn’t fess up to who I was will drive me crazy till I breathe my last breath. Edit: just googled him and found a video he made in his fatigues from one of the bases he was stationed at and my stomach still gets butterflies…he’s divorced it looks like…ugh…

[@BrianTerada]

Why don’t you give him a call?

[@BurnerAddress95]

I’m going to Facebook him probably and tell him first that I was going crazy inside too but acted insuspiciously that morning I woke up and it was just sunlight on us, him arm over me then turning to be forehead to forehead, chest to chest, legs intertwined, and staring into each other’s eyes till one of us cracked up over and over again…to this day I remember just how my whole body was squirming because when one of us said something, to not be heard by his big brother he lived with, he would put his lips at my ear just close enough so his breathing from his mouth hit my neck and the breathing from his nose went right in my ear and as he spoke, his lips would just barely graze my ear or my neck just behind or under my ear and it tickled so much in an unbelievably pleasurable way…it was obvious he was trying to gauge my reaction and breathing on me like that and touching his lips to me to see what I did so I acted as if it was not intimate at all scared that he may think I like it. It was the most romantic moment of my life and man, the money we’d make in this day and age with those bodies and those looks at that young age of 17 or so. And I remember that when he was still behind me his chest to my back, we were too close and under covers for the hot weather so wherever we were touching we were wet and there were beads of sweat and both our smooth skin and muscles felt so erotic wet and touching and that smell of just a bit of boy sweat pumpin out pheromones…both our …. must have been nearly ripping a hole in our boxer briefs. And that kiss in the car was the first time I ever kissed a guy. That night in the tent thinking about it between terrified someone saw but didn’t say anything and it being literally that night in the tent I finally realized that word we all said to give each other sh- -, I WAS, and I never suspected it at all somehow. I’ve thought about it all week since your story reminded me of mine lol. If I do, I’ll hit you up with the outcome or screenshots or whatever if you’re interested. Sendin good thoughts your way, do so for me too lol.

[@ScribblebytesWorldwide]

@@BurnerAddress95 I want to shake you like my acting teacher used to shake me when I was fking up a scene!!!!

[@intermilan9731]

Lies. You still want his body.

[@kellymecin6588]

Baby I so jaleos

[@MattNelson-do4sc]

Tom what you said in this platform is completely wrong. You just want attention you clearly don’t understand. I hope you know that no one is perfect but being this open about your situation and life you have to fix it!

[@xoconat]

Im a female, i dont understand if this kind of feeling really exists since im a girl so i don't really know. many guys that consider themselve is gay and indulge their love affair as public consumption on KZbin for money. I always wonder is Love between men is really real and long lasting.

[@sanjanasuresh2271]

how naive of you to think that the world should be how you imagine it to be...just because you are a staright girl doesnt give you the right to invalidate other peoples feelings and be the ultimate judge to decide whether being part of the lgbtq+ community is real or not..no one needs your opinions about their sexuality and dont need your exclusive permission to be with who they love

[@lotionman2587]

Right off the bat, the gay guy is way better looking than the straight guy, who is open minded, and has a big heart, so the attraction to the straight guy is understandable. In the 1970's, when it was taboo, I fell in love with my best friend in junior high (he was so cute and so affectionate, but we were too young to understand sex), then my family moved to a different city, where I fell in love with another close friend in high school (Adam), awhile he nd now I understood that I was gay, but was closeted. We were essentially non-sexual lovers. His sexuality was sort of ambiguous. I went away to college with painful feelings of unrequited love, still a virgin, still closeted, while he ended up with trashy girlfriends in the small town I left behind until he suddenly died in a plane wreck. In college, I fell madly in love with a guy who was essentially a clone of Adam in 1981. He would flirt with me, but then reject my advances. He was from a very conservative family. We had an intense friendship. I finally hooked up with the few guys I met on campus, came out, had a boyfriend whom I did not love -- always pinning for Adam and his clone. I said "fuck it" and moved to San Francisco, where I flourished as a newly confident gay man, but still holding on to illogical feelings for my three childhood crushes. I would randomly bump into my jr. high school crush about once every decade. He continued to be impossibly sweet, handsome, and articulate -- and happily married with kids. At one point we were neighbors. His awesome wife, aware of my long obsession with him, suggested that I "keep him company" when she went away on business trips, lol. It never happened. They did not like my long time partner, from whom I eventually divorced. They moved away from the neighborhood and we lost track. If Adam were alive today, we'd be best friends, likely platonic, and I'd be godfather to his kids. I'm happily partnered now, and old and fat and gray. I still miss Adam. His "clone" from college turned out to be an ugly right-winger who lost every charm. I think he's a frustrated closet case. I love these short gay films about unrequited love that happens during one's coming out phase. It's really a thing.

[@jaxmanx]

Lmao