get ready & catch up with me! depression, self care, & BIG news

[@OlivyaNora]

u are beautiful my dude

[@OlivyaNora]

is that ollie in the backyard jst roaming

[@Grace_0128]

Y’all are beautiful 😭

[@Тыкто-я5щ]

I missed u so much😭😭😭❤️

[@memi9839]

Oliviya, please make a new youtube video. WE MISS YOU!

[@marynar1700]

Mei: If you're in the So Cal area (...) me: *crying in European*

[@Icanthandlemakingahandle]

swedish tears are flowin

[@Αντωνία-γ2η]

cries in Greek cuz i will never get the chance to meet anyone i like :)

[@brookewilson3904]

Kentucky tears flowing here,it would be so cool to get to meet her! ❤️

[@Matamoroscamila]

crying in Chilean bc I will like never never never get the chance to met her

[@victoredwardo9485]

*watching the phone sad in mexican*

[@wanderlust9372]

I was finally diagnosed with depression three months ago, when it's been almost seven years that I'm like in a permanent miserable state with panic attacks, sleeping disorder and stuff. My family didn't want to admit it at first, because it seems (for them) that they failed to "protect" me or that's because of them that i'm sick. I was both relieved and super stressed (the irony) to have the diagnosis I've waited for years. I feel like it's super important to be able to open up about this disorder, because be ashamed of it isn't gonna help you get better. And to know that you're "sick" not "insane". 10:00 i can't agree more, i'm currently trying to do the same thing I always enjoy taking a break to sit down and watch you talking slowly, peacefully, like if I was talking to a sister or a really close friend. You soothe me hahaha i wrote this huge comment and i'm not even good at english, hope it makes sense ^^' take care of you beautiful mei

[@rachelm9046]

it makes perfect sense honey

[@badada1117]

Be strong and don’t be scared of talking to anyone you feel comfortable with, whether you know them personally or not because it helps :) Don’t keep it in you and believe in yourself ❤️

[@keitogasai2560]

I’m so so proud of you hon I know your year hasn’t been the best i feel like everyone could tell from your lack of content that you need a big all hug and break! I’m happy you’re taking care of yourself love hopefully this year is treating you better than the last one! Much love from London xxx

[@diorbutterfly2558]

but we needed it

[@jcorh3357]

The blue-black hair color looks awesome!

[@moni5612]

I love these chatty and makeup videos the most. I love it that you are speaking about depression and self care. It's really helpful for me as a depressed person. Thank you Mei , you made my day

[@Rurichin]

Thank you so much for this video Mei ❤ I feel like I can relate to this a lot, being a perfectionist, having to work out how to balance work, family, friends, hobbies, about feeling like you don't deserve things etc. I struggle with this too and it makes me feel less lonely knowing that I'm not alone in this. I mean I do know that there are more people who can relate, but it makes a difference to actually see someone talking about it. Especially someone whom I've been watching for a long time here on KZbin. I really hope you'll be able to take care of yourself more, although I know it can be really hard, you've already been taken healthy steps towards that direction. You're so strong in my eyes and I admire you so much ❤ Your video about New York made me cry. It was so beautiful and it made me feel at peace because of how you described your experience there. I'm sad about the fact that I can't come to your meet and greet since I live in another country, but I hope it will be a lovely experience for you and everyone there💕

[@BlackBerryTrees]

Such a cute look, cute music and love watching your videos girl! thank you for opening up, it truly feels like i'm catching up with an old friend when I watch your videos so i'm really glad to hear you are doing better and being less hard on yourself

[@twirlingpages]

so glad you're back and doing better! you're little talk on depression was really relatable for me because i was going through a similar period a few months ago and was so hard on myself. i didn't label it as depression because i feel like it wasn't as bad as "real depression" but it was... tough. anyway, glad you're doing better and i loved watching you share this update + makeup look!

[@madarazilgalve6735]

Mei, this was so inspirational. I can relate to so many issues you talked about in this video, yet you never complained about your life, but tell how to deal with depression and being a millennial. I am so thankful for you bringing up these topics and even though knowing how hard it is to deal with these dark moments you kept this bright peaceful vibe throughout the video and actually said how exciting it is to live this strange life of human being. Thank you once again.❤️

[@almondmillk2687]

Im glad you are taking the time to love yourself. I strongly believe that sad days are still important days because without them we couldn't have good days. xo

[@haileycakes8498]

Makes my heart so calm. I swear meis videos cure everything, always. She’s so relaxing so watch, I love her so much ☹️💕

[@jessicagold444]

I'm going thru something so similar, I'm super hard on myself on everything, idk if I consider it a perfectionist but it's something very similar to it! I overthink so much as well but everything I'm starting to realize and working on every aspect of my life and the self care especially. Thank you for sharing yours love you!!❤️❤️

[@caitycat677]

The WetNWild blushes have a teeny bit of shimmer to them too and looks really nice on the skin! I love the shade Pearlescent Pink, it makes my skin look dewy and healthy

[@Mountaindrew27]

Thank you so much for this, Mei. I’m a perfectionist with chronic depression and today was honestly so horrible for me until I watched this video. You said everything I had been feeling and it was a catalyst for me to get out of bed and shower and eat again. I felt really alone until I watched this. Thank you so much

[@glowrillaz]

I am in so much love with ur hair color and ur dress and the background and i love ur makeup! And ur talking about depression was relatable (at least for me). I took a break from college for a whole semester. My family did not support on this and (surprisingly) my friends as well. I feel you. And i hope you and everyone here is doing well in life.

[@maggiechristensen7810]

You explain depression so well. You are a tough cookie for opening up about personal struggles and I think it helps a lot of the people who watch your videos relate to you. Your mental health is extremely important and you do deserve happiness and love. I am very glad you're back on youtube because your looks and style are unique and very you and inspirational too. I hope things get better for you and keep on trucking!

[@honeybrown6953]

I'm actually glad you took the time off KZbin, even though I missed your new content, but it's better to take care of yourself. You look so much more refreshed

[@scepterstar]

It's so nice to see you again, Mei! I'm really glad that you took time for yourself when you needed it

[@majuskulle]

I related so much to this I almost cried? It's always comforting hearing someone talk about experiencing feelings like you do as well. I am really glad you spoke out about this. Wish I could meet you, but living on a different part of the Earth makes it quite impossible. Take care of yourself 💕

[@makennahickey6329]

Im batteling depression and i really apretiate that one of my fav youtubers shares their experience with it❤

[@elise5030]

Thank you for sharing your struggles with us Mei, I know it’s not easy to share things that make you feel vulnerable, but just know we are always here for you and that you can take as much time as you feel you need for yourself. You work so hard and have achieved and grown so much for the duration of this channel:,) we are all so proud of you! Love and support you always !!

[@sam399]

It literally fills me with so much joy to see you back mei ❤️ thank you so much for filming this, it really means a lot to all of us to hear you GENUINELY AND SERIOUSLY talk about someone much more serious that is often joked about (including me ^^;) But ye I’m really happy to see you’re back and that you’ve been feeling better bc you’re honestly probably my fav youtuber bc you just feel so genuine and you’re really real fr ur real ye Welp welcome back mei! Hope the rest of this year is great for you ❤️

[@kezibaker2001]

I'm so glad you're back! Thank you so much for sharing something so personal, it made me feel a little less alone. I'm also so glad that you're feeling better and I hope things brighten up for you soon! Missed you a lot, it felt like you were gone for a lot longer than a month lol! Love you Mei 💕

[@persiancarpet7347]

I love you so much Mei and I'm so happy you uploaded this. I've been watching you for 2 years now and you have really helped me in terms of feeling better when I'm down and also taught me a lot about cruelty free products and makeup in general. Love that your channel has been growing, you deserve it so much! Xxx

[@SilverMoonChyld]

Yay! I’m glad you are back Mei and I hope you had a restful break I know how just coasting through life feels. I’m glad you are feeling better it’s always nice to take breaks. Thanks for window into how you’ve been I understand it’s not easy to share. You aren’t alone but you are right depression is different for everyone. The look you went for looks really pretty and nice I look forward to seeing more videos from you. Please stay safe and I wish you a brighter tomorrow.

[@penelopebarajas1245]

I’m so happy you’re back I literally love you and your personality and just how chill you are. It really seems like you’re talking/listening to a friend because you’re just so open about a lot of your problems and I just want to say that if you need more time that’s fine I wish I could give you a hug but the screen gets in the way 😤😤💖💖😭😭

[@penelopebarajas1245]

Also I lowkey think I have depression but at the same time not really because ig I’m not really sad but I feel extremely unmotivated and sometimes feel like my life is wasting away...idk whatever I hope you’re doing better ily 😂💖

[@pabopauline]

I’m truly thankful that I found your channel like ages ago ~ no matter what I know that I’m gonna be a bit more calm after watching your videos ❤️ I hope your meet & greet will go well so that you can enjoy this experience with your viewers ~

[@julianitahutt]

I am so glad you're back, so in love with you and your personality! Thank you so much for being so open about such sensitive topics

[@charliecaturnip4438]

I'm so glad you're back! I'm happy to see you aha (love this haircolor) I can relate a lot to what you said because I put so much pressure on myself to find a job and work on my own too and I feel bad when Im too tired to do anything wich happens a lot because I can't sleep because I'm too stressed and it's a vicious circle and then I feel like I don't deserve having nice thing happening to me because I don't try hard enough..

[@non-qd1rg]

i love u mei and i'm really happy to see that ur feeling better. i know depression is a hard thing to fight back and a difficult thing to talk about but i'm glad that u are pushing through it and opening up to us along the way. thank u for taking the time to update us :) welcome back!

[@thearevalisim]

I can totally relate! You always learn something from depression, things that you been lacking! So good to see you back! Love the orangy color! 🍑 xoxo

[@coboopoo123]

I struggle with bipolar disorder type 2 so this video was very relatable to me. I've struggled a lot with suicidal thoughts and depression while trying to do well in school and life. The tips you gave in the video for self-care are actually quite helpful because even though I'm doing a lot better, I still struggle with being too hard on myself and giving myself adequate breaks. I never thought of using meetups with friends and other fun things to help motivate myself. So thanks for opening up and making this video!

[@h0neychai]

sending u SO many virtual hugs mei... sharing your experience with depression has rlly helped me come to terms with my own.. in fact, hearing you speak about your reasons for feeling that way reaffirmed my suspicion that depression was actually affecting my life bc so far I’ve been in denial. So thank u girl. Rlly appreciate u being open about your thoughts, for others like me who wouldn’t dare try to. xx 💛☁️✨

[@peach_moon]

Halfway through the video rn. You are the main person that has inspired me to take better care of myself. It really helps a lot.

[@athmosskep1er297]

mei, youtube is recommending me some of your old videos and i'm absolutely obsessed with them! i love everything about the way u talk its super soft and soothing to the ears. ✨

[@paolamarchetti9841]

I'm glad to hear that you're feeling better! And love your looks, as always, you're such an inspiring person :)

[@salmaramirez3315]

Mei you are amazing to go through a lot and come back with that vibrant vibe you give off to us. Your videos are always so calming and enjoyable. Your meet and greet is in 2 days and I wish I could go to tell you the amazing you are. Keep sending those warm vibes out to everyone mei🌼🌻💛

[@anab.7450]

Glad you are working on getting better. It's important to take the time you need. All ages have this issue of depression. Every generation has this.

[@violentbadger6401]

Mei you continue to be such an inspiration, even on hiatus you are such an incredible creative person and I'm so glad you shared a little of what you've been going through

[@RedShockOfHair]

Depression is terrible.... Hope you get well soon and See the light in the World and in yourself again 💕

[@charlottetomasin9019]

Mei, i absolutely LOVE your hair and look! Also, please understand, bad days and feeling shitty is fine, we all have our days! Life is not perfect, and we have to learn along the way! Don’t forget to take time for yourself, and do things you enjoy doing, and just living life to it’s fullest, it will make things 100000% better, because you only live once! Love you Mei, and please take care of yourself, eat well, take a break from time to time! ❤️ Remember, we’re always here to help and don’t forget that you’re not alone!❤️

[@shortcak3u124]

You brightened my morning, you talking about these kinds of things makes me not feel alone.

[@saphira074]

when you seriously consider to fly around the world to go to this meet and greet just to meet and hug this beautiful, lovely person! I'm so happy that you feeling better!

[@lizhang672]

Lovely Mei, you are such an inspiration! Talking about depression is very very brave, because it is such a heavy subject. I also suffer a lot from depression and it can be very hard because a lot of people don't understand (they think I'm only seeking attention, which can be very frustrating) Hearing the way you talk about it gives me hope and reminds me that I'm not alone. It is also a great reminder to take it step by step, one day at a time. Thank you so much for this! Lots of Love Li

[@violetmoon397]

I totally missed your chill makeup sessions! Honestly your videos like this are so calming and tranquil as fuck! I love to see you career moving forward but also hope to see you have more videos like this again 🤗🖤☺️

[@gaberoniexx]

I’m so glad you’re back!! Thank you so much for the insightful an beautiful video and thank you for always being your gorgeous self ❤️❤️😁😁

[@hailtothedarkduck]

It's good to see you back Mei! The orange looks beautiful with your blue hair, and that top / dress picks out both colours so wonderfully! Glad you're looking after yourself and reminding yourself that you're worth looking after, because you truly are

[@fannylord-b5566]

I'm really happy that you're back! Your videos have always inspired me so much and made mefeel good and motivated. Honestly, I've been through some rough times too lately and I'm slowly trying to recover, so this video really....it made me feel like i wasnt alone, like things would be okay. I hope you realize you're worth all the self care and love. We love you and we'll always be there to support you, mei

[@theadrenalizedartist6843]

Your video is helpful. Been going through it myself, initially due to grief, worsened by some other personal events. Take care of yourself. For me, I no longer apologize or stress if I can't do everything that is expected of me. Hugs. Glad to see you're back.

[@elisabraga1251]

mei!!! it's so good to see you back, and doing better

[@crispigirl98]

So happy to have you back! I’ve been having a tough time lately too but having you talk about depression and how you are feeling and dealing with it truly helps me. I wish I lived in the US to go to the meet and greet hahah oh well;; lots of love Mei thank you for being there 💓💓💓

[@aideens8334]

Mei thank you so much for making this video!! I can totally relate, self-care is super important and your trip to Kyoto will be totally worth it. Take care

[@genetem]

oh mei. I know there's not much words can do, but you have no idea how special you are to all of us. When I first began watching your videos i had immense depression, but over time your videos helpled me to find life in art again. much love

[@zoeliendo8717]

I missed you, it's good that you came back ♡

[@britthau]

Glad to see you back! Definitely take the time to care for yourself! I can tell you seem down in this video. As a fellow depression sufferer I feel for ya! Love you!

[@CalmfulASMR]

We love you mei, it's so good to have you back ♡♡

[@at-xh1yv]

i agree with you about how it’s easy to get upset when you’re not the best version of yourself. of course, only some people can feel this way & i understand it. it’s terrible i feel like it won’t go away for me either. i just recently found out i have depression-actually i don’t think i JUST found out, but i’ve now admitted it to myself. because i now admit that i’ve had it for the past ALMOST three years... it’s terrible. :( i hope you get well soon i love youuu i’ve been watching you for the longest time!!

[@takyume]

videos like these are therapeutic to me, I can always relax and destress.

[@brendaluo27]

I’m glad you were able to spend some time with self care and that you are back! I love how simple and gorgeous your makeup tutorials are!!

[@StillDollSyndrome]

I'm so glad your back and doing better. I can relate so much to your situation. Thank you for the advice and kind words.

[@angelacheng6988]

Mei so happy you're back

[@saskiasearle9839]

Missed you so much Mai ! 😊💜 you are the only youtuber for me that I don’t skip ANY of your videos because all your content is beautiful, relaxing and connecting! I always love these videos where you do your makeup and chat, usually I don’t like chatty videos from any other KZbinr but yours are so exquisite and make me happy 💜🦋 Glad you’ve took a break and are hopefully getting happier, slowly or fast just as long as your always happy, love you Mai💜💜💜💜🦋🦋

[@dervlam4698]

Love this simple look, and glad to see you back!

[@laerynplankey9320]

im glad to see you back, i missed seeing your videos. they are always so genuine and i really appreciate when you allow us a glimpse into your world. i hope things continue to get better for you!

[@miamischannel5714]

I'm so happy you're back! You're one of my favorite KZbinrs and I really missed you during your hiatus!

[@Trislovesu]

I have depression too so ik what you mean. I've had it for about 8 years now but I was diagnosed back in December. My family can't relate, so I'm glad that people on social media platforms are opening up about it because sometimes it seems like everyone else is fine and you're not.

[@selinageorginekuyembeh8466]

Very glad that you're back. And you're right. It's okay to take a break. I hope you're feeling more happy and relaxed. 💕 Thank you for sharing yout story. It makes me feel like I'm not alone in this.

[@may6v6]

mei! i just want to tell you im really really proud of you. youre working hard and youre doing well ! youve said a lot of insightful things thats helped me im grateful and i admire you a lot

[@milicadobrosavljevic6828]

Thank you for sharing despite it being personal Mei, not sure if you're fully aware of how much people you don't know irl actually care and worry about your wellbeing, so proud of you for fighting through the tough times, nothing but love and support for you honey, you really do deserve it ♥

[@emaciatedunicorn]

hey first of all: I'm glad to see you're back and I hope you're hanging in there! and second of all: NEW CAMERA AND SOUND AND BACKGROUND WHO DIIIISSSS

[@Xiao_the_karma_guy]

I just hope that you feel better now, just be yourself, you deserve all love, all good things in this crazy world. I hope your life will be exceptional ! Fighting Mei ! 💮

[@PixilatedGrace]

so happy that you're back! i look very much forward to all of your upcoming content!

[@atzil.7846]

You always help me a lot, thank you Mei, love u. I'm happy that you're back, stay strong. 💗😄

[@jungkuwk102]

omg im so in love with your hair and makeup ahh im so glad to have you back ! xx

[@Jess-xb2ow]

So glad you're back and are feeling better! Hopefully we've got some exciting things to look forward to from you this year!

[@lucindachambers3855]

I recently returned from a trip to Tokyo and Kyoto, and there are definitely ways to travel more cheaply! My trip was two weeks long but super budget friendly, if you do your research there are plenty of ways to cut costs. And its so worth it, Kyoto is incredible!

[@andreaxisa]

ahh i love this hair color on you!!! so glad to see you back and I’m also really happy you’ve chosen to take things easy

[@athmosskep1er297]

all of mei's hairstyles are iconic ✨

[@MsSmoshlover1]

loved this video

[@katscozycorner]

It must have taken a lot of courage to discuss everything you've been through on camera, but it's also nice to hear about your experiences (I've had my own tough time recently, so hearing you talk about caring for yourself and happiness and what you try and do for yourself was really inspiring). Thank you so much for this! You're awesome girl! :)

[@Lorettesalardaine]

we love you Mei, don't go to hard of your self !!! take care !!!

[@daniellaolivier52]

You're just so pretty! I just want you to know that I'm so proud of you and everything you have accomplished, don't beat your self too hard I know it's hard but don't forget you are amazing. Love you!

[@LadyMidnight169]

Awww girl. Wish you much love Remember that our "imperfections" make us uniquely us. I'm also psyched that you used Em cosmetics. I love Michelle and her line

[@LauuPoyntter]

Your background is just amazing and so relaxing,i really love this whole video. I really appreciate that u talk about this and also im so proud of u.I hope the best for you.

[@Mhikyaa]

We've missed you so much!! Thanks for being open about mental health, it really helps like you have no idea, also the makeup it's beautiful!! Thanks for coming baaaack💃💞

[@violettaleggio7443]

I'm glad that you're feeling better! I've missed seeing your videos but don't be too hard on yourself

[@SafaArt]

I’m so proud of you for having the courage to talk about your own experience🌻

[@pinkspirit6986]

How is your hair so healthy? You've had so many colors

[@ayeeeallison]

It probably helps that she gets her hair professionally done, and hair masks 😁

[@joycelynyanyan]

Some people swear by using Olaplex as well!

[@hanatsukiangel]

Protein treatments like aphogee 2 step (like 3 bucks at Sallys for one use if your hair is shorter) kept my hair healthy when I was going through 50 shades of pink and purple and now blonde (my hair is naturally black)

[@loveisinfinite1997]

Adorable 🎀💖💟 There's nothing wrong w/ talking about the dark things because they are as part of life as the happy things. Like u said, we just gotta balance it. I feel more positive & hopeful thanks to you 😊

[@idislikemints]

That look and background? Love it. My favorite this far. And welcome back!

[@soye.carmin]

Mei! I'm so happy to see you and I completely understand, it's okay to take a break when you need one. Thank you for uploading! 😊

[@alexrohler7780]

I feel so happy to see you back, missed your videos so much, I feel like you are the only youtuber that I feel so emotionally connected to, you always say something that I really need to hear, you discuss stuff that really bothers me, make me think about it, see it from new perspective and, in long term, I guess, make me happier, thank you so much for coming back 💖 btw "we all kinda fked up" is so true lol

[@mandyw.8438]

It is very brave of you to come forward. Although every person differs on their experience on depression, it always helps if the subjects can be talked in public without any judgement

[@someoneyoumightknow2795]

Thank you so much for this video I'm been living with depression for years with psychologic support being a part of my hebdo life I just started a therapy that is supposed to make me remember what was life like without depression or something so I'm in a very hopeful moment It's crazy, how the mind works, but I wish for you to find that ground where you can do what you wish for

[@beckypena3906]

I love you so much Mei! I'm so glad to hear that you're better~

[@Hickypocky]

Glad you have a time for yourself and feel bit better :) Idk this words can helpful, I’m still struggling w depression while really long time and it continually pressing me.But I think it has little positive thing that make us look around our lives. Small things that we’ve been missing. Beautiful, keep your chin up! I’m here for you with your subscribers;) 💕

[@lovelyday1670]

im glad you took time off for yourself !! we will love and support u no matter what 💖✨💘💖💕✨

[@Grace_0128]

I can’t help but feel so much these days tbh I’ve been struggling a bit with my own shit and dealing with my own expectations of me and with school and etc. so hearing from someone else too feels comforting ik were all not perfect and ofc everyone deserves self care! I’m just trying to remember more and more that this time in my life like so many other times that have been rough I can ride along and deal with. Sigh anyways I love this love I dig warm colors a lot!

[@auradish9618]

So glad to see you here again! :-) I missed u ! I am so glad to hear u are doing better too💖