Who I Am - Nick Gisburne

Who I Am
By Nick Gisburne
Full text (extended with new verses):
gisburne.devian...
It is time for me to show myself, for us to meet at last
I bring words to end your journey, for your life has almost passed
Do you see who stands before you, calling Death to bring his kiss?
Listen closely, hear my answer to your question: 'Who is this?'
I am pieces of a puzzle which you could not make to fit
I am how you felt when you had hope, and when you wasted it
I am questions you refused to ask, too fearful of replies
I am truths you took and tore apart and tainted with your lies
I am beauty, locked within your soul, imprisoned there by hate
I am precious moments, ruined, you can never recreate
I am innocence, forgotten and long hidden from your sight
I am grief, I live in memories, returned to fill the night
I am rage at what you did not change because you never tried
I am courage; all you had to do was call me to your side
I am passions you will never know, emotions filled with dust
I am what you see through blinkered eyes and label with disgust
I am plans you did not build upon, ambitions left to rot
I am all the things you longed to be, and everything you're not
I am hopes and dreams you put aside, abandoned on the way
I am longing, yearning, aching for a new and better day
I am knowledge you once hungered for but did not eat your fill
I am captain of the ship of life, its engines cold and still
I am time you never gave to those who needed it the most
I am life within this empty room, with you, the silent host
I am what you say you really are, but none of it is true
I am faded friends, long left behind; they do not think of you
I am countless interlocking parts which cannot keep you whole
I am surging tides of emptiness which flood your hollow soul
I am what was pure and perfect once, but lies now in the mud
I am venom spilling from your lips and poisoning your blood
I am stolen fragments of your heart which love did not return
I am flames of guilt and deep regret, the shadows as they burn
I am wishes, each impossible because you won't believe
I am payment, all that you deserve, and all you will receive
I am all the things you could have done, the things you did not do
And in death you see just who I am, and know that I am you

[@RoyTheWolfie]

This just made me realize so many things at once that I just cannot think clearly.. Amazing

[@kitrana]

well done very good poem thanks

[@Gisburne2000]

Thank you, I enjoyed creating this and I'm pleased you like it. The darkness in this one is a little different from that of my other work, which is a bonus.

[@ruthybev]

Brilliant as always I listened to it twice and am sure i will revisit it again, thank you

[@MabusZero]

Deep, simple, and haunting. Magnifique.

[@Orourkebanjo]

Thank you for sharing your remarkable work.

[@ARTOFZNEROL]

Hi Nick, we've only known each other for a short time and I wish I could understand more of the content you are conveying. But I can already see that you have a very elegant and brilliant style. That impresses me a lot! I look forward to hopefully further conversions or virtual encounters. . .😎

[@Gisburne2000]

I am really pleased with how this one turned out. I wish that poems would appear in my head a little more often, but I'm happy to settle for quality over quantity :o)

[@Rhonda9]

This is by far captured me. It is me as well.

[@Gisburne2000]

Thanks, glad you like it, it's something which turned out better than expected. Must try to do more!

[@cristymrtnz]

Really rare! I love it!

[@Maddyisnotshort13]

Extraordinary!

[@JellaMonTaco]

I am very fond of the dark themes you seem to be fond of writing. Like i don't think i've read any one of your poems i didn't like, and enjoy how much they vary. Like there's a poem like the aforementioned, to something like zombrianna. I think that my favourite, if not just one of them - is definitely "the takey men".XD. But thanks, i'll have a look and hopefully be able to get one after saving up some pennies. :)

[@Gisburne2000]

I'm far less prolific a writer than I'd like to be - I have to wait until the poems 'appear', which is an infuriatingly rare event. Looking for a needle in a haystack is probably the best analogy. I have a million ideas, which is a different thing altogether, but I can't force the process - I have plenty of abandoned pieces which are testament to that. It may be some time before you find a book of my poems, but I will certainly create one at some point. I am as keen to see one as you are :o)

[@timmy18135]

So beautiful🍭🍭

[@HerAeolianHarp]

Quality over quantity, indeed. Well done. (Sure beats having writer's block, too!) All the best, E :)

[@joeherald9293]

this is the saddest thing I've ever heard.

[@Gisburne2000]

My own poems seem to be few and far between unfortunately. I think this is one of my better ones, but I hope you enjoy the others too :o)

[@JellaMonTaco]

I'm sorry i can't remember it's name, but i remember being read one of your poems in school quite a while ago. I think it might of been the castles of cardboard one, where the girl ran away and became homeless. I'm in college now, but still remember being read that poem. I thought it was brilliant - still do, and have to agree with fuzzy nipples when i say that you really should have at least one book. :D

[@DragonMagi]

Dammit Gisburne.

[@ZenDeeby]

Gah. I relate way too much to most of what is listed. Why is it that what is true hurts the most?

[@Gisburne2000]

I do have 2 books available on Amazon if that helps, the second of which is 100% poetry. However the subject matter is not to everyone's tastes :o)

[@cristymrtnz]

Wow! You're something

[@Gisburne2000]

I had a feeling you would be the first to comment. Thanks! Hopefully the next peom will arrive before this one applies to me!

[@premed2]

That's really fucking depressing Nick, and excellent.

[@Gisburne2000]

There is a little bit of everyone in there, and perhaps a little too much of me.

[@jasoncoker1625]

💜

[@DragonMagi]

Might there be a place where I can donate?

[@jasoncoker1625]

🖤🚬

[@Gisburne2000]

Something else I wrote, which is similar in many ways: gisburne.blogspot.com/2020/01/the-bleakest-show-on-earth.html

[@Gisburne2000]

@The Watcher The Fourth Not dead, writing more than ever before. Check my blog. Thanks for your support.