Grief Talk | Break Downs/ Opening Up

Thank yall for listening to me talk. Kale holds such a special place in my heart and I feel like he would want me to be open and honest to help me get through the pain of losing him way too soon. Being a young widow was and still is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through. I am not perfect and I never ever will be. But being open and filming all of this is so healing in a way. A few months after I lost him is when I started filming TikTok’s just venting and the weight off my chest afterwards is so relieving in a way. There’s something so weird but so humbling about venting to strangers on the internet. Hopefully y’all get it and if I haven’t responded to your email yet, I have them all archived for the day I’m ready to respond to them! Thank you guys so much for everything. Y’all are making my dreams come true by making this my official job and I am so grateful❤️‍🩹

[@mikehunter7048]

After finding my wife dead for no apparent reason, without any type of warning and without being able to say goodbye, closure has been impossible. I will grieve in one form or another for the rest of my life. I accept that. I have learned grief is like a suit of cloths we wear day in and day out. Some days that suit fits real well and we manage to get through the day without breaking down. Other days that suit does not fit well at all. Those are the bad days. No matter what kind of day you have it is the same set of cloths you wear. Grief will always be with you. Don’t ever apologize for how you feel either publicly or privately with or without Zack. Grief is personal and takes many shapes and forms. There is no time schedule for going through the grieving process.

[@vancollins6235]

I've been widowed 11 years and it's still difficult at times. Just keep your faith and keep moving forward.

[@mikewarren9850]

Jojo, I am new to your channel, and while I don't know the event(s) that lead to your past husbands passing, I want to thank you for being open with your grief and feelings, is not only good for you, but I also believe you are helping others dealing with grief and trauma in their lives. I can only imagine that Kale was a good man and you loved him very deeply. However it sounds like Zach is a special guy also, it takes a special person to help sweep up the pieces and try to help putting you back together. I hope that the two of you together can continue to overcome your loss and grief, and build a wonderful long life together

[@russkunz3949]

BEAUTIFUL words nicely said

[@MegaPedro1975]

Grief is love with no where to go. 💙✌🏻

[@troydaigle1260]

That is a great way to define grief and love.

[@ericvantassell6809]

dang, I wish I could think of things like that

[@RS-pq5mo]

Just remember, there is NO time limit on grief... !!

[@MichaelGumkowski]

This is very true

[@danw6014]

I lost my friend and mentor to suicide a few years ago. The best advice I can give you, stop trying to find the answers to why something happened. I spent a good deal of time trying to find an answer to why my friend shot himself and why i didn't see it coming. The answer, like a horse that's pawwing the dirt, he didn't know what else to do and the was the end of it. The depression left me at that point i stopped looking for answers to unanswerable questions and start thinking about the horses i watched him work and the horses we worked on together. Stay away from pills or alcohol. No one ever found peace or happiness in the bottom of any kind of bottle. May the wind always be at your back and the sun always shine upon your face.

[@JojoSnow01]

Thank you❤

[@David-ve8pk]

Great advice! It is like taking a prescription medication where most people can take it and don't have side effects but there are always those who have side effects and can be deadly. The grief of loss is something that you can't put a finger on when someone is close and there's no "closure" between you and the person that was lost. I had taken family leave during 2021 between September and December and after the leave, I knew my job was over, my marriage was was almost over and my self esteem was in the shitter where I didn't give a shit about anyone and I didn't care. Then I looked at God again in a different way, though I didn't get divorced, I am still shutting down from any kind of affection or intimacy with her. We get along as long as we don't talk about deep things. It is better to be in a place you are familiar with then change your situation to something you don't know as long as you don't have to deal with something really new and undoubtedly expectations were never intentional or desired to be in. Talking through it does help. 😔

[@KC-ed6jt]

You have no idea how much your words have settled in my heart. Thank you for sharing 🙏

[@jacobhendrickson8935]

I fully agree on the meds part, meds are the worst thing that ever happened to me. You might feel great at the beginning but it always comes back. More meds is temporary the cure once again and it always comes back. A never ending cycle and you gain wait and just feel terrible all the time. Wouldn’t wish meds on my worst enemy.

[@charleslong8634]

​@@JojoSnow01Jojo I do feel your pain all the holidays I haven't to a Thanksgiving or chrismas it over 10 years am in tears I haven't seen my kids in that long I was in.love with my wife she got every thing like I said I disowned my siblings for what they said about f your kids my ex dirty me up along with my no good ex brother in law he was a dirty sheriff I mean dirty he should habeen fired I know he stole over 160 grand in a drug bust am in hell every day I take Valium witch it works takes the edge off I set in my house 24 7 I feel worse than you do I mean I know you lost your husband I don't know what happen but I lost all my family so we are kinda in the same boat what my wife did behind my back tore my heart out I went ice fishing this year fir a week and I tought I have no 1 the farmer came down too check on.me I was in tears am in tears right now it sucks to be me I was dating a lady off and on I caught her lieing that was the end of that be nice to find a honest women there are none she my ex Saud every thing she did while I was working from Jan 2 to middle of April 8 years I did this she only cane diwn 1 time she would get to fly 1st class every 2 weeks 8 years my friend I thought was my friends was having sex with her and the worst thing today is 3 21st am way older than you but the worst thing she did I can't say I was married before and I had a son and daughter like this nasty women I have a son and daughter I been wanted to get ready to go drag racing I now feel I don't want to I been doing it fir a long time and I give my trophy away I don't have a single 1 see if I die she gets my ssi but if I commit sucide that bitch doesn't get a dime and I made a hell of alot of money and with the drag racing pays me pretty good when I go my mom blamed her self for my motercycle accident see my Sr year I was ranked 11 in iowa that was in high school diving but I had my 1st football game on Friday night I was selling my 125 Honda to a guy they asked me to stay for chilli dogs I said let me call my mother she told me to call her I did she was full blooded Italian and coukd cook she was having meetballs boy I said I got to go home and I thank them for there offer I was at a red light and thus stupid old lady did a lane change I hit her going about 7 to 10 mile an hr I took her front bumper off my left leg got caught with my front wheel and I broke my left ankle I remember my ankle was folded back and I coukd see my bones I lifted up and laid back down and passed out I spent 28 months in a cast that blew see in high school you can dive only 1 meter board I was 14 years old at the time working out on a 10 meter board I was going to fly to ft Lauderdale Florida for a meet a week after I broke my leg I wanted to hang my self I would have went up against Greg luganus I had no chance but to be invited down his coach wanted to see what I had it was my door way maybe Olympics shot and I did dives for my age and my mind set I could have had a shot with Greg's diving coach there was a right up about it so after I heeled up and running and working out I buried my mother with 10 gold diving medals and my son from my second marriage buried her with his homerun Medals I miss her every day am in tears so please forgive me ill let you go you can't use telegram sending stuff they still your information from there I just need some1 to talk to and am.not scared to cry I really thoght i.married the love of my life but it was the ho of my life and what bathers me I hear my mom saying I wonder where you would have been in diving I wish you wouldn't came home fir dinner that day I have a picture the only meet she came to her best friend wanted to see me dive my 1 dive it a required dive it was a reverse dive I got 10 from all the coaches you do 6 dives I git all 10s I set the school record pool record and they only I don't know hiw it was done but I had 239 85.something like that that what I ended with my last dive was a 2and a half pike and I zipped the water not a splash I got 10s on it I should have like in the 300 it was 2.9 degree of difficulty you time that 2 9 and time 30 I was in the 300 my mom didn't see it but she used out the coach out bad people was booing I just quit that was my jr year and here's my mom seen just 1 dive and she letting the coach have it they say you have to forgive and forget I can still hear all rather cheering and clapping and I new at least I knocked off 2 records and a guy name Steve spikes he lives in.kansas in lauska I don't know if that's right just googel Steve spikes iowa state diver he taught me alot 3 time high school champion but when I meet him he seen me go off that ten meter board and at iowa state they did not have 1 but he held 7or 8 national championship he tought ne he was at that meet and he told my coach he said boy you screwd him so I was a Jr and my Sr year he had me doing every thing put me on roos I was doing ever dive above 2.7 and he said am going to sit right on the bench and count your score then am going to let him have it I had alot of collage offers I did all that work for nothing like I said played football Friday night I broke my leg Sunday evening well sorry I talked so long am depressed about every day cause I have no 1 who need friends when they did what they did and like I say what is love it wasn't her am in tears I gotta go I hope we become friends and you can tell your husband if he the jealous kind hell ill talk to him too kinda funny if it was ylthebsame day if you was talking today buy hope your ok I know your feeling but in a diffrent way bye smiles

[@bobbymoore7162]

You are not a burden you are very much loved and needed

[@user-gs3km6ds2z]

I found you because I love farming and all the equipment you use. The grief you suffer is incomprehensible. One day at a time. Best wishes.

[@woohu2u2]

My wife's been almost two years and there are plenty of things that set me off. I feel the same way you do about being alone. Even my kids don't understand the closeness that my wife and I shared.

[@JojoSnow01]

RIGHT! you can’t expect even the closest family to ever understand that pain! It’s an entirely different relationship and that’s okay!

[@jasonstefanuk3579]

Great video. I was widowed at 30. With 3 children Remarried at 35 and divorced at 50. Now I am 68. I speak from experience on this. Look up the term complicated grief. Find a qualified grief counsellor and deal with those issues.

[@ronaldmoyer5129]

Your vlog on grief is spot on. It can hit you anytime for any reason. You comments sound as though you have an advanced degree in the subject, but I know you are just going with the flow so to speak. Being open and having lots of support seems like the key to me, and you seem to have it. Blessings ! RonfromKY

[@jdeidiker]

The Bible says the two shall become one flesh, so yep it hurts. No, I haven't lost my wife, but I know it would hurt.

[@Shortgrass796]

Not only find a therapist you are comfortable with but also Zac. It is extremely important that he assists you on this journey you are going through!

[@MegaAcco]

You're right jojo just vent every now and then grief is an ugly thing but you give me and others positivity watching your videos just be you love

[@1wamnut]

I wish I was 30 years younger because I would come out and give you a hand with things. I'm a disabled combat veteran with severe combat PTSD. Working outside, usually alone, and tending to nature is one of the best therapies I've encountered. Please stay strong.

[@markdavis1363]

Hello! I can understand your situation, sometimes there is no real answer why we lose a loved one. It's very very sad,but that's just how life goes. It's not fair by any means. But praying along sure helps. Your husband now is a blessing to you from God but you know that already. God bless you and your family. ❤

[@bevcamren1316]

Wamnut praying for you too,dear one

[@byronchandler3238]

I have 4 mini donkeys to keep me happy, best friends I've ever had. I can tell them anything and they listen with no judgment. They depend on me and I depend on them. Find your happiness. You will!

[@rockypyle2879]

I had gone to a psychologist at one point in my life, After a few minutes she asked me why I was there? I said that I felt that I had needed to talk to someone... She asked about my friends and I said that I had the last one move away. She said find some new ones and use the phone for the old ones, BUT DO NOT isolate myself and KEEP talking, Someone will help you find the trigger that you are so in need of. I never needed to return. I now truly know we have all the answers if we can only find the right questions... You are Loved by so many...

[@homernextdoor5950]

"Whether we like you or not"? Who could not?!?! Your such a n honest , loving, caring, breath of fresh air! Hang in there kiddo! Cheers from Canada !😁🇨🇦

[@pnw224]

On October 28th we brought my dad to the hospital because of back pain and a few other symptoms. On October 29th he was diagnosed with three forms of cancer. That was a shock because he seemed so healthy and there were no signs. After a short battle, he went to be with the lord on November 26th at the age of 60. We laid him to rest on December 11th. He was and always will be my best friend. He was loving, caring, compassionate, forgiving, understanding and sooo much more that I could write a book about him. I’m sitting here in my room wishing he was here, wishing I could give him one more hug and tell him how much I love him and how much he means to me. I miss you dad, you were taken too soon. I’m so angry, sad and hurt. I don’t want to be in this world without him..

[@rickmay198]

You are very lucky to have someone who is willing to allow you to talk about how you feel

[@rwadley15]

Jojo, thank you for sharing. In my experience I can often predict the times I'm going to experience grief however sometimes it can come on quite unexpectedly. Everyone, please remember it's OK to have times when you're not OK.

[@jimchiesa]

Young lady you just keep talking to one another. Hold one another and don't say a word. Everyone has something that they are dealing with. Take it one day at a time. Make everyday the very best that you can make it. God Bless you both. Stay safe and well.

[@Steelhead23]

Lots of hugs for you, Jojo.

[@garyrodlin5659]

I lost an adult daughter 8 years ago now. I was pretty much a basket case for a long time. And time does heal to a certain extent, it takes some of the sting away , and you do learn to cope a little better. You mention anger, that is a tough one. Of course grief is different for everyone. Now I can think of her and smile, not all the time , but just remember that you are not alone. Hang in there . ❤ And commenting has made me feel better Thank you.

[@alanschmidt3460]

Jojo, it’s because you have this huge loving heart, is why you are still grieving. I had a girlfriend that had lost her husband, due to a health issue. They were in the middle of a divorce when he died. I told her that she could still love him in her heart, as long as there was room for me in there. It’s okay to feel how you feel, that’s what makes you Jojo and we love you just the way you are! The panic attacks will eventually subside. I went through this recently and I made it through. I spend many days alone in my thoughts. Brighter days are ahead kid. We got you! You’ve got this! 😊

[@jamie5665]

I'm so thankful that I came across your videos, grieving after the loss of a spouse is something not everyone will understand, talking about it helps me a little, whenever I'm having a hard day I look up ur videos, ur positivity is inspiring. Thank you!

[@stephenferreira3070]

Lost my wife 15 yrs ago.. no one knows how deep one carries it in your heart, hits you in your gut out of the blue. Comes back at you without warning. Never leaves, part of your life book. Cuts deep. Completely with your pain, understand. Respect 🥺

[@lisafenno4563]

There's no time limit on grief because you never forget your loved ones. When the bad times happen, let it happen. It gets better each day. Dont put pressure on yourself as though theres a certain time to move on. Unfortunately its a process, there will great days and not so great days, and that's okay.

[@robertpetricko4846]

Your a Very Brave and Courages Woman. It Takes time to Heal and Your on the right Track. Please don't give up!!!. I am a Retired AF Medic/ EMT and worked in Hospitals a lot. Grief can be a Dangerous thing like Alcohol if not handled with Care! Like I said before Your on the Right Track. Memories can be a Very Powerful Tool in the Healing Process. I'm sure His Smiling down at You and at the Same time laughing as You take those Ice Cold Dips!! Brrrrrrrrrt. Im also Very sure Hes Very Proud of You! I Know We all Are!! Take Care All My Best 1:52 1:52 1:52❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@user-mq7ih5yf7x]

I do not think there ever was a time limit meant for grief to have. Different thoughts will trigger different phases of grief that will seem and feel like your starting over again. When we love so deeply, the hurt and pain is deep as well. Kale was blessed to have you in his shortened life. Now you have Zach and he is truly a blessing for you. I happen to believe in God and trust in God’s promises to always be with us, love us and hold us in loving arms as we face this world.

[@philthomson9138]

just remember you have 370 thousand pairs of ears that will listen to you. we are here for you

[@retiredlogman]

I remember in high school one of my grandmothers died. My sister-in-law spoke and said that we can not be selfish wishing she is still here. We have to appreciate she is now in a better place. I thought that rather an odd thing to say and then I thought more about it and realized it is these times that your spiritual side enters and can offer comfort and acceptance. You are fortunate that in the loss of one good partner you have been granted another. Not a replacement, a good partner with his own good qualities. I see the partnership you have with Zack in your videos. Good fortune has entered your life a second time. Have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!

[@cowboyflint6]

Jojo - I am sorry for your loss. I lost my wife of 28 years in 2021. She suffered with MS for almost 20 years and reallys struggled. My faith, my friends and my kids are what gets me through. So, not that I know your exact struggle, but I know it somewhat. I miss my wife everyday.

[@tomhorn8556]

I lost a really good friend to cancer. His family asked me to speak at his funeral. Absolutely the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I cried like a big bumbling baby. Life is so precious. My MiL is nearing her end and I’m watching the grief my wife is going through and it’s rough! God bless you, you’re not alone

[@shirleygardiner3264]

I lost my husband 7 years ago...and some days it’s like it just happened. You probably have PTSD from the trauma, so it’s good to go over every detail until it is settled in your mind. I’m an introvert, so I never found a support ‘group’ helpful. Instead I read about 15 books on other people’s experiences which I found very helpful. In my experience it takes about 4 years to adjust to your new life. You’re in my prayers. ❤

[@jimschermerhorn5370]

Love your channel. I follow you and Laura farms. Just watched one of her videos last night and found myself grieving with her on the loss of her grandfather. Grieving is a process and no one should be ashamed of it. I’m a Christian and believe that death is a stepping stone to a new life with God. Thanks for sharing your life with us. Look forward to seeing your next video. Praying for you all out there. Thanks for farming.🙏❤️‍🩹

[@CapitanEngineer]

May our Lord grants you peace and comfort. I’m going through something similar and I can tell how hard and painful it is to suffer alone. I believe that our strength comes from high above, we are weak but with God’s strength we can overcome our pain and struggle.

[@SeanBarnett-yg4cb]

Awe be happy he's looking after you every step of the way dont forget that he wants you to smile he doesn't want you to be sad. Talk to your higher power your a beautiful woman and you're feeding thousands of people with the farm so smile pretty thang and dont stress to much about it. Alwayd remember your somebody's somebody always and forever Ms. Snow ❤☘🌻🌞🙏

[@SeanBarnett-yg4cb]

Do you have a snap chat

[@dems_mtb]

There is no time limits on grieving! You got this, rely of your supports! There is no shame about talking to a professional!

[@timb4569]

Thank You JOJO, I feel bad for your loss. You are such a TREASURE. GOD will continue to Bless you and Zach.

[@captaincrustyradio]

Jojo, "Walking In My Midnight Dreams" came back to me after listening to this touching video. It had been 30 years since we had written it. I had my husband post a short of it, and we gave you a salute at the end. Thank you for sharing your tender stories with us all. Hugs, Captain Sandy

[@stephenbolton5426]

I lost my mother 50 years ago and I still think about her often. Remember the good times and know it ok to grieve for a loved one. Loss will never go away, but it will become manageable. Bless you!

[@chrisstanley1005]

My mate passed in March after four years of cancer -- she fought hard and did everything right with nutrition, exercise, and attitude... So far I've avoided the Anger element of grief, except for the doctor that didn't recognize the symptoms after trying a new immunotherapy that became toxic and destroyed her liver. I've appreciated your videos, seeing something of your process of rebuilding your life, and for the videos like this when dealing with the ongoing grief of your loss. Thank you for that, and may God bless you with happiness.

[@steadyarm]

What I know about life....when you are born you struggle to breath...as you age you struggle with all the questions of life...as you lay in your final position you struggle to breath. If you are struggling you know you are alive...make the most of it.

[@frankcunningham6335]

Started getting your videos in my feed. Probably bc I like these farm videos (wanna be farmer). My son is a cancer survivor(diagnosed at 4 with brain cancer). He is 28 now. When he gets in this emotional situation, he writes...alot. we talk too, but writing is his release. Thank you for posting this. Just knowing others feel this helps.

[@peterprice5896]

I lost a woman who I had a crush on as a kid and as I grew into a man and I was ready to give her love every second of my life……she committed suicide because life got on top of her before I could say remember me well I’ve loved you for years and I want to make you happy I was lost in a black fog for two years it was awful kinda like grounhog day I just found myself lost in thinking about what we might have had……although my story is very different to your what we do share is grief and I take comfort in the fact that she is in an after life and without pain I don’t think you ever get over grief but time teaches you how to process it from one second to the next……..I FEEL YOUR PAIN AND IM PUTTING AN INVISIBLE ARM AROUND YOU TO SUPPORT YOU X

[@rodmuirhead]

Jojo, I’m new to your channel. I’m so humbled by your gigantic heart of giving to others. I’m sorry for the grief, the why questions and your loss of Kale. I’m 62 and lost my only child Matt age 30 on January 26, 2023. Your channel is a great help and resource to many. Thank you very much. Rod

[@naenaew.7442]

I have similar, I am Watching a grown adult slowly hurt themselves thru Drug use. I have tried for Years to help him. I Do not know anything else to do, that I have not tried nor what to do anymore, I have exhausted myself trying. I feel like I just have to go n let him figure out life by himself. I have known him all my life, Blessings and Peace to You All

[@JaminiPadhi]

It's great that you got the xxxx off your chest - you have crossed a big hurdle. If people aren't around to listen to you then talk to any old tree which has witnessed many sad .. you can talk to your dogs .. they understand us, our feelings, etc beyond our comprehension. You have a massive family as "subscribers" & many of these people understand your feelings .. appreciate how you have n are fighting back.

[@alvin4327]

You bring so much light into this world!! ❤ I lost my dad and daughter within a year of each other. One door closes, another opens. It's such a beautiful life!

[@mikedeschner7438]

Zack is a GREAT MAN! He loves to the ends of the earth and back and I'm sure you know this. God Bless you girl, we hear it in your voice how hard it is for you. You're a Texas girl and your strong.

[@witness4312]

You have a beautiful soul and heart,everything happens for a reason,leave the past in the past,always move forward knowing this,I know at times it don't make sense but your a good person and that's a fact,and your ex would not want you to tear yourself down like this,stand tall that is what he would want you to do,trust me on this,sorry for your loss he surely was a good man,just by watching you I'm guessing he was a wonderful soul just like yourself ❤🙏!

[@bryanbishop8973]

I applaud you being so candid. Its not easy. My wife died a bit over a year ago, a victim of dementia, i managed to keep her home all but the last couple of months. Our marriage wasn't the most ideal. We both honored our vows and over the years shared some wonderful times too. I think every situation is different, our reactions and responses are as individual as we are. I've learned not to be to hard on myself. Hopefully thru lifes trials we become better human beings. As the dryland wheat guy and cattle Rancher your day today is quite interesting. I appreciate your sharing every aspect of your life. It brightens mine.

[@peterdyke196]

Stay strong, many are with you, you’re not alone. X

[@jameswilliams977]

Jojo, I’m sorry for your loss and pain. Seven years ago I lost my wife of over 32 years and to this day when I talk about her and the loss my voice will crack. I still love her and miss her. I found hope through a grief support group but that’s not for everyone. I took a line from the movie Shawshank Redemption “you have to get busy living or get busy dying”. I decided that I wanted to get busy living and kept that line with me. I had lots of people tell me they knew what I was feeling and going through. Their comments only angered and frustrated me because no one knows what you’re feeling or thinking about. There is no right or wrong way to handle grief it’s just what works for you. Stay strong we all out here love and support you.

[@fishingdude67]

You come across as a strong woman. Loss is a very human emotion we sometimes never really get over but we learn to deal with. Not being a woman I don't know what emotions hit you hardest but I would say, a good man, like Zack, is there to protect you & support you & I imagine he worries about your well-being. So more than taking about your late husband, communication about you is what's important now & for your family. Though it's good to talk, it's got to be on your terms & what you feel comfortable releasing. Stay strong & look forward to the future. 🤗 😁

[@user-tr7by2oj1z]

Om goodness dont cry, look at the beautiful picture of you and the rainbow you could sell that picture its beautiful. Yes we are here for you ! ❤

[@stever2583]

Trust yourself! Many times we all find ourselves out of our depth. But the statement I rely on most is trust yourself - ups and downs are regular things - what you are going through is magnified by so many influences. You will be fine eventually - it's a process that takes time. We are with you!

[@TooTall553]

Panic attacks are no joke,and once they start you need to head them off. They is emergency med to to quietly bring you back and it is .5 MG pill. I'm vet dealing with grief and just lost my younger brother. You are very strong young lady to deal with panic attacks in the middle of nowhere give it some thought about seeing a professional. I'm new subscriber. Sometimes it is good to have some help, sorry I am rambling full blown panic attacks are no joke🤔🫡👋👍

[@jamesclendenen1357]

Jojo we are your family don't ever forget that!! We will always be here for you!!! You need to let the pain out to heal! Love and Hugs to you dear one!!

[@Busted-Buzzard]

Your grief pulls at my heart, remember we all love ya👍

[@georgehouse4747]

Good morning Jojo 🙏 I just read your story about Grief..strange because when I saw your first blog just recently I saw the smile and humor..I won't get into it much but our story is quite the same. I Also lost 2 Angel's way to early...I lost my wife who I had been with since we were around 15.and my son who was 13..my wife was just 30. Always remember grief and. Memories have no time limit and we learn that No one gets through this thing called life without having to experience it..I know words don't make it easier. Just know that for whatever reason we are left behind their is a Reason..and I do see in your words and face that you know that already 😊..lastly live life the best you can and I can see you are..and know that you Definitely make a difference simply by being here and sharing you with All of Us. ✌️

[@thesilenceoflife453]

Totally understand you. Had a similar situation two years ago. I still have moments today where I'm just sad and have no strength. Wish you all the best.

[@ernieadsett2843]

You're an amazing person JoJo. Love you and praying for you. It's amazing how you and Zach work together and how he understands your sorrow 😢. God, please comfort JoJo in her sorrow 🙏

[@frozefish]

I have found that nature, creativity, artwork, music and time for yourself does wonders for coping and healing. We all are going through different struggles in our lives. I cant imagine what you are going through, but i hope you can find some peace and healing as time goes on. You are helping others too. Keep being you.

[@RoryAnderson-he1pl]

You make me laugh. You make me smile, and now you make me cry. There are no words to lessen your pain. So, I sit here and quietly listen in our experience of be human. You are loved. ❤

[@GaryForgingOn]

I am so sorry for your loss and the grief you have to deal with. I am an old guy with daughters in their 20s so I feel for your pain more from that stand point. My wife and I have been married over 30 years. You have seemed to have found some good outlets for your grief and you are willing to talk about it. I know so many that go through grief and the holidays do make it tougher. Now that I am 64 I see a lot of people around my age passing and age does not make it easier just makes me more aware of my loved ones and friends. When my daughters are having a tough time I will just hold them and tell them I love them and tell them to take deep breaths and just listen to them. I'm praying for you and all those around you. You are doing great and you seem to have some good outlets. We're listening.

[@Ronitgadwal]

Don't know should i write all this or not. I'm so sorry for your loss Jojo. Keep rocking, everything will be fine..God bless you💓 If it comes to opening up then, I too wanna open up my heart. 3 years ago, I lost my great grandmother due to her mental state. It was getting worse day by day, started from forgetting things, hallucinations to forgetting us;her family. Things went as worse as they could. Now, just 3 years after that, watching those symptoms in my grandfather is something I can't explain it just breaks me. I live with my grandparents and i just want to see them happy instead of working in their old age. They still work as I'm a 17 year old, completed my school this year and don't earn yet. To retire them I see farming as the best option because we're farmers and I like farming. I'm researching about farming from last month and almost got my plan and team ready to cultivate around a thousand acres. But to executive my plan, i need an investment of $200, 000 to get better equipments, etc. So it's a win win for us and the investor.

[@slaugh77ify]

Thank you for talking about it. Never be sorry for sharing. You cant heal what you arent willing to bring into the light

[@Nike2141]

The love he has for you that allows you to be you and recover is a gift. It takes a real man to understand your heart belonged to someone and they will always be there. Happy you have that support. I find myself sometimes sobbing and withdrawing. I've always been the tough one in our family and the one they all counted on. When my mom passed a year and a half ago I was destroyed. I know it's not the same as a spouse, but I understand not understanding how grief works. It's a strange thing in our brain that never goes away. I still dream of conversations with her and wake up sad, but relieved. God Bless you two!

[@Barreta72]

Nobody ever understands what you are going thru unless they go thru it. Everyone around would try to tell you have to move on because they just have no idea. I was always the strong one in my circle and when I would break down everyone would want to move far away from me because they were not used to me being weak. Even though I was surrounded by so many people you are always going thru the process alone. For a long time everything looked so big to me couldn't get focused on things I needed to do. It took time for that to pass I still break down from time to time but easier to get thru the days but it is always with you it never really goes away. In the beginning you just learn how to fake it well so everyone would stop asking you how your doing but over time comes strength. Keep moving forward I just started watching your videos you are doing great even though it will always be a part of your life keep pushing if your climbing a mountain you have to keep going to get to the top of it. Every once and a while stop to breathe and you will get your strength back to keep going. One day you will be at the top of that mountain just keep moving.

[@MrTruckerf]

I don't even know how I stumbled on your channel-I think it was the ice baths and your physical beauty, to be honest. But as I watch your videos I learned that you had a wonderful, fun guy for your first husband. After his loss, I figured you would just have videos of a single woman coping with farm life. Suddenly this Zach guy came into the picture and I was afraid you could be rushing into problems. Then I saw the video of you two driving and talking about your backgrounds and I couldn't believe it. How lucky can you get! Another great guy! I have watched him closely and I think he is the real deal. I am 76 years old so I have a little experience judging character. Best wishes to you both!

[@jayhostettler1260]

Some things you will never have answers for and you must remember the good times instead of the last time! I worked with medical stuff for a while and seen very young kids pass away and I always an thankful for ever day because life is really short the older you get you'll realize that Kale and Zach are two important steps in your life smile and be thankful for both! As I watch your videos something tells me some of your music choices are from Kale and the sun sets I love your choices but that getting in the ice bath 🛀 damn makes me shiver just watching!!! LoL 🤣 keep your head up and be careful and thankful!

[@jamiebyrd3124]

I lost my girlfriend many years ago,the constant thing I continued to hear was time heals all wounds. It's something I didn't want to hear because I loved her so much I just couldn't except it I questioned God and everything about my life I will say this you must grieve and do it at your own pace it's OK to miss them that's what love really is and there's no explanation the lord gives and the lord takes time is so precious and we all take it forgranted you'll know when it's time pray for piece of mind, wisdom and understanding God bless you!I love those John deere tractors

[@marioromano6555]

I Know all about Grief Losing 2 Parents in 1 Year and an Aunt Last Year! YES You do have So Much to Live for. !! I'll Offer Prayers for your all around Wellbeing!

[@stuartmay6178]

Jo Jo firstly I would like to thankyou for simply being who you are and the lovley person you are , I recently discovered you on KZbin when I was at a rock bottom moment going thru a grieving process for my nan , I've spent the last 13 years grieving over losing family and best friends I thought it would be different by now but every now and again like yourself I can have a complete breakdown especially over my grandad he was the man who helped raise me and was my best friend , I did have a long-term partner who left me for someone else and I guess yeah it's been a rough year and I didn't have anyone to turn to or talk too and it's been lonely , between the nightmares and panic attacks its been hard to know where to turn , but watching your videos and hearing you explain how you are has helped give me a different point of view to look from , I've also taken up teaching myself how to play acoustic guitar its given me a soothing sort of feeling hearing the music come together and it takes me to another place where feels distant , sorry for my long story , i love watching your videos your advice is golden and your farming videos I find are actually therapeutic in how the machines work and how the corn is sorted :) thankyou Jo Jo and god bless

[@johnrice6543]

Jojo it breaks my heart to hear your voice crack like this, but @ the same time makes me happy to see you smile, keep your chin up girl, all the best...

[@KRAZEEIZATION]

Just started watching your channel in the last 2 days. Dont know how it popped up and I thought “ho hum, another girl on camera channel” BUT… I was wrong being so judgmental. Your videos are incredibly inspiring and you’re a very down to earth woman with zero bull. I love your farm, the space, the machines, the lifestyle. It’s hard work but hard work is a beautiful thing if it’s your life. Regarding your grief for your lost husband, you’re doing fine, I’m glad you’re not on meds or wasting time on a shrink. I’ve had a traumatic few years in my teenage years that will forever be with me no matter what I do and I just lost my mother before Christmas from natural causes. She was more than a mother, she was a great human being, friend and someone I look up to and I’m immensely proud of. Your life is your life and what’s for you won’t pass you buy. Sometimes loss helps us get to the next chapter. We’re always only one decision away from changing our lives. Thanks again for sharing your wonderful story and I wish you and your partner a very happy life together. You’re a keeper and he’s the luckiest man in the world!

[@cisco6926]

After the fires of August 8th, the whole island of Maui has been in grief. We have decided to leave our beloved land, and start again in central California, at another beautiful place. Grief has many faces, has no time limit. It’s always just around the corner, your best friend, and enemy. I have no idea how I found your channel, but I’m incredibly thankful that I did. Thanks for being real! It’s rare anymore. You’ve touched my heart.

[@collinsganson5115]

I first saw your videos of you driving the combines etc. They were so cute and enlightening about the equipment. Then saw the ice plunges and was like WHAT? Who does that? LOL Just finding your grief videos, and they are so real, as all your videos are. So keep it up, and we will all appreciate your efforts to entertain us as you help yourself through all this life you've already lived.

[@steveng1624]

Bless you sweet lady, I hope things get better for you soon, you have such a loving soul I know you are having a real hard time... God bless you ❤

[@pjones7012]

thank you for sharing. i lost my wife two years ago this nov. i did not know this level of sadness existed. my mind still talks to her and my heart still feels she is near. her love will always be with me til we meet again.

[@scottshaw986]

JoJo, losing someone close to you is never easy and none of us will ever have enough words or wisdom to overcome your pain. Our circumstances may be similar but we will never know what it’s truly like to be in your shoes. What I can offer you is that when we lose someone particularly when it’s sudden and unexpected we endure two different emotions. Hurt and anger. I struggle daily with keeping those two apart. Instead I set upon a mission if you will to prevent the situation from ever happening to anyone else again. I’m not aware of what happened to your husband or the circumstances around it. That said perhaps your healing lies in prevention or awareness of the situation that claimed his life. Life is precious. He was your everything. Turn whatever took him away from you into a living and ongoing memory of him. One doesn’t need to start a foundation or a scholarship etc. to honor a loved one although those are noble things. Visiting someone else who is hurting in the same way can also be a healing experience for you and them. There is healing for you! There is hope in your heart. It might just show up in an unlikely way! God Bless you !

[@mikes.4136]

I can really relate to exactly what you’re describing - especially, the constant why’s that still permeate my thoughts. The anger is a more recent phenomenon, and I am/was surprised that I’m experiencing it - and a bit ashamed. Loss is lousy. Thank you for making these videos.

[@user-ov4zq6zl9h]

Hold onto Zack. Let him be your rock in the storm. I lost my wife of 36 years in 2010. There isn't a day that I don't miss her. They say that time heals all wounds. That is only partly true. The grief and pain and emptiness will lessen, but I am sorry to say, it will always be with you, only, in time it will only be a single tear. Be strong, which you are. I don't know your faith, but it will help. Talking, letting it out, prayer all work. It will get better.

[@curleygumbo1487]

Just started getting your shorts in my feed tonight for the first time for some reason. I had watched about 6-7 videos before I came upon this one. I belong to a very exclusive blog group where you can join only by invitation (not listed in the search engines). Most members are over the age of 50, but not all. Several of the ladies and gents in this group have been going through what you have over the last few years as well. Losing the loves of their lives. I shared one of your shorts in the blog where you address this and it got the attention of most of those still grieving their spouses. All supporting you, praying for you and wishing you well, except some saying "hell no" to the ice baths. LOL. I'll keep watching and you keep living your best life.

[@user-vg5st1fy4w]

Jo Jo you do you. Take your time that you need, don't let anyone tell you you have to hurry up. You will always grieve to some point for probably the rest of your life in some aspects. You channel through it as you need and don't ever feel guilty about your weak moments. Nobody knows how hard it is unless they have experienced this themselves. Your new hubby was aware of the situation ahead of time and if he is the man, partner you say then he will be there for the great and the hard by your side. Hang in there and take the time you need. Your doing great.

[@pauloehmen1665]

A great video 👍I’m glad you shared that story with us . I’m sure there is a angel holding you up every day .stay strong

[@jhawkfan8671]

I happens to a lot of us more than you think. Especially this time of year. Dad passed 4 years ago last month. These times always trigger memories that remind you of them, and make the hurt come back a little more. At least that is how I am. These memories can trigger a quick cry, not just in sadness but happy memories. Just do what you do and when needed lean on those who are with you now and don't nudge them away. Love your vlogs, keep em up!

[@joshuathescrapguy3101]

Hi Jojo, I think what you’re doing is amazing keep your head held high and keep shining like a diamond. You most definitely are a therapist in your own right by helping others on here. Thank you for being you. Stay strong and keep on keeping on.

[@mitchelmacarthur9295]

Im proud of you, your stronger than I am. I have a lot of grief and don't open up. I suffer daily and it brings me down. I have been diagnosed with major grief depression. I enjoy all your videos. I do have people in my life but it's hard to open up to most of them. A lot of them like to tell you how you should feel or not feel and they just don't understand. Thank you for sharing.

[@grahamhodder6243]

Thank you for sharing. You are helping others in ways you may not understand, and you are helping yourself at the same time. Grief affects everyone differently, and it helps to know we are not alone. ❤

[@jimhunt5259]

Jojo, thank you, everyone has lost someone. being open and honest with your feelings does help. not only you but everyone that will listen.

[@Wolf1036]

Well JoJo I’ve been married to the same gal for 57 years and we are still going on ! But my grief came from losing my mother at 11 years to Breast cancer and my father of a heart attack in front of my two younger sisters and I at 14. They were 9 & 7 when our father dropped. We were raised by grandparent who took us in at the ages of 66 & 64. Our lives changed on that summer day in 1951. I appreciate your grief but don’t let it define you. Never forget but move on with your life and make it a good one.

[@jasonga]

I feel similar, there’s no point racking your brains asking and thinking why? It’s life and life is cruel….. the pain will Never go away, never…… you just get to used to it over time!!! No meds, no therapy is the best way as there’s actually nothing wrong with you. Luv and partners are like an addiction and they are hard if not impossible to give up….. you’re not alone girl, you can do it!!! Zack sounds like an amazing understanding man…… x

[@markterry5028]

I lost my wife Sept 25th 2021. I was so angry. This message helped me alot. I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with you and then I realized you spent the rest of your life with me. I smile because I know you loved me until the day you went away and I will keep loving you until the day we're together again. Our Angels In Heaven

[@glennspreeman1634]

Granted grief is always wants to lie in the shadows waiting to surprise you. May you work the balance grief. with the awesome guy that Zach is. What a blessing he is! Shoot for being thankful for the wonderful time that you did have together. Lost my wife at 40, 35 years ago. Still have memories, good ones mostly, but live in the blessings now. Time, lots of time, with no timetable.

[@StanDavid-ix6yk]

Thank you for starting this community. It is good to hear from people who are going through it to. For me it's been 10 years. I don't think you ever get over it as if you learn to carry it. Even now after all this time I will hit a trigger that just takes me down to my core. You are going to be okay. While the waves don't stop they will slow down and get easier to take. Love your videos. Hang in there.

[@mpetry912]

Thanks for sharing this ! Best holiday wishes from all of us Jojo and remember the winter is the low point of the year. By all means get the support you need. You're a strong woman and your energy and good humor will carry you forward.

[@BarryBrowning]

Hugs to you Jojo and everyone dealing with loss/grief. I lost my father, the last of my immediate family in May. It had been an up and down, rocky, relationship between he and I but in the end he was still my 'Pop' and is missed more than I realized would be the case. I've kept a lot bottled up and this video helped me to let some of that emotion out. May the Good Lord be with, and give each of us the strength we need, 'One Day At a Time '. / THANK YOU, JOJO!!

[@badova123]

Love your vids. Stay strong you h❤Ave every right cry.

[@chucksaporito46]

Your videos are fun to watch! I hope you don't think seeing a therapist is a bad thing, having someone not blinded by emotion help you sort through your thoughts might be all you need.

[@terrygreer6013]

It saddens my heart to know you are struggling with this. I think grief has stages. I think it's important to not stay in one stage for any longer than necessary. As I hear you talk about the way that Zach listens to you and understands what your going through, only tells me that he is a awesome person. I so wish I could snap my fingers and your pain would end but I don't have that power, however you do. I am not saying the pain will go away, but some day it will become easier to live with. A lot of people out here have grown to love you and Zach. I know I have. If I could I would reach out and give you a big ole bear hug and tell you things are going to be just fine. I know in the dark times of my life I have always found that the Spirit of the Lord offers comfort like no other can. I have also asked why and didn't know the answer only to have it reveled later on down the road. My prayer is the God will comfort and strengthen you as you travel down your life's pathway, and that you will continue to share it with us.

[@BrianWendland-cp9vq]

Thank you for sharing with us. Everything you say is helpful and encouraging. We are not alone. All of us together can help to get through this. Your description of this is so true. I pray we are good therapy for you. You are a blessing to us.