grouper - poison tree (slowed)

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[@crystalfonseca5986]

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[@user-yo1nv8oi6r]

i feel nothing at all

[@user-sl4eb3db9r]

You just feel everything and it's so deep ((

[@Literally_pinocchio]

Same here but it's been going on for sooooo long

[@YtsVilo]

Only the pain in my chest

[@skullqueen1826]

Wrdgaf

[@E4J5]

Real

[@cinnamongirl999]

life is starting to feel like this again

[@barbecueman]

i hate how i look when i cry. i hate how my lips pout, how my face scrunches, how my eyes squint. yet, i can't stop. i cant help but let the tears fall down to my chin and stain my cheeks. i cannot help desperately clutching to every good memory i have and replaying it repeatedly bittersweetly. i have to embrace the ugliness of each cry and sob until they fade.

[@Ami-gb8uc]

2020, many cries, many cuts.

[@Bappobaptist123]

It’s crazy how winter of 2021 was the best and worst time of my life I was so suicidal but at the same time now that I look back I miss it so much, not being suicidal but life was just so much easier and calmer than it is now

[@ry4nlol]

real.

[@thesillyboy4109]

Real

[@YuiMei_DBD]

hmhm..

[@lakshtakundal1192]

same 😢

[@moi-ev3pi]

Nostalgia just makes everything feel better than it was

[@Mangonade69420]

Therapy is expensive but turning to christ is free

[@tonyasa4658]

I saw her in winter of 2021, lost her exactly one year later. She still haunts my mind.

[@espresso5990]

Yah please bless her soul and please heal the family, friends, and others. Toda Yah… I’m so sorry

[@tonyasa4658]

@@espresso5990 She didn't pass away, she's just someone else's. It hurts to see, but life goes on

[@armansinghbhati8446]

​@@tonyasa4658mine passed away in the winter of 2022. It'll forever haunt me

[@RTSclips]

keep it pushing

[@im.redflag]

dont worry abt ppl like her, ik its hard to forget her but she doesnt deserve to be in your head:(

[@bakhmannn]

In my restless dreams, I see that town

[@L0TUZZZEZ]

Silent hill.

[@Derfaelschaer]

I just want to be loved

[@rapmusic3930]

I love you bro

[@Theodore355]

I love you too, and Jesus can love you like no man nor woman

[@Theodore355]

And He does love you like no other, remembering His sacrifice on the cross, for our sins

[@Julial-tc]

I love you and am ready to give you my soul

[@MHB_07]

@@rapmusic3930u don’t love him, stop lying

[@FiveNightsAtFreddys_1]

I feel like I’m experiencing my last moments in life and taking my last breaths

[@roshi1k396]

Are you still alive Bro?😧

[@emilyborishkevich8572]

You good man?

[@lucasaidanbowen]

are you okay?

[@soupe17]

This version comforts me in the moments where I feel the worst. The guitar gives the song an under tone of sorrow and misery but, the sort of piano like melody tells me how everything will be better one day

[@jjaredrdrigzz]

I cannot wait to listen to this all autumn-winter 2023

[@Solid_Snak3]

same, it will be the best feeling of our lives.

[@zitzonrblx442]

@@nightf879 nostalgia will go crazy

[@ssophh222]

doing that rn

[@Dready141]

ong ( it doesnt snow where i live)

[@Breezepm]

@@Dready141real…

[@g_k6s]

got me overthinking💯💯🔥🔥🗣🗣

[@keyomerd5204]

the thumbnail got me to click it, the rest of it literally stunned me, such a powerful winter restlessness...

[@Hadryn]

This music. Has everyone feeling different emotions. But my own is constant repitition. The same thing over and over again. it brings me. a strange feeling of calmness of knowing nothing will change

[@nup5]

I agree with this. looping the video put me in a trance, I almost fell asleep. great repetitive rhythms...!

[@FiveNightsAtFreddys_1]

I feel calm yet sad. I feel like I can’t breathe

[@Am.1888]

It's quiet, but it's not quiet

[@user-mo9xb1cu9k]

I hate myself

[@FrogsonGames]

Don’t ur a god in the works everyone is .

[@viridianarodriguez7217]

me too..

[@seezymount]

don't

[@synthchad7667]

Don't, God loves you, even if you don't love yourself

[@yusepsalazar3815]

Don’t because just imagine what you worked for and what went well

[@Helluvaheaven]

I just want to be myself. Guys, we don't know each other, but I wish you all were happy and loved, good luck in life, your dreams and plans will definitely come true, just believe in it.

[@Menevolence]

I feel you man. Everyone says "be yourself" then you realize no one likes you for who you are but rather what can you provide them. Good luck to you too brother. May we all find peace.

[@Helluvaheaven]

@@Menevolence Yes, I understand, it just happens that for each person you have your own personality, and when you realize that you can't find yourself, you start to wonder if I really make sense? But when you realize that life is life, and it is not clear what can be expected from it, then you begin to understand that this is not the end, even if the situation is so bad that it seems to you that there is no way out, then it is not so.There is always a way out, it's just that not everyone can handle it.

[@Albert_Jaeger]

I just want to be better than what i am, i just want to wake up and not hate myself, i just don’t want to make the people i love angry and nervous becouse of the problems i cause, i just want to be happy and make the people around me, even stranger, happy too. I hate myself.

[@Helluvaheaven]

​@@Albert_Jaeger It’s a familiar feeling, two months ago I had a deep depression, but I did it, I’m sure that you will succeed too, don’t give up while you have time, there is a way out, even if you don’t see it yet.”

[@Albert_Jaeger]

@@HelluvaheavenToday i turned 17, it’s been ten years now that i feel and am like that, i don’t think it will get better, but thanks for the kind words.

[@blackdahliafn]

this song makes me feel like im in the waiting area between two realities, idkkk

[@lovzerr]

fr

[@ssophh222]

yess

[@noog6756]

A liminal space. The transitional space between whatever you imagine, could be a hallway, or an empty school were students used to roam. Some may find it eerie, calm, or both.

[@MdabdunnurKhan]

This is the song i listened to while waiting for my plane to arrive before starting college in a different country. It did indeed feel like two realities.

[@nikaantia8022]

id what? that's a lovely organisation you got there, where can join

[@LaithSamman]

2 years clear from hugs 😂😂 (help)

[@user-iq1dp8pc1c]

4..

[@ABD-jx3ki]

It brings me pain in my chest as if it was my last day

[@sako3xx]

idk if i can do it anymore.

[@sako3xx]

barely thuggin this shi out 🤣🤣

[@luhvr_jina]

@@sako3xxhey are you alright? i saw your comment just now and i immediately just had to check up on you

[@whotrynamrd]

is love too much too ask for?

[@rafidnabil9154]

I wish I could stand under this lamp post in the middle of the night and listen to this music. It would be an amazing experience.

[@its.just_hanza]

This song makes me question “why do I even exist?” Because I grew up with strict parents and they basically yell at me for every wrong decision that I have made, and this song comforts me.

[@Cldxcamy]

I want old times back , the times when school was fun , the time we used to go trick or treating and there would actually be candy and people with Halloween spirit , when really thick snow used to come on Christmas. I miss it .

[@Zykurio]

Real.

[@twilightskyyyy.01]

Each time I revisit this version of the song, it's like revisiting a piece of my past, especially when life feels like a weight on my shoulders. It evokes those moments of pure happiness, back when everything seemed perfect, even though I didn't realize it then. I look forward to returning to this song not when I'm feeling down, but when I'm in a better place, so I can reflect on how far I've come. 🤎

[@ethanhananel569]

I feel like im losing sleep Waking up before the crack of dawn Go to the gym to earn my keep Feelings wash over as i slowly mourn As the sweat drips down my face Stinging my eyes as i am reborn Like a pheonix from the ash Maybe this time it will warm my core

[@lucasaidanbowen]

I am in love with him so much. He doesn't even know I look him in that way, but I cannot stop thinking about him, he haunts my mind and that's crazy how I love him. I know he thinks he's worthless, I just want him to know he is unique. He is the loyalest, kindest person on the entire world. I want to hug him, feel him in my arms, feel his heartbeat. In my dreams I'm in a field of dandelions and wishing on every one that he'd be mine. I can't live without him. I can't even fall in love with anybody else, I just want him.

[@benyounesshayder1201]

The monsters was under the bed but now theyre in my head

[@laylakindafruity]

When life feels like this song:

[@alnajjar1068]

After my father died. I started listening to this song. I feel his loss so much I just want to be by his side. I want to hug him. I feel like I want to give up....

[@arise_femto]

same shit, different day.

[@gtyyttrffftftf5730]

Real

[@identificadornormal]

so change it

[@antweboo]

I think of the cold nights I got through the past 5 years, I am only just now truly reaching happiness and acceptance. The cold nights aren't cold anymore, and I don't feel the loneliness or burn of nicotine anymore. I don't wanna jinx it, but I truly feel free. Free of the grasp of the ghosts and demons of my past, and free of the chains that held me down for so long. It's, surreal.

[@nup5]

I know that feeling. I've only ever felt it once, and even then... I'm not certain it's completely over. Surreal realities are often the least understood; we're talking about a level of emotion that can't be easily put as words. My comment may not mean much, then. But I hope this finds you well.

[@antweboo]

@@nup5 stay safe brother

[@nup5]

me when 2020-2022. those combined years were defined by a deep funk, that I couldn't shake. almost dropped out of college due to my brain utterly crapping itself. I have since recovered. but that was not a good 3-year window. reality sure does hit hard... and it holds no punches! doesn't matter if you're knocked down, or even knocked out. if life's got more punches to throw, it *WILL* throw them at you. you'd be wise to prepare yourself for anything. and I mean anything, all at once. kinda what happened to me, and I couldn't handle it for a few years

[@lxcy0190]

spectrum wording

[@nup5]

@@lxcy0190 it is what it is.

[@user-yf2cn5pm2r]

I made a very serious mistake, I can't reverse it and I feel very guilty, I just want to be loved again :(

[@chrishelm7754]

I feel like I’m alone on a bench in a snow storm watching life pass by

[@Reelprankstergangster]

This hit hard in winter 2022 but it wasn’t till February 2023 is when the mystery illness we’ve all been experiencing for the last couple of months began haven’t felt myself all year numb

[@vortexink883]

Your scaring me at how relatable this comment is can you elaborate more.

[@Kitkit8972]

i feel like every time i take a step forward i go 4 steps back

[@Lu9cii]

This is pure depression

[@bobiznc294]

tha feeling that will become when i listen to this song .......😔

[@elizabeth.anastasiaa]

I can’t wait for winter

[@nicolasbruno829]

Same, I want that warm, soft, quiet, nostalgic night-luminance back 😭

[@tezaksam5247]

​​@@nicolasbruno829i feel like when its winter time its like to look back what youve done and to look what will you do,it feels so surreal and its like when time stops just weird and i want that because im unhappy,this summer was so bad i worked a whole summer,no one ever checked on me,i was just alone going from job to my house alone,and i was hoping to be different than school but it wasnt,no friends no memories nothing to remember but still it was so bad that i will remember that period for the rest of the life Sorry for english

[@nicolasbruno829]

@@tezaksam5247 Yeah, you described it perfectly I love that. I hope you can find peace this winter and afterward, we'll all be looking for it, and I guess we just have to trust that life has good and bad times. Also don't beat yourself up, everybody learns languages at their own pace and I understood everything. 👍

[@tezaksam5247]

​@@nicolasbruno829sorry bro for not answering and in last week i really took life seriously,im trying my best and thats giving me hope for december when like i said for me time stops. And i appreciate your answer and i hope you are doing good.

[@nicolasbruno829]

@@tezaksam5247 Thanks and dw, prioritize life always. I hope you are doing good and keep getting more hope… See you in December 👍

[@realahhjigga]

i wish i could go back to being my happy 6 year old self before everything happened.

[@yaboibroter]

Crazy how everyone wants to feel sad.

[@Tep9000]

This song feels like a dark Strom awaits you in your journey as to see if your able to reach your goal

[@Isitmatthew]

I listened to this 30 times already

[@breadgernades1405]

thats 2 hours bro u good?

[@erion_yt263]

@@breadgernades1405 i dont think anyone listening to this is good

[@cartervonbroda2691]

i fell asleep w this on 10 hours

[@che_marley]

Heavenly Father, giver of life and health: Comfort and relieve those challenged by serious and chronic mental and emotional illnesses. Give your power of healing to those who minister to their needs, that they may be strengthened in their weakness and have confidence in your loving care; through Jesus Christ our Lord.Amen

[@johnhonaker2998]

This song makes me feel like I'm jumping out of reality .

[@camilleryan]

bro, everytime I watch this video, I always get an add beforehand telling me I might be having symptoms of depression that I should get checked... the fact its before this video makes me laugh everytime.

[@bbyd0lly]

no matter how many times I play this song, it never fails to make me cry. I’m crying rn don’t know what I’m doing with life I been like this since he left it’s sad he moved on so quickly like I meant nothing to him, I just want someone to text when something makes me happy or text someone my proud moments knowing they will actually be proud of me, it’s hard to move on especially when you loved someone that much. Everyone says I will move on, I try to smile then let it out at night laying in bed. im not sure if he even cares, I hope he does because I really cared for him.. pls leave suggestions on how I can move on step by step.

[@Nazevk]

Sorry for what you have to go through, I know it hurts I’ve gone through it the same thing before. There’s no method or trick to carry on with life after a person, you just have to understand that the more you leave yourself in that position the more it will hurt the more it will affect you. You won’t be able to be happy if you’re living life of sadness because of a person, the best thing you could do is to focus on other things, start life projects, but don’t let a person tourn you apart from the inside because of a breakup. Here’s a life lesson, you never really fall in love with a person, you fall in love with the dream, a whispering fantasy. Any love is a fantasy. Don’t look for that person anymore, try looking for yourself. You won’t be able to move on if you don’t stay strong, if you don’t let the person go. Everything in life is not about how much a person is depending on you, how much they say they love you, how much they care. What matters is how big their heart is for you, their actions, their words. I recommend staying single, stay single for a while, for months perhaps. I haven’t dated someone in 4 years, I’ve noticed how sadness and depression wasn’t getting me nowhere. Don’t try chasing someone who wouldn’t want you back, not worth it. Trust in the Lord your God, pray to him ask him for directions, to guide your life, to change you. Seek him, you won’t be able to do this by yourself. In Psalm‬ ‭34‬‬:‭4‬-‭5‬ says ‭“I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed.” Stay strong, takes time to move on, you will be alright.

[@martinchircoff9060]

I broke up with her a year and a half ago, i hated her, hated the relationship and how she treated me, i gave everything of me to make her life perfect and in the process i forgot about mine. I lost friends, I argued with my family, I made my little brother cry, I did things, said things that I simply can't forget and can't forgive. I continued with my life though, I'm studying and doing pretty well, I'm going to the gym, I've never looked better, I feel so strong and mature but it still feels as if I'm the same guy who lost everything and has no direction. I accepted the fact that we broke up, I let her go and moved on, but I being in a relationship is the thing that hunts me, being in live with someone and creating memories is the feeling that I most want. But it's not there, im alone, i haven't met anyone. That doesn't mean that there isn't hope, I understood that there are things that are suppose to happen, there are moments that need to happen in order to become someone bigger and better. Look at yourself in the mirror and embrace what you've become and will become, someone beautiful, powerful and capable of being human.

[@Zemiaza]

I feel very weird. Like I’m going to cry and I don’t know why. I’m relaxed any somehow conflicted, tired too.

[@albertodolores]

Una sonrisa del momento Un recuerdo del ayer El se mata en pensamientos Por momentos que no van a volver .

[@viniical]

¿Escribiste esto tú mismo?

[@muramic]

Beautiful ❤️

[@willowum]

Bu şarkıyı dinlediğimde çaresizlik üzüntü hissediyorum. Bazende daha farklı, bilmiyorum eskilerin vibe ını veriyor gibi. Garip

[@adamarrudadelima308]

Will this never end?, Will it be the same thing for my whole life?, I can't take this anymore

[@nanabaydoun6648]

Obsessed >>>>

[@chomp727]

wow when i found this song i was just happy to finally have found a calm relaxed not super sad sleeping music. for some its the same like for me and for some its rly sad. stay safe and strong people! one day! :c

[@br1tico474]

Today I listened to an old audio of hers and I felt sad and started to tear up because I miss her, I liked her but I realized that I lied to myself and I still miss her And I told myself that I didn't feel anything anymore and I would never love again and I'm not going to say goodbye, that's just me venting. Goodbye guys, take care of yourselves

[@ybzuq]

whenever I listen to this song, it automatically brings me back to him. I remember when we listened to this song together while we were watching the stars together. Although it was dark and totally cold. He told me that the Poison tree reflected his feelings. Poison tree is not only the definition of depression but deeper love. We have known each other for many years now and have loved each other for so long, I have loved him. I am wearing now a necklace with a poison tree on it to remember him. To remind me of us. I love you

[@gamerh.t3439]

I am so tired from this feeling I am so empty same shit every day like it's been 2 years now i am getting exhausted I just wanna know did this feeling will stop I really want it to stop i can't resist anymore same thoughts every night same feeling every morning hope one day i can feel happy when i am alone If someone passed this situation please tell me

[@juanenriquemendoza7653]

Look towards the future, not the past. Stand strong, find hope in something you truly believe in. Set a goal, something bigger than yourself, something bigger than “happiness,” “pleasure,” or “joy.” Bet it on purpose Make it about your PURPOSE find hope in that. Never stop fighting for what you believe in. Believe in yourself to support the people who you need you the most, including yourself Find hope in purpose, find hope in the future. What happened in the past, happened It IS, inarguably, history. Stop looking behind you. Eyes up, and focus on what’s in front of you, the ambitions you’ve set out for yourself. Move forward. Rage… Fight… always.

[@donniewalters00]

poison tree and limerence have my heart

[@zxraiiedits]

Fr tho love them both sm ❤

[@fran111]

Esta canción, se siente como el final feliz de una película triste.

[@cartervonbroda2691]

i fumbled her🥱

[@-OopossummzO]

Infinite IKEA vibe

[@69nCRACKED]

If I lose her I lose everything.

[@wynxamatina]

I find this calming❤

[@ykufw.J]

I've been through so much pain I don't feel it anymore I just know it's there.

[@Diagoooo]

I miss her so much.

[@Gnarp_darp]

This gives me such a vibe.

[@davidmtuedwa3165]

for even though ive always been told that seasonal change is inevitable: why does my winter never seem to grow old?

[@Ava24528]

I love this song sm

[@TheFlaminOctanes]

"who have you become?" better than who i was before.

[@Iuvzach]

Bro it's 5:49 AM and I haven't gone to bed yet, i'm a fucking mess I swear to god.

[@Funk0_]

This picture reminds me of the winters we had in Colorado when I was a kid.

[@opt1ons694]

what am i supposed to do anymore? i have no future. all i do is post videos not doing anything. nothings exciting anymore. i js wanna sleep forever

[@jalilqLf69]

Real

[@RV.shorts496]

I lost everyone, i don't have anyone, i am all alone, she left, don't know what to do, voices getting louder

[@user-gl7qs9yv7o]

Talk to someone you can trust and if you can't please talk to a therapist about this ❤

[@Kidjoshua12]

Ok bro look she left you and it’s a good thing she did cuz you still have more time In life and you will find someone better and just cuz she left you doesn’t mean your whole family left so spending more time with family is better then just a girl

[@blanco0949]

had the worst deppresive episode of my life in 2021-2022 and listening to it now literally makes my chest hurt from memories of listening to it during that time.

[@marspIanet]

i feel like i HAVE to show how good this song is, but i cant express in words.

[@adn-pyro7051]

Oh beautiful poison tree... let your power grow in meeee

[@dvnxe]

𖣂

[@Ceylin-yn8cl]

Reminds me of 2021.

[@A41k0_]

I love you stranger.

[@moyelboy3523]

And?

[@L0TUZZZEZ]

I really needed that, thank you.

[@cjshutup]

i love the small guitar plucks so much

[@Lov3leaff]

I love the background

[@Jin_Sakai71]

Winter 2019-2020…

[@gloving4hire]

When I hit the pause menu in life

[@bugbo1111]

It’s just relaxing in a way even tho it’s like linimal space

[@aarontapp-xi8sc]

I think 2012-2019 were the best years of my life. I am 16 now but I wish those times would last. I have so many regrets. I wish me and this girl name Brianna would continue to love each other as we used to but since she is in Florida and I am in the Midwest of the united states this was never possible. I rarely see or talk to her anymore. I have so many feelings balled up inside me I just wanna release them here or anywhere but I must continue to be strong for me and my family and friends.

[@aarontapp-xi8sc]

Brianna If you ever see this message just know I will always love you even if you move on and I won't stop you from living the best possible life you can.

[@RH3TTWA1K3R]

My hamster just passed away, this made me get all my tears out in a good way.

[@karmina_]

New favorite song for sure, tysm

[@zone5036]

The song of this winter

[@santery9968]

this reminds me of the days when i wasnt doing good and brings me a mix of calmness and loneliness. as if it reminds me of who i really am at my core. ik this is cringe

[@bo0ob0o0o]

i feel you 🖤

[@okokayy]

i'm a married man in his 30s with a 9-5 federal government job, i feel you. i'm lonely deep down too.

[@crueldiary]

@@okokayy Trust me, you're not alone, and you're going to feel better, not today, maybe not tomorrow, but you will, something you can try is listening to music that makes you feel happy, it's ok if one day you want to cry and need some music to feel like you want to cry, but try listening to music you like and makes you feel better, it really helps. ❤‍🩹

[@okokayy]

@@crueldiary i had the shittiest day today and have been crying for what feels like the majority of my day, i really needed to read this, thank u i hope ur doing okay on ur side 💙💯

[@okokayy]

@@crueldiary no im listening to icytwat - threat/reckless 😈

[@user-pf8qy3kl4m]

this is the most calming music i ever lisiend 2 i love u bru take care

[@McflurryXD]

*”feels more like a…*dream*..?”*

[@dielcastro77]

Sei lá mano, é triste mas eu gosto ✨💜

[@ubu6420]

i have a love and hate relationship with this song. it strikes nothing but dread and anxiety into me for one, second, this song is used a lot on tiktok on videos featuring people who went missing or who were murdered with tragic back stories. it just leaves you with such a sickening , haunting feeling inside.. god..

[@israelduarte1189]

When you want to cry but you just cant anymore. When youve been through so much and put yourself through so much you cant even sympathize with yourself or anyone.

[@polarzxo1530]

had a super realistic dream that i married this girl i was in love with in high school yesterday. my brain sounded like this song for the rest of that day after i woke up

[@geyretale892]

I lost, I lost everything

[@berryavenuemillie]

i need one long hug .

[@yaseenhaitham235]

Same bro same.