Hating your art is stupid. - Oil portrait process

[@ClaudiaBabona]

I used to draw a lot and i feel the more i relied on outside criticism the less my art felt like me. I was just following guides and tutorials and learning anatomy and angles and perspective and as time passed, my art just looked like a frankenstein's monster of what other people thought looked "good". I naturally lost my drive for creating and i do wish i never let myself be under so much outside influence and simply allowed myself to be and to create freely. I'm happy you're staying true to yourself through it all.

[@PolinaGazeeva]

I think it's especially tough when you are starting out. Because of course it takes time until you develop an eye for things and some sort of taste and preferences and skills. So some reliance on the outside perspective is necessary. As long as you are still enjoying the process and able to move somewhere with it. I hope you will start drawing again and maybe rediscover that joy! I have it a bit easier, because of the experience and I know I've come this far, so there must be something I've been doing right this whole time

[@dimitriosgkirgkiris9486]

I think I mighy have experienced something like this but, at least in my case, I realized that the self-doubt and negative feelings were just byproducts of stress and fear from things that had nothing to do with my art. It's just that my art was something I loved so when I was stressed, my fear of losing that love actually made me almost lose it. I'm happy to hear you figured it out ^_^

[@PolinaGazeeva]

Yeah, for me that was definitely also partially the reason. Life stress and lack of stability affected how I saw who I am and what I do.

[@arturbuchhorn]

The balcony reminds me of my own :D Gotta have to apply some of those concepts to D&D maybe. It's also an art of sorts 😅

[@PolinaGazeeva]

Ur balcony is literally empty expect for one lonely tree😂😭 But DND yeah, in a way it is. It is also about creating and bringing something to life, soo

[@Eiko-ic2bs]

Such a good video, thanks

[@PolinaGazeeva]

@@Eiko-ic2bs ah, thank you 🤍

[@ArmyParanoidPenguin]

While I love that portrait,I understand the struggle one might have with accepting ones own artwork when there are all of these expectations we place on ourselves for them. A very nice and honest video. Good job!

[@PolinaGazeeva]

It's a tough life

[@JohnFenzl-td2ih]

Ugh can we just get married already I’m already married to your art!!!! It’s beyond fantastic!!!!

[@simonabarela4577]

Hi,Polina! To paint portraits,you have to love people,be connected with people,enjoy being with, and talking to people .Otherwise you’re painting demons,creatures. That’s why you don’t like them!

[@PolinaGazeeva]

That's an interesting stance. I can't say I agree, but thank you for sharing. Also, who said creatures and demons were bad?

[@balluna1453]

Switch the sound off, and the subtitles, and use your eyes to see her work, young people, like her, usually don't have much of interest to say, and my advice, re; sound, will prove you are not missing any nuggets of wisdom here, but you are in danger of missing her talent by listening to her words.

[@PolinaGazeeva]

Thanks? This wasn't meant to be some profound wisdom. It's about sharing the experience of what it's like being an artist