have you ever felt like a stranger to yourself?

[@elainehurst5867]

it’s painfully frustrating to be around so much happiness and not be able to feel it.

[@iamprincefusion]

Elaine Hurst I feel ya

[@inducedpain6824]

I can relate so much.People see me as a happy person bc Im perfect.My friends think being rich,have a well-caring,smart family and many siblings is perfect.They think Im very lucky,but I still cant find the happiness there

[@elainehurst5867]

Kendall Sommer hold on lovely, it’ll work out, I love you, You deserve happiness.

[@elainehurst5867]

Mutiah Johar I’m so sorry, I hope it works out, keep pushing, you deserve happiness

[@mqx.ii_]

I try to think happy, to be happy P.S (i didnt work)

[@raynadaniels2247]

It’s comforting to have people in the comments who feel exactly the way you do.

[@gabytruchon]

that's exactly what i was about to comment

[@angee7763]

Yeah really I’m surrounded irl by people who are like sAmE when they’re literally fine like no you don’t understand.

[@sexieface]

Angelina Johnson it really do be like that tho, it’s sad but what can you do man. I feel you 💕

[@ri6662]

Mhm..

[@kiwiluvvr]

Rayna Daniels frrrr

[@planettmarss2572]

*this makes me miss the person i used to be*

[@bubbletastic6372]

Same :'/

[@moon-ys9dc]

planettmarss same :(

[@vhumikabasnet340]

:( same

[@katie6508]

planettmarss yo that hit hard

[@neathcasper9901]

Hmm

[@myyuhhs]

i don’t wanna be here.. but i’m too scared to die.

[@maryanthonettemoreno6768]

Same tired to live but scared to die

[@sophie-7286]

Mya Janego im here if you want to talk to someone

[@salmafouda8597]

You're too precious to die. Life is full of many beautiful things trust me it will be worth the wait.

[@zainab-od2oh]

Same, I don't wanna hurt the people around me

[@junebaggu]

i’m not scared to die, i’m just worried it’ll hurt my best friend

[@chickennugget8328]

is it bad that my safe place is sadness? it's almost better than being happy... being happy is too risky because i know eventually it will end

[@peachrain6478]

I know what you mean

[@celeste5589]

never knew anyone else felt like this it’s comforting but depressing at the same time

[@davidfowler8181]

sadness ends too

[@jonnyboom239]

I know I feel the same way. We'll get through it together 😢😢😩

[@alexiarosales8955]

Ramen Noodle damn

[@alyssag8146]

I hope you get famous but I also don't. Like you're KZbin's best kept secret or something. The music industry is fucked up and idolizes the wrong things. You're too good for that.

[@moon-ys9dc]

Alyssa G she’s our little secret

[@Guided22]

Alyssa G, well said.

[@victoriaa4770]

Yeah I feel like I wanna protect her from all that x

[@noname-pm2ow]

She was on my recommended list

[@gioiazani8620]

@@noname-pm2ow same lol

[@gem2148]

"I can't decide between hope & hell" Me everyday

[@tasnyyy]

makes me remember of valentine from X

[@lsjaowhwbkwhwksha5926]

Same

[@q-tiptingz7197]

I've fallen back into the depression I once forgot.

[@dahknee70]

Well. Let's go and listen to 2! 3! Together then

[@4rtms42]

let's go listen to spring day then

[@dahknee70]

Let's go and listen to house of cards too then.

[@imallovertheplace9499]

I really hope you all are feeling at least a little better now have a good day army 💜Btw it does get better

[@Cappuccino_327]

Taehyung's pocket army

[@amiami2195]

That feeling of being lost and empty.. so empty that you don't even know what you're feeling anymore. Kept on forcing a smile and pretending to be happy and no longer realizing what's the difference of happiness and emptiness. I can't even tell my friends what I'm feeling anymore

[@zoecameron274]

I get that.

[@fromsaturntomars]

I tried to tell my "best friend" how i was actually feeling. You know being vulnerable and opening up to someone who u think u can trust. But she practically shrugged it off. So im basically alone.

[@tokumahyata616]

I am at the point i dont even care to try to live but dont die (i dont know the reason that is keeping me from killing myself , maybe its my religion , my family or my bestfriend i dont want my death to affect them ) i seem to have become numb to many feelings( i..i could not care when someone had ..died .) I pretend everythin is fine when i am at home (i dont want them to care about me) i be free at school and no longer pretend i am fine ( they "school" never saw me pretending i am happy ,that they started to think i always was like that ). I have cut many ties i dont know why i did it ,those that stayed no matter what i did i did something horrible to them but would not they be happy to stay away from me . I know what is wrong and what is right but i staying at the wrong path. Dont get me wrong there is nothing wrong in my family or my school place they are all good i just started to feel this way there is nothing to live in this life . I have started to put alot of barriers i dont want anyone to be close to me ..sorry i just ranted a bit .i just felt like you could understand me

[@J3nniFairy]

Same and this is one of the saddest things that hurts easily in the dark.

[@mcefxx]

i feel you...

[@maybeaoife1500]

i want to listen to this while i ruin my mascara by crying in the back of a taxi on a rainy night with ripped tights and blistered heels

[@InfiniteTangents]

Why blistered heels? You're in a taxi

[@Shiro-ii6nw]

maybe she's on a taxi because of the blistered heels

[@bradlast7839]

This is the most tumblr thing ive ever read and its not on tumblr

[@kayharvey03]

I want to listen to this when it’s raining whilst I go for a run

[@yayeet9554]

i wanted to listen to this after school and crying before i enter the house

[@TyrellMartinson]

and she comes back even harder this time

[@stardustdweller]

true

[@bangtansonyeondump3103]

Ok what. When she hasn’t even sang. I read the title and immediately broke down. Tf is wrong with me.

[@abbythoreson5933]

Nothing, you're beautiful darling

[@dokidoki4207]

Nothing cus I did too

[@saturniiiidae]

Same I’m losing it

[@alesarkissian4377]

I felt this on a different level

[@deepshikhamishra1164]

i feel like im in love with my pain

[@brianna1490]

Dee Mish that was deep ❤️

[@zinebelmarmouq1865]

Can't believe that i'm not the only one. Thank you for expressing this feeling!❤

[@sara_daria2]

Honestly same

[@rothebear]

Same, I feel you ❤️

[@FutureRN23]

Dee Mish every single day of my life..

[@mcthlady]

Nobody: Recommandations: L e t ' s b e s a d Good music btw :3

[@typicalro959]

4k likes and no comments huh-

[@patiencebruh9473]

dude fr

[@beekau5009]

Hey there :) I just feel like I really need to tell you something. You are absolutely loved beyond any human capacity. Jesus Christ loves YOU and wants to know you. I care about your eternity and He wants you to repent. A lot of people have been deceived by the devil that sin is no longer serious and that all we need is to believe in God but even the demons believe that there's a God but yet they're not saved... the Bible says that a friend of the world is an enemy of God. Unfortunately any pastors and preachers don't tell us the reality that SIN LEADS TO HELL and a prayer wont save you. The truth is that we need to repent and produce fruit that comes with repentance, leaving a life of sin and walking in obedience to our Lord and Saviour. Jesus is knocking on the door of your heart and is waiting on you to open to Him and trust in our Lord and Saviour. God is not willing that any should perish but all come to repentance. May God bless you and may you seek Him and truly repent and sin no more to become true children of God. Have a beautiful day ☺️

[@vanessaeastman3830]

Bee Kau are you saying being sad is a sin?

[@beekau5009]

Vanessa Eastman oh no my love, never! I'm just here to spread the gospel. Although I will say that depression,anxiety etc are all attacks from Satan and that needs fasting and prayer and serious spiritual warfare to break those strongholds. If you wanna know more just let me know 🤗

[@whatimdoinhere6367]

**19 seconds in the video** Me : **subscribes**

[@lianagarcia2612]

Same

[@loran.o7155]

same hahaha im crying while typing hahaha

[@nisa-sf4jk]

BAHAHAH ME

[@rileyxtoledo6951]

I went straight to the comments lmao

[@ematrue923]

whatimdoin here ME TOO

[@delilah1313]

I’ve went years with undiagnosed depression.. I was able to feel happiness and I could still genuinely laugh but most days I felt empty. I just thought it was normal. When I would think of a depressed person I would think of someone who was sad 24/7. So when I was diagnosed, I was in denial. Tbh I don’t know why I am commenting this? Maybe someone can relate?

[@leslyy0316]

You’re not alone , I can totally relate to this :(

[@janiahpapaya5988]

I’ve once gotten into an argument about whether people can self diagnose. I know that if I told someone who could take me to get diagnosed it would backfire but I just at this point KNOW that something is wrong with me

[@serein5787]

I know right? Like I can still feel happiness nd smile everyday but at one point I feel empty and doesn't know what to do to make it go away. Most of the time I feel empty and doesn't feel loved anymore. I feel like smiling is just an easy task for me to do everyday so that people couldn't see what I feel deep inside me, like pretending is best that I could do.

[@Bia-ismixed15]

I can totally relate to this

[@pythoxx]

i relate to this, but im too afraid to reach out and get a diagnosis (if i even have it, that is). i laugh genuinely a lot too, but when i get home from school im just empty. so i dont know what to do

[@NorNor-dr5hb]

Why there are so many sad people here, I feel like I wanna hug you all but I can't 💔

[@lithedoll8552]

Bless you 💗

[@ev0weeny]

I haven't had a hug in awhile, I don't remember what it feels like.

[@Zophia.Loren05]

Internet hug? ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ

[@charamend4352]

Your so nice to all of us sad people it warms my heart. -w -

[@ev0weeny]

@@Zophia.Loren05 Yes please. :(

[@freshavocado727]

I'm tired of the "it gets better" talk. Like I want to be sad and I want it to be okay, maybe I want to be sad this moment but like please stop making me feel more uncomfortable in my own skin than I already am. I'm tired of the "be who you want to be" talk, cause I don know shit on who that is. I worked so hard into changing myself into someone else I lost myself in the process. I have no idea who I am or what my interests are cause I change my personality depending on who I am with. You will never really know me so stop with the trying to make me feel better talk cause honey I promise you, you ain't making me feel anything. I love this song so much.

[@izzyro9932]

Free Shavacado thank you I could never think of a way to say it but I’ve always felt like everyone but me. Like I am trying on clothes and non of them match because I can’t be naked

[@annisasabrina8259]

Couldn't have said it better myself. I wet through pretty much the same. I wanted to change myself for the better but instead im changing myself int someone that im not instead and it costs me myself. Little did i know i've made a terrible mistake. I missed her so much it hurts. I just wanted to go back and be comfortable agajn

[@shriyakumar3144]

I'm going through the same thing, and I hate it and myself. But we can love ourselves without hating ourselves, right?

[@ellar666]

i relate to “i have no idea who i am or what my intrests are cause i change my personality depending on who im with” because i’ve thought that so many times and i hate that im like that. like, nobody really knows who i am, not even me. and its scary

[@yanicequiros2968]

You're are still knowing yourself, still trying to figure out who you are, even though it sounds kinda cliche, but that's how it works. It's a long process, and you have to lose yourself sometimes, it's part of it, but I'm sure that at some point you'll find yourself ♡

[@Maboochie]

Use me as a here before she’s famous button ⬇️

[@dkfasdh1024]

W-wait... DAD?! HEY! YOU LEAVE 5 YEARS AGO FOR COCA COLA AND YOU DIDN'T COME BACK YET! WHERE IS MY COCA COLA?!?!

[@lenas6436]

it's like i haven't felt like myself lately but it's been such a long time that i don't even know what "myself" feels like? what if this is actually who i am and i just changed? maybe this is how happiness feels and I'm just interpreting it the wrong way?

[@limeylemon1685]

..you just put my thoughts into words, I felt like I was the only one

[@maoriruva223]

Same

[@-seer-]

Wow, its feels so much better to know that someone else feels exactly the way I do. You just explained better than I ever could

[@maoriruva223]

I commented one month ago... Nothing has changed, I still feel the same way :/

[@lenas6436]

@@maoriruva223 we all out here living the same lives,,,, hmu if you need someone to talk to tho im here to listen bbg

[@NaomiZahid]

make an album called i wrote a song so i can listen to them on spotify :)

[@susannadeangelis7998]

this is the song i would listen to having tears streaming down my face while curled up in the shower in the dark with all my clothes on

[@nataliacorsey3165]

literally me

[@kassandraibarraa5150]

Aw I wish I can give you a hug :(

[@whatcanisay._.9132]

i have. it adds to the character to the song

[@Caseyeliseburton]

alexa play every song olivia has ever written

[@sadielacoma2676]

I read these comments cause I don’t know what I’m feeling

[@annam.8454]

same...

[@ok9735]

Relatable..

[@beekau5009]

The problem is, we search for happiness and identity in a world where the love is conditional, this will never fulfil us. The only One who can give you true eternal happiness is the One Who created you. For so long i had a void and tried so many things to fill it but i was looking to the wrong place and wrong people. It wasn't until I truly surrendered my life to Jesus(Yahusha) that my whole life changed (LITERALLY). Im not trying to tell you about religion, I'm speaking about the individual, He Himself, who wants to have a relationship with you and is knocking at the door of your heart waiting for you to let Him in. This world is dying and the only source of life is our one and only Saviour. He is coming back soon and I want you to be ready when He comes. Just call out to Him, repent and turn away from the patterns of this world, i swear if you are sincere, your life will be begin. Your life begins when you honestly decide to give it up to Him.

[@gamerbro3m243]

I really don't know too😢😢

[@sangeethajustin4718]

Me too!! Why??

[@Ay-tw2cb]

I feel completely lost... but then, i've been feeling like this for the past 10 years or so. I've got no real friends, i'm studying law and dislike it... a lot, i hate myself and everything i do seems to have no purpose. I feel like such a disappointment. I can't help it. My mom tells me to study, go out, open up... but i can't cause i don't feel like doing anything. I don't have motivation. All i wanna do is sleep but then i'm tired of being in bed most of the time. Sometimes i feel i want to go out and take a long walk but i never do cause i can't walk alone... i feel judged and like a weirdo for some reason. Life is so hard and i'm so young but feel so old already. I can't seem to enjoy anything outside of music. Real interactions are so complicated to me... sorry for this rant, guess i just wanted to say this to someone... anyone. Thanks for that beautiful song 💜 EDIT: Thank you so so much for the kind comments!! 💜 I'm hanging in there & hope you're as well. I don't know why KZbin didn't notify me about your comments or likes but better late than never, right? Anyways, wish you all the best & lets try to make little changes this year. Everyone's got their own pace so never lose hope. If you're reading this i love you, you are amazing by just being you ⭐

[@kianbian]

i just hope it gets better, please don't lose hope

[@danam7929]

I relate to you in so many ways

[@saibestboy]

My introverted self relates

[@zaikaijenkins8276]

This is too relateable were like the same person

[@kummerspeck99]

hey, everything will be okay. it’s hard getting to know yourself but you will figure it out somehow. and social interaction sucks, i know because it’s just as hard for me too. but you’re not the only one feeling like this. you just got to find the ones that understand. sending all the love ❤️

[@averistevens7974]

I really needed this... it’s been so rough recently

[@anistasiarose8907]

Its ok things will get better. it did for me anyway xx

[@emma-iw3xf]

same..

[@maud3670]

Averi Stevens if you wanna talk , im here, dont worry ❤️

[@kayc.8952]

things will definitely get better. you're so strong and you can get through this. if you need help, you have people that will be by your side during it. including me! i'm here for you and others are too. things do get better over time. they really do. you're not alone ❤️

[@TiffanyDay]

💖💖💖

[@lovelyavocado4076]

Tiffany Day omg Tiff 😀😗😗😗😗

[@georgia3123]

Tiffany Day I love your music so much!! You've helped inspire me to make my own youtube music videos too if you're interested!

[@ivapowell9758]

😍

[@lovelyavocado4076]

@@ivapowell9758 we have the same first name😂😉

[@madiann1699]

TIFFANYYYYYY

[@architect7709]

this is me when i saw people are so talented , smarter , richer than me . I feel like it's so hard and i wanna give up , depress

[@flashbackmary901]

Please don’t give up.

[@idioting]

you can be better, if you dont let them defeat you.

[@flynncremin6347]

The light at the end of the tunnel is yourself. It is I

[@fieldghost2991]

the tears are already flowing

[@stardustdweller]

You’re a pearl at the bottom of the sea. You will be discovered one day. And you will be brougth to the top🌊

[@ziyahs]

I sure do hope so :)

[@ashleyb.8162]

This was in my recommended and I don’t regret clicking on it at all. I’m glad it was there :) thanks for making this song 💛

[@user-cq5rt4dm4k]

SAME GURL SAME

[@Eleven-jq5hc]

Sorry to be a grammar nazi but you typed “their” instead of “there”. Again I don’t want this to come across as mean or anything. Have a nice day. 😉

[@ashleyb.8162]

Cameron Murdock thanks 😂

[@sungod1141]

Alondra Bornes same

[@chidomunro123]

The worst feeling is being really sad and hurt and cripplingly broken but always helping everyone but urself. And now all U can do is think about how everyone has it worse than U and U don't deserve to be sad. And then U want someone to ask if ur okay like genuinely okay but ur also too afraid to talk to people do to try and make urself feel like ur useful U make urself an emotional crutch for people

[@Cameron_cantuu]

Your voice soothes the hell out of me

[@iamprincefusion]

Isabella Cantu same!

[@lsjaowhwbkwhwksha5926]

Same❤️

[@kileym.6530]

this is exactly how I feel. I don’t want to be broken and I try to find myself again again but sometimes I cant do it alone and I need answers. The answers will come eventually I tell myself. Life feels so simple when your hopeful but once that’s gone it’s as if you’re in hell feeling all the negative emotions imaginable all at once. Which is why I fear hope. I’m angry that I have depression and anxiety because it makes me feel not like myself. I just want to be myself and find myself again. Thank you for this song I’m a stranger to myself too.

[@lisaleguiader2138]

when you're hopeful everything is simple and then with no explication hope disappear and you feel like there's no positive things anymore, but you don't know how to see life in another way, it's like you're stuck inside a box full of negative feelings.......

[@k.m3246]

I've been where you have a been but I'm fine-ish

[@salmazebir]

You’re beautiful❤️ enjoy your life

[@AmbitionMusic]

I LOVE IT WOW 💕

[@annikahigginbotham1108]

Ambition I love your videos .-. They help me sleep XD

[@nothanksimgood5071]

Oh hey, another of my faves lol

[@ashph4241]

I don’t know who I am or who I want to be, and I don’t know how to understand my feelings (I don’t know what I’m feeling) I just don’t know what to do with my life. Thankfully I am not suicidal however I don’t know what to do. I feel like everyone else around me is growing up but I’m at a stand still in my life. “I’m a stranger to myself” was the realist thing I’ve heard in a long time

[@secureboundaries]

I feel the same 😭

[@daidai1048]

Ashten Herrera exactly idont know what to feel or what am I supposed to feel abt anything

[@charlottefeasey2616]

OMG YOU LITERALLY PUT MY FEELINGS INTO WORDS

[@vashappeninbesties]

Same :(

[@mandreelabbe4738]

i feel you... im in the same place

[@maristeodoro]

i tried to be happy but i came back to my sadness because it’s safer than being happy. happiness is not guaranteed and im always worrying when it will go away so i always find myself going back to sadness. it’s better for me that way.

[@purplepanda3582]

Thank you. This describes my Depersonalization and derealisation. It makes me feels less alone. For those who don’t know, Depersonalization is when you don’t recognize yourself when you look the mirror or your hands etc. When you’re detached from yourself and your body. And Derealization is when you feel detached from the world. Like your in a dream and nothing feels real.

[@user-fo1oj3wf1b]

I have derealization and depersonalization too, and this song describes it too for me.

[@lucyhunter8291]

i have derealization :(

[@girlplease2452]

@@lucyhunter8291 me too

[@melanch0l1e]

I have it too and it destroys my mind

[@katewurtz]

PurplePanda 358 i never realized that i wasn’t the only one who had this...

[@shishtaremily7671]

I have a lot to say but I don’t know what to start with. You have helped me, your music is the best thing I’ve ever heard. I had a break down at 2 am a few days ago and the first thing I did is listen to your songs. Your voice is so calming, it’s so beautiful I just can’t explain. Thank you for putting a smile on my face. Stay strong 💗.

[@helencsramos]

We're gonna be fine!

[@waterbottle922]

*Those with the most happiest of faces often end up in the darkest of places; and it's honestly terrifying.*

[@claragifrapuig9231]

I don’t know who I am, like I’m always being someone for others so I’m accepted but now that I have realised this and I’m trying to be myself I can’t, it’s almost as if “being myself” didn’t exist

[@vhix64]

Clers same here, I’ve been reading my old texts and old videos of me and my old friends to try to get myself back. It’s sad that we took the people we were before for granted.

[@secureboundaries]

You re stranger to yourself 🥺💯

[@zoebosler4112]

I hope you figured it out

[@daidai1048]

Clers i feel the same and the saddest part that i cant even fight for my self bc idk who i am..

[@saturniiiidae]

Same. I was a fake person for so long I lost myself. Then I moved, and I to,d myself I would start over and be myself, and I realized there was no “myself”. It’s been two years. I still can’t figure out who I am.

[@indiaxoo]

Me: *reads the title* The little voice in my head: “all the damn time” 👁👄👁 Me: *randomly gets depressed* “ah shit, here we go again” This gave me chills ❤️ I love this song. Thank you

[@lsjaowhwbkwhwksha5926]

Sameee❤️ I just suddenly get sad😂

[@indiaxoo]

Julianna Kim Jacildo yessss like whhyyy brain 😭😭

[@rahullovesthepayne8690]

THIS. T H I S is how I feel often.

[@ukoverse]

I miss someone who I will never see again.... “mY SeLF”

[@fernandasanchez5254]

*ariana grande has left the chat*

[@nkemani8372]

Gina I want to like this comment but it’s in 222 likes, and I don’t want to fuck that up

[@fernandasanchez5254]

Nikki Ani lmaoo.

[@kareemxo3]

same

[@morganlemons1694]

I love this so much!

[@mosinouwu]

Morgan Lemons You’re actually everywhere.

[@destinyfairly4117]

MOrgaN lEmONs dAdDy LemOONSssss

[@elvisdepressly4920]

Morgan Lemons whAt the actuaL fUck

[@michaela9771]

Hello random stranger that I always see

[@hannahwatkins870]

YOU'RE EVERYWHERE

[@peytongrace427]

This is so beautiful. Right now I’m lost. I’m scared of rejection and people leaving me. But you’re songs remind me that life gets better. It always does. I just want you to know that you’re doing amazing things. Amazing things that will one day change the world. Because you’ve changed my world in a good way.❤️

[@lsjaowhwbkwhwksha5926]

Same❤️

[@edenfromsweden1]

I kinda wanted to write what I was doing while listening to this song *I lay on my bed. Staring at the roof. No quite listening, but at times tooning in. I lay as my tears roll down my face. It's 12:19 a.m. I feel lost. Almost nothing at all. Sitting overthinking my life. Does anyone really care about me? I sit there wishing I had help. They will never listen. I lay holding myself down cause I could turn and go grab sisscors. I lay there trying to be okay. At the point I don't know who or what I am. Tears roll down then become dry. I lay there no emotion. Laying hoping I will fall asleep and never wake up again. I close my eyes and listen to the song. As my emotions slip away again. As this is my 4th night crying. I listen. Wondering if I will ever see the real me again. I feel the last tear roll down. Then, I felt too much then not enough. As I drift off into my sadness as it takes me down again. Lower and lower. Wondering when I can come back.*

[@leosagen8499]

OwO 😔 I’m sorry, I know most people would comment “it gets better” but I don’t know if it will. I have felt the way you said so many fucking times, but all I can say is that I hope you find something or someone that makes you feel like life matters. Because whoever you are, you fucking matter💙

[@abigailb9549]

To anyone reading this I care about you, you mater so fucking much you’re beautiful you’re strong and you are a good person 💙keep your life or you’ll miss out on the amazing stuff xxx. Edit:I just wish I could take my own advice :)

[@riah4597]

i did this last night but to a diffrent song called Forever by lewis

[@jointfairy]

i’m looking forward to the day i’ll see you in concert in the future. your lyrics are meticulously put together and the little thunder in the background makes this entire song irresistible to listen to. your voice is so unique and i’m always excited to watch a new video you upload. - your fan , friend , family :)

[@OliviaRuby]

Gracie Staton Love Love Love u

[@sunselai5254]

I relate with every single word you sang. You surely understand others by expressing yourself through songs and I love it. Keep up the great work queen.

[@zombiesquirrel4056]

Why is she not famous yet? Her voice is absolutely beautiful. I can’t even express how happy this song makes me.

[@soul-pg8dg]

im so tired of this life, i want to give up on everything, i just don’t want to be here anymore

[@flashbackmary901]

salma Don’t give up.

[@soul-pg8dg]

flashback mary i needed that thank you 🥺

[@flashbackmary901]

salma You’re welcome. ☺️

[@zaimah7670]

Stay strong sayang❤️

[@CYB3RH3X]

Don’t. We need you here. I promise. The world needs you.

[@thebootlegboy]

💜

[@shtlck_edits]

the bootleg boy helo

[@kaiserwigglesiii2369]

Wut u doin here boy

[@mopingfrog]

All y'all depressed...I'll pray for you guys, there is hope. Things will got better. I speak from experience. Stay safe💋❤

[@dkfasdh1024]

There is no hope for some People. Trust me. I speak from experience

[@xiaosupremacy6943]

This is just purely beautiful. The lyrics, the vocals, the emotions, the visuals, YES BEAUTIFUL

[@ashleyrae6393]

I've spent countless hours trying to become myself after hating who I am and realising I don't even know how to be me. So instead I decided to try and be who I want to be but it's consuming my every waking thought. I have so much self hatred for myself. I just want to get away from myself, like I'm trapped in someone that awful and there's no way to escape. It just keeps getting worse and it's constantly hurting me to the point where I cant even talk to anyone about it bc they don't understand to the extent that I hate myself or the fact that i ALWAYS feel this way and it affects so much of my life so negatively. I try to change so much but nothing seems to get better yet I still try. That's why the lyric ”i can't decide between hope and hell” speaks to me so much. So thank you for this song and sorry for rambling lol I'm gonna go to sleep now

[@peytoneldridge250]

It’s like you over think every word you say and action you do every day, all day. You can’t just subconsciously do anything anymore it’s all on purpose. It’s so hard to explain

[@ashleyrae6393]

peyton eldridge exactly you explained it so well

[@saturniiiidae]

It’s been two years. I still can’t figure myself out. I’m empty, numb, boring, void, emotionless. I don’t have anything inside me except bad thoughts. Without pain I have nothing, so sometimes I just want to feel sad so I have something to hold onto. Better than being nothing.

[@karssgovroom]

This is the first video of yours that I’ve come across. And I have to say that you have a beautiful voice. Your voice gives me Billie Eilish vibes

[@sophieviersen2671]

i thought I heard Billie don’t @ me

[@guitaria6]

Fionna Mertens fuck you

[@LittleSprout73]

@@guitaria6 don't be a bitch

[@dummyheademilyemily1484]

Same! She sounds a lot like Billie

[@lsjaowhwbkwhwksha5926]

Lol same

[@cibeafrancescamaria4988]

Ist not smt bad to sound a little like other singer. I dont understand why are people so upset. Lol

[@alexia-ti3ir]

you sister snapped again

[@marielleadina182]

it's like you don't wanna die, but don't want to live like this either. so frustrating

[@grassy7070]

THIS IS IT. This is EXACTLY how it feels. I’m so glad I found this because when you feel so broken and lost in the world, you feel so damn alone that it hurts every living second. It’s reassuring to hear the exact thing I’m feeling, which is rather odd, but how it is. All I need to say is thank you so much for making creating this. Keep up the amazing work, sweetheart.💗

[@maheenmian3263]

this made me cry and feel relieved that I wasnt the only one. thank you for this

[@brookelynburgess6175]

It hurts but I tell everyone I’m better now. Thank you for this beautiful song xoxo

[@ilikedogs1022]

This is so relatable. I hate that I can’t feel any emotion besides sadness and hatred toward myself.

[@dorirose4533]

i’ve never pressed a post notification so quick

[@reflexionnari6383]

Dori Rose i sadly had to search for my earphones first

[@mblount8656]

Annika Marit 😂

[@Nova-wo6tv]

every time I think everything will be better but there is always a little thing that makes me dive back into the black hole that is my life 🙄 So thank u for the song your voice is so... comfortable.

[@fromsaturntomars]

I know exactly how you feel

[@Nova-wo6tv]

@@fromsaturntomars then... i'm sorry for you..

[@iamprincefusion]

Feel the same way

[@abbie5857]

Same...

[@alipoo52]

same

[@helenmcadory3573]

It always hurts the most when you know that you're always gonna be there for the people in your life.. but deep down you know that if that was you crying they would care for two seconds then go hang out without you because your vibe is "bringing them down"

[@puteriaishah06]

i feel like sad is my safe place. it's all i've known. whenever i become happy, i'm afraid i become overbearing or annoying. maybe one day i'll be ok.

[@vicky-bv1ey]

You give me a Billie Eilish vibe with your voice!💞❤️

[@briannaagao5105]

Omg I know right!!!

[@potato7171]

Yeah, sameee!!

[@Sarah-bg5gt]

I just commented that

[@dontmindme.imjustafraidofe9327]

Yes, that’s what u was thinking!

[@__elite_thief__1811]

THOUSANDTH LIKE

[@9crafeyfaalyamukhbita202]

Make sense.... i honestly felt like 'who's controlling me' 'why do i even being alive' is just confused myself #_#

[@mikeywazowski2971]

First, I was upset because I didn't get a notification. I listened to the song and started crying because of how much it hits me and how much I relate. I kind of hate that I relate to it, but I do. Thank you for making this. You never fail to make me smile/cry/get me in my feels. I love you!!

[@rherherhea]

i am trapped. i want to leave, but i just can’t... because if i left where would i go? my fears and anxiety hold me back from dangerous freedom but... my mind... is telling me to break free! be yourself! it’s gonna be okay! ... but i am still here i am still in this dreaded prison! ... “oh gosh what do i 𝙙𝙤!" ... but slowly over time after long thought i soon realize this prison is not physical, but it is mental, this prison is my thoughts, dreams, words, ideas, and, wants but this so called 𝙥𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙤𝙣 is disguised to be a happy place of roaming thoughts, new ideas, social interactions, but in the inside it is filled with hesitation, despair, unanswered questions, anxiety, false hope so... i am trapped, i know where to go, i know where i am, and when to leave...but i am still trapped, 𝗯𝘆 𝗺𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁𝘀

[@Kadmie]

Hey...is this ur own??

[@rherherhea]

_upashna _grace_ hehe yeah, does it look professional 👀

[@savannahkay244]

woah

[@gracecarpenter3878]

Thank you for putting my thoughts that I could never explain in to words

[@Honeyiroseupfromthedead]

this is amazing

[@plum8810]

finally i found a song that says my emotions so perfectly. it’s nice to read these comments too. i don’t feel alone. thank u for this :) xx

[@martinaf796]

I usually never comment but this song is amazing. I needed this

[@gr33nl4ndsh4rk]

Martina F me too hun

[@hazelbellydancer]

The quarantine has made me realize how much I depend on school to regulate my mental health. Not necessarily for the better either. It only masks the issues, pushing them to the edges where I don't have to deal with it. When I stop and think about my problems, nothing is resolved and none of what I do is helpful. Instead on focusing on them, I bury myself in work so I don't have to think about how much pain I'm in or how much I dislike myself, or how much life is just numbing. There's no time to contemplate killing myself when I have 5 page papers due every other week, and massive amounts of homework due in the time between.

[@marinaf7798]

This is what I watch when I feel depersonalized (lose my sense of self) and "I'm a stranger to myself" describes my feelings exactly

[@MartaPawowskamydreamsmylife]

I don't know who you are, I just saw this on my KZbin page and decided to listen to it and girl... I'm in love with your voice, this song and the meaning. Keep doing what you're doing, it's great❤

[@dianago4553]

Ok this is just perfect, it’s raining outside, I’m listening to this and it just makes me feel nostalgic but I love it.

[@lorettathomas3421]

Sometimes I just want to be like my old self but I just can’t find that in me no more😔

[@miagracee3408]

I find it hard to wrap my head around the fact that not everyone feels so hopeless and broken and that some people never experience the sadness and are really honestly happy

[@jeanjackflame7404]

Wow you so perfect This song is too perfect your voice, the lyrics, the melody, the simple video perfect ❤️ Thank you I love you !❤️

[@alishaxo6167]

This is such a beautiful song and your voice is absolutely stunning. You have created such a strong, meaningful message which many can relate to. Stay strong x

[@gisellereyna27]

“Oh it hurts to be alive” that ripped out my heart out and crushed it☹️💔

[@mistyydreams7685]

I hate saying ‘I’m fine’ to everyone who asks. It’s so hard to stand up for myself against the people who hate me because in the end, I feel the same way as they do. I put on a fake smile every day and pretend I’m okay, for the sake of everyone around me. *why?* because when I’m depressed, I feel safer than I ever will being happy.

[@rattatootii]

"Oh my, my minds not doing well, oh it hurts to be alive." That hit me in too many places

[@selfishbrat6740]

Does anyone think that this one is her best song?Cause I do.

[@abigailrenee7689]

selfish brat samee😭😍

[@bethclayton2288]

I really want Tristan Paredes to react to your voice ❤️ I think it will help a lot of people discover your amazing talent

[@xquavius]

Beth Clayton Tristan is amazing! Olivia is too! And I agree. He's open a lot of eyes to new discoveries for people

[@nurhannah8334]

Which video?

[@savannahkay244]

hits different when someone says the exact way you’ve felt

[@stardustdweller]

THE LYRICS OMG😍😭

[@yoonstm7940]

Theres no other music that speaks to me on such a level as yours and I'm grateful

[@saranazemi962]

Can we appreciate how amazing this video is like omg

[@Mac_Ann555]

“My minds not doin’ well” i felt that..

[@laiah.chinelle]

This is beautiful♥️✨

[@ecobeans6248]

My parents used to tell me “Where did that sweet little girl go?” ...I don’t know they’re gone and i don’t think they’re coming back.

[@Honeyiroseupfromthedead]

that is deep and i can totally relate that :)

[@kelonmio]

It happened to me today and i couldnt hwlp but feel like i'd dissapointed them (?)

[@nikolayordanov3115]

Have you ever felt like trying to share happiness with close people brought you sadness and negative emotions in general? Like they don't want to share your happiness. Or they disapprove you being happy.

[@Tara-qg3gi]

i dont believe that this song is about dissociation, but i feel as if it describes mine quite well. this is a beautiful song.

[@chelsm8569]

I'm so tired of having mental arguments with myself

[@chocolatestrawberry2448]

i had my happiness back and now it’s gone. it’s like in the moment i’m so so so stressed about everything that hasn’t happened yet because my brain doesn’t know what to do when nothing is happen that second to be stressed about so it focuses on every little thing it can. i love staying awake until 5 AM when it’s dark, i’m alone, i can kind of feel okay. i’m not thinking about how anyone could replace me and probably will or what homework is due. it’s just me and the nightly sounds that are oddly comforting

[@eloise4305]

This has purely got to be one of the most beautiful songs I’ve heard. I really hope that one day you’ll be discovered by a great artist because the world deserves to hear these songs!!! Keep it up Olivia xx

[@Stella-ex4fg]

this is so beautiful, i’m obsessed. your voice is so stunning. youre amazing ily

[@abbyotanez8711]

Do you know how hard it is to be surrounded by happiness and act like you are happy but not being able to feel shit...