He Was Very Loved • 2.21.20

[@Jojrre]

People have said, “Don’t cry” to other people for years and years, and all it has ever meant is, “I’m too uncomfortable when you show your feelings. Don’t cry.” I’d rather have them say, “Go ahead and cry. I’m here to be with you.” - Mr. Rogers

[@ClueFinder654]

💙

[@ThePlantCommander]

This holds so true. ❤

[@themojogamer75]

Well said, Jojrre.

[@Ailana10791]

Jojrre when did he say that? I’d love to read or watch that video.

[@Jojrre]

Alfheim’a Aurora Jolteon I’m not actually sure when he said that. I’m in a discord server that post uplifting quotes and the like. That was one that I found and i saved it

[@batofdestiny]

Sagan may have passed away, but he’s watching you from the stars. While he may be gone, you shouldn’t blame yourselves for his passing. As the author of a book about a cat once said: *Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.*

[@landmine121]

Amen. Thank you for giving such amazing advice.

[@batofdestiny]

Also, you really don’t need to film if you can’t find the strength to do so.

[@LoZFangirl1]

That is a beautiful quote.

[@pralenkaman8105]

@@batofdestiny I don't think it's a matter of not having the strength it's about getting it out of their system Which I think it's pretty brave, when my cat passed away I cried alone and didn't really speak much to my family that day I just hung around his grave because it made me feel a bit closer to him I'm a big advocate of talking about it is better than just bottle up the feelings

[@batofdestiny]

Pralenka Man Fair enough

[@dazbones6288]

"It's okay to cry. Sometimes tears are the best medicine." -Tales of Symphonia

[@pralenkaman8105]

I see you're a fellow gamer of culture

[@paranoialp6426]

That game is fully of quotes that really stick to reality. That one is definitely one I loved... it’s very true for Stephen and Mal, it’s okay to cry because sometimes is the best way to handle it. I’m glad someone else knows that quote and is able to apply it. It’s true in so many places. This time especially... it’s okay to cry

[@SuperTeeter64]

Man. Symphonia has some great quotes.

[@pralenkaman8105]

@@paranoialp6426 not really from symphonia but from the sequel "courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality" I think that's one of the best advise a game has given me

[@PhoeniksStorm]

Stephen there is absolutely no need to apologize for crying or being emotional now or in the future. Whatever you think will make this easier for you, taking time off or being here making videos and talking through this. we will be here no matter what. always prioritise your well being and do whatever you think is best.

[@SamMooredwhofan42130601]

Amen

[@redtwo006]

Exactly. Never be ashamed to cry. I utterly broke when my beloved cat Gracie had to be put to sleep, and I still tear up a little thinking about her. I agree with what you've said. We can come together as a sort of extended family to share our grief, support each other, and make the world a better place.

[@Aswedishzeldagirl]

Most of us are right there crying with them. I know I am. Both because we emphasize or we’ve been in a similar situation ourselves and know how much it hurts.

[@angelsinthewindow]

You know, for all the vlogs I have watched, I don't think I have ever seen him cry or at least choke up this much. It's hard seeing someone who has always been so strong break down, but it shows that even the strongest person can show weakness. Actually, its not even weakness, its the strongest person in the world who can show it.

[@jrub9104]

You and mal are two of the most selfless people on this earth. Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you. Just because we look to you as role modes doesn’t mean we can’t be there for you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ we all love you very much.

[@KingCalumari]

Totally, one really hard thing for me is thinking about how much I want to help even though I have no clue how to do that for them :(

[@luketatum]

i read that as “selfish” i thought this was a very different comment...

[@Singe41]

I personally was a bit scared of what your plan was for these upcoming vlogs. Truthfully was expecting the first vlog skip, but if this helps, then more power to you.

[@Electronjames]

Singe same I was expecting it

[@GlassJoe1337]

I agree I was expecting a skip myself.

[@trueMCGRaven]

i think we all expected this and maybe a few of the next few days to be skipped and none of us would have blamed them. But at the same time i think Stephen and Mal needed to share this not only for themselves but also knowing that many people grew with Sagan for these last almost 8 years

[@silverkyre]

I thought it would just be a short were sad and taking a break. Or just we did or that. Didn't think Stephen would want to take a break but I would not blame them what's so ever.

[@jkazos]

People need anchors and normalcy. I wasn't 100% sure, but I was 99% sure he would do the vlog, though I expected him to not edit/release them for a few days. He has vlog'd for over a decade. It's part of his identity. It's something external and unchangeable that he can just touch, and look at the rest of the world relative to. You might have heard of "grounding and centering" and it's part of that. Everybody needs something like that.

[@folzyfantasy15]

Sagan had terrific owners in you two. You are terrific people who deserve the world entirely. Keep going on and keep having great memories with Kepler and keep the fantastic memories of Sagan.

[@nsArmoredFrog]

David Folz I’ve been watching for a long time and I honestly can’t think of anyone else who loved their cats as much as Stephen and Mal did and continues to do. They are amazing people.

[@Anno023]

I misread that as terrible owners..

[@folzyfantasy15]

Zander Belko That is quite alright. Sometimes I misread things as well! I understand!

[@catherinedefreitas5715]

Please don't apologize for feeling sad and crying on camera guys. Please. Tears are normal with a traumatic experience you guys went through. I pray you guys feel as much comfort as you can while going through this valley. Much love to you both ♥️

[@DQBlizzard_]

As someone who doesn't normally cry, I had to do it a lot over the past few months, and it surprisingly made me feel better

[@JacketsOnFire]

“For small creatures such as we the vastness is bearable only through love.” -Carl Sagan

[@Skogey]

Jackets On Fire ❤️

[@Rubyfir3]

Perfect quote from the cat's namesake. ❤️

[@TheChimera70]

I think part of the vlog is recording and showing everything both good and bad. I know in the past a lot of your vlogs have made me happier when I'm depressed and in situations like this it will help a lot of other people come to terms with their losses. Thank you for bearing your souls to us and I wish you well on your journey to recovery

[@filippopratesi2997]

He indeed was and I want to praise you both for staying with him until the very end. He died with the comfort of knowing you were there by his side and never abandoned him. It takes a lot of courage but you did the right thing.

[@ShycoWar]

You don't have a single reason to apologize for crying. Everyone who embarked on the journey can tell how incredibly close you are to your cats. You cared for Sagan as if he was your son. And yet, you're able to talk through the tears. You're able to continue filming, and to share everything with us despite how heartbroken you are. It's obvious to see that the two of you have barely slept... and yet, here you are, facing the camera and allowing the tears to come out anyway. You two are strong. You two are so unbelievably strong. And there are so many more aspects of this entire situation that highlight just how strong you are. It's no wonder that so many people look up to you, myself included.

[@radiodread]

I just shared this thought on Discord, but I'll say it here, too. I think you're both incredibly strong, for recording and uploading this vlog, and doing it as soon as you did. This may just be your way of dealing with grief, and I'm 100% behind that. Everyone deals with it differently, for sure, and no one can really judge however you two choose to deal with it. I fully respect your decisions both regarding Sagan (god knows that couldn't have been easy) and uploading this video, whatever your reasons may be. I wish you both the best, Stephen and Mal. As someone who's never met you, it might be strange, I don't know. But having been around these channels for as long as I have, you feel like friends of mine. Like the description says, the story of Sagan doesn't end with his passing - it continues with the memories we all have of him, and with the videos that still exist on the channel from day 1019 until the vlog before this one. It's all still here, Sagan's still here. ❤

[@peachymiku6432]

That's an awesome thing to say. I agree that they are incredibly strong. I say it is that strength that gave them the courage to do what needs doing, no matter how painful.

[@Ad_Astra1123]

I completely agree with what you’ve said, you took the words right from my mouth.

[@danielawesome79]

R.I.P Sagan 2012-2020

[@TheGatrGamr]

Not to be rude or demeaning, but Stephen and Mal got Sagan and Keplar on 9/8/2012.

[@lindahendrix340]

Your comment made me cry more than any other comment. It seems to make it more real I think.

[@caelalbridge3347]

My favorite moment with him will forever be the 12/7/19 vlog when he went and found Mal hiding in the stairway. He was such a good and happy boy and you said it. He was so so loved.

[@SerenaRosetail]

My favorite has always been when he played with the pickle up the stairway.

[@inkpotgods69]

I lost my cat of 13 years the day after you both lost Sagan. Sending all my love and comfort your way

[@sykotiksonik]

What terrible timing. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[@peachymiku6432]

Oh, that's awful! I'm so sorry to hear that!

[@ShockeyChuster]

Oof, that is horrible timing, i’m so sorry for your loss.

[@elenna1237]

Oh no! I'm so sorry.

[@Spiritet93]

That's terrible. I'm so sorry for your loss. Love and hugs from us coming your way

[@TheGatrGamr]

As an aspiring vet, this breaks my heart but it was the best option. I truly hope these vlogs help ease the pain. Losing Sagan is the loss of a family member. You guys are so strong and are so loved by us all. Give Keplar so much love as he can just as easily suffer from the loss of Sagan, he won't understand and may become depressed so watch him carefully to.

[@koramora]

I've been through this and it always sucks. I'm glad you guys found something to help you grieve. I know this is the last thing on your mind, but Chewy is usually pretty good at giving you a refund. I contacted them and asked if I could send back the food. They told me to donate it to the local humane society, gave me a full refund, and sent a card and flowers as well. Make sure to give Kepler a huge hug

[@fullmetallemer6818]

Losing a pet sucks and I'm so sorry that you've had to go through this. First time I lost a pet that truly meant a lot it destroyed me. My thoughts and prayers ❤️❤️

[@noahwebster9256]

Much love to you guys! He will be missed, but he was very much loved!

[@NinjaZelda9570]

Sagan: The World's Greatest PS3

[@josephojordan9834]

❤❤

[@IcarusGrayNRN]

Don’t ever apologize for your feelings. You’re allowed to feel however you feel about this. No one can judge you or shame you for grief. Thank you for being selfless and continuing to use your lives to help others.

[@stuartdunlop8834]

Sending all my love from Yorkshire, England. Remember that a world of people are with you, sharing the pain but also sharing the memories. Sagan was blessed to have this family. This may only be a KZbin comment, but if it helps, we're all here for you.

[@Horizon371]

We all love you guys!

[@aaronsanborn2612]

I’ve experience in my life that the best remedy to grief is community. It doesn’t make the pain go away, nor should it, but it helps me to know that I have others around me. I’ve sat on the periphery of this community for almost the whole time I’ve watched your videos, but it is so touching to me to see the positivity and support from practically everyone. We all grieve in our own ways but everyone has rallied together in a beautiful way. Painful, but beautiful. Thank you for every moment you share, even the incredibly difficult ones. The love you feel for your loved ones is evident and has helped me better show love in my relationships. We all stand behind you.

[@peachymiku6432]

Yeah, I think you're right about that. When I lost my mother a few years ago, I couldn't even talk to my own family about it. Mostly because they were away for so long, but they never really tried to stay close to me. I was so devastated that even when I felt better, there was one day where I suddenly just burst out sobbing at work with my co-workers asking what was wrong. I didn't even need to say a word as the manager understood. Even now the loss is painful. So if I can be part of a community that can help someone over the loss of a family member, even if it isn't much, I'm glad to lend an ear and show support. Sagan is family.

[@thevoid4060]

He's exploring the cosmos with Carl right now

[@pixel6727]

And pippy

[@thevoid4060]

@@pixel6727 and teddy

[@tss3393]

And Bear (TomFawkes' dog)

[@thevoid4060]

tss3393 and Tim’s (NintendoCaprisun) parents

[@xandervapes8763]

@@pixel6727 And my OG cat from when I was a toddler, Elmo.

[@beckystar3327]

Sagan was loved by all of us, and we will always remember him. I'm really going to miss him, as much as I miss the people I've lost along the way. I love you guys, and may Sagan rest in peace

[@SaiyaMan2011]

Thank you for being strong, guys.

[@SmilingSas]

I cried every night for months after my dog passed, I still do If I can’t sleep and my thoughts wander to her. It’s never really gonna go away, but as you said yourself, it’s gonna be easier every day. I understand why you made this. It honestly helps talking about it, all the good stuff the bad stuff. Get it all out, and know, as long as you remember him he will always be in your hearts.

[@iPodMusician]

We had to put my cat down in october of 2017. just know- YOU . DID . EVERYTHING. you never failed him, you guys are the best parents. it's not your fault. we love you. im so sorry this happened. love you guys so much

[@mitchinatr7093]

Five months later and I’m still heartbroken. We miss Sagan dearly.

[@Mungiwungi-r9b]

You, mal and keppy were and still are the most loving family he could of possibly gotten may he rest in kitty heaven

[@Kinnakeeter]

I know what it's like to lose fur baby. They really are family. I know the loss and I know the pain. I've lost 3 dogs in my life so, trust me, I've been there. My sincerest condolences. RIP

[@Kinnakeeter]

We are here if you need us. The pain doesn't really go away. You just learn how to deal with it

[@clockworkclementine4136]

I honestly was not expecting to see a vlog today, or for the next few days after his passing, I would've completly understood if you didn't feel like filming anything. But if filming helps, then I support it

[@peachymiku6432]

I wasn't expecting it either. But if it helps them, I say they should do it.

[@elenna1237]

Yeah, I figured he would film something because I suspect Stephen would be more bothered by skipping days, but I was expecting a quick few minutes released several days later. But of course they should absolutely do what helps them.

[@toddcarter4829]

Stephen, Mal; you don't have to be strong. It hurts me and I've never met Sagan.

[@lukeontheplains]

You two are so strong. We love Sagan, and we love you. My family lost a cat to cancer earlier this month. It ain't fair, and it ain't easy. I respect the heck out of you two for making this video, because it isn't easy. Take as much time as you need. We'll support you through it.

[@AaronTheBlackDragon]

Never be sorry when you have to cry. I'd rather you let it all out so that you might feel better than you swallow it up and never get to work through your emotions. I feel so much for you and I wish you all nothing but the best going forward. Take all the time in the world you need to heal up and recover. You helped me through a bunch of rough times and now I hope that the comunity can do the same for you.

[@BeanBeanKingdom]

This might sound weird, but I feel that you still making the vlogs is kind of admirable. Talking about how you feel is definitely a right way to deal with the grief, especially since you will be reaching many other people with it.

[@DARKNATUREXD]

Sagan was such a good boy and it's so sad to hear about how your parent's heard the news. It'll be easier now and time will just help the pain. Love you guys

[@Kelly.8]

Thank you Stephen and Mal for being so open and vulnerable, when you definitely did not need to. I'm glad that expressing these thoughts is therapeutic and healing for you. Sagan was such a sweet, smart boy. It is clear that you put your whole soul into caring for your boys; you did everything you could to ensure Sagan's comfort. My heart goes out for you both. ❤️

[@Ikine557]

Staying with him was the right move. It's harder, but it makes things so much easier for the cat.

[@koneheadcokehead4981]

i was thinking about segan the whole day yesterday and i no what it is like to lose a pet you care so so much about and it hurts but we will get through this together take it from someone who has been watching you on and off since 2012 will make this and overcome this it we will be hard but we will do this as a unit.

[@IwaCaritoFox]

God, /please/ do not apologize for crying. It's better to let it out than keeping it in, it is natural that you would grieve like this. You did the right thing, and he went peacefully and surrounded by so much love and care. My heart goes with you two.

[@mikey5656]

One of my favourite phrases I've ever heard came from the game 'Virtue's Last Reward' 'Elapsam semel occasionem non ipse potest Iuppiter reprehendere' Which translates to 'Not even Jupiter can find a lost opportunity' It means that not even the most powerful of gods can change the past, so you need to keep looking forward. Yes everyone should grieve, but we shouldn't dwell on what happened. We should take steps forward, remembering Sagan. You guys were amazing to make that tough call. I know many would try all they could to make him survive, but considering the situation the most humane thing to do was definitely let him go. Rest in Peace Sagan.

[@stefanowohsdioghasdhisdg4806]

I'm so sorry for your loss. My family's dog passed away last year, so I know how much this can hurt. I wish you the best on your road to recovery.

[@jacapplegate3374]

he was very, very loved. an amazing little man with an amazing life, and an amazing family. goodnight sweet boy sagan, you were so, so loved.

[@SuperHops]

Stephen and Mal hope you guys both stay strong, we all love you.

[@ojtheviking]

From one pet lover to another, I am truly sorry for your loss. Sagan was an amazing cat, and you were the perfect parents for him. I've said goodbye to pets myself, and it never gets easier, no matter the circumstances. Kudos to you for wanting to continue blogging (EDIT: vlogging*), and I'm sure all of us will respect it if it helps you both deal with it. But I'm sure we'd all also undertand if you needed a break. Either way, take care of yourselves, and of Kep. I hope it isn't too inappropriate to say that those of us who watch your vlog videos also loved Sagan in our own way, and I am very sad to see him go.

[@enesevanderwalt5900]

We love you guys. Cry, scream, yell, whatever. We will always be here for you. Don't ever apologise for the emotions you feel.

[@VegetableSorbet]

Never wished I could reach through the 'net and hug someone so much before. I remember all too well what you're going through right now. Take Care, and much love.

[@koopatroops838]

One thing I have always said is you never realize how much you will miss someone until they are gone

[@05Nataku]

I only hope I can give back some of the strength you gave me all these years. Losing a pet is akin to losing part of your family and it will be hard for a while. It is okay to go with the motions. As someone who has had to go through this 3 times now (Twice having to make this very call) I know how much it hurts. I will understand if come time to open my vlogmail you skip the art work and such pertaining the cats. I hope this will bring you some joy or comfort, but the vlog of you two getting the boys especially seeing Sagan and how much joy he brought you broke through a severe depression and made me adopt my own cat. My cat was severely misstreated and my adopting him saved his life. So in an indirect way Sagan saved my cat's life.

[@MrAtomicBrownie]

As a loving dog owner myself, I completely understand what you're going through. Seeing many dogs come and go in my lifetime has been really hard, and has definitely had its fair share of grief and tears. Sometimes I even tear up thinking about my little babies and it makes me incredibly sad. But then I think of all the good times, and how good of a life they had, and it helps cheer me up a little. May you rest in peace Sagan, and I wish the best of luck to the both of you on your road to recovery.

[@HotaruHikai]

a vet once told me when I asked that very question. "its a gift we can give an animal that we cannot give to humans."

[@trazomguy6022]

6:12 please please please don’t say sorry, you don’t have be sorry for getting chocked up. I understand how it feels, that feeling of deep heartache and sadness. You two are strong people, take your time grieving. It’s true, death comes to all things. Instead of letting that scare us into not doing anything, it should let us treasure what we have and remember what and who we have with fond happy memories. I know that doesn’t make it better, trust me I know it doesn’t make it better. I’m sorry if this was insensitive or mean sounding.

[@dynamokota]

Honestly, there's not much I can say now that hasn't already been said. You guys are so incredibly kind and amazing, and it sucks to see you guys go through this, but we've basically all gone through similar events, and we're all here for you. Don't push yourselves too hard, and don't apologize for grieving. We love you guys ❤

[@shockandlock3799]

sending love. losing a pet is so devastating. stay strong

[@jamreviews9547]

You two are some of the best pet owners I’ve ever seen. The amount of love and care you give and have given to your cats is truly amazing. So I say don’t even think for a second that you are responsible for Sagan’s condition. As you know you two did so much to give him the best life possible, and that is something to be proud of. Grieve however you want and for as long as you need to. Talking about it does help, and both you and Mal are very emotionally mature, but do so at your own pace. I have said goodbye to a number of pets, friends, and some family members and it is never something that is easy, but going through this process with this community is something I hope will help not only you but other people who are going through something similar. I give you my best wishes and know all of us are here in whatever way we can be.

[@grantberends3088]

I have to applaud your emotional maturity in making this vlog. It reminds me of a quote from Tyler Joseph of twenty one pilots. “But if someone is encouraged, at all, by the music that I write, then my whole life will be justified, so I mean I would be crazy not to try.” Thank you for using this platform as a way to help others get through hardships like this.

[@norabailey3901]

I just got out of intensive therapy from a mental hospital, and from everything I've learned you guys are doing everything right. It's not only ok to cry its essential and vital. And talking and having someone who knows what you're going through is great. Just being a viewer I've been grieving for Sagan, I give all my love and and compassion to y'all

[@B0redTurtle]

I think talking is one of the best things you can do for grief. Having that connection and bonding with another person, especially someone who is/has experienced the same or similar experiences, helps. You have great friends who will talk with you guys. If there is anything we can do to help, please don't hesitate to ask.

[@feslenraster]

Condolences. It's never easy to lose a loved furbaby...I just lost my old ones just two years ago; and I've had them for 15+ years. Gone, but never forgotten, thank you for sharing your pain.

[@daisyxu5863]

Thank you for sharing Sagan with us. Whatever it is you need to do to help you heal, do it. We understand

[@linkcourage1]

I just want to give you both hugs every few minutes right now. Like great big bear hugs and not those dainty ones you get during polite events.

[@phantomwriter2998]

In these years of watching y'alls videos and vlogs, I had also gotten an appreciation for the fluffy boys. I didn't see every moment possible... But I couldn't help but cry along with you at your loss. Sagan will be in our hearts. Wherever you go from here, know you will still have our support.

[@seanhartwick2243]

Im so glad we can remember Sagan through the vlogs.

[@purpleboater9003]

Stephen and mal you two are the most amazing people I've ever came across in my life. How much all of us love you guys. You guys are soo freaking amazing... I've watched you since college years I dont know if you guys know this but you have been one of the biggest parts of my life. I dont think I could live with out Stephen and mal....... I hate seeing you guys so said. I absolutely love you and your family. I honestly never felt so close to a content creator I know you have no idea who I am. But you have changed my life for the better over the last decade and I really hope I dont ever lose you and mel....

[@LovelyHowl]

Thank you two for sharing your lives and your grief with all of us. There's a large tissue pile on my desk as I cry along with you; Sagan was such a sweet boy.

[@savannahdegroot1754]

I lost my guinea pig in January of this year and he was only 2 months old. This video is amazing for helping me deal with it. It's been 6 months and I still feel responsible. Thank you guys you are a family to me

[@kandlcheerio8375]

I have a similar story. Four years ago, my mother had cancer. She had faced it a decade prior, and was dreading the treatment again: the surgery, the radiation, the chemo. The chemo killed her nerves and made it painful just to hold something, made it so she couldn't play the piano anymore. The fatigue made it so she sometimes would spend the entire day in bed. She was forced to stay home alone, bedridden, for 8+ hours a day while my dad and I went to work and school. Then this dog literally shows up on our doorstep overnight. A little overweight, but perfectly friendly and sweet. My mom loves dogs. She hadn't had one in years, but then this little white fluff ball shows up at the door and she can't say no. We looked for the owner, imagining how heartbroken we would feel if we'd lost this amazing dog, but after two months there was still no one. During those months when we didn't know if we would find the owners, we called her Happy. It encapsulated everything about her. She was everything you'd want in a dog: greets you at the door, asks you for scratches, keeps you company as you work. And of course a million other things you can't remember them all, much less explain them. When we decided to give up our search for the owners, we named her Zoe - no reason, it just fit. But Zoe changed everything for my mom. Despite her aching feet and tiredness, she would get up to give Zoe a walk. Or she'd just sit and talk to Zoe while my dad and I were out during the day. She was always there for my mom, even when no one else could. Sometimes we'd still call her Happy, because that's what she was and what she gave us. Finally, after two years, my mom was declared cancer-free. She and my dad started looking forward to when they would retire, imagining all the time they would get to spend with Zoe. Then, just two months later, on Christmas Eve, we had to rush Zoe to the emergency vet. After running tests, they determined it was cancer. The vet estimated she was only 3 or 4 years old, said she had never seen such a large tumor in such a small dog. We faced a similar decision-making process: chemo would only be palliative and she'd have a massively reduced quality of life, or we could let her go. Zoe passed the next day, on Christmas evening, in our arms. My dad says it's as if she arrived at our door for a purpose. I say purpose or not, she was robbed. Maybe we're both right. This video helped so much. Knowing my family wasn't alone in this experience, hearing you vocalize the feelings we never really put into words, seeing your courage in sharing your emotions with us all - it was really therapeutic. I cried, but it was so sweet to remember how wonderful it is to love a pet, and be loved so completely. I'm glad you both are loving and caring for each other, and Kep. Please do what you need to do for yourselves. We are all thinking about you. p.s. - Chewy has an awesome return policy. If you want to send the food back, they will absolutely do that for you. My family was in the same situation and they were very helpful.

[@Yolipow]

You guys are so wonderful, and I’m so sorry for what you had to go through suddenly. Last September I had to put down my Boston Terrier of 15 years and I was extremely devastated. She was my best friend and having to make the call to end the suffering was excruciatingly difficult. I can’t imagine going through that and still talking to us all about it. You’re both extremely brave and I hope everything gets better. It may not feel like it, but time does and will heal

[@nsArmoredFrog]

I know that you know this, but I want to say it again: You two are some of the best people I know of and you did everything you could for Sagan. He was loved like no other and you did the right thing to keep him from suffering. As a viewer, I cried a lot when the 20th’s vlog came out. I’m not a crier and I rarely ever do, but I did for that one. Knowing all of the things that you would have to realize that you couldn’t do now that Sagan passed and especially with how Keppy would react was a lot to take in. I’m glad you’re grieving in the way you see fit and I absolutely support the stuff that you do. Stephen, Mal, and Keppy: Know that you are sincerely loved and we’re praying for you! ❤️

[@SamMooredwhofan42130601]

You guys are very strong, having lost a beloved pet, and immediately being able to talk about it on camera. It is tough to lose a pet, whether it be because of sickness or old age or complications. They become such a big part of your life, and you do so much for them. I went through something similar. My late dog, whom I've had since I was 2 and he was a puppy, and was like my little brother, and he got really old and sick and we had to put him down. And it was so hard I was never the same. For you guys and anyone who goes through this or who does have to go through this kind of thing, it's more then okay to grieve, it's ok to miss them, it hurts, talking about it does help, and it will get better. But just remember you did all you could, you took good care of him, and gave him a great life and loved him well, and he will always be with you.

[@leafalie7154]

I wasn't expecting this vlog, but thank you. I'm just shy of three minutes into the video, and I'm already crying. Death has always been something that I'm terrified of. Partly for my own sake, but mostly afraid because I know the people around me will probably pass while I'm still here. I'm already dreading the day my cats pass, not to mention all my older human family members. So I deeply appreciate that you're filming what comes next. I've always looked up to you two, and I hope that when it comes time for me to grieve that I can be so strong.

[@lynntaylor9681]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sagan was such a great cat. I've only been watching occasionally for a couple years but I loved watching your cats in the vlogs. Thanks for sharing his life with us the viewers. You guys did the right thing. It's good that Sagan is no longer in pain.

[@valkyriecain7129]

My boyfriend of three years and I just recently split up and that’s another kind of loss and to see this really helps. Life does goes on, it’s just different. Knowing that is an important thing.

[@Repti-verse]

Stephen. Never apologize for crying or showing emotion. We are able to understand how tough this is for you.

[@chartingneptune]

The grieving process is a long one, and everyone handles it differently. I'm so sorry for your loss, but we're all here for you two. Every step of the way. Just remember that bad times are just times that are bad.

[@paint_chiper]

Love you guys.❤️Stay strong. Know that we are grieving with you.

[@spookwaves5546]

Thank you both for being open with us emotionally, and allowing us to share in the grieving process. The both of you are incredibly strong for choosing to move forward, and commit to the Vlog in light of Sagan's passing. Talking can be very therapeutic, allowing yourselves to vent the sorrow out, even if it's small ramblings; but please, if it the loss still stings, don't feel obligated to put something out for our sake. As Stephen said, time will heal this wound. And we'll be there every step of the way.

[@MidnightPicnic]

Everyone deals with grief differently and I'm glad you guys are doing it in a way that is the most comfortable for you two. Don't feel sorry for crying, or feeling sad. Just know you have a whole community of people who are here to help and support in any way possible. We love you, we love kep and we will all continue to love sagan.

[@Temporalitea]

I can’t express in words how incredibly strong you and Mal are; you’re such amazing people, and I can say with absolute certainty that Sagan could not have had a more wonderful family. Please never apologize for grieving - we love you very much, and we’ll be right beside you every step of the way. ❤️

[@WolfLover01211]

We all love you both, so much. So many emotions flow through someone, when any family member passes, especially our children. They are our babies, always will be. I am so sorry for your loss, and I’m happy you have each other in this time. We are all here for you. We love you Sagan. ♥️💙💜

[@myrme5198]

Much love to both of you and Kepler of course! If talking about it and continuing your work is best for both of you then go for it. But if you want to take a break or whatever then that is fine to. Please consider your mental health and what you think is best for you guys! 💕

[@mile5787]

I’m sure he loved you from the day you chose to raise and care for him to the day he had to depart, and may he rest easy knowing that his life was blessed with a good family and home. Losing family isn’t ever easy, less so when they’re on all fours. I remembered when our Staffordshire mix, Penny had to go, and I feel bad for not having been there in her last moments, but I can’t really be blamed for not wanting to see her in that state of despair. I didn’t visit my dad’s apartment for months. I still think about it this day, and please, take all the time you guys need. Sagan understands.

[@KarateLP93]

My heart hurts for y’all so much.. and I’m so sorry for your loss.. I’ve lost pets and it’s 100% losing a family member.. y’all are so strong for sharing this process of grieving.. sorry if this is rambling.. Sagan was very loved

[@Silverskyfall]

We lost our sweet dachshund very suddenly back in October and I remember how horrible that grief was. It was so unbelievably hard. And I know how hard the little things are - I had bought him a tiny hat for Halloween the night before he passed, and I kept it on my desk after that and sobbed every time I saw it for months. His loss had been the hardest of any of my pets - my loved ones - to process because it was so sudden, and you’re right - you never recover. That ache lasts for a lifetime. It does get easier, and you learn to process it and cope with it, but it is unbearably hard for quite a long time. I know how gut-wrenching that pain is, and watching you here brings it all back for me too. I am amazed by your strength by sharing these feelings so boldly. Truly. Thank you for being so profoundly open, and my heart is with you both right now.

[@loztpm]

Thank you for making this. My childhood dog is dying of aggressive spleen cancer right now, and it was so comforting and validating to see that it’s okay and normal and helpful to cry this much over a pet even as an adult. Thank you so much 💚

[@JoseGonzalez-ms5xr]

This is so heartbreaking, I’ve been in the position of losing a loving pet and I cannot even imagine how you’re feeling, do whatever you need to do to live your grief and process your loss, know that you’re supported by all of us and that we will always be here for you❤️ RIP Little kitty Sagan💓

[@Rin_ku]

I can’t imagine how hard making videos will be for the next while but I hope you guys keep going strong! I’ve been watching you guys for so long now and many more will be supporting you guys so keep doing what you’re doing

[@bacon-eatingpenguin8826]

It hurts to watch my heros go through so much pain. You were one of the first KZbinrs I got into. and one that I have stayed with the most. You and Mal's videos were there when I lost my pets. You were there with alot of the things I went through in life. Thank you and I'm so sorry.

[@tdsm99]

Yes he was❤ hope youre both resting well, sending a lot of loved to your little family

[@mattsm0211]

He was an amazing cat. I've loved watching him live throughout the vlog and it's hard to live without but we are all here for you and we all loved him. 💚💚💚💚

[@zgamer200]

Grief is okay and normal. Denying being sad is no way to live. The bad times are every bit as important an aspect of life as the happy moments, and I'm glad to see that you guys aren't trying to run away from these tough feelings. I just hope Kepler won't be too lonely without Sagan around. He always had a playmate throughout his whole life, so this will likely be very tough on him since you can't exactly explain to a cat what happened.

[@arcadia4691]

I feel your pain, we all do. We all want to help you get through this Extremely trying time. Bless both of you. Take all the time you need to grieve. I'm upset myself right now. We knew Sagan, and loved him, even from afar.

[@maesaki5785]

Thank you guys so much for everything Sagan had an amazing life everytime you guys showed him on camera he looked so happy I wish you guys the cause I and so many other people love you I’m praying for you guys💜

[@computergamer888]

Being strong in such a time is quite hard. However I know that your furry family member will be watching over you as I have one watching over me. May the strength you show help others as you have helped me through the years. May you be watched over & blessed in this time. Peace be with you.

[@BluFactory816]

The "and he was purring" part made me choke up

[@Dombobaybee]

The only meaningful thing I can say and Express to you guys is thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you guys.

[@boomoperator90]

I thought I wouldn't be able to watch this, but doing so helped the knot in my stomach just a bit. I know you'll get through this. Love you Sagan ♥️