Hi Ren - REACTION (Lyme Disease & MCAS Fighter; Anorexia Recovery Edition)

By popular demand, here's my reaction to "Hi Ren," the video that's taking the internet by storm lately! And I'm doing so from a place of shared lived experience with Lyme Disease, Mast Cell Activation Disorder/Syndrome, and more, and well as tying in the mental health aspects and how they apply to eating disorder recovery.
WOW! This is an absolute MASTERPIECE! This is one of the most emotional videos I've watched in a long time, and I'm so grateful he's sharing so vulnerably with the world. The world needs to hear his message.
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[@vinchinzo594]

Hi Becca. Just discovered Ren today and I'm still reeling from this song. Through him, I've discovered you. So that makes two gifts he's given me today that I can't repay. I can barely see the screen through my tears but I'm going to try to turn thoughts into words regardless. I might bumble and fail, since I don't *have* the words to express what this reaction made me think and feel and be. I think it made me feel known. I haven't left my bedroom in ~15 years except to go see doctors and take out my trash. Day by day my hope, identity, and membership within humanity have felt ever more distant and dreamlike. I can hardly believe it's been a decade and a half since I had a hug. Since I've had a friend, driven a car, fallen in love, laughed with somebody, or appreciated that I was alive. I've not felt so immediately attached to or protective of a stranger since before my illness ripped my very self out from under my feet. It will take some time, but I plan on going through as much of your upload catalogue as I can. I absolutely adore who you are, and at the risk of sounding odd or inappropriate, I hope it's okay to say that I love you. That I'm rooting for you. That I am on team Becca, and I believe in you. I have to thank you for the awe-inspiring confidence to share your inner self with the world so that I could watch this video and feel again, and even dare to be human again, if only for half an hour, and even if I don't quite know what I'm feeling or who I am. A little bit of everything and everyone, all at once, and overwhelmingly so. I am grateful that you exist. That God made you and wanted you to be. You matter. To me subjectively but also inherently and objectively. You are valuable and the world would be so much better off with more people like you gracing its surface. I wish for you all the goodness a life can hold inside of it, and that so many good things fall upon you that you can't contain your wholeness or your peace. That you may be bursting at the seams with calm. That our risen Lord walks with you all of your days. You deserve all the fullness of life, and every measure of joy. You are a precious and beautiful soul, fearfully and wonderfully made by the hands of Him who makes, and who today reminded me what life is about. Thank you, Becca. (I'm cringing at the very real possibility that this super over-the-top comment will make you uncomfortable, so if that's the case I'd ask that you let me know so I can delete it and then I'll refrain from commenting here in the future. I want you to be comfy in your space that you've carved out. I respect you more than you can possibly realize.) -Vincent

[@richarddancer-w8c]

I "m pretty sure Becca will like your looong comment. As for me I think it's absolutely beautiful I have some health problems of my own but I'm not bedridden. Mostly I'm just old and lonely; I haven't had a hug in TWENTY YEARS so I know how you feel. So even if your comment DOESN'T go over big with Becca I want you to know it's certainly warming my heart Let me take this opportunity to pass along my favorite video: Brooks and Dunn "Believe".(which also has a ton of reactions). There is an [official video] version and a live performance video of it. Both are great but the [official video] has the reactions and should be watched first. The Lord is certainly with you my friend.

[@vinchinzo594]

@@richarddancer-w8c I appreciate that so much and I will definitely check out the official video for that song. & I will pray for you. I wish you all the best in the world, and I'm giving you a big virtual hug! We have to stay strong. Don't give up no matter how lonely or isolated you feel. People, even complete strangers, care about you. I care about you. Hoping you have a fantastic day today.

[@BeccaDoss]

There is nothing over the top about sharing your story and connecting on a real, human level with someone else, and I feel honored you felt comfortable sharing here. I’m so sorry to hear of your own journey with such painful things, and it’s one I know well, so when I say your words hit deeply, I mean it-in the best way. It took me a few days to get to this because I wanted to give you the reply you deserve, and I’m so behind on comments right now I still feel like my words are inadequate, but I wanted to let you know just HOW much your words positively affected my own mindset/day, and to thank you for being such a kind, compassionate, caring soul. This world is a better place with you in it. And please always feel free to comment things as long to as short as you want (or not at all, if you don’t feel like it), you never need to worry about it being “over the top” or anything like that as far as I’m concerned. I’m so glad you were able to feel connected to this one, and to me, because that’s my number one goal. To help people feel less alone, more understood, or to at least share something of value. I resonate with so many of your own words, and just wanted you to know that, too. Thank you for being such an awesome human despite the struggles you’ve endured/are enduring.💕

[@BeccaDoss]

@richard dancer I’m so glad when I see people supporting each other in the comments, especially since I’m late getting to some of these recently. Thank you for adding this comment here-this is the single most supportive fan base, not just for Ren, not just on this channel in comments to ME, but in the interactions between y’all in the comment section-it makes my heart smile. Sending virtual hugs your way, friend.🫂

[@richarddancer-w8c]

Thursday, May 11, 2023. Hi Vincent . I thought I'd let you know that I've read your comment to Becca several times in the past few days. You know how you want to listen to your favorite song again and again? Well your comment is like that to me. I think it's great you said such kind words --and to a stranger no less! Take care buddy.

[@BeccaDoss]

💕💕UPDATE: I have been absolutely FLOORED by the response to this video-from the bottom of my heart, thank you all so very much! Your kindness and words of support and encouragement, and you taking time to share parts of your own stories, has filled my heart far more than I ever imagined possible when I decided to record this and press upload. I’m trying to get through replying to comments as quickly as I can, but if I haven’t gotten to yours yet, please give me some grace on that, I tend to have limited focus and ability to communicate online all at one time. I will do my best to get to you as soon as I can, I promise!😊 I also want to say thank you to all of you for helping me finally break through the resistance I’ve had to making this a primarily reaction channel, because it’s always been a format I enjoy, and have done on other channels for fun in the past, but your comments have made it very obvious that it’s just helpful to know that we’re not in this alone, and my number one goal is to always help people feel a little less alone with anything that I post. The outpouring of love I have seen in this comment section, and that I have seen several of you go on to give on my other content as well, it just makes me smile with true joy in a way that I haven’t been able to for a long time. And seeing you support each other in the comments has been metaphorical icing in the cake. Thank you for making this such a special experience, I can’t wait to share more with you as we take this journey together!😁💕 (Next up I’m hoping to do Sick Boi, and then Chalk Outlines-Live, so stay tuned!)

[@Spotastic9]

I've watched dozens of reactions to this video now and yours was definitely one of my favorites. Everything about the performance is just so impactful. I have chronic pain from my time in the military, a mobile aid user, I have PTSD, ADHD, and I'm autistic. I just keep watching it over and over again and each time it hits me the same. Also, my wife is also autistic and she has bouts of being nonspeaking. She has aphasia from head trauma and goes through those same periods of not being able to remember names or even what to call a TV. She's hyperlexic and has the most expansive vocabulary of anyone I know, but some days I have to tell her the word for a vacuum and hope it makes sense. Much love to you and everything you've gone through. You are not alone.

[@watchin_kc]

Hey.. I took down a previous comment i made that, in retrospect, came off as off rude, unkind, and presumptuous. I apologize sincerely. Im not too big to say im sorry. No excuse. I realize you understand struggle. M i do as well which is why i should have been more humble (sincerely)and just given you a like and sub and admired your authenticity.. Instead i was unnecessarily abrasive and again, i sounded like a dick. I really hope you disregard my dumb criticism. Like i said, no excuses, but id had a bad day. Im finally getting old and hopefully wiser and at this point, i know its better to try to clean up damage if possible instead of putting bad into the world. You have a beautiful, light. Ive only watched a couple of your videos but its evident that you're an authentic intelligent, nice person and, for what its worth, we both have our frenetic nature pointed out to us. I should have known better but thank you for the opportunity to introspect ..in an effort to keep doing better I wish you happiness, health, peace and meaning. Keep being you.

[@BeccaDoss]

@@watchin_kc Hey, I mean it when I say no worries; I didn’t take your previous comment as abrasive at all, and I’m pretty sure you even said you enjoyed the video before writing the part I’m guessing you feel came off the way you described. I just wanted to say, if I’m remembering correctly, you also even explained in that comment that you were just trying to share constructive advice and not pick things apart, and I can totally handle that. I appreciate you taking time to come back and write this, but I want you to know there was nothing wrong with the first comment you left. I tried to add a little joke in the e beginning of my reply, but I can also see how my reply may have seemed like I felt the way you described above, but I promise, no ill will here, whatsoever. Thanks for being a cool human.😎 (Also, there are times I’ve been a MASSIVE jerk to someone without ever realizing it because I was having a bad day, myself. I’m NOT saying you were a jerk here, because again, I don’t think you were in the wrong. I’m just saying I realize how our bad days can affect literally everything in life. Hang in there, I hope you have more days of sunshine than rain up ahead.💕

[@markslater7831]

You deserve it! Your honesty in reacting matches this amazingly honest and true artistic masterpiece. You really help spread this amazing message so more people can learn from you both. Thank you.

[@mjj29]

I've watched literally every reaction to Hi Ren, Sick Boy I can find and your reactions to those and Chalk Outlines are the ones I watch over and over again. Your analysis, explanation as well as the openness and honesty in your reaction make them as important to watch as the originals. I hope that many people find them and like them as much as I do. You deserve way more than 1200 subscribers. @renmakesmusic watches reactions to his videos. I hope he finds these.

[@JohnScott-Ashtree]

I'm a (near) 70-year-old Anglican minister, and since discovering 'Hi Ren' earlier this week, I've watched a ridiculous number of 'reaction' videos. This is the first I commented on, because it's by far the most moving. Thank you for doing this.

[@bobwheelan4684]

I think I've seen more than 50 reaction videos to Hi Ren but yours was the most moving. I know Ren watches some of these reactions, I hope he sees yours.

[@BeccaDoss]

Bob, I can’t explain to you how big the smile in my heart was when I read your comment😊 I really appreciate you taking time to watch and share such encouraging words; it’s a blessing to be able to fill these videos and share them with others, and I love anytime anyone is able to connect to anything that I share, in any way. I didn’t realize that he watches some of the videos, that’s really cool! Not a whole lot of artist would take time to do that, and it shows you where his heart is, and making music that helps him AND OTHERS heal.💕

[@system0fadowner251]

@Becca Doss you're an absolute treasure, and I loved your reaction, but tbh I'm very sorry the struggles Ren presents is so relatable for you. Nobody should go through this pain.

[@IronRaspberry]

I love your emotional reaction. Ren has quite a few songs that touch on this topic. “Chalk outlines (live)” is a good one, but his song “Crutch” is very deep and emotional; and often overlooked. I would love to see your reaction. By the way, Ren will be 33 this month.

[@BeccaDoss]

@@system0fadowner251 Hey, we’ve all got our own battles, and some of mine just happen to be the same as his. I’m just glad we’re both finding ways to use our own pain to help others feel less alone or more understood. Of course I would never put myself on the same level as Ren, as far as far-reaching impact, but I get the vibe his intention is the same, to make music he wants to make, that hits home for so many people. 💕

[@BeccaDoss]

@@IronRaspberry I’ve got both of those on the list! Thank you so much for the support AND for the recs! Really looking forward to diving into more of his stuff! And I’m so glad you enjoyed the reaction, I try to keep it as real and raw as possible, that’s always kind of been my drive to share any of my own story in any way, and to let other hopefully feel a little less alone.💕

[@ShortDogg]

Ok. I've probably seen about 100 reaction videos to Hi Ren over the last 2 days (that's not an exaggeration) and, Becca Doss, yours is the most powerful human experience I've had watching these. And that's really saying a lot. God Bless you, Angel.

[@BeccaDoss]

Matt, your comment brought tears to my eyes (one’s of gratitude, never worry). Your words really touched my soul, and I am so glad you were able to enjoy this reaction-I just try to keep it as raw, real, and vulnerable as possible, because my number one goal is to hopefully help others feel a little less alone and a little more understood. I’ve got more coming, so stay tuned if your interested in checking them out (currently editing reactions to Sick Boi and Chalk Outlines, as far as Ren goes). Take care of yourself.🙏🏼💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

@@BeccaDoss I'm with you guys Becca is the best

[@crichhanson]

The empathy you show for another's struggles truly shows your inner strength. You may not see it, but we do. You are an amazing person Becca!❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, friend, I can’t tell you how much this meant to me to read. Bless you.💕

[@kevingood4644]

Couldn’t agree more..I find her to be inspirational.

[@eshxplorn]

I have watched many dozens of reactions to "Hi Ren" and yours was especially touching, with your intimate knowing of Ren's struggle and sharing yours so openly. Wish you all the best on your path and hoping you dance your way to the point of writing again.

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, I’m blown away by the support in this comment section; thank you deeply for your encouragement and support. I’m really glad you were able to connect with this reaction in any way. I really appreciate your encouraging for continued healing, especially when it comes to writing.💕

[@Sha-cb9os]

I was very moved by your reaction. My heart goes out to you. I myself have been struggling with physical illness for over ten years now but every day I get up and force my body to do what it needs it to do, it's so hard and lonely at times but watching Ren's video and how other people are talking about their struggles helps a lot. I am happy you found Ren and hope you continue to listen to him and to stay on your healthy path.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking time to share a little bit about your own story, I’m a firm believer that connecting with others who understand in any capacity helps us heal. I’m so sorry to hear about your own suffering, it’s definitely something I understand very much firsthand, and it shows tremendous strength and determination to get up every day and force your body to do what needs to do, even though it can be extremely difficult, and at times isolating. I’m glad I finally was turned on to his music, too, because like I said, it’s rare that I don’t keep my finger on the pulse of artist to do music like this, so I’m really excited to be along for the ride now. Take care of yourself, and remember, one day at a time is all we have to focus on.💕

[@Bearlissimo]

Please feel the hugs that I wanted to give you from England... Both you & Ren... From someone who's been in the rope a few times.

[@ianhislop6782]

Thank you for your incredibly moving reaction. I have watched probably 50 or so reaction videos to Hi Ren. Each one looks at it from a slightly different angle. Some look at the theatrical aspects, some the musical elements and others the complex word schemes. Your reaction was beautiful because you related so much to the message of struggle and hope. Ren has such an extensive back catalogue but I would highly recommend Sick Boi or Chalk Outlines as the next track to listen to. They are very different to each other in style but the themes are similar. I feel so happy that you have found this artist. Ren has made so many of us feel that we are not alone. He stands with us today.

[@BeccaDoss]

I am SO glad I finally came across him, too, because while I’m surprised I hadn’t heard his stuff before, I’m even more excited to go down the rabbit hole of his music myself! I’ve got those songs added to the list, so thanks for the additional rec! Take care!

[@jice7074]

@@BeccaDoss Chalk outlines is an amazingly haunting song, grab some tissues.

[@nadinezachary9436]

I thought I was being obsessive watching Ren reactions every day. I may have watched more than 50. I've been listening to Ren and his band The Big Push for a couple years, and with all the other people he sings with. I love seeing Ren get the appreciation he deserves.

[@davidjardine4968]

Yours was one of the most powerful and moving reactions to this amazing song that I have seen. You really captured and personalized the message of the song and that's inspiring to others on their own healing journey.

[@BeccaDoss]

Yours is one of the most powerful and soul-filling comments I’ve received, thank you deeply, David. I’m so glad you were able to enjoy the video. What a masterpiece of a song/music video he‘s given us! Any my own motto has always been: if sharing any part of my own journey can help even one person feel less alone, that’s all that matters.💕

[@TanjaSchumacher-fj9zc]

My deepest respect to your reaction. I was nearly crying when your voice sometomes almost broke and you had teary eyes but I also smiled when you were laughing. I wish you all the best and a happy life. Keep on fighting and don't forget that none of us is always strong. We're all human and you have to be weak sometimes to know what strong means. Much love from Germany. Check out more Ren, it's a phantastic journey.

[@BeccaDoss]

I'm so glad you were able to join me on the emotional roller coaster that is this song/this reaction video! I try to keep it as raw and real and honest as I can, and I love any time anyone can relate. And you're so right, no one can always be strong, but it's picking ourselves up and refusing to stop fighting that gives us the strength to keep going one day at a time. And music that helps us connect to others definitely helps. Can't wait to check out more!

[@nja5102]

I think this is only the 2nd comment I've ever left on a video in 10+ years. Great reaction video. I'm grateful you got something from HI REN. Just want to let you know I wish you the best in your recovery. Your husband's a lucky man and you're a beautiful lady. Take care

[@gregcampbell2977]

Thank you. The more people with your level of bravery (and Ren's) that share your story, the better. My warmest hopes and wishes for your recovery. You are not alone. ❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, Greg. My number one goal in sharing these things is to help someone feel a little less alone, or a little more understood/understanding. It’s an honor to be able to share this ride with so many awesome people in this fan base. Appreciate you, friend.💕

[@ScottyRosencrance-dq4pj]

I don’t know what to even say. I’ve watched over 100 reactions, for the soul fact that I yearn to see other reactions to this that are identical to mine and yours was as close as it comes. Thank you so much. I can’t stop listening to this song! Thank you for sharing your struggles. It is beautiful to see and hear. You are amazing! Everything about you Thank you for sharing details in your life. We can only dream of having the strength you have I have had MS since 16, and I’m 41 now. This song, it hits so hard. Over and over Keep doing what you do. The world needs it!!

[@ScottyRosencrance-dq4pj]

I went undiagnosed for 5 years and it was the worst 5 years of my life. I’m sorry for what all you have suffered with. No one can imagine. But some of us can. Hang in there. You’ve got this dear!

[@BeccaDoss]

I don’t have the words I wish I had to reply adequately, but I wanted you to know I read this, every word, and it moved my soul, deeply. I’m so sorry to hear about your own pain and suffering, and I’m also glad you’re here, if only to realize you are NOT alone. Thank you for feeling safe enough to let me hold space for part of your story.💕

[@samanthamullin5585]

As one with 6 autoimmune diseases/disorders, his work hits close to home. I'm glad to see you've discovered Ren. Thank you for sharing

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad I finally got word about him, too. I hate that I somehow missed him for years, because that’s unusual for me, but on the flip side, I now get to react to his entire back catalogue, so I’m excited for that. This is different than my experiences reacting to NF, who I also love, because I can only react to brand new stuff if his since I’ve listened to his entire catalogue since 2014, and those wouldn’t be legit first reaction vids. Part of me loves that I somehow missed this creative genius till now, because not only is he putting out new stuff, but I have an entire back-catalogue to enjoy as first-listen reactions. Also, I feel you on it hitting so close to home. Wishing you all the best as you manage your own health challenges; remember, one day at a time is all we have to focus on. Sometimes one hour/minute at a time is also enough.

[@ericdotd69]

The magic of music has been my go-to for decades.. in 2017 I 1st heard Dimash on a Chinese talent show.. He was 22 n the wildcard.. He performed in various languages and styles.. His depth of emotion, in every performance conveys the experience. He is wise and compassionate.. I am sure he will make you say WOW😳🤗. Dimash SOS 2021

[@ericdotd69]

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[@BeccaDoss]

@@ericdotd69 Thanks for rec! I’m with you, I don’t know how I’d make it through life without having music to process it.

[@pvandewyngaerde]

Congratulations on the 1y anniversary of this video today. I know it was the start of many good things. I also can't believe this is my first comment on this video since I watched it so many times since I found it. See you soon for the Live version you announced !

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, Peter! I am so appreciative of your continued support! It definitely started one heckuva journey, that’s for sure. Had some technical issues on the back end, but the new one is up now!💕

[@patriciawalker117]

The best way I can personify this song and the other two being recommended ( chalk outlines and sick boi) is hi ren puts the pain in perspective, chalk out lines is just raw emotion ( its a heavy one cant lie) and sick boi shows why a lot of people go through mental health or rather who has a big part to play in the over all problem.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you for taking time to type out that explanation, I have no doubt that I will react just as emotionally, if not more so, to those two videos. It’s driving me crazy tonight just go listen to the songs now, but I refuse to post a reaction video that’s not a very first listen, so guess that means I need to get on it!

[@dbartyzel]

I think you’ll wanna watch Chalk outlines next. Just a hunch

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks SO MUCH for the rec! Like I mentioned in this video about this song, I’m usually pretty on top of music that has similar messages/emotion/heaviness behind it, but my own struggles have been so overwhelming lately that I’ve been slacking, so I’m very appreciative for any suggestions anyone shares!

[@tonyjames9016]

Yes!

[@frimiseestheworld4800]

Absolutely Chalk Outlines next!

[@greattheillusion]

If you do watch chalk outlines I recommend the live version not the studio because just like this video you see his emotion and his feeling.

[@erryvanh9114]

Ma nooooo

[@AndyUK-Corrival]

Amazing heartfelt reaction from you to this masterpiece by Ren. I’ve watched so many reactions to this and yours, like many others brought a different perspective on the song so I thank you for that. I’ve suffered with chronic depression for many years now and I’m 59yo and so many lines in this song resonate with me and I think that most of the 6m + people who have watched his video will find at least one aspect they relate to. I wish you well in your own battle and I hope Ren watches this reaction as he has others and I’m sure he will comment. He lives in Brighton UK another far from me and often does impromptu gigs and busks on the streets. He is currently in Canada getting more treatment but I hope he returns soon and we hear more. Andy UK

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, Andy, thanks so much for taking time to share a piece of your own story, it sounds like you’ve definitely been through the ringer. I’m so glad you’ve been able to resonate with this song and hiss music, and you’re right, I’d say everyone who watches it could at least relate to one of more lyrics. I also really appreciate your encouragement - and Ren just sounds like a really awesome dude. How cool that he does impromptu concerts like that!

[@system0fadowner251]

I believe he has a new track dropping at the end of March, so get hypeddd.

[@laurafromliverpool]

Hi there, i came here because Discodoc (a friend of Ren's) sent me but I'm staying because of you. Watching you react to Hi Ren was like watching myself the first time i saw it. I've seen lots of reactions to that song in the last few months but some people just "get" it. And that's because they "know" it. They've lived or are living through it. When i watched it for the first time i cried for 24 hours afterwards. Never had i felt so seen. Never had someone taken the words and thoughts and feelings i have had and presented them so elegantly before me. I'm off to watch more of your films. I look forward to learning more about you and more about me through them. By the way, the fact that Discodoc recommended you almost certainly means that Ren has seen your reaction. ❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Hey! Thank you so much for stopping by and leaving such kind words and his comment, it means so much to me. I’m sorry I am a week late getting to it, I’ve just been overwhelmed by the support I’ve had since that shout out last week, and it’s been hard to think through individual replies. I am extremely grateful to know that you were able to connect and resonate with my reaction to Hi Ren on such a deep, personal level, and I’m also sorry that you understand it so well firsthand. I would do anything in my power to prevent other humans from having to feel that type of pain. But, since I can’t do that, I try to do whatever I can to share my own emotions and journey, in hopes that I can hold space for others who want to share some of their own, or who just need to feel a little more understood, less alone, or want to learn or laugh about something (the goal varies with the reaction/song, or course). You said it perfectly, and I had the same experience: watching that video for the first time helped me feel SEEN, which is something I know you understand is a huge deal, since you had the same response. I am so thankful to have you along for the ride, and I really hope you’re able to enjoy more of the content as I am able to get it posted. Take care of yourself, friend.🫂💕

[@jrbush1]

Thanks for sharing your own experience. Having a bit of insight into these diseases makes it all the more incredible that Ren not only wrote that song, but he performed it and recorded it in a single take. Amazing. Personally, I think Sick Boi would give you more insight into Ren than some of his other songs, but there are many good ones out there.

[@BeccaDoss]

Yeah, it’s absolutely AMAZING, indeed, that he did it all in one take. I hadn’t heard that (thanks for confirming!) but I thought that might be the case as I was watching the video. It just shows you how skilled and talented he really is, because one-takes are hard, especially when it’s a longer song with so many different pieces and transitions, etc. Sick Boi is definitely near the top of my list; I’m really eager to start digging into more of his music, but I’m also impatient-when I find an artist I like, whose music I’ve somehow missed before, my instinct is to go listen to their entire discography in order ASAP. I don’t do so well with the delayed gratification thing.🤷🏼‍♀️ When I saw people were asking for a reaction to this song/video, I had a feeling his whole catalogue was going to hit home HARD, and I’m actively resisting my instinctual urge to listen to his songs ahead of time, so my reactions can be legit first reactions.

[@adamdouglas9859]

Best reaction yet. Thank you for going on the journey with us to watch with you

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, Adam. This means the world to me, especially since I didn’t realize until editing that I did not plan my camera placement well, and it was shaking so much. Thankfully I’ve found a way to remedy that since, but it always makes my heart smile knowing someone is able to relate to and/or enjoy this reaction despite my brain fog-induced camera decision. I couldn’t be more grateful to be on this journey, which started with Hi Ren, here, but has thankfully continued since then. This community has been a very bright spot when other things can get pretty dark, and I may be rambling a bit due to insomnia, but I really appreciate you taking time to both watch and to let me know you enjoyed it.💕

[@Irishflea69]

I have literally lost count of the number of times I have either listened to “Hi Ren” or to reactions of it, and literally every time I listen to it, I am brought to tears. I’m brought to tears, not just by the monumental impact Ren’s words have had on me, but also the impact his words have had on others. But what really set your reaction apart from those other reactions was your making yourself so vulnerable by so openly sharing your own struggles and how you perceived Ren’s message in this song. This was the first time that I had to actually pause the video just so that I could regain my composure before continuing to listen. Thank you for sharing. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you continue to fight your inner demons. Continue to dance in the light!

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, friend, thank you so much for your kindness and compassion. Your words mean the world to me-I’m thankful anytime someone is able to appreciate the vulnerability and emotion, because those are things I can’t fake at all, I’m notoriously bad at faking any other emotion than what I’m actually feeling, and it’s nice to know it’s able to come through the screen. Appreciate you greatly, AND your thoughts and prayers. thanks for being an awesome human. Sending you love, compassion, and prayers across the airwaves.💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

YOU are the blessing. I'm just saying thank you with my comments and passing along information❤

[@HiTekCowboy]

wow.. i've lost count of how many reactors I've shared their first experience with Ren. But like unique artists, reactors are unique too and I found myself surprisingly teary-eyed while watching your reaction. Your authentication thoughts and emotions flooded through your video just like Ren's did to you. Thanks so much for your bravery and sharing. I wish you and your loved ones success!

[@BeccaDoss]

Your words are bringing tears to my eyes, James, thank you for your kindness and encouragement, and willingness to take a chance at watching; my number one goal is to help people feel connected in any way, so I appreciate any time someone lets me know it resonates.💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

I've only recently started watching reaction videos. It's a good thing I'm retired because I'd lose my job due to the lack of sleep I'm experiencing now binging on them. But the reactions I've seen and the comments I've read are exploding my heart with joy :)

[@jessievoisin5462]

This was my fave review/reaction to Hi Ren! Hope and pray for your continued journey along the path Becca...

[@BeccaDoss]

That makes my heart so happy to hear, thank you!😊💕

[@hansjohansson7111]

Thank you Becca for a truly strong reaction, taking me deeply. You will love Ren even more than I do because of your history. He have a lot of deep songs. I will follow you. Take care😘

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so excited to dig into his catalogue-it’s rare that I find an artist that makes this kind of music that I don’t already know, so I feel fortunate I somehow missed him until now, because NOW I get to go back and listen to (and probably react to) all of his older stuff, along with new things he releases. Really appreciate the encouragement and support! Take care of yourself.💕😊

[@3vilH3d]

Amazing. And you posted on my 40th. Glad I found your channel!❤

[@BeccaDoss]

How cool! So glad to know you’re happy to be here, I love connecting with more people in this way, and as I say fairly often, my goal with this channel is to either help someone feel less alone, feel more understood, or to give them something to laugh or learn about. If I can do any version of any of those things, it’s more than I could ask for. Really appreciate you taking time to leave these encouraging comments today. I hope you’re taking care of yourself as we head into this new year.💕

[@nateb188]

In less than a day I discovered Ren and found one of my new favorite reaction channels! 😂 love your reaction and the way you broke down the lyrics and the real emotion you showed, it was amazing. Keep up the amazing work you do 🙏🙏

[@BeccaDoss]

Bless you, friend, I’m so thankful you took time to leave such a kind comment-it gave me such a huge heart-smile and warmed my soul. I really appreciate you taking time to watch, and I’m glad you enjoyed this one! 💕 I try to be as real as possible, especially when the subject matter hits close to home. Any emotions you see me share in any video (and I run the gamut of emotions, for sure) are my 100% raw, honest, and real - I’m actually notoriously bad at faking or forcing emotions, definitely a heart-on-my-sleeve person.💕 I’m so thankful you not only found Ren (because he’s AMAZING), but that you also happened to check out my content-it means the world to me!

[@nateb188]

@@BeccaDoss you are a blessing, I have been watching your reactions and they are brilliant. You actually listen and take time to construct your thoughts and opinions and you do it in such an eloquent way. I can tell when a reactor isn’t serious or is faking a reaction, but I knew instantly you were genuine by how you presented yourself. This rant has been too long, but it’s refreshing to see someone like yourself who is real, authentic, and a beautiful and soul break down, in my opinion, one of the best art works of recent times.

[@shawnsteen8442]

Thank you for this. When I was at my lowest it was people like you on KZbin showing me I wasn't actually alone that helped me get through it. That part where he says "I've spent half my life ill" gets me every time too.

[@brianschroeder2506]

I've never wanted to give a hug to a person I haven't met more than right now. This is more than your typical reaction video. This is something I will share with others. I needed it. They need it. Frankly, we all need it. Thank you so much for opening up and sharing this with us. Ren will change lives with this.... but your video will too. Thank you. * virtual hug *

[@BeccaDoss]

Brian, I am a big fan of sending virtual hugs across the airwaves, so know that I really appreciate your words and send them right back to you. As far as the rest of your comment goes, it’s taking me a little while to reply because I was honestly speechless. Your words touched my heart in a way that I can’t really give an adequate description to, and I am so grateful and glad to know that you were able to resonate with my little reaction video, and it was able to help you in anyway. My number one goal with anything that I share is to always help people feel a little less alone, and a little more understood, so your comment really does mean the world to me. I can’t wait to keep going on this journey, specifically into Ren’s music, because I had a feeling it’s gonna be quite an awesome ride. I really appreciate you joining me for it! Take care of yourself. 💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

your comment is really warming my heart

[@robertmahenski7660]

My god, woman. This is the best reaction I've seen to this video, and I've watched almost every one. Thank you. Your genuine vulnerability is astounding, and though I don't like humans in general, I would welcome you to live next door. Again, thank you. And bless you.

[@BeccaDoss]

Bless you, friend, this was so kind and encouraging to read, and put a genuine smile on my face, which can be hard to find at times. And your part about welcoming me next door means a LOT to me, because I’m not a huge fan of in-person human interaction, either (but I’d take you up on it!). Thanks so much for the smile.

[@artanddebearickson9729]

I think most everyone who has multiple chronic illnesses understands this video to the core of our beings. It's everything that we all live with on a daily basis. I am in my 60s now, having lived my whole life with multiple rare disorders. This video is the struggle we all deal with every day of our lives. The struggle that society gives us expecting us to live the way they do. But we can't because we are us, not them. We learn to do things our own way. deb

[@BeccaDoss]

I so appreciate you stopping by, and you’re right-this cuts straight to the core of our being. Ren is such a special artist and a force to be reckoned with, and I love how well he encapsulates the struggle with his lyrics. I really appreciate you taking time to watch, and I hope you find continued healing.💕

[@R4CHEL__]

This reaction is absolutely the best one I’ve seen of for this song. I felt every word of his song and all of his music. He has become a huge part of my playlists and daily music intake. He’s phenomenal. Thank you for your honesty, your ability to be vulnerable and show how this has impacted you as well. Also, I thought he looked incredibly young but he’s our age, 30s 😉

[@Paul-Gleave]

This was a beautiful reaction and pleasure to watch but I just wanted to say that everyone flinches and shakes even Ren, but hope can still stand strong and I know that yours does, because you stand here before me today. Much love and all the best. :D

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you SO MUCH for this comment and pointing out that reminder I know I need often: that everyone has moments where they feel shaken or like they’re literally or metaphorically flinching. It’s always good to remember it’s kind of a universal experience of being human, no matter what our specific individual struggles may be. Really appreciate your kindness and encouragement.💕😊

[@hotsauce1646]

I find it fantastic that the people who realy struggle like you are so mentaly strong compared to all the wannebees outthere . Who claim they have this or that and only take up space for people who realy need help . I can see you aswel as Ren struggled but it did made you stronger . This reaction alone is prove of this .

[@ranahooke1907]

“She sells seashells by the seashore” is actually a callback to his song ‘Money Game part 2’. Both part 1 and 2 are social commentary. He describes part 2 as “Business economics in a nursery rhyme”.

[@BeccaDoss]

I love it even more! I figured there was a deeper layer or Easter egg there that I hadn’t caught since I’m new to him yet. Looking forward to catching up on the rest of his songs, but MAN it’s an exercise in patience to not just go listen NOW and get up to date on his entire discography. I’m honestly FLOORED I haven’t heard him before now, that surprised me more than anything, so I’m excited for this ride and thrilled to have ton come along!😁💕

[@stevensudit]

​@@BeccaDoss It's also a reference to an Eminem song, just like the guitar riffs at the start borrow from yet another Eminem song. As his dark side is keen to remind him, Ren is heavily influenced by Eminem. Of course, he does things here that Eminem never did.

[@BeccaDoss]

@@stevensudit oh it 100% is. I can def see Em’s influence in his music (I’ve been a huge Em Stan since 1999, that man can do things with words no one else has yet to figure out, he blows my mind, and 8 hope he drops something new soon so I can react to it, too. Sorry, got off track, but yeah, you’re absolutely right, when the guitar at the beginning first started, my first thought was “Em!” B7 j was already pausing it enough, I didn’t want to make it even worse.🤣

[@stevensudit]

I just now ran into this very old video of Ren. His singing isn't at his current level, but the song is very much in the same spirit as Hi Ren. kzbin.info/www/bejne/aGmXppqkiMSlq7M&ab_channel=AyeshaJones

[@ranahooke1907]

@@stevensudit Yes! This was in the documentary ‘Unrest’ about ME/CFS.. I saw it in 2017 but didn’t know who Ren was back then.. so didn’t think anything of it when he was in the doco. I rewatched it as soon as I realised. He does an interview as well as playing this song. ❤️

[@BenjaminRetr0]

I haven't had Ren's, or your battles, but I have spent most of my 37 years battling misdiagnosis after misdiagnosis, brain damage from drowning as a child, further issues from multiple head injuries as an athlete, then surviving a series of strokes in my late 20's, then as recently as last summer being diagnosed with essentially ADHD turned up to 11. I cannot fucking get enough of Ren... I haven't been able to stop thinking about Hi Ren since I was first suggested to me by a friend. Every. Single. Time I watch it, I find myself completely full of feelings. I feel completely dejected, then hugely elated, simultaneously filled with dread that my creative brain might have atrophied since the stroke, but also there's a huge, emotional rush of motivation and creativity. Hi Ren, Ren's story, and all the stories I'm watching of people like yourself relating hard to everything he says it's so... Hopeful. The solitude of the last couple of decades seems to feel lesser than it ever has. Thank you Ren, and everyone moved by him for making me feel simply less alone! 💚

[@belindamelville2270]

Benja...💜💙💜💙

[@BeccaDoss]

Benjamin, it’s taken me a little while to respond to your comment because I wanted to give it the time and attention it deserved. I first want to thank you for sharing just part of what is an absolutely painful journey, because I’m sure even recounting the things that you’ve endured can bring up any number of difficult emotions and memories. I’m so glad you’ve been able to find solace in his music, and it really means a lot to me that you took time to watch this, to comment, and to share your own story and let me know you resonated with my video. My whole goal in all of this is just to help at least one other person feel a little less alone, and if that’s something I’m able to do in anyway, all of my own suffering is worth it. I hope you’re able to take care of yourself and find moments of peace and joy amidst the chaos and turbulence that we can find in this world.

[@rodgersmith6891]

Hope you continue to react to his music. You display a great amount of tact, intelligence, and strength of character. His song "Sick boi" has been called a companion piece to "Hi Ren" as is, I think, his song "Chalk outlines". His "Tale of Jenny and Screech (Full version) really shows off his storytelling skills. The reference in "Hi Ren" to selling sea shells is a callback to his song "Money game Part 2". "Money game part 1" and "How to be me" are also fantastic. To see his truly awesome rapping skills check out "The Hunger" and "Losing it"

[@BeccaDoss]

I really appreciate you taking time to type all of that out, thank you! I’ve added them all to the list! It’s killing me to wait to listen, but I refuse to post reactions that aren’t true first listens, so that just means I need to get on it as soon as I’m physically able!💕😊

[@kylewatson7639]

​​​@@BeccaDoss I fully support this comment. Sick boi I believe would be a direct follow up to understand more of his stance on the "psychological warfare", what he feels being in the Healthcare system like that and the state of the world. His rapping skills are also really good especially in The Hunger, Knox Hill did a break down of it if you need help understanding the rhyme schemes and the double/triple meanings behind his words. Edit: just checked out your channel and subscribed and I see a few more reactions. I'll definitely be watching

[@BeccaDoss]

@@kylewatson7639 Thank you, Kyle! Appreciate you!

[@corrie1688]

i was diagnosed with fibro 10th March and then 6 days later with diabetes, i have been fighting fatigue for years with misdiagnosis of many things. I have been through hundreds of medications and treatments, none have been effective. I have been fighting mental for 10yrs because they can never find out what is wrong with me Recently i have been in a metal state to end it all My son came to me a week ago and said Dad please listen to this song, it has reached me on so many levels. I can relate to everything both in the song and what you have said in your video. I cried for days after hearing it, i have watched maybe 50 reactions and yours i the best by far thank you, know we are not alone God Bless

[@sunshynff]

You just destroyed me, I'm a 53 yr old retired (early due to ptsd) firefighter, and I'm adjusting to new antidepressant, and been a little weepy lately. I've probably seen 50+ reactions to this song, but watching you react, knowing your struggles were similar to Rens, you had me tearing up 2min in, and by the end, your pure joy and the way the song moved you, I was balling like girl stood up on prom night..lol. It was a good healthy cry though, I don't like to admit it, but I think sometimes a lot of guys out there, especially the ones that think they have to be the tough guy all the time, could benefit from a good cry once in a while. It really cleans out the emotional pipes for me, ya know. I hope you're journey and your eternal dance gets easier, never forget how strong you are and how many people you inspire just by creating content about what you go through, you never know who you may touch with your story. I can't wait for you to hear his other music, you name it, he can play it, blues, rock, pop, rap, reggae, hip-hop fusion, kid is amazing!! Here's a little clip for you, I think you, more than anyone, would enjoy it. Only 8min, no need to react, just for you, it's Ren live streaming on Twitch right after "Hi Ren" dropped, he talks a little bit why he wrote it and talks about his condition a little bit. Get you tissues ready, it gets a little deep for a minute or two. Cheers!! kzbin.info/www/bejne/g2KxkmakhruSbrM

[@bearbait7405]

Prayers lifted.

[@BeccaDoss]

I have been trying to reply for the past 24 hours, but couldn't find the right words. Your comment likewise destroyed me, because my number one goal is to be able to put out content that can connect to, or resonate with, even one other person, even if our specific circumstances are different. I really appreciate you taking time to share part of what I'm sure is a MUCH larger story of your own, and thank you for the job you did before you couldn't do it any longer. PTSD is so hard, and it's always tough to make a decision to leave a career, but I hope you find moments of peace and hope in your days, amidst all the chaos and tumult in this world. (And yes, I'm a big believer in the healing power of a good cry!) Thanks for the link to that video, I definitely will check it out just for my own enjoyment, means a lot that you took time to share it! Take care of yourself. 💕

[@mama-llama4527]

Oh my gosh, your reaction moved me so much. What a beautiful spirit you have.

[@BeccaDoss]

You are so kind, thank you so much. I’m grateful to hear it resonated with you. Bless you.💕

[@annahart7507]

I loved your open take on this so much! Although I do struggle with auto immune issues, I also have battled my eating disordered demons for over 15 years, and even though I am "recovered" in other peoples eyes... it's all I could think about when I first heard this excellent song. The never ending battle between darkness and light and the fight to keep on the right track despite what the other voice incessantly whispers in my ear... man... it really resounded with me as well.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m sorry to hear of your own struggles, and I hope this song/video, and maybe even my reaction (or others) can help you feel a little less alone. That ED voice is so loud long after others think we’ve “recovered,” because they think physical recovery is all it takes if they haven’t had to deal with it. Hoping you get more moments of peace and hope amidst the chaos of that voice. This internet stranger is proud of you for doing the work you’ve done-it’s not easy, ESPECIALLY alongside chronic illness.💜

[@joeymalley9266]

Hey Becca, I searched a few comments but didn't see anyone share it yet but if u look closely this is performed in one take with a mic on collar and his guitar plugged into a transmitter, only thing done in post is the different camera angles. Really brilliant work and wholehearted. And I loved your response, so genuine and heartfelt! Honestly this is the best reaction to this song i've seen so far and i've seen SO MANY... Especially how the line " the voice that you heard when you loosen the noose on the rope " hit you.. Most people just glance over that but it's one of the most powerful lines in this song.

[@Hexenkind1]

What a absolute gem of a reaction becca. I was totally moved by your emotions here and felt it in every second. It is so wonderful that ren is able to give others hope and strength with his music and message. He is truly something special. He was born in 1990 by the way. More information is on his wikipedia page named "Ren (British musician)" where you can read more about him. He has so much more music in his repertoire and this is just one tiny facette of his talent. I wish you all the strength and love in the world to overcome your own demons.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, I really appreciate all of your kind and encouraging words, they mean a lot to me. He really is a special person and artist, and I can’t wait to get into more of his music! Thanks for the info on the birthday; I admittedly should’ve done more research if I was even going to throw any guesses about age in there in my video, so that was for totally my bad. It actually helps me relate even more, because he’s just under 2 years younger than me (born in 1988). I’ll definitely be reacting to more of his in the future, that’s for sure! Thanks again for your support, just taking it one day at a time.💕

[@Mommajarritos]

Big hugs to you! This reaction was beautiful! 🤍 sending you so much love!! 😊

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much! I worry about this one because I wasn’t prepared AT ALL, and didn’t even realize how shaky my camera was until I tried to fix it in post (and failed). I’m so glad people are able to resonate with and enjoy it even with the flaws in my editing. Thankfully, with practice, I’ve also gotten better at rewinding parts of songs to make sure I don’t miss transitions, but when someone is able to see past the earlier editing issues and STILL tell me they enjoyed the video-it means the world to me.💕

[@Mommajarritos]

@@BeccaDoss personally, I appreciate the rawness of your reaction. I thought it was perfect!

[@elliottmcneese5769]

"Hi Ren" is reaching so many people, and that is a beautiful thought. He has definitely done something special with this song. Rock on Ren, Rock on.

[@cafiusklien]

I hope that you manage to get to a point where you feel you can cope and live with less pain, mentally and physically. Then, one day, hopefully. You can recover from religion, too. That fight is also a very hard one, depending how deeply you've been brainwashed by it. Keep fighting and I send my best wishes and love.

[@seandan7873]

This right here is why I love Ren. He's saying the quiet part out loud, for so many of us. It's so very healthy for all of us to know, we don't struggle alone. Okay, now I've finished watching your reaction, some final thoughts.. Firstly, 34? Actually? I honestly would've guessed maybe 22 at the most. and finally, I couldn't help but admire your authenticity and vulnerability. You easily earned a sub from me. Thank you for your reaction.

[@BeccaDoss]

YES! He absolutely is doing just that! Community and connection is so healing, and knowing we’re not alone is one of the most powerful forces to drive that healing. Couldn’t have said it better, myself.💕

[@BeccaDoss]

Just now saw the second part of your comment, and I just want to say thanks again for the support! It’s been a long time since someone has said I look younger than I am, so I’ll take it! (I used to get it a lot, but comments mostly stopped around age 30), I try to embrace any aging I have as a gift of more time to figure out how to truly thrive in this life thing and connect with others. And with music like this, people can relate and connect with each other more than they may ever otherwise do.💕

[@seandan7873]

@@BeccaDoss you are truly welcome, thank you for being you.

[@gamerythings123]

I've never heard a song that perfectly described my inner struggle like this before. Since I watched the video I've been binging reaction videos of the song. I'M not sure why. Somehow its helping me to process my emotions by watching others react. Your reaction will be the last one I watch of Hi Ren, cause you are the first one that had all the same emotions I had and somehow it helps. I don't need to watch other reactions now, i found what I was looking for. Thank you.

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, this is a comment that has taken me a couple days to formulate a reply to, because it touched my heart in such a deep way. I totally understand how falling down the rabbit hold of binge watching reactions to songs that resonate- my own experience and hypothesis, is that, when we’re able to experience something powerful like this “with“ other people, even if that’s via the Internet, it helps us all tap into a sense of connection and shared, common humanity. Which inevitably helps us feel less alone, even if our specific struggles can vary. It absolutely means so much to my heart to know that you were able to connect to all of the emotions I shared here, and it was able to help in anyway. I really don’t have the words to tell you how grateful I am that you had that experience, and took time to let me know. I really appreciate you, sending you all the love and compassion in the world as you continue your own journey.💕

[@gamerythings123]

​@@BeccaDoss Thank you so much to take the time to craft such a thoughtful and beautiful reply. Most people won't. It is not lost on me that you are going through so much yourself, yet you made time to respond to a stranger. Your compassion blows me away. You just made my day so much better. Thank you

[@stevengeller829]

Depression, Insomnia, Chalk Outlines, Crutch, Diazepam, and Sick Boi, honestly all great songs. All very heavy The Tales Trilogy- Jenny’s Tale, Screech’s Tale, Violet’s Tale (Full) will hit your literary itch. One of my favorites is How to Be Me about him coping after a friend’s suicide. Heavy. Fun songs like Love Music parts 1-3, What You Want, Bittersweet Symphony, and Power. Busking stuff w/ The Big Push like Bongo Bong, I Shot the Sherrif. He is a Swiss Army knife of an artist and he has so much to get into. Different every time. Listen to none, some, or all… but.. no matter what you do.. I’m sure we all hope you find inspiration to help you to live each day and try to really live it in any way you can. Ren made Hi Ren for himself and to help anyone else he possibly could. He has some vlogs about his struggles. I do suggest them. Even above his music. They may really help.

[@BeccaDoss]

THANK YOU for this super comprehensive list and comment! I’m definitely saving the recommendations, it’s really helpful that you typed it all out. And I definitely will check out those vlogs; I’m a big fan of vlogs in general, and I’m sure his are a vulnerable and enlightening window into his lived experience. 💕

[@AudzATK]

Seems like this masterpiece was made for you!. Very beautiful soul. ❤ Bless you.

[@BeccaDoss]

It definitely felt like that when I was watching and reacting, and it’s felt the same every time I’ve listened to it ever since. What a gift he has given the world with this masterpiece.💕

[@music2seeconcertphotograph457]

Suffering myself from double depression, depersonalization, anxiety disorder and a chronical pain disorder (e.g. 20+ days with headaches / month) for decades by now I feel so connected to Ren and this masterful piece of art he created and gave us. I wish I could hear the hope side stronger or at all. But he gives hope to hear hope some day. My best wishes or you!

[@BeccaDoss]

I feel your pain very literally (the cold pack on my head is there 24/7, only occasionally removed for pictures or a shorter video) because of a headache that started on January 20, 2013, and hasn't left since, not for a single day. I'm sending you all my empathy and compassion across the airwaves, and I'm also with you on having trouble hearing that voice of hope, but clinging to things like this song as proof that it can exist and even grow stronger. Take care of yourself!💕

[@emorylivers]

Ive watched many Ren reactions. This one shook me to the core. Just know this, Sis. You are loved, and you add tremendous value to this world. Keep pushing through. Bless up

[@asabadjan]

It's very rare and very hard to me to cry (basically only at funerals or when I was very depressed it happened), and by now I must have seen way over 50 reactions of "Hi Ren" and yours made me cry for the time in a about 1.5 years. Especially your reaction to the "Loosen the nose on the rope". Exactly as you said it, being in bed laying on just hoping you would die, because taking your own life would be too hard, is something that happened to me so many times during my severe depression. That hit me really really hard. Thank you very much for your very moving reaction and your story. Much love!

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad to know you were able to emotionally connect with this one; I know it can be difficult to cry, whether it feels physically impossible or whether we just get stuck in the cycle of not letting ourselves feel those overwhelmingly sad emotions, so it means the world to me that you took time to share how this one emotionally impacted you. I don’t take that lightly at all, and it’s honestly an honor to have you share here in this comment section. I’m so sorry for the pain that you know all too well, and please know you are not alone.💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

Reading your comment is filling my heart with love and soooo want to hug you :( !!

[@DominicKirby1967]

Great reaction and I wish you all the very best in your ongoing recovery.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks so much, that’s such a kind thing to say. I’m glad you enjoyed the reaction!💕

[@emhutch25]

Thank you so much for your perspective. I really hope Ren sees this !

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, Erica! It was a blessing to be able to record and share this. I had no idea he actually watches some of these, so that would be icing on top of the metaphorical cake, but I’m mostly just thankful others are able to relate, that’s my number one goal with everything I share.💕

[@emhutch25]

@@BeccaDoss He often watches and comments even! I think you will really love Sick Boi and Chalk Outlines as well.

[@BeccaDoss]

@@emhutch25 I’ve got them on the list, thanks!

[@jordancieslak6491]

Becca, I’m so glad you found Ren and this video specifically and that it let you know that you’re not alone in your battles. You are a beautiful soul and I pray you have the strength everyday to keep fighting.

[@robquince3076]

Young lady as a 60 year old man who has lived with voices in my head all of my life I just want to say your doing great👍for 40 years I suppressed all of my feelings and voices in fear of ridicule and yes I suffered but acceptance of mental illness has fortunately come a long way 👍seeking help 15 years ago saved my life and talking was key to my survival x it never goes away but with time we can be master of our demons

[@BeccaDoss]

Rob, your words mean more to me than I can say in this comment. Thank you so much for taking the time to write something so thoughtful and encouraging, and for sharing a little of your own story. I hate that the stigma in society and general lack of understanding about mental health causes you to go so long without being able to speak up and seek/find help. I’m SO glad you were finally able to do that 15 years ago, and that you discovered the power of talking and not holding onto everything by yourself. Your last sentence sums it up perfectly.💕

[@nayf7682]

Great reaction! I myself am dealing with the side effects and leftover damage from my battle with stage 4 cancer. And I've come to see that whatever it is that is the root of our journey most of us suffering can relate in many ways without walking the same track. I think this was a really good reaction, I think when the reactor has a similar struggle or mindset it will obviously have a bigger impact. The only criticism I would have is that you personally would benefit doing a slight rewind after each pause.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for taking time to leave such a thoughtful, kind comment, and I agree with a lot of what you said. Sometimes the personal connection is just obvious and makes for a major impact when it comes to vulnerable tracks like this. I’m sorry to hear of your own health struggles, as well. That’s such a hard road to be on, and while it seems like it helped give you some of that perspective, I still wish you weren’t having to deal with any of that leftover damage and side effects. As far as your last note goes, if you decide to watch any more of my reactions, I promise you I get much better about rewinding it to not miss lines as time goes on. I’d say my first few Re(n)actions, while some of my most emotional, were the ones where I was trying to get my rhythm down with filming, and while I rewound parts, I’ve made sure to keep being more intentional about it to make sure the song gets time to play as well as be dissected/analyzed. Thanks for adding this part, though, I’m always up for suggestions people have on how I can make the content more enjoyable for viewers.😊💕

[@quinto34]

Thanks for your perspective, very moving, love yourself, you're wonderful

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for the kind words and support, and for taking time to watch and leave a comment. This is such a cathartic song, so I’m just glad so many people have been able to connect to it, and it’s an honor to be able to share my perspective. Take care of yourself.💕

[@gratmccall]

I think i finally figured out why i cant stop watching reaction videos of REN's "Hi Ren" The medication i take for chronic back pain and a chemically damaged brain leaves me feeling like im walking in a "chalk outline." watching the reaction videos makes me realize others feel the way i do and it makes my disability self pity voice go away. And im able to feel again for a short time while eatching. Thank you for your reaction video, i feel therefore im alive!

[@BeccaDoss]

That makes so much sense to me. Often we’re drawn to things because our souls just need them on some level. And music videos and songs like this, that strike chord and hit painfully close to home for many, can really help us feel less alone in our battle. You are definitely not alone, and I am SO glad you’re able to at least tap into emotion when watching. I love your statement at the end: I feel, therefore I’m alive.” That is SUCH powerful truth, and I hope you’re able to keep finding more moments where you FEEL-both emotions, AND the truth of that statement.💕🫂

[@TheBigburcie]

Ren has that rare combination of technical skills on guitar, unencumbered songwriting skills, and performance abilities that cannot be taught. Every single reactor I've seen has taken this song like a sledgehammer to the chest and that's not something that happens very often.

[@BeccaDoss]

Sorry it’s taken me several days to get to this, I just haven’t had the brain power to think through an adequate reply, but I first just want to say that I completely agree, the combination of skills that he has, and the sheer variety of things that he can do Cannot be taught, and is very rarely, if ever, scene. He is truly one of a kind, and it’s so special to be able to witness him as he is absolutely exploding right now, which is well deserved. I’ve never quite seen an artist like him.

[@julesdufresne7822]

Loved your reaction.

[@stever7732]

A great reaction, and thank you for sharing with us your battles. It added to the messages and impact of that song. Ren is actually a Welsh (or British) singer, not English.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks, I pulled that quote from the an article I was reading (but skimming, to avoid spoilers), and I should done due diligence and verified it. Thanks for the clarification, and I’m sorry I got that wrong! Also, thanks so much for your support and encouragement-it really means more to me than my words can say when anyone is able to resonate or connect with something I share. Thanks for taking time to comment and let me know.💕

[@williamlambrechts8492]

4 years learning English?! You are super smart, I’m still learning after 40-odd years.

[@BeccaDoss]

I don’t I was as clear as I meant to be when I said that part. I grew up here in the USA, so I’ve been speaking English my whole life. But I spent 4 years in college/university getting a degree in English Language and Literature, so that’s what my 4-year remark was about. And even though I have that degree, and have spoken English my entire life, I’m STILL learning more, myself. I honestly don’t think I’ll ever NOT be a student of language, especially since some of it changes in flux with the times. Really appreciate you!💕

[@philsilverthorn]

On the last comment I left on a Hi Ren reaction video I said that my critical voice had felt indistinguishable from me. It was my identity. So when you said something similar it really hit. Hi Ren has given my healthy voice a voice I can actually believe in ( faking it till you make it would never work for me). It's been 40 plus years of work to get to hear that voice and even though I'm not naive enough to think it's a way out its a major step forward. It's never too late to find what you need if you don't quit searching.

[@BeccaDoss]

Hey Phil, I am SO with you on “fake it till you make it” not being a strategy that’s effective for me. I understand how it is for some, but it’s never been one to work with my brain. And I’ve tried for many years. I love reading that Hi Ren has helped you connect with your Healthy Self voice in a way where you actually believe in it-that is AMAZING, and I’m sure Ren would be thrilled to know that. It’s definitely hard when our identities are so intertwined with the battle we’re facing, whatever our inner critic or struggle is, and we can definitely lose sight of who we are (or it we are anything at all) outside of our struggle. I’m glad you were able to resonate with that concept. Being able to connect to your HS voice at all is a HUGE deal, and no small feat, whatsoever! Especially when you’ve been working at it for 40+ years. I’m so glad you have at least reached that point, because it makes further healing, and giving yourself grace and compassion, feel much more possible. And I am absolutely in love with the last sentence you wrote. It’s so true. The only real “failure” is if we quit trying to find our way. There is no “too late” if we’re actively searching and working on things. It just takes the time it takes, and there’s nothing wrong with that.

[@philsilverthorn]

@@BeccaDoss Thanks for the in depth reply Becca. Your video reaction was incredible open and honest. I liked that there was room for a few laughs too. We don't always attach enough importance to things that make us smile. Keep up that search. My best wishes go with you.

[@chaoticoldbore]

You can see why we wanted you to see this. It's message is so important for 90% of the population. Even more so for people such as yourself who suffer and have suffered through extended illness. I've seen at least 100 reactions to this and yours is one of the most relatable compassionate reactions of them all. I truly hope @renmakesmusic sees this one.

[@BeccaDoss]

Oh I ABSOLUTELY understand why everyone kept recommending it-it’s awesome! What a masterpiece, and yes, SO relatable to people who have dealt with chronic illness, AND just anyone living life as a human with the struggles that brings. Thanks so much for your encouragement, it means the world to me.💕

[@ranahooke1907]

Ren often watches reactions. I so hope he sees this one.

[@foetaltreborus2017]

Apparently "we" hunger for that first time..a book.. a film...that band I saw...your first watch was the most incitful & raw of those I,ve seen....Best of wishes in your personal struggles....

[@artandcapitaI]

this reaction made me remind myself, once again, that I shouldn’t just ruminate on Ren’s struggle. rather, anyone else who is struggling under similar circumstances and deserves the recognition. thank you.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks for taking time to watch and leave an insightful comment-it’s definitely easy to focus on one person’s struggle (whether an artist, or even our own struggles) at times, and that’s one reason I try to make some of the raw, real content I make, to help others realize we’re not actually all that different, even if we have different demons or inner critics we’re facing. And I’m so glad this was able to spark that train of thought for you-I really appreciate you sharing it.💕

[@artandcapitaI]

none should gauge their own struggles against anyone else’s, rather we should be mindful of each other’s hardships… we all must learn and encourage ourselves to respect the progress we’ve built and created on our own! thank you for the reply and thank you for being vulnerable here

[@BeccaDoss]

@@artandcapitaI Couldn’t have said it better myself, friend.💕

[@robellisdonphotography7289]

Darling Becca, I just met you today with this reaction video and from the understanding of your illness, I know you will ride it out and survive. You are strong and you are a fighter, never give up hope and never stop trying to regain your life, you will win. I have suffered for over 30 years with mental illness and I still have the odd bought with myself, but I have, my life back, I have my cameras and I have my woodworking hobby. God will look out for you as he did for me and faith is stronger than anything that gets thrown our way. Keep up the fight, god bless...Rob

[@jeffmartin_UK]

After I first heard this song I started watching a load of reactions videos for it. Every reaction video I watched I could see how much it touched people but I felt it touched you much deeper. I hope he has contacted you. ❤❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, I’m so glad the emotion is able to be felt through the screen. He really created a unique masterpiece with this one. Absolutely amazing. And it did resonate with me on a deeper level than I can even put into words.💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

People like you are why the world needs people like Ren. I love that Hi Ren has so many millions of views; it shows there are a lot of caring people in this world where crime and selfish acts get all the headines. Ren has introduced me to you and it breaks my heart to know how you have suffered. But what a smiled was put on my face seeing you react to Hi Ren. You have a place in my heart now and I wish you all the best!!!

[@BeccaDoss]

This comment touched my heart, friend, thank you.💕 I agree, he’s a one of a kind artist who has helped so many come together and feel connected in our common, shared humanity, and this fan as did unlike any other I’ve ever encountered-in the best way! I’m so glad I was able to give you a smile with this reaction; it definitely hit hard for me, really close to home, but I love his power and declaration by the end. Absolutely amazing masterpiece. Really appreciate you coming by the chancel!

[@richarddancer-w8c]

Hi Becca, how are you---good I hope: I saw your post about having doctor appointments. I've only known you for a few days --since I watched your Hi Ren reaction video but I get attached to people quickly, especially when I sense a beautiful soul and you've stuck on my brain now for these 4 days. I want so much for you to feel healthy , I can't make it so--I can only let ypu know I'm here thinking good thoughts about you in the hope I can do a little part like the rest of your fans to lift your spirits. I noticed some reactors have a "JOIN" tab on their channel which allows people to "donate" a few bucks a month to their channel. I'm not real computer savvy and I'm not on Facebook or Twitter or any of those things I only know how to reach you via your videos. But you've sent me some e-mails , so ,if you could, please send me another one so I can JOIN your channel as well. Like your follower Vincent, I apologize for this long message. but I need to say all of this. Reading back on this note. I seem to be portraying myself like some sort of Mother Theresa or something. I'm not I'm just an ordinary [flawed] human being. But I have a favorite quote I bet you know of : "What profit ye to gain the whole world but lose your soul" Do you understand where I'm coming from? Be well my frind.

[@jimrobinson4142]

You didn't flinch or shake either - the fact that you are here now, so full of compassion and love, is a testament to your courage and strength, keep up the good work

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m definitely guilty of downplaying how big of a victory it is that I’m even still alive, thank you for that reminder, sincerely. I really appreciate your encouragement.💕

[@AggressivelyLoving]

Amen

[@FengshenNL]

Absolutely love your reaction to this and will definitely check out more of your videos! I found Ren a week ago and I've been stuck in this rabbit hole ever since, his music just hits all the strings at every level. Take care and stay awesome!

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks for the support and encouragement! I'm right there with you! I hate not discovering artists when they're actually NEW, but on the other hand, I now have an ENTIRE BACL CATALOGUE of his music to dive into and enjoy, along with anything new he releases. So glad you stopped by!

[@3mta3]

*I have seen over 40 reactions to this masterpiece and if someone paused it more than 5 times I cut it off. You get a pass all* *day and everyday from me. I think this song helped you more than most and that’s why he wrote it. God Bless you and all that* *you have and are going through. If this song gets just one person that might be struggling to loosen the noose on the rope it’s* *all worth it. REN needs to see this. “When I am gone I will rise in the music that I left behind” P.S. The reactor with the lowest* *number of subs I’ve subscribed to is a little over 20,000 now it’s 538 BECCA DOSS*

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, DW, your comment literally has me at a loss for words, your kindness and compassion is very evident in your words and it touched my soul in a way I’m struggling to describe. This song definitely helped me a LOT, because I could literally feel his pain and desperation firsthand-I’ve been there, and it’s a really hard place to be. And the fact that he brings it back around to hope and strength at the end really gave me chills (AND hope). I’m right there with you: if this song can help even one person loosen that rope, it’s all worth it, and I have a feeling it’s probably helped more than one person, just based on the sheer amount of traction and momentum it’s getting online. I’ve always loved by that principle, too. When I first started struggling with mental and physical health issues 20+ years ago, I told myself from the beginning that if sharing my own journey could help one person feel less alone in any way, it’s all worth it. And I LOVE that line you quoted there. Absolutely great stuff.💕 I know I tend to pause a little “too often” (more than a lot of other reactors, at least) with some songs/videos, just because it’s REALLY hard for me to stay quiet if something strikes a chord with me or catches my attention, and if I don’f say it when I first think it, I will 100% forget.😉 But I AM trying it get better at making sure I rewind the videos a little in the moments I pause it so the transitions are a little smoother. I resisted leaning into going the direction of a reaction channel for a while, but seeing how many people are able to resonate with this, and let me know they enjoyed it and would like to see more-I don’t even care about the analytics, I just love the human connection and shared experience this type of music can give. So I’m done resisting snd I’m leaning into it full-force, because let’s be real, I really enjoy making them, too!😊 The fact that you took time to sub also means the world to me-your support is so appreciated!

[@garethadams5580]

Hi @@BeccaDoss, as you can tell from the other comments there are a lot of people bingeing tens of reaction videos to this song. This is *my* "I've watched [X] reactions" comment, your video has connected with me so much that it's the first time I've felt moved to reply. Whatever effect your illnesses have had on your ability to write, they definitely haven't stopped you being able to communicate. I feel incredibly fortunate not to have had to deal with the issues that people are resonating with in this song, and of all the reactions to Hi Ren, yours in particular has helped me… not so much "_understand_" because I don't know that I can truly understand something I haven't experienced… but certainly _appreciate_ those experiences in a new way. Framing the similarities between your own experiences and Ren's opens my eyes more to the difficulties people with chronic disorders and mental health issues suffer continually, and to be honest make the lyrics in the song even deeper. Like DW I also tend to worry when reactors keep pausing so much: it's such a dense song and I don't like people to miss ANY of it. But also like DW I was _completely_ here for your responses. It was clear how engaged you were with the song and that if you felt you were missing anything - even if it was a transition you were cutting into - that you were going back to make sure you got the full effect. If you're anything like me you've re-listened to this a lot since recording this. Thank you for associating with this in such an eloquent way!

[@BeccaDoss]

@@garethadams5580 ​ Gareth, I thought I replied to this several days ago, I’m only now seeing I didn’t, and my apologies for that. I couldn’t reply when I first read it, because it touched my heart so much that I didn’t have the words to type. If you only knew how much it means to hear that I am able to still communicate effectively despite the loss of some of the more traditional ways I used to be able to write, it means more than I can really explain. I appreciate you so greatly for not only taking time to watch, but taking time to comment when you don’t typically comment a lot, and even more so, taking time to leave such an encouraging comment to let me know that you enjoyed the video. I never in my life expected this kind of response to sharing these reactions, but I’m so thankful to be a part of this community now, it’s truly unlike any other I’ve ever been a part of online or off-line. Take care of yourself, and thanks for being a cool human.💕

[@nebulousreactions]

I've watched many reactions to Hi Ren, but yours is the only one that made me cry. I don't understand your pain with the eating disorder, it's something I've never experienced (though I empathize with it and wish you the best in regards to your recovery from it) but I absolutely relate to your chronic illness and mental illness struggles. I have autoimmune disease, fibro, and a neurological motor disorder which disables me. I have also had depression since childhood. I've even had Lyme disease but it was caught fairly early and successfully treated, though it caused some nerve damage that's exacerbated by my pre-existing autoimmune disease. You of course must know how "lovely" comorbid conditions are that way! And like Ren, my autoimmune disease was misdiagnosed as psychosomatic mental illness for 15 years, and the medication they gave me just made everything worse. Seeing how deeply his performance affected you touched me, and I appreciate you sharing your own experiences. I subscribed, because I want to see how you progress in your recovery. Best of luck to you, and take care of yourself.

[@RedWill42]

She sells sea shells on the sea shore - he really did do it before. Ren - Money Game Part 2. I think I've watched every reaction to Hi Ren over the past three days, your raw, emotional, true reaction was by and far the best.

[@BeccaDoss]

A couple people have noted that, so it’s definitely on my list to get to eventually! Thank you for taking time to explain-I’m always up for learning more! And I really appreciate your kind words, I just try to keep everything raw and real, and that’s what you’re seeing here. Pure emotion I couldn’t have faked if I tried. (I’m actually really bad at faking emotion for the sake of effect)

[@RedWill42]

@@BeccaDoss I never, ever write on KZbin comments but you brought out the better in me as I watched yours. May your good days be great and your bad days be tempered, look forward to seeing more content of yours :)

[@BeccaDoss]

@@RedWill42 That makes me appreciate your words even more Will, thank you!💕

[@truknz71]

Awesome reaction video. I've watched about 10-15 of the big name reactors and yours was the most intriguing, helpful and honest. I think you and Ren would be a great team together and maybe you can visit him or him you. I think he's in Canada going thru treatment right now, but I just picture you 2 together in both your struggles. God Bless you both and everyone going thru their own difficulties.

[@BeccaDoss]

Craig, your words made me smile and mean so much to me, thank you. I try to keep things as honest and real as I can, and this just really resonated with me since I know firsthand some of the battles he’s faced. I’d love to meet up with him someday, but I’m more than happy to keep connecting to people here who find my content resonates with them-that’s always my number one goal, to help just one person feel a little less alone or a little more understood.💕

[@Rob-bt3ev]

Hi Ren is resonating with so many people who can relate to at least some of the aspects in the lyrics … in your case it is clear this hits home more than most though. I hope that you got some encouragement from his situation that shows even in the face of such difficulty for so long, there has at least been something lasting and worthwhile that has resulted. He is also reminding everyone that we all struggle and normalizing the discussion is OK. I hope your own battle gets easier. Best wishes from the UK

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you for such a thoughtful comment, it really touched my heart. I absolutely took hope and encouragement and determination from this video, along with all the difficult emotions, and it’s a blessing to see anyone turn their pain into such a wonderful masterpiece that touches literal millions. Appreciate your support and so happy you stopped by!💕

[@Altruist47]

Hey Becca, I wanted to thank you for your video and your words. I've already watched over 100 reaction videos specifically about that song, and I usually hold back from engaging with reactions because the whole social media system actually turns me off. But for the past three weeks, maybe, it’s been the only thing I do when I have time. My ADHD brain tends to wander off topic. What you said meant a lot to me-I cried with you more than once. And yes, you're right, I'm not alone, we are not alone, and the fight/dance is worth fighting. I wish you all the best in everything and on your journey. =) Warm regards, Christoph

[@lizzyfletcher3175]

I’ve watched probably close to 100 people react to this song and cry every time. To me it’s a piece of art from a genius. There is not another Ren because he can do anything! The list is long. Sick Boi and Ren x Chinchilla Chalk Outlines are needed as well. He is a wonderful amazing rapper! Let me say this… I am you but undiagnosed. Ren has made me realize how much I have been dismissed by doctors! Also my eating disorder is the other way. I’ve gone from 378 Dow to 245. I am 5’10 my shoes are 12-13. I have linebacker shoulders huge hands and definitely big boned lol I have about 55 more pounds until my goal but I am still so weak. Do you have a way to contact you? I’m getting tested for Lyme in 2 weeks. I have been I’ll for 23 years and it’s a mystery and I accepted that for so long! No more I had a tick on my neck for almost 2 months I thought it was a mole and I had long hair. I had my hair up and my mom saw it. So I had to go get it out it was big and I have been slowly getting sicker and sicker! I had one of my thigh as well it had bit me but I got it like within a day. So if I have had Lyme all of these years it will be so sad and a relief at the same time. I know you know what I mean. There is so much more I could say but I’m so tired and weak. I normally don’t make comments but I had to make one to you. Great reaction I cried with you!

[@BeccaDoss]

Lizzy, first of all, thank you so much for taking time to type out all that and share even just some of your story with me (I say ‘some’ because I know we all have so much more going on than what we can summarize in a few paragraphs). I feel your pain, and can feel your desperation to get the answers you’ve deserved to have for so long, and it’s my hope that you’re able to finally get those answers. I know for me, and most other people in this position re: Lyme, it was a relief to have a diagnosis-not because we WANT Lyme, but because having a known diagnosis gives us clarity and direction so we can move forward with treatment options instead of continually searching and spinning our wheels, so I totally know what you mean. I agree on everything you said about Ren-I’m so glad to finally be in the process of listening to all his music, and can’t wait to continue to share reactions here. I’m not always great at replying in a timely fashion, but if you’re in Instagram, you’re welcome to contact me there (username: my.joyful.reality, same profile pic as here). If you’re not on IG, I can try to think of another option, so please let me know. If there’s anything I’m able to do or say at all that can help in any way, I will. That’s the whole reason I do/share anything online, in the hopes of helping just one person feel less alone. Take care of yourself, I’m sending all my empathy and compassion across the airwaves.💕

[@brandonfox1617]

I've watched so many of the great "Hi Ren" reactions on YT. This is the first and only one I've felt compelled to comment on. 2 or 3 years ago (in 33), I was diagnosed with two pretty serious autoimmune diseases that I have been trying to cope with. Many times I struggled because I would try to put my situation in perspective and tell myself that my situation isn't that bad, a lot of people have had what I have for years/decades, people out there have things worse than me. I still struggle. I feel like this is a fundamental issue in mental health. I am glad that in the last few years there has been a surge in mental health awareness. This song is such a catalyst for conversation, thought, and feelings. Your reaction really resonates with me. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, experiences, and emotions. I am going to subscribe and check out the rest of your channel. I look forward to seeing more of your content.

[@BeccaDoss]

Hey Brandon, I really appreciate you taking time to share some of your story while checking out my channel. You’ve definitely been through the ringer, and I agree with everything you said as far as the fundamental issues in mental health, and being thankful that there’s been a catalyst for more productive conversations in recent years. I think that artist to put out works of art like this are definitely helping fuel that conversation, and my number one goal with anything that I ever share online is to help someone feel less alone or more understood, so it means the world to me that you were able to resonate with his reaction. Hope to see you around again, take care of yourself.💕

[@ashleywoods6201]

I've watched endless reactions to this song and your reaction truly moved me, I cried right along with ya. I hope Ren sees your reaction! Check out his song Chalk Outlines with Chinchilla (Live version) it's stunning!

[@BeccaDoss]

Ashley, your words touched my soul deeply, thank you so much for your kind heart. And I've got that song on the list, so as soon as health allows, I can't wait to dive into more of his back catalogue of music. Really appreciate you!💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

All the news stories I see on TV make me think it's time for a new Noah's Ark .I'm fairly new to reaction videos but Ive lost count of how many of them I've watched lately. Reaction videos such as this one and all the kind comments I've read (such as yours) are making me think there's still hope for the human race

[@waynepennock115]

No matter how many reaction videos I watch of Hi Ren, I weep. This is powerful art

[@BeccaDoss]

Absolutely, it really is one of a kind!

[@Alan-lt6us]

you just made a grown ass man cry and one that is a psychiatric nurse that works hard to maintain composure. Ren, for me, embodies the message I try to instil in someone that has lost hope for change, he amazes me every time

[@BeccaDoss]

This comment deeply touched my heart, Alan, thank you. I hope the tears were at least therapeutic. Thank you for the literal lifesaving work you do.💕

[@cynthiaaho3292]

God bless you, Becca. Thank you. I've been living for 9 years with a traumatic brain injury at the end of my life (now 68 years old.) I know the struggle and isolation, the physical and psychological pain. Thank you for using this platform to share that chronic Chronic CHRONIC health issues are challenging but there is still life to be lived. God bless you, Becca. Thank you. I've been living for 9 years with a traumatic brain injury at the end of my life (now 68 years old.) I know the struggle and isolation, the physical and psychological pain. Thank you for using this platform to share that chronic Chronic CHRONIC health issues are challenging but there is still life to be lived.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing some of your own story. I’m sorry to hear about your pain, but I’m so glad you were able to enjoy this reaction. Always trying to find ways to enjoy life despite the pain. Sending you all my love and compassion. I appreciate you.💕

[@badbadleroybrown]

You'll appreciate the related themes in his tracks 'Sick Boi' and 'Chalk Outlines (live)'

[@BeccaDoss]

I’ve got ‘em on the list! It’s driving me crazy to not go ahead and listen to all of his music, but I am determined to deliver legitimate first reaction videos, so the fact that everyone is requesting those songs means that I need to get on it ASAP! 😊 Thanks for the rec!

[@lillyvanpug]

Fellow ED fighter, hypersensitivity PTSD neurodivergent here. I feel you and I see you 🫶🏻 I am amazed every single day at how Ren's art manages to grab you by your soul and makes you spill your guts. Throughout comment sections of reaction videos people are sharing, uplifting, comforting and encouraging each other in a way I have never seen. It's like the kind of group therapy you never knew existed. We are many and our love is neverending. We give to others what we ourselves have needed for so long and it's truly beautiful 🖤🖤🖤

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so thankful you took time to watch, and SO glad it resonated with you, though I hate to hear you have had so many of these same struggles, and deal with so much on a daily basis. I also totally agree, I have never found another and they support community that is so incredibly supportive, whether it’s people we need comments on Ren’s videos, whether it’s all of the people who participate on the discord server, or like you said, just seeing everyone show up in all of the KZbin comments, or both absolutely unlike anything I’ve seen from any other community, online or off-line. It’s definitely an awesome form of collective group therapy, I think. You nailed that.💜💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

I'm with you all the way.....Love to you

[@greattheillusion]

I found your KZbin looking through reactions to Hi Ren. So happy I found it. Thank you for your vulnerability. I certainly have subscribed to you. You will be in my prayers. I don't know why you and Ren and people like you have to go through these things but I do know that God has a purpose in it and he will never leave your side or love you any less than the day his son died in your place. You are very loved and thank you for your beautiful video. God bless.

[@BeccaDoss]

I really, really appreciate the support and the prayers. AND the reminder that there is always a crater purpose at play. I know my faith was at a pretty shaken point last year, for the first time in my life, and I’m so glad I’ve been able to get out of that place. I don’t know how I’d get through this life without my faith (and music, honestly). You are an absolute blessing, brother. 💕🙏🏼

[@AliCatzRR]

The most touching reactions to this masterpiece I have seen yet, and I've watched many. Thank you for sharing with us.

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, that’s so kind, thank you for taking time to watch and let me know you enjoyed it.💕

[@MartinFransson]

I hope so much that Ren will see your reaction!

[@BeccaDoss]

Martin, thank you so much for your kind words! It’d be awesome if he saw it, but tbh, I’m just thankful so many people are enjoying and resonating with it-helping people feel a little less alone or a little more understood is the reason I do anything I do and share anything I share.💕

[@Danandrea919]

I, too, have Lyme that went undiagnosed for 25 years... Also Endometriosis, bi polar, anxiety, CFS, Fibrimyalgia, and heart failure (because of the Lyme)... I'm 59. By the Grace of God I am alive. Ren is bringing us all together. It's a pleasure to meet you, Beautuful! ❤

[@davewilson4493]

Becca, thank you for your beautifully human reaction to this. It really moved me and expanded my understanding of other people's struggles.

[@BeccaDoss]

Dave, thank YOU for such kind words. That’s one of the biggest compliments I could receive, it’s a blessing to be able to share, and even moreso when others let me know it had an impact on them in any way. Bless you, friend. Thank you for being here and being willing to listen.💕

[@WitsEndGirl]

A very touching response, thank you for bravely sharing your experience. Ren will be 33 at the end of the month. After he was correctly diagnosed he had a stem cell transplant which has helped a lot since his correct diagnosis but he still struggles which is why he's gone to Canada.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks so much for taking time to watch, I really appreciate your support and encouragement. I’ve been recently catching up on his current state of health stuff, and I appreciate that info so I can make sure I don’t misspeak in future videos, thank you!💕

[@zachsasser1679]

I’m with you, sister. 6 mental health diagnosis myself. I think my sternum is bruised because I too have a physical reaction to this. I can’t help but beat my chest when he stands up. Powerful stuff! Thank you for doing what you do and keep on keepin on! “You know how I know that I’ll prosper? Because I stand here beside you today.” Life ain’t got me yet. I’ll be damned if I let it get me now! You’re gonna prosper too. ❤

[@vexom5]

I have watched many reactions and this is one of my favorites. Thank you for sharing your perspective and I wish you all the best on your journey. Ren is independent and this video is live and single take (at least audio is along with most of video) as is several others he does, which is so unique and refreshing to me, and really demonstrates how incredibly talented he is. I subscribed and hope to see you do more Ren reactions. Dominoes is also a great song I haven’t seen mentioned yet, it isn’t as popular and it is only a lyric video, but it is amazing.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks so much for taking time to let me know you enjoyed it, and I really appreciate your support! I will for sure be doing more Ren reactions, along with other artists, so stay tuned. It’s so impressive that he did this video in one take-VERY unique and refreshing, and a special person/artist, for sure.💕 Thanks for the rec for Dominoes; I’ll add it to the list!

[@richardp6461]

Best reaction I have ever seen on this video. I have seen many, but you understand it on a different level. I'm older, have enjoyed Rap that has something to say, but it's not my genre. Ren has something to say. I appreciate him and his soul baring look inside. Dear Becca, please take care of yourself and keep up the fight. you are winning.

[@BeccaDoss]

Richard, thank you so much, this meant more to me than I can type right now. I’m so glad you were able to enjoy it, and I love that you enjoy rap with a message even if it’s not your typical preferred genre-and when an artist can deliver music like that, it speaks to the power of music and human connection, for sure. Thank you so much for your encouragement, I really appreciate it.

[@Apollo.Rising]

My goodness, what a beautiful and touching reaction. As someone deeply affected by Ren's music who can only tangentially relate to his struggles, I can't imagine what a journey it will be for someone so close to his personal experience. I really hope you'll continue to dive into his work, it's a deep well full of surprises and self discovery. Thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing what you're going through. I'd recommend Sick Boi as the next one, it makes a good follow on from this one. I actually think the comment you read of his was about that track as it's more about his frustrations with his medical journey and the external forces in his life rather than the internal forces like in this one. By the way he has a new song coming out on his birthday, March 29. He'll be 33 (or somewhere around there- his birth year is ambiguous)!

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for taking time to share all your did; I’m glad you were able to enjoy the reaction. I try to keep it as real, raw, and vulnerable as possible, so anytime someone is able to connect in any way, it makes my heart smile. I’m SO glad I finally found out about him, too, and I’m so surprised I hadn’t before now; this is the type of music I tend to stay on top of pretty well, but I’ve been in survival mode with my own mental and physical illnesses for the past few months, so not only have I missed his catalogue till now (no excuse for the previous several years) but I even missed Hi Ren taking off virally, despite being in a lot of online circles where I’m sure people were aware of it. I can’t wait to dig into his other tracks. Sick boi is the one most people have recommended after this, so it’s on the list, I’ve just got a couple others I need to get up first (one being NF’s new video MOTTO, which drops tomorrow), but while I’m extremely eager to dig into Ren’s past discography (so many great recs from everyone here), I’m also super excited knowing he has a new song coming out soon, thanks for the heads up!!

[@Apollo.Rising]

@@BeccaDoss Youre not alone in missing out on him until now, I was lucky enough to have one of his songs pop up on my Spotify a couple years ago or I never would have heard of him until now. It's so gratifying seeing him finally be recognized for his talent. Whenever you get around to How To Be Me and Chalk Outlines, be sure to do the live versions! Also be warned they're both very heavy so be sure to have some tissues on hand. One thing you should know going into How To Be Me is that it's dedicated to a close friend of his who sadly committed suicide. Not all his tracks are deep and heavy, though he does have plenty of those. He really spans the entire gamut of emotion, genre and instrumentals. Every song is completely different from the last. He writes and mixes his own music, makes his own beats and produces his own videos with just a few friends. It's a fun ride!

[@BeccaDoss]

@@Apollo.Rising Thanks for all the additional details (and I’m so glad you happened to have him come up on Spotify back then, it’s always fun watching an artist we enjoy start to blow up when they’ve fought so hard), making notes for future videos! Very excited to see his range of emotions and styles, etc.