How I'm Feeling about Japan and Life Right Now

This is just how i’m currently feeling and things are on the up now. I’m now striving to find a way to pursue KZbin more and figure out visa stuff. I think the school life isn’t for me, but there are so many people who enjoy it and can either dedicate all their time to it or go on a more relaxed program. (my next video is about a company who can help you find the right language school thats best for you). Also there are more visa opportunities than what i mentioned, you just have to look and work really hard to find them.
ANYWAY the big message is: I’m gonna be changing some things. Much love to you all, and don’t let what im saying discourage you in any way when it comes to Japan and school. If you want something, fight for it and do your best and you can achieve it. Love to all of you!
(I'm rewatching the video and blep. I can see how i look like i'm just whining a lot, I know there are so many people out there who are working harder than me and have it tougher. I'm just trying to say personally this is my limit haha ok ok im donebye)
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[@fla7403]

"anyway, I'm hungry. I kinda wanna go home so I can eat.. but then I need to buy vegetables. Ugh being an adult is like rough. You have to just keep cooking all the time and then you wash up and then you cook some more." I relate to this so much LOL sorry your going through a hard time, its important to have a break no matter what. Your mind will explode otherwise, stay strong, hopefully when your bf comes over things will improve :) good luck x

[@fla7403]

yes, her going through so much stress and coping with depression, I'd call that a hard time

[@AndoughPanda]

People have different thresholds for what constitutes as a hard time and what makes people unhappy. They are all valid, allowed to feel that way, and are allowed to vent and feel better so they can move forward and overcome them.

[@callmewaves1160]

Vegan University same. Specially when you've had a bad day.

[@fla7403]

lol but then you have to constantly take out the rubbish ;P plus...the save the trees

[@TokidokiTraveller]

Hoi I'm in Shima right now and it's so relaxing and my head feels so clear. Feeling like myself again :)

[@ellamills82]

ahhh Thank you!!

[@val4382]

Yay I’m so glad! ❤️❤️

[@stonic5]

Such a good video. Enjoy every last minute of Shima, you deserve it.

[@lala7701]

Saw that on Twitter! Looks like a nice place.

[@carlos-xh6hl]

it's been a long time i really miss your videos

[@pef23]

I've been living in Tokyo for the last ten years. Everything in this city works to tear you down. It is perfectly natural that you feel this way. You are not alone.

[@limosine]

Bluerocklobster Yep...i would move to shikoku

[@johnnybell685]

HEY!! Your not whining, your expressing how your feeling and struggles etc. I'm a soldier in the army and I stumbled on your channel and been watching it ever since and it has been amazing! I've always wanted to go to japan and study but I won't ever get a chance and I'm fine with that. I get a look thru a small window and see you and how things are down there and that helps me see how things kinda are down there. keep your head up and stay positive! your fans are here to lift you up whenever you need us.

[@kathlinke1130]

Good to see you again. You should be so proud of yourself. You're doing so well. Keep up the great work, adulting is hard even I want to wrap myself up like a burrito and forget about my problems 😉

[@gbeez2303]

Kath Linke wrap up like a burrito ... 🤣. Thats me right now... in a snuggie...

[@callmewaves1160]

Don't be hard on yourself. You are doing so much better for yourself than I am currently and I am in my 30's. I am in a terrible job that I hate with little to no other options. I am slowly getting myself into stuff that will lead me to better options but I feel like it's so late in the game or I could be doing more. I think you are doing great for your age,you are working hard and living in a country I can't see myself visiting until I am too old to truly enjoy it (Japan is my dream travel destination)

[@mmconceicao]

Alana Robertson I know this comment is old but I have to tell that I can relate so much. I am in my thirties too and still trying to figure out my life. And by the way Japan is one of the countries I want to visit.

[@okashi3806]

You described EXACTLY the situation i find myself in right now.. school is hard, working life is hard, japan is wonderful, but finding a life style where you really can enjoy the country is difficult :

[@SamInTokyoo]

I feel ya Emma, school was definitely not easy! I was like you in the beginning but I stopped after 6 months, I’m sure you remember my frustration haha, in the end I did the bare minimum and sent more time on fun. But yeah working in Japan is even less easy :/ happy I still have the working holiday option but that will only last me a year as well hnnnnn! Keep fighting for that visa! Or do whatever makes you happy

[@deejay7289]

I think the most important thing is to make decisions for yourself. Otherwise decisions will be made for you. And usually those are not the best ones. But I see you as a person that is capable of doing so. Wishing you all the best!

[@deejay7289]

BildoBaggins what?

[@phrixyys]

Dennis Jacobsen on overwatch

[@YozoraCutie]

Why purposely fail tests to go down a level? Can't you just admit to your teacher that you don't feel you're excelling in the coarse you're in and just ASK to go down a level? I'm sure it would be less stressful.

[@springranch1384]

Oh Thank You! Had one of those rough nights, full of pain and hay fever. Found you earlier and gave myself a treat of binging on your channel. You are so real, and down to earth. LOVE your friendly intimacy with nature. SUBSCRIBED😙

[@brigiethepickle1088]

I'm a fellow Aussie (hailing from South Australia) and i studied Japanese all through high school, did the exchange and have been back for pleasure and i always wanted to do the year there but chickened out and now im hitting the age limit where its harder to get the work visa - i think you are so brave to give it a go and throw yourself into the language and culture. Whatever happens you have done something life changing and amazing :)

[@hklopez2616]

I love watching your videos no matter the content. I usually just "watch" youtube videos while working and I just listen most of the time. However, when watching your videos you have my full attention because it is always interesting. I love hearing the real views of the different culture and I just love following this channel. I don't mind waiting or hearing you being sad or down. You are yourself and it is SO greatly appreciated.

[@atomicpudding6482]

Just because there are people working harder doesn't mean it isn't tough for you. Everyone has their own way of dealing with stuff. Just want you to know that we are here if you need to talk,relax or see memes 😙

[@atomicpudding6482]

I'm also trying to figure it out some life stuff on my own and is taking me years (over 2 so far) and I'm 17! My life is calming down now and I'm being able to think a little clearer. One thing I'm trying to see is if I'll be able to go to Japan next year as an 18th birthday present!( you're not discouraging me so don't worry 😂) I always thought pf how calming and active the country can be and how beautiful too. It would be a good place to get my head in place and think what to do. I haven't been going to school since 2016 due to me getting too anxious to stay in a room full of people for hours everyday . I also had family problems. But things are starting to get in place really slow , but one thing I learned in this past 3 years is DON'T RUSH! I tought i was good to go back to school (as my psychiatrist said) but I wasn't. They rushed me and it made me go to square one again. So take your time to figure things out, ok?

[@CiaoBriella]

One of the most down to earth, genuine people on KZbin? I love it. Never change haha. Can't wait to see more as you sort of find your groove in Japan, to where you can start to focus on what you enjoy doing most. (I'll add in, I especially love your cooking videos. It's how I found your channel a long time ago.)

[@mikahebat]

How bout moving out of Tokyo to a smaller city like Hiroshima? I stayed in Tokyo for 3 months in 2012. It’s an amazing place, but the commute really saps your spirit...

[@angiek9795]

Michael Surjawidjaja abroad in japan says the same thing. i think shed really enjoy it more living in the suburbs

[@xoAnimeFreakrawr]

Michael Surjawidjaja Sharla from Sharla in Japan also says this

[@Jamjamsart]

that's what i'm thinking. it's awesome to be able to experience the city for a bit, but once it starts to get stressful and weigh on your emotional state, it's time to find a place out of the city. she might have to wait until school's over, though.

[@butterflymuse2707]

Being an adult is tough, man. I'm 30 and I still don't know what I want or how to get what I do want and all of that. Literally, we just kinda fake it till we make it. My early 20s were very hard, trying to find my way in the world, learning about who I am, etc. You're exactly where everyone else is at your age, and you are not alone! You are sweet and bright and you have the drive! You can do it!! ❤️ Hang in there and don't stress if you don't have all the answers. Anyone who says they do is a liar. ;)

[@meredithg7230]

I admire how you pull yourself up even when things get really dark and seemingly hopeless. I go through an existential crisis almost every day, and it nice to see someone who's sorta the same. I hope everything you want in your life unfolds for you

[@samanthathomas1825]

I really like how you set this video up, it feels just like sitting next to you on a bench having a chat! Even with the video going in and out of focus, it felt like how when you have a conversation with someone you don't look at their face the whole time. I'm in a somewhat similar position to you, with lots of stressful situations at the moment and big decisions to make. It will all be okay in the end; I need to tell myself this as much as anyone else! I hope the stress levels go down for you soon!

[@gbeez2303]

Keeping it real!!.. thats y i like ur vids!!. You dont sugar coat things like other youtubers who make life look like its supposed to be all peaches and cream. Keep it up girl..you are TOTALLY RELATABLE..(even though I have nothing to do with japan).. you make us knoe we aint alone feeling the way we do. Stay strong.. love ya!

[@Vixpine]

i honestly appreciate these kind of videos from you. Your so open, Honest, and Forward. Your To-the-point about alot of things. FAR mosr so than many youtubers. And its nice to feel like we actually 'know' you on some degree. Your not just a beautiful face on youtube. Your a genuine person with life troubles, worries, ect. While at the same time you work so hard to show us the parts of japan that make you work so hard to be there. The places you love, and want to share with us. Thanks for Your hard work~

[@CestLaaaVie]

Honestly just hang in there! It’s so hard in the beginning but you can do it. I feel like the biggest struggle is just getting used to the workload and once you get in the rhythm it really evens out. What I do is I just do all of my homework the weekend before classes start and then I can relax more throughout the week.

[@yudhishthirrana5597]

Listening to stuff like this helps, it often feels like everyone else has life figured out but this reminds me that I'm not the only one. Thanks for opening up. Cheers

[@saraobrochta1127]

I REALLY appreciate you posting this video and I'm glad to see you're feeling better (from your recent comment). :) I've never lived abroad (though I've traveled solo and did take an immersion Japanese class that left me crying everyday in frustration). I can relate to feeling done with adulting and feeling like I don't know what the hell I'm doing. What you're doing is amazing and takes a lot of courage. It takes a lot of courage to live your dreams, to keep asking questions and just not fall into the mold of doing what everyone else is.

[@abbycrane6995]

Emma please know, you are a blessing on this earth. You are so raw and real and you don't shy away and sugar coat the tough stuff. You're down to earth and honest and thats why your videos are infectious and captivating to watch. I know times get tough, but if anyone can get through it, its you! okay fangirl moment over, much love from Australia

[@BrainMusicCenter]

You already moved to a foreign country, all by yourself, that's pretty brave. You've been there a while now and adjusted well so far. You can do it! Your twenties are always a rough time but they're fun and you will have so many good memories later .

[@mazzyd]

I was stressed out from doing homework and studying and exam practice and saw the notification for the your video and it soothed me out and im calm again glad your doing well

[@craftywabbit9547]

a suggestion - travel earlier to miss rush hour, find a tea shop local to your school and study there or walk around the area before school - might be more relaxing...? Think you're doing really well, achieving your visa/entry to school and surviving :)

[@Ehvelin]

I have a lot of anxiety issues for wanting to be a perfectionist in order to achieve “success”. But what is success? Is success really getting great grades, but being mentally unhealthy and not enjoying life? It’s hard to prioritize having a good time when society keeps telling us the right thing is to work/study all the time to make more money/better grades. But deep down we know living an unhappy, stressed life is pointless and we’ll regret it.

[@ChimuJin]

I relate to this so much! I was on a scholarship and was studying at a university in Japan but in the end I had to go back home because my mental health was getting so bad that it was starting to affect my physical health as well. And it wasn't like I was failing, I was doing pretty good but I'm sort of like you in the way that I'm really hard on myself. So if I'm not up to my own standards I get really frustrated and down. I'm still really appreciative of the experience I had though but studying or working in Japan can be so tough!

[@cutiepiechan]

I went through something similar, so I hope you pull through it happily and feel more balanced out!! Keep going with school! I think you'll have a sudden breakthrough and it'll become clearer. Lovely to see you! xo

[@tinathetangerine3413]

It’s okay to feel the way your are feeling. Life is going to be hard and such whether you are in Japan, Australia or even a dirt hut in the middle of nowhere. It’s okay to struggle. As long as you keep at it, be it slow as slow can be, you will make it through. You’ve got this babe.

[@stephp9907]

This really spoke to me. I had a very similar experience as a uni exchange student in Tokyo - the pressure, the constant must-be-perfect tests, never quite feeling relaxed, all of it. Do what you need to do to look after yourself. At my lowest point, I went to Okinawa for a weekend just to get out of the city for a bit and breathe. Maybe even consider transferring language schools to a city with a less intense lifestyle - in hindsight, that's what I should've done. At the end of the day, work out what you need to do to look after yourself and follow that gut instinct. Japan is a wonderful place and I will always love it, but it can and will wear you down.

[@hohoemigabriela5045]

I love every single video that you do! You can do it!!!! I am struggling in school too, I am not learning Japanese but I am having bad days trying to study, doing homework and sometimes I think this is too much for me... I don´t want to give up. I won't give up. Please don't give up either. I would be happy even if you make videos about your daily food. I enjoy watching you and listening to you.

[@ChiipGames]

I think you are an admirable person. I can relate to a lot of what you are saying and it is really sad that it is like this right now, but i do truly believe you can make it through. I hope you succeed in your continued adventure and i do hope for your success! You inspire me to go outside more and enjoy the place i live in, create and live a good and free life.

[@rhiannonwinter]

I don’t know how but somehow feel like despite being on the other side of the planet (England) I’m always in a similar mood/confusion/uncertainty as you. I don’t know, maybe it’s just being 22, but I’m sending some love 💛💛💛 Don’t be hard on yourself but also don’t be too slack on yourself either, it’s trying to get a good mix of both (I think, who knows). I’m hopefully heading to Kyoto next year to study Japanese, I lived in Kyoto for a year on a working holiday visa from March 2015 to May 2016 and I’ve been dying to be back since. Your videos always remind me how much I love it there and how much the pain of getting visas will eventually be worth it! Anyway, if you end up reading this then just know if you want another 22 year old buddie to chat to about all the feels, then please message me 💛✨💛✨

[@bballgurlee101]

I totally feel you! I’ve been here for one year and I am still unsure of my future here. It just takes a bit of learning and getting back up when you fall down. I’m going to school in ibaraki and I was fortunate to go to an English program at Tsukuba University. I wish you all the best!

[@foodlover195_]

I haven't even started the video yet, and I could already tell I am going to like your channel. Love the creative username and good thumbnail straight away you stood out. Good work!

[@jerrychampion2867]

That’s awesome I’m glad you’re still making videos please so stop I love watching him and make me laugh even though you post not so often but that’s what makes it even better you’ve really help me out important part of my life and all I want to say is thank you

[@yolandi180]

I LOVE your videos so much!!!! They are pieces of art! I’ve never said this about anyone else; when I see you’ve uploaded I genuinely get a smile on my face

[@cat-tx5ht]

I've been watching your videos for over a year, and I watched them up until I moved to Japan myself (for a full year), and because of things you are precisely saying I'm back home. As an American, we don't have the working visa option, so you're incredibly (!!!) lucky to have lived the life you have lived this past year and a half. I also recognized Japan was very enjoyable, but because of my job I couldn't enjoy it to the fullest and I almost started resenting living in Japan. I often look back on my videos and my photos now, and I wish I could have enjoyed my free time (when I had it) more, but I was constantly tied down and being suffocated by my job. So I guess what I'm trying to say is.. be thankful for what you've had, and do your best to move forward. Kudos to you if you make it through and can be truly happy, but I think it's also important to accept that Japan is an overworked society and to not separate the good parts of Japan from the bad, accept it as a whole.

[@NewCreation1681]

I appreciate your honesty. You always find people who say “ oh it’s great”.. I think it’s what you make it though. Hope things are looking up for you. Stay positive

[@noel8147]

ah i feel a loooot like this too. i wake at 6am or earlier, drag myself to two hour+ classes until 4pm, then come home to do 3+ hours of homework and assignments. it's terrible that most school systems are designed this way now. i'm merely in high school (secondary school), but everything i do is always pressured to be some kind of important step to get into uni and towards your desired career. it sucks that i have to sacrifice my social life, my mental health, and honestly, my overall well being just to focus on school. let's hope it'll get better for the both of us! soon we'll be out of school and not have to deal with this mundane routine. hope you get plenty of rest soon love. :) x

[@faintheartedfawn]

This video actually really helped me to not feel like I am totally crazy. I have been living in Japan for 8 months on study abroad, and I AM THE EXACT SAME WAY. My Japanese teacher only gives us about 3-4 tests per week, but I feel as though I am constantly cramming and not understanding as well as I could, and I feel like an idiot to say the least. I want to learn more, I want to improve, I want to be fluent in Japanese some day... but sometimes I feel so discouraged. Japanese IS difficult and honestly I feel like I cannot catch a break. For so long I was feeling like there was something wrong with me because I am always so overwhelmed and have not seemed to fully adjust even after 8 months, but just listening to you talk your feelings out helped me feel like I am not alone, because I truly am feeling THE SAME WAY. So, thank you for that! I wish you the best in all your endeavors and hope that things become less stressful. From one anxious foreigner living in Japan to another, YOU GOT THIS.

[@yifeicheng9102]

Thanks for sharing your feelings openly, even during the tough times! Good luck! You can do it!

[@JaredBass7]

Wow I feel the same way in that I have different ideas and interests and one day I'm up and want to pursue things hardcore and then the next I'm like "what was I thinking". Trying to figure out myself how to move forward with something and not worry so much about making the wrong choice or finding the "perfect thing" I need to be doing at the moment. It's good that you are at putting in the effort to try different things and really go after them, your in Japan in a new culture with no one familiar around you and trying to learn a new language, and make videos as well on the side so props to you.

[@Geewiz593]

Hang in there lady! You're doing great! Being kind & gentle to yourself can be so hard sometimes but remember you're allowed to take it easy & also life is one big continuous mess &... idk what else to say on that but you're doing great & I suuuper admire you, look at how far you've come! I love you I hope Shima is gr8 & I cant wait to see the skit!!

[@alexandralynn186]

I relate so much with you because that's exactly how I'm feeling in college right now. Classes starting from 7 am and finishing at 7 pm and loads of studying, homework, papers, etc afterwards. Sometimes I even think if it's all worth it. It was also a mistake to enter a program I didn't like but I'm now too far to back out. And OH the adult responsibilities on top of it! The stress is real

[@AlienBusDriver]

I admire your honestly and your willingness to do what makes you happy, all the best Emma

[@katew.1128]

You are doing Great!!! Life is hard to figure out sometimes but inside you know the answers. Balance. Love you and your videos!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@happyhappyaus2128]

I feel you so hard! I left Japan cause the work was killing me but decided to come back and give it another shot, this time around I've got a very flexible working schedule, not working late every night and all weekend and I'm feeling much much better but I feel like the longer I stay here the more I'm losing sight of what I really want to do. I want to be in Japan but at the price of what? I feel like its hard to move forward with all the other stuff here. I'm thinking I'll go back to Aus again, but Japan is such a hard place to leave! Keep it up, hang in there and keep us updated :)

[@ordinaryaverageguy76]

Today is Thanksgiving in the US, a day Americans pause to give thanks for things that have blessed our lives. So, I want to say Thank You to Emma for all the work she's put into this channel & sharing some of her life & adventures in Japan. It's not been easy, I know. I've never done this before, but today it seemed important to me to say something to some of the KZbin creators that have especially brightened my evenings.

[@jajones11]

It sounds like you just don't fit with the community. Even if you do make it through school, you're stuck in the same workforce you don't enjoy. Liking the culture and being the culture are totally different, so maybe Japan just isn't the place for you. I do enjoy these videos, and I probably wouldn't care if you lived somewhere else. Quit school, move, health is much more important than learning. We love you! Keep it up.

[@jackf.4785]

Jacob Jones yeah if you don't like the work culture then Japan is just not for you. Sadly a lot of people only see Japan through the anime lens thinking it's some mystery country full of wonder. I mean, it is a beautiful place but maybe it's time to think that it's a better place for a holiday rather than living.

[@AfriYoliGoPe]

Thank you for sharing this, Emma. Hope you're feeling better now!

[@user-gi2kq5iu5l]

Dont be so tough on yourself Emma, you are doing much better than you can even imagine!

[@mayc.l]

I feel you! It feels like my days are made up of uni, cooking, eating and washing up!

[@_squizzle7067]

Same!

[@Doorknobperson2]

Same! And studying... and a lot of my friends work and I'm like, how??

[@MrPalozalo]

Thank you for making this video 💖 it makes me feel less crazy! Living in Sydney, currently studying Japanese and struggling to progress from a beginner lever and working a job I hate and I can’t figure out what to do with my life. You’re not alone and thank you for making me feel not alone! I hope you start to feel better and work things out! I’m excited for the next video 😊

[@elfhchan]

i am so happy to see you, i love your aesthetic and your personality a lot. As far as school and life goes its ok to be stressed but remember you are a human being not a robot, you need to take it easy and if you fail its alright. Its not good for your mental health to stress over those tnings.

[@geopowered]

I know you love being in Japan, but I really appreciate you keeping it real. Living abroad is hard all the time, but it's even more difficult when the language and culture is so different.

[@veer9423]

The unknown is a scary place.. But im sure, in the future when you're happy with where you are and look back at this, it will all be worth it. All the strength you're putting in right now! I do look up to you, i really do.

[@ericafarrer99]

Hi Emma, I really like how you articulate your feelings on how to go about getting a visa and living in Japan. I have had/am having similar experiences and feel similar frustrations. I have been learning Japanese for 8ish years including studying at Saitama Uni and am not at N1 fluency (I still feel so far from it) but will get there one day. What you are doing is awesome and I love watching how you go about your life in Tokyo. I find it such a shame that creativity is not encouraged in Japan the way it is in Aus. You are an amazing gaijin :D

[@ellamills82]

*meant to be studying for a history exam* YES new video, study break!!

[@TokidokiTraveller]

Good luck on your exam!!

[@derdummeasi]

Ella Mills what's the topic ?

[@Jay-kz4td]

Me too,Ella. Me too. XD

[@ellamills82]

WW2 and Civil Rights Movement

[@irhonda31]

You always do very thoughtful videos. I like that lippy color on you. Good luck getting school sorted. Four hours a day in a foreign language sounds really tough. I took French all through jr high, high school and college, and I took Portuguese in college, so I know one hour a day in a language is taxing, much less four!

[@gazhel]

I worked at NOVA Eikawa for a couple of years before their collapse and then at a small private company for another year. Great time, great experience but I did enter that head space about learning Japanese. It's fun, you feel like you're learning a lot until you reach a certain point and suddenly learning the language becomes overwhelming and you think to yourself "I'm in Japan. I study all day, everyday. I'm not having fun". At this point I stopped studying hard and just lived. Suddenly the stress levels came down. 10/10 would eat convience store bentos for dinner again! Enjoy your Kentucky Christmas

[@BjornsonVideos]

What a heart full video. Definitely sound stressed and it sounds like a stressful life. I hope you find something soon that makes you happy. I think your boyfriend make you very happy. I remember when me and my wife moved in together nine years ago we were so happy. Still are to this day. Take care your blind subscriber from Canada.

[@MoonshineMist]

Despite dealing with different things, I really feel you! There's so much being expected from me these days and I'm giving myself such a hard time by not wanting to deliver any less than 100%. I'm honestly overwhelmed. It's good to hear you talk about it and still be positive :) inspires me to reconsider my own situation. Thank you & stay strong! :)

[@nataleecervantes9731]

Ok but I needed to watch this video cause Ive been going through some rough patches at uni, you've become my favorite KZbinr, best of luck to you and everything you do can't wait for the next video :)

[@FabioNaeb]

Even if I’m just a subscriber, I feel like we’re in the same boat...we’ll get through this! And this video was so interesting and relaxing to watch aswell :) thank you!

[@miri700]

If i was you, ill be invinsible... embrace the person you are and the opportunities in your life... follow your dreams every path is difficult but at least your trying and thats hard. Youre so young, dont lose yourself and stop being afraid just enjoy life .. i love your channel i wish i could have a friend like you..

[@nataley7691]

So happy you're doing well. I only follow you on KZbin since I don't have any other social media. So I was a bit worried. Sending good vibes from Texas 💕

[@samuelrogers7983]

This has helped me today, thanks for this. I love Japan, too. This is now my fifth year and I'm struggling with stress, overwork and a terrible work-life balance. I have no time to enjoy the country.

[@strongtheory]

Pro-Tip: If you want to work and live in Japan, work for a western company! The only exception for Japanese companies would be NTT DOCOMO (specifically Ventures - used to work there) and/or NTT Group (only R&D) department. They are more westernized and much higher salaries. (Softbank works as well but once again depends on the department.) And generally it's good to come in with an engineering degree of some sort. Visas are indirectly granted based on the value you provide to the workforce. (Also it's good to know conversational level Japanese.) Edit: This is purely based off of my experience and interviews across various companies in Japan.

[@damianlonare]

don't be so rough with you! christmas would be awesome, and you are awesome! you're so good at making vlogs and telling us your life, that in fact I don't speak and/or understand english very well but I try because of you:)

[@melissma100]

Glad you could share this stuff with us, wish you all the best

[@anam6330]

You remind me of myself. Hard on myself and then realizing to do better every time.

[@katerinalojikova]

Lovely video, nice scenes, music. It will be allright at the end. And if it is not allright, it is not the end. So just keep going, everything will fall into its place eventually

[@asterasterisk1406]

I relate to this so much right now. I'm also buried in school, homework, actual work and adulting. I have to figure out where I'm gonna study aboard next year too. I'd like to go to Japan, but I'm minoring in Spanish and should probably go to Spanish speaking country. Anyway I things'll get better for both of us I'm sure :)

[@Angultra]

Great video. Stay strong, hope everything works out for you!

[@slh9246]

20's are so hard. So many transitions and so many stalemates. When nothing is happening and you get the urge to cram for a new plan instead take a minute and get comfortable in the stillness. When times are slow its when we learn the most(in hindsight). I promise you will live the life you want! In the mean time be good to your body and mind- wear comfortable clothing, exercise everyday and do one thing to set yourself up for success for the next day. Look up "no zero days". Best!

[@howardkurtus7069]

UCSB, physics major... I feel ya, life sucks and all we can do is fight until something gives whether it be your motivation, or you your self breaking in to the reality that is your dream.

[@pinkhairlady3966]

missed you. it's always good to see your videos :)

[@Art_Codex]

Ive been living in Japan for 11 years now, I know how you feel, I have been through alot here that I have developed severe depression and I am still going through it on and off. Its hard to live in Japan if you don't have the will power to overcome the society here and the norms, I wish you good luck and gambatte :)

[@icedmegaman]

Came from the 8m2 apartment video lol, I was like "wowowowowow" 8ft2 is so small. Crazy lol. Anyways hi :) In order to succeed fully whether in a foreign country like Japan or even your own country you need to find relaxation time. I know and understand it's difficult to keep up grades, exams and stuff. Failing sucks but don't try to get into that habit, trust me. I'm failing in second year university in Canada lol but I enjoy people's company and such as well as my own. I would love to be a free-bird without restraints but that's not an absolute possibility. Be strong :) You got this!

[@gun123456zak]

Pretty sure it was 8m2

[@icedmegaman]

badabing badaboom the comment was changed and the size of the room.

[@blinky3597]

I know I'm nothing but a stranger on the internet, but I'd always be happy to meet up to practice Japanese with you! I'm in Tokyo until the middle of next year on exchange, and I'm always looking for more opportunity to practice the Japanese I'm learning. I also feel that being able to use what you're learning (instead of cramming it constantly) helps, so I find speaking with people really makes a different as well. Anyway, good luck with your studies!! Learning Japanese is no easy feat for sure :(

[@havvanurozekici]

It is really weird how we haven't met and living totally different lives but your words is really similar to my confusions. I'm not even sure if I can handle the things I wanna achieve, not only in the forward 10 years etc but also now, this week, this month.. I try to stay positive and try to look from positive side haha you know. And about all housework and more, I feel you like I want to stop this adulthood :D , I hope everything would be great (couldn't find the right word) for both of us. Take care Emma!

[@idk-ht7os]

I am simple gurl, I click the video, I like the video, I am at peace ❤

[@TokidokiTraveller]

Thank you for clicking wonderful simple gurl

[@mysh13]

dont give up! i love you and support you from big distance :D dont 4get that ur great! :))

[@Keirabug]

It can be a big bummer and downer when we think of ourselves as the same skill level as someone and they surpass our skills seemingly exponentially. It is a big blow. I was 5 years old and my sister was 7 when we started acrobatics on the same exact day. She made the team the following day. It took me 2 years to make the team and the only reason I made it is because some girl quit and her partner needed someone fast and I had been in the kid’s class the longest... I felt so mediocre and that stuck with me for a long time. I know it’s not the same exact thing but I wanted to give my story to show you that I know it can feel pretty shitty to have someone you are close to surpass you and sort of leave you behind.

[@max03tube]

This was a lovely video. I appreciate your simplicity and honesty and you seem to be the only who knows how to use the G7X Mark 2 creatively. I would say do what you are really passionate about and focus on building your life around it.

[@KyrosX27]

I was in Ueno park like a month or two ago. Place was covered in lotus plants. Also first time ever I've smelled gingko berries? nuts? the stuff they drop that's not the nice leaves - they smell like vomit! Take care and wish you success in whatever endeavor you choose to pursue. Good luck!

[@Em-sf6sr]

you're amazingly strong and so brave. I admire what you're doing, and I believe in you and your dreams 💖

[@cordeliacentauri1737]

As an asian what you described feels normal to me but i understand from a western point of view. I studied Japanese for 4 years and is still currently studying. Just this year i took 2 weeks off from work and just went to Japan to study full time Japanese language and oh gosh it's pretty tiring. If you feel like studying everyday is too much for you go for part-time lessons (1-2 times a week) i feel you will absorb and learn better.

[@justyna2149]

I totally get you. I've been in a university since October and sometimes it's really hard for me to even go to classes. I kinda feel bad because of this, cause it just sounds as if I were lazy, not depressed. I think there are people who can't really do 9 to 5 and it's all right. Just because most people say ,,this way is correct" it doesn't mean it's truth.

[@emilysioban7182]

Hang in there :) Ik that it gets hard but we're all here for you!

[@princess-violet]

To Emma from the past, you f*ing did it ! You forged your own path

[@savagecatidk3964]

Being an American high school student I can understand the stress to get good grades and the frustration of not get it so I don't try for an A I go for a C to B and as long as I don't completely fail I'm okay and I think that that mindset might help you as well. Remember to talk care of your self I love your videos and can't wait to watch more:).

[@thatswhatisaidCA]

Life is all about figuring things out. It's sometimes hard, but it makes the "good" stuff even better! Just keep at 'er! :)

[@Jeremiahketner]

It's a hard language to learn. I've been here 3 years and only at basic conversation level. I Love you videos and perspective on life in Japan. Hope the lovely autumn colors give you some inspiration. :)

[@emilyching]

I hope the best for you Emma! 😊

[@aprilpeach4340]

I'm so glad to hear that your boyfriend will be there with you at Christmas. I had to spend a Christmas alone and prior to it happening I thought it would be ok, but honestly I was so sad over those few days and all I could think about was how everyone else was with someone. Also, I think you need to pre-order your chicken!