How not to die from anorexia: update hospice, hope, help, scared, starting new foodplan, refeeding

Vulnerable to the bone. Learn from my suffering! And use it for the better, whatever phase of life you are in yourself…
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On this channel I will share my journey with you how NOT to die from anorexia... I am still alive by the grace of God. I have suffered from all kinds of eating disorders since 30 years (!!) now. It is a miracle that I am still alive! And though I seem to be 'at my last end', I will keep trusting that I am still alive for a reason. One of which is to share my story with you. I will give all I have to give as long as I keep breathing. And I hope that you can use it for the better to prevent you and/or your beloved to suffer as much from this disease as I have. Topics I certainly will address: anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, orthorexia, intestine issues, intolerances, fear, anxiety, what I eat in a day, panic attacks, urges, overeating, undereating, purging, medical help, hospitalisation, inpatient treatment, outpatient treatment, twelve step program, spirituality, Higher Power... and so much more! Subscribe and like not to miss out on anything.

[@rikkipowers3921]

As a person whose mostly recovered, I want you to know how proud I am of you right now. This is the hard part and you're staring it down and facing it

[@liquefaith]

SO HAPPY FOR YOU that you already made it so far! What a blessing and courage! Hope to follow you there soon… 🙏🏻

[@rikkipowers3921]

@@liquefaith you will. I believe in you.

[@veronikalake6934]

I still watch your videos Angelique..I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH! 😢😢😢

[@bibizeeboohoo741]

When did she pass please? 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@naomidring2022]

Jesus showed me life was more than my ED and has healed me as I've trusted and sought Him in prayer and asked for healing. It was hard but over time my behaviours changed. I'm recovered now for 15 years..May you know full recovery in Jesus name. A miracle can happen and the way out of your situation xx

[@dirtygertee]

Looks like Jesus didn’t work once again…

[@PersianDiamond]

Beautiful soul, the light and warmth you radiate touched me deeply. Sending love right back to you from Illinois, USA.

[@liquefaith]

Thank you… and it’s a dream of mine to be able to go visit USA once. Who knows 😅

[@dalhousiekid]

@@liquefaith we’ll be here for you.

[@fieldofgrace441]

God bless you Angelique 💖 we are right behind you sweetpea! Don’t ever stop fighting xxxxx

[@liquefaith]

Thank you so much for your sweet encouragement! 🙏🏻💖

[@dalhousiekid]

I really pray that you will allow yourself to recover. Please, do it. You are kind and have a beautiful soul. 🌹🌹🌹 Hearing your words of wisdom, you are too valuable to leave this world, darling.

[@liquefaith]

This almost makes me cry… thank you…

[@dalhousiekid]

@@liquefaith I really mean it, sweetie.

[@miademay1511]

I am sending you all the love, good thoughts, and healing energy! your honesty is so awe inspiring I really don’t know what to say. I’m looking forward to watching your journey and wish you all the best. you seem like you have a very caring and special soul.

[@liquefaith]

Thank you… I will be fully honest and transparent. It is so shameful and humbling! But I learned that honesty towards myself and others is one of not to miss keys to recovery. 🙏🏻

[@nikkidesjardins5711]

I would absolutely LOVE to see a "what I eat in a day". I'm excited to watch your journey, you seem so strong and I believe you can do this! Please continue to make videos, document your journey. I'm rooting for you!

[@liquefaith]

Thank you Nikki! I will. Subscribing and liking the videos would be helpful… hope to reach more people asap 🙏🏻

[@liquefaith]

Will upload a start of what I eat tonight! Only one ‘in between’, but it is a start 🙃

[@nikkidesjardins5711]

Looking forward to it!! I've been sharing your KZbin channel 🥰

[@MsGechi77]

I would love to see a "What I eat in a day" too. 👍

[@marjol3in]

@@MsGechi77 I think we all do. Me as well.

[@macres6589]

sending love!! ill be here to support you and cheer you on! please dont listen to the voice in your head telling you this is what you deserve. you dont. you deserve a healthy and stable life that you have control over. if you ever foget that or your head starts to take over just remember you have everyone here that will give you the support you need! stay safe!

[@liquefaith]

Wow Mac… so much thanks for your lovely encouragement! Really helpful… 🙏🏻💖

[@AddictedToHappy]

You can do it! You have it in you and you are so worthy of a happy, long life. We believe in you ❤

[@alecat9990]

You got this!!!! You are so strong for starting to recover, and for sharing your story :). veel geluk!

[@liquefaith]

Thank you dear! 🙏🏻💖

[@TrueCrimeJunkie496]

Sending much love & healing energy - you are very inspiring

[@liquefaith]

🙏🏻💖👍🏻

[@TheCupcakes4ever]

Every day is a win keep fighting the good fight! ❤️

[@liquefaith]

One day at the time indeed… and never lose sight of the pearls each day contains… 👍🏻🌸😘

[@marinaxlove]

Please survive. Please, please fight with everything you have. You are such a beautiful person, we need people like you around. You have such a kind soul. You can do this. I am rooting for you from London UK

[@liquefaith]

Thank you sooo much Marina...

[@ajcrum3689]

i would love to see ur day to day life while you are in treatment . i can not only see but hear it in ur voice on how motivated you are on getting better . i truly believe in you that you can turn itself around and get healthy . we all believe in you and i am happy to follow along . i pray that god helps you in ur journey and heals you . looking forward to seeing ur journey .

[@Cookie2u6319]

The last video I saw you was a year ago, so I hope you are still with us🙏🏾 I can’t imagine what you were going through

[@ashleywilliams4948]

I'm so proud of you. ♥

[@bl0odtea]

you’re so strong, i’m rooting for you 🤍

[@liquefaith]

Thank you so much dear! 🙏🏻

[@sarahdanielle1985]

I dont know how I came across your videos...they just popped up. .you are going to get well my love xxxx I am sending love to you

[@kelliebach5240]

Praying love 💕 please know you are loved and there are angels around you.

[@KatMartin-si4pl]

Sweetheart, I feel your pain. Those are not just words, as I am dealing with a terminal illness as well. I understand what you are saying in all your videos. I also do not have any support from family or friends, so I also know the loneliness and anger you feel. In my case it is cancer, kidney disease and I also have an ostomy. I am homebound too. When I watch your videos you inspire me to keep fighting. I hope you can get the financial and emotional help you need. If you need a friend to talk to, please just let me know. I do not have much money, but I want to help. God bless and keep you. You are beautiful, and I have a feeling you will reach your goal. Also know you are helping others by opening up, and I know that must be hard. PLEASE keep fighting, and no matter what, remember all the hard times will be worth it. I want you to go to that beach!! ((((hugs))))

[@liquefaith]

ooooo dear Kat, thank you for this reply! Please know that you aren't alone in this either... hope and pray you will feel that in my video's. And I will totally encourage you to NEVER GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT! Every day of life counts. There is ALWAYS a pearl to find in every day. And miracle DO happen all the time. Feel always welcome to share, comment, chat... I am there for you just as you are for me! In this together... Big hug

[@KatMartin-si4pl]

@@liquefaith YES! There is a word in your channel name that says it all.....FAITH. I have a picture in my room that I put where I see it each day when I wake up. It says "Faith Over Fear". Sometimes a chronic illness goes on for so long that you just feel like giving up. I feel that a lot....BUT I too believe in miracles and I will fight till my last breath. I keep thinking about your video where you talk about the beach. I have an idea to inspire you. Look on youtube for relaxing sounds of waves and the beach. Some will play for hours. If you are able to, get some candles or wax melts that have beach scents, When you go to bed at night Light your candle and put on the sounds with headphones if you have them. Then close your eyes and imagine yourself lying on the beach, with the waves going over your body and just lose yourself in it. Think of how it would be to actually be there, and start relaxing....starting with your face, and relax each part of your body in steps. I hope that doesn't sound crazy, but I do this because I have so much anxiety. I really think it will help you. Anyway, I just wanted to share that, and I hope you will try it. I am here, cheering you on....I don't know you, but I care. :)

[@liquefaith]

@@KatMartin-si4pl 💖💖💖💖🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@TheTripstraps]

dear, you look so much better in your recent video:)). that is amazing. no way, you are not going to die, i just feel it from your last video

[@jillianmartin6335]

Prayers lovely. You have the right mind set now to recover. And determination. We are behind you and praying you keep getting the help required. Xx

[@liquefaith]

Thank you dear 😘

[@nasheemashahbazi6055]

Stay blessed. I'm praying for you to recover and we should have hope everyday! Sending you a big hug from Tanzania. Take care xxx

[@liquefaith]

Thank you so much Nasheema! Tanzania? Wow… isnt it amazing we can connect from so far away? It stuns me over and over again… 🙂

[@taleinz1]

Greetings from Australia . My Dad is from Delft . I’ve never been to the Netherlands . I am wishing you every success . Little steps in the right direction will get you there . As a friend said , one bite of the elephant will gets you there . Nourish nourish nourish .

[@liquefaith]

Hug back from the Netherlands! And indeed: a turtle also gets to the sea eventually… 😅

[@vr9345]

Praying for you 🙏🏼

[@IrinaC524]

Thinking of you Angelique. I wish you recovery and peace ♥️. Nikki.

[@liquefaith]

Thank you so much Nikki! 💖

[@lindamcauley4728]

Keep going. I hold you in prayer. God bless xx

[@danielvamu]

I just came across your video and want to send you my biggest support. I hope you're able to keep your motivation for recovery and a better life. Also subscribed! Best wishes from Spain

[@liquefaith]

Hi Daniel! I have a brother with the same name and lived in Spain for a year. So you already have two likes from my side 😉🙃 Thank you for subscribing and your support… is very helpful! 🙏🏻👍🏻

[@danijelad2932]

Sending love to you! Best wishes from Australia :)

[@liquefaith]

Australia! Wow! Such a blessing we can connect on the outer ends of the world 🙏🏻💖

[@VintageDiscoveries]

what an amazing gift you have been given to save your own life . I hope and pray for your recovery ❤️‍🩹

[@nicolepoole3501]

Yes! Please show us what you eat in an entire day. It will be very helpful for you to help hold you accountable; but mostly..we can all cheer for you and keep encouraging you!! Keep fighting!!

[@jul62187]

I would love to see a What I eat in a day video! I am praying for you. Never Give Up Hope!

[@kaylynnhuddleston5533]

You are a beautiful gift. And, there is a God. A LOVELY GOD. Be not afraid for he is with thee. All things work together for good for those who love the Lord. WE love you. YOU can do this. EVERYONE HERE will support you in there way.

[@liquefaith]

Soooooo sweet! Thank you 🙏🏻

[@maresadavis8135]

Fight hard sweet soul. With God all things are possible. I just found your channel. I'm from NC USA. I could have easily gone down this same path as I have issues with self-image and had an eating disorder. God saved me from mine as well. God bless your sweet soul. Praying it be God's will for you to continue ministering to those of us who need this. Hugs to you.

[@veronikalake6934]

Sending so much LOVE to you from the U.S.....PLEASE dont give up...sending PRAYERS to you...WE LOVE YOU! !

[@liquefaith]

💖

[@veronikalake6934]

@@liquefaith ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@Iheartvampiress]

You are amazing, I'm proud.

[@Missguidedghost_]

You have the sweetest heart and soul 😢 I am so heartbroken that you have this struggle. I want to remind you that you are worth it. Your deserve love and kindness and life. A beautiful life full of love and joy. Please keep fighting. You’re a beautiful person. I hope you know that and remember it everyday. If you needed to hear it today, you’re deserving of food and peace and living. Not just existing, but LIVING 🌅 I’m keeping you in my prayers. My name is Ashley, and I will be praying so hard for you. Sending you strength and healing and prayers ❤️‍🩹

[@liquefaith]

Thank you so much dear Ashley! 😘

[@sharoncole8249]

You have all of us who cares and loves for you .Makeing these vlogs may help you with this terrible Disease. We all are Rooting for you ❤xxx sending you a gentle hug god bless you xxx❤

[@katherinenicolel5471]

Keep going!!! You got this!!

[@donnacolyer131]

GOD BLESS YOU YOUNG LADY!! YOU CAN DO THIS WITH THE HELP OF GOD!!

[@liquefaith]

💖

[@Ackie0Adash]

I don't know you and you don't know me but I wish you all the best, you are a sweet person and deserve hapiness

[@liquefaith]

Thank you so much Ackie! 💖

[@ababy6074]

Sending you a huge amount of love and. support from Australia 💜💕🇳🇿

[@merrycat4913]

Just came across this video and havent seen any other videos of yours. Im assuming you are at the hospice because you have tried all other ways of recovering in inpatient and outpatient. What you are doing sounds really really hard. And to do it on your own as you say, making your own food choices with your anorexia still so active. Do you have someone who can sit with you and help you get through your meals? Take care 🌻

[@StewieJustSaidDat]

Proud of you!!!! Subscribed❤️

[@liquefaith]

Thank you Rose!

[@roxyb9211]

Rest in peace Angel xox

[@gingercarco]

So sad Angelique is passed away now. I was hoping she would eat and recover and live. God bless her soul R.I.P. angel! 🙏👼

[@MsGechi77]

You sound pretty good. Have a nice day. 😊

[@kelliebach5240]

❤️

[@user-ku6zs4ue9o]

I'm a survivor of child abuse sexual abuse when I was 10 I was molested by a neighbor then molested at 14 by a teacher and raped by my friends husband plus my father was mentally abusive to me I did suffer a Ed

[@karendelcher6256]

Karen Carpenter -that lady inspires me -she passed in 1983 -download some of her music -love you good luck

[@merb457]

How on earth is this only considered a psychiatric illness at this stage? I'm so glad you were able to access this care, though I know from later videos you haven't gotten all the services promised. There's nowhere to go but up from here, and with your self-awareness I'm confident that you can overcome this.

[@winning3329]

Rip to this young woman

[@linggg1541]

Wow..you did get a place! 👏now the work can really begin. I'm so proud of your bravery and courage to push ahead..give it your very best shot my love. Think of those watching who see you as their role model..you can do this! Is it possible you might be able to give us your back story to say how your eating problems began? Also, do you think hypnotherapy might work?they could " programe" your subconscious mind to manage the food regime better?wonderful anyway to see you in a place others can help you Lique 😊

[@liquefaith]

Hi Lin! Please watch my other videos for answers. You can just look at my playlist to see them all!

[@linggg1541]

@@liquefaith Yes of course, sorry! I saw this pop up and thought it was the most recent..then realised it was 5 months ago!!

[@liquefaith]

@@linggg1541 no problem dear! In case you feel bored, you have enough to watch 😅😉🙃

[@zz-ic6vy]

Here in Latvia we are hoping that we have hospice home. We only have help from hospice. You look very weak but i wasn't thinking before that it can affect your ability to take care of yourself.

[@sarahdanielle1985]

You can recover 100% because you are alive right now...you will wake up in the morning...please make a goal to eat 1 more thing everyday xx

[@sarahdanielle1985]

Drink 1 more thing I mean

[@amyyy___]

So brave and such wise words. Keep fighting! 💜

[@liquefaith]

Thank you Amy!

[@karinoosthuizen7500]

Ek was baie bekommerd oor jou! Asseblief laat weet hoe dit gaan! Al die pad van Suid Afrika❤

[@KittyCat-kp8ce]

Thanks!

[@lmo7724]

🥰

[@kberlyc32]

Oh man, now she's passed away

[@staceydoty2253]

Choose life

[@ababy6074]

How are you doing with digestion and avoiding bowel problems?

[@sharoncole8249]

💖🙏💖xxx

[@PamelaNotAnderson]

Is she still alive?

[@jennimichienzie5451]

❤️💌❤️💌

[@JohnS-tm6wz]

How are you doing today?

[@liquefaith]

So sweet to ask! Struggling… hope to share more asap…

[@JohnS-tm6wz]

@@liquefaith you will make it through this. This is a time in your life where you will become a stronger person for it. Rooting for you. Stay on track!

[@dawngeary6140]

There Is Hope only in JESUS Christ he died for you so you can live for him ask God to send Jesus to save you get the Bible read the word of God the word of God is True BELIEVE IN JESUS CHRIST Read john 3.16

[@b1k2q34]

Oh, please. Let's be realistic with things. In the real world.

[@dawngeary6140]

@@b1k2q34 we do not wrestle against flesh and blood but against principalities and powers of darkness in higher places I am a child of God and I do not just live in the natural to be carnally minded is death . No matter what the circumstance Jesus is My Savior and my Lord and I speak life I choose life not death for the power of life and death are in the tongue and what you choose is what you'll get that is the fruit you will bear I'm not moved by what I hear or what I see only by what God says in his word in the beginning was the word and the word was with God and God was the word 1st John 1:1 and God says speak Life not death so let's get real Jesus our only hope and the way the truth and the life God bless you

[@Cookie2u6319]

God has the final word and I see a year from this video you were still living. Hospice is not a timeframe of 3month wse . I know people have been on hospice for years. Three months does not signify how you can get on hospice. It’s like your quality of life has went down my mother was on hospice for five years. Of yours, you can’t get your state your country that just doesn’t make any sense whatsoever like one plus one is not equaling 2

[@ivonnemateo3772]

Yes I would like to see your meals

[@Anna-wd6vg]

You seem so nice

[@karendelcher6256]

How do you seriously think you look healthy ??? You dont -i am here for you -

[@user-bw1rb2wx4s]

[@tegridyprime]

Well this is awkward...

[@molamola5260]

Just eat some food . Also reported for hurtful content.

[@solongesolonge5165]

Documenting recovery is hurtful? Lol ok.

[@maugrim3354]

What an unnecessary comment. She is documenting her illness and road to recovery. If you’ve read her channel description you would have noticed that she is already fighting for a long time. This disease is very complex and comments like yours are just disrespectful.

[@bevsims1982]

Just eat... Boy if that worked she would not be in this situation. She's trying to recover. Life is gritty. It's not always pleasant to look at.

[@sweetslipperydee]

you are a terrible person lol

[@KatMartin-si4pl]

If you want to criticize, don't do it here. This woman WANTS to live. She is not harming anyone. She is looking for support because she is fighting FOR HER LIFE. Not like Eugenia Cooney, who promotes this and encourages it. Go to her channel if you want to see someone harmful. Maybe you should take a look at YOURSELF in the mirror if you want to see harmful as well. Why would you try to bring down someone who is literally fighting daily for RECOVERY. Please stop and try to do better...we should support those in pain, not tear them down. If you continue I will report YOU for harmful comments. Edited to say you obviously don't know ANYTHING about this illness. She can not "just eat" There is something called "refeeding syndrome" that happens if she goes too fast. It has to be carefully done. I suggest you educate yourself before commenting.