How the Appalachian Trail Ruined My Life| Reality after a Thru Hike

Thumbnail Idea credit goes to Darwin on the Trail. Check out his channel for a similar video he made in 2017. I thought I’d explain my version of this exact idea. Thank you Darwin !
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[@all-to-Him-I-owe100]

Okay don’t look at it that way - it hasn’t ruined your life, it has awakened something in your soul. You are empty doing what you once liked to do bc now THIS is what you need to do. You only get one life - and I firmly believe you won’t be happy unless you are helping others. And your videos on trail let those of us who can’t thru hike get to experience it. And that helps us have adventures with you. I still have adventures of my own too, but after a long tough day in the hospital I love to see a post from you! My advice? Hike the PCT, hike the CDT. Find a way, knowing that one day you may not want to do that anymore either and you know what I think? That is okay! In my heart, I believe that as long as you are helping others and serving - you will find your fulfillment. Right now - it’s hiking. So go hike! Find a way and get out there! Your intro is truly what has happened to you - you have transformed from a dancer into a hiker and that is who you are now! Also - remember who you are. You are a strong German (now American to me) woman. You up and moved to a different country and completely fit in. You hiked the AT - dude you did that! Think about what you really want and then go get it. If you fail - pick yourself back up and try again. I believe in you. So many of us are cheering for you! You can do this! So many of us will be praying and rooting you on! As my old Swedish roommate used to tell me in college - “go get’em dawg!”

[@hikingdancer]

Such lovely words, thank you

[@southcentralPA]

What wonderful words of encouragement...Thank you🕯

[@all-to-Him-I-owe100]

@@southcentralPA❤

[@charliep5072]

Inspired.

[@all-to-Him-I-owe100]

@@charliep5072🤗

[@kipbeegle8260]

This is what, we suffer from it, call post trail depression Roadrunner. The feelings you are having are pretty normal after the trail. Fitting back into mundane life is hard, muggles just don't understand, I still struggle with it some days. It gets better my friend. Spending time with tramily or even other past thru-hikers help. Keep hiking, try bikepacking too, write a book, or do trail magic. Trail magic has always made me feel amazing for a long time afterward when I had empty feelings. I’ll say this also, your videos help me with my empty feelings.

[@hikingdancer]

That’s so lovely for you to say. Thank you

[@codyhikes4054]

AT thru-hiker here, class of ‘21. I have never related so much to a post-trail video, I feel the same way after my 4 month journey. I have yet to find contentment in my normal life since thru-hiking, and I desperately long to find a place in this world. The AT truly re-wires the brain, and makes you crave more than normality. I hope we can both find where we truly belong ❤

[@tallyrc]

The simple life in the woods IS normality. Is the grind of modern society that isn't normal..

[@hikingdancer]

Have you thought about doing another thru hike?

[@codyhikes4054]

@@hikingdancerI have but I’m so scared to crash back into the same emotions afterwards

[@carrieprewitt]

My prayers are with you. You have inspired, educated and entertained me as I am preparing for my thru hike this coming spring. Wishing you the best. I am also a fellow Floridian.

[@hikingdancer]

Wonderful!

[@luisahirsch5654]

Hi Roadrunner! I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling like you are in a rut. 😔 I think it is amazing that you teach ballroom and just know you are making a positive impact on others whether it is for them building self-confidence or growing in their knowledge of dance or just simply providing them with a happy space to unwind and enjoy dancing. Also, I think it is wonderful that you are sharing your experience and knowledge of hiking with others who want to do a shake down hike to prepare and gain more confidence in preparation for the AT. Don't listen to negative posts and don't let that stop you from doing something that you enjoy and from something that is having a positive impact on those you are helping! A suggestion maybe is to start making plans for your next "thru-hike" of whichever trail you are doing next and then it will get you excited and will be something to look forward to! I am sure you have some fun ones in mind! I look forward to seeing those adventures! 😊

[@hikingdancer]

Yes stay tuned

[@amerphoto1]

I have watched quite a few hikers that vlog videos on the trail and there seems to be a similar pattern going on of post trail depression and anxiety amongst many of them, and I have heard that this happens a lot of other hikers too. Chasing Blazes was having a terrible time with it. Badbats has gone off the KZbin Channel and not sure what is happening to her, and I am sure you know more than a few too. It did not seem until recently it is happening to you too and I am concerned for you. Back when you made the videos of the TRT you seemed so upbeat that the confidence you have gained from some of your jobs and hiking the AT and TRT was turning you into a super woman... and you are and you were happy! You have experienced what it is that makes you happy and you yearn for it. Anything else seams mondain and unsatisfying to you. Use this newfound happiness as your goal to work towards. But, in working towards it, you will have to fund yourself financially, keep working at what is a dream job for you and occupy your spare time that evolves around hiking, possibly about making videos (because you are so good at it) about long distance hiking and I still think your idea of shake down hikes are wonderful despite what nay sayers say to you about them. Break into that market now as you are young and there are not a lot of people doing it. Maybe a move to the mountains would be a good step as you would be where you love and the trial nearby. I am sure there are cities in states not far from the trail(s) that have dance schools and I think that is also your true love. Your channel is the best and you are the best Juliane! Keep your chin up and work towards that next adventure! Remember the trail saying, "hike your own hike", same as you "live your own life". Do what makes you happy Juliane! We all love you!

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you kindly for these lovely supportive words

[@michaelbutler4961]

Very well said.

[@trailboundfaith]

Thank you for sharing something so personal and so important! I hope to make a living helping others go on adventures and opening a hostel post thru-hike. I hope having those plans to look forward to after my hike this year will help with the post trail depression. I experienced similar feelings after things like summer camp etc growing up so I know I’m susceptible to it and ready to address it. No one should tell you how to live- but if you’re unfulfilled in your current situation…. change it! Hugs 🥰

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@appalachianwanderseeker]

I'm sorry you feel life is difficult right now, and hope you get your motivation back. Thanks for sharing not only your journey, but the after effects of the journey with us. I'm sorry the shakedown hike thing didn't work out. It never ceases to amaze me how people can be so negative toward something positive. Hang in there, the right opportunity will come along.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you so much!

[@Get_Some_Nature]

I successfully thruhiked the A T last year. We rode the same shuttle back to Pearisburg Va after Trail Days. I finished behind you so our paths never crossed again. I know exactly how you feel about not fitting in with 'normal' life anymore. We are feral now and we seek the freedom that we had on trail. Not a day goes by that I wish I was still on trail. The A T is part of us now and always will be. I want to hike both the PCT and CDT in the next 10 years. I will be a triple crowner before I die! 🫂👣🦵🦵

[@sharonbabineau528]

Well I for one think your shakedown service is a great idea, and I've enjoyed the videos of the ones you've done. It's definitely something you could build a business with. If and when I ever decide to do a thru hike I would definitely enlist your help! 😊

[@hikingdancer]

Awesome, thank you!

[@HuangXingQing]

I've learned about 'trail withdrawals' for 15 years but you are the first to speak of it in detail. I began fulltiming 15 years ago and realized after 6 years in, when I no longer needed to live in a Sprinter RV that I had no desire to return to normal life. Same when I leave monastic residency, every time. I just scored a PCT permit and I've been waiting to hike the PCT for 15 years, anticipating all the changes my body and mind will absorb and I don't give a fuck if I 'ever come back'. jejeje

[@hikingdancer]

Awesome . Enjoy the beautiful PCT

[@oldwagon-pens]

I really enjoy your videos. I think you have a lot to share with others.You will find a way to share with hikers and you and them will be better people at the end of the day.Sending positive thoughts your way.I think you will find what you are searching for.

[@hikingdancer]

Thanks for that!

[@washingtonfarmer2431]

Good honest comments about your present inner feelings. Recognition is always the first step to solving issues. If hiking and the outdoors has become your passion, build on that aspect. Yes, I thought the shakedown service was a great idea. A friend of mine once told me, "you sometimes have to throw yourself out on the street to find out solutions." Not in a physical sense but literally. Experiment. You learn from ideas that do not work as planned. Miss the mountains? Personal perspective. I moved from the Midwest [hated humidity and bugs]. Moved to Colorado mountains. Awesome but very dry climate. Then to Northwest [WA]. Have mountains, ocean within driving distance, 4 great seasons and all the outdoors. It took walking away from jobs to accomplish this journey. You have great support from your subscribers [comments] plus people in your personal life. I have confidence you will find solutions. Patience is always tough. Thanks for sharing.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@adventuresofpineappleshort4600]

Thank you for throwing your honest feelings out. Hoping you find clarity and motivation soon. 🙏

[@hikingdancer]

I hope so too!

[@douglaswood3083]

You've been bitten by the "trail bug". I live in a northern CT trail town from May thru October as a seasonal tent camper.I see the hikers come in and out of town everyday during that time. Days I am not working I meet the hikers, strike up conversations, tell them where to resupply and drive them anywhere they need to go in the area. Believe it or not, I look forward to these connections. Trail angels would understand. Just living here in this trail town excites me and I look forward to returning in early May to help the 2024 class of through hikers.

[@OUTDOORS.DREADHEAD]

Don’t let people get down I think you doing the shake down hikes is a great idea for beginners it helps a lot

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@davegaultier5283]

I can relate with that feeling. A couple of 100 mile plus trips this summer and a total of 350 miles on the NCT this year and I feel like my last year life is just not real. Fortunately I can retire in a couple years and hike as much as I want (hopefully if this old body cooperates). My wife seems to feel similarly. We both still enjoy our work and even much of the home life but the freedom of the trail coupled with nature itself just makes it so hard. I find myself packing and repacking my gear constantly even though we are several months from spring. I don’t think the trail solves your problems but rather gives you the opportunity and confidence to remake yourself and/or fill in the gaps in life.

[@hikingdancer]

So nice that your wife feels the same as you

[@dwayne5698]

I think we can all feel this way at times. Not to minimize what you're feeling. I just wish I could help. If I were in Florida I'd take my new friend out for a beer and some laughs (if I showed you my dance moves I'd have you in tears laughing)! Here's the one HUGE thing you're overlooking...just consider all the comments even so far on this vlog. You do so many good things for people. For us!! No matter what, you MOTIVATE US!!! You make US better people. You inspire US believe it or not. That counts for a great deal my friend! Trust me on that.

[@hikingdancer]

That’s such a nice thing to say. I love my little KZbin community. Most of you are so so kind to me and it helps a lot

[@cjengland2365]

Sending hugs. I used to change jobs and locations every few years because I got bored. You have accomplished so much more than most. I have no doubt that you'll soon get it in gear and find another adventure.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you CJ

[@bikhills]

As with all of us, life is a balancing act. You do the things that you must do for survival, and try to do things that provde enjoyment when possible. Combining these two diverse needs are a major challenge for everyone. I normally do 2 to 4 day hikes. Even this small time in the woods gives me a longing to stay in the woods. I am an older person (68) and have realized that I may not have another opportunity to see the sights of a hike again. So, if I see a particularly pretty view, I may stop momentarily to admire things.

[@hikingdancer]

Good advice

[@user-ky5wx7nm8q]

Your not alone. Been in Fla 20 years and felt a void for many years like you have mentioned. I moved up to Blue ridge Ga and my whole mindset changed. The mountains just do that to some of us. Take the leap girl . Good luck and Thank you for the video.

[@hikingdancer]

Thanks for sharing

[@user-ky5wx7nm8q]

ANYTIME. HEAD UP TO SPRINGER MOUNTAIN AND SURROUNDING AREAS SOMETIME IF YOU HAVE NOT BEEN ALREADY

[@TP_Gillz]

You got to experience it. You are so very lucky. So many of us cannot afford the time off or gear required to properly do it. And even more of us either don't have the physical fitness, ability or even drive to do it. Many people don't even know what they are missing out on, tho I do. Doing a thru hike is on my bucket list filled of things I may never get to do. So while I empathize with your post trail depression, it pales in comparison to NO trail depression. Remember that. Take those memories and experiences you made with you, you have them, they are yours forever to cherish, and can only lead to more fulfilment off the trail, no matter how much you will always miss it. Take care. You seem like a wonderful person!

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@RobertSmith-km6gi]

When you started on the AT you had a goal and you accomplished it, but maybe there was another goal hidden somewhere underneath. Life is all about changes both planned and unexpected. Maybe you were ready for a change but just didn’t realize it at the time. Something brought you to the trail and showed you that there are other passions you might pursue. Once you find it I’m sure you’ll be successful.

[@hikingdancer]

Maybe it’s because I don’t have a goal now that I’m restless

[@johnnorman4420]

Thank you for sharing your story. So honest and sincere .I have felt this way after many races, but I can only imagine how it feels after the AT. If u have nothing holding you back, go live your life! You are not alone❤❤❤

[@hikingdancer]

Well said!

[@HikingPhalkawn]

This is a very personal and insightful video which is shared with her audience just for the purposes of being transparent with who she is and what she is feeling / going through. For all those commenting with the quick advice on how to deal with those feelings, especially those who seem to think she should just relocate. I doubt things are so simple that this is a solution that could be easily accomplished (whether or not it would even really address all the issues presented here). Remember she said she had some private reasons for staying in Florida - I suspect this has to do with personal relationships that she just has not shared fully on KZbin (note the ring on her finger which she not-so-subtly referenced in a recent video, and the child booster seat in the backseat of her car). Sometimes just a comment of support without the need to offer a solution is all someone really needs from us.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you for being so insightful. It’s nice to know some people pay attention.

[@greggorsag9787]

It’s nice to hear philosophical commentary in an AT KZbin video. Thank you! Not commenting on the personal side of this, of course, but it is a great video for folks to learn from. I’ve never done the trail, but I’ve done other difficult, fabulous, fulfilling things. The question each time is the same: Knowing that nothing will never “fix problems,” or dramatically change one’s everyday reality, should one choose to find the next adventure, or head to Starbucks? (I’ve done both, to be sure. 😊) My sneaking suspicion is that when one gets done with all the difficult, wonderful adventures, and yes, the coffees too, that’s what is called a good life.

[@MsDother]

Thank you for your transparency. I’m sure it was risky to be so honest. I’m hopeful you will find clarity in your life’s journey. It seems you are at a crossroad but I have complete confidence you will figure it out…

[@hikingdancer]

I hope so!

[@kathyburkwald7505]

Life is a one way ticket. I’m a FL gal who longs to be in the mountains like you. I hate this heat, the flat land and yes the beach. I can’t wait to move to the mountains. Make it happen for you! Congrats on your huge accomplishment!

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@johnmys5am]

Move up north and start a hiker hostel....Go back on trail and make a guide for every single stealth spot on the AT and sell it. Make it into an app.....Work at a hiking gear store....How about being a guide on the AT for day hikes and short sections. I'm a guy. All we can do is try and come up with solutions when all you probably want is a hug.

[@hikingdancer]

These are all great suggestions and I value them

[@dobdobbin]

I thru hiked this year. When I was at Angel's rest in pearisburg I ran into mishap. He asked me how long did I think it would take before I realized that the only place I truly belonged was on the trail. I told him the moment I started up those stairs at amicalola I realized it. Now I'm trying to force myself back into the old lifestyle just like yourself and realize I too do not belong. Heading back to the trail as quickly as possible. The trail provides and I'm sure that it will for me again. Good luck in your journey and I wish you the best. DOB

[@hikingdancer]

Thanks a bunch

[@Likes2playinmud]

Thank you for being real and so honest.

[@patrickhanlon8663]

JMO You have answered your own questions about what you want in life and to do. Someone had a great suggestion is move to a place near the trail or a trail town(Hot Springs). First you may want to get the triple crown under your belt. You have fallen in love with the mtns like you did when you moved from Germany to Florida. Still continue your dancing career. Become a ridge runner. Patrol and help others on the trail. Continue your shakedown hikes. Then maybe get into becoming a hostel or a shuttle. This keeps your hand in pickle jar. You may even make a decent amount of money. So with a little hosteling, ridge running, dancing and shakedowning, you will satisfy all your needs. Hang in there and good luck SloMoe

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@jenspencer9906]

Roadrunner! This video is so relatable. Ever since finding the AT, something just keeps drawing me into it. I have taken every single item off my life bucket list, and replaced it with a future AT thru hike. It's all I want to do one day. Until then, I try to find things I'm passionate about that keep that fire lit aka day hikes and day dreaming lol I think the shake down service you were providing was an awesome tool to keep that fire lit inside of you too. Don't let the nay Sayers get you down. There's going to be naysayers no matter what you do!!!!! Don't let them win. They're just jealous they don't have the drive to put something together and be successful at it. I loved the videos of the Shakedowns, I learned so much from them!! Please don't stop. ❤❤❤ Let's do some overnights on the Florida trail next year! To help keep both our fires lit 🔥 xoxo

[@hikingdancer]

Yes Jen I can’t wait to hike with you soon.

[@bethhodges2014]

Escaped Florida after 10 years in the crazy 80’s.Moved back north to Western Massachusetts AT goes right past my town. The woods have saved my life. Suggestion: Move north, back to rhythm of the seasons and closer to the hills mountains streams and lakes. Good luck, and All Things Pass 🙏🏻Pokey🙏🏻

[@hikingdancer]

Thanks for sharing

[@Thehappyhammockhiker]

I'm not liking this video because I'm glad you feel this way, rather I'm liking it because this is the way I can give you support. You got a new subscriber today. Have fun and peace. You got this. Rock On😎

[@hikingdancer]

Welcome 🤗

[@memathews]

Some thru-hikers tell me that the trail was a catalyst to feelings they had or directions they wanted to explore. They hoped the trail would resolve those feelings, but the best it could do was help them focus their thoughts. It seems you are working on the directions you have wanted to explore and this takes some time to find the right fit. As a survivor of a number of technology startups, I can understand some of your confusion and doubts. The only solution is to jump in. Explore the ideas you think are most likely and then be willing to continue or cut them as they do or don't work out. Just remember to cut the less likely attempts quickly so you can focus on the better performing ideas. Really, it's just like following a path through a snowstorm, you cannot clearly see where you're headed, but you know when to retrace your steps or to continue on.

[@hikingdancer]

You always have such creative constructive feedback. I really appreciate that about you. Thank you

[@memathews]

@@hikingdancer That's a very kind thought. Merry Christmas!

[@meriwethersayan]

Thank you for sharing! I know exactly how you feel.

[@hikingdancer]

Thanks for watching!

[@somerandomguy4149]

Your a mountain woman now. nothing wrong with that. Maybe its time to make a change in your life. Maybe its time to to make a big move in your life. NC is a great place to live. But if you do decide to move anywhere. Just make sure you stay out of the big cities is all. I personally would love to see the product your working on. I have a feeling you might be overthinking it. I hate to see you bummed out like this 😢😓 much love comeing your way. And i will keep you in my prayers 🙏

[@luisahirsch5654]

Oh my gosh, I completely agree! North Carolina is such a beautiful state! 😊

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you. I might have just turned into a mountain 🏔️ woman indeed

[@jamieneal1458]

I agree with this comment and also add you would enjoy living here in Tennessee as well. I am 45 minutes away from the Great Smoky Mountains National Park in a Rural area . I have loved it my how life. It is my sanctuary. But, like you, I am at another phase of life and life happenings have changed me. Not all bad that’s not what I mean. It just makes you feel you don’t fit. Funnily enough I am in hold til our youngest graduates and moving to Florida. She needs it for her chosen college , we need it for physical health reasons of warmer climates year round, I personally need it because I have had so many losses the worst being my son three years ago and I have to have a new start to keep from stopping everything and to make myself heal. Short visits to the beach, trips to attractions there have been so therapeutic so yeah. We hopefully can high five each other on the road or at least wave. You need change from the status quo/environment for you. Standing water often stagnates and nothing can grow in it or around it. Do it for you. No one else will. I have learned the hard way. Best wishes for you and I am proud of you for sharing this. It helped me too

[@skylarsartnphotography3450]

I lived in NC last year and getting ready to move back next year! ❤

[@sueb860]

I haven't thru-hiked the A.T., but I've done sections of it and other trails (I did thru-hike a local trail in my state but it only took 5 days). The thing I notice is that when I am on trail it has helped me work through things. And face things. And deal with things. You are in the in-between. I once heard someone tell a story of how they were invited to speak at an event. They were in a back room and there were two doors between them and the stage. When they left the back room, the door behind them closed, but the door they were to walk through to get to the stage had a malfunction and didn't open right away...so there they were...in between where they came from and where they were going to...they were in the "in between". You are in the in-between. Don't stop doing things because of cristicism...others tried to project their fears onto you when you told them you were going to hike the A.T. and you need to adopt the same mentality with nay-sayers now. People will put you down because of an issue THEY have. There is a saying, "you get the loudest boos from the cheapest seats". Those not invested in you will say things based on their own crap. Keep dreaming. Keep stepping outside your comfort zone. Keep taking folks on shakedown hikes! I think that is a great service to offer! Keep inventing things! Keep finding ways to stay involved with the trail you love and other trails. You will find your way. A lady I follow on YT got some hate so she turned comments off on her videos for awhile! Do it!

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@tomellis3218]

My heart goes out to you. Life is not easy like Thru Hiking the AT is not easy. If hiking the AT is someone’s strategy for fulfillment of life then they will likely be disappointed. The tactics to the AT are pretty simple; wake-up , feed yourself, pack up, set a goal ( where you are going to hike to), get there, put up your sleep system, eat, sleep and get up again & again and then again and one more day, then a week then a month and then 5 or 7 months finish and do all this while not hurting yourself to the degree it takes you off trail. It is a simple fairly predictable life. Just hike your own life off the AT. Like on the AT seek emotional support & comfort from your friends and/or family and do the same every day & like the trail don’t beat yourself up for one bad hike day. Love your flogs and I will pray for you . ❤😊

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@tomellis3218]

Is there a dance video in your library; would love to see .

[@MrsJoyism]

Thanks for putting yourself out there. I think this would resonate with many past thruhikers. Many of us thruhike repeatedly, and are really only happy and peaceful on the trail. It's true, thruhiking does ruin your life, in a way. There is no stopping the yearning. That said, post-thruhike depression is real, and treatable! I urge you to seek mental health care. You don't have to feel this way. If you don't want to see a professional, you could try something like St John's Wort - which has helped me deal with winter depression, without a prescription. I don't know what to tell you about your career or your location, but I think both will look better if your mental state improves. You are not alone in your experience. Much love and sympathy to you.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you. I’ve tried some valerian before but I should check out St. John’s worth

[@gogetoutsidepodcast]

I interview a lot of thru-hikers and many of them say this same thing. I even felt this way after a month on the JMT. It opens your eyes to the kind of society we could live in if we chose to build it differently.

[@vdemoor9844]

A wanderluster feels this too. You just have to find your place in this world. I have live in so many places and still don't know where I will be in five years. Give yourself a break, you are realizing who you are. And change it, if your not happy.

[@woodsman335]

I am 58 years old and can relate. I have learned that, when you accomplish something big in your life, it causes you to re-evaluate your existance. You're in a phase of re-evaluation I believe. This can be good if you use it correctly. Use the little evaluation tool that people use often in your situation. That is write two columns. One column listing the positives of your current situation. Then in the other column list the negatives. Which column has the most items listed? The one with the most will determine your next move or no move at all. It is that easy to start figuring out how to find happiness again. And by the way I have experience in designing an item and marketing it successfully, if you're interested in getting guidance on that.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you for reminding me of the pros/cons tool

[@Drone256]

You are creating endorphins all day and every day on a thru hike. Post hike blues is a real thing.I can’t feel the same at home as I did during those months on the trail.

[@richardross7219]

It sounds a lot like coming home from doing an overseas deployment to a combat zone. You're glad to be home but nothing feels right. You're experiencing post trail depression big time. I had a real bad time with a lack of motivation when my wife died. You just have to push yourself to do the things that have to be done. Take care of your car. Put air in the tires, check and top off the fluids, clean the glass(including the headlights), clean the windshield wiper blades, and have a basic survival kit in the car. With time, it will get better. Stay logical because you are susceptible to making a judgement error when depressed. Happy Trails. Good Luck, Rick

[@eddiep3743]

Solid advice. Spot on.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@wesleykremer3916]

I pray you find peace and your passions. I pray you find peace in the process. You are a beautiful young lady that had the stones to try something that very few do. Please give yourself credit. You followed your dreams to complete the AT. Follow your next dreams! See you on the PCT!!!!

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@FSoucy]

I live in Montreal, Quebec. Near us we have the Adirondack's Mountains AND the famous White Mountain (that you cross in your AT thru). I know that when I will finish the AT in 2024 I will need theses mountains. Either for the sound of nature but also for walking. I work hard but each weekend I go in Whites Mountain or Adirondacks. I suggest you to go live in North-East USA. This way you could hike every time you need it and there are certainly dance schools that would need your expertise.

[@hikingdancer]

Thanks for the info!

[@viadharmawheel]

Saranac Lake but you do need Winter sports love. High peaks are wonderful and I have been seeing people from Canada hiking there for decades. I could swear one day at the summit of Marcy it was mostly Canadiens. Rangely Lakes in Maine is another choice but more remote. Brazilian wife hates the cold so my vacation home in Florida becomes my FT retirement home next year. Will make trips to the mountains of NC to get my cold in.

[@Red_Queens_Jubilee_Club]

I watched your AT video. It was wonderful.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you very much

[@peek-a-moose2491]

So - Years ago, many years ago, I hiked for 35 days across the Alaska Brooks Range -- south to north. I didn't see any other human, there were no cell phones in those days and no ultralight hiking gear.... There was no night. There were only two ways out. Go back to my starting point or continue to my end point where I will hop a mail plane back to civilization, if you can ever call Fairbanks civil. I got depressed when I finished that hike, but quickly realized life goes on and if I hadn't hiked this wilderness without a trail, I would not be depressed. So I quickly realized that depression was not going to be in the cards and after two days back in Fairbanks, I decided to go back to enjoying life. Life, it's great. it's the only real game in town that I know of. It's not always easy. And I realized I should be thankful that I was able to complete a solo hike in true wilderness. I did it. No one would come with me. They thought I was crazy. "You'll be eaten by a bear." "You'll get lost." "You'll get injured and starve to death." "You'll be mauled by a crazy moose." "The mosquitos will suck all your blood." Yes, there was another way out of the wilderness. I could have been mauled by a grizzly. Ha! But that didn't happen. Thankfully. And all my life I can look back on those wonderful days in the Alaskan Arctic walking among the jagged peaks of the Brooks Range, (Although it felt like one long day!) And that has always been a positive feeling. Perhaps the trail didn't ruin your life, but changed your outlook on life. You walked the Appalachian Trail. Congratulations. That is such an accomplishment. You have talent to teach dance, and that makes you lucky. And you have a conflicting (is that the correct description) spirit for adventure on the trail. And you have grit and determination, otherwise you would have not finished the trail. Life is also full of contradictions. I think you will figure it out. Don't be so hard on yourself. You will be fine!!!!!!

[@hunsbrown8288]

Getting out of FL is always a smart choice. Western NC is full of happy people who couldn’t take FL anymore. There are plenty of beautiful day hikes, and if you need just a week off for an AT point to point hike, it is there too. Pure boredom can definitely sap energy and happiness. Change your scenery, and good luck!

[@hikingdancer]

Thank youuuuu

[@frankynodots]

No wonder you stay slim! That dancing thing is a workout! BTW - McDonald's coffee black rules over starbucks for 1/3 the price.

[@hikingdancer]

I’ll have to give Mcd a try

[@trombonetortoise3406]

Come on, give yourself some time. You made it to Florida, you survived the AT… you will figure out something to fit the new situation. After all you are so much more brave than many of us here watching… :). Motivation will come back. Lots of love from Germany ;)

[@hikingdancer]

Vielen lieben Dank

[@danielfegley2735]

I'm surprised to hear this you seem to be doing so well , finding purpose with your videos and educating others on how to prepare for a through hike your a very active person and you want to stay that way and it sounds like you have too much time on your own and your mind is wondering where it shouldn't go , don't listen to the trolls we all know your doing good work helping and teaching others hold on to that during your down time when there is nothing to do , don't sacrifice your happiness for others it doesn't work out some people are miserable no matter what you do or say

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@olddad67]

you’re awesome and don’t let it make you feel the way you feel right now you can always re-hike it. Lots of other trails, my friend, hiking and backpacking. Is your passion get out there and get you some young ones. If you don’t do it now you’ll regret it. Trust me I’m 56 single father with leukemia, I love backpacking and hiking but to be honest with you there is no way my body would let me do it, so I totally love watching you make your videos. Give people a chance that haven’t been able to do it to be able to get out there with you even if it’s just a video, stay strong stay positive. You’re a beautiful woman, beautiful heart and a beautiful soul. Stay strong friend. olddad

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you so much

[@Bibs123]

I feel your pain. I’m two years from retirement and I hate every day of work. I have so many things I want to do, but I have to finish my career for financial reasons.

[@Nope-wd4rw]

I honestly thought I would create a real life social circle that I could hang out with and go places with after the trail or find people that would continue to hike with me on other trails but in the Six years that I have been hiking I have only gained social media friends and six years later I am still sitting in my tent alone going on thru hikes alone doing everything alone. Honestly in my six years of hiking I have not accomplished what I wanted to. Sometimes the trail doesn't provide.

[@hikingdancer]

I’m so sorry that you haven’t found what you are looking for on the trail.

[@njvalueinvestor]

You have accomplished much but you are clearly wanting for meaning and self actualization. You show self esteem through the respect of students, other hikers, and subscribers. Your goals and routines show independence and confidence to trust your judgement. You give and receive respect from your students. You are always learning, applying, and improving your knowledge. Emotionally you are reflective without pride. You can meet your basic needs with ease + money for $$$ coffee. You also have good health an d physical safety. You do show some despair because nothing is making you eternally satisfied. Aren't the satisfactions of being a good person among your fellow hikers, students, friends enough to sustain you. Cherish your connections with your fellow man.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you for the thought provoking words

[@elizabethnelson-jl2ur]

When I was 17 in 1972 I did a 100 mile a day bicycle trip with ten other strangers through The Canadian Rockies I finally felt super excited about life. After the trip I was immediately looking to my next adventure. This pattern is my life I am 69 and these feelings never changed nor have I found that something to fill the void between trips. I am delighted to be alive but I really get what you say

[@hikingdancer]

Isn’t that the complete truth

[@liamalepta8003]

I live right at the edge of the Smoky Mountains. I moved here from Pheonix Arizona. Bought a small plot of land, live in a cabin I built, deep woods Apallacha. Its my element, where im supposed to be, i feel so at home here. So i get what you are saying. You fell in love with the country, your hooked, line and sinker. Im from a big city, for me this was the best move of my life. I wanted the remote cabin life, not a farmer, not country...just a mountain nature lover. Sound like you will move here soon haha.

[@hikingdancer]

Probably

[@jbelisle487]

I always hope the best for you! If you only knew the joy it brings when I open KZbin and there is a new video from Roadrunner! MY DAY IS MADE! Just remember God has plans for you and will lead you in another amazing adventure!

[@hikingdancer]

That is such a lovely thing to say

[@markviers998]

Sounds like you'd be perfect for a trail runner job, except for the commute from FL 😊I'm not sure it even pays anything but with your experience with teaching and the love you have for being out in the mountains it just seems to be a fit.

[@hikingdancer]

Very true!

[@christyjohnson4563]

I really love the shake down service!! You should not let the negative people to stop you.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@kewmonette]

Julianne, you will get your groove back, dear girl. You are able to be honest with yourself, and are able to process why you feel like this... which already puts you one step ahead. 😘

[@hikingdancer]

I hope so!

[@gdugger73]

Your awesome, hike on thru life like a boss!

[@hikingdancer]

Always!

[@bigdog2024]

What’s keeping you from doing the same thing in the NC/TN Mountains? Could you teach a a college or university up in the Mountains like Appalachian State in Boone, NC? You are young and it’s time to take a chance! Momentum can come from change!

[@hikingdancer]

Yes I’ve thought about those options.

[@donaldbanks2582]

Hiking in Franklin, NC and around Nantahala is the reason why I want to hike the AT now.

[@hikingdancer]

It’s lovely there

[@EnglishmanJustWalking]

It’s definitely different at different ages; what I agree is a truism is that completing such a long trail gives you the opportunity to accept that it changes you.

[@hikingdancer]

Absolutely

[@walterpaton8698]

Prayers allowing I will be at Springer Mountain next early March of 2024... Many post AT hikers have said exactly what you are saying. The trail does change you...

[@hikingdancer]

Wohoooo you can do it

[@doctorgeneral4239]

After getting out of the military I had the same problems except I was in a war and saw death and destruction. I was so bored and depressed when I got out. Nothing will ever compare to the times that I had.

[@hikingdancer]

I bet

[@scotthall3816]

You are mind blowing 😄🙏 i wish for a wonderful person like you.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you so much 😀

[@paavoviuhko7250]

I've been spending many summers tenting alone in the woods. But it's not just about the woods. It's also about getting away from 2023 and living life like it was 1862. It's also Emily Dickinson and doing a lot of writing. I have a background in philosophy and I like to do a lot of reading and writing. I need the bush life to get away from 4 walls but I also need books to get away from the convenient life. I don't drive but I bike and hike and paddle a lot. It helps to live in remote country where all my needs are nearby. I am 74 now and this is the way it's going to be until the end. Many best wishes to you.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@yonderplace314]

It is easy to see this is really hard for you. The AT was a goal that you set for yourself, a way to fully test your drive, abilities and your resolve. Life is really about balance and focus... you will find your true north again!. All of us have an empty "place" that we are trying to fill. Many try to fill it with harmful and often selfish motives and desires. For me, it was my faith in a higher power and a constant desire to help others. Just keep pushing your limits one day at a time. It is easy to see that you have a unique gift for sharing and you love helping others. Continue setting your goals and just keep on... keeping on! You have to do what pays the bills in order to fund the fun! This too will pass!

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you. You always are so supportive 🤗

[@SlickRickDownSouth]

I section hiked the AT to the NOC last February for a couple of weeks and I even had Trail Depression myself. Can't imagine if had I gone all the way how bad it could have been.

[@hikingdancer]

Yeah the AT does a number on us

[@leawhite4]

I once read “ You are not a tree. If you don’t like it where you are, move”. 💚

[@hikingdancer]

Good point

[@hops4305]

Post trail life can be weird. Took me around 2 years to figure it out. Happens different for everyone. Just keep talking, writing journals, or making videos. I always get back on the AT or a trail to keep the mind clear. You will figure it out! Hike on!!

[@hikingdancer]

Thanks man

[@richardfioravanti4914]

I admire your candor.problems exist always both societal and personal.it is how we deal with them that defines us no matter if resolution can ever be.good luck and all the best from saugus.mass.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@northtexashiker]

You've outgrown Florida, time to move on. The longer you wait the more it will eat at you. Time to move to a trail town near the mountains

[@TheJhtlag]

I figure Florida's probably good for about five years, and I mean even being active: go deep see fishing, hit the keys, do Disneyland, hang out in Ft Lauderdale, college football etc. etc. but yeah, it's otherwise the same terrain no NWSE.

[@hikingdancer]

Very right

[@DarwinOnthetrail]

Nice Thumbnail! ❤

[@hikingdancer]

Complete credit given to you.

[@scottwalker2482]

Listen to your head...Trust your gut...and follow your heart...Hopefully all three will be aligned.

[@hikingdancer]

I literally read” listen to you heart” and had the song playing in my head

[@Fallline79]

Ok, your right. Nothing is a quick fix. But the best advice from the trail is “don’t die with dreams die with experiences” What is your purpose and passion and follow it. Always complaining is not the answer. Action will build a path forward. Take the path of your choice today, you can always course correct tomorrow😊

[@hikingdancer]

Gotcha

[@all-to-Him-I-owe100]

Also you are a beautiful dancer! Beautiful! If you can’t go hike - start riding horses? That is what always makes me feel better!

[@hikingdancer]

Nice idea

[@scotthall3816]

You rock girl keep on with what you want..😊

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@kristymoore7052]

Oooh, you need to check out the PCT, come to the Sierra and explore.

[@hikingdancer]

Would love to

[@gumbi8989]

Sounds like part of the problem is you have too much time on your hands before work. I’m gonna hike the PCT one day; and this is one of my biggest worries after being done, is that life will just go back to this boring, numbing, complacency of no real purpose as the minutes tick by on life, while I have this never ending itch in the back of my mind to be back out there on the trail living the adventure.

[@hikingdancer]

🤗

[@ruthray3899]

It hasn't ruined your life, it's shown you that you need more. And than means deeper harder work to find what fulfills you. That can be depressing but if you use that feeling to propel you forward you will be on the right path.

[@hikingdancer]

Yes I just got the get out of the mud

[@Rehsmj2012]

You live once. Life is so precious. You need to grab what you like by the reins and hold on tight. We all have passions in life. You found yours. Congratulations. We can’t all say that. We can’t all chase our rainbows or find them. Go. Enjoy yourself. You have many years ahead of you. Live your best life. No regrets.

[@hikingdancer]

Yes! Thank you!

[@MrKnoxguy101]

I went through the same thing after the AT. You’re just bummed.. I promise you though, this too shall pass. It’s a readjustment issue. Do you remember how tough it was out there some days? Adversity rearing its head, right? How did you overcome those moments, through mental toughness right? Now you have to apply that to the rest of your life. That is what that long trail taught us. And remember.. those mountains will always be there when you’re ready to see them again. You got this..

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@annabordelon6663]

The trail woke you up to problems you already had

[@hikingdancer]

Boom

[@reallyrealraven]

Then go do you. Life is precious, don't waste it! I haven't hiked the AT yet (someday), but when I started hiking obsessively and spending most of my time outdoors, I felt what you're describing l. The change in me was unmistakable and I lost a lot of people who weren't worth having. The thing is. Humans weren't meant to live...like this.

[@hikingdancer]

Very true. Thank you

[@richardh.5404]

Come on up to East Tennessee! I moved here from Central Florida in 2013. No regrets.

[@hikingdancer]

I bet

[@deborahanderson5508]

I hear you.

[@hikingdancer]

Thank you

[@mtadams2009]

I am much older than you 64 and I can relate to you in many ways. I love backpacking so much that I struggle in my life and mostly my marriage. I have hoed the Long Trial in Vermont that last two years and next year I will do the Colorado trail. The thing is I want to spent months on the trail and my wife is not into backpacking so the compromise is my trips I take. This should be enough but it’s not, as I age out I feel I need to do this things while my body still allows this. I would find Florida a living hell as I am a mountain person. Someplace like the White Mountains of NH would be a great place I would think. Near the AT and endless trials. Plenty of people have built their channels and lived their dreams. I wish you well and hope you find your happiness.

[@hikingdancer]

Yeah I’m trying to find a good balance.

[@robertfrost5161]

Virginia is nice most of the year. You could probability do the same job and be less than a hour from the trail in Ronoake area.

[@hikingdancer]

I really like VA

[@juliepauley7683]

Move to Giles County, VA. You can teach dance, hike parts of the trail and live in the Appalachian mountains!

[@hikingdancer]

Need to check m out giles county

[@jamesking4225]

Its like my buddy Jerry says trail sick . it’s like being homesick for the trail

[@hikingdancer]

Indeed

[@roamingrick8736]

“Variety is the spice of life” perhaps that’s what you yearn for, something to be passionate about, take that leap…..

[@hikingdancer]

I like variety that’s true

[@robertclark8044]

The trail doesn't solve any problems. It just gives you lots of time to think about them. A thru hike is like experiencing a second adolescence. There are very few cares on the trail but eventually you have to return to real life (adulthood).

[@hikingdancer]

Perfect description

[@david_W5QDF]

You should start a guided adventure company taking people on one week, two week and one month hikes on well known trails and not so well known trails. This will have you hiking during the summer months and teaching dance in the winter months 🥾🥾🥾

[@hikingdancer]

That would be perfectv

[@tallyrc]

I hated Florida and moved not far from Franklin so I can have this feeling every weekend.. my brain is always racing but in the woods I slow down..

[@hikingdancer]

It’s so calming to be in the woods