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[@racheallewis2437]

My Mom and Stepdad passed away in August 2021 from Covid 3 days apart. It shook my world. I was not living for Christ and had been addicted to opioids for 7 years. I was broken, I called my cousin knowing her faith and love for me and together we made a plan with my husband and brothers and a circle of prayer warriors. Your Dad was the first sermons I found and I have watched so many a day, along with other preachers and your sister and brother. I also have a church but because of what God has done for me I can’t get enough of His word, His support, His peace, His grace and love. Thank you for this message! Like your Mom mine wouldn’t want leave Heaven. She would say baby I’m gonna wait for you up here lol

[@ELizabeth_Beeza]

3 days apart wow, I would be investing doctors etc.

[@apagebypagelife8624]

Right on time. My mother passed on Nov 11th. This holiday season is definitely challenging. I never had this problem and now I see what it’s like and understand what people can go through.

[@elizabetha2341]

I hear you in terms of understandingwhat people go through during this time. My mother passed a couple of months ago and I also lost my brother earlier this year so unexpectedly. You definitely go through different emotions and I pray the Lord will blanket you and your family with his love, comfort and peace.

[@jasfaith25]

My condolences to you both ❤️ Praying for heart to be restore and for the peace of God🙏🏾

[@MyBlessed1]

I’m sorry for your loss it’s so hard to lose your mom mine passed away in September it hurts so much

[@angiethompson9549]

Sending hugs and Condolences...🤗💞 I'm on that same Ship. Mommy went Home August 10th at 92 years old in her own style. She beat Covid and Pneumonia 6 times. She left in good health. Talking about Family watching and waiting for her. Truly I miss her.

[@apagebypagelife8624]

@@angiethompson9549 Wow. Aug 10th was my 40th birthday! My mother, as sick as she was, managed to put together a surprise birthday party for me that day. I wasn't even expecting to do anything but spend time and take care of her. That meant a lot. I couldn't believe that she was still thinking of me even though she was so sick.

[@angiethompson9549]

It has been said that only Christians can be sad and happy, all at the same time. We are sad because that loved one is no longer with us yet; we are overjoyed knowing what they are experiencing every moment: the excitement, the gasp of joy when the flow of the Glory waves through the heavens. The breathlessness when Jesus appears or a Tall celestial being appears...the streets of Gold, the Pearly Gates, the bluest skies and abundant colors and then the overflowing Praises of the Saints to our Lord...Wow!!! Oh the great Joy!!!

[@0sweetcakes0]

I lost my mom May 2021 on cinco de Mayo a week before Mother’s Day and I didn’t allow myself to feel or grieve. As the month of May approaches I’m getting nervous about how it’ll be…but I will continue to lean on God as He has been getting me through.

[@martna1]

When you are almost 70 the loneliness is crushing. I have no one, just my doggy. :(

[@stephaniejackson4515]

❤❤❤

[@redblondechick]

Definitely, will be tuning in! My Grandma passed on September 5, 2021. So, I’m struggling with grief and loneliness. I have my GrandDaddy, parents, and everyone else. BUT Grandma was my main one! My ace! My love! Life isn’t the same.

[@elisegreen7124]

I am so sorry for your loss. My mom passed February 6, 2021. Sending up prayers for you 🙏🏽💓🙏🏽.

[@redblondechick]

@@elisegreen7124 thank you 😊 same for you. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@sunriseschubert4391]

I lost my beloved mother unexpectedly on October 6 2022 and I'm heartbroken 😭💔. I'm praying to God for strength, healing, and resignation soon 🙏🏻✝️. Thank you for this video. 📹

[@louisruffin6808]

For two Christmases I was alone. Holidays hurt now. I'm in this trap and I can't get out. The more I try, the deeper I sink in it.

[@chloejoey3549]

Thank you for this. I lost my mom this year and this is my first Christmas without her😢

[@KimberlyKnox314]

"Create your own traditions." I love this. I enjoy creating traditions with my family. I still remember the rhythms of my childhood but I now create what works for my family.

[@mamachichidesigns6444]

That’s why I sew and crochet things and even join groups to give to others

[@louisruffin6808]

What I am feeling is life on this side of my loss.I miss my mom. I miss her singing to me, I miss her calling me, I miss her love, I don't have that now. Most of all I miss love.

[@sunriseschubert4391]

I know how you feel, I'm passing by the grief of losing my mother 😭

[@angiethompson9549]

Its been rough, but Jesus....I would rather go through grief with my Saviour than to go through it without Him. Truly through it All, I sing praises. I sing praises with tears of sadness and joy.

[@divinelychosen5554]

It was my mummy's birthday on the 1st of Dec. I lost the glue that held the family on the 8th of January 2022. After she suffered her first stroke 21yrs ago. She fought various illnesses such as dementia, she was bedridden, suffered multiple strokes etc during that period. We believed for her physical healing and restoration but l didn't see it manifest. I feel sad, lonely and lost. Everyone in the family is looking to me for hope, to find answers but l need to be looked after not be the one looking after anyone at the moment. I feel like a little girl, totally lost, confused. My 85yr old dad is acting a bit confused. Am going thru 2 loses, divorce and death simultaneously. Can't sleep, trying to eat for strength and energy. Lord show yourself in the mist of all of this tumoil, confusion and saddness. I need all of this to go away. Inspite of all of this l still love God and need him more now than ever.

[@victoriavictoria8973]

This is so sad, I am really sorry, I pray God comes through for you and comforts you in the way that He alone can❤

[@balmzandbodi]

Thank you for this. I needed it. I've experienced so much loss in the passed month alone, that I am numb. 🥺

[@mard6231]

Good timing. I lost my cousin this past Friday and have a hard time to just stop and grieve. Just listening the flow of tears started to run. Thank you!!

[@manjitrodriguez9318]

My husband passed. Thankyou Crystal. 🙏🏽 Praise God.

[@shaylacheeks907]

As I type through my tears, I cannot tell you how much I needed this. While grieving and missing the loss of my godfather and moving with intention so I can find the joy again my godmother passed. The anniversary of one’s death is the day before the funeral of the other. I find myself reminding myself to breathe from time to time.

[@stellamulinge9159]

Thank you so much

[@dianethurmond6673]

My son passed September 7🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽Thanks for sharing this

[@mirzacolina3140]

Thank you so much for this. My dear mama past 4 months after mrs Evans and I went threw such a dark moment of grief. so painful and confusing. BUT the lord was close to me and help me threw and continue to help me

[@micheleeskridge4056]

My friend of 30 years passed suddenly at 53 this past Friday. Maid of honor in my wedding, Godmother to my son, present for the highest of highs and lowest of lows. The pain is indescribable and the void left is so big. 💔

[@ELizabeth_Beeza]

My Mom died July 19, 2019 My Condolences!!

[@juliepowell3566]

Thank u, this was a perfect message, and perfect timing. Crystal, the Lord has blessed u with....great communication. ❤️

[@karenwhite1111]

My dad passed away on Nov 12th and it has been a very difficult time for me. I miss him so. We talked over the phone every other morning and now he’s not here with me. The tears come in waves and I find myself running to hide and cry, covering my face with a towel, so my husband, daughter and grandson don’t one hear me.

[@sheliafarrell7148]

I relate....seems everyone else just moves alone like everything is normal.

[@karenwhite1111]

@@sheliafarrell7148 that's exactly how it seems. When my husband sees me crying he asks me what's wrong with me.

[@redblondechick]

@@karenwhite1111 isn’t that a crazy question? I’m dealing with that too. They say I’m crying to much. I lost my Grandma on September 5th. Lately, I try to only cry in private. but if it hits me with everyone around so be it! I will cry and will not answer questions that’s obvious.

[@everretmaxine9558]

So ready to listen to this. I have been divorced for 3 years, the same year my mother passed away. Although I enjoy my life and embracing my position as a single person it does have its lonely moments and reminds me of those I love I can longer physically hug or talk to. Thanks for this much needed message.

[@lissajean_1875]

Wow, that must have been unbelievably difficult. You're a strong women. May you continue to find joy & may God show you an abundance of favor (especially this year!)

[@everretmaxine9558]

@@lissajean_1875 It was very difficult my grandmother passed away 05/28/2018, my mom 06/19/2018 and my divorce was final 11/05/2018...BUT GOD!!! I had to trust my pain with Him and I have found the purpose for my pain. Stay blessed.

[@Breonaleonard]

I need this one!♥️ Can’t wait..I’ve been battling with grief for over a year now

[@denise3432]

I was just about to comment the exact same! 🙏🏾 I’m praying for you.

[@ChrystalHurst]

See you tonight 💛💛💛

[@sharonlievens1076]

I understand how you feel. It's been just over a year for me.

[@Sisterbettyjo9179]

💜💜💜

[@carolinewanjiru3175]

"The Greatest of Lives y'all are messy!" Thank you Chrystal!😭

[@lwmsculver3628]

Well said! It’s been 17 years for my Mother and 14 since my Daddy left (and I lost my two older Sisters). It’s a journey 🙏🏾

[@lizafield9002]

God bless you, brave traveler. I bet they have been with you & know it's hard to be left here longer. But not forever!

[@TheMilliaC]

Excellent encouragement 👏🏽 I recently lost my mom as well. When I feel loneliness coming on, I sing and worship God! Thanking him for who he is and all he's done for me and my family. While I'm singing, I cry, I feel the presence of God, and I began to feel the loneliness disappear. I feel wholeness, peace, and a better mood. Afterwards, God will send people to me. Be it calls or texts. I reach out as well, planting those seeds like you mentioned. Grief comes in waves and so far, my worship has been giving me an overflow of strength and comfort from God!

[@patriciajones1567]

Thank you Chrystal!

[@DDJones-yi1pm]

Looking forward to this discussion. South Carolina

[@margaretbell2547]

Thank you, Crystal , this was for me . Blessing to you and your family.

[@debbierice2618]

Thanks Chrystal. Great message as always.❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Nushka26]

This was helpful. Thank you.

[@michellegerlach5027]

Thank you are very wise... I love listening to you! Am sorry about you losing your mom. I also lost my mom to (lung) cancer in the fall of 2019; and she is VERY missed!

[@uchennaW]

Thank you so much Crystal 💕 I needed this🙏🏽

[@azaleagirl6275]

Love this episode so much! Thank you Chrystal!

[@joyh.729]

This was sooo good!! Feel, fill, find. Thanks Chrystal 🌟🌟

[@VivienneJu]

Thank you so much, I needed this chat to help me cope with my brother's death, earlier this year. He was such a blessing in my life, through hardship and great times.

[@sxolilendabeni4731]

I loved this ❤️ Thank you for sharing.

[@tamarabeckley9966]

That was right on time. I love Crystal and her whole family. They are good examples of a Kingdom Family. I really needed that message. I appreciate you taking the time out to give in the midst of your grieving.

[@manjitrodriguez9318]

Thankyou Crystal. 🙏🏽

[@beecocina380]

I needed this. Thank you 💖....sharing

[@monicaj3023]

Thank you

[@dreamteamleader9098]

THANK YOU CRYSTAL!!⚘⚘⚘⚘⚘

[@karacoley5675]

Great advice in dealing with grief.

[@j.c.1871]

wow!! THANK YOU❤❤❤❤

[@thulisilemnisi6068]

Thank you I am encouraged and am doing that too one step at a time

[@its-crystal]

Thank you Chrystal for such an encouraging & practical word!

[@TootieXYZ]

Such a beautiful video! Thank u❤❤

[@glodeo2911]

Thank you CEH! What a great word!!❤❤

[@lavonneharrell3423]

Thank-you for this message! 🕊🕊

[@dianethurmond6673]

Praying for you and family.

[@msolivialuv1]

Thanks for being vulnerable always.

[@rebeccagounder6932]

Such a powerful encouragement Love you Cyrastal

[@gwendolynhill3430]

I NEEDED TO HEAR THIS...😔

[@Roni0517r]

I seldom comment on videos but have to say thank you for this one! Thank you especially for acknowledging those of us who are single and don’t want to be. So thank you for this timely message!

[@staceybaird289]

Thank You for this powerful message .I need this because I am lonely and loss some family members along time ago so thank you for this message.

[@charlenegraham3795]

I needed this. Thanks for Sharing. ❤ I love your Videos. 👍🏾💯

[@najoy107]

Thank you for this special message. This time of year can still be hard even though my mom passed 9/11/2010. Feel ,Fill, Find.

[@wendyvanniekerk3654]

Beautiful message Be Blessed

[@catherinemavinga697]

You are AmazingTHANKS❤

[@reginamcgary4753]

Chrystal, you have blessed a many people with this topic. This is great way to prepare for life and equips us to be tooled to encourage others. It was great to see you and Priscilla honored this weekend! Your Mom would be so proud of you! You represent your Mom so well!! I'm praying for God to fill those spaces for you, and it looks like He is doing just that!! Love you Christal!

[@HeyItsGIEL]

I wholeheartedly appreciate finding this video. God bless you. 🙏🏽

[@revchinenyemodebeluthewalk714]

Thank you so much Woman of God. You spoke to be directly. God bless you

[@joyceharvey410]

Thank you Crystal for sharing this. Right on time for me. I’ve been experiencing this a lot. I lost my husband last August and it’s still very difficult. I will try these things that you shared because they make a lot of sense.

[@sophiaewuramamensah505]

God bless you Chrystal, am really encouraged

[@stefaniamirri1112]

Beautiful and useful...thank you for this💕🎩

[@Sym1204]

A good listen. It's good to feel, fill and find. The 3 F's

[@heidifrick4400]

Chrystal, I listened to this on Monday morning after a week and a half of visiting our grand kids, daughter & son in law abt 12 hrs away. It was a bittersweet time for various reasons. But I miss thise grand children terribly! My mother has been gone for many years. But I still would like to pick up the phone & talk. This video was so thoughtful, encouraging, while practical to me. Your mom must’ve been amazing. I can see why she is so missed. But you & your sister are amazing too. Thank you for allowing yourself to be Gods vessel of holiness & love to so many women you will not even meet. God bless you Chrystal!

[@praiseplanner2274]

I thank you!!! My Daddy passed Dec 2, 2020 and this season has been extremely tough. Thank you for your insight on how to deal with the grief and loneliness!🟡

[@ShellyeLyons]

Thanks for this… I still cry off and on since my grandma died in June… but the holidays have certainly been harder than I expected them to be…

[@psloveshomedecor]

I sincerely thank you and thank God for this message. Over the last 7 years I have lost loved ones and they all cherished the holiday season. It has been difficult for me to celebrate but this message is simply beautiful. It's time I create new traditions. Thank you!!!

[@Mylifefullofhope]

Thank you for this message! Perfect timing and wonderfully said. 😊

[@Sorana44]

Thank u soooo much, I was in a loneliness storm , and I was soo caugh up I was experiencing such anxiety. This came at a perfect time. God bless u Chrystal!!

[@MrBongonium]

Crystal, I have got to tell you how much I appreciate your talk here today. So much wisdom and grace to what you’ve spoken here. May the Lord continue to comfort you💕

[@MyBlessed1]

I needed to hear this 💜 this year has been the hardest year my brother passed away in May and my mother in September. It hurts so bad 😭

[@joyh.729]

🙏🏽♥️

[@angiethompson9549]

So Thank You Crystal💞 Thank you for opening an outlet for each of us to just reflect, vent, release...oh by the way...thank You and Family for the book: Divine Disruption. I have had it since its first Release but couldn't listen until today. Yes, I have cried right along with you and family in the book; but these are good and healing tears. Thanks💞

[@angiethompson9549]

Finding New Rhythms is a great name for a book or Podcast!😀

[@mariecalvey6766]

Just listening to this message. T. It’ll be a year on July 24th since my mom passed away; still unreal to me. I’ve experienced extreme feelings of loneliness and emptiness. I’m pushing everyday. Thank you for sharing! She would be saying the same thing, find a new rhythm. I’m stronger sometimes more than others.

[@theresadudley7874]

Such a beautiful lady inside and out.

[@mSharonp]

Every now and then I would let the tears fall without any apology.

[@Sisterbettyjo9179]

Amen!! Amen!! Amen!! I Personally Feel Grief, and Lonliness. I have moments of crying. It's Beautiful to hear you and your family Closeness. And to know there are others has closness with theirs. I came out of a Diffusional Families. I loved my Mother!! Still Do. She has passed, My Uncle, My Oldest Brother, Baby Brother, and My Baby Brother Wife. I'm Crying As I'm typing this from my phone. Thank You For Sharing this. Of Course I Needed This. Reason I choose To find "New Rhythm.💜💜💜😊 God Bless you and your family. Yessssss!! I Was Encourage!!🙌🙌I will stop here...😊🙏💜💜💜

[@felitadexter4519]

Thank you for this tutorial it really did help me because in this season I am sad my mother's been gone a long time but her memory lives on and I've always been suppressing that feeling and just being depressed but I have a wonderful family and at this time of the season I'm going to start enjoying the more God has blessed me and I'll keep sending blessings to my family and friends and those that I don't know Merry Christmas to you and your family and have a blessed New Year in the name of Jesus Christ 🙏🏽💜

[@manjitrodriguez9318]

Thankyou Sister Crystal I thought would be easier the reminder of every season is hard. Thankyou for encouragement I am used to encourage others now I need. You are so Real and genuine hard to find that's why I have a hard time to connect with someone to talk to. God bless you in for your heartfelt words Sister. Love and blessings of comfort in this Season. ✨️

[@wemakamuzora6345]

My cousin brother died in June 2021 and mum died in August 2021.This year has been so difficult .Thank you for this.

[@KandiaHaynesworth]

This is sooo beautiful and meaningful. Thank you soo much.

[@carolcielle]

Bless you, my sister. I just wanna give you a million hugs! 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗This is such a wonderful resource and generosity of spirit and sharing from someone who clearly "gets" it and knows this pain very intimately. Thank you, thank you, thank you! We just lost our mom a couple of months ago, and it has NOT been easy. She was an long-time educator who taught sooooo many people in our hometown community. Beyond being a great teacher, Mama was avid writer, reader and speaker, world traveler and amazing quilter who touch many lives with all the quilts she made. Because of this, the outpouring, love and respect from the family and extended communities following her passing was overwhelming. It was all so beautiful and enormously comforting for us children and Dad. But it all dried up quickly, too, and people left us to navigate our profound loss alone -- as we, too, have been guilty of with others' losses. That place of solitude, isolation and seeming abandonment presents a huge struggle for me that compounds my grief. Unless you're visibly falling apart, people assume you're OK. And some days I am. But the other days are just...WHEW, Lawd! 😭😭😭 Losing Mama left a BIG hole in my soul. Most friends and family don't "get" it. They don't visit. They don't call. It's like they're waiting on me to snap back to normalcy, like overnight. The loneliness exacerbates the grief and vice versa. But I just refuse to 'pretend' my way through this 'canyon of inner chaos,' I call it. God knows I needed to hear this...Feel, Fill and Find! (I'm working on it! 😊) So just thank you again, Sis. Crystal. You have a beautiful spirit and a much-needed ministry. ♥♥♥ I so admire your ability and willingness to share so openly and articulately about how you've processed and are still processing the pain of losing your own mother. Your words and examples have been immensely helpful for me, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Please continue to do what you're doing. You will probably never know how many souls you will help with this message alone! God bless you. 🙏🙏🙏 Peace, Love and Blessings from Georgia! ~ Cielle

[@carolcielle]

P.S. It seems like just yesterday I was at Mama's house and asking if she'd heard about the passing of Dr. Tony Evans' wife, Lois. 😢🤗 She had, and we talked a bit about your mom's bout with cancer. I reminisced on visiting your dad's church some years back while in TX. Mama enjoyed watching Dr. Evans' broadcast and had several of his books. I just wanted to drop this postscript to extend my sympathies to you and your family. I have no doubt the grief is probably still fresh for you guys at times. May God continue to cover you in his love, comfort and grace. 🙏♥♥♥🙏

[@GodsgalMN]

Dear, dear Mrs. Evans Hurst, I recently found you and have been listening to your pods, video’s, writings, etc. . . . I just connected that you are the daughter of THE Dr. Tony Evans and sister to Priscilla Sherer. Wow. Your family is exceptional. I’m sorry for the many losses you’ve had. I’m planning to purchase your book - “Divine Disruption” The video message you posted tonight was absolutely perfect. The things you said, I have never heard and are a balm to my very soul. Thank you. You are brave to share the pain and new ideas of grieving well. This is a gift to me and many others! God bless you. 💓

[@karenhaye2660]

Beautiful 😍. My mother passed away last year November 18th and by watching this I realize that I didn’t give my self time to feel anything. After her funeral I went straight to work working long hours and being busy with my three boys. Of course I cried but where was the grieving process now I’m seeing things I NEED to fix and work on. This was truly a blessing.

[@shirleybrewer4210]

Chrystal I need to see you,and Prescilla face to face,I include her is because you both means a lot to me ,why glad you asked.what you all have been through ways my heart down,because I can relate to it.And I will be here for you all for ever.if I never be able to be in you all lives .my love is very real.enjoy your day,blessings❤️

[@jessicavalentine2689]

God gave me the strength to put up decorations and remember my mother just now. I had forgotten in my grief and loneliness, that Christmas is my favorite time of year and remembering is a form of celebrating. Thank you Jesus for your goodness. Glory to God for His grace that covers us all.

[@shirleynartey6519]

This is $140 worth of therapy for free, thank you Crystal. Earlier in the year, I received therapy for anxiety and this is exactly what the therapist taught me. I paid for that session, but you are giving it for free. 🙏🏾

[@louisruffin6808]

Most all of my time, really all of my time I spend with myself. People would be nice if they cared for me. Life looks alot differently to me now. I have a different view about it. Isolated makes everything look different.

[@EnjoyingYourLifeWithJesus]

This was good Chrystal. I lost a good friend of mine in Oct to COVID. Thank you for your candidness. And the loneliness...Holy Ghost is my Comfort & He is showing me "Lorelle" I have fallen in love with myself where I have neglected myself. Feel, fill & find! I am, I am & I am! God bless you Sis!

[@Webbgurl2000]

My sister died from COVID two weeks ago. It seems so senseless

[@aedawks9609]

Good word! Thank you Crystal! I have been isolated for the last two years, I too have lost my sweet Mom and my Dad. I had a husband walk out on me. I know loss.I am good at putting on a good face, appearing for others, and then I return to me. Alone me. Thank you for the encouraging words to feel, fill and find. You are a true blessing. Thank you! 🙏🏽🌹☺️

[@angiethompson9549]

Hi Crystal, I signed up to watch and listen to this podcast as soon as it started. I did that to be a part of encouragement for you and family. However; life happened....7 members of my Family transitioned to their Eternal rest from 2019-2020....😢

[@makeishabanks6906]

Hostess chocolate cupcakes are not the same either.😏 Thank you Crystal for this message. I really needed it. God Bless you.❤️

[@bridgetthubbard42]

I lost my dad to COVID-19 September 27, 2021. The pain has been relentless. I am trying to be strong for my mother and sister who is taking it real hard. We feel like God let us down after casting our cares to him. Thanksgiving was rough and I really dont know what to expect for Christmas.

[@sallyannmuniz4051]

My Mommy past 2018 , time she became diagnosed Aug. Past Nov. Just as your Mommy Crystal, she left me all the tools I ll need even if she is not here, her whole house was Joy & Jesus and a whole lot of the HOLY SPIRIT, she even dressed like your mom.. lol. Another of elegance, this week I have become and entered where my Mom left off.. caring for my Dad, And finally I am seeing him come out of that dark lonely tunnel, he has recieved Jesus as his Savior and repented of all his old him. Praise God ✋ 👏 🙌

[@sallyannmuniz4051]

Also, My Brother became MANIC, But I am a WARRIOR... 3 LONG YEARS OF FIGHT!!! Praise God Jesus... ✋ yes Stoo n feel, because if you don t you will become like me, I lost track of myself, now have full blown fibromyalgia, Lupus ..still not officially confirm, but my Dr. Saids yes I do. Now I have Raynaud, Osteoathritis.. well all this took me to the E.R. and almost had my first cardio attack.. mhm. Ladies, Gents, take time for YOU!! Don t take every1 or every life situation on your own back, call your children, ask for help!! Now I activate 24/7 Holy Spirit and thing are shifting, cry, stress, figure out, life continues, keeping it all together, every1 trying to latch on to you, I'm this person, but with lots of Alter CRYING, I walk into my church and straight to the alter.. I leave all on there! I tell you what, is working really.. now I feel more Fasting 😌 🙂 breaking chains, in the name of Jesus , the Blood of Jesus cleans me, My brother also attending and accepted the lord, today.. They are beginning to talk about the things Mommy did in this house lol. Good memories... praise God. Today they both said to me,,, I want to go where Mommy is PARADISE!! HEAVEN!! PRAISE GOD , PRAISE GOD... 👏 🙌 🙏 so did Our Heavenly Father needed to take her, yes, for now I m seeing how this expierence is just God's way of gathering my family, and a reality check of Life can be over in a second, as I just expierence, but Now Heaven to me is looking very very Inviting and above VIP.. oh yeah, I miss my Mom's cooking and her presence..but I m using now her Apron, and I am cooking in her kitchen for my family now. 😃 praise God Jesus. God 🙌 Bless. I m still standing thanks Jesus, Holy Spirit, thank You Father GOD, For loving me so much. ❤ 💙 💜 💖 💗