How To Redirect Negative Self-Talk To Your Favour

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[@bhushan6665]

' difficulty is the point ' this uplifts me so much to keep going, thank you for making these videos, much love and gratitude to you ❤

[@AdamDuffArt]

Well you are very welcome - I’m happy it hit home for you :)

[@MakiNoAtorie]

I've always thought that life and art is like dark souls, but never occurred to me that I can "play it" with the same mindset. You've opened my eyes. I've been hollow for too long.

[@gryph3714]

You cannot understand how perfect the timing of this video is for me. I have been unraveling these things in my life for years, and the most recent battle of finding the foundation of my faulty paradigm of self. Thank you for the encouragement.

[@ArtByHazel]

Thank you Adam for being a voice of reason for us all. I shifted my negative self-talk into positive self-talk so I can carry on especially during those “off days”… Art definitely helped healed those painful memories that’s now released from my mind, body, & spirit.

[@catthemightylord]

"Kintsugi" is an interesting Japanese concept. Back then, when pottery breaks, the fragments would be glued together by gold. But then people realize that the fixed broken pottery has this beautiful golden patern that is imposible to acchieve with a perfect pot.

[@tabenplayz9932]

I really related to the Girl from china with the overwhelming pressure, I live in the Philippines and the same sentiment is shared here about art, I'm lucky to have parents that are supportive of me (Though not from the start), but wherever I go I always feel like I get looked down on, made less of a human by peers and people, unknowingly that sort of pressure pushed me to become better to prove them wrong. this was a good reminder of failure and difficult Adam especially during these times with the industry and etc. Always been a delight to listen to you

[@lacthetomato]

You always bring me to tears, Adam :""") I hope one day I can stand in front of you and thank you for opening my eyes and helping me better endure this life. You're so human in a world of facades, and that's priceless. I hope you can always value your work like we do

[@Foxercide-q2s]

I find it fascinating how much this aligns with my own approach to my desired career to be an illustrator. As toxic as it was for myself, I believed I wasn't born with any talent and had to build every necessary skill to match my peers during college. It motivated me, but my days were numbered. I felt the need to practice more because if I didn't, my lack of talent would fall through and I would fall behind. I suppose the moral behind the story is that the faster you go, the harder you crash.

[@VoidWimp]

I fail time and time again but i see it as a state of things and try step outside and look at it without judging it. Sometimes it is hard when it looks like that failure happened on a step on the only path to success.

[@pervysage5465]

I am generally amazed at you as a person - how thoughtful and kind you are. And jokingly, I am also amazed with your timing, since I've been dealing with a lack of kindness and cruelity towards myself. There are some things about your vide othat I do find very insightful, but there are also some things that contradicts my experiences so far. For most people, my comments ends here. If you'd like to read about my struggle with toxic thoughts, you may keep reading. First of all, I don't know exactly what's the source of my problem (I can have some leads though), but I am fairly sure it wasn't due to my parents. They were supportive enough, and even if weren't always on the same boat, I've always felt loved and appreciated by them. My hypothesis about source of my negative thinking and self-steem problem, is that it is due me observing other people, thinking they are amazing and wanting to be as amazing as them. So, I guess it starts with inspiration, and then with disappointment, since I have no abillity to become like them. And then discovering that even my learning/growing rate is subpar, no matter what and how I try it. There always were people who achieved much more, with seemingly less effort and definitely less stress. As if it was nothing to them. Comparing to them, I was always shit and I felt like shit. I feel like it to this day. This might be the source of my negative-self talk and lack of self-compassion. On a side note, due to that, I tend to be straight up mean to people I consider worth even less than myself - as in, worth less than 0. I know this is a hugely toxic trait and I hope to one day fix it. While I cannot deny that one's mindset is very important to achieving growth (in many areas), I don't think I can delude myself with thinking that it will magically fix my below-average learing rate. I am biologically vired like that, and if my experiences are of any indicaiton, I cannot expect that to change. Looking back at my art, the best piece I have done is from 2018 and it is essentially a ultra instinct Shaggy meme (one of fanart pieces that were created around that year). Now we have 2024, 6 years later and not only I haven't produced anything better, but my "avarage" drawing haven't improved all that much either. Granted, I wasn't doing as much focused practice as I could, due to mainly focusing on doing commissions, but still, in 6 years I expected at the very least SOMETHING. And now I'm at the state when doing cursed cheap commissions drained me and I lost much passion not only for subject matter, but also art. It is recoveable though. I am writing this all to convey basically this: I know how it is to achieve success after struggling. But I don't know how it feels in art, since everything I've done up to now art-wise is a failure. To not be all doom and gloom, I got a new job recently and I am thinking of severely limiting number of commissions I accept or ditch them completely. Maybe that will give me some more time and motivation to work on my art fundamentals. Speaking of overcoming difficulties and harships, I think I know what you mean, but I do disagree with using videogames as an example. Videogames can be hard, true, but on the other hand, they are designed to be fun and rewarding. Life's not like that. Thank you for managing to read it that far. Have a good day.

[@hannaq]

Yes, difficulties make us grow. It also shows us our direction in life. We have the moment to choose whether the pain is worth it and become better or the pain redirects us somewhere else where we are supposed to be. It is incredible how often we internalize our hardships. Thank you for another insightful video.

[@ericswobodadesign6514]

Dude your content brings me so much joy, focus and peace while working on my art. Thank you man.

[@AdamDuffArt]

Well thank you Eric, it means a lot to hear you say that

[@henrypatuti7147]

31:58 I love Marco Bucci! Got hooked when he tried to analyze who are the league champions are based on the music alone.

[@duongquan4986]

I'm also come from a traditional Chinese background with a fairly "traditional Asian dad" . Just to be clear, I don't hate him, he did his best to rise me and two sisters up and I grateful for that. But back in middleschool, he completely broke my heart once when he torn all my silly "artworks" to shred and gave me once hell of a ass whooping because i brought home real bad grades. Fast forward, now I able to support my wife and kid with a 2D artist job, guess this is my own "Imma show you that's you're wrong, old man" rebellion and for whatever it is I'm proud of that. P/s : CURRRRRRRSEEEE YOUUU BAYYYYLEEEEEE.

[@joseph765]

This helps today of all days where someone randomly called me ugly. Made me question all the progress I've made toward improving my self-esteem, but this was a timely boost. I know that didn't specifically have to do with doubting myself artistically, but still, thanks.

[@ElmanoDiogo]

Hay Adam, thank you so much for this! It is a really heartfelt and important message to all artists, as stability is not usually guaranteed and perseverance coupled with a great support system is what makes us go through most challenges. Just to share a little bit of my own story, In college, I studied coding and then animation after some years and all that time I was always questioned about it and was always recommended to go for "office" jobs instead of this, because this is a hard life, even after I got jobs in the animation industry. There have been at least a couple times when I had less than 50 bucks at some point and thought about quitting art and just go for a "normal" job instead, and that would be ok if there were no other options, but I was able to land a job in animation that would get me through even if just for some months. Nowadays I'm working on cutscenes for a game, and I don't know how life will be in maybe 2 months. but I do love all of this, from learning new things, to getting to know new people, to sharing my own and other peoples messages in these projects and so much more and that, along with at least 2 friends that have always supported my journey, from its lows and highs, is what got me through my whole life, but most importantly for the past 4 years since I got my first job in animation. As usual with your videos, this one was very touching and this is a good way to help and motivate fellow artists that are having doubts on their journeys, art or otherwise, as your words could be the light for some travelers in the fog. Thank you again Adam! ✨

[@AdamDuffArt]

Well Elmano - your words are incredibly relatable. Yeah, I know those days when I barely had two red pennies to rub together. The fact that I can tag along with you on your journey makes me nothing less than happy

[@felipe63849]

Man, this is such a wonderful talk! I just take my iPad and start painting again.

[@blackhoundrise8431]

This video hit hard. There’s that word again- “hard”. All I know is that if I give up, it ends. And when it ends I’m still stuck doing “normal” job to pay bills and look after my kids. So might as well keep learning to draw coz I love art no matter how hard it is. Nice shout out for Atlas Benighted- I assume he is the one you were referring to regarding his reactions to music scores. He is one of the best at that. Probably the best at that.

[@laurag8783]

How funny is that I came to your channel seeking for your calm voice and a video to ease my temper after starting AGAIN for the third time now an annoying, veeeery long and painfull part of a piece I'm doing at work. I could'nt find the right method to do it proprely during 2 days now since I'm not use to work with vectorial tools... I think I got it right this time, but looord that was a lot of effort to draw bunch of circles! I think I've drawn thousands of them by now.. finger crossed I get the mural done by tonight! Thank you, once again your video is SO on point! Your topics seem always synchronized with my art journey which alway make my days!

[@tcrowley]

Big thanks for this one Cap'n. Exactly the motivational reset I needed to hear today

[@RenDrawsWarbirds]

If there's something that this whole AI situation has taught me, it's that the moment art stops being hard, I'll probably stop painting. Because somehow, it is that process and that struggle and that journey that makes it worthwhile. Yes, it's painful. Yes, it's hard. No, it isn't always fun. But it isn't fun I'm trying to get out of it. It's meaning. And damn is it meaningful.

[@whiterabbit3664]

Every deep and serious topic you touch - resonates immensely, thank you so much Adam

[@faithee2885]

Needing to hear this after a rough week 😓❤️

[@ericmasker6330]

Adam, you read my thoughts, serendipitous that I should happen to peruse KZbin just in time for this. While painting no less!

[@johnjustice5208]

Edison Quote: “I didn't fail 1000 times. The light bulb was an invention with 1000 steps.”

[@AdamDuffArt]

I LOVE that!!

[@sinclaire5479]

Been a while Adam. This came at the right time thanks man.

[@wownicole81]

Baayle was a fantastic episode of your stream! Like I said that night, it was a masterclass on patience and determination. In everything, hard work brings the sweetest rewards.

[@tyrteo]

I always watch each of your new videos in search of that thing that breaks the cycle of hatred on myself that my parents gave me. I have to live with that look of disapproval, every day. Professionals have confirmed and told me that these are not my thoughts, but theirs. Years pass, I really really want to become an artist but every time I try I feel pain, guilt and shame. I'd love so much to be able to believe you, that I can break it. But every day, no matter what I try, this feeling keeps set on stone. I wish I had a teacher like you earlyer in life, when I was still able to believe... Inside me, I can't find that hope anymore, but for some reason I keep watching ang listening to your monologues thinking "maybe this time". And yes, this time I felt like you are pointing directly at me. Every detail speaks to me. "this is you. you can fix how you feel". But I can't find the key. I admire you and I love you so much for using your time to try to help people in my situation. I look for that day when I can send you a message and tell you "fuck, you were right". But for now I have to tell you "I'm sorry". For today is not that day

[@anasaric941]

every sentence you said resonated with me and i'm sure with many others, thank you for that! have a good day/night Adam 😊

[@jackcprime]

thank you internet art dad for the wonderful advice!!!

[@joschnee]

Needed this. Thank you so much.

[@IgorJCorrea]

Kinda crazy that I'm going through this whole realization and getting a much better mental health and ergo josh, samdoesarts and you post similar videos about this at a similar time, this video was awesome, for real, things are starting to fall into place in my mind xD

[@danjaworsky]

You’re awesome Adam. That is all.

[@midnightmoonlight1597]

Perfect timing!

[@user-ei2xx1zq8t]

So true. Im African and have to support my parents.

[@nytrul3159]

*hears bayle and igor mentioned* CURRRSE YOU BAAAAYLE

[@ApoptosisRed]

I finished ER dlc yesterday and hated every second of the last boss fight. My heartbeat was higher then ever, I was holding my breath waiting for the right moment to attack. And in the last moment I died but managed to make my last attack killing the boss. That fight is painful but it was totally worth it.

[@charn-yinchen565]

thank you for the precious words

[@veggsbacon1891]

"Why are people down voting difficulty?" Because, for some reason, those people expected rewards with minimal effort and care. Perhaps they're raised or "brainrotted" their minds with senseless stuff on the internet and/or spoiled lifestyles. I'm currently managing my anger thanks to therapy, researching, & exercising. Of course it's gonna be difficult, since even the littlest of things ticked me off. The world doesn't own me anything. *Work hard, study well, and eat & sleep plenty.* Nothing is impossible. Ight, nuf said, imma go eat some fruit.

[@isaacleone6551]

I love you so much Adam

[@afro18en]

Thanks needed this 👌

[@rw8160]

Thanks! I needed to hear this.

[@mochimona]

You know what's funny? I recently started Elden Ring (I am completly new to soulslike games) and I knew it would be "hard" and I would fail because that's the main thing about the game - to fail und try anew - my complete approach changed. Where I would have been angry about dying more than a few times because I played like a maniac and smashing buttons, I am much more deliberate with my actions and trying to actually learn the game. And I realized I am not doing that with many games (BG3 doesnt count because I know the rules due to playing DnD). And I was so shocked that I needed to play Elden Ring to realize that it's a blessing to die and make mistakes and be able to try again. That's when I realized that Elden Ring is one of those few games to encourage you to make mistakes and learn from them, which is a good thing. We should all make more mistakes, trying out difficult things and not beating ourselves up about it. Because THATS LIFE, literally. Failing, trying again. Life is difficult. And we will fail. That's so refreshing, I never thought I would like Elden Ring and now I have to peel myself off of my playstation.

[@Houdini_Bob]

thank you Adam, you are aces.

[@n_nikute]

Thanks for this~ really needed it~

[@Tahasikeri]

Thank you Adam❤

[@slowgaming5679]

Never have i ever been this early

[@slowgaming5679]

You really have a way of making people feel seen by truly listening.

[@NoémiM-h4r]

I wish someone told me these things years ago.

[@shelleypleger1073]

Now I want to find the soundtrack for the game.

[@AdamDuffArt]

Ditto - it’s amazing!

[@dplj4428]

Good morning, Sensei

[@RukileinchenChan]

You do understand though that not everybody loves the SOuls games... I like the design of the games but HATE the boss battles most of the time. They just don't fullfill me when I win them even after trying countless times, often having hurting hands after that. Don't know, I just don't get that feeling of reward many seem to get. The only FromSoft game I really enjoyed is Bloodborne. But I guess it's just because I don't care for the souls games in general, they often feel like time wasters, I prefer my "easy" Nintendo games haha In art too, I feel like I am never achieving anything because even though I have improved everything still looks so ugly. Not knowing if the struggles are worth it in the end, aka producing art that has a message and doesn't look bad, that feel as if I understand anythign at all about it... just hurts. In comparison to the Souls games, art matters much to me, but my lack of skill and slow improvement (and I know that I am extremly bad for the time I have invested) make it hard to believe in myself.

[@AdamDuffArt]

I totally understand your frustration with the boss fights - but as most obsessive Souls fans, it’s my obligation to respond by saying “just give it time, it will grow on you - trust me”, lol. I’m sorry, even if I do agree with you, I’m contractually obligated to turn you into a diehard Souls fan as well - it’s just how it has to be my friend - I will break you - ONE OF US!! ONE OF US!!

[@thislopop2700]

@@AdamDuffArt Hi Adam, I am one of those who has dropped the first dark souls game and never returned to it. I am not here to contest or question your point about whether the series is any good, but rather to summarize, why I have increasingly grown to hate it. For me, it was a combination of quite a few things working in unison. First out of the gate, it has bothered me, that it was never explained, why all the world is so hostile against specifically you. You are an undead, sure. But there are plenty of other undead, even in the starting location. Which are still hellbent on killing you. Why? We are all in this prison location, wouldn't it make much more sense working together to break out of it? What did you do to deserve this? Have you done something unspeakable? The main character does not react to any of it as well. It would be a great place to start an intriguing story, which will make you want to progress through the hardships. But nope, just fights it is. Secondly, the physical size of bosses. Somebody twice your size will kill you so easily, it's not even funny. The bosses you fight are... significantly larger. You would need some siege weaponry to take those down! But now, all you have is a sword. Or in the bosses' eyes: a toothpick. The game compensates this by making the bosses sluggish, like they've got shitfaced after pulling three consecutive all-nighters while also being high as a kite. When it is translated back to the size of the player, the attacks are still very challenging. But it is just looking ridiculous. It makes it even worse when you die a fool's death. Sure, you've made mistakes and died. But words cannot describe, how dead you're actually supposed to be! Next is quite personal. In the game this far, I've been collecting this currency the opponents drop. It is difficult to acquire, easy to lose, but there is no way of spending it. I struggle to keep it hoping, that there will be a shop where I can spend it. And then, a trader! And the trader is selling garbage. My disappointment was immeasurable. Big contributor to me quitting the game. Respawning enemies. It is not challenging, it is not fun, it is very repetitive, it does not amount to anything other than wasting time between attempts at fighting bosses and this is what depressions are made from. Last point, but certainly the most defining: I did not get any sense of accomplishment after defeating bosses and progressing through chapters. Who was that boss? Why was it there? Had I any other motive of killing it other that it was in my way? What will be the impact on this region, once it is gone? So many questions, so little answers. Should I feel accomplished, just because the task was difficult? I remember finally killing some boss, sighing and saying aloud, "Now what? More of the same?". I've quit the game few minutes after. So, there you have it. It was less about the difficulty, but rather about any lack of purpose. All that remained was the combat, which boiled down to rolling in dirt until you get an opportunity to sneak an attack in. And if I do like dirt so much, I can just as well take a broom and sweep the entire street. Except that it is much less frustrating and has an actual, visible result.

[@cdwizzerd]

@@AdamDuffArt i like pvp games for the difficulty, however i have always disliked the souls games because i get no pleasure out of defeating a boss that is designed to lose to me. i would much rather fight a human who is doing everythey can to beat me, & its my wits vs their wits. regardless i think your point still stands, but i dont think souls games are for everyone.

[@palgaea]

I think the takeaway here is to be open minded and courageous towards your fears. Not a masochist who can't tell the difference.

[@natos4unlife]

People complain about the difficulty of the souls games because a vocal portion of the gaming "community" will claim any of your viewpoints on games are irrelevant if you can't beat the game. It ties right in with what you were saying at the start of the video. People who are supposed to be your "family" making you feel like you aren't valid because your skills don't match theirs. There's a lot of toxicity in the gaming world. Don't overlook that fact.

[@TheDarkOne9942]

You know, I think I’m not an artist, because I never had any challenges with my family or society.

[@user-oz1ny]

suffering doesnt make anyone stronger it just makes them suffer. i think this is one of adam's weaker videos

[@AdamDuffArt]

Nice abs

[@ghostsoldier72]

😎

[@shaggybuckaroo]

I hear you about the challenges.. unfortunately, the current DEI stuff is trying to take all challenges and personal growth opportunities away... Making folks into perpetual children... I took the road of "normal stable" as my parents refused to support my music and art - saying I wasn't good enough... Though I have a "good stable" job.. I never left my music and art behind.. and am somewhat successful... But I always wonder where I would be if I gave art and music 100 percent...

[@lassebjrkmo5498]

Why did America go to the moon? Not because it is easy, but BECAUSE IT IS HARD. And of course some political whatever stuff but still, that speech by JFK lives rent free in my head. And I'm not even American lol!

[@oharasvna]

Wow i didnt know Elden ring get that bad of a review. I get why people crying at sekiro difficulty (this game is hard goddamnit), but elden ring? there is so much you can do to cheese these boss. edit: My theory is maybe people allergic to READ the description of an item and trying to comprehend how this games work. If that the case we are doomed as a society. I blame this to social media.

[@ZTRCTGuy]

Souls games are hard, complaining about that is a bit like complaining about cheese on a pizza. If you don't want difficulty, don't play a souls game... Eat something else. However the difficulty lies not in the thing itself. The difficulty lies in believing one can never overcome the challenges. It doesn't matter how hard something is, or is percieved, if you don't believe you can ever overcome it, you will quit. Adam, when you engaged that dragon in Elden Ring, you knew perfectly well you would beat it at some point because facing challenges is something you've done a lot. It didn't matter if it would take 10, 50 or a 100 times. The pernitious thing lies in thinking ''I'd never be able to do that''. This resilience basically only comes from proving to yourself over and over again that you are able to do hard things. I don't have this belief and practically quit art as a result. Even though I like it.

[@kevinchattergoon86]

Souls games are hard, my brother in christ(all people saying its hard) elden ring is my first soulsborne losing and then winning is nice get good

[@borjaponstriay430]

6:00

[@issac7787]

39:00

[@c.hlorine]

hope that comment in support of AI was worth it

[@FujisamaProductions]

hey bud heres a piece of advice. noone cares what you have to say.

[@c.hlorine]

@@FujisamaProductions ok! have a good day

[@DrwhoAmnesia]

@@FujisamaProductions i care

[@lemond2007]

The sheer amount of discrimination against straight white men in the creative industry has encouraged me to be better than those people. (It's not very hard.)

[@kellyramirez7465]

Creativity is for everyone. It’s so weird how in trying to be more inclusive it has become exclusive, especially in the entertainment industry. Just make awesome art that rings true to you and let that speak🎉 for

[@Wonderwomanwonderwhy]

It's like coming from my voice

[@Wonderwomanwonderwhy]

I'm also a teacher of art.

[@AdamDuffArt]

Well, I’m honored to receive such high praise from a fellow teacher!

[@Wonderwomanwonderwhy]

Coming from old school of fine art as a well educational purpose as a philosophy and historical landscape of why ...maybe you understand.