How YouTube changed my life as a misunderstood loner

[@mkwhole]

Thanks alot bro, you definately have helped me in my journey of enlightenment and higher consciousness! Lets keep going!

[@ishmaeelstigling5422]

You are genuinely one of the most compassionate and most emotionally intelligent people I have ever seen in life. You are slowly encouraging me to me myself so much to the point that some people in the comments may disagree with me being my true self, breaking rules in a way that doesn't cause any more harm.

[@joeandgod1]

I don't have allegiance to anything, but the truth

[@feeldontbelieve6577]

I ve been addictive to expressing myself!

[@RY97z]

THE REASON WHY WE ARE SUFFERING IS BECUASE WE ARE JUST TOO AWARE OF EVERYTHING HAPPENING AROUND US. WE SEE WHAT IT IS AND JUST CANT STAND FOR IT. THIS IS WHERE THE CROSS ROAD LIES. WE AS "AWAKENED BEINGS" HAVE TO BASICALLY CONFORM TO LIFE WITH NO SORT OF REBUTTABLE WHEN UNFORTUNATE CIRCUMSTANCES ARISE.

[@ishmaeelstigling5422]

Exactement. Tell me bro.

[@oceanwave4142]

Nah everybody suffers no exception. Sure some more than others but still everyone does.

[@TebohoMaepa]

I watch your videos Coz we almost experience the same existence we ask questions we do research we can't live a lie, I also struggle with humans who can't think but are told what to think.

[@Justin-fc5pq]

I've watched, listened the last 6 months, I respect what you say, even now I'm doing it what you said about writing your thoughts down and your brain or mind is going to fast then you can't get it all out were you starting, and about staying in a place were you grow up every one knows you,much respect brother from another,

[@Felipe-zl1rj]

I totally feel Benedictine. Listening to this dude has been a breath of fresh air because he gets it, and people in my life never understood me. As he pointed out in this video, people are not committed to truth, people just want to conform and adequate themselves to society so they feel accepted.

[@oceanwave4142]

Plot twist everyone isn’t real except me lol. It’s a possibility

[@emptynature]

Feel the Truth, beautiful said. 💪

[@beckykroogar7750]

I understand you, we’re trying to follow the most logical explanation for human life. thanks for sharing.

[@kayyou1902]

You are very brave to express these difficult ideas on KZbin. I think like you but am not brave enough to say it like you. Keep going. Your thoughts and ideas are helping me heal.

[@oceanwave4142]

I dont think it is rooted in bravery. People are compelled to do what they want to do and they can’t decide what they want. It is just predetermined, people can’t help themselves to unfold in a predestined way. No freewill no freedom.

[@Aybeliv_Aykenflaev]

I dont understand how it is normal for most people that emotions prevail over logics

[@6GDC]

They haven’t come to the point of balancing the two… it’s very difficult when it comes to our own personal affairs. The analogy I use is “the worlds best brain surgeon can’t do brain surgery on himself and would need to relay on the worlds second best.” If that makes sense… I being emotionally unaffected by someone else’s emotional state, I can then allow logic to prevail in assisting them to reach a desirable outcome taking into consideration those very emotions via empathy. Can I do the same for myself??? Noooo I am terrible I can’t see myself when I am coming from the perspective of myself or my personal affairs when those affairs are triggering in specific areas. With age and experience it down become better lol

[@emptynature]

denialism and egoism

[@oceanwave4142]

Perhaps it is just impossible to begin with to understand anything that makes no sense…. Understand and sense or logic go together however thing are for no reason it seems so there is no logic really why things are the way they are.

[@ishmaeelstigling5422]

It is not that I want people to just agree with everything I say. It is that people are afraid and unwilling to acknowledge the truth in their face. It hurts.

[@GORAGALLANT]

Much love my brother, your not alone out here. Not much more I can say to express myself. All I know is your on point.

[@klewinhicks]

:) well-expressed. You’re articulate af and I love the way you express consciously. Like you, I craved to be understood; some understand you; I’m one of them.

[@thetruthTV__]

I love you brother

[@Psychology-tk1zi]

I love your videos. They are so special! They help me so much understanding myself!

[@Artursamvelyan-ny9zk]

How can you be wrong, what you say many people would agree. Thats what matters. Some people live like Another level in life and maybe are rich so they may kinda disagree on what you say because they’re life is a little more exciting than many others. But i for one completely agree with you cuz life isn’t fair for everyone and many things we want in life we don’t get and go through a boring samey cycle of work and just home

[@Humble-iq5ue]

Because the internet allows all the little niche corners of the world to connect. We are few and far inbetween. Livity in love and Inity within the natural order of the most high. *_NYABINGHI_*

[@sp123]

we dont worship gods over here. Whether white jesus or a black woman, we dont worship it.

[@ishmaeelstigling5422]

Uxolo. Ndithetha isiNgesi.

[@echolewis2821]

Have you heard of Emil Cioran? He wrote “The Trouble With Being Born.”

[@ishmaeelstigling5422]

Yeah. I guess there has always been a select few people that are real throughout history. History just repeats itself.😊

[@gateau32]

great

[@will.davlin]

Anyday now could be the end in my opinion world is slowly stopping

[@Hechosaleatorios1]

Just sleep with 2 pairs of socks everything will be okay

[@hinoyouko4099]

The antinatalism community is lucky to have you benedictine. Thank you, thank you.

[@dcktater7847]

I just cant talk to a camera. Obviously if it's a video call that's different but no one being on the other side...that's just sooo uncomfy it's almost as if it didnt make any sense i'm always like "okay but who the fk am i speaking to here"? ...i have much respect for those who can tho i consider it an actual skill

[@The_Mystical_Blackpiller]

this entire existence is beyond overrated, it can't come to an end sooner enough.

[@a.i1970]

KZbin Sensors Written Comments😏 So You Know Anything Truthful😌 Won't Be Allowed To Be Played On KZbin🤗 Food For Thought😎

[@ishmaeelstigling5422]

Yeah. When I say some really deep stuff in these comments, KZbin just makes it disappear. I hate censorship so much that I will rather be shamed and criticized than be silenced.

[@a.i1970]

IF It's Truthful😏 You Will Be Silenced😌 No Matter What🤗 Believe Dat😎

[@a.i1970]

& Sometimes It's Reverse Psychology😏 Because Even Though What I Said In The Above Is True😌 KZbin Kept It Up, So You'd Think It's Not True That They Hide Truth🤗 But We All Know They Do☝️😎👌

[@a.i1970]

Good Mo[u]rning 😏 What Are You Going To Complain And Cry About Today?😌 I'm Looking Forward To It, While I'm Enjoying My Day🤗 Watching And Listening To The Sufferings You Share About Your Life With Us Here On KZbin, N I'm Waiting😎

[@jmac4952]

Know thyself by Being thyself. To know the world and not know your self is fruitless. Ask the question. Who am I? What am I? What is the source of this experience of me?

[@ishmaeelstigling5422]

Probably something evil lol.

[@jmac4952]

@@ishmaeelstigling5422 Your reply is a perfect illustration of a comment I made on another one of Benedictine's videos. I said a lot of the comments on his videos seem to be rooted in a victim mentality. As in, somehow I was put into this hell realm against my will. Therefore I'm a victim. The question I have is how do we know this? How many people have taken the time to slow their minds down and experience the truth of their own being to find out if they have participated in, or actually created in whole their experience of life? Almost nobody does this sort of difficult introspective work. So almost everyone turns their attention outward and blames the world for their suffering. It's a choice to perceive yourself as a powerless victim. Is it true?

[@oceanwave4142]

Since it cannot be proven so far I find it is impossible to know. Only hypothesis till now

[@Badazvegan]

Im astonished that one can admit they are. A coward, but understands they are not big of cowards as the Crosstians its a delicate war of living as peacefully as possible in less pain whilst resisting and fighting christianutty

[@Rabid4Rachel]

Everyone here has to watch a movie called "what love is" 2007 movie. It's best movie for us.

[@oceanwave4142]

What is it?

[@dante645]

hope your butterfly effect will work

[@emiddiofattorecover]

Before quietness here come the storm😮

[@emiddiofattorecover]

At 28:00 maybe you put your first video and it blows up youtube is unpredictable. Whit affirmations like that I find this person so dumb. So naive;

[@emiddiofattorecover]

Like the matrix let it happen for me, What are you talking about bro? Why don't you invite me in a live session? Get scqry they will shut down your channel one shoot. Do you wanna go deep or what?😂 What a joke-

[@Badazvegan]

I think you would do well in a japanese society

[@TebohoMaepa]

What kind of society is that?

[@Badazvegan]

@ japan. Seems like a very empathetic courteous respectful society and he is dark attractive man… the women that survived christians nuking them will love him

[@oceanwave4142]

I wonder the same. I think it is based on firm principles of cans and cannots musts and must nots. Also it runs on fish and rice it seems

[@fredastair-j8u]

benedict is there anyone else where you live who gets it like you im in australia and i now no one who gets it execpt myself if i said watch your channel theyd say to p ray to jesus im a demon

[@Brandanmayhew]

What the heck😂

[@fredastair-j8u]

@@Brandanmayhew do you have any people in real lifevto talk to on this topic

[@Brandanmayhew]

@@fredastair-j8u I was saying that to them thinking you're a demon. And you're right they would respond that way. Im aussie too and I completely know the situation you're in even though you think you feel like the only one who gets it or sees it. I have to go on long lonely walks by myself in nature to cope. We are all separated and I wonder why this is the case. The only place we can gather up happens to be online. I can't talk to my own parents about this stuff they have that look of "here we go again" on their faces and it's simply because they just don't get it. They're products of the matrix and have hive minds. It's like living in prison without being in a cell

[@dcktater7847]

​​​@@Brandanmayhewrelatable. Tho for me it's quite enough to have online friends like bene. What i crave more tho is a gal who gets it as for that i have much more a need for personal contact but the only difference is sex obviously i'm not deluding myself. I want a benedict with pssy basically. Wish i was gay tho cause it's much easier to find guys who get it (frankly i'm sceptical that a gal can even get it but there are some good ones online so i just keep it open)

[@GRACENDON]

i dont wanna be provocative but i once told you you are not better then people who eat meat and u didnt said anything to it allthough i gave u very good reasons why it makes sense so i am starting to believe u kinda dont like it to be wrong

[@ishmaeelstigling5422]

Yeah. In the same way murderers and molesters aren't any worse off than civil citizens. At the end of the day, it is about causality and our will to live as sentient beings. We are all whores to our survival instincts and our biological drive, regardless of how good and/or evil it is. That is why I don't even wanna argue with dumb ignorant people. I rather chill here man.😊

[@dcktater7847]

He is definitely better than me if he doesnt eat meat. I just resumed eating meat from pescaterian i got like 5 pneumonia in 1.5 yrs. I'm not sure that meat will make it good but i just cant think of anything else why i'm soo sickly i suspect that even fish isnt enough

[@oceanwave4142]

Rice and beans is supposedly complete protein

[@oceanwave4142]

Maybe animals deep down want to die to end their suffering but oc course are afraid to depart. If we knew if was better after we’d all wish to die in our sleep and wake up in heaven

[@fredastair-j8u]

your biggest problem is you talk very troubling things and do not respond to those who are struggling with what your saying that aint kosha mate

[@renegade2853]

Can you do shorter vids? 10-15 mins?

[@ashleybraim]

He doesn’t take requests

[@JamesBond-ib9tq]

Get your own YT channel

[@renegade2853]

@ 😞

[@child-of-god207]

then make sure to just watch 15 mins and exit the video, is it that hard😅

[@Felipe-zl1rj]

I like the longer videos