I ALMOST DIED ONE YEAR AGO. It Turned My Life Around (Filipino Resiliency!)

TEN MONTHS AGO, I suddenly left the Philippines. But that was because of a fateful day one year ago, when I almost died. And those events turned my life upside down.
Today, I feel comfortable sharing my story of the journey since, and how I turned it around. I also wanted to offer some words of support and advice to those in my former predicament.
Raw, real, this is me, this is my life.
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00:00 Intro
00:35 What Happened One Year Ago
01:28 Immediate Life Changes
04:15 Leaving the Philippines
06:10 Achievement
08:12 Bangus Inspiration
09:22 Work With What You've Got
11:30 Acceptance
14:17 Don't Be Ashamed
15:22 To People Who Love Somebody With Mental Health Problems
19:49 Final Thoughts

[@KumanderDaot]

THIS IS AN AWESOME ONLINE COMMUNITY! Thank you everyone so much!

[@cynthiasadsad2187]

Kumander Daot ,you are awesome human being , you mentioned Anthony Bourdain, one of my favorite, keep your faith and be always strong ,you are in a good hand.

[@PHOTO-AESTHETICS]

I always say, “the sun will come out tomorrow “ , never lose hope. Put your hope in God, He never disappoints ❤️

[@teresam.928]

KD always remember God loves You...❣❣❣❣ I like watched all ur vlog...I'm from Mati City. DAVAO ORIENTA,but working here in abroad. continue what your doing.

[@markinvictus9729]

Thank you for sharing your story, it is helping put my depression in proper perspective. N your videos is helping me dream of making it back to Philippines 🇵🇭 where my heart longs for.

[@argeegonzaga5561]

I understand you my friend me too I am suicidal many years ago infact I committed suicide many times but there is a God who saved from all of that misery. Just continue inspiring people my friend everything we encountered in life has a purpose. God loves you

[@KumanderDaot]

This has been a journey. Thank you everyone for being a part of it. The journey continues 🙂 I am looking forward to starting work on the fishpond hopefully next week, if all goes well! NB: I have to say this, but please comment with respect. Mental health is absolutely a health issue (one that can become serious!) and it not something that anyone chooses to suffer from!

[@marksmtalent]

Thanks for sharing daot bikini

[@marksmtalent]

Enjoy Daot to the fullest

[@charlietree776]

Hang in there, bruv.

[@marksmtalent]

Be safe enjoy & see you in davao kumander daot....

[@rahulmaron]

Thanks for sharing Kumander D. "Accepting the situation you're in and work on it" is an inspiring words to hear.

[@sonicblue3900]

I first went to Philippines in 2016 for 6 months.. I lived in bulan ,bicol in a nipa hut with my filipina gf and her family.. When I returned to UK I also had a mental breakdown... (Started in Heathrow) The thing I did was compared everything in Philippines to the life of the UK. The mentality of these 2 countries are worlds apart. The UK/western countries is based on competition ,jelosy and aggression with neighbours, which naturally leads to a bad mindset. People in the UK get jealous easy and they are always subconsciously Self comparing...... Where as in Philippines the mindset is way more relaxed, slower and less aggressive which equates to more tranquility and peaceful thinking.. This is why Filipinos are naturally more happy and content with their Lifestyles and do not set out to prove anything to anyone.. Friendliness , hospitality and warmth of the Filipino people is very comforting.. Where as people in the UK can sometimes struggle with a basic hello Or smile.. I'm looking forward to my next trip to Philippines.. Philippines and its people are my medicine ,comfort and cure... Great video kumander daot... Keep well there... Sam from united kingdom...

[@herwayvlog4760]

Thank you for making our country your medicine and sort of positivity

[@davidwike4522]

Also it is easy to live basically or minalistic there . It takes a load of the mind , no car work basic clothes . 2 years I was in Cebu and only bought basic things .

[@albertsammut433]

Kumander please dont ever give up being a KZbin Vlogger..WHY?..Because you are gifted with the natural talent to entertain..You have a hilarious kinda whacko persona that keeps me anyway rolling on the ground..Cheers and keep em coming sir👌🏼👌🏼

[@KumanderDaot]

I will not give up as long as people love to watch what I do 🙂

[@evelyncerenio3735]

@@KumanderDaot You're amazing Kumander D. I Salute you... you're strong and breave enough to face your situation...you inspired me a lot by watching your vlogs.. Please continue your vlogging.. your helping people a lot. God bless you more 🙏💖

[@ohcrapwhatsnext]

I agree with you.. I love this natural...

[@marilynliamzon9730]

@@KumanderDaot God bless

[@raralee07646]

super agree! i told him many time.

[@abaldmansjourney]

Your best video by far... I also suffer with mental health issues, first became affected in last 10 years, I've struggled, I've fought, I've been ashamed, I've felt weak. I lost my way for a while, but discovering the Philippines helped me begin a new journey. At the start of this year I felt down again, stuck alone in Cebu unable to return to Australia. I struggled for a few months then I started to vlog my life here. Things changed im stronger, im not alone anymore, nor am I ashamed. I may not have a large audience but I will share my story with them as well. Thanks for your inspiration, ever since I began following you I found myself being lifted up many times by your words as I've experienced much as you do as well as being in the Philippines. Cheers Kumander

[@MangDencio]

1. Acceptance is the first step in recovery. 2. Knowing that you need to get help is not a sign of weakness. It means you are standing up for yourself, fighting whatever is pulling you down, showing that you are going to do what it takes to win. 3. If you see someone struggling, guide and support them. Don't be dismissive, nor try to solve their problem for them. Thanks for these life lessons KD. This is an awesome video.

[@sailorjohnv2473]

I totally agree with Dennis.

[@SendMeAnAngel09]

agree💞🙏🏻

[@yolandavillanueva989]

I agree with u dennis...God bless..

[@rosanasuasonmartinez1013]

You are correct, I was a follower of Anthony Bourdain and I was shocked when he passed. I was really very sad and had too many questions in mind. It's so sad to know someone every one thought who had everything and then took his own life. You promise you will not do the same. We are here for you so just keep on talking. Don't think of anything that might hurt you. Be strong, stand tall, you are good, you are kind and I find you such a beautiful person, Anak, ok. Sincerely

[@johnblenkiron5126]

Longfellow was right when he said, "Into each life, a little rain must fall". But sometimes we might become more than a little drenched from such rainfall and we cannot rely on letting a 'smile be our umbrella'. As a person who is also prone to debilitating bouts of depression, I really appreciate hearing the honest perspective of someone else who is fighting and, especially, overcoming the crippling effects of depression. You are in the best place to manage and overcome a problem that requires a lot of resiliency. For the people of the Philippines are a daily lesson in the philosophy of resiliency which seems to be their distinctive national trait. They weather all sorts of storms; natural, financial and familial. Yet they adust and bounce back, facing life cheerfully while living in the moment. Thank you for allowing me to join you through your vlogs which are more than just a cultural tour of a fascinating country. It is a pilgrimage of sorts from which I gain more than you will ever know.

[@TwistedFaith0529]

I've been in that "dark place" before. I just want to end everything. I felt no one can understand. I am grateful to have my family and friends who supported me. I still grapple with my " demons" up to this day. But Im now in a better frame of mind. Looking forward to your future vlogs KD.

[@zzzzzsleeping]

Someone said: “I am bent, but not broken. I am scarred, but not disfigured. I am sad, but not hopeless. I am tired, but not powerless. I am angry, but not bitter. I am depressed, but not giving up.” Its actually good -- you are talking about it. Keep going, Keep talking some more and more until you get tired and sane. FILIPINOS LOVES YOU !!

[@carmensotto9747]

I had commented bfore,you are part Filipino now..Filipinos bounce bck every aftr trials...and..hve u noticed..always wd a smile...

[@samns8321]

Yes! Love will be your strength, though the sorrows may last for a night, joy will come in the morning. ♥

[@MrHawaii42]

Now you know what "Its more fun in the Philippines means" because people learn to move on and still be happy even though get lots of problem. It is what it is,and we have to deal with it. Cheers my brother,be happy always..

[@briandee98]

Every human in this would have difficulties. But we all have faith in God that’s the purpose why we’re still here to overcome all the situation.

[@hill120]

Have nothing but respect and admiration to this lad. Keep the courage KD!

[@whitevanman9500]

Sometimes Ansul, you can see the inner pain in your face. A brave man to put mental health out on your channel. The Philippines and your alter ego Kumander DAOT seem to be a healing force. You Will beat this my Friend 🇬🇧🇵🇭👍

[@OXDR2225]

'Mander..You mentioned this has been a Journey. It has but remember there's over 112 K of us here willing to take that Journey with you. They say a true Kumander is a Brave one; You're Brave for facing your challenges , You're Brave for sharing your challenges , and You're certainly Brave for admitting your challenges....the real essence of a true Kumander is You. #daotnasquad

[@nicdel347]

I’m a bit emotional watching how you enumerated your trials and thoughts of ending it all. You reminded me of the times my mental health is so unpredictable, awfully unforgiving of myself. Times when I’m at the edge at the end of my rope I also want to end it all at once. It might sound funny but in the past whenever I thought of ending my life, I hear my mother’s voice telling me “whatever unbearable problems you are going through DO NOT END YOUR LIFE. There is always a new day to pull your self up and recover. I thank my mother so much for her wisdom I’m almost 70 yrs old now and totally recovered from all my mental illnesses. I laughed about it now, and said THANK YOU MOM… I hope you totally recover and continue on your journeys. Like you said there are more unfortunate people out there and still want to live no matter what. I consider you as one of the LUCKIEST MAN out there vlogging.

[@rosanasuasonmartinez1013]

I was looking for you yesterday, Anak, you were not there. I am happy you vlogg today! God bless you and your dogs as well!

[@RJ-iy4es]

People are dismissive because they don’t understand mental illness, or they are scared to discuss the subject or even scared of what they may say is wrong. So proud of you sharing your story.

[@patriciamammarelli3911]

Never give up , KD !!!!! Surround yourself with positive people . Accepting and recognizing your condition and learning how to deal with it, you’re one step closer to recovery. 😊

[@twistedfaith6371]

Well said bro that's true kumander and we love you

[@jetlob2541]

Congratulations Kumander for winning the daily difficult battle. You've been destined to do more great things. Keep inspiring more people!

[@sharibenjiemahigab9260]

Keeping it real… living abroad is not paradise… it’s hard. It takes a lot of acceptance and adjusting to different cultures. Anselm struggle is real. Many foreigners that move to Philippines go thru the same. ❤️ we support you. 🙏🏻 We understand

[@elsosita1690]

You are stronger than you think. With this vlog you most certainly helped countless of people. God bless you.

[@randyp90us]

Thanks for sharing. I've been there. Battled depression for 40 years. Retirement and proper meds along with understanding have made me a new person.

[@pinayaminah3003]

Hi Kumander, I commend you for raising awareness about mental health. Respect for you brother. I have watched your vlog ever since - when you went back to your parents until you came back here in the PHilippines. Now your subs are beating thousands 🤣. There are people out there who are rooting for your recovery. Press on, brother. 💪

[@MLee537]

Nothing but respect, I feel your words, please keep on keeping on . 🙏🙏🙏

[@mylahbarreto5265]

I can’t even imagine the challenges you go through mentally. I am glad you didn’t give up, and truly hope you continue to do so. We would have all been very sad & devastated, had things turned out differently. Anthony Bourdain’s death was such a shock, and I’ve never felt more sad about someone I’ve never met. I’ve followed his foodie footsteps globally almost the last two decades, and I had just gotten back from Basque Country (to try the pintxos he enjoyed), when he took his life. And I completely agree with you- realistic & attainable goals are best… one day at a time, to continue your journey!

[@frihdsonfrias9028]

Kumander it took a lot of courage to put yourself out there and speak about your problem, and I respect you so much for doing it. Thank you for promoting this awareness that not a lot of people understand. We need to fight for life and what you’re doing is saving lives! Thank God for vlogging because it saved your life. Amping kanunay Kumander Daot!

[@lemuelnazareth7210]

Can't believe it's been a year. I remember that vlog and you going back to Wales. Watched all your videos throughout this whole process. Keep going, KD! We're here for you!

[@darrelcana5837]

U are on the right track Kumander D..keep on moving and u just dont know u might've save another one life as well.. Stay Safe and Healthy

[@candylesnik5750]

BRAVO, Anselm! Very well said! We are in this together...we will be with you in this journey!

[@micojoson8092]

One of the realest vloggers... Just do what you love to do.. i enjoy watching your vlogs..

[@NickyDunn]

😃

[@yteduser]

This is your calling. This is one of your best vlogs because you're someone who has a first-hand experience in mental illness and struggling everyday to conquer it. This will be a great help for those suffering the same thing as you. Here in America, suicide rate has gone way up during Covid . I have talked to someone who tried to take her own life but failed. She has severe depression and is also an alcoholic. Probably a double-whammy for her. She told me that suicide was not something that invoved a long-time plan. In her case, it just came all of a sudden. She took a knife and slit her wrist. Someone found her in time and she was saved. Mental illness , indeed, does not discriminate. Prince Harry, Princess Diana, Meghan Markle seem to have everything ordinary people could only dream of. Yet they all have/had mental illness and unapologetically and un-ashamedly wanted the public to know about it. May God give you the strength to cope and to hopefully conquer it permanently in the future.

[@corvidone]

Great vid.....it takes a lot of guts to talk about mental health....I lost my younger brother because he couldn't bring himself to seek help. I hope your vid helps someone who might think there is no other option. Tomorrow can be better as long as you're here to work on it. Good luck on your project!

[@kuyamak9445]

I love you Kumander! This is an eye opener for everyone. At the same time, this is a great help for everyone too! We support you and we follow your journey! Yes, please continue your vlogging as that will help others and it may be your advocacy too. Salute Kumander! 😊🔥❤️💪🙏

[@mikemikie8312]

Very big thank you to all Philippine folk for excepting Anselm for who he is ,you except him in a very gracious and natural way sharing joyous times with him and becoming a true friend towards him . Anselm thank you so much for fighting the fight within you you don't see just how loving and gracious you are but your openness and courage deep within you is very powerful and helps and comforts many who suffer in similar ways . God Bless you with his healing spirit Thank you for sharing power on .

[@tigerofcopenhagen2225]

Your videos have this special depth to them and now I know. Your thoughts. Amazing.

[@antoniocesarservando5239]

thank you for sharing your story but most of all thank you for loving the Filipinos that come along your way.

[@jb4688]

Anselm, your blogs are full of insight and wisdom. You seem to have come to an understanding of your condition. The saying keep your friends close but your enemies closer holds true. Rather than fight your enemy, embrace it to understand it and work towards change. The enemy will always be there...peaceful co-existence is the goal...survive and flourish!

[@maximianajalon588]

Keep on making videos Kumander, meeting people, explore new places , working on fishpond, knowing more about our culture, etc. . I hope these will help you forget about mental health issues.

[@podoroflight5766]

I had that episode in my life. I started to love myself and when its overflowing I started loving others. Then I have kids, keeps me inspired. Those smiles and laugh.. priceless

[@rca1226]

Thank you for making this vlog. We as a society need to destigmatize mental health issues. A lot of people suffer in silence. Hang in there, Kumander Daot. Just remember, when it feels like things are getting bad, it will pass. Things will get better. Keep on going. You are an inspiration to many.

[@jennifershimizu7571]

Acceptance is the word,you are a very good vlogger,just do what makes you happy,go slow,we are here for you,many people love you for who you are.

[@skunxriot]

Filipino Happiness, Kindness, Hospitality is healing you. Stay Safe always Kumander

[@KumanderDaot]

Absolutely 💯 🙂

[@puravelasco8653]

Kumander thank you for sharing your life experiences with us. ❤️

[@amsylita]

Kumander Daot...much respect to you for being able to share your story! ...Everything happens for a reason, and this is your reason to continue what you do..and you're sooo good with it! Please continue to keep on shining!

[@maggiepmc4820]

Kumander, you are loved. It’s sad that theres still this stigma of mental illness, but the more you talk about it, the more people will be mindful of what to say. Most often things you have no control, you have to let it be, just do what is good for you. Continue to do what you feel right for you & always remember you’re always special in God’s eyes! Take good care of yourself!

[@LilyGWard]

I respect you Kumander D for doing this, sharing this part of your struggle in life with us. I really believe talking about your mental health helps a lot. Do know you have family and friends and us your online community willing to listen. Keep doing what makes you happy and you will be alright. You are okay Kumander D. Take care and stay safe. 😊

[@KumanderDaot]

I really appreciate this online community and the support that you guys have given. Couldn't have done it without you 🙂

[@LilyGWard]

@@KumanderDaot You are a good story teller as well. 😊

[@juliawl7056]

Kumander, thank you so much for sharing such personal story. Your honesty in telling your journey is powerful. There is no stigma in acknowledging the problem and finding professional help. Thank you for your honest advice on how others can show support. This is indeed very helpful to many who are suffering from the same condition. I am very happy to hear you say it’s a story with a happy ending. It is indeed! Continue with the blogs - you are one of the best story tellers, with a great cinematic. Acceptance and power on. I care

[@NickyDunn]

Good morning, such a powerful video. You're amazing. This will help so many people. I remember when you got your drone. Trying it in the snow. Kulas knew you would be great. Thank god for him. If vlogging saved your life. What a great friend. Always talk for sure. When people go quiet. That is a warning sign. Unfortunately, some people that have never suffered from any mental health will never understand. Learning to control how you are. And knowing your trigger signs. Is great. And that is all you can keep doing. Working on yourself. I am so happy vlogging gives you focus too. You are a great storyteller. This is definitely, what you should be doing. A great vlogger. I love your videos. Thank you for sharing. Have a great weekend. You and Nhel, and your fur babies.

[@troybowman4213]

G’day mate, I just want to say perfect Vlog ,there’s so many people out there suffering from this terrible disease, as I am one myself ,I just want to let all the people know out there, that I’ve reached out to Kumander a few times in my dark moments, and he has listen to me and never judge me, He has just sent me small messages of encouragement, just to say hang in there mate, there’s nothing wrong with admitting your problems and talking about it, and that’s it ,everyone needs a good friend, There’s no shame at all talking about it ,don’t keep it all bottled up inside, we are all here to help , we are all here to listen , excellent work mate, good to see a smile on your face, you are changing people‘s lives,,can’t wait to see what you do with that fishpond ,,absolutely legend👍👍🍺🍺

[@BornWriter]

Thank you for your openness and honesty brother. Life is not at all like the fantasy that we are taught however it is only as good as the life we choose to live. I`ve been to the Philippines several times and can really see your attraction to there - you have chosen a good place to breeze through life - appreciate the natural surroundings and the friendly people - smile every day and be proud of your achievements. Respect

[@jojopalisoc8165]

Congratulations kumander daot. Continue what your doing. God bless you always.

[@shentara]

Continue sharing about your mental health condition Kumander as an awareness to those who are suffering. Atlest yours is a first hand experience. Be that light at the end of that tunnel.

[@Moodskiii]

Thanks kumander for the great words i have been in that state last febuary tried to take my own life but didn't succeed and i took it as a sign and recalculated my actions and started coping and solving my problems and what was i doing was going to hurt others and put them in bad misery. Still recovering and fighting for the light at the end of tunnel. Life are ups downs and lessons to learn from

[@ronaldgosiengfiao9663]

I've heard a phrase that The British always say when they are faced with tough times: "Keep Calm and Carry On'".

[@paultejido9691]

Life is like a circle, sometimes your at the bottom and sometimes on the top, just keep that wheel rolling and continue on, as long as we’re breathing

[@rosaliesolanonunez9294]

Thank you for sharing your Mental health journey. I'm sure a lot of your subscribers will be able to overcome the difficulties & get inspired in your story.. FIGHTING KD!!!

[@Chinshuenlightment]

Keep living the dream because your positivity help people in your situation. You are a light at the end of the tunnel and your happy craziness really shows that people are not alone. Thanks 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻😊😊😊😊

[@connieevers4900]

I am so proud of you KD that you really taking care of yourself. Thank you for sharing and now it's gives me some understanding of my coworker try to hurt herself. She was in the break room and it happened I went there. I cannot give some advice but to listen and hugging her. More power to you 💪 and keep doing that makes you happy. This video is helpful to everyone and very proud of you KD. 👏

[@meribahjadeeblamo8761]

From now on i will not skip ads. Our failures doesn't mean that we need to stop. It's just that GOD wants to redirect as to the Best. Padayon lang Kumanader D. Sa giingon permi ni Kulas nga "One Day At A Time". Klaro ana! 😁🤘

[@Freespirit512]

Kumander Daot, thank you for sharing your courageous journey with mental health. It took lots of courage on your behalf recognizing what was happening and getting help. That is a huge step and accomplishment. I love that you are using this platform to help others struggling in their silence of mental struggles. Also, you have a lovely family and community of friends supporting you which is very important. This healing journey you cannot do it alone. I"m a graduate student in Clinical Psychology, so bravo to you getting help and sharing this intimate journey. Life is filled with the peaks and valleys. We all have a choice in how to stir the direction of our life. All the best in your endeavors, Maria

[@nikibrandon1]

Talking about what you’ve went through is a sign of healing. I think you’re on the road to recovery. Slowly but surely. You are helping a lot of people who are experiencing depression and having a hard time with coping with the condition. I also think vlogging is helping you in dealing with challenges. You are a great story teller. It feels like we are a part of your travel. Always stay strong. You’re doing very well. Praying for your continuous healing. One day at a time. Best regards and stay safe

[@lopena12160]

When you are so down and depressed just pray to god the almighty there is nothing impossible from the Lord, Just pray always it will help a lot promise.

[@louestrella]

Michael Phelps said "It's OK not to be OK" Kumander it takes more Courage to admit mental health issues Thank you Stay Strong God Bless you always Just remember You are surrounded with Love and Positivity

[@rudifrancois]

Great vlog! Very educational and helpful for people with some sort of mental health issues and even for me who is fond of watching you share amazing countryside pictures. Yes I want to hear and watch more contents from you Anselm. Keep on! 🙏☺️☕🥖

[@KuyaXianOfficial]

i can relate to you kumander i almost took my life away last year because of mental illness..now i can say that i healed and happy again not totaly but im getting good everryday..thank you for sharing your journey with mental illness, i can feel that im not the only one having it..

[@KumanderDaot]

You are not alone 🙂

[@trisix7091]

i cant imagine yt without kumander daot. we love you kumander. im one of the few subs before 10k without video uploads. i remember those first vlogs. those awkward vlogs but look at you now? a great story teller, vlogger, influencer.

[@mariloufleenor5747]

U have my support. Mental health is real.roller coaster. Hang in. I deal with depression. Keep going. You can do it.

[@amylitabautista4353]

Sharing your journey makes a difference to everyone who goes through the same path. Keep safe always.

[@emildaabarquez7784]

I salute to you ! With your vlog now , you can help other people dealing mental problems! Love you Kumander from Toronto

[@nomesaneman3962]

"Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear" - Mark Twain You, sir Anselm, are courageous. Thanks for this.

[@aminahforever4277]

It’s good to hear and see you talk about your situation. I see you are on the mend and thank you for sharing your thoughts and what you have been through. Yes, it helps when someone is listening to and remember that everyone has a problem. It is only us who are in control of our own issues. Vlogging in fact is bringing out the best in you! Full support here to all your vlogs🤩🤩🤩

[@eskiricya9354]

Thank you Kumander for not giving up. Unknownst to you, you actually are an inspiration to many. Keep the positivity coming. Amping pirmi.

[@michaelj2528]

The thing is you never know whats going on in people's head or life, we are good at hiding it from friends and work colleagues then go home to that day place the black dog as Winston Churchill Called it so just be kind please just be kind . Saying to someone snap out of it does not help because we can't believe me it's a bloody dark place its very lonely , as KD says it's a constant daily battle to stay positive . So a big thank you KD for talking about these problems it helps those with it and makes those who have not aware of it . If you think a friend or work colleague has a problem as difficult as it may be ask them if there ok you just might save there lives WELL DONE KD

[@westcoastfoss2850]

Being someone who sometimes struggles mentally I love watching your videos and seeing someone like me out there doing thing in place I would love to be. You have a gift of story telling. Lots of people can talk and talk but story telling is more than talking. You videos help me emotionally. For that I thank you.

[@cristinamaguyon]

Gd morning . I am sure you are helping a lot of people with the same problem. Thank you for letting us understand . I had two friends who ended their lives. You answered all the questions that has been hanging for many years.

[@JohnSmith-bz9be]

You are doing the best you can and that is great. Well done for having the courage in sharing your story as it will touch some people and maybe they get to turn their lives around at some point. I also watched your last video and left some of my thoughts on what you said on there. Maybe some food for thought... At present just watching your recent Tiboli films you did back in May I think. Very enjoyable :)

[@cyberpixels]

Thank you KD for your honesty and being pro-active to heal yourself and understanding there are many who suffer as you do, some more, some less but whatever you are going through is equally as painful Someone else’s pain does not negate yours. I really appreciate you, thank you again for your openness You are helping me be pro-active with my situation and kinder to myself ❣️😁

[@SuperMeat83]

I am so so happy that you have been pulling through your struggles. I don't know you but I can say that I would be absolutely honored to if I ever had the chance. I struggled with my own mental health when I was younger and I had it well under control for nearly 20 years. My daughter passed away 3 weeks before her second birthday and i fell back really hard. I've been in a constant struggle for the last year and seeing you pulling through your own struggles have given me more inspiration than I can ever put into words. Thank you so much for doing what you're doing. Feels strange to say to someone that I've never met but I have so much live for you. Thanks for being a source of inspiration.

[@siopaothegreat]

I think by fighting your own monsters and sharing it here helps other people who suffers with the same problem. Keep marching on mate. All of us have monster inside. Never ever quit on life. That's part of the adventure!

[@mcbnalice4930]

Don't stop doing a vlog... Continue while your alive the way how you do it is a gifted talent. Stay Safe and healthy Kumander D. Keep it up!

[@alicesioson9003]

Daot my mom suffered from severe depression like 50 yrs ago in the Philippines and she was not treated that caused her life. Now medical science improved soooooo much …. Recognizing your problem is the Key ! Get right psychiatrist\ psychologist and meds…youl be ALRIGHT ! You have great families, sweet doggies, nice fish pond, loving buddies …..you are on the right track …. Seek immediate help when you need it right away. Will be praying for your complete Healing . You will be ALRIGHT….. promise. We all Love you Daot !!!

[@BDLao]

Kumander, Thank you for sharing your personal experience. The way you say it and your style of messaging especially on this topic on mental health makes a lot of impact. Sincere, frank, and with empathy. This vlog made me rethink my own experiences. You are appreciated and very much so by your community of followers.

[@angelamanno5648]

I love your videos. You're intelligent charismatic and know how to tell a story in all your videos. I could tell you were not in the greatest place in this video but you should be proud of yourself because you're continuing the fight. My son has the same fight. I see his struggle everyday. Sharing your journey is therapeutic for you and the people that are experiencing the same thing. The world is a better place with you and my son in it. Always reach out to others for help. You're not alone xoxo

[@toothsayer21]

KD thank u so much for sharing ur mental health problem and for u fighting it out and hanging on. I am touched too that the Filipino ways of life has helped u. I have a 35 year old son in your situation. I will recommrnd to him to watch this inspiring video. "The black dog" is always shadowing people like u. Good luck always. BTW your vlogs looks great technically & entertainingly that is why i am always watching u almost everyday.

[@toothsayer21]

For information of those wondering what the "black dog" is. It is a depression metaphor that is struggling to get off their backs of the illness. Search youtube about it.

[@mariacristinagrafilo9328]

Your eyes is deifinitely showing us how well you are doing these days! Thank you for the strength to keep going and being an inspiration...loving all your videos!

[@alvinaltovar163]

For me…You are one of the fighterboys Kumander D because YOU are a FIGHTER. I look up to you my brother. ‘Everything’s Gonna Be Alright’ (Bob Marley) God bless!

[@ronaldgonzales3415]

Thanks for speaking on this and sharing your journey, Kumander. Takes alot of courage and strength to do what you did. Praying for your strength as you continue to fight through and conquer it. 👍🏼👊🏼👊🏼🙏

[@johnd8549]

I have watched your videos from day 1. Thanks for posting this video! I am proud of you! I am sending good vibes your way!

[@JoseRomero-cn2me]

Thank you very much for sharing this, Kumander Anselm. It really helps to give perspective and a glimmer of hope for those like me who might be suffering from mental health problems but keep on dismissing them for something they're not. Acceptance of the situation and dealing with it straight on is indeed the key to healing. Thank you and sending your way strength for our continuous victories over our battles. 💕

[@boogiewoogie4047]

I, too, suffer from bipolar disorder and what’s worse than hearing people say “more people are going through a lot worse than you” is when they say “snap out of it”! I understand that they may not know how it is to deal with mental disorders but I’d rather they don’t say anything and just be present because sometimes just knowing someone is there for you says a lot more than spoken words. Thank you for openly talking about what you’re going through. It helps to bring more awareness and understanding about mental health issues. Take care!

[@KumanderDaot]

Ugh, "snap out of it" or "don't be sad" or "don't think about it" - if it was that easy, I would! That's why I hope this message can help!

[@ts9105]

Watching from Manchester, England 🇬🇧 thank you for the video 💕

[@semgonzales2110]

Kumander Anselm, you said it from your own words and rightly so that acceptance is the first step towards healing. Denial and a false sense of bravado (I can do this alone) don’t get you anywhere. That’s delusion. Everything should be grounded on reality. Speak up, reach out, seek help, if need be. From the song of Joan Baez goes “No man is an island, no man stands alone, each man’s joy is my joy, each man’s grief is my own” You are unique just like the rest of us and together we can make this world a better place. Peace Kumander🙏

[@thomaslatta9981]

Kumander Daot I really enjoyed this Vlog and I do see exactly how people around us are very judgemental. I always watch your videos and enjoy all of them. Stay Positive and Happy. 👍

[@samns8321]

Kumands, thank you for hanging on, thank you for fighting the fight and thank you for being real about it all. We are here for you. We are rallying behind you! Heck you can consider all of us as your extended family! :) May the message of this vlog episode be tool for those who are really in need of extra help.

[@rosanasuasonmartinez1013]

That is very good and I am happy for you that you've found an outlet. You are a very good, kind person. May God keep you and God speed!

[@martinpeacocke8968]

Super honest Kumander! You will help a lot of people with this video. Many people lose hope then negative thinking takes over their lives. They start not seeing a future. They do not recognise the pain they are feeling is a temporary problem and it can be great again. You are an excellent example! The years of joy like you are feeling now would have been lost with one bad decision. Tough times come and go. It's part of life. It's how we choose to look at the situation that sets the future course of our lives. Make one change that will better your situation if you are hurting. Then another small change. Ask for help! Never give up people!

[@allainesy4612]

I'm on a similar journey kumander. Congrats to our victories. I'm proud of how far you've come kumander. We're here to listen to your stories, whether it's about your personal life or the fish pond etc. Just keep it coming kumander.

[@leslieserapion-perez5373]

Thank you for your bravery and honesty through your journey to healing. Watching your vlogs this past year, you have made quite a change in the positive direction. Never, ever give up! There are people out there thousands of miles away that are watching your adventures as if they are experiencing it with you first-hand, living vicariously through you, wishing we can travel again. You are truly touching the lives of people in the world that you've never met before through your lens. That's the power you have! Stay strong and continue to be your Daot self!

[@bebecabatana2551]

I love your blogs Kumander! Power on. You have a gift to articulate with depth & sincerity. Good luck and I’ll pray for you🙏

[@giesselledawnhulguin1637]

This is my takeaway from this vlog and....Holding to that glimmer of hope to reach that light at the end of the tunnel... your story is an inspiration kumander....pure honesty and hope...salamat kaayo!