I became everything I wanted to be - and I felt empty inside

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[@chulangaaverilhettiarachch3267]

To the person reading this: Even though I don’t know you, I wish you the best of what life has to offer ❤

[@memyselfandi6862]

what a wonderful sweetpea you are to have posted that ! right back atcha, sista !

[@authoremilyjosephine]

Thank you, and you, too. 🙂

[@eleanor4759]

right back at u 💜💙💚💜💙❤️

[@khinnyjourney6399]

Thank you … sending ❤

[@anavasquez264]

I wish the best for you too :)

[@make_it_aesthetic]

One of my absolute favorite quotes of mine that I live by is this, "Realize you can be happy this moment for no reason. Otherwise, you eternally depend on conditions for happiness. Unconscious of this moment, you remain a victim of circumstances." - Arthur D. Saftlass So I do my best to pick happiness and peace, for no other reason than that I can. To hum and skip and smile and laugh solely for the sheer pleasure of it.

[@carnifaxx]

That's very similar to one picture about happiness where two people discuss how comes one of them has it: -Where did you find that? I've been searching for it everywhere. -I created it myself.

[@alainadacosta1222]

That’s lovely

[@sherry-annh8089]

Such wise words my Dear. Well said

[@c.j.7593]

❤

[@jillychandler]

Back in the 90s, I opened and ran my own Nursery School, for 7 years, on the side of my house in Devon, England, and that is the best thing I feel that I ever did in my life. It filled my heart with joy, working and playing with the pre school children, and hoping to give them the happiest start in life. I am now 66 years young, and live on my own with my rescue greyhound Madge, and it can be lonely at times, but I enjoy being on my own with Madge most of the time. I am lucky to live in a place where there is no traffic, and I can walk out of my front door into the countryside, and get to see nature, and enjoy it. Love and Blessings from Jilly & Madge the rescue greyhound, from West Devon, England. xxx

[@linl344]

It is wonderful that you achieved the Nursery and all the good ripples that it brought into your life and that of others. I also live in the West country and similar circumstances to you. Thank you for sharing your inspiring story.

[@aseekersjournal]

It's the simple life that grounds us, right?

[@andreiadetavora8471]

Such a sweet and inspiring comment! Thank you for sharing

[@jillychandler]

@@linl344 Thank you for your reply. xxx

[@LifewithAlegria]

Such a beautiful comment. Giving the way you did to those children certainly brings much joy.

[@mperera5965]

Your voice is a therapy for thousands of tired hearts❤ There's an incredible healing power behind those calm, peaceful words.

[@susandorward2293]

I live on top of a mountain, off grid. Different life from most. I am 71 and still seek what I call the Littles in life. I also watercolor and create many things. My goal is to help my granddaughters find the Littles in life. You are an amazing woman who is showing others a slice of life that can be a way to live. Thank you for sharing.

[@higgaroc]

The Little are as big as the whole universe sometimes 💖

[@user-ky3ph9nw2d]

Yes, and so many people don't get this mindset. Like the quote "if you can't be happy with a coffee, you won't be happy with a yacht. "

[@LineUpTheStars]

Your story about your masters' degree is so relatable. My college pushed everyone to go on to get advanced degrees. I applied for a masters program and when faced with a $70k bill for just the first year, one professor wisely encouraged me to reconsider if I really wanted to do that, and be in so much debt. Now, I'm pursuing a dream (building my own house!) I never thought was possible and it has nothing to do with society or academia's versions of "success". Thank you for sharing your story with us ♥

[@terryfeally6633]

Even the most kindest,empathic,compassionate,creative person needs an occasional lazy day in order to recharge. Often merely spending a day doing nothing at all is really truly something.

[@jodybarrass4418]

5:00..."I decided that my new dream was to heal..." I cling to these words! Thank you, thank you, Paola! ❤😇☺️

[@mazzycollins9856]

This part of the video spoke to my aching heart today, and my new dream too is to heal, for me and pursue the simple things that bring me joy.

[@LS-um3zq]

The dress, hair and flowers gave me medieval princess vibes.

[@TheCottageFairy]

you can hear my cat aggressively playing with her toy at about 3:50 😂 I forgot to edit that out, haha! Sending much love and well wishes to all of you. Hope you enjoyed the wildflowers, more to come.

[@HenrikLaurell]

just that was one of the highpoints, it made me think of our cat and the sounds she made. Miss her deeply, she left this world in 2021.

[@PeaceLOVE447]

💜💜💜

[@Don-ih4st]

Paola, I so miss the sound of a dog bark in the house! You are so lucky to be where you are and have what you have.

[@nancyelliott3653]

Please do not edit out the sounds from your pets!....it is too special! It makes everything homier...

[@Jomatsch]

I want to listen to him purring when you end your video. Perhaps an endless track...

[@demproblems]

Oh, this title hits so hard. I became everything I wanted to be, bought everything I wanted to buy (house,sport car, rolex etc.) and in the end, I feel so exhausted and tired. I feel like I was trying way too hard to achieve all these things that I forgot to enjoy them. I have $100,000 car outside my $500,000 house, but I don't seem that happy as I imagined I would be. Now, I keep asking myself "what's next?". I have 2 businesses that I am currently successfully running, however, I miss the days where I had time to simply be relaxed. Even when I'm on a vacation, I am still struggling to feel at peace and calm. Always have the pressure following me with either what I have to do, or with what I will have to do in the future. I am 28 and already exhausted, I can't work 16-18 hours a day without a vacation anymore like I used to do when I was 23-24. Perhaps everything that I wanted to achieve, in the end was the wrong thing for me. I really appreciate you sharing these thing, it makes me feel as if I am not alone thinking like that.

[@mothobiandrew974]

Dear ma'am, I'm a 36 year old man from Botswana. I'm so glad that i stumbled on one of your videos,i really appreciate the practical lessons they convey.I also love how tranquil everything looks,the house and the beautiful flowers outside and your narration.Can't wait to watch them with my wife,there are valuable lessons we can learn!Thank you.

[@MAhmed-zs2vp]

Botswana! It holds a special place in my heart although I've never visited it because of Alexander McCalls books, somehow they're absolutely perfect, somehow books of today don't have that feel...greetings from England

[@aliceduanra7539]

@@MAhmed-zs2vp I also love those books!

[@mariamadams5147]

Botswana! Wud love to visit one day. Im not too fsr away , in cape town south africa. I too am fan of mccall cmith books. U feel as if u in Botswana when reading . It seems like a lovely country to be in.

[@mothobiandrew974]

@@aliceduanra7539 thanks brur👍

[@happyrose1924]

When I have a panic attack in the middle of the night,sometimes I watch you’re video and it helps me a lot! Thank you for that.

[@dilanganichathurika5839]

Same 😊

[@thecarters4147]

Same. I'm in the middle of one right now and went searching for one of her videos right away❤❤ I can slowly feel myself calming down. Thanks so much Paola for the gift you have of bringing peace to others.

[@pinkypanchal3439]

Same❤

[@yourleisure789]

yes its the slow vibe and calm voice that helps to center us.. we can attempt to be that for ourselves!

[@joannbarrientes4996]

Me too with panic, listen to Paolo for her calmness and inspiration

[@mailematseba9819]

The burden of "Trying to find peace in achievements" Thank you for the wonderful message

[@TheAlaskaMom]

“Thou hast made us for thyself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it finds its rest in thee.” -Augustine of Hippo

[@delainnabatoon]

Yes! Only God can fill the void that so many are trying to fill, apart from Him.

[@emd5095]

Saint*

[@jl8805]

​@@delainnabatoon💯!

[@suzannejefferson7066]

I love nature, children, gentleness, but I too was empty until I discovered the Lover of My Soul and the One who created it all. A relationship with Jesus completely filled me and healed me. That was over 30 years ago. I will never be alone because He is always with me.

[@rafiarehanaahmad8792]

Wow!

[@2pie2mash]

Hey Paolo ✨ For many many years I was 'stuck in the city' , married with children, both of us worked full time, mortgage, child care fees, even taking holidays that left us exhausted, only to repeat the process the following break. I / we saw the danger signs but ultimately my wife & I separated with all the upheaval suffered by our teen children and the sadness all that brings. Entering dark times came with emptiness......on reflection that emptiness had always been there, no real fulfilment. I moved to a very rural location, once my children had reached adulthood, although it still left me wondering what direction I was aiming for. I had retired on a full pension (because of my job) yet 10+ years from state pension age.....early....... but when a job materialised at a University back in the city (London), stupidly I took it, perhaps seeking out a connection I longed for back in the city I knew as 'home'. The job was affected by the pandemic and put even more pressure on me, as a lone key essential worker where my presence was demanded on site (only going rural at weekends), yet that pressure and the demands on me were not supported and eventually broke my will. I made the best decision, to leave, and it was not respected by the one person who was supposed to be my go to person. The supportive promises, before handing in my notice, were fake, just words people say, never meant or put into practice, stupidly I put my trust in this individual, who I thought just might be different.....I was so wrong. Two years later I have decided to never return to any job, if at all, or one that demands so much where I cannot negotiate my worth to the tune of my terms and condition.... Having been on your channel for quite a while now, I am refreshed in knowing you have come through some rough times and experiences, and young enough to see the darkness and take a different path. I don't think my wife and I would have been that brave to up sticks and take the children 'off grid' , we will never know........may be we should have left that city earlier, my wife (better than saying ex), still has a high profile banking job, health issues always hang over her and only now has she realised its time to make future plans. One of my children is independent and loves the city, working 2 jobs, one is full time the other is art based (a link to her Uni BA degree). I spend my days, reading, painting, volunteering at a museum, walking along the village river, working on an 81 year old jeep, heavily into my music and I will travel back to the city for concerts........ Sorry to have gone on for so long, but I truly wish and hope that we all can see what makes our lives fulfilled, everyone has different ways of reaching their goals, hopefully seeing the signs, and making a decision to eliminate those negative pressures are obvious, and change is made.....however difficult that might be.....just go there. Stay Safe and sending you, Luke and all the pet family my Love & Best Wishes 🙏☯🌻☮🧡🌞🕊

[@PeaceIsYeshua]

@@2pie2smash, I’m glad you’ve decided to not work anymore, and I truly hope you’re able to find hobbies (and perhaps people too) that fulfill you. I pray you find deep meaning and peace in this chapter is your life. 🙏🏻

[@2pie2mash]

@Peace is Yeshua 💜✝️ Thank You 😊

[@tinaluu9810]

Blessings always on your adventures through this life.

[@margietucker1719]

​@@2pie2mash Absolutely true....Amen ❤

[@QuerkieGal]

@2pie2mash - Thank you for sharing your story. Your story sounds like others I have heard and am living myself. So many of us have blindly subscribed to the “dream” when it was possibly the wrong dream for us to begin with. Once you’re in it, you’re stuck for the duration (waiting for kids to become adults, retirement, etc.) and convince ourselves we cannot change for XYZ reasons. If money were not a factor, maybe we would have had the luxury to live our best possible life and not be afraid to live how we want. Unfortunately, this is not reality when you have people depending on you. I applaud you for living your best life now and I hope I could follow your and Paola’s success at this. Hopefully I can live beyond putting my kids through college and taking care of an aging parent to be able to live my life with more peace, working at a small job I love and living simply, lovingly and happily. All the best to you!

[@nerd26373]

It's a blessing to have you on this platform. You've shown us that it is better to live more simply.

[@erinlee7216]

Amen amen!

[@peggybaggenstoss3817]

Your dress is beautiful… I love the wildflowers also. Enjoy your family time. Hugs and Love from Arkansas

[@anthonyw2931]

so true!

[@lanaheroin623]

Yes!!

[@abbyechevarria5322]

Thank you for sharing your video. Very nice.👍😊❤️

[@maddyharvey7414]

You are a light in the social media world 🧝‍♀️🦋

[@donnakam3176]

so true

[@Songe467]

I am going through this at the moment. I grew up in a house full of stuff but no one was happy. I was taught to pursue career, relationship, house, family. At 40 I had a partner, a job, a house and was deeply, deeply unhappy. I reached the point where I simply walked away from all of it. I am still learning and figuring out what does bring me the happiness I need in life but letting go of idea of who I should be has certainly helped a lot.

[@Weeks-jc2fw]

❤❤❤ I connected immediately with the title of this video. I'm 58, in good health, financially secure, content, and have never felt so alone in my life. Much of the family and friends I grew to love, have either passed on or moved away, and those that are still around, I find myself more distant with every day. I'm not sure if I've changed or if they changed but something has changed. There must be more to life after you have met all your goals and look to find a new path to bring joy and fulfillment. The next challenge or adventure is out there. Its just coming slower than I've ever experienced.

[@trelainamobley6254]

Hang in there 1000 weeks! And if you’re able try to find somewhere to serve. Serving others is a true way to feel good inside! ❤️

[@victoriaabbott4544]

I feel you 🤗❤️

[@christinenguyen2747]

Seek Jesus and he will be your best friend who will always know, understand, and help you.

[@smp6441]

Try reading the Bible it might surprise you

[@lousialb8962]

I will not give you any specific suggestions, but I will affirm that you are not alone in the experience you described. It is the case for many of us who have realized that chasing (and perhaps even getting) the carrots this world dangles does not result in peace, happiness, or contentment. As stated in the video, those are found within, and will be unique to each of us. It's a challenge to find that path (because that's also unique to each of us, no one else's "recipe" is going to be quite it). Perhaps just wanting to find it, accepting that we haven't yet, and feeling and healing the associated emotions is all we can and need do?

[@gottfriedosterbach3907]

I am an introvert who grew up a mentally ill narcissist father. I spent my childhood and early adult years in survival mode with low self esteem and feeling rejected. It is too complicated to talk about briefly, however my experience with struggling immaturely to find pride and a sense of self worth has taught me a lot I believe. There idea of if I only had.... is a flawed one. As is the idea that I could reach where I wanted without assistance. I don't mind being eccentric one bit, but I was coming from a place with no real idea of what the normal base really is. It is a process of non linear development that doesn't always benefit by extremes. Being defined by the eccentricities doesn't fill in the sense of emptiness. In some ways it only reinforces it where life feels like acting in a play or a facade. The truth is that the beauty of a damaged person is muddled with their flaws and deficits. Over time with growth hopefully eccentricity and passions in life become more of an extension of the core and less of an attempt at distraction, trying to create a world we want to live in, and attempts at self soothing which was true in my case perhaps even still more than I would prefer. My apologies for the unsolicited commentary, but this is a bit of my personal perspective and experience. You are a beautiful person of worth and I have ever bit of confidence that you will believe that more and more over time.

[@RavenDreamer]

Paola, I started reading this delightful book called 'The Dictionary of Obsecure Sorrows' and I wanted to share this part from the introduction that I think you'll also resonate with '... The word sadness originally meant "fullness", from the same Latin root, satis, that also gave us sated and satisfaction. Not so long ago, to be sad meant you were filled to the brim with some intensity of experience.' 🍀

[@karinturkington2455]

Wow! That's beautiful.

[@aseekersjournal]

Former Latin student here. Can confirm ;).

[@returnoftheromans6726]

They say sorrow is greater than laughter. I embrace sorrow; something that a lot of people don't, can't, or won't do. It is akin to happiness, or joy; I can feel both so intensely. But unlike happiness that fades, sorrow leaves you feeling refreshed and renewed, like a good downpour on the parched earth.

[@RavenDreamer]

@@darleneengebretsen1468 "What is grief, if not love persevering?" Take care of yourself love 💚

[@dwarkeshwardutt3929]

Wow!!! I came to know about this book through one of her videos. I felt so relieved that I am not the only one with these obscure existential feelings. I felt that someone understands me. I would never have known about the book if not for your channel.

[@CalledLissy]

“You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it rests in you.” - St. Augustine ♥

[@annaz6911]

Beautiful ❤

[@carolynwaskovich7614]

Thank you. God Bless You! I'm in Naples, FL. I lived in Daytona from 1983-1991. I LOVE St Augustine!

[@albikapllani2119]

That is it. 100%. Thank you. I was just thinking exactly that as I was watching and listening to her video.

[@kaylalopes2899]

amen

[@g10t10]

Yes

[@aseekersjournal]

I felt this disconnect with my academic achievements a lot before I quit everything and started my videography business. I guess when we're younger we don't fully understand the concept of meaningfulness. I vividly remember how I always thought the most successful people must be the happiest, so that's what I wanted to be. It didn't occurr to me until my late twenties that being good at something doesn't mean you're leading a fulfilled life. I'm definitely making very different decisions now.

[@lc5666]

There are so many things like this, too, where we may have heard the words a million times but until we live it, it doesn't soak in all the way to our bones. I honestly love growing older (in my 40s now) and understanding more of those types of things.

[@Mutsa_c]

this right here.....definitely one thing l wish l had known before turning 25....

[@Lunay08]

Hey Paola, I just wanted to thank you for sharing you're story. My story is a lot like yours. I live in New York, and as an HSP and a soft soul, I find the city to be incredibly loud for my being, and it does not suit me. My dream, I should say my reason for waking up every day previously, was to someday move somewhere near nature, somewhere quite, where I could watch the clouds, hear the birds chirping, smell the flowers each and every day. The idea consumed me, and the fact that I wasn't there made every single day simply unbearable, and my depression only sky rocketed. Early last year, I came across your channel, amongst Taoism, Buddhism, and Stoic philosophy, and it made me start looking into why I was so unhappy here. It wasn't the city that made me unhappy, but my own perception of it. I was romanticizing the idea of leaving it all behind and starting somewhere that I knew would nurture my soul more than the city would, and I realized that to find joy and contentment, it had to start with me. I still live in New York, but I see it a bit differently now. I still look at the clouds, listen to the birds chirp, and watch the flowers bloom, I just refused to see all of these wonderful things because they were not in the environment I desperately wanted. I am still not a city person, and I am hoping that one day, I am able to leave, but instead of focusing on what I don't have, I instead now, focus on what I do, and it's made me SO much happier

[@JuLeZ274]

Omg, This is exactly me! Just instead of NY, it’s Berlin.. Thank you so much for posting this!

[@gogogolyra1340]

Go for rural if ur an HSP.

[@justsomegirlwithamoustache]

Thats funny because i always dreamed of the "city life" to live in NYC ofcoarse i still appreciate my hometown rn but im still working towards going to move there someday. I'm scared, i dont know if i can do it but im gonna chase my dreams while also appreciating what i have in the moment

[@corinnegrima3096]

As a mum of two small kids and living with a very negative-minded mother-in-law I was on the verge of losing myself. I had everything I wanted in terms of family. However I felt empty and unfulfilled. After suffering from postnatal depression with the birth of my son last year, I knew I needed to turn myself around. The first thing I did is that I forgave myself for all the mistakes I've done in the past and realized that I only made them because I was human. Then I strived to be a better person every day, not just for my own sanity but even for the sake of those around me. In all my years, this was the first time when I felt I could say I'm feeling fine today. It may not change the whole world around me, but it changed my whole life. Thank you for making me realize that I am not alone in this. I really relate to what you went through and proud for both of us for making such a huge improvement for our mental well-being. I just love your videos. They are so inspiring. Much love ❤❤

[@MyCygnusX1]

Instead of running towards my dreams, I run from suffering. This is how I've been orienting myself for a long time and is similar to what you describe. "Maybe if I can escape this painful situation" "maybe if I turn away from cruelty". I'm not sure how to stop, but this way of life is not working

[@user-jb4oc5qj2y]

Paola,we all love you,our sunny girl.

[@emmebelier]

OMG I'm sobbing. You have no idea how much this video resonated with my current situation. Thank you. Love from Argentina.

[@teresawilliams1396]

Me😢

[@SeaTurtle515]

Not only to live more simply but to live more intentionally, with the goal of peace. 🌿

[@mollykenney3730]

"Simply trying to be kinder, sitting with myself. Growing a feeling that is somewhere between fleeting joy and sadness. A sort of quiet peace and contentment with who I am." Those are profound words. Literally an hour before I watched this I was thinking, "I need to be less critical of myself." Thank you, Paola, for the reminder.

[@magicdreamer8874]

Hi, Paola. I am a scholar, and I know how difficult it is to remain a sensitive, childish and authentic soul in a tough and snobbish academic world. I manage to remain myself, but it is very difficult. You are such a beautiful soul! You have such a wonderful house. The dresses are adorable, this style is just for you, so feminine and graceful. My cat also starts to play at 4 am every single morning😊😊😊🥰Lots of love to you!!!!

[@Ellary_Rosewood]

This video made me feel many things. I've been working so hard trying to attain my "dream life", with knowing full well that even if I achieve all of my goals and live in the cottage of my dreams, nothing will make me feel fully happy and at peace more than my own mind. Right now, I'm going through a low point and it's been very difficult. I haven't been able to get myself to film and edit a new video for my channel in a few months because of this and I'm constantly beating myself up about it. However, the other day I went for a long walk along a trail close by my apartment. I left my phone at home and sat in the grass, surrounded by trees and just... was. The sound of the birds and the wind on my face was all that I needed to feel fully present and at peace in that moment. It's so important to remember this, and it's almost a sort of superpower to be able to change your mindset. To be grateful for the little things around you, even if it's just the way the sun is hitting a certain tree, making it glow. I wish you all the peace in the world! You bring so much joy into the world. ❤ Also, where did you get those two dresses? They are gorgeous!

[@SweetKonekoCat]

She put a link in the description for the 2 dresses❤️

[@Ellary_Rosewood]

@@SweetKonekoCat Ah I looked for it there, must have missed it. Thanks!

[@kassandra8010]

Just checked out your channel and love your videos, your way of filming and your artwork :) I know it doesn't necessarily help with those low points, but just wanted to let you know... don't beat yourself up too much, it happens to all of us, and you are not alone

[@Ellary_Rosewood]

@@kassandra8010 Awww you are too kind! Your words really mean so much to me, thank you. 🥰❤️

[@troisangroi115]

I get you, a little... Some people say philosophy thought to me that do not depend on external world but after 6 months I volunteer in a farm where I can listen to nature and a 10-days Vipassana meditation in a pagoda, I feel it's differently. External world matters too. Till now, I'm come back home but always feel it's very uncomfortable to live in the city for a long time. Time to make money and get a land my own...

[@beregarcia8655]

Something I learn is that having goals and dreams is great. But you should not lose yourself in the process and enjoy the moment that you are living. Because you won't ever enjoy anything even when you get to your goal or dream/home. Loving the moment even if it's just a cup of tea or a walk or books to read. 😊 it helped me come to a certain peace and calmness that I did not have. Its a I'm enough this is enough this is beautiful.

[@mabella3437]

Put God in the center of your life and you shall never feel empty. God bless all the viewers!

[@The_Wandering_Nook]

It's interesting how even when you get so good at something, it doesn't necassarily mean it makes you the happiest. Others will praise you for how good you are but when there's an inner lack of connection with yourself it's just different.

[@Sparkoflight013]

So I woke up this morning filled with gratitude as I write this. Honestly almost in tears. Coming out of my darker days.. I found your channel somehow when I was experiencing major depression this past year or two, putting myself out there yes. Only to say, your videos saved me (were a huge part of my healing process).. Your existence is simply a gift. I’m older than you but your wisdom is profound. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 😭♥️

[@inezy6329]

I watch Dr Berg n he mentioned that depression is a sign of Vitamin D deficiency.

[@barbaracurtis1398]

@@inezy6329 I did not know that, thank you :-)

[@CourtneyShumpert]

What a beautiful video! I absolutely believe that lasting purpose, fulfillment, and peace have to come from within and not hinge on external validation. I'm a Christian, so I find that purpose and peace in serving God. He's my inner light. And you're right, no life is ordinary when you realize that we've all got an internal purpose that matters and we've all got a unique soul and spirit.❤

[@yourleisure789]

yes i agree

[@PeaceIsYeshua]

@@Courtney, amen. A relationship with Jesus is where true peace is found. I’m so thankful I have that too! 🙏🏻

[@rutheli]

Same ❤

[@lindasteinbrenner8065]

I will join you ladies and am in total agreement with the original comment. ❤

[@Peonies925]

AMEN!🙌🏻

[@encouragingwife5939]

Love this! For me that peace and contentment for my soul comes from the Lord and my relationship with Jesus Christ 🙏 May all of you find peace in the season you are in!

[@bradrushing5959]

" Salvation is found in no one else..." Acts 14:12 ~ Heather ~

[@ajayb888]

I hope you have a wonderful life 💗💕💗💕💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💒🇸🇦🫂

[@hberrysc3517]

Thank you for this truth. Christ is this truth for me.

[@kate481]

Thanks for this Paola! I am going through this now. I was a teacher for 11 years and had to stop because of the stress. I have always been searching for that *something* and realized it wasn't in the work I was doing. I am on a different path now filled with gardens, plants, herbs, food, medicine, permaculture, and lots of unknowns. After dealing with some recent traumas that unearthed old traumas, all these changes are like a big catalyst that are pushing me toward something better and brighter. I feel these struggles, hopes, fears, joys, and healing reflected in your stories and videos too. It is often isolating to be on this sort of journey, so it feels good to hear what you have to say too. Cheers

[@aseekersjournal]

Beautifully said! Relating to this as a former teaching trainee.

[@charjennable]

Thank you for sharing! I can relate so closely. You’re never alone ❤

[@v.m.8472]

I became very sick from the stress of teaching as well. Now the only expectations I accept are my own for the day. I am gardening as well and just got three chicks!

[@clau-py5zb]

Same to me.❤

[@jillychandler]

I agree with all that you said Kate. xxx

[@mariacarrillo399]

Paola you have no idea what an impact you are making via You tube . ❤️🙏 I am a teacher and I am debating whether to get out of this career after over 20 years . I’m miserable , due to the adults , admin and parents that disrespect and try to destroy my spirit . I am a sensitive soul like you and love children . But this career has become toxic to my spirit . I wish I could live a more spiritual life and put myself first . But I live in California which is expensive. 😒 Know that your videos are reminding me that a job or title doesn’t define you ! It’s the beautiful gifts inside that God has put in each of us . I wish I had a beautiful friend like you to talk to and remind me that it’s all going to work itself out in time . I am existing at the time , but not living like you are . Keep posting your videos , they are very inspiring . Self love is soooo important. 🥰❤️🙏

[@danherrick5785]

When you meet the adults - just put out your hand and say "speak to the hand" - then just walk away...

[@rafiarehanaahmad8792]

Same! Loved the kids but was pushed out by the adults’ insistence that all the joy, wonder and love be sucked out of teaching.

[@catherinegosey1234]

Ernest and Celestine! I love that movie! 😍 And your red dress is quite lovely 😊 I find peace in knowing that God has a good plan for my life and I can trust him even when I fall and make mistakes or get distracted by things that don't truly fulfill. And in knowing that this dark world is only a small and passing thing - like your abundant flowers after winter! One of my favorite Bible verses is Psalm 139:11-12. I pray you come to trust him too. ❤

[@bradrushing5959]

Beautiful! Amen ~ Heather ~

[@winterArtist]

I just had an anxiety episode. I just spent the last hour connecting with my God and listening to my more spiritual side. I love watching your videos because you're one of the few people I know who understands life has a spiritual component. After an hour with God, and these 13 minutes with you, I feel a lot calmer. Thank you for making this channel- it's helped me rethink the way I approach life and consider what peace may look like.

[@AngelaDeBartolo]

My husband was listening as I watched this and he said your voice is so soothing and calming! Much love to you and your family.

[@janettejack7721]

Yes, my boyfriend had heard her voice, from my phone and he also said her voice is so calming

[@vedawattieram1974]

Agree!😊

[@yhwh3924]

You can achieve everything you want that makes you happy but a joyous and peaceful heart you won't get it in those things but only in God😊 the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding we will have if we live by the word of God♥️

[@laurakoby806]

This is the most wholesome comment section I have ever seen on a KZbin video.

[@moricey4776]

You have done everything you want to do, Knowing and excepting Jesus Christ will set you free! That’s when I never felt lonely ever again no matter what happened to me. ❤

[@SereiaSagrada]

This is it 100%

[@user-or1ye3iz6d]

SPOT ON 🎯❤️🙏🙌

[@user-or1ye3iz6d]

Jesus is the missing piece. We all need Him to fill that void that we all experience. ❤

[@cassandra2685]

Dear Fairy Your videos are wonderful I left a high world traveling job during the pandemic, a job that brought so much stress to my body. I now live in a village where life appears surreal. A dream life is not filled with things, it’s a daily approach done deliberately minute by minute. At the moment stillness is what brings me joy, not “being” what everyone else is doing. Thank you for sharing all the beautiful images.

[@Loti-gr7bc]

Ditto regarding the "stillness....and finding a village as well. :-)

[@aseekersjournal]

@@Loti-gr7bc Yes! Small village life is what most people need, I think. They just don't know it yet.

[@Jims-VanLife]

What you need is a strong man to take you in his arms and make you feel full inside.

[@XennaC]

Sometimes we work so hard to get to a place or with people to just feel more lost when we get there. I would rather travel and know I’m lost than feel lost in the same place around the same people.

[@moonstone-mama]

You said that it's during our darkest hours when we are most ready to become who we really are, and I feel that's true for my story too. I have a history of addiction in my family and personal relationships. While I've never struggled with addiction myself, I have had people in my life who kept me small and ignorant. I've been used as a crutch to lean on, and there've been encounters that have absolutely terrified me. I'm now renting a room in a place that I love. I'm making my own health, happiness, and well being a priority. I am setting my own goals. I'm working towards a future that aligns with my authentic self, and my personal values. I was at my lowest, and that gave me the courage to say: I've had enough. Looking back, I feel it was a simple choice to make. You leave, or you die; not in a physical sense, but a death of the soul. Either way... I had nothing left to lose, and nothing left to stay for. It felt strangely liberating.

[@GrowingonVancouverIsland]

The red dress is absolutely beautiful. Your videos always bring a sense of light, peace and calm. I agree there can be light in darkness but it's often very difficult to see when your still in the dark

[@adrianabustamante2860]

A veces, la oscuridad es más pesada cuando es reciente. A veces, también , el tiempo ayuda a que se decante y las cosas fluyan y encuentren un camino 🤍

[@penny6254]

The red dress is sooo beautiful!

[@aliventhriven7783]

@@adrianabustamante2860 try yuu😅

[@maverick2222]

It must feel that way to be a seed in the dark soil, longing for the light. When the seed in you comes to maturity, and you burst forth into the light of day, all the time spent in darkness will be forgotten.

[@spacegal2374]

Beautiful dress! Looks like it's from Son de Flor

[@kristie5981]

I have had many many trials in this nearly 55 years. I could NOT have made it without a true relationship, seeking the calm, presence of Jesus in my daily life. HE is the ONLY thing to give you true peace, comfort, calm and assurance in this life.

[@wendya5887]

God is peace, this is the source of this world. Yes, many have to seek to find it. They may put in their words of spirituality into it, but fail to really encounter God. May those that read this, seek the truth which is God. We are all on a journey. 🙏

[@carolynsmith5371]

So timely for me. A health crisis forced me to reassess my whole lifestyle and living location. 4years later I’m largely well and my life is wonderful but lately i have been feeling empty. This video has helped me by guiding me to continue to focus on spirituality 🙏💙🦋

[@kennethahlstrom7686]

The journey of my life to find true peace and contentment led me to one conclusion. Only a personal relationship with Jesus could give me the peace, love, hope and forgiveness for which I was searching.

[@roos7222]

I have the same feeling that I put high goals and pressure on me. I want to have the best job for me after I graduate. But I also don't want to work my ass off all of my life. I only want to be happy.. it's finding work that doesn't feel like work, but in my opinion it will always feel like work in some kind of a way. Why do we all need to have such big goals.. It can not (always) be healthy.

[@chrisoulalakkas7935]

Enjoy every moment you have. Because in life, there are no rewinds, only flashbacks. Make sure it's all worth it.

[@etherealgirl394]

I feel you. I always wanted to become a writer and when I finally published a book I was euphoric, I thought that from now on everything would be easy... but I didn't sell many books, only some of my family members and friends bought it and suddenly that happiness was overshadow by a sense of failure. I did all by myself: the correction, the editing, the cover illustration... I for sure was too hard on myself, it was the first novel by an unknown author on Amazon, what did I expect? I guess I placed my own personal worth on success and sales... I've published two other books now and even though the last one didn't do that good I'm slowly learning to appreciate the fact that I'm able to create these characters and stories that make me so happy and that I should do this because I love literature... some readers have even told me that my characters helped them with their anxiety and that makes me ten times happier that I can help others. of course I need the money to live, but I'll find another job that can give me some stability while I still write. If I don't become a famous writer, that's ok, because I'm still going to write forever regardless, because it's what I love the most along with drawing. I'll be ok. Thank you for this perspective! Sometimes we just need to stop and change the environment to bloom.

[@tammyroyal7547]

Garth Brooks's song came to mind as I watched this video- Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers...take care sweet fairy 💚

[@Miriam_Anna]

your house looks like it's right out of a beautiful fairytale

[@bronwynbear5931]

-finding peace within myself will help me enjoy life more flowers grow after the winter Thank you ❤

[@saradabretema]

Oh Paola, I have teary eyes after watching this video. I relate so much to everything you say! It feels like finally finding a kindred spirit that perceives the world in a very similar way to me. I've always been trying to find joy in my achievements as well, even though what I was really doing was hiding a very low self-esteem and quelling my own inner critic. I've always been a very good student, I got excellent grades at school, high-school and university, which actually lead me to very serious mental health problems. After that, I decided to focus on my new dream (which was actually always there, hidden, silent and buried beneath fears and insecurity), and that was achieving something through art (photography, painting, music...). Once again, I ended up being burnt out and quite disappointed because, apparently, I didn't achieve anything. On top of that, it also lead me to feeling very disconnected from my own art; the things I initially enjoyed gave me no pleasure anymore, and that felt outrageous, as if someone had stolen an essential part of my being. At the moment I'm working on letting go that dream (or obsession) of being recognized as 'someone successful' by achieving something though art. I still want to create art and be creative because it can actually bring me so much joy, peace and contentment and it's an essential part of who I am. However, I know that to fully enjoy my art and find that sense of permanent peace and joy, I need to release myself from the unbearable weight of having to be successful at it. And I'm also trying to connect with my spirituality, which makes me feel like I belong in this world and that I don't need anything to be happy, just exist. Thank you endlessly for sharing your wisdom and kindness with us and for letting us connect to your beautiful spirit. I'm sending you so much love :)

[@willallwayslovemusic]

Such an important message! I lost every future plan i thought was gonna make me happy, i Got a blood clot in my arm. Was gonna go to the art academy, this year. But is so stressed i had to cancle the School i was gonna go to. And Can now only do very limit amount of stuff. The hard times forces you to prioritize whats most important, what doesn’t work needs to go, to heal. It Can be such a hard process. I’m in it right now, i’m so scared ill never get a relationship, more friends or Education and i’m 30, but i’ve been happy without relationship and Education. Just by having things in life i can’t wait to go to. And yes, i’ve been very sick but still found that inner peace. Dont know really why i say all this. I needed this video and i Can relate!

[@camilleandpaul8378]

Omg you are both so cute... the sparkle when he looks at you is so beautiful ❤ Mom and Grandmum are just lovely ❤❤

[@tatjana_t]

It is true that happiness and love towards yourself should not be dependent on anything...

[@jannybranciforte9295]

Thank you Paola for reminding us of who we are, in our quietest being, without the adornments of exterior facades. In this sacred place, that you so gracefully invite us to live and breathe, we can all come together, relaxed, whole and belonging, just because we are alive and present in this beautiful world of self acceptance.

[@janeymorris1273]

You are so lovely 🎉Your channel has helped me to accept myself daily. I am nearly 60 and look over my life and it is so easy to critique. I am learning to be be at peace with my past and generate a different life more nourishing and less stressful 🎉

[@jeffreybishop9478]

Once again you have implanted words of wisdom to many. 🙏

[@transcender9203]

You could and should be a model for those dresses! They are beautiful and whimsical like you. ❤️🧚‍♂️💐

[@jukes243]

There is a God sized hole in our hearts that only He can fill. Thank you, Paola. The red dress looks lovely on you.

[@KathleenRenninger]

It takes some of us nearly a lifetime to come to the understanding that you have. We are not our accomplishments; they are not at the core of our true worth. Thank you for sharing these words of wisdom.

[@kennethcumporal9375]

I will always go back and visit your channel and these beautiful souls in the comment section.

[@edithhardy5759]

Peace is a treasure, health is wealth. You seem to have both. Stay true.

[@catherinejustcatherine1778]

How delightful to have a cat who greets you so nicely when you come home!

[@rachelina97]

I really needed to hear this. Your every word speaks to me and where I am now. Off to get that college degree to fulfill something I only chased from a wounded place. I do love what I learn, yet know I can just buy the book and be happy without going through the classes and getting the degree. I’m ready to go somewhere that feels slow and calming (such as a small town surrounded by nature rather than city lights). All I crave is to have a sanctuary within myself. That is my #1 goal to focus on.

[@joni3503]

Your paintings are nice. Many people are searching for bliss, and fulfillment 24/7. It's good to realise that it is not necessary to always feel happy, and it is not what God wants from us either. Moments of sadness, emptiness and pain are valuable, if you know how to deal with them. It's not that we are doing something wrong. They are not a sign that we are not "complete" or "holy" or whatever we want to be. They are simply a call to prayer, and inner reflection.

[@angelanice]

I'm still actively trying to find that light within myself. Previously I was only happy with others, making them happy then relying on my empathy to feel their happiness. The first thing I discovered where I feel random moments of happiness, whether I was with people or not, is trees ❤ I was very grateful to be gifted a small plot of forested land and I'm looking forward to living among the trees and slowly building a tiny cottage nestled in them. I hope to continue to find sources of happiness as I start this new part of my journey.

[@Iktekenkatjes]

Beautiful video 💖 It really made me think about my own goals and my expectations. I keep thinking I will feel happier when I get a good job, find my own place, get a masters degree, move to another country... But hearing you talk about your journey, and still struggling now that you have ''everything you wanted'', makes me feel different about my life, in a good and hopeful way. It reminded me that even the best goals will not guarantee hapiness, so it's important to try to be happy now instead of waiting for a better future. That future will hopefully come for all of us but it's such a waste to be sad while we're waiting. Thanks for all the insights✨

[@jessicalatorraca8507]

Well said 😌💞

[@FreeSpirit1962]

I just love listening to your videos. I’m 60 now and it took me soooo much longer than you to figure out that happiness is an inside job and I needed to reconnect to some form of spirituality and also service to others to feel peaceful. I’m so glad you’ve learned these things at such a young age and are sharing with others. 😊

[@aminahalai4605]

You can't wait until life isn't hard anymore before you decide to be happy:)

[@matttorrence2900]

Hey, it's little red riding hood! Watch out for wolves!

[@abhishekkukreti3409]

Hi, fairy I just wanna say that you're living style , you're life experiences, your voice with piano sound makes me feel so calm........ Thank you for sharing this with us..

[@LouiseAdie-zm2jf]

Your new linen dresses are beautiful. I'm trusting someone very special made them for you. They fit like a dream. You're a blessing to us all. I take deep inspiration from you, even at 73.

[@jaredmathews2983]

You're one of the fortunate ones. Most don't discover that everything temporal is not who they are, and they spend there lives trying to convince themselves that they are something they are not, which of course is a fools errand.

[@pavankukreja6554]

Sending you much luv too. God Bless💖🙏

[@Native-Kitty]

Watching you have a full on conversation with your cat and the dog also responding was hilarious 😅😅😅❤❤❤

[@marylatorre9517]

There is so much meaning to be found in Christ. He is the Answer to all of life's questions. I love Him! John is a great book to start learning about His character.

[@mbftypebeat6129]

beautiful, smart, and emotionally sound.... you're the type of person people strive to be, and be around. Keep living the way you want, you're doing great things for yourself and the world. Take care :)

[@jonigarciajg]

You have something deeper to offer the world. Just by being you, the you that notices the takes the time to embrace the wonderful moments the days provide. You inspire us to connect with our real selves and with our world around us.

[@authoremilyjosephine]

Most everyone's dreams and goals change drastically from their late teens/early 20s. Kudos, Paola, that yours changed in the right direction. 🙂❤

[@susanmary4752]

I remember clearly after 9/11 questioning my place in the world, was I doing what I should be, who am I etc. I went to a 5 day Holistic Nursing retreat ( I am now a retired ICU nurse, 41 years of nursing) and it totally turned my life around. Not as much from a nursing standpoint but from an energetic/spiritual place. It opened my eyes and heart to a stirring that was dwelling deep down inside and now was free. It has lead me on a path of pure light and love. No more stress and a much more comfort level now with who I AM. Thanks for this video.

[@tinaluu9810]

God bless you beautiful. Thank you for your service to others.

[@funshine817]

I think I am unique, in that I have never felt the need to do or be anything. 🤣 I have always been ok with not being happy....in fact, feeling happy seems weird, to me! I mostly have been a seeker of God, and I finally found Him. My searching came to an end, which, now that I think about it, WAS acheiving a goal, and now I just quietly live my life as simply as possible with a peace that can only come from within. Hope and my faith got me through all the tough times, and there have been MANY. I have a 30 year old son, and have been married to my second husband for 21 years. Life, here on earth, is temporary, and I look forward to the day I go Home. 💖 God Bless You All

[@ireallyamjomarch]

Another linen company with dresses, skirts, blouses etc. is Pyne and Smith. I have one dress from them and it’s so beautiful and has pockets 😊

[@gatetohell9260]

Well… I found your channel just a few days ago, and you’re already helping me so much! I have a very big problem with hating myself, and having low self esteem, and I’ve been this way ever since I was a child, so it’s been hard to recognise it as a problem in the first place, since it was so natural for me. But I already feel myself healing, I’m trying to be kind to myself and my body, and part of that comes from your videos (and book). So thank you! And keep being you ❤

[@madelinebell84]

I just wanted to say that I was at a similar place about a year ago when I stumbled upon this channel, though I now believe that it wasn't by chance. Slowly but surely, listening to Paola's wisdom and honesty had me looking at myself and my life differently. I can honestly say that it literally saved my life. I know from reading the experiences of others that I'm by no means alone in this! So stick around, and I hope that you can find the road to healing that many of us have found. You're valuable. You matter. And you're enough. 💝

[@vickiethompson3859]

I really needed to hear this today. Thank you. I was severely attacked and have been in survival mode on every level. I am mostly alone except for my beloved four legged family. my intention is for peace and healing, while being told by the system my value is in my injuries. Your light shines bright!

[@chinazoucheaga4825]

The highest form of pleasure for me is my relationship with God through Jesus. Thanks to Him, I don't live for myself cause it will never satisfy me. I was made to bring God glory.

[@MikkosCassadine]

I love your linen dresses! Watching your videos really relax me. Thumbs up!