I Can't Stand Myself - Subaru Speech: Japanese/English Sub [Re: Zero]

This is a part of Subaru's (mental breakdown) conversation with Rem, with subtitles in English and Japanese.
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Anime: Re:Zero − Starting Life in Another World
Season: 1
Episode: 18
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[@kaitohill]

Man, Yusuke Kobayashi is so good at voicing Subaru

[@RepostCoast]

I agree, he coveys the emotions so well!

[@yurio4804]

He does everything so well

[@Narabee]

Ms kobayashi 🤨

[@kaitohill]

@@Narabee No, Yusuke Kobayashi is Subaru's VA's name

[@TNisLegend]

honestly it’s hard to believe there is just a guy behind the mic saying all this after a script he makes it all feel so geniune and alive

[@wittycomment]

That delivery gets me every time.

[@RepostCoast]

Same😢

[@alieosharp3083]

Then after this he gets the pep talk of his life and almost singlehandedly devises a strategy to demolish obstacles no one in four hundred years had been able to overcome, not even some of the most powerful characters in lore were able to. We all need a Rem in our lives dab nabbit.

[@RenderingUser]

It's not like the pep talk completely fixed him up either He went from one toxic mindset to another, slightly less toxic mindset Just adds to the depth of his character

[@generalgarchomp333]

@@RenderingUser Baby steps.

[@RenderingUser]

@@generalgarchomp333 exactly

[@Rollerbear712]

"Who's Rem?" incoming

[@Rollerbear712]

@@RenderingUser Absolutely; him getting a reinhardt personality after 1 pep talk would have utterly ruined this fantastic episode and show. The amount of shit he went through can only be coped. In his case he with words from Rem decided to cope by striving to become a hero and save Emilia and her camp. Still better than just saying idgaf and trying to find a living in that unpeaceful world without the help of others and try to find a way home by himself. Return by death is his only power after all.

[@wymg4480]

"I did nothing" that line was delivered so perfectly...god bless the va for this epic speech that only solidified subaru as my favorite character in this show. That line cut so deep

[@Samed97]

the voice actor from subaru is amazing

[@xyouthe]

as revolting it can be to hear subaru's gut wrenching screams, the voice actor does a phenomenal job portraying a character who is on the verge of losing himself and his sanity. subaru has tip-toed the line between sanity and insanity one too many times and it really shows

[@thebloodgod248]

You know what,s the most pain full part is it that you can relate to his word,s!

[@RepostCoast]

It does hit you right in the feels

[@thoticcusprime9309]

Not me

[@monkeyeknom527]

@@thoticcusprime9309 Good for you? Want a gold medal for that?

[@EmperorPylades]

If you can relate to Subaru like that, its a warning from the universe: fix yourself or end yourself. Subarus are like Nazis: the existence of even a single one makes the world a immeasurably worse place.

[@Memesoon309]

@@monkeyeknom527 It hurts doesn't it ?

[@nazarethmacabinguil2613]

Subaru is a human .... a person who has different types of personality.. he laughs he cries, he boast himself to others, he loves,he is hrny, he is not dense, he gives up he despair he's a hardworker, he is talented, he has somethings he cant do, ... same as every human... its because we are human

[@wawa6711]

People hate him because of how realistically human he is. I love his character.

[@StarWarsExpert_]

well said!

[@paigemage6653]

Honestly, this speech was what sold me on Subaru as a character. The voice acting was so raw, and the words hit really close to home for me, personally.

[@cesarrex99]

This is why this is my favorite story, because I can relate with the protagonist.

[@lordpvt]

same

[@gangrenousgandalf2102]

See isekai writers, THIS is how you write an Otaku protagonist!

[@itsalmostfun8567]

@@gangrenousgandalf2102 Well yes not being OP being OP is so expected it becomes boring

[@cesarrex99]

@@itsalmostfun8567 That's why I don't like Mushoku Tensei, literally a virgin shit that gets overpowered because it's the main character

[@reno9571]

@@cesarrex99 which is why I dun get why ppl like that shit

[@anova5237]

A human with his actual power of not giving up while being at the deepest pit. You are truly amazing guy Natsuki Subaru.

[@goddragon8637]

The most painful words are not the ones that reflect your heart or the truth... _they're the words that reflect the brutal crushing reality that you delude yourself into believing it's not..._ 😕

[@Alexbychafa]

4:51 This part truly makes me feel horrible

[@dynamight1818]

This is a fun way to practice my Japanese reading. Thank you 😊

[@RepostCoast]

Glad you find it helpful!

[@drake445real]

when my mom says something is very honorable about me i turn to subaru, he has the best lines for this stuff.

[@o.m.a.r3311]

This speech was so unforgettable & heart breaking, it made me think of 1 anime that might've inspired Re:0 & what anime it inspired to exist in return. It made me want to rewatch a specific ep of Gurren Lagann & read Undead Unluck. There you go. Please finish Re:0 before starting or reading UU. You will not regret it.

[@Kripzzz-]

This scene instantly made rezero my favorite anime to date .Never seen a moment like this in anime before. So dam emotional

[@imaperson813]

The voice acting, the music, the delivery of the message, everything was perfect

[@Idk_2939]

Thank you really, I'm right now passing a rough moment and I feel really useless, I'm only someone who talks about herself so much when I really can't do a single thing alone, i always need the the help of others, but then I just bring them trouble and trouble, I'm just a burden, i don't know why was i born into this world when I can't use myself in a positive and useful way, I'm just someone who doesn't deserve to stand or to live, I'm just a nobody...

[@jazu6805]

Hi there, I don't know your current life and how are doing but I hope you will find the right happiness one day. None of us are worthless, we each can bring something to benefit this world even if it's only a little thing. A random person on the internet won't do much but I pray that you will find the correct outlet and purpose in life. Don't belittle yourself. Asking for help is not a weakness. Move forward and don't let the past define you.

[@Idk_2939]

@@jazu6805 I always used to think that telling your sad things to strangers is always better than telling it to someone you know, so I'm thankful to you, maybe one day I'll find happiness, right now I just need to wait, that's my new way of thinking thanks to you. So thank you!

[@koneeche]

Everybody eventually finds their way, stranger. This series spoke to me on a level that none other had even come close to, and it was enough to convince me that I was not alone in my struggles. Hopefully you find the same solace soon. P.S: Season 3 is coming

[@Takhrod]

skill issue

[@pineapple8934]

​@@Takhrodunfunny

[@dreamEnd]

Such a powerful scene. The whole buildup from EP13 with Subaru being an absolute moron really adds to this speech.

[@xyouthe]

its even crazier when you realize that the entirety of seasons 1 and 2 were meant almost solely to fix subaru's rotten character. the real story of rezero hasnt even begun yet. i think that speaks volumes for what this series has to offer. theres a reason why in 2 seasons subaru has barely gotten any useful power-ups of any kind. season 3 is going to be insane, mark my words

[@displaynamesup4345]

@@xyouthe no. only season 1 was the way of preparing Subaru for the new world he would be interacting with. Season 2 was when Subaru finally faces his flaws and changes them to his advantage. at the start of season 1 he just treats the world as like a video game but then at the end he sees it as a new way to change himself and his life. Season 2 is where we really see the real Subaru that actually treats everyone around him as a person rather than an NPC.

[@xyouthe]

@@displaynamesup4345 yeah if i had the time to go into more detail i would have, but yes youre right. i just simplified my comment

[@shrimpman.]

@@xyoutheeven in Arc 6 (Season 4) he’s not all that strong even with *SPOILIERS* 2 Sin Authorities, one being the 2nd most OP of the Archbishop’s

[@justananimefan3733]

Everythung is relatable except the fact that he can say it all and we can't.

[@OnMyLunchBreak07]

Suabru is the character that actually allowed me to taught me to finally accept all that was wrong with me. He taught me that despite the darkness within all of us, we can grow and learn. I am partially the successful person I am today thanks to this anime and Subaru. I really am happy I watched this show :)

[@StarWarsExpert_]

Man, Re Zero is so well written!

[@isaaclovesanime2446]

Was legit the first anime I ever watched when starting to get into anime fully and I've been a fan ever since

[@grifftown]

I resonate a lot with the speech... and then Rem's follow up. It actually pulled me out of my darkest depression after 3 year. And people say Subaru is a bad character..

[@AlexisTheDragon]

Subaru really is the manliest of men.

[@jwest88]

Thank you so much for posting this. I just watched ep 7 of The Angel Next Door Spoils me Wrotten and the beauty of that episode reminded me of this episode of re zero. Then rewatching this ep made me wish I had a audio version to listen to at work once and a while. Thanks. A shame we get 6 seasons of MHA and a lot of other anime that aren't all that good but it takes forever to get more out of shows like re zero. I really hope S3 is in the works and we'll see it soon.

[@RepostCoast]

Np! I also hope we see a season 3

[@DanRemdor]

Hopefully announcement during Japan Anime 2023!

[@atticus-mt8et]

Thank you, all the other once had stupid music playing over him speaking. This one had actual music from the anime so thanks.

[@jo-jo97]

I wonder at 3:50 as he said "end up costing both of us our lives" that Satella doesn't show or crasps his chest

[@RepostCoast]

@@The.Fake.Guruuu I agree, definitely not enough context for her to connect the correct meaning of his words

[@wyzmeister5067]

i think he's able to talk about things like that, he just cant directly mention his ability. he can talk about the results of return by death, just not it itself

[@sethiimus]

​@@wyzmeister5067 it's likely because rem interpreted it as him speaking theoretically. Like, no matter what we try it's gonna get us killed

[@JoeVahns]

people can deduce about his abilities without any consequences as was shown with Roswaal although he doesn’t fully understand how it works he knows that Subaru can repeat everything until he is satisfied

[@Ryoogah1]

I used his soliloquy at the end for a theatre audition lol. Such a powerful scene

[@dosven3495]

El seiyuu se debio haber ganado un oscar por tanta emocion que le puso a subaru en ese momento. ES CINE!!!!!!!!

[@YodaSkywalker]

This hits hard

[@djohnsveress6616]

Requiem of Silence from the show goes with this really well, especially since it's a similar length song and the climax is just near the 4-5m mark.. I really like listening to that song in pair with "Who will know" from the Shin Godzilla movie, either after or before Requiem of Silence..

[@addsy3653]

I thought it may be RoS at first, but I think they made the perfect choice of pairing this scene with Chain of Memories (which is what it is paired with)

[@AntiChip]

this speech is great sub or dub and you can't tell me otherwise

[@hoalongsabo6243]

Still one of the greatest episode in anime i have watched, it’s just so good. Re zero has a lot of good episodes, from ss1 to ss2. The writing is nothing sort of amazing, but this is among the best, the self hate, giving up, getting pulled out, the decision, start from zero, seriously this anime is a goddamn masterpiece. Subaru is also one of my favorite main characters in anime, the sufferings, the character developments, self awareness, and the victories that come after, overcoming impossible odds, really, it’s hard to beat a story this good.

[@Adrastus_]

He just like me fr

[@faded_x1232]

Re:zero has so many good scenes and yet its still too underrated

[@XillyWonka]

Sometimes, it feels good to let this stuff out

[@GwyndolinSimp]

And people say that Subaru should have said he loved Rem. I say Rem would have rejected him if he said so. In fact, she actually did.

[@g04234]

You're gonna be surprised if you read the LN

[@GwyndolinSimp]

@@g04234 nah someone already told me a bit. Subaru be a player and kinda toxic lmao

[@TheManUnderTheSun]

​@@GwyndolinSimpno he's extremely loyal and caring

[@GwyndolinSimp]

@@TheManUnderTheSun mind you I haven't read the novels. Just a few hints of him going both ways and Rem being permissive of his more destructive/toxic behaviors while Emilia was not. Don't remember where I saw it. I don't know how they progress in the long run.

[@TheManUnderTheSun]

@@GwyndolinSimp I get that but you have to understand that Emilia was raised by puck who kept her in a isolated environment devoid of outside interaction, developing her into a naive girl. She's extremely misunderstood and Subaru and all the others have their own faults too.

[@CNORTHJ]

I don't know if something is wrong with me or not, but everything he just said is me but i gave up

[@OnMyLunchBreak07]

Don't give up king. Be your own Rem.

[@BrocomeON.NOW.]

@@OnMyLunchBreak07that’s some real advice

[@JabamiLain]

Feelings are what make it hard to give up. But despite this knowledge, I can not say I relate to him. I always sought stimulation from ever since I was little, therefore, everything about me, even my lazy habits, I see as necessary. Well...maybe there is one thing I hate about my teenage years. My extremism in certain opinions. The excessive passion poured into those perspectives, some of them flawed or outright wrong. But I can not complain too much. I learned in time about them.

[@CalebReeves-c4n]

This cut so deep...extremely deep.

[@mellowman8943]

Alot of people say alot of animes are relatable to people but this is even more realistic and more relatable. Alot of people dont do anything when they see something happen cuz they know they are weak and are afraid of getting hurt and possibly make things worse. Alot of people pretend to improve and lie to cover up for their falsehood. Alot of people act cocky acting like they accomplished alot when it was merely something simple. Realizing how much you procrastinate, how lazy you are, what little drive you have, and yet sayiny you want something you never worked for is arrogance at its finest. By realizing how much you need to step up is what tears down the old you and builds a better person.

[@FrarmerFrank]

First step to growth is admittance that you can't do it alone Second step is depending on others for help when you can't do it alone Otto had to punch him to remind him of that again, though

[@satoukazuma9899]

Subaru is a relatable character

[@zanehudson3680]

Both the English and Japanese are really good

[@gcham]

Thanks for posting this

[@RepostCoast]

Thanks for watching!

[@zehaha726]

スバルの台詞は凄く刺さる １８話はほんと好き

[@RepostCoast]

そうだね! 俺も好き

[@eburnsid3168]

Subaru uses "Omae" instead of "Rem" show his rage and no room in his mind..

[@TruthOfZ0]

The best voice acting in anime history..after Accelerator ..pure gold

[@blazedlith]

Watching this here now that Season 3 is announced cuz well well we have another speech coming to add to the hall of fame cuz we all know very well the VA gonna deliver

[@sammybutler3027]

He gonna win best VA again for sure

[@blazedlith]

@@sammybutler3027 real

[@brendananderson9102]

this anime deprogramed the childish school life BS right out of me. I love the character of a lot of the isekai world peoples. They just all seem so earnest. Even Anastasia, she was earnestly conning him.

[@soapksa07]

emilia said what subaru wanted to be told by his parents

[@brandoncarter5662]

Admittedly i hated subaru... i found this show leading up to 2019? 2020? kiss anime for me was a vibe and got me into seasonal viewing of anime. i remember having an emotional manic breakdown. ive had manic episodes but this was pretty intense. and... i went to my mothers house and and i'd calmed down and i watched this episode... and i remember being like (it was subbed) "mom you dont know what im watching and this is very surreal but this scene is how i feel." hating yourself is one of the most painful things. toughest thing. flipping the switch and accepting all that you are nomatter what is the hardest and ill admit trippiest thing ever. i remember texting my friend about the show talking shit about subaru... and when all things literally broke i got it... i understood.

[@abhaybana7066]

The boy can't get a stand he needs the bow and arrow.

[@SamUel-dd7qp]

I am Subaru.

[@ry0z901]

Nah he's me

[@YTSadShorts]

why i'm crying ? ..

[@snno]

we are

[@RandomVex]

People who hate anime after watching Re: zero ep 18: 😢💥

[@toyohimeyeswatatsuki6917]

This is also same episode on "I love Emilia" too not that it's matter

[@DrawingsOfNamine]

Mood.

[@XLEZZY_REUPLOADS]

Ty

[@RepostCoast]

Np!

[@needledealer9971]

Guys I think Subaru has self hate issues

[@derkturtle7191]

nah rem fr said never back down never what?

[@BrocomeON.NOW.]

never give up!

[@blowblowinger6878]

Yamibruv in JJS ranked:

[@ScarECrow7227]

I love that media portrays people like me but these people are always way better than me but see themselves the way I see myself which doesn’t make sense. If only the real world hated me as much as I hate me.

[@visiblecat48623]

me fr (except i am not as cool)

[@osi2198]

Who hurt the author yo?

[@sammybutler3027]

Life

[@displaynamesup4345]

2:07

[@displaynamesup4345]

26

[@matalinoe4059]

You're not special, you are not a hero.

[@JohnOliverOFC]

🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿

[@invisibleprovidence]

Kinda sad his "I love Emilia" part wouldn't be justified because they cut the most important thing in the whale fight. Anime onlies will think of him as someone who "wasted someone so precious".

[@alihansncr1192]

damn

[@jamesbell6706]

[JEB3]

[@eysemperor2892]

I am him

[@vincentflannigan2727]

He is me

[@funnyhaha7131]

Me asf

[@deathgod5673]

You are an amazing person for posting the sub/jap dub ver. on youtube. Thank you so much.

[@RepostCoast]

Np!

[@mikaassa8233]

Ep ?

[@Alexbychafa]

Ep 18, Did you watch it already?

[@hampterchrist8069]

i would cry during his mental breakdowns if it weren't for his facial expression

[@charlescow454]

Everyone is ugly when they cry or have a mental breakdown.

[@lucy5948]

Everyone is ugly with a desperation in their faces

[@Alexbychafa]

I like the expression, because that's how a Mental breakdown is, nothing good-looking Is awful, It's above repulsive

[@iamabird6739]

I really hate how Rem handle this situation. From her point of view it's only been a few days since she first met Subaru. She speaks as if she knows what's subaru is going through. Although I respect the encouragement, Rem telling him to do the thing he wants to do even when he is giving up on it himself, is probably the most supportive anyone can be

[@Smog420]

I think at this point in the anime Rem knows Subaru for a month or something like that

[@wymg4480]

i mean technically subaru did save her from her guilt that haunted her for yrs. i think that wud be a lasting impact. so to her, subaru was someone who cud accomplish anything if they put their mind it. she doesnt know about return by death ofc so it's like subaru making all the right moves when he actually doing trial by error the whole time lol

[@criss206]

It has been 2 months since they have met, there was a time skip between arc 2 and arc 3

[@inguunee7297]

Which episode is this?

[@addsy3653]

18, 9 in directors cut I think

[@Dycade]

everything is good until he say cursed word

[@R3in_Ch]

wot

[@ruki-ck4pn]

is easy for subaru to give up!

[@kap1618]

Nice speach but it's coming from a 17-year-old. This isn't welcome to the NHK were the protag is an adult. This is a kid being blamed for not being perfect.

[@bonfist7277]

He blames himself

[@rr_bagh]

I have a couple words for you, subaru: DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, OR GTFO OF HERE.

[@TheManUnderTheSun]

Idk if you're trolling or not but Subaru is literally venting all his trauma and low self value here. I don't know why you're showing hatred towards him when he literally tries his best for everyone but himself.

[@alexanderduncan8279]

Not gonna lie, I hate this anime. I wanted to like it after all the positive reviews & dropped it after a few episodes. I tried to watch it, but his character just pushes me away because he’s so weak & has this awesome ability that he doesn’t even make good use of. Sucks but it’s proof that good animation can’t always make up for not good story… 😓

[@sammybutler3027]

It’s an amazing story you’re just an edgelord that wants him to off himself any time he makes a boo boo instead of living and taking accountability for his actions

[@sammybutler3027]

And his ability isn’t “awesome” he literally has to die to activate it, which I don’t think I have to remind you that is painful and why would he use it every five seconds? Legitimately what could he have done differently with it? As if you wouldn’t do the exact same in his shoes if not worse

[@alexanderduncan8279]

@@sammybutler3027 -It is, in FACT, an “awesome” ability. -So what if he had to die to activate it? Small price to pay for greatness. -Dr. Strange fighting Dormammu & dying countless deaths to achieve a desired outcome is 1 (of many, I assure u) scenario that proves how amazing & useful it is. -It wouldn’t have to be “every five seconds” if used appropriately. -He could have went on to become the greatest MC. -I could. -U couldn’t. -U couldn’t reach these unfathomable heights even if u wanted.

[@anonnymus6355]

@@alexanderduncan8279 You're either baiting or you're like 12 years old, What's the most painful thing you've ever done in your life? Mutliplity that not just by x10 but by over x100 and that's a mild death, You're a whole circus if you think ''dying'' is that simple. Dr strange is whomever, meanwhile subaru is your average 17 year old kid with no special strenght other than his rbd. I'm guessing you've never had a serious injury otherwise you wouldn't be talking out your ass, try telling your parents that I'd be easy to just do that to yourself, They'll look at you like you're stupid.

[@alexamen946]

@@alexanderduncan8279 It's an incredible ability, of course it is, but you're not taking into account that Subaru is a normal human with normal capabilities, no normal human being can process and/or get used to dying because no one is able to experience death, when the time comes, you just die, your brain shuts down, you can't experience death because you're dead.

[@AlanJaeger-l4j]

Subaru is cringe

[@pineapple8934]

That's quite literally the point of his character my dude. He becomes a better and more reliable person as the series goes on

[@R3in_Ch]

as if anyone in this world ain't cringe 🤡

[@Alexbychafa]

Like you or me

[@Trad.]

Takes one to know one

[@vanillasoda8454]

If he is, then what of the tiktok boys you can see everywhere out there