I DON'T Feel Good - Croatian Trouser Tension - P2T EP08

The eighth installment of my 5000 mile solo road trip to the Balkans on board the mighty BMW R1250 GS Adventure.
In this episode I talk of a trouser emergency and get rather lonely as I head to the gorgeous Croatian Coast. Comment "Marmite Baguette" if you read this.
Permission to Torque is a Mental Health movement set up to show others that you "get it" by displaying a discrete symbol for others to take comfort in. Its not about sitting around in a circle feeling sorry for yourself, its about shared experience and getting out there to find out what makes us happy - this is the aim of my trip and why I am sharing it on KZbin, the good days and the inevitable bad ones too.
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[@BaronVonGrumble]

Random time to live this video but I'm on the road with 44Teeth Cinema tour this week so enjoy some Tuesday lunchtime viewings!

[@d675ose7]

It was really great last night in Bristle Chris ❤ - you, Al, Boothy & James made for a fun event - hope it funds many more 44t adventures for us to join in with!👍🏻

[@conkerman01]

Guildford was a great evening. Smashing to say hi to you gents and ask some stupid questions. I need to do a mini version of this once the weather gets better. I admit to getting a bit Tongue tied when talking to Boothy. He's an inspiration.

[@HalfdeadRider]

😎👍

[@disaffectedmale]

@@d675ose7 FUCK! Missed that. I'll have to start loitering around JHS racing with my 2022 MT10 when this weather stops being cold and shit. I'd really like to say hi to those guys, the friends I never had.

[@ollyotts]

Thanks mate, needed one of your videos today. Been a hell of a week, and it’s only Tuesday!!!! What’s your walking channel called or was it instagram? Need some of that at the moment.

[@goingforbrokeracing]

I can relate to this episode… last year I planned a week trip for the girl I was seeing to do the Cabot Trail ( 2 up on my GS ). Two weeks of planning and buying her gear / coms … she bailed 30 minutes before departure… Here I am bike fully packed for us and now it gets cancelled… I sat for an hour chain smoking …grumbling … cursing … finally I said $&@k it. Stripped her stuff off the bike and went solo. It was the weirdest & best feeling going solo. Prior to this I had never done a long haul solo. I also had a few moments of “ this sucks alone “ or “ maybe turn around and go home “. I pushed through my own head space and learned a lot about myself. Now I have the confidence to do solo trips :) One day I’ll meet my “ 2 up girl “ until then … the world is my oyster !

[@rath6599]

Thanks for sharing dude.

[@dorrist]

I think this has been a brilliant series so far, Baron. I have followed you for a long time and you've never made it a secret that you struggle with mental health challenges in the past; but, since you've revealed your face and name to the world, and you speak to everyone showing your face while being so candid with your struggles as they are happening, it seems so much more personal and I really think that may help those that struggle in their own heads much more effectively. Thank you kind sir and look forward to the next episodes! Marmite Baguette ... 🥖✊️

[@MT10dan88]

you're a fantastic bloke Chris no doubt about it. when I met you on the BBBB cinema night. you are full of energy and a fantastic person to talk to. you are a proper decent bloke. full respect to you for doing what you do on this channel and being open. I've been in the same boat it's not good. stay strong for all the great things you do and achieve my friend. You're an inspiration in my eyes. Hopefully get to meet you again one day brother.👍🏻🙌🏻

[@PhillStotan1]

Appreciate the open video that shows life isn’t just the highlights reel social media purports it to be. If you’re ever around Manchester I can take you a ride round some places that make you grateful for the life you/we have…

[@BaronVonGrumble]

I'm there tomorrow 😅

[@karlsumner5594]

@@BaronVonGrumble That’s some sort of riding!

[@PhillStotan1]

@@BaronVonGrumbleAhh gutted I couldn’t make the show, hope it went well. There’s always a bike you can borrow here 🙌

[@user-rl8is2ft1i]

God you're jangled! Welcome to my world. All a rollercoaster but you're not going through alone. Thank you, your rambles help x

[@grahamoakley11]

As my wife always tells me, look at what you’ve got, not what you haven’t got………good work Chris

[@JayBe79]

Another great, honest video Chris, I bet you're so glad you pushed on. Thanks for sharing both the ride and issues with us all #Torque.

[@Moomin420]

10 days post breakup, this sucks and it is so hard being lonely and getting used to being alone. Have booked my CBT and Mod 1/2 as have wanted to get a bike for ages so now is the time to do it for myself. Thanks for being so open and honest, who knew a bloke on a bike talking about having a wank and the shits was what I needed to feel seen and heard.

[@robertnewman477]

Just on the Train back home after 44teeth live in Birmingham. Think I got some funny looks, being on my own watching a man laying in bed. Another great video. Having the Baron back on the tubes has been superb 👌 x ❤️

[@samconroyy]

Just puts it into perspective, here I am moping at the fact I have a shit job and can barely find a car with the savings I have. Watching someone on KZbin who's travelling the world and looks like they are having the time of their life on a beautiful bike. When in reality he's just feeling as shit and we're all on the shit coaster together.

[@emre_saglam]

Carry a white tshirt and wet it so that it’s damp, and wear it under your jacket. It will keep you cool. You are dehydrated, you are riding at 38C, you got diarrhea, you are heading into heat exhaustion zone. Watch out. I love your series. Huge props to getting out of your comfort zone and doing this.

[@jeremycorrao]

Omgosh that was some funny shit!! No pun intended 🤣🤣 timer on the lights!

[@motortrack7903]

Chris I love the candid unfiltered rawness of this video, sharing in this way is just fantastic. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability that couldn’t have been easy.

[@deangordon4777]

"Marmite Baguette" This road looks like some of the pleasures we have in New Zealand Mr Von Grumble. 🥰

[@HPCAT88]

Hey, I´m probably gonna get ridiculed by a bunch of "Le epic science trolls", but I´ve been suffering from terrible anxiety and agoraphobia for over 15 years (Diagnosed, not the TikTok kind). I tried probably every antidepressant known to man, and it did sh*t all. But ever since I started taking Ashwagandha (Sounds like psychodelics, but isn´t), my symptoms of anxiety and agoraphobia have been reduced by probably 80%. I was highly sceptic of "Alternative Medicine", still am, but all I can say is that this stuff has helped me more than any "real" medicine from the pharmacy, when it comes to mental illness. I hope you´ll get better. Stay strong.

[@philipbassett5129]

Chris, I can wake up one morning and feel incredibly positive about something and then the next day feel completely s##t about the very same thing. It’s always been that way for me and I know now that you just have to accept it in the knowledge it will pass, maybe not tomorrow, but eventually. Depression is not about what you have; you can rationalise why you should be happy (and why you feel guilty about not being happy) all you like, but that’s not the way depression works, it’s not your fault, it just goes with the territory. On a lighter note, a bit of genuine praise always helps a bit and I have to say, after watching the video you did recently track testing the new BMW s1000RR…….you can ride a bit can’t you fella! (Elbow down an’ all)

[@danielbourne9826]

This is probably my favourite series you done. The honesty and not letting anxiety get the better or you is inspiring :) thanks!

[@renevanderkraats224]

I know what you mean Chris. Recently my relationship with a lovely lady ended after 7 years (in a good, well-mannered way). I try to focus on what I do have and I'm blessed with (family, my children, life-long friends, work, my wellness, my bikes), but sometimes it can be those little moments where you feel like 'wish she was here to experience this with me'. Hang in there man, it'll get better. Know your worth, focus on you, a relation is a valuable addition, but not a necessity. Oh, and Marmite Baguette ;-)

[@jeremyfisher9915]

I am sure this trip will serve its purpose Chris, the world is a better place with you in it! Intelligent, engaging and competent as you are. Keep pushing on and with you all the way!

[@smokeybarr]

I did a trip a few years back and got really dehydrated after the first day's riding. I can't beilieve how much it affected my mood. I was super anxious getting into the hotel and all I could think about was how much I wanted to go home. Ironically, a couple of beers in the local helped, chugged a load of water before bed, and felt much better in the morning. I would definitely consider a Camelbak on any future trips.

[@roavrgroup4914]

A perfect example of how us blokes just get on with it despite how we are felling... quodos to you for being honest matey. Jens loss.

[@yorkshire1290DUKE-R]

Your vlogs have convinced me to get a gs and see more of the world. Thanks for the inspiration 🙏

[@bikerguy3339]

Dont buy a gs, buy a ktm 1290 adventure

[@karlsumner5594]

Absolutely loving these videos! And all power to you for taking this trip on on your own. Many would talk about it but you went and did it!

[@shuttlefish59]

That made me smile. Thanks 😊

[@UncleBobsbikelife]

Loved this one! Mood booster🤩

[@tysoncott7402]

the titles to your video’s are hilarious! Love it! 🏍😎

[@aehmhierdings]

had rough day mentally. now sitting in bed getting to experience peace of mind for the first time today. Thank you for being you and speaking out, sharing, vlogging whatever. Love you. Keep on hustlin my friend and it will pay out one day, promised ❤

[@bigdoghaveit]

I love watching this trip because like in life you’re showing the ups and the downs I’m absolutely loving it stay strong and keep up these amazing videos

[@supermotosteve3752]

Mate, I think this is the best series yet, It has me hanging on with baited breath, I wish my channel was even slightly as good as yours. Kudos, keep it up and I don't me the little Baron.

[@segapc1994]

Soon after you did this trip I went on one similar to and around Spain, this really takes me back to that time. I miss it so much. Thanks man.

[@grahamcunningham4840]

Enjoy your videos ,your honesty and sence of humour,keep em coming!!!

[@liamblakeley1866]

This just made my work lunch a whole little better

[@danevans7490]

Loved this episode. Fair play for being so honest 🤘

[@brettwalker8695]

Smashing it Nige ! You made it through that day, keep the content flowing! Much love

[@the_observer7141]

Made me chuckle….great episode in many ways 👍

[@tomevans4078]

Epic lunchtime viewings. Thank you Chris. I went to BBB Bristol last night, loved the film and it was a pleasure to meet you guys. Keep up the good work, even if it feels too hard sometimes x

[@lordsnootypants253]

Chris this has been brilliant. I and so many other men and women get how you feel. Pushing outside your comfort zone is never comfortable but you did it. Thank you for doing this trip and sharing the challenges you faced.

[@mooiboyace]

I am absolutely loving this series ! I can't wait to see more of Croatia

[@tim1king]

👏🏻👏🏻 always best to be open and talk about how you're feeling - hats off to you. Another great video on one of the best all terrain bikes around.

[@blake4920]

Incredible series Chris, just appreciate the honesty, so much respect for your efforts with it all you’re helping a lot of people, we all need a good laugh too

[@happydays1165]

I can completely relate to what your feeling much love mate

[@jighjigh]

This one gave me goose bumps. Seeing you riding where I ride and feeling that we shared the same experience it trully awesome. Can't wait for the next one.

[@samuelstrauss5119]

Brilliant video mate

[@the_grumpybiker]

I was today years old when I found out that sped up footage of a GS sounds exactly like my GSXR 😂 Great series Chris thanks for Sharing.

[@JOA-S]

always make my day to see that the Baron uploaded a video after a stressful day at work :D

[@simonstokes6561]

Haven’t watched it yet but Croatian Trouser Tension has already got me smirking……😂

[@irisgardener4141]

This landed whilst I was at work so I've been looking forward to this all afternoon/evening. Keep up the great content 🤙🏽

[@Hjalmar_Lane]

Great vlog, keep on going. Love it. Croatia is just amazingly beautiful. Especially coast line. Went to Split and little place called Brela on the coast south from Split...wonderful.

[@gsakroyd]

Brilliant. Looks epic. Braver than many of us Chris..you should be applauded 👏

[@Benniee1]

Great series. Props for being so open to yourself (and the world, but that's less important). That ending sentence was hilarious 😂

[@alastairtheduke]

Ooof, break ups are so hard on me too. Kudos to you for doing the trip. It might help to get your mind off things. It gets better with time.

[@saanko8742]

Genuine and honest video!

[@user-dd7jl7pc8d]

I’m fortunate to be happy in all aspects this far….. but I’ve been there! I’ve just thought fuck it and bought a GS to go on trips to Europe with my pops. You are living my dream 😂😂. Take my hat off to you sir. Well played 👍

[@MrHugeheffner]

I do recommend you go to Split it’s beautiful. Croatia is amazing the coastal road is a killer ride. Also if you manage to get to Montenegro the mountains and Kotor is spectacular. Ditto Greece the southern peninsula is f amazing. I know exactly what you mean about having lonely moments when travelling alone. I rode the Balkans alone mostly off road a few years ago. Sometimes you’ll be totally un motivated the good thing is if you push on then out of the blue you’ll meet some people or have an adventurous experience that will out weigh the low moments. But it’ll be completely ad hoc that’s why it’s an adventure. I enjoy your posts because of the honesty both in the moments of grumble as well as the humour. Ride on brother and you’ll see it’ll be a worth it the balkans is a breathtaking region with amazing and hospitable people !

[@CarlosTilbury]

At least I'm not the only one who has the same highs and lows of riding solo, nice stuff Chris! I'm going to Switzerland this year and I'm going to give the old Furka a seeing too!

[@richard.c3901]

Hi dude. Your videos are an inspiration. Travelling isn't easy for us all and doing it alone is a real challenge. Two sayings I've garnered in my lifetime I try to remember. Thoughts aren't facts. This is just a reality check when feeling down. Secondly, things will be ok in the end. If things aren't ok now then it's not the end. A bit of a cliché I guess but it helps me when having a rough time. Keep up the content. I'm a avid watcher of yours and the 44 teeth posse. The lockdown specials made me cry laughing 😂👍

[@jangraham7777]

❤ your an inspiration Chris take care I know it’s shit at times but it will,get better

[@boac2006]

good to see a return of man rides chainsaw down mountain

[@cv5645]

Don't ever apologise for who you are and how you feel mate. Met you at the cinema and on another occasion and you were a top guy. Your content keeps me sane on long trips away...chin up and all that.

[@dbauernf]

I'm so happy you went to Senj, I'm sure I'm one of 100+ people who suggested it over on your Instagram (same username as here)! I live about 300 miles from there and my mood instantly changes up in those mountains just as you experienced. It's exactly what you said - feeling like you belong there. Amazing roads all over the place there.

[@danielstafford7255]

Iv been watching 44 for a long time but only came across this channel/series last night and been watching episode after episode, it's brilliant. I have to say the things you have said about if your not a hardened tourer it can be scary and daunting but your doing it, and the way you've opened up about your personal life, and feeling anxious ect, I think you will have connected with people on a personal level and encouraged everyday people to think he's just a normal person just like me and if he can do it then maybe I can. I have rode from manchester to assen a few times with friends for the gp, but I'd love to do something like this, but as nervous/anxious person I'm like ye no chance. But this has gave me a feeling of hope towards doing something like this. 👍

[@tannertaulbee1151]

Great video Chris. Props for being so open with your mental state. It’s fucking hard for us guys to do that.

[@dankorolyk5917]

Keep moving forward Chris,we’re with you mate!

[@supertruls]

You sir, are a f**ing hero! Stay strong, it gets better.

[@gsd32i]

Great video.👏

[@gazobee]

I totally understand how you feel and why you feel this way. Been through similar myself. Keep fighting, keep riding, keep sharing.

[@johnnythefox9830]

Perfect bedtime viewing. Cheers mr. Grumble.

[@Broken_Adventures]

Absolutely loving these videos! I bought an older GS after watching you for years, If you are ever in need of a riding buddy I’m down! It’s refreshing to watch such and honest video! Keep it up and I hope you’re feeling better in yourself 👍🏼

[@jc4778]

I really admire you for being so honest and open and as they say its ok to admit you're not ok. I can appreciate there must have been days where you really struggled just to get on the bike and just move foreword. Having ridden for many years, but never done any long trips you have inspired me to move further afield and plan some trips for next summer, and to stop making excuses why I can't do it.

[@sytzedeboer1869]

Very honest video! I recognize alot of your feelings from my own trip last summer. Anxiety, crying, feeling depressed, seeing all those beautiful places but not feeling anything but sadness. After 1,5 weeks around Europe i decided to turn around and go back home as quick as possible. Had a few good days, saw amazing things, and decided it was enough. Sometimes we try and run away from mental troubles by undertaking a range of things, but the underlying challenges remain.

[@TheBishMan]

Marmite baguette? 🤣 Loving this series Chris, thanks for sharing

[@Desmo904]

Thanks for sharing Chris. I'm not the only one who occasionally feels overwhelmed and 'lost' in day to day life then? It's been a struggle recently and knowing that there are others who feel the same is somehow comforting that I'm not alone in those feelings.

[@DT11acs]

Best outro to a video ever......

[@kilobravo6272]

I and many others will probably understand what you are feeling about the break up. I've been through the same thing. I made myself go and do my world tour of Cornwall. It was very lonely actually, but was the beginning of learning a lot about myself and actually experiencing a fair bit of 'healing'. Keep on going forward with yourself. Be you and do what you want. You are doing great so far and have the backing and admiration of a lot of people. Loving this series a lot.

[@iainwhite3476]

Hi Chris, just got back from the BBB in Birmingham. What a great night! Really loved it and so did the audience… lots of tokens going in the pinkie bin👍🏍

[@mussels64]

Best. Motovloger. Period.

[@RichardHudsonuk]

Marmite baguette. Good to watch your update. Thanks for sharing the good and bad realities of a real trip. I know it is hot and miserable out there. It's cold, wet and miserable in blighty. You need somewhere in the middle. Hopefully the ride will help clear your head. Keep going if you can. Coming home isn't a cop out though.

[@gordonhenderson1708]

Enjoy your stuff. You're not alone. You know that, I know that. Doesn't make it any easier, does it. Keep on keepin on! Riding is the best therapy, in my opinion. Cheers mate! P.S. Beautiful road that last bit. Dispatching the slow pokes can be part of the fun.

[@Mike_P646]

Dioralyte rehydration satchets Chris, they're great for making you feel human again with a hangover as well as when you have the raging squits ☺️

[@gspiggity]

Sorry to hear you are down , hope you feel better soon and you will

[@WAYTOOCOMPLICATED]

Must be weird reading random strangers commenting that they appreciate you and your content, but much love and thanks for being open and sharing the feels 👊💪💪

[@igorskoro4624]

Another good video. Sorry to see you struggling that day. Good to see you made it down to Croatia. I could not stop laughing when you were behind Czech and Polish cars. They drive so slow and imagine being stuck behind them in 9 seater transit. They drive me mental 😀. Look forward to next video

[@1Witcomb]

Marmite Baguette :) Loving the commentary - "where they have those big mountainy things, what are they called? Oh yeah, mountains" 🤣🤣You're doing great and you're not alone - you have all of us subscribers there with you.

[@TheSizzlingBadger]

Great video, having the same issues you do I can understand how you feel, I often get an upset stomach just due to anxiety. Marmite Baguette.

[@simngurry]

Mate, I’m a video behind so it’s way too late but stay strong. I’m an OG subscriber and we’ve met, albeit briefly, at loomies a few years back. You let me throw a leg over your 1290 which cost me £14k as I got my own one! Double bloody decker love your content, I’ve missed it and never stop showing your true colours. There’s people like me that feel like we know you as you share these vlogs. Chin up, deep breath. You’ve got this. X

[@stoneysoprano]

You sound like you're having a tough time! It's amazing how when you're on your bike enjoying the scenery you shake off the blues. Don't focus on doing, there will always be too much to do and you'll never do everything. Who do you want to be with, where do you want to be, do the things that enable you to be with those people in those.places. Nothing else matters. Just be, don't just do IMHO.

[@rogerkay8603]

You're quality mate, absolute quality - doing what we'd all like to do but having the same struggles an demons. Alone isn't always great unless you love your own company, exclusively :)

[@Mototherapy_Michio]

Can absolutely relate to how you feel, those ups and downs, those shitty days (not talking about your digestive issues though 😆), but would never have the balls to go alone on such a ride 🙌

[@kenwolfe5697]

I’ve faced similar challenges on very long motorcycle rides. You’re not alone. Always has its ups and downs on a solo ride with other things going on in life. It allows a lot of time for introspection.

[@xxcandyreaperxx7585]

Great to briefly meet you last night in Saint Bristol! Shame you guys don't do a down the pub meet after, would have been fab to chat to all 4 of you more (inc JHS). Often travel on the Blackbird on my todd, I know what it's luke when so many thoughts run through your head, all if, butts and maybes . Never on your own though sir, and very much appreciated when it comes to your posts/videos. Stay strong, go with what makes you happy !👍😃🙏🍺

[@kuhndj67]

Riding solo definitely puts you in your own head... and on every long trip I've had a couple stages of "emotional challenge". The first is after a day or two of a long trip when you're racing away from your life and all your loved ones. This year I was riding the TAT and on the second day I crashed in some very soft silt and then noticed that I'd lost one of my bags earlier that day (the only Mosko Moto bag that wasn't physically attached to the kit, was just held in by friction) which cost me my tent poles, 360 camera mount and some other bits. Was feeling very down for a good part of that day's ride and fought it by staying at a really nice resort where I could stretch out, get online and sort out my stuff. Next morning went and bought a new tent after a nice breakfast and carried on. Then there's late in the trip when you're getting tired... you're beat up (especially if you're riding dirt like the TAT/TET/ETC...), your bike is beat up, and you've been away from home for weeks or months... that can be really tough. I didn't have a plan for dealing with that just kept riding. I found that stopping in places where I could walk to a local pub in the evening and socialize helped quite a bit (surprised me since I'm an introvert).

[@5tevieb954]

Really enjoyed BBB Birmingham tonight mate- you guys nailed it. (Apart from the scatology)

[@peterhobbs7609]

Hats off for hanging on in there, and good news that you never got rogered at the border!

[@ehare18]

Nice to have a Baron tour video!

[@opeth84]

Goes to Europe to appreciate how much better he has back home. Realizes it's bloody good everywhere. Lol

[@R1doorbar]

Great vid BVG! FYI drinking water really helps my anxiety.

[@IAmTheOnlyMrDaryl]

Love you Baron

[@cxmario5375]

Marmite baguette😮 Had a similar experience in a Swiss toilet under similar circumstances 🤦🏻‍♂️ trying to do things like that in the pitch black should only be carried out by SAS! Brilliance again, hang in there cupcake 👏🏻👏🏻😉

[@ZacharyWyatt]

Oooooh that bit with the GoPro mounted up front was tastier than a marmite baguette!