I Forget I'm Transgender

My personal experience with forgetting I’m trans in my daily life and some of the things that remind me of it.
I don’t want to forget I’m trans completely or anything, I’m proud of who I am, but it is nice to not think about it all the time anymore.
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[@matthewscott1091]

Hi Jaime, I'm not sure if you'll see this but I just wanted to let you know how much your videos mean to me. Both me and my husband are Cis-men who have been married/together for 11 years (we're 30). About 3 years ago my then 15 year old niece (by my husband) told us she thought she was Trans. Later she (now he) began to use male pronouns and changed his name. Honestly it devastated my husband who saw his niece more as a daughter since he basically raised her. I was also struggling to understand it since I've been her uncle since she (now he) was little. As an example of how close we are to my now nephew when he legally changed his name he also changed his last name to mine because he looks up to us as his uncles (he calls us his gay dads😉). Long story short my nephew had a terrible childhood. His mother (my sister-in-law) Overdosed on drugs when my nephew and his brother were only 13 & 15 and he never knew his father so we are his family. But we still struggled. We thought maybe him being Trans had to do with his past trauma. Your videos in particular have helped me tremendously to understand what our nephew is going through. He started testosterone a few months ago. I'm not going to lie we still worry about his physical & emotional well being but I think that's natural when you love someone. Jaime from the bottom of my heart thank you for helping my husband and I to better understand what it means to be Transgender. *Thank You* Sending lots of love to you and Shaaba from Texas! ❤️💛💚💙💜

[@gasca4906]

Matthew Scott I was skipping through this and what came up to my mind was *"Gay dads. Thank you."*

[@Dime9764]

Man I wish that me and my fiancé will be gay dads to someone one day Probably never gonna happen but I have my hopes 😄

[@MLiskindagay]

I wish I had “gay dads”

[@shmelvampire]

@@jspur22 what's wrong with that? Cis means not trans, they're both amab and see themselves as men. Gay is a sexuality, not gender

[@tanyapirillis]

Thank you for accepting your nephew. I understand it's hard because you feel like you lost a niece but you haven't. Still the same person just changing gender. A lot of trans phobic people have a problem with it when it's not thier life. I'm glad you both are dad's to him. My uncle was like a father to me growing up I appreciate that.

[@k-pooper135]

i came out to my mum as possibly trans yesterday.... i wrote out the text but didn't plan to send it but i turned of my phone and it magically sent it so.... haha she accepted me.

[@Jammidodger]

Congrats, that's awesome :)

[@dannythiessen8712]

Jammidodger I love your videos I am trans age 20 and just came out can I add you and talk to you online more? I have various social media platforms I use. ~Avery L

[@SunIsLost]

That's amazing! /)

[@SunIsLost]

@@Jammidodger yea

[@erstwil]

@@Jammidodger still 69 likes after three years...

[@LibrosErrantes]

i really wish i could forget i am trans, even my father has forgotten it sometimes. one day they were meeting some extended family who did not know i am trans, and my sister said "what if they ask for OLD NAME " and my father was truly surprised and said "who is OLD NAME? do i know her?" will i ever be able to forget that? it must be fun

[@samhainlegge9563]

That sounds like heaven

[@scaroian]

Wow that's so cool

[@gasca4906]

*I O R D E RED M Y F I R S T B I N DER T O D A Y.* Also their is a hint on what colour it is in the first sentence ;)

[@chrischrischrischris5174]

WOOOOOOO

[@gasca4906]

WOOOOOOO

[@FandomTOBY]

unusual color for a binder (to me at least) but congrats

[@gasca4906]

FandomTV I just wanted it to be fun :) anyway, I don't care if I will never wear a white shirt again! I would have gotten a white or skin colour one also, but we don't have enough money :( So I chose this one! And I am happy with it :)

[@erikajewel]

Gasca my first one is coming tomorrow! congrats to us! lol

[@MrsNoji]

As a lesbian I relate to that 'can't have children biologically because of it' a lot. Of course there are other ways but the finality of never having a child that's part her and part me, it pains me. I think it's ok to have this 'Oh..' moments.

[@summermermaidstar756]

Well technically a transwoman that is pre hrt and pre SRS can get you pregnant. Or like if a transwoman banked her sperm before medical transitions

[@MrsNoji]

You are right, that's possible. Interesting point!

[@pachamaridamofasat7803]

MrsNoji You can create a child out of the genetical material that two eggs have! It isn't possible with two sperm cells, tho, because they don't have the right genetical material... I just don't know if it is legal in your country

[@MrsNoji]

Oh my, really? Science is amazing. I didn't hear of it so far but if it's possible then maybe it will progress in the future. That would be terrific!

[@vehementisa3458]

MrsNoji I can completely relate with you on this. I am a gay female as well and it sucks that I will never be able to have a child that is a part of my future wife and I.

[@potteras99]

Just turn the subtitles on..''...being on tea...'' xD

[@julsbarracuda9892]

And he's from UK, that makes it even funnier xDDD

[@clowery3442]

I'm pre-everything. I have clothes and hair. No binder. I was about to use the men's bathroom and said nope. I was at a gas station. I can't use it at school. It's against the rules. I like using the men's bathroom when I can. But sometimes I forget that I'm trans. I feel weird in both bathrooms. I get stared at in women's bathrooms. And got made fun of at school because I look different. A group of guys yelled if I was a guy or girl. Questioning me. I could hear then through my earbuds.

[@Horrorangell]

Kit Cat Have you ever heard of any Binder donation websites? You should do that if you cant get a binder. Even though the wait time is pretty long...

[@clowery3442]

Jellyton My best friend told me she'd get me one for my birthday.

[@Horrorangell]

Kit Cat Thats good

[@clowery3442]

Jellyton I actually just bought me some new guy clothes.

[@sammiesparkle2020]

in my last year of highschool, some middle schoolers kept shouting "is that a boy or a girl?" to each other but so i could hear them and i just kept walking like i was deaf and they actually sent one of them to hang around me to figure it out. i guess you just have to ignore idiots...

[@okayokay6963]

I desire that feeling so much. just to live as a man and never have that feeling of what it was like before. hopefully I'll accomplish that later down the road

[@HauntedHeroine138]

It's nice that you're feeling more comfortable in your skin in a way that being trans isn't always in the forefront of your mind. It's a reasuring success story.

[@facuarroyo3249]

I don think you "forgot" you're trans, is just that you don't have to think about it all day.

[@billytheperson8698]

I started coming out this week❤️💛💚💙💜

[@HyperNovva]

Congrats! It's been five years, how's it going?

[@greencupcakes1]

What I take from this is that now you're settled and comfortable in your identity you can finally concentrate on WHO you are, rather than "what" you are ..... I get that some people see being Trans as a huge part of themselves and almost don't want to forget about it, but when you are conscious and aware of it all the time then that means it's taking over the rest of your life! It should be a small PART of you that you can "overlook" almost when you are going about your day to day life, it shouldn't be your WHOLE identity.

[@CircuitsBiologicalDad]

I wish I could forget I was trans, I misplaced my binder and my mom won't let me go on hormones :( hopefully I can soon though!

[@jooniebug480]

I know this is bad and so many people are going to scream at me for this but the only time i take my binder off is to shower. I never take it off :/

[@CircuitsBiologicalDad]

Emo Llama I won't scream at you because I understand how horrible dysphoria can be. It's like constantly bombarding me all the time. However, it is really unhealthy to wear it 24/7. Things can build up in your chest cavity and lungs and it's bad for you. You really shouldn't bind while sleeping. I want you to take care of yourself.

[@CircuitsBiologicalDad]

Emo Llama try to cough every once in a while to rattle things around and be sure to stretch a lot so you don't become sore.

[@LNRansom]

Emo Llama I know how you feel I can't even sleep without at least a tight fitting sports bra on. :( Sports bras and baggy hoodies are my best friends!

[@chrischrischrischris5174]

Emo Llama I've heard it can deform your ribs to leave it on that long :( luckily my binder is a shit one from ebay that's looser on the ribcage. Take care of yourself, dude

[@jackkearsley6785]

I wake up in the middle of the night to pee and forget that im trans and i stand up in front of the toilet and then I REMEMBER

[@V25021]

Hm, I'm kinda curious about this. Cause you've been peeing sitting down your whole life, and as a cis-male when I was a kid I used to prefer peeing sitting... so I kinda had to consciously adjust myself to peeing while standing when I got older.

[@jackkearsley6785]

oh wow, personal preference i guess

[@TheCatMurgatroyd]

why don't you ger yourself one of those shewees or knockoffs? it's probably easier with a transdick, cause you can just put it in and pee away :D

[@Sinnamonie]

totally off topic, he looks the teeny bit like David Tennant to me- maybe just the English accent.

[@bensturrock1317]

Sinnamonie David Tennant's Scottish tho

[@4gregs]

sinnamonie Kudos for you for not saying "British accent" and saying English accent since a British accent isn't a thing

[@jade728]

山本ヨーヨー tbh neither is an English accent, if you listen to some one from say Birmingham compared London lmao not the same

[@4gregs]

I know, I'm from London. But it's still more accurate.

[@jayflight5351]

I think so too! He does look a bit like David Tennant

[@peterborzillo456]

This happens to me too a lot. One time, I was having vivid day dreams about me when I'm an adult and having a wife and when we have kids how they'd have the best of both of us and how I would struggle with my wife through when she's pregnant. i was dissapointed when i remembered that I can never have biological children, but someday I will be a father and I'll forget that I'm trans even more

[@user-tx9eg4tc8o]

you are amazing, you help my boyfriend who is transgender and you are good at giving great advices,plus your voice and accent is cute❤

[@elinkarlsson55]

You are alwyas doing something new with your videos. Something no one else has done! I LOVE IT!!!

[@Eden-tk9ks]

Just something i want to say! Im almost 4 weeks post op! (Top surgery) and keep up the awesome work! It was so helpful befor i came out and now! You are amazing :)

[@donovanfrye8661]

Eden I have my top surgery next month the 16th. I can't wait to be in your position.

[@pmbluemoon]

It's ABSURD how much I want top surgery but can't afford it or get help for it, and they are 400 miles away (Minneapolis) I die every time I see someone who can get top surgery. I was molested as soon as my "chesticles" grew and i JUST. WANT. THEM. GONE. I can't raise funds because I am right now on government assistance, any penny earned they go after, on top of my nephew's debt that I co-signed for. EVERYTHING I could do makes it IMPOSSIBLE to raise money for surgery. Talk about STUCK!!! Thank you for this video, SO GLAD to hear you are doing well, and hopefully some day we will feel accepted.

[@gasca4906]

Chris Moon :( don't we all hate the *C H E S T I C A L S* ?

[@drewhoang3670]

I've been waiting to see a therapist to get my letter to start HRT since November, and today they told me in a week or two I will get a therapist!

[@FinnTheInfinncible]

It does makes sense. Its so all consuming in early days isnt it! Nowadays, it is so much less for me too, I am still going through surgery so it does serve as a reminder but stil, its much less than it was. I think the biggest difference is the level of dysphoria, when I see an old picture of myself now I dont feel the same sick dysphoric feeling that i once did and I can now look at the old me and smile as she got me to where i am now. Exactly like you say, it is so hard in early days, you wonder if youll ever have a life where being trans isnt this huge thing but gradually over time we come to accept ourselves and as our bodies change and we become more comfortable it becomes less of an issue. making light of this often difficult journey is the best way to stay sane I think!!

[@Hi_Its_LP]

You are just so authentically male I wouldn't even know. Glad your outsides and insides are so fluid that your forget from time to time. Beautiful when you just find your authentic self and live that truth. ❤️

[@SJUnkown]

I can relate with you Jamie XD when I used to go to a treatment center for my mental disorders I was always called Aron, I wore a binder (along with mostly masculine clothing) and I was allowed to used the male restroom. It was only when I got home that I would remember because my mom didn't call me Aron and didn't call me a boy. but that changed and I was 99% able to be myself and that's when I started to forget I was trans XD

[@ryanlittlewood9751]

thank you so much for making this video!! >< im generally stealth in almost every aspect of my life, I transitioned young and generally the only people who know I'm trans are people who knew me before I transitioned where there's no two ways about it :p I sometimes get really annoyed at some of them though when they think it's totally cool to just bring up the fact that I'm trans in conversation if I've not mentioned first because I honestly forget most of the time and it's really dysphoric when they remind me, even if we're in private >

[@charliecocroft4764]

My boyfriend helps me out a whole ton, I'm glad I'm not the only one who can forget from time to time

[@cameron3038]

Even though my voice is still high, I can't wear my binder and I have my days where I look feminine I forget that I'm trans too. I'm dysphoric but I don't constantly think about it because I already see myself as a boy and people around me see me as one too so it's not a constant reminder. being transgender isn't a big part of my life, it's just what I am so I forget all the time

[@jackfrostghosts]

i forget im trans most of the time, even though Im pre-T and pre top surgery. I am lucky that i have a natural deep voice (in the male range), so i pass often. its only when im topless then i realise im trans and its really upsetting :'(

[@lunaandrine8567]

I can totally relate to that feeling. I tend to totally forget some times. Like, since I have started laser treatment I have almost none hair left in my face, so not even that is a problem. Until like recently a lot of hairs started to grow out that wasn't active earlier, and I took laser treatment again recently and this time a lot of the new hairs got burned of. The bad thing is that those hair is further out because they are loose and they are really black because they're burned... so really when I have actually removed all my hair in my face permanently (hopefully I will be done next year), then I might even forget it more due to not even having to shave my face anymore. What for me really makes it easy to forget is that when walking around just in my panties and passing mirrors, I see a girl with long hair, feminine face and visible boobs. Looking at old pictures, I even struggle myself to see the resemblance. Pictures of my old self looks like could be my younger brother... well, not even necessarily that. I am shocked to actually think my old self looks older then how I am now.

[@aybukebeyza4064]

it's actually a good thing you forgetting you're Trans...🌈🙏😍😎

[@thisisepic3052]

I hope one day I achieve this point to where I forget I'm trans :(

[@iheartigloos]

Thank you for being venerable and honest! It was fascinating to get a peek into your mind.

[@ianaliciaperry5243]

You are so awesome, thank you for everything you do. I think the not comparing yourself one is so important. I was in a young adults support group that really helped me a lot, but when I decided to switch groups for various reasons I also realized that I was comparing myself a lot and kind of minimising and talking down my experience because it didn't match up with those of others. I was trying so hard not to "take up space" and that not allowing myself to just exist was ultimately holding me back.

[@Isak-H]

I hope I can get to that point sometime, it’s always on my mind as a pre-everythinh guy

[@jaylinkw]

That is a good thing (at least in my opinion) a lot of people who are gay or trans have their entire life revolve around this fact(in a bad way) having someone who doesn't revolve around this fact is pretty refreshing for me

[@jaysartescape7653]

I’ve been feeling more and more like I’m trans and have been considering transitioning. I recently discovered your KZbin channel and it has helped me work through and figure out how I feel

[@im-german-made3091]

this is your first video I watched on this channel. my first thought: He was a girl?! I can't believe that because you just look like a normal young man

[@im-german-made3091]

VexStep Thanks I didn't know that :) English is actually not my first language so I don't know many specific words. And I really didn't want to seem rude

[@ferdi9688]

I just wanted to post a comment to this comment thread commenting on how nice it is to see people communicating in a reasonable, kind, respectful way on the internet. This seems rare to me. Have a nice day.

[@abby-zp5ky]

Singhartinger exactly! a normal argument on KZbin results in three people blocked, someone throwing slurs, and just chaos. this was settled so politely and im impressed tbh

[@TheNimmish]

That sounds really positive Jamie,. I'm really pleased for you :)

[@akariSara.]

I have a few trans friends just about to start their journey. One half way through her journey. I honestly wouldn't have known if it wasn't for your title on the video. If I saw you in the street I would never have even realised. I'm watching videos to try and understand more what my friends are going through. You have helped me so much to understand what it means to be trans.☺️

[@ildaou7663]

Jamie, I wanted to make an overall comment. I think you're a very brave young lad. x

[@bubopeli]

Thank goodness, I was needing a video like this. I was so worried that I would never forget, but it's good to know that it's possible to.

[@kiandaran8193]

I hope I will feel that way in the future. I just came out as trans and waiting for my transiton. Thanks for your channel

[@tucksiver8763]

I think the fact that you find yourself forgetting you're trans may be the coolest thing I've ever heard.

[@MyNameIsM19]

Your channel is so wholesome. I love it.

[@smuumi]

I don't really think about it either, but there's always those people bullying and reminding me of it. Im still trying not to think of them or care about them, and it helps a bit

[@charlescampbell9427]

I relate to this so much. I forget I'm nonbinary and i only ever remember when certain people use the wrong pronouns. Glad I'm not the only one 😊

[@malinbergvall]

When I watched your "10 ways I could have come out to my dad" video, in the scene where you had hung up the "it's a boy" garland my brain really expected "your dad" to ask if you had gotten someone pregnant. When the response in stead was asking if you were pregnant my brain was utterly confused for a moment before it settled on me being stupid. Love your channel!

[@tedsava1800]

I see why you would forget, you look fantastic! I would never have guess if you hadn't said so. Well done! :)

[@aileenrese40]

I just wanted to say I'm a girl and I'm not trans, I'm not really a part of the LGBT community except that I'm trying to be supportive. But I'm obsessively binge watching your videos and I find it so so interesting to hear all this. Absolutely great content, keep going Jamie! :)

[@eseruwu]

i have a ftm friend and i hope he will feels as comfortable as you do. his voice is still dropping every time we meet 😄

[@charliecoker2391]

Ahahaha I can't tell my parents theyre not accepting and I'm just here like oh okay, I'm really happy for you Jamie, and you're my inspiration !

[@sixfeetunder888]

i love this channel! very informative and i love your sense of humour so thank you ♥

[@MattEqualsWeird]

It's incredible how far you've come :)

[@rfxx4069]

You're a beautiful man inside and outside too Jamie, we love you! ^^

[@ellizaethe9249]

I'm still very early in my transition and because of that I don't forget I am trans. BUT, what I do forget is how much other people find it strange and disturbing, and so when I walk the streets or go to the mall, people will give me disapproving looks or stare in disgust. One woman yesterday decided that it was appropriate to glare with disapproval and keep eye contact, as if I would suddenly just jump up straight and say, "You know what, ma'am, your glare has helped me see the error in my feeling that I am a woman. I will stop this nonsense immediately! Thank you!"

[@typicalkris9790]

Love your videos Jammi ❤️ Your so amazing and inspiring 😁

[@THATTOYOTAGUY]

shit dude, massive kudos to you for being who you feel like you should've been in the first place ^-^ (got here from buzzf.)

[@llCoupDEtatll]

it's hard. Thinking about it can be really hard, because it gives this feeling of helplessness, and this overall fog of dysphoria. especially when you aren't fully out. I am only out to some of my friends, my parents aren't​ accepting of those sort of things and barely talked to me and were awkward around me for months when I told them I was Bisexual. this is far bigger, and thinking about it, and thinking about having to tell them is scary and oppressive and leaves this big black cloud of dysphoria and anxiety and depression hanging over my head for weeks at a time. I just wish I could be myself.

[@corvusbruxonemeton]

I totally get it. I'm not trans and I know it's not the same, but I tend to forget how socially awkward parts of my identity as person are, like my orientation or my religious identity, and gets confused to why people act weird about them, like if I was the average guy. Again, I absolutely know it isn't the same, but I get the "forgetting about me" part.

[@topcat2023]

This is the first video of yours I've seen, and I think it's great that you forget. Forgive me if I'm wrong but being trans means that you were born in the wrong body. Forgetting just shows how much you have accepted that and I'm sure it's been a long process for you. And there is probably more barriers to come, unfortunately. But just be yourself and enjoy the person you were always meant to be. x

[@iammoriartylocked1488]

Your videos always save my day, thank you

[@Cariyeluxthemuffin]

I was thinking the same thing today! I'm pre-everything, but sometimes it's weird to think that people see me and think I'm a girl?? And that connect femininity with me??? Weird. I almost never think about this nowadays tbh

[@skjoni5]

Im related to this in a way. Not because I'm trans but because of being In a same sex relationship. I always forget that it's not the norm if that makes sense. To me it's normality. Every so often people star at us and I'm reminded that it's not as normal as I feel. It's wired. And then the kids thing comes too of course. As I'm turning 25 soon more and more people my age are having kids. I know it's possible for people like us but it's not as easy.

[@mcrfreako1011]

I feel similar about being a lesbian. Sometimes i forget what my life was like before realizing it. It just felt like a whole new part of my brain was unlocked

[@KaydenTransGuy]

i forget quite often. only really came back into my mind when I had to start scheduling surgeries recently.

[@wesoldhateadmirer161]

I haven't even had t or surgery or a binder and I still forget that I have a female body. The other day it was hot out and I was playing with my shirt and flashed everyone, but no one was looking but it still gave me a heart attack.

[@jammiedodgers13]

I'm so glad things are going well for you, you seem like such a sweetheart ^_^ (and good choice of name, by the way ;) )

[@joshkogane6695]

I wish I could feel like that. I wish I didn't have to worry about being beaten up by guys or getting picked on for looking and identifying as a guy. I wish I could be myself. I wanna get top surgery so badly it's killing me, I'm tired of this body. I'm glad you were able to do what you wanted to, 💙💙💙

[@aprilreed7807]

I am currently pre-t and haven't had top surgery but already feel so much better about myself just being comfortable with who I am. It took me 31yrs to figure out why I could never truly be happy and it was because I'm not who people have always told me I am. I'm not a woman, and I could never be happy with who I am because who I am was always in conflict with who I saw in the mirror and who people told me I am. Right now I am only able to wear a chest binder and wear men's clothes and deodorant, body was, etc but I have also already came out to the public and my family and friends so I rarely think about being trans in my every day life also because I'm happy. Yes when I really stop and think about how my body looks right now or see old pictures of me with longer hair and trying to look cute or sexy and girly and I always felt wrong in all of it but I was so desperately trying to fit into this part I had been assigned to play and now I don't have to pretend to be a woman just because that's how other people see me and it's wonderful. I know most people if not everyone who sees me even with my binder on still can tell very easily that I'm biologically a woman, but the thing is it's not about who people think I am it's about being okay with myself. Basically I've finally realized that most people in my life (and everyone's lives) will have certain expectations for me and I used to try so hard to fit into everyone I cared about, who they wanted me to be, especially like my parents. Since I realized this, I have been able to choose to be the real me despite who or what anyone wants me to be or thinks I should be. Holding myself up to try and meet impossible standards like being a woman when I'm really a transgender man, has helped to alleviate so much anxiety, stress and depression from my life. I still do have problems and issues in my life of course but loving yourself as you are is definitely something everyone should hope to achieve.

[@akbar41]

I know where you're coming from. My situation is different (a gay man who spent most of his life in the closet until it stopped being most of his life). Here in America, it's common to grow up in one place and, ultimately end up in another. (The quintessential story is growing up in the east and ending up in California.). You transition from being from where you are from to having gone through a journey and then, ultimately, your identity is where you end up. It's important to recognize where you came from, but the important thing is who you end up being.

[@kisatiger86]

I am 20 weeks on testosterone.

[@kisatiger86]

Still using womans bathroom. almost used guys one day during a church event, eheh.

[@gasca4906]

Jasper Gourlay j am pre t and I go to the women's bathroom too. I went into a men's public toilet once and I saw *the pee wall* (that's what I call it because that's what it is to me) and the toilet was full of poo to the brim so I said *N O P E* and I went back into the women's bathroom. Haha...

[@Thea1d2r3i4a5n6]

Gasca welcome to the world of males! to the left you will see one pair of nacho stained pants that hasn't been washed in an undetermined amount of days, to your right is a large warning sign to be forgotten saying "try not to sneeze while taking a whizz", yet many immediately remember after just doing it. please enjoy your complementary random boner-you-seem-to-only-get-in-public and mandatory junk adjustment over your life time, thank you for flying air-lastnightspizzaisnowthismorningbreackfestpizza today! and once again, try not to wizz during a steam, just one of many few guy things guys know. but seriously, congrats on many things, good luck and good day

[@gasca4906]

anti evergreen today I was doing sports with my class and a few of the lower class and IT WAS AWKWARD. We were doing soccer and someone suggested that doing girls vs bois would be a good idea but the teacher/tony counted and tony counted and said "there are only 6 girls" and someone was like "BUT *birthname* IS A GIRL" and I was sitting on the ground and everyone else was standing up and then my friend said "no, he's a boi" and she is like " NO SHE IS NOT" and then everyone started yelling like "she's a girl!" And "he's a boi!" And at one point someone said "ITS AN IT" and then someone said "YOU CANT CAN IT AN IT, ITS A HUMAN BEING!" And then that started another yelling-argument. Then I turned to tony and said "I'm transgender" and then he was so confused and then the yelling died down and I told the the girl ( and pretty much the rest) that I would rather be a boi then tony was like "I'm so confused." AND THEN WE PLAYED SOCCER :)

[@Thea1d2r3i4a5n6]

Wow, that sounds so excruciating, but ya did it, you survived. Good job, bro, keep it up

[@rsbrie]

youre such an inspiration! i myself have yet to start hrt, i was wondering if you've noticed any change in your hands? i know that might be a strange thing to ask, but its not something i ever hear about. are your hands any different now from before your medical transition? thanks so much in advance!

[@zairefranklin665]

For me it’s the opposite sometimes since I haven’t Transitioned yet because my mental health is bad and once I get it back up then I can transition like I promised my family. I can’t wait too :) but for me sometimes when someone starts to do something bad to a girl I also get mad but than I’m like “wait I’m not even a girl anymore” “why am I even fighting over this bc I’m not a girl?” But afterwards my mind Dysphoria comes in and is like oh your fake trans bc if u where rlly trans you wouldn’t have forgotten you weren’t cis anymore. It’s like a bad feel after I forget that I’m not cis anymore it makes me feel fake trans😭✋🏽 and I keep getting emotional about it when I do that sometimes. It rlly makes me sad when that happens.

[@wikfork4870]

this feeling is why I try to surround myself with other trans people or chill af cis gender people. being pre t and all I get reminders while hanging with most cis gender folks especially if they're not lgbt+

[@tylerparrish-lewis8956]

It was funny because I was in front of the mirror after I had taken a shower (so I wasn’t wearing a binder) and then I backed up and kinda was shocked for a second because in the moment I just forgot I was trans and had- well- ya know. 😂

[@assassinscreedreallifepran1080]

Tyler Matthew I know how you feel 😂😂😂

[@JamesS-xl2rb]

hope to one day reach this point :) great video as always mate

[@toastghost2448]

I would love to just forget (the only time that happens is when I get really into an episode of the great British bake off) it is just constantly there in my mind, screaming at me, and the fact that I haven't even come out to anyone or done many things to make myself more masculine just exacerbates the issue. More on that note - I always feel like I'm lying, when people look at me they see a female, a girl, but that's just not what I am. It is just so tiring. I wake up and am reminded that I feel awful about who I am or what I look like - the image in front of the mirror always feels so distant like the person staring back at me - the one with hips, small shoulders, feminine legs and long hair is so very fake.

[@idkmanwhyigottaputmyname1804]

I'm so envious of you! :( Your height, your face, everything! Like, 6'1" I believe you are! I could only dream! T-T I hope to pass as well as you do one day ^^ (even though it's unlikely).

[@JayLKing]

I can't wait to get where you are

[@sanctionedangel]

I've been on T for about 3 years now and I still think about being trans all the time. I had top surgery in January and I'm still adjusting to the fact that I don't have to hide my chest under layers of clothing anymore. I hope I can eventually not think about being trans so much.

[@kajawojtkowska6306]

Can I just say you look like the coolest guy I've ever seen?

[@TheOnlyQwin]

When I think about having kids now, I don't even think about that. I just think of the fact I got another reason to keep close with my brother. 👌🏻

[@jennifervilla5199]

I feel like that's something good. It's who you are, its a good thing to not have a reminder of having something biologically that wasn't yours but remembering your life as right now for what you actually have, your actual true identity.

[@schwammi]

I forget sometimes when I'm like not entirely conscious. When I'm in half sleep or just woke up or something.

[@alexsancibrian]

I couldn’t have kids to begin with because a surgery I had as a baby and I’m ok with it, I was also adopted so I’d rather give a child a chance of a loving home just like I was able to be a part of

[@vcalebs]

Jamie! I came out to my grandmother with success! I also met Aydian Dowling! She was good with me being trans and suspected it all along. But she doesn't use my name or pronouns. :-(

[@jacecmiller]

I have stepped up to the urinal a time or two completely forgetting that i don't pee standing up (anymore anyway). I am now comfortable enough that i don't mind sitting to pee.

[@velaethia6]

This happens to me a lot. Especially when playing video games. Concepts like gender and such wash away as I dive into another world. It's also why I started dissociating. To get away from thought.

[@velaethia6]

The reproductive dysphoria is like one of the worse ones I still feel to this day. Most forms have faded over times as I've been transitioned. I'd love nothing more than to bear a child.

[@doormatt4159]

I have had a binder for some time now and it's just a habit to put it on every day. I put it on on the weekends and my mom always questions why I do so, I do it because without it I feel like a stranger. I need my binder, I need a flat chest to feel like me. I'm not on any hormones or hormone blockers yet so my voice and that time of the month kinda just remind me that I'm not who I want to be. I have to wait till I'm 17 then we can start talking about hormones. Then I look over and there's 6 year olds getting put on blockers and getting surgery and I'm just thinking, 'What about me, why can't I do that?'. It's just hard waking up and realizing I'm not me, I'm not what I envisioned when I was younger. I envisioned a boy, a man, with a deep voice and flat chest. But what I see is a girl with a high voice and not flat chest. Every so often I'll be lucky enough to get called by male pronouns in public but usually my parents are around so they'll "correct" them, saying I'm female. Some people will use male pronouns but then correct themselves and say female pronouns, they get it right but then realize I was born female and change it. Whenever I get called female in school by teachers and peers it just puts a damper on my mood and I'm just kinda off for the rest of the day, even strangers put me off, just out on the streets. It just lets me know that I'm not good enough, lets me know I still appear as a girl even though I've cut my hair, changed my clothing, I still appear female. My voice just justifies that. I can't talk to strangers anymore. (Sorry about my rant there, it's just that I've got no one to talk to about this type of stuff. I can't talk to any of my friends because they stopped talking to me too. And my parents aren't all supportive about it. They are supportive just not in public. They also don't use the right pronouns or ask how I'm feeling and having depression and anxiety (as well as appearance issues) doesn't help.) Well that's me signing off, Thanks for making videos🙃.

[@angharad879]

Literally I always forget that my boyfriend is trans. Sometimes people ask me about it and I'm like 'oh yeahhhh he's trans, I forgot'

[@YourNextNobody]

I have a question. I wanna come out as male, but I'm to scared to tell anyone. How did you come out?

[@katier5124]

I love this guy! I wish he was my friend! 😊

[@frankdelgrosso8297]

I have always though how frustrating it must be to be trans and know the transition would mean no kids with my own DNA. That is something which I can only imagine the pain of. Well not really though I am 42 with no kids so there is a very high probability I will not have any either. I know how much this disturbs me so on some level I think I can relate. Though I am capable of having kids it is very likely I will not, and in my case it means the end of my mother’s genetic line. I will only say that many children need good parents and don’t have them. Adoption may not be exactly what you wanted but it is a fantastic thing to do for those kids waiting for a real home.

[@dalial-nasian8655]

I'm going through through the same this I'm 13 and female ever since I was little I always said I was half boy half girl. I'm in the process of coming out to my family as ftm transgender and I really hope that they understand and support me

[@adrianamadeusz26]

I love your videos 💓💓 You're amazing 👍

[@kimithaxcool]

this dude is so nice uvu his personality and all that

[@ShieniLicksOnLemons]

the finger snapping in the background music made me think that there's a clock somewhere in my room (and I was so confused as to where that'd come from) and I was ready to go on a grand quest to find it and throw it out the window... I hate loud clocks so much lmao also hey if my eyesight isn't completely fucked up it seems you have an industrial piercing on your left ear? I have one too and I just wanna ask if it was painful for you? because for me it was unreal and I got this minor complication from it that made the healing process last more than two months instead of one month

[@dezirose2408]

you"re amazing Jamie!!! :) hi Shaaba :)

[@charliepaige1062]

I hope you don't mind me asking but I've never heard of tester gel, or at least not properly and was curious. Is it like injects, do they work along side injections - just a little confused but really wanting to know. Thank you

[@Lily_May]

He is a good looking dude. I wouldn't have known he was trans if I just saw him in public and not on youtube.