I Got Kicked Out of Wits Medical School 10 Years Ago| Overcoming Failure & Starting Afresh| Nou’rish

[@Nou_rish]

Hi there, I hope you found this video useful. Based on the comments and emailed requests I've made a follow up series about academic exclusion in Medical school. Here's the first Video in the series. Drops 8th November at 12:00 CAT kzbin.info/www/bejne/a6qbdXeleM15kKc

[@rendanimulaudzi9831]

I am currently going through the exact same thing just different majors and Advice of how you got though Stellenbosch would help right know because yoh

[@Nou_rish]

@@rendanimulaudzi9831 ​ Hi Rhendani, I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through this. That’s a very broad question. I had no issues at Stellenbosch. I just studied, showed up for all my compulsories, consulted with lecturers if I didn’t understand something, I tried to find past papers and I tried to balance school and a social life. I really enjoyed my undergrad, it wasn’t easy but it was less stressful than medicine for me. Most of all I really believed that I could complete this degree and do well. I hope that some what answers you

[@rendanimulaudzi9831]

I meant that although you found a plan B to go to stellenbosch. While you were at stellenbosch how did you process not chasing medical studies at that time

[@Nou_rish]

@@rendanimulaudzi9831 I think you misunderstood my journey. I was getting a BSc with the sole purpose of getting back to medicine. So even if I wasn’t in medical school I knew what I needed to do with what I had at the time to get back in. And I had specific checkpoints at which I could apply to other universities. So after graduating my BSc, after honours and after MSc, but applications need money so I only choose 2 checkpoints. Regardless of what I was doing working and getting experience or studying a postgraduate degree it was to get into medicine. That focus never shifted, and as a benefit I did really well in those places that if medicine didn’t work out I’d still have a fulfilling career in science and academia.

[@bonganimahlangu1454]

Hi. I am only seeing this video now. God is really good, and I hope many people will watch your story and see that when God has put it in your heart , it will always hunt you. This is a TV moment. An authored book moment. I am proud of you. We share a similar story. God is good, really.

[@abigailmolusi6483]

Guys I completed my degree in exactly 3 years but have been struggling to settle at a job for different reasons... now I am back at school at age 30 so relax..and allow yourself to build from wherever you are.most importantly make sure your qualification is relevant in today's reality.

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you so much for sharing your story with all of us. Our passions and what we love aren’t always going to be what we do and what pays us. Relevance IS important. I hope things are looking up my fellow sister in the “grown folks back in school” movement. May your journey be kind to you and also be very successful in what you’ve chosen to pursue. And May your testimony continue to inspire many. 🤍

[@tehriseala4055]

I was academically excluded from law school in 2017, after dealing with a year long depressive episode. I can never articulate the shame of coming back home after having been the first one in my family to make it that far. I was on a fully funded academic merit bursary, and everything was in place for me to do really well. But i failed, despite having shown so much potential, and for many years since then ive been so afraid of going back to school. Im scared that I'll fail again and disappoint everyone and myself again and the trauma that arises from being in that situation! Few can truly understand it. And im struggling with whether im going back for good reasons, or just to prove im not a lost cause. Like, is my self worth tied to having a degree? I wont lie, its a huge source of insecurity for me. I constantly feel underachieved especially when looking at where my peers are now, the people i used to outdo academically. Its tough. But im going back this year in August, and im mentally preparing myself to be secure in being "the older student", im 26. Im trusting God for that journey, wherever it leads. And I'm thankful for that hurdle in a way, if i survived that, then i can survive anything. Going back older, with a bit more self awareness and being more equipped with the tools to helpe cope mentally, i think its going to end well, i pray that it does. Thank you for sharing your stories, it is good to know im am not alone. And to anyone who's having to start over in life, be it in academics, career, relationships, i salute and honor you for your bravery. Especially in your mid to late 20s because its a time when we are expected to be settled and making strides in careers and such. Im deeply touched and inspired. I genuinely wish for a breakthrough in each of your lives, my prayers are with you. Godspeed and God first❤️❤️❤️

[@Ntlentle_]

All the best❤️

[@ziziphosobekwa1688]

hey Tehri, thank you for spreading positivity. You have such a beautiful energy. Your message brought so much comfort and solidarity. You're going to come up on top with your journey! sending you lots of strength and infinite joy while you try to figure life out ✨🌻✨🌻 ❤️ May you have a beautiful beautiful success story at the end of it all.

[@ushing5718]

I totally understand you. I’m having the same experience this year. I don’t know if I really do wanna go back to school next year 🥺

[@tshepangreginaldtshekoeng7673]

Hey Tehri. I just want to say do it even if you feel scared and keep asking God to give you the strength to do it.There will be times when you feel like you are failing again but trust God and the process and keep on grinding. God knows the desires of your heart and in fact, He wants to see you pursue what is in your heart. You will be ok.Cheers.

[@Nou_rish]

Wow… so proud of you Terhi. It’s September so you’ve probably already began the academic year. Be kind to yourself, give yourself grace and GET HELP. We are behind you and praying that you exceed your own expectations

[@toryheart4380]

I can wholeheartedly relate to this ...I was a B+/ A-ish student in matric and as a result I got into med school immediately after matriculating ...honestly I wasn't ready for uni..korr any degree nje,not just medicine, but I went anyway..I got distracted,grooved, procrastinated to study.. wasted time doing nothings basically like bingewatching shows,anime and movies instead of studying ...then my results reflected that and that's when I had deteriorating mental health and got into a more severe depressive state ..I've always been an unusually anxious and sad kid growing up (but never received any help because being black and from a disadvantaged background etc )but I always got validated by my academics,since I was a top student and all. Now 7 years later post-exclusion I'm still a mess,no degree to my name and have resorted to abusing cannabis to cope with whatever sadness and darkness I'm feeling within myself...I tried studying different courses...I always dropped out because I'm still damaged from what happened to me and I haven't forgiven myself fully or at all and honestly I didn't really like these other degrees...but I'm working on dusting myself and do something with my life

[@elgeestudio7954]

Anything is possible, go back to school

[@dinaledi4085]

Please pick up the pieces and go back to varsity . Get all the help you need in terms of therapy . Don’t give up please . You are already suffering . At least fight forward . It will be worth it in the end.

[@dreamchaser1364]

I can totally resonate with your story, I was also there . The trauma, anxiety, feeling like a failure and literally sitting at home and feeling sorry for myself, and that totally changed my family's narrative about me a bright student. I started hearing about how stupid I was and how I repeated a module and got excluded. Fast forward to 9 years later got myself a job and started building myself again, the company I work for funded my studies got my undergrad and post grad in a different field than the one I had initially studied. I am now working as a manager and the possibilities are endless. It is still possible in your 30's . God has a way of redirecting you into your purpose please do not despair. Love and light

[@grumpy-mcbaldsoo-killing-hoes]

Dude you’re not alone I swear went from a straight A student to my mental health jeopardising that the worse part is how easy it was to fall on the opposite end of the spectrum and how teachers and family disregarded my health and dubbed it as laziness I still have ptsd over that and I’ve internalised it ever since to the point where I no longer feel comfortable talking about my mental health

[@grumpy-mcbaldsoo-killing-hoes]

@Mhlengi you’re not alone

[@fatal_moon4570]

Hit me so deep when you said "it hurts to be good at everything except the one thing you really want" because it feels like the expectations we hold for ourselves are so so so high and and when they are not met we question our ability to do the thing we know we want to be. ❤️

[@simmypp4498]

“Someone is out there needing this” I’m someone. Someone is me 😭 thank you so much for this video ❤️❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Omphile, please know that you are not alone. The journey at every stage is a struggle but we don't give up...Keep getting up and trying again, one day you'll tell your story and we will Praise God with you.

[@simmypp4498]

@@Nou_rish thank you ❤️❤️

[@KEA_COOKS]

I relate to you,in a different perspective. 🥰

[@cashmagesh5135]

i dropped out 10yrs ago & wasted a good 4/5yrs doing nothing but drinking beer... late 2017 i realized sh!t I'm running out of time. 2018 went back to school - started all over again on a whole different degree. I'm now in my final year.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Magesh. It’s not how you start your journey but how you finish it. Congratulations on your degree in advance and for picking yourself up from self destruction. May God bless your journey and use your experience to help other. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏾🤍

[@sweetieboo991]

Just failed my one of my final Mbbs exams that qualifies me to be a doctor. I’ve also had a friend who was asked to withdraw due to failing as well, they allowed my friend one more try and last week he completed all of his medical school rotations. You aren’t alone and I’m happy to have found you. Both me and my friend are Christians as well

[@GontseModisane]

heyy which university are you attending

[@Nou_rish]

@Sweetieboo991 I’m sorry to hear about your experience and that of your friends. I hope you’ve taken some time away to just catch your breath before studying again for your rewrite. You will both be in my prayers 🤍🙏🏾

[@4dgreentea]

I was told I will graduate a semester late from medical school today and I was absolutely crushed because I’d never failed before. This video has saved me. Thank you so much.

[@Nou_rish]

lol 😂 I’d take a semester over 12 years any day. I hope you crush this semester and be a kind and knowledgeable doctor. You are done, they just need to know that you’re ready. I believe in you 🤍

[@lwandlezondi9658]

Prof Wadee at Wits told me that Medicine was not for me and I also didn't want to do Medicine but I wanted to prove him wrong ,it's been 11 years now since I proved him and myself wrong.

[@Nou_rish]

Lol 😂 Favourite Comment Hands down! Go Lwandle, May this path be kinder to you

[@lwandlezondi9658]

@@Nou_rish ,all the best to you, your story is inspiring many people.

[@anelisahohlo3064]

Is he the dean?😂😂

[@lwandlezondi9658]

@@anelisahohlo3064 ,He was,but He got older and his fingers had arthritis and became longer and a bit skewed so He used them to steal millions of Govt money (allegedly),and Hawks caught his crooked hands and arrested the crook.

[@anelisahohlo3064]

@@lwandlezondi9658 really hope he's the one who rejected me in 2017😂

[@ntokozombuli6580]

I've watched motivation videos, I've watched inspirational videos but none have ever shook me like this one because everyone comes here when they have made it not while their in the process, so I thank you for this.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Ntokozo. Thank you for watching and the kind words. 💐💛

[@keotshepilemandona9882]

The comments are so theurapic , am going through the process of academic hardship, am so depressed and feel like life is inconveniencing me , I study hard and always want the best out of myself but the results are always opposite

[@Nou_rish]

Tshepi Hi. Sis life is Hard especially if you want more from it. You’ve got to clear your mind and keep a realistic perspective. If you’re studying and not passing then change your study method. If you’re not studying enough then work on time management If you try hard but just never have the strength then work on your mental health and get help. Ask students above you how they got through. You are capable, just believe and act on it

[@lindanimazibuko1974]

thank u queen im also in my 7th year doing a four year degree struggles don't define our destiny

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Lindani, you’re soooo close to the finish line . Please keep pushing and thank you for sharing your story with us 💐

[@mahlohonololebuso741]

Yoh Bibi, your story!! I am lost for words. Look I am only 23 and I feel like a failure due to a number of unfortunate events in my life and my mental health has been compromised but when I watched your video, my heart dropped. It got me thinking. Imagine wanting something so bad all your life and every time you feel like you are within reach, it slips right through your fingers. Not to forget the added torment of life. I pray for things to work out for you honestly. I commend you. You give me strength. I am feeding off of you at this current moment.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Mahlo, always remember you define how circumstances make you feel and how you choose to think about things. Failure is LEARNING, it is NOT final. Be strategic and learn what it is the failure is showing you . I pray that you’re well and are doing better.

[@simphiwemalinga4189]

Same here going through a lot and feel like a failure and I’m only 22😭

[@mahlohonololebuso741]

@@simphiwemalinga4189 Eish girl it's tough. Let's just hang in there. We just have to carry on. It's so discouraging sometimes I won't lie

[@oliviajoans]

I remember starting Med school at age 18 and being so confused It was terrible I had social fun throughout the 6 years but honestly I barely made it When people would fail and repeat the entire year even if it was just one module I would shiver knowing I had just hit the pass mark You are so strong and you have succeeded It is done

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you so much for sharing this, and congratulations on completing the journey, without the obstacle of failure. That truly is a gift. I hope I'll one day come back to you comment to tell you that, It is finished...

[@sibongisenitawoni4671]

Thanks for sharing this. I was academically excluded in 2015 its only this year I feel the courage to go to back to school next year. I no longer have anger towards myself and books. ❤️❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Sibongiseni. Thank you for being honest about your journey with us, it isn’t an easy or smooth experience coming back to places of trauma. You will be in my prayers and I hope you achieve your wildest dreams

[@jonaskali5854]

I have never related to anyone who is a med student like you. I experienced some of the things you. I also did experience excluded at UP in my final year with an addition of 2 years of my degree years. It literally crashed me so much the expectations that of am completing my degree this year to having to restart again from scratch. I am now in my next university completing my second year this year and next year it is my final year I am already on the what happened at UP cannot happen again I am doing very well but yah final year things changes and go upside down, I need to get a very high average so that I can get into wits gemp and if I get in I will be in medical campus again (my degree at UP was medical sciences) anatomy will creep again and difficulty in understanding physiology again will start but am hopeful not sure if I dealt with the exclusion don't know if am really pushing myself to get great marks academically due to trauma as a positive note or am just scared to fail again. Right now it seems like am managing but will I be fine later I also strongly believe in God and really wouldn't have passed the exclusion phase and start over if wasn't for having faith and believing in HIm.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Jonas, Thank you for sharing your journey with everyone and for the feedback. I’m going to be praying for you, we serve a wonderful and loving Father who will NEVER leave us destitute. We just need to do our best and leave Him to take care of the rest.

[@amogelangmolokwe5334]

I have watched so many videos about med school journey and this is definitely the most inspiring. Glory be to God !!

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Amo, Thank you for seeing value in my story. It’s far from over but we praise God for progress. May your journey to/in medschool be fruitful 💛

[@amogelangmolokwe5334]

Thank you ❤️Which school in Mafikeng did you attend?

[@matselisotsoenyanesekonyel456]

I feel like this was meant to pick me up, just what I needed as i walk in a similar journey. Thank you so much. I see so much strength, tenacity and bravery and May God heal your scars and brighten up your journey.

[@Nou_rish]

Amen and Thank You 🙏🏾. I’ve prayed for you and I do hope you get your happy ending, this journey is hard but don’t ever loose hope.

[@Kamogelo-Karabo]

You are so strong 😥. I'm a freshman, just matriculated. You are teaching me the reality of "things don't always go your way" it's such a scary thing to think about but that's how life is. I'm really moved by your experience

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Kamo, its a difficult reality but realising the unpredictability of life early and that you have to adapt is going to be of great benefit to you. Even if the journey is filled with winds and turns you keep moving forward.

[@Kamogelo-Karabo]

@@Nou_rish thank you for the advice sister ❤️ stay blessed. I love you

[@mawongamalanti7654]

thanks for sharing this intimate part of your journey, you have healed us and lots of more watching this. God bless you and I know you will be a great clinician as you won't take anything for granted. Please continue being a light and heal the med students going through a lot. I started my journey at Wits and ended it in Stellenbosch. God will fight for you no matter what you go through, no matter how long it takes. God bless you my sister.

[@Nou_rish]

Hi Mawonga, you spoke my literal heart. I’m thankful that you’ve seen the victory in your journey. Hope medicine has been kind to you

[@bellzseisa2935]

I just want to give you a big hug and tell you that you not alone.❤️ Your testimony will give hope to another person who was on the verge of giving up. Thank you for being strong enough to share your story. It'll be a point of reference to many. I pray for better days in your life. Fulfillment & prosperity ❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Bellz I’m not a hugger but I’m compelled to send you a big virtual hug BACK. Thank you for the response you left under polleys comment. Thank you for this message, it’s much appreciated. Knowing that I am not alone … man. May you prosper in your pursuits and have an even greater testimony to share. Blessings and Love and Light 💛

[@Just_Khosii]

I needed to hear this.. I'm at a point in my life where I just want to start over after failure I have not even dealt with.. I cried so much when you kept trying to hold your tears back.. Thank you for restoring my faith, making me believe that I still can achieve the goal I set for myself a long time ago. Take care and God bless you❤

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nomkhosi. I thank God this message has served you, but I’m sorry I made you cry. I relate to how you feel so much cause I was once there, keep on praying sis and KEEP on pushing. Thank you for the well wishes

[@vuvuleem_2219]

Yazi I wasn't accepted into Wits for medicine neh and I did BCOMPT Accounting Science. Hayi I am not happy shame I want to go back and try again even it means I have to redo mt matric. Like I can't live nje like this. Thank You So Much For This Sisi. All the best and don't forget that the biggest blessing is in the journey and not necessarily about finishing the journey. Love you lots

[@preciousndlovu8100]

Do you know how to navigate into doing adult matric?

[@Messenger2809]

Similar experience: Excluded from UCT in 1996. 2. Eventually went back to school in 2004 - did a diploma in Internal Auditing, BCompt, Hons in Fin Acc. 3. Worked as a Consultant and eventually started an Accounting and Tax practice with my wife in 2015. 4. End of 2017, at age 40, diagnosed with depression and slowing down made me realise that I wasn't aligned with my purpose, and Medicine came calling again. 5. 2018 - Applied to get into Wits' GEMP programme, passed the entrance exam, but got rejected due to low Honours marks. 6. 2019 - Went from giving up to registering for a PGDBM with Mancosa to improve my chances. 7. Finally got accepted by Wits into the 3rd year MBBCh, on the 10th of Jan 2020. 8. Now about to go into the 6th and final year. In other words, I say go for it!

[@thusanangsikhosana468]

Thank you so much for sharing this story. It is somewhat relatable to a lot of us who were rejected multiple times. It makes one feel not abnormal to realise that there are others who are still battling with scars of the past even though they've made it through. I just pray that you don't let the little stumbles along the way (i.e. failing a test) be a description of your whole journey in medical school. the one thing Ive been trying to teach myself, is to always try and forgive myself and forget about the mistakes and let them not cloud my way forward into this degree. sorry for the long paragraph 😬

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Thasanang. 💛 This journeys hard but it’s a hard I’d choose a thousand times over. Thank you for your prayers, and May it be so. Forgiving ourselves is important and necessary. May we grow and learn from our traumas. Take care and Thank you so much ❤️

[@portiangoepe]

Bibi, you are such a light to the world. Praise God for how far He has carried you & how impactful your testimony is. I absolutely love this!

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Portia, Praise God ka nnete 💛🙌🏾. I pray that your testimony will move mountains. Thank you for watching

[@alizwathwala2367]

as a witsie I can relate and I love how you fought for it and I am so proud of you

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you so much Alizwa, I really do appreciate it. Now to keep fighting, cause the edge never stops

[@EnWAAI8]

Our stories are almost identical. Thank you so much for this as ive been feeling like im the only only one going through the trauma of exclusion from varsity. You're a hero just for the bravery of sharing your story and giving people like me and others hope🙏🙌

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nyash. Thank you for watching, it was my pleasure sharing even though it was hard. I hope you don’t give up on you and please don’t listen to the opinions of others olabout what you’re capable of. Keep pushing and fighting for your dreams. 🤍

[@ujjustkidding]

Well-spoken, smart, and in-touch with reality. I love your energy and may God continue increasing you ❤❤

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you so much ❤️ I pray that you’re journey may be kinder to you 🙏🏾

[@nontuthuzelonkumanda1783]

i currently got rejected by all the university that i applied to for health science and im in a very dark place, this video helped me to not punish myself about my rejection. Thank you soo much

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nontuthuzelo. I hope this showed you that those rejections DO NOT DEFINE you and who you will be. Wena stay focused and decided on you actions. Keep applying, trust me , when the time is right for YOU, things will work out

[@nontuthuzelonkumanda1783]

@@Nou_rish thank you so much, I definitely will keep applying. I won't give up

[@NyashaMuz]

This is amazing, I am a med student in Zim and we have a similar system of "maintaining image". Thank you for this, I've never looked at Jacob that way, never related with his story. I have been struggling with that guilt of failure to meet goals in med school and watching this I realized how much I was tying my identity to this Medicine thing. God Bless you.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nyasha. Thank you for sharing this insight into the Zim Medical Fraternity, I hope you find meaning in your wrestle with Life and that you prevail. May you be blessed on your journey

[@mathaboluciandumo6319]

As for walking in Braam around 2 am 😅! On a serious note: thanks for sharing your experience and being so authentic about it. Your tenacity is truly admirable. May God hold your hand through Medical school.🙏🏾 🌻❤️

[@mercymsezeni838]

Aah! You ministered to my soul. Still healing from a similar experience. Praying we'll truly understand that our vocation does not define our worth. May God bless you.

[@nicolendlovu1342]

I had to pause the video just to take a few minutes to cry😢.. the music didn’t help in holding back the tears either😂. When you said “it still hurts” I really had to sob because I relate to you so much. Thank you for making this video. I couldn’t fully make sense of what I’ve been thru in the past 7years until you put it in such perfect words. You are God-sent. All your suffering has not been in vain, *2nd Corinthians 1:3-6, I promise you.. your story just helped me gain so much more perspective and acceptance in my own journey. You are such a light❤️💡. God bless you. I’ll definitely be praying for you

[@Nou_rish]

Hi Sis, I really struggle to find words when I come across others who’ve walked similar paths. I’m sorry for your pain, for the self doubt that comes with this, for the loneliness and frustration. I thank God for our journey though because it’s shows just how humans resilient humans can be. You will get to where you need to and where you want if you never stop pursuing your dream. May God align your dreams and reality ❤️

[@refiloemtsweni1316]

I am 19- years old studying 2nd year Audiology at Wits University. I'm in Audiology not because I like it ..but because I got rejected in Medicine . I got excellent results in matric but because of competition being tough I guess my marks couldn't secure a space for me. I'm still longing to be a medical doctor ,like I'm thinking about it everyday! I sometimes ask myself if I'm not good enough to be a medical doctor! ....Thank you so much for sharing your story.♥️

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Refiloe. I hope you’re well. There are so many ways around getting in. You can try an unlimited amount of times no matter your age. Look at audiology as your new matric, a stepping stone to where you want to go and an opportunity to improve your marks. Kill that Degree sis !

[@refiloemtsweni1316]

@@Nou_rish Thank you so much!♥️💯

[@Smoothie_T]

Firstly I'm new on your channel and believe me when I says, you sharing your story motivated me because I was and am still going through something similar. Thank you so much or sharing . I now know academically things can go wrong and it is not the end of us m now doing my first year in financial Markets and I will make you proud.. Thank you much LOVE. May God Bless you

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Tshepang. You going back is a show of your resilience, determination and strength. Proud of you in the Present. Please keep pushing past the negative thoughts and they imposter syndrome. And May God bless you on this journey

[@keagolda]

To be honest I’m thinking here that going back will trigger you and your anxiety and you talk about that,there are still other universities you could’ve gone to get through to being a doctor and not go through that trauma again But you are strong and your dreams will be achieved ,going back to a place where you faced rejection and failure isn’t easy You will overcome the mental struggles and achieve your goal All the best

[@Nou_rish]

Before this experience I had never really had to deal with any personal mental health issues, so you're absolutely right in your analysis. However, today I am more mentally astute, healed and equipped to deal with facing trauma, difficult situation and overcoming my fears. This experience hasn't at all been rainbows and unicorns but it's been to my benefit and I am humbled and challenged daily but mostly I am grateful. Facing rejection and failure isn't easy but if overcome it breeds resilience, conviction and perseverance.

[@vuvuleem_2219]

This is the 1st time I am watching you. I am glad I did. Keep going Sisi. All the best.

[@RatoHludi]

What a beautiful story. I know it must have taken soo much from you to share this but from hearing this I definitely Believe God put you back there for a reason far beyond just being a doctor. You might be the voice for everyone who is traumatized to silence. You might be the one to change all things that need to change. Powerful.

[@Nou_rish]

Joh Sammi, it took everything to share and lay my past and fears out there. But no regrets, telling your truth and not being a slave to it has a liberating effect. And I pray that whatever my purpose it, May it be fulfilled. Thank you so much for sharing

[@lisankomo]

Came across this video after watching my academic exclusion video. Listen, you're not alone, I am not alone. So many students go through what we went through which is why it's important to share our stories so that others don't fall and remain on the ground because it's not easy to get back up but it is required. I am sorry you went through what you went through. However, as God's children we believe it all happened for a reason and you will see the goodness of the Lord. God bless you sis❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Hi Lisa. Thank you for sharing, May we one day share testimonies of victory, of joy and fulfilment.

[@khanyisiletwala7680]

Thos resonates so deeply with me. I also got excluded from wits. This happened 5 years ago and I've only obtained a Bachelor's degree since. I feel like I have not done enough to be redeemed. I believe deeply that I can do it. I pray all the time for God to give me a path and it always goes back to medicine. So much anxiety, so much self doubt. I feel so stuck

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Khanyi, I relate so much. Exclusion is traumatic and it challenges everything you thought you were and could be, Please allow yourself the grace to Heal. When I came back to Wits my mind was in shambles from that experience and I almost lost the opportunity but I got help just in time. Medicine will come if YOU keep at it, apply everywhere and do amazing where you Currently Are. It will come together, took me 11 years to find my way back and I guarantee you I will be a much better doctor now than if I'd completed this degree the first time around.

[@maggieramara]

Guys, Bibi has really went through a lot. I pray that may you prosper in all that you do and may God give you the courage and the peseverance to keep fighting. You have just inspired me after getting rejected for medicine.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Maggie. It really has been a lot but it’s also fostered me to be who I am. So I’m grateful. Thank you for the well wishes and you will be in my prayers, don’t ever stop pursuing your dream.

[@SofiaLopez-ql2jk]

I went searching through KZbin for someone with a story like this. Thank you so much for sharing God’s story through you, thank you for listening to His push for you to share this. ❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you for watching Sofia and I hope you make it through whatever your struggle with medicine/academics may be. May God be with you ❤️

[@beckieshilume3106]

M too

[@lifewithmahalia]

This😢. Yoh, I cant wait to share my academic journey. Its been WILD. I'm so glad you came out better❤😊you are so amazing

[@Nou_rish]

Hey @lifewithmahalia Life is wild nje, thank you for the feedback. looking forward to hearing about your journey 🤍🙏🏾

[@lettandjodhi3476]

I am that someone that needed to hear this, wow what a glorious testimony I thank God for your life and also for giving you the courage to share this with us, your loved and your definitely going to be okay and archive your end goal. Thank you thank you God bless you💙💙🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Letta. So glad this was of value. It’s comments like yours that let me know there was a purpose in my pain. Thank you for the vote of confidence

[@FelicitySister5468]

Oh my friend 🥺 this took me back! I’m so proud of you ❤️ I pray that God walks with you and leads you to victory - however that may look like. I’m with you in spirit this time round my manqoba 😅 Love you!

[@Nou_rish]

🥲 I have no words. I appreciate you my friend

[@beckieshilume3106]

Going through exactly this in my life right now ☺️…really needed this type of inspiration…indeed destiny can be delayed but not denied

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Beckie, I really am sorry for you to find yourself here but I pray that this challenged you to never ever stop pursuing this if it’s really your desire. Pause, reflect and decide then act.

[@verabolraymond4032]

You not alone this year 🙏......I can't stop my thoughts of possibly outcome

[@anelisahohlo3064]

Me too❤

[@neokoalagobe8484]

Your so inspiring,and I can relate so much 🥺🥺 we might not be where we are but like u I’m so grateful to God for where I am ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 the testimony continues and medical school will bow 🤞🏾🙏🏾

[@Nou_rish]

The attitude of gratitude!!! Neo you will make it just don’t give up ever. keep me in prayer tuu and IT SHALL BOWWW!

[@rebecca5334]

I used to struggle a lot with anxiety. And it was centred around academics. Last year I learnt that I usually put Academics on the pedestal. And that is very unhealthy and damaging. Everyday I am learning not to put Academic as number one. Yes it is important but it is not part of my identity. Academics does not reflect who you are and that’s on PERIODTT! Your best is all you need to give.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Rebecca this was a difficult lesson to learn and I resonate with everything you’ve said. When we know better, we do better right?

[@Nou_rish]

I think we need to strike a balance too. Prioritising our wellness but also overcoming our academic traumas and putting in the work. 💙

[@mphomashego1293]

I thank GOD for this testimony, your beautiful story!!! Our GOD is really good, this got me so in awe of his love for us..He remains GOD through it all

[@Nou_rish]

Amen 🙏🏾. Thank for seeing beauty in my journey.

[@KOPANO_TAU]

Honestly varsity is not a walk in a park. I think it's overwhelming and it's not as easy

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Kopano, very very true 🤍. It’s a lot but it CAN be done and IT WILL BE conquered.

[@dianaomari2992]

In 2019, I applied to almost 20 schools on common app and and got rejected by all internationally. I used up all the faith I had in me while applying that I was hanging on by a thread of faith after the decisions came in. I began to doubt the existence of God. I stopped praying and whenever I did, I blamed God for everything! I got depressed and suicidal and always felt I will never be enough for anything. Most of my colleagues made it out of the country. My life felt as though I was in a race, the whistle got blown and I stood there while the other participants took off. I am currently in college in my country but that was never the dream. I need to trust God, so I have given faith another chance. I never talk about it because I felt I needed to heal in order to share. But this video has taught me otherwise. The number of rejected applicants who are still out there, depressed and suicidal are many. You could be one and it's absolutely okay. I know you feel like a disappointment and that you will never be good enough... Don't worry you are not alone. But staying with such a mindset never did me good. Praying and talking to God more did me good. Give it a shot!

[@Nou_rish]

Thank @Diana for sharing your testimony, this is definitely a step in the direction of healing and I pray those reading this find wisdom and comfort in your sharing. All the best with your studies 🤍💐

[@dianaomari2992]

@@Nou_rish thank you Hun. Good luck too!

[@bongiperez7565]

@@dianaomari2992 oh my goodness this was me too in 2019. I got rejected by all the schools I applied to on common app. I became so depressed because America was in my plans for my life. Especially the liberal program where you can mix majors and minors. In my home country you have to know for sure. Sure enough, I got into my home country university as a depressed individual, feeling lost, not to mention I got sick and I struggled academically. Imagine being in a university for 5 years for a 3 year degree. I'm devastated. This was never me. But I've learnt to accept things fast and not carry them over because I don't want the next step of my life to be one where I wonder "What if?"

[@dianaomari2992]

@@bongiperez7565 you got this hun...I am so proud of you

[@bongiperez7565]

@@dianaomari2992 Thank you so,so much 🙏 You got this too👊

[@moturayoabiodunamwell5886]

I salute you my sister. Thank you for sharing this testimony, God is good. May you be blessed and may God lift you from glory to glory. May you shine and your life glorify God. I thank God for you life and yes you will be victorious.

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you Moturayo, May God have heard this prayer. I pray that God may keep you and bless all your endeavours.

[@tshebetsoletlema2979]

This is a lot for one person, I admire your strength😢😢😢😢😢❤❤❤

[@tshwarelomahlangu344]

Wow thank you so much for this,your a beautiful soul,I wish you nothing but the best. I'm touched...

[@Nou_rish]

Hi Tshwarelo. Thank you for watching and may this message continually bless you.

[@MaddieFishblob]

Your story brought me to tears. Such strong passion and such a beautiful and honorable dream. Your closeness to God also inspires me - it’s something I want to live up to in my own life. I’ll be praying your you and for future opportunity to open up 🙏❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Hey @Maddie Thank you so much for watching. I’m thankful for your kind words. May the good Lord bless and keep you 🤍

[@buciemercy9782]

Thank you for sharing.You are the ultimate go getter. Your resilience and agility is really inspiring. Thank you for making christianity fashionable

[@Nou_rish]

Hi Bucie. Thank you for watching, to tell you the truth it often doesn’t feel that way but Looking back Gods faithfulness has sustained me.

[@vickeybasson6856]

I almost stop listening towards the end my heart did not wanted to hear you being kicked out a second time. You are such an inspiration and will be a great doctor. With the Holy Spirit as your guide you are at the best place much love ❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Hey @Vickey! I hope you’re well, thank you for the kind words it’s much appreciated. By Gods grace I’ve done well this time around and I’m still here. But it’s really only by grace. May God bless you and keep you 🤍🙏🏾

[@kgomotsodlamini4470]

I am currently 20years old, doing a physiology degree but I love love medicine and the fear that you talked about regarding not medicine per se but medicine at "wits". I am just relating, with not only academics but it just comes to show that, God does exist, and not that I believed less that he lives, but this video woke a part of me that I never thought had died. I tried to hold my tears back but I'm just letting them flow cause I also know it's okay to cry, it's part of growing. Thank you for this video and I too pray that you are doing well, that you're coping and that you are stronger than when you made the video.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Kgomotso, Thank you so much for the encouragement and the prayer. May the good Lord bless you and guide you. All the very best in your pursuit to medicine and don't ever stop trying to get in.

[@nthabisengmasia8988]

Girl my story is the same as yours, i was excluded at UWC in 2011 and i was told that i can never be a social worker in and that i must consider another profession that does not involve dealing with people. for the a good 8 years of my life i was angry and felt useless to the point that every time my boyfriend invited his friends over to his place i would go and visit my boyfriend because they use to talk about academics and their profession so for me it was uncomfortable and embarrassing to talk about me exclusion. to cut the story short now i am at the good place and i am at peace, i am doing my 3rd year in LLB and to be honest i think i am good in professions that involves dealing with people.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nthabi, thank you for sharing your journey with us. Exclusion I've said so many times is traumatic, it robs you in ways we haven't even fully grasped but you show everyone who's gonna see your comment that there is Life and Hope after exclusion. I will be praying for you and your studies. Stay focused and take care of yourself

[@nunutalakasi9001]

You are truly send by God, I needed to hear this. I have learned so much in 47 minutes 😢😢.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nunu, so glad it served you. May Go be with you on your journey and guide you to your dreams

[@nunutalakasi9001]

Thank you so much, we will be in touch to share our testimonie. How does one develop the love for reading? Am struggling a lot, I don't even what to do? Am Witsie as well doing second year its quite tough am falling to balance between work and school.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nunu With reading you have to find what you like and relate to. And also know why you’re reading something, is it for entertainment, for learning or for self help. Once you find someone you relate to that answers your why, you won’t put it down

[@itszanisWorld]

The best video on KZbin. We thank God for your life❤

[@Nou_rish]

Hey @itszanisworld Thank you so much for for the kind words, I hope your journey is kinder to you ❤️

[@loydsegage9518]

I'm here for the 10th time for sure i failed my pilot training its been 5 years now fell into depression, anxiety of the future. I'm still trying to get scholarship or a bursary God Will make a way.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Loyd. I’m sorry to hear about your experience but trust me after 11 years of fighting I’m finally where I want to be doing what I love. It will work out bro just keep on keeping on. You are in my prayers

[@ushing5718]

It’s God answering my prayers through you🥺

[@pontshosepoloane3241]

I was financially excluded and I did very well academically. I am just like you, each around doctors I feel it could be me and I am capable.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Sis, eish I'm really really sorry for your loss because that's exactly what it is. I pray that you will find your way back and that you heal too. Financial exclusion is the robbing of the opportunity from someone who is capable, but you are brilliant to have even Gotten in. So keep pursuing this dream and apply everywhere, loans and bursaries

[@SindiZondi]

Funny how 2 yrs later I see this video & its speaks directly to me ❤

[@Nou_rish]

🥺🤍

[@lihlithembamkhize1273]

Your story was really inspiring, I love this!!!

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you so much Lihlithemba, be blessed.

[@roandamudzanani]

This is such an inspirational story ❤♡

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you 🙏🏾

[@bonganikhanyi775]

Your story really touches my heart 🥺 God is always in control of our lives and his time is the right time 🙏❤️

[@poleeysstudios9294]

I wholeheartedly resonate with you You’re my hero🥺🥺 I see God in all of this , what a beautiful testimony.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Poleey , I can only thank God that my experience has been of value and that it wasn’t all for nothing. Be blessed on your journey 🤍

[@thee_ms_enthusiast6030]

Thank you so much for sharing. I don’t even want to start saying this or that about my career plans because of failure and shame, but this is legit the best reality insight on struggles; and context of our individual challenges affect each one of us. I pray for nourishment and more wisdom for your journey. ❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Hey there. Thank you so much for watching. I pray that you heal from the failure and shame, and realise it only counts as shame if you let it end this way. Your story will be defined by how you choose to end it. Make it an amazing ending that makes it all worth you. You are worthy and deserving of your dreams 🤍

[@zimvomale774]

What a beautiful description and music too.Thank you for this

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you Zimvo 🤍

[@detwinsdetwins5898]

Sis, you give me strength to keep on going and trust God because we plan but God decides... Thank you for sharing your story, may God be with you through this wonderful journey. I'll definitely share this with my friends. Love you ❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Hey hey, yazi I’m learning that our greatest hurts are often our greatest experience of the majesty and greatness of God. It is our testimony and our evidence of His grace… Keep working and put your trust in Him who never fails.

[@carameltoppletops3340]

I'm not gonna lie, I'm not even Christian...but you give me faith. You warm my heart and I feel stronger when i hear you speak. I feel like no matter what, I can do it. (if God wills)

[@Nou_rish]

Hey @carameltoppletops I pray that life has been kinder to you. And as long as you don’t give up you can definitely achieve your dreams. I am living proof 🤍

[@nomkhosiphahla8134]

Thank you So much for this video girl..This is So encouraging dear. God really sent you to do this..There re So many people struggling in their journey like you re . May God bless you and provide you provide you with your wishes of your heart.❤

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you @Nomkhosiphala8134 🤍 . May the good Lord continue to be with us all

[@themeblafakudze6944]

Thank you for this beautiful story. I really needed to hear ❤️.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Thembla, wishing you the very best on your journey 🤍

[@nomusashabane2391]

God is faithful my dearest ❤️❤️ He will give you the desires of your heart ❤️ what a testimony 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nomusa 😢. Thank you so much 🙏🏾 . May He be with you in all your endeavours and grant you the strength to reach your greatest aspirations.

[@poleeysstudios9294]

I had to sob a little when watching this one, I had to drop out of Tuks due to mental health issues, but I believe I’ll go back one day 🥺🥺 this Video gave me strength 😭 you are going to win😖😖❤️❤️

[@bellzseisa2935]

Love & light to you.❤️ You can do it. 💪🏾

[@Nou_rish]

Hey sis, BONA, WE ARE GOING TO WIN ! We Are. May you heal and trust YOU again. The pain of dropping out runs deep and is complex cause it’s involves those around you too. But know that there are plans for your life to Prosper you and not to harm you. So get your head right . One day come back here and INVITE all of us to your celebration.

[@Nou_rish]

@BellzSeisa you gonna make me cry man 😢. Thank you for this

[@liwamatole]

Girl, Strongs to you for being able to share your story. I can relate. I hope that things will turn out as you have planned them, in the end. GOD BLESS, I believe all things work out for good for those who believe

[@Nou_rish]

Amen 🙏🏾 and thank you so much Liwa. I’m sad that you relate it’s not a pleasant experience to relate to. But May God grant is the strength to pursue our dreams relentlessly. Be blessed in all your endeavours 🤍🙏🏾

[@peacepeace9029]

I literally felt every struggle almost cried coz I can relate to most of them....this helped me notice something in myself too...thank God for ur life.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Peace, thank you for watching Mtase. Whatever has been your experience, May it one day make sense. You’re going to get through if you keep pushing

[@alufohaigloria1796]

Thank you so much Bibi for this video😍. I was practically emotional when watching your video,We all have so many struggles we face and you were able to face your’s with so much will,determination and doggedness which we all need in day to day activities.. I don’t know why Physics is a problem 😂😂and now looking back at it 12years Ago when I was a 1st year med student,I had to repeat a year.woooooo-it destabilized me. But eeee here I am 13years later with 2 repeated years and 2 resit.came out a med doc. Not easy but we got there.. All the best in your journey in Wits and thanks again for this video. Cheers 😊

[@Nou_rish]

Hey sis! Thank you so much for watching and sharing your journey with us. You’ve given not just me but everyone who reads this a reason to believe in their dream too, that Degree was YOURS come resit or repeat 💛😭.

[@thobekilenobuhle3961]

Hey sis♥️ We bless God for giving you strength to share this😭....I had to pause the video at some point just to gather some strength to watch🥺🥺...I honestly believe this was sent to me.I just got excluded at Wits in medicine last year because of Chemistry, only.And yes that was my first failure it's still so much to deal with the trauma every single day.And trying to healing from that Wits trauma feels like going through it all again.Well I'm doing my 1st yr in BSc Mathematics in the other institution now. Thank you for this my sis I believe God has used your life to inspire and comfort me in this season of my life. Keep well sis.And continue to be a blessing to us🥰

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Thobe 💛. Thank you for reaching out and watching. I know exactly how you feel and where your mind it. Do NOT give up, there’s many ways to the same outcome. Chase each one relentlessly and stay strong. YOU WILL MAKE IT

[@tefelosehloho944]

Wow just came across this channel today,my goodness what a wonderful soul you are,the resilience,wow. I'm loving you already.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Tefelo. Thank you so much for the love ❤️, I hope you have yourself a great week and enjoy catching up with the videos.

[@bonganikwinda9935]

I loved ♥,loved this. I am very much hopeful now.

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Bongani, thank you for watching. May we flourish and prosper beyond our wildest dreams.

[@gracefulstar2645]

Not me crying 😭. Strength to you my sister❤️😥. I feel like I've undermined God in my academics. I wanted to do radiography or nursing but my first choice was radiography 😢....I was not accepted. I'm now doing a diploma in chemical engineering 🤣. And I don't know what I'm doing in engineering I'm lost but I'm getting average marks😅. I hope one day the light will shine and have a clear vision of my future...I just wake up every day and breathe. Ngi lost bandla😭😭

[@mhlenginsele369]

Can I ask If you don't mind, why weren't you accepted?

[@Nou_rish]

Hey sis, I’m sorry to hear that. Do your very best at engineering in the present, you don’t know where it’s taking you. I’ve learnt through my winding journey with medicine that everything I went through to become a junior medical scientist was preparing for where I am now as a medstudent. Nothing is a loss unless you treat it that way. Keep on applying and trusting, if you’re faithful where you are now, your time will come. You’re just in the waiting room to your dream 💭

[@mosamokebe3198]

For me it's been about working hard but not getting the marks I need to get into Med school. It's been rejection after rejection. Hopefully one day I get to get in 🤞

[@Nou_rish]

Hi Mosa, I hope you’re doing okay. I’m sorry for what you’ve been through, I know first hand how scaring that experience is. but DON'T STOP CHASING YOUR DREAMS. All the very best with the applications, you can be and do anything with hard work and persistence...

[@preciousndlovu8100]

Did u try upgrading your matric marks?

[@mosamokebe3198]

@@preciousndlovu8100 nope

[@Nou_rish]

@Mosa that’s another route you can try but a lot of medical schools don’t consider upgrades for first time applicants. So that’s why the next best option is a first degree.

[@euphrentmbali6154]

God Bless you, I wish you nothing but the Best on your journey going forward ✨

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you so much, May this prayer be heard.

[@kkewsuk]

Wow you’re so strong and resilient. I admire your persistence and your journey as I relate to so many parts. You’ll make a great doctor!

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you for watching @kkewsuk, really appreciate the kind words.

[@zintlempumelelo4404]

Bless you for sharing this wow, I'm speachless, your resilient yoh God really lives through you,. You are a pheonix. May God bless you have motivated me in so many ways both spiritually and also academically. Thank you ❤️😭😭🙏🙏🙏

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Zintle. Phoenix, what an analogy. Feeling that burn is hard but there will be a day to rise out of the ashes. Thank you so much for this, I pray that you may be blessed further. Keep the fight up, nothing lasts forever.

[@zintlempumelelo4404]

@@Nou_rish thank you so much, God Bless❤️🙏

[@ernestedison477]

I just wish that God can help you survive all your challenges and be with you until you reach your dream🙏

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you so much Ernest. May your journey be even kinder to you 🤍🙏🏾

[@ernestedison477]

@@Nou_rish You too Nou'rish

[@bongiswagcingca8755]

did my matric in 2012 got accepted @ wsu for mbchb failed twice 2013 and 2014 and I got excluded 2015 I was raising my 2014 baby ..2016 i went to do Biomed now im a qualified medical technologist in clinical pathology but im depressed i wanna go back to medicine but I appeal no luck and i get rejected in other varsities because my diploma results suck i only studied to pass so i want to know if i apply using only my matric results can they trace wsu and my other qualification? Im dying inside especially when my former classmates come to the lab to hand me samples to process

[@becomingdrmakhanya2406]

Hi bongiswa. Apply at Medunsa/SMU. I was excluded at Wits and I only applied with my matric at Medunsa. I'm doing my 2nd year now. Applications are open. Closing around September

[@basetsanamohlala4668]

@@becomingdrmakhanya2406 how is the competition to get into smu?

[@Teekay_ZA]

You should be able to apply with your matric results. I've done it, I know others who have done the same

[@lennmogane7846]

I want to rewrite my matric after I matriculated in 2012, do you guys think it's possible to get in after?

[@basetsanamohlala4668]

@@lennmogane7846 yoh hai me too

[@mosamokebe3198]

You have a strong heart. ✨😭

[@Nou_rish]

*SIGH*

[@ryderyoungreezy1947]

I also went through the same thing. Great children of God go through this, we fight incomplete and unexpected battles.

[@Nou_rish]

We fight not against flesh and blood 🙌🏾

[@Angela-pt2vf]

You’ve been through a lot. You are so strong Mama🥺❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you for watching and I hope your journey is kinder to you

[@ariellukumbi4205]

May God restore and fill the heart ❤️ of whoever will read this. Thanks 🙏🏾 for the video, very inspirational 🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you Ariel! May God bless you and enrich your endeavours for the kindness you’ve shown here.

[@nutellah8125]

🦋Brah😥 I don't want to write a long essay but Thank You for sharing your story and may God's grace and blessings rain upon you abundantly and exceedingly

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Nutellah 😋 Thank you for watching and for the kind words. I’m really touched. I hope your journey is kinder to you

[@nseemane1494]

Thank you for sharing your story, it is so touching, so inspiring, so real❤️😍I wish you everything of the best with your degree and overall mental health💕

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you so very much, I really appreciate the well wishes. May it be well with you 🤍

[@phumenhlenintanzi5410]

This is the best youtube video I have ever seen

[@Nou_rish]

Oh my goodness , Thank you Phumenhleni. I hope you journey will be kinder to you . Love and Light 🤍

[@Mmethikgadi]

Myself aswell

[@DawnNomusa]

A delay is not a fail, its God saying that there are lives you needed to minister to in Stellenbosch at that appointed time. Congratulations sisi ! and we on over 700 subbies today wow, well done !!! How are you funding your studies? did you get a bursary, if yes, which one ?

[@Nou_rish]

Hey Dee, AMEN 🙏🏾. My stellenbosch experience was definitely a time of service and refining. I think I also had to prove that this was what I really wanted. I’m over 30 so I don’t qualify for most bursaries, I’ve taken out multiple loans.

[@Nou_rish]

And I can’t believe the growth, Glory Be To God ! Thank you D 🙏🏾, can’t wait for you to post

[@DawnNomusa]

@@Nou_rish lol yes imma come back after my fast , early march.

[@kamonkune]

Beautiful and inspiring video🙏🏾❤️wishing you the very best in your journey

[@Nou_rish]

Thank you Kamo 💛. Receiving all that goodness and sending it back to you twofold