I HAD A BABY! 41 HOURS OF LABOR & BIRTH STORY *TRAUMATIC*

Hey guys! I'M BACK & I AM A MOMMY! I have been away for 3 MONTHS on maternity leave which is unbelievable, on December 1st I had my miracle baby after 15 years of infertility! I had so many ideas of what I thought my birth would look like, and it ended up being SO different. When you watch this birth story, please know that I am aware that there are a LOT of opinions about birth and everyone has different experiences. I know that there may be a lot of people who have a lot to say about my birth, because theirs (or yours) might have been harder, or easier, or more or less traumatic.. and that is the thing - we are ALL different and experience things so differently. I didn't want this to be my story.. but it is. The events leading up to my sons birth (and what happened after he was born) were so traumatic to me that it took me 9 weeks to be able to talk about it after a lot of therapy.
*** I want to make it BLATANTLY CLEAR that I have ZERO issues with hospitals, with epidurals, with c-sections, none of that. I think EVERY way that ANYONE wants to birth is valid, beautiful and their own. Everyone has preferences, for instance, my best friend chose to schedule c-sections for herself - that is HER preference and I think that is amazing. My other friend had a home birth with a midwife & doula - her choice her preference. My other best friend chose a hospital birth center with epidural - her choice her preference. I do not EVER judge or care what ANYONE wants to do in their birth. I think the same goes here - if someone had wanted a scheduled c-section and ended up going into labor and giving birth at home - that could be very traumatizing for them - As it was SO different from their birth preference, ya know? It has nothing to do with feeling like one birth is "better" than another - because I do not believe that. Just way different than anticipated.
It was just SO long, drawn out, painful and after he was born and we weren't sure if he was okay.. it was a LOT.
For anyone who wants to know what happened, baby was asynclitic.
Re-editing this, I told Zack "I don't know if I am justified in feeling as traumatized by this as I have.. because ultimately our son was okay" and he said "Kristi no, it was SO difficult and SO traumatizing for me too. If you get in a car crash, even if you all survive it can still be traumatizing to you" and that made me realize that he is right. Ultimately our sweet angel baby is here with us and doing SO well - which is the MOST important thing.
I believe that everyone is valid in feeling however they do about their own birth experience. People always say "as long as the baby is healthy, thats all that matters" and while it is the MOST important part, it is not ALL that matters. The parents mental health and experience matters too.
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[@RawBeautyKristi]

Hey guys! I'M BACK & I AM A MOMMY! I have been away for 3 MONTHS on maternity leave which is unbelievable, on December 1st I had my miracle baby after 15 years of infertility! I said in this in the description BUT I want to make it BLATANTLY CLEAR that I have ZERO issues with hospitals, with epidurals, with c-sections, none of that. I think EVERY way that ANYONE wants to birth is valid, beautiful and their own. Everyone has preferences, for instance, my best friend chose to schedule c-sections for herself - that is HER preference and I think that is amazing. My other friend had a home birth with a midwife & doula - her choice her preference. My other best friend chose a hospital birth center with epidural - her choice her preference. I do not EVER judge or care what ANYONE wants to do in their birth. I think the same goes here - if someone had wanted a scheduled c-section and ended up going into labor and giving birth at home - that could be very traumatizing for them - As it was SO different from their birth preference, ya know? It has nothing to do with feeling like one birth is "better" than another - because I do not believe that. Just way different than anticipated. Hope you enjoy the video!

[@rachpeyton5089]

love your family so much 🥺❤️

[@annlatham]

So so happy you are back! We love you guys 😘

[@ecouhig]

I dont know why but all of a sudden I had a flash back to watching you put on Sally Hansens spray tan makeup stuff years and years ago 🤣🤣🤣 I'm so proud for you.

[@Rattlebracket]

You guys look proud as punch in those first hold photos.....so so special 🥰

[@sandydee8003]

So great to see you............❤️❤️❤️Thank You So Much🥰

[@DieselDaWeezel]

Zack, you mentioned you had a mental breakdown yourself. i just want to say we see you. we are so proud of you for being so strong, so calm, for Kristi and baby! we love you, dude

[@bobthathead3]

Dads can really be superheroes! I know the father of my child was!!

[@annalouise5418]

Hard out.... Every time he said something encouraging to her it set me off crying.....

[@1771bubba]

Good job Zach!!

[@amyliz5630]

We love you for taking such good care of our girl!🙌🏼

[@Glorene1]

No seriously!

[@thehonestbeautyreview]

As a NICU nurse, I truly believe your midwife was your sons hero that day! Even though she wasn’t able to be there for the delivery, getting you guys to the hospital was crucial. Let’s not forget....you and Zach LISTENED to her advice. Never forget what an amazing advocate you were for your son on that AMAZING day!!! Thanks for sharing such an important story! So much love to you and your beautiful family! 💗💗💗💗

[@fireatwill00]

THIS! As mothers we can never predict how it going to go when we bring our children into this world, but ultimately what we all want is the best for our babies and you did what you needed to do to protect your little guy right from the start! All of your feelings are totally valid, and you’re a great mom. ❤️

[@jenngranados825]

Living for this comment ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@jadesurber2051]

That's a great perspective ❤️

[@jcs137]

Oh I’m so thankful you got an epidural. The stress could not be good for baby and you. You did your research and changed your plan when needed. Well done mom!

[@raeahthewriter8082]

This comment made me cry, so beautiful. So true

[@cassiekat4055]

Coming back to comment on this video, I was told I would never have children. I cried hearing your beautiful story being so happy for you. I’m Now 30 weeks with a baby boy ! Made me think of you and want to rewatch your story ❤ love you Kristi! ❤

[@Marcellestanley23]

Congrats mama! Hope you have/had an amazing labour and birth and a healthy baby. Take care ❤❤

[@RachelJsurvivorfan]

Hope you and baby are happy and healthy!

[@libralove6042]

🎉Congratulations🎉 👏🙌🙏

[@leighannkosky5446]

Congratulations!!

[@tanschi8449]

How are you doing now? I hope everything turned out well. Sending you all by best wishes

[@Ashleydawnsbeautyxx]

You’re literally the ONLY person I’d sit and watch an hour birth story for!! Seriously though I’ve been following you since the start of your pregnancy and I’m so happy to see you become a mama!

[@charlumpkin]

@@carolannemonteleone5276 completely the same here! Myself and my boyfriend have decided to remain childfree (just a personal choice!) But I'm absolutely sobbing at this video - I'm SO happy for them, I've followed Kristi for such a long time and it's just so beautiful 💛

[@steffers841]

yes!!

[@samanthabunker2502]

AMD THATS FACTSS

[@hydie0073]

@Rawbeautykristi Omg I am completely balling my eye's out right now! I am so so happy and excited for the three of you! You both will be the most amazing mommy and daddy! He is so beautiful..so precious and the greatest gift you'll ever recieve! Enjoy every second..they grow so fast.! I can't stop crying the most happy tears ever! I love you all so so much! I really hope I don't see anything negative! You look beautiful momma! You literally fought for your baby boy..I am so happy you both are doing well.! I really hope you don't get alot of unsolicited advice! You trust your instincts girl.. Congratulations Kristi and Zac! Sending you tons of hugs! He's such a gorgeous baby boy! 👶👪 Stay safe! xoxo hydie ❤😁😢

[@leahcfinn]

Uh same!

[@erikajohnson8272]

This is the best unboxing I've ever seen.

[@danielledarling34]

lol

[@marz130]

Right!

[@michymiii]

LMAOOOO

[@beckydavis9092]

Why is this the funniest comment I've ever seen on the internet?

[@kristenmccoy8]

Haha top comment!!

[@smokey_glow]

I am here and I am ready to sob hysterically

[@Lili-947]

I'm here with you girl

[@MollyWiseViola]

Just texted the same thing to all my friends

[@meganrutherford1981]

Checking in for my midday sob 🙋🏻‍♀️🥺

[@afsarabushra1769]

Same girl

[@tamsinsylvie4331]

me too hannah

[@fury-ninja2539]

I'm a male UK Paramedic and I have seen many shares of traumatic births. I just wanted to say to ALL women that you are amazing, you astound me with your bravery, tolerance to pain, and sheer determination even when put far too much pressure on yourselves. I hope that your Trauma heals over time and that you are receiving the best help to work through it, I have no doubt what wonderful parents you and Zach will make and have watched you for years. I'm a gay guy I've never watched you for makeup tips but your personality and storytelling captivate me whenever I watch. I've been so busy in the last year with ongoing global catastrophes to spend time catching up on what has been going on. I missed the fact you were even pregnant, so this has been a wonderful binge-watch over Christmas 2021. I wish you all the best over the new year and the coming years...

[@jessvalliere3506]

Zach is an award winning support system... him breathing with you is everything. The fact that full on labor kristi is still a comedian is also everything. You’re a superhero mama and you did a wonderful, wonderful job!

[@darlapeeler9442]

I thought the same exact thing

[@quintecence]

My mum has supported a lot of her friends during labour and said that during labour, women are brutally honest and sharp tongued. She says the insults from a person in labour are unmatched and then refused to tell me any of the things said because they were that bad..

[@amysmiles9751]

Totally what I was thinking. My husband just sat there and watched me and slept when they told me to try and get some sleep.

[@taylorrosepole]

YESSSS we are team Zach over here 🙌🏼 they are the best couple and it was so heartwarming to hear her talk about how his energy kept her going 😭

[@juliespady8467]

Totally agree

[@alexiazamora3500]

“i don’t know anybody there” zack: “you know me” 🥺

[@user-jg9px1xu4e]

Why did this make me cry and I'm only 3 seconds in and haven't seen anything yet

[@raex3746]

29:54 for anyone who needs it

[@lizziebugg10]

I lost it here 😭 I love mom and dad

[@moneyalways7674]

rae x 💕🌸

[@laurenkulb]

That got me too

[@lillystryker8570]

Honestly everyone makes fun of women who do their hair and makeup and shaving and all that before going in for birth, but the truth is there is a lot of time before it’s going to happen and these little mundane tasks can kill time and be so self-soothing. Grooming and taking care of yourself is a really great way to calm nerves.

[@baileydunton6142]

LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK 👏🏻👏🏻

[@madi5432]

It's also the last time that they may be able to do that for themselves for a while, I would want to enjoy doing myself up one last time if I knew everything was about to change.

[@alext8204]

Yea and also if we think about it, most ppl get ready for special events and bringing a life into the world is probably the one of the most important and special events ever. So why not? When I found out I was pregnant I told my husband I want to curl my hair lol I wanna look good for my baby's arrival n for the photos!

[@xenaloree1138]

I watched my sister do a full beat while she was in labor, and I remember our family just roasting her. It may seem silly to put on false lashes before giving birth, but that’s just her. Whatever your personality is and whatever you use to cope or ready yourself for intense life experiences should not be ignored just because you’re having a baby

[@lilyjane570]

@@xenaloree1138 props to her 👏 thats honestly impressive especially if the look held up throughout the process. I cant even wear makeup for a day of nothing without ruining it and looking trash later

[@reginapriest5287]

My heart goes out to you, dear! I also had a very traumatic birth. I was prepared mentally for it to be bad, but what happened surpassed my expectations tenfold. Everything was going well until the actual birth. No matter how hard I pushed it just wouldnt come out. 30 mins later the doctor literally stuck his hands in and pulled it out. Turns out the baby was tangled in his cord 3 times. But I kept bleeding out. Was under general annestesia two times while they tried to save my ovaries, as well as my life. Spend 24h in reanimation, got 4 banks of blood and lots of other stuff, 4 days of continuous pain, 4 days bedridden without being able to see my child. I was so exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally that I couldnt even feel the happiness when they brought my son. I felt so guilty about it and the memory still haunts me almost 2 years later. There are details I am sure I wouldn't be able to share with anybody.

[@heelsdownauto]

Ma’am she specifically asked very politely for no horror stories, I’m so sorry this was your experience but let’s just celebrate her baby and validate HER experience!! 🥰

[@babyturkey8342]

​@heelsdownauto lol not allowed to share a traumatic story so we can celebrate a woman we don't even know...Gross.

[@tcr1130]

@@heelsdownauto thought exact same thing, she requested no one else's stories

[@Carmine30754]

If you have had a kid you understand every story is different and interesting. Your story is valid. I am sorry you went through that. Hopefully with time everything gets better.

[@DrewTua_]

I don't wanna give birth, I don't wanna have kids but I watched the whole thing till the end. I am so happy to see you so thrilled and excited omg You deserve this and I love you so much, Kristi!!!

[@milacn]

Same here! I'm SO happy for them!

[@meliijmnz9012]

Same, but I'm happt that she wanted it so much and she did it!! She deserved it. Te amo Drew tua ♡

[@jackiesauter2]

Same!!!! I didn’t even want to watch at first but then she reeled me in and I was glued to my phone lol

[@basedbluehair1296]

Same, I have no desire at all to have children, but oh my god I bawled when their baby was born. Women amaze me every damn day 🖤

[@jocelynsloan7801]

Haha same.

[@LiqouredDuck]

shout out to zack for seemingly having the calmest, quietest energy.

[@ondinebelacqua]

Anyone who knows you, meaning your channel, knows how prepared and ready you were! You made it your literal job, you learned even more that you already knew (which was a lot) and you are so self aware and responsible. You're gonna be a great mother, one that inspires so many to keep pushing on and to be down to earth, all with love, care and compassion. The negative comments, by strangers (or not) are nothing more than garbage blow in the wind and they have one thing in common: they don't know you, don't understand you and lastly but not last importantly: they can not be about you. Why? Because if they indeed did know you, they simply wouldn't exist. No one is perfect but you are close to that perfection momma, and your husband and your beautiful baby know it, and they are the only ones that matter.

[@nati7959]

Not me crying at 1 am in my room because I’m emotionally invested in kristy’s birth ever since she announced she was pregnant. 😩🥺😭

[@ChelseaKristie]

Same !! Been watching her before she got pregnant and I cried when she announced she was pregnant!

[@elizabethbuxton5158]

I so admire your bravery to open yourself here. I was in labor for 48 hours with my first child, which has become a non ending source of great fun for our family, and since he has a WONDERFUL sense of humor, and he knows how much we love him, he LOVES the teasing and gives it right back! Lol Around the time he turned 15, 16, I used to wake him up 48 hours before his birthday, and would whisper "Justin...48 hours" . When he was working in another state, he called me COLLECT, so as a Mom I'm all worried something happened. Instead, he just said "48 hours Mom. Love you"" and hung up. Even his sister gets in on the joke. Her favorite line is "48 hours of labor, and THIS is what we got! It's all done/said with great love. He's 45 now, and Still loves this joke, so it lives on. My only piece of advise is "enjoy your son"

[@KathrynPedrana]

I love this 🥰

[@amberadkins1511]

I won’t go into details but I’d just Like to say you are not the only one getting help after birth. My son turned 3 in January and I still speak to someone monthly in order to deal with my emotions from delivery. You are a strong woman, I am a strong woman, every woman is strong and it is 100% ok to have and feel whatever emotions you have going on.

[@Sarah-ty5ev]

Proud of you for getting help

[@pamelacrowley9462]

💕💕💕

[@swipeswifejess3234]

Proud of you! Being a mom, hormonally, physically, emotionally so tough. You are WORTHY of being surrounded in your head by self love and worth. You guys are rockstars.

[@apocalypse_frau]

❤️❤️❤️

[@KristenYi]

So proud of you for getting help! 💜💜💜

[@evtv304]

That one nurse at the end when you were about to give birth, telling the other nurses abt your infertility story like a proud friend was SO SWEET and honestly made me tear up!! And Zach just looking at you so lovingly the entire time... omg. Through all of the pain and horror, what a beautiful ending

[@panicmedusa]

Me too! It was so sweet.

[@MissLaceyNoel]

So glad that even though she had to go to a place that she didn't know someone knew her 💗

[@Sarah-ty5ev]

@@MissLaceyNoel Wow I didn't even think of it that way and now I am crying all over again

[@danasalinger5247]

@@MissLaceyNoel omg this got me. 😭🥰

[@MissLaceyNoel]

@@Sarah-ty5ev

[@Rose-jz6sx]

I know it's not the focus of the video, but wow how brilliant is Zach? Holding you, and joking, you can hear he stress in his voice but he was there the whole time. He's what a husband should be.

[@RawBeautyKristi]

🥺😭💕🙏🏼 I completely agree, he is my sweet angel and I am so lucky to have him

[@drexyspivey]

that’s exactly what i came to the comments to say

[@marie5075]

He was so excited for helping delivering the baby too 🥺 so sweet

[@downhomewithsarah7443]

Came to comment the same thing. My husband, distances himself when he's nervous/anxious... So majority of my labor/birth of my boys was me doing it alone with him in the room.

[@Rose-jz6sx]

@@RawBeautyKristi may we all find our Zach ❤️

[@stacijordan9073]

I was on Pitocin for 29 hours with my first child. No pain meds. My son was in distress and I was close an emergency C-Section. I finally relented and agreed to an epidural. This relaxed me so much that I went from a 6 dilated to a 10, and 30 minutes later I was holding my baby boy. Pitocin is NO joke! ❤

[@pamcakemix]

Midwife: “are you having a contraction?” Kristi: “I don’t know anything” I felt that! Remember saying the same thing when I was in labor to my midwife.

[@Lettyc90]

Same!! Lol

[@powerpuffgirlsteph855]

Totally!!

[@clarahill1949]

Same!!!

[@ekmp636]

Yup, same! It was like my brain wasn't capable of thinking through what was going on, just focused on getting through it (even with no idea how!)

[@DanielleNicoleMakeup]

Amen! I remember thinking I can't do this, the pain is excruciating. Like how do women get through this! I did and still don't know how. Our miracle was worth it of course but the wave of emotions and the pain and uncertainty of labor I don't miss! 🥰

[@clairedowney3516]

I laughed. I cried. This could be a documentary. Best part: kristi being able to talk to baby boy in her little mouse voice. That made me sob

[@kellif1783]

I love that voice❤️

[@conniechats6160]

As an L&D nurse I wanted to say I’m so sorry you had such a traumatic experience. Every second feels like a year to everyone in the room including nurses when a baby isn’t crying and it is understandably traumatizing. And in those moments it really is silent to the point you could hear a pin drop as you described even though the room is full of people all working like crazy. All of your feelings, preferences, plans, experiences etc for you (and any mother) are valid and should never be judged or compared to anyone else’s birth experience. No one better comment anything shitty you’ve been through enough already Mama. Glad he ended up being a happy, healthy little chunky baby in the end.

[@mildlynerdy]

I hope that a nurse like you is there for me if I do have kids 🥺

[@chellecopley67]

right? I was like a b!tch better not LOL Like I was gonna do something but yeah, so happy to see the comment section be supportive, loving, respectful and GRATEFUL for her sharing her experience. I was terrified when she went radio silent. SO damn glad everything worked out and they have a healthy, happy and loved baby Alder for all of us *aunties and uncles* to love on from afar!

[@Luna-ii4mx]

Can I ask you if the lack of oxygen when being born after strangled by a cord, is dangerous? It happened to me and I ended up getting autism and I suspect it was cuz lack of oxygen when I was born.

[@conniechats6160]

@@mildlynerdy of course there are some “bad apples” in every field, but I think the majority of us are supportive and non judgmental. But never be afraid to stand up for yourself and ask for a different nurse if you’re not vibing with the one you have. Your birth is about you and you should feel comfortable and supported in any birthing experience and choices you make.

[@conniechats6160]

@@Luna-ii4mx I honestly don’t know if there are any links that have been made between autism and hypoxia (low oxygen), but I can say that the cord being wrapped completely or draped (like a scarf) around the neck or the body is fairly common and most have good outcomes at birth. I don’t know the long term effects of it of course because as a nurse we don’t see them long term and get to see how they develop, but the majority of tangled cords have normal oxygen levels during the postpartum period they are in the hospital.

[@user6623]

I can’t remember the last time I cried this hard about anything other than my own selfish depression. I’m so proud of you. Words can’t convey.

[@dollface2917]

Your depression isn’t selfish, sweetheart. You’re here, you’re brave, you’re fighting xxxx

[@user6623]

@@dollface2917 🥰🥰💜💜💕💕💜

[@ashleys2943]

when you were crying and said “i won’t know anyone” at the hospital and zack said “you’ll know me” i LOST it 😭 then about 100 times after that. moms are fucking superhuman. welcome to the mom club, we’re happy to have you ❤️

[@crying2emoji5]

My soul SHATTERED when I saw her so helpless and scared 😭😭

[@JessiDavin]

The midwife acknowledging your 16 years of infertility and struggles to get here right after you felt his head during pushing was SO BEAUTIFUL TO ME. After everything you had been through, from the infertility to the excruciating labor... it all lead to this beautiful moment that was SO WORTH IT. I am so happy for you, Kristi. Oh my GOD this is amazing.

[@hdubby4533]

Yesss,such a beautiful moment💕

[@heathermarie3672]

I’m not a mother and never plan to be a mother. That being said, I will never understand the people that feel entitled to tell mothers what they ‘should’ do when it comes to giving birth. I don’t even have the words for the trauma you went through. Mothers, you are incredible! I hope the trauma will ease up for you at some point. I’m glad you have your little miracle now!

[@ankeranna]

Same. I dont wanna have kids but I love my niece. I would never tell other woman what they should do ♥️

[@lozpopo]

Right? Birthing an entire human out of your vajine is traumatising, anxious and scary enough as it is, no one needs gatekeeping and judgey weirdos on top of that.

[@Jujubee87]

So agree with you.

[@jaidinnnmcc4666]

My sisters name is Heather Marie haha!! Only difference so far is that she has 3 kids lolol

[@pjhaze]

Congratulations! I know you said don’t leave stories but I could relate so much.. I started Pitocin at 5am, baby was overdue, and at 9pm I told the nurse (& meant it) I WILL RIP EVERYTHING OFF ME AND GO OUTSIDE TO JUMP IN FRONT OF A TRAIN SO HELP ME GOD. I got that epidural and omg thank goodness for medical science/ pharmaceuticals! I honestly think it helps when you’re relaxed and not so tense, it helps things move along. My mother told me I would forget the pain!?! My daughter is 26. I have not forgot. If you decide to have another, it will be easier for you. Your body will remember what to do. So maybe you will get what you planned. First babies are tough. So happy for your little family. You all are so sweet and special.

[@heathermitchell7191]

It would be neat to hear Zach sit down and make a video from his perspective, if he felt comfortable doing that. It’s always interesting to hear what a husband felt through it all.

[@kiraleigh18]

Yesss second this!

[@ribidimi]

!

[@truthfulnice]

1000%!

[@moneyalways7674]

YES!!!!!! I would love ❤️ that❗️❗️❗️❗️

[@Jleigha]

I would be so interested in that video.

[@maddyabby300]

Zack: “you think you’re there but you’re not there yet” Kristi: “you have never known anything” Zack: “that’s true” lol 😂

[@marigam]

“You know nothing John Snow”

[@popsicle22209]

They are the best couple ever!

[@feliciah.6636]

Laughed so hard at that!!! It was awesome.

[@amykrammer8948]

This was my favorite!!! I swear it’s something every mom has felt!!

[@maddyabby300]

@Paola Garcia 22:46 !

[@isabelahaeger2635]

People only wanna document those calm not scary birth stories. So Kristi, THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST. I am so appreciative of your vulnerability and honest story.

[@palladium607]

I so agree! This was so humbling

[@isabelahaeger2635]

@@Raya-ir4tm I’m not shaming those who don’t share it. I’m just thanking her for being vulnerable and sharing her story! I’m going to be an L&D nurse and I don’t really hear of stories like hers being told, but to me, these stories are equally as important to hear. And I do think Kristi is humble and amazing for sharing her story. It’s never easy talking about a traumatic experience.

[@Bl0ndB0mb]

@@isabelahaeger2635 but....you actually did 😑 For me personally, I’ve never heard of a “calm not scary” birth story.....ever 🤷🏼‍♀️ Birth is violent in and of itself. The expectation otherwise is just delusional, lol!

[@boogoodie]

I know I'm 3 years late to your birth. Firstly I'm so happy for you that you were able to finally have a baby, after 15 years of infertility. As to you birth story, I know exactly how you felt. I went through exactly the same as you. The pain when they put you on that medication to increase your contractions is sooooooooo painful, I thought I was going to die too. I've never experienced such unbearable pain in all my life. Sadly, even though I got to 8cms, they told me I was in trouble, because I had Eclampsia . They told me I had to have a Caesarean. I was crushed, but I'm glad my son was ok and although it took me 1 year to get well. The eclampsia made me so ill. My lovely boy is now 25 and my little miracle. You were so brave and strong, but you did it and I'm so happy that he was ok and you too. I guess he's 3 years old now. Bless his sweet little life. I was riveted watching your story. God bless your little family. ❤❤❤❤

[@patriciavankesteren3164]

My mom told me that when I was born I didn't cry or breathe for 10 minutes and the doctors and herself kept rubbing and shaking me, and eventually I started to cry but had to stay at the hospital for 2 weeks. I'm 23 years old now. Whenever she tells this story to someone she always starts crying and I always say "well I'm here now, stop crying, I'm fine" but after watching your video I finally understand what she went through when I wasn't breathing and now I'm sobbing

[@camillefaith2005]

My mom had a c-section with me and the same experience happened. They didn’t hear a peep from me for about 5 minutes.

[@Nicana68]

This exact thing happened to my son too. He's also now 23. If your comment wasn't posted 3 years ago I'd wonder if I was actually your mother. 😂

[@Jade_fawkes]

you are the purest form of strength hun! you are a superwoman and your courage to speak about such a traumatic experience and the importance of mental health is admirable! sending you all so much light and love!

[@naclor4444]

@@mariel4085 Why are you even here if you didn't listen to the disclaimer? This is not the place to let your frustrations out. As Kristi said, "Get fucked".

[@heyitsmet333]

@@mariel4085 yeah she had a baby, AFTER 15 YEARS OF INFERTILITY!!! That IS something to congratulate & be thankful for ❤

[@tatianaherreragomez5982]

@@mariel4085 if you are here to judge her then please leave, this woman went through so much and if you are not going to be nice or helpful then get out! Kristi is incredible and she went through so much

[@nikkiforrester740]

@@mariel4085 seriously, STFU

[@Tmktrsf]

@@mariel4085 you good? You seem dedicated to leaving hate comments on her videos. Did you forget people can see your comment history just by clicking your username? That’s embarrassing for you honestly lol

[@KellyKellsss]

I delivered my firstborn a day after you. My birth was so similar to yours and i still can’t talk about it. Watching this while breastfeeding my babyboy and i have never held him tighter. Typing this while tears are streaming down my face. Thank you so much for sharing. We are warriors. We are superhuman. We survived and will thrive. I salute you 🙌🏻❤️

[@joeygirl_]

I am you… where we’ve been married 19 years this year and I won’t be a mommy. I’m grateful you shared the intimate moments some of us will never experience. ❤

[@maddie7196]

Yeah, same here 28 years married and no babies. It was so very cool to watch this.

[@noellefritz5678]

I've never read this book, but its called "It Starts With the Egg" and it's all about eq quality and plans and I've heard about it going over many things doctors just don't go over for some reason. Maybe it can help but you don't have to, just thought I'd share

[@sarahanne2345]

During labor in August I yelled: "Satan's fucking pitchfork is made of pitocin and I'm being stabbed in the asshole!" at my husband and the nurse....while squatting in a corner. This was not an exaggeration in any way, shape or form. You're a warrior, mama ❤

[@hannakristatran4369]

as a labour and delivery nurse and a mama of two this made me laugh so hard hahahahahaha

[@JessRodr]

Please hear my heart of love for you.... I laughed so hard I literally cried when I read this! - mad love to you from one Pitocin momma to another! 😘

[@hannakristatran4369]

when I was in labour, I couldn't even talk because of the pain

[@jackielowrey3032]

Hahahaha oh my god. That is so true. I endured pitocin induced contractions over night without an epidural. It was horrific! I wish I knew better 🥲

[@ixtahdanielac4922]

LOL

[@MannyMua733]

i’m literally crying happy tears ❤️ i love you and i’m so proud of you!

[@isabelgar7083]

Manny your so sweet!

[@kaitjonyl]

Yassss! SAME! 🥰💜

[@carm2296]

We all are! Love you Manny!! 😍❤️💯

[@tj9813]

I am crying with her on the drive to the hospital right now. 😭 Poor Kristi!

[@SunniDae333]

Hi Manny!

[@hails97751]

Mothers should be able to talk about their traumatic birth experiences. It would normalize that not all birth experiences are happy and rainbows. I’m so glad you’re putting your mental health first and giving your son the best life he could possibly have. (Also props to Zack for being literally the best husband ever.)

[@littleplague5988]

My mom was in labor with me for almost 72 hours.... The doctor that delivered me almost killed us both because she was on the labor hormone for too long. Made it out okay obviously, but another woman wasn't so lucky as he let her bleed to death. As far as I know he was sued and is no longer practicing. She wasn't supposed to be able to have kids too and now she has three. She had PCOS and every time she had cysts removed and ended up pregnant

[@hails97751]

@@littleplague5988 This is so horrible. I’m glad you and your mom are okay. But I mean this so disrespectfully, FUCK that doctor and I hope he’s in jail for manslaughter.

[@gin.k]

I'm not a mother, but I cried so much through this video. You and your husband going through such intense human experiences literally just ripped open my heart. I'm so glad that you have a healthy baby boy & that you finally got to be parents after everything.💜

[@twiligh4trinitya]

"I don't know anybody and I'm scared." My heart broke. Not knowing anyone is really scary I'm sure. I've never given birth but I think you are incredibly strong.

[@bleusimp]

As a woman who was told I may never have babies, a failed hypnobirther and now a mom, and also a postpartum nurse, I so appreciated the honesty in this video. I cry every time I watch this video. Congratulations and enjoy the ride! :)

[@zoe-dh7iq]

kristi: **talks about excruciating pain saying she would’t stop vomiting and thought she was dying** the music in the background: 🌸💫✨☁️💗

[@devorahmoreno2581]

It's 5am and I thought it was my mother in law awake listening to music and then realized it came from the video 😂😂

[@shirleyeliakis7138]

Kristi, I have NEVER shed as many tears, first verification of your pregnancy for you and your husband. All the joys of pregnancy, the expectations when labor begins, THEN the trauma when things go wrong. I sobbed! Zack's silence after birth😢. But, God is good! Answered prayers. I am so happy for all three of you. Wonderful family!

[@lifeoflil9881]

When she’s on the car and says “I don’t know anybody. I’m scared” BROKE MY HEART! She just seemed so vulnerable like a little kid going to a new school and my heart shatters😭

[@haileysanders6706]

Right!? I felt like I was her for a moment because you could hear and see the fear :'( :'( :'(

[@tiafae1909]

Omg same. It killed me. She is like the nicest person and I hate that she had to be scared like that.

[@wordsleuth992]

And you do feel the most vulnerable you have ever been in your whole life. You are in the hands of a complete stranger and the baby who you already love more than life itself is also in that persons hands. It is terrifying. You hope to God they are on their game and not having a bad day or you end up with a resident who is inexperienced or the doctor who is overworked. You know that this is the best day of your life, but in an instant could also be the worst if things were to go sideways. There is no way around that. I remember with my first going to the hospital saying “I’m gonna be a mom today!!!” And thinking in the back of head- I could also die today... it’s horrible to think, and highly unlikely. But you cant help but worry a little and pray a lot that things go well.

[@mOmEEkStinks]

I legit cried with her while I watched that part. Like you wanted to reach into the video and hug her.

[@TaaylorMacdonaldd]

You’re allowed mourn the experience you wanted and looked forward to having. You’re allowed to feel hurt and betrayed by the events surrounding the birth of your son. No birth is the same, and every woman experiences different things. My birth was not what I planned, my daughter had to come a month early due to my body failing her (I had GD as well). I went through a 5 day of failed after failed inductions and it was so traumatic for me. I’m still healing. And that’s ok. I wish you nothing but positive, healing energy in your motherhood journey. Hearing your story was an honour, Kristi.

[@Syd448]

Perfectly said!

[@Shutupdede]

Period!!! Perfectly said

[@jessedanielle6726]

Hearing someone else talk about having a traumatic birth is so validating

[@cmthomas07]

Same, and I’m 60 years old!

[@allisonrose7000]

!!!!

[@Moodtoodrude]

100%

[@aksun1130]

It really is.

[@tuathadesidhe1530]

Yep - we are far too silenced by the "orgasmic" birther brigade.

[@janeaustere]

I’m at your 26 hour breaking point and wow the same thing happened to me, I was stuck at 3.5 after 40 hours (16 at the hospital). I also really didn’t want the epidural, but afterward I said “I regret nothing” and I fell asleep. Gave birth 8 hours later. It humbled me greatly and made me have compassion on all the moms before and after me. I did go on to have another and it was easy, 6 hours first contraction to holding baby. Was 6cm when I arrived at the hospital and I was hardly uncomfortable yet. Wow is every labor different. No regrets on my epidural first birth!

[@AJ-7-316]

Only a gifted storyteller can have me wincing, cringing, crying, laughing, sympathizing, empathizing, crying, chuckling, exhausted, anticipating, frantic, empathizing, astonished, on pins-n-needles, smiling, crying, sympathizing, cracking up, consoling, relieved, etc. etc. (and round-n-round I went!) and ending with the huge urge to hug you and hand you a glass of wine 🍷. Wow! It felt like I was watching a thriller of sorts. He’s absolutely gorgeous ❤️. So so glad you’re doing better.

[@maryperrot4120]

Right! I felt it! She’s a fabulous story teller. Not many people can I watch over an hour of and not even realize that hour passed.

[@leelee2925]

@@maryperrot4120 that was an hour!!??? Damn I didn’t even realize it lol wow

[@madinanabiyeva3084]

Can we just take a minute and appreaciate how wonderful of a husband is Zack 🥺

[@amberwebb9684]

So so wonderful. Thank you for being an awesome man and supporter of this incredible woman. And daddy to this baby boy.

[@daddylonglegs444]

😭😭😭😭

[@taylorollenburg6931]

He is the sweetest!!

[@mena_pila]

You did not have to share this with us, but I feel an immense privilege to be able to see this because this is a very intimate precious family moment. Congratulations!

[@powerofbeautyXO]

i felt the exact same way!

[@LaurenMormino]

Well put 😭💜

[@-Bellana-]

I was in 5 days of labor and my body would NOT let me deliver vaginally. It was the most horrible feeling ever and I felt for SO long after that I wasn't even a real mom for having to have a cesarean. Watching this video brought back so many memories of childbirth that I cried when your baby was finally pulled and laid on your chest for the first time. It's so amazing. No words can fully describe it. Late congratulations. You did so great! ❤

[@kawehionalani]

Same! The up side is we’re still “virgin” 😉

[@Xnataliebrown]

@@kawehionalani that makes no sense lol

[@claireashley427]

You are 100% a real mom! 5 days of labor are you kidding me?! Most women would give in WAY before that and opt for an induction/pitocin/c-section! You did amazing! You brought a human being into this world! It doesn't matter they got here, you carried them and birthed them with the help of a c-section which is an amazing thing! You aren't just a mom you are freaking supermom! I can't even imagine 5 days of labor! You and all mothers are so amazingly strong!!👏👏👏❤❤

[@jeannerosen9024]

I am a 70yr. old grandmother. Mother of 3. Was a Doula for many years. I am waiting on my 3rd grandson due any minute. Thank you so much for telling your birth story in your raw beauty way. This is helping me prepare for supporting my daughter in law in the best way I can. Blessings and love to you and your family.

[@LB-fg2ph]

You seem like such a warm, wonderful person. Congratulations on the impending arrival of grand baby number 3 💐

[@remmilouann]

Congratulations on your newest Grandson coming!❤ Positive thoughts and love that all goes well!

[@veilbreak5867]

I pray all goes well Jeanne....Congratulations. I have 6 grandchildren....And I thank God for them every day

[@sarahhefields]

You are superwoman. Also...Can we all give a round of applause for Zack?!

[@agapeemenee]

I think I can speak for EVERYONE when I say that motherhood suits you so, so beautifully. Your voice is incredibly powerful; please don’t stop sharing your story, so many people can benefit from hearing it! You would make an amazing birth advocate.

[@jenngranados825]

YES

[@shawnalee9775]

This truly made my day❤. It took my husband and me 10 yrs to conceive naturally. We tried. we did fertility drugs and all. During my ivf, they retrieved 25 eggs. Out of those 25 eggs, the drs retrieved, 24 fertilized with my husband's... Hwvr. I became hyperstimulated, the Dr's took all 24 embryos and froze them, only 6 survived meanwhile I prayed and asked the Lord to take all of my little life's, and bless me with one of His own. Exactly 1 yr later I became pregnant .Naturally* 🤰, I looked up, and I humble ask the Lord if my daughter could have a sister. I became pregnant again with another beautiful daughter❤❤❤❤God is good, and His timing is perfect.

[@cassandramorgan5185]

The way Kristi still has so much empathy when she is going through something so traumatic astounds me. What a person

[@plantpants3746]

I would be cursing, punching, demanding someone to surgically remove my baby! She is much stronger than me

[@kristi8812]

Zack: "You know me and I'm not going to let anything happen to you. I'm gonna be there the whole time." Can we please get a round of applause for Zack?? What.a.guy!

[@isthatyou6715]

Yes! Especially when Kristi was having contractions and he was trying to rub her back she said no no no and Zack backing off like 😳 xd

[@LoryBelle]

Zach was awesome, he reminds me of the way my husband was for the births of our two boys. I will say this, my husband (and I’m betting Zach) kind of hates when he gets praised for this kind of behavior, for being a good father and supportive husband. He says, isn’t that what men are supposed to do? Is the bar really so low that we have to praise these men that act like men and love and support their wives and children? It’s a question worth asking, for sure. Doesn’t take away from the props the men like this deserve, but let’s not act like this is something special, unattainable, or anything less than any woman or child deserves from their partner or father.

[@Qichiquiche]

@@LoryBelle and the fact that your husbands responds like that makes him all the better. That there is a great man

[@sabrinacochran9808]

He’s so supportive and compassionate, it literally brings tears to my eyes.

[@juicysatsumabeauty]

Mama Belle Yes, yes, yes!!! Zach is not and should not be exceptional. He behaved like any decent husband and father would have. If you're partner isn't acting like Zach it isn't because Zach is one in a million and Kristi is just super lucky. This is just how decent men behave for the people they love.

[@laurensmith3206]

I’ve miscarried 4 times and I just want to be a mom and I didn’t have hope until I found your page. I’m so thankful for this series, I’m hoping that I can In the future I’m hoping for a miracle. Thank you Kristi!

[@boots01]

Keeping you in my prayers Lauren 🙏❤

[@bunchkrystle]

I had 3 miscarriages before having my daughter 8 years later. She's 10 and I'm still in disbelief don't lose hope❤

[@witch_boy]

you are so loved and you are in the thoughts of every single person who hears your story

[@Forgetaboutthis2024]

This happened to my cousin she miscarried 3 times but had a daughter later dont give up

[@Forgetaboutthis2024]

I have a few cousins who cant get pregnant u r not alone

[@zenagoria7926]

Not me, 4 months pregnant, literally crying in my car watching this 😭 So happy he’s such a beautiful, happy, healthy boy ❤️ Your family is SO sweet, so happy you have your miracle family 🥹

[@23leotarose23]

I had my son 23 years ago and I’ve never heard anyone describe anything close to what I went through until now. It’s 4am and I’m sobbing because someone else felt like I felt. I ended up with a c section but I just have never been able to relate to anyone else’s emotions and I felt for so long like I was the only woman who stared death in the face in what was supposed to be and at the same was the best moments of my life. I was just 18 then and it’s taken 23 years for me to hear from you a lot of what I felt. So... Thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story. You are a Goddess. You are superhuman and nothing that you feel is wrong. Not one thought that you have is bad or wrong. Everything you felt, feel and ever will feel is perfectly natural. You have made me feel...for the first time in my life...like I am not alone and I was not alone in how I felt and thought in the long terrifying hours of my sons birth. In the long nights alone with my son after the birth. Thank you so much for sharing your story. And you’re right! He is the cutest baby ever!!

[@Meme44546]

Absolutely with you on this. I felt like my birth story was being narrated even though I also ended up with an emergency c-section. Lots of love to you too 🤍

[@jsan3743]

I am totally with you. When my seventeen year old son was born it was horrifyingly traumatizing. After days of brutal ineffective labor we had to have an a emergency cesarean and I had no pain meds and felt it all. It was discovered during the surgery (during which 6 people physically held me down because I was screaming and flailing in pain) that I had a bandl's ring. Thanks to that ring, both of us nearly died. I had never heard anyone talk about a traumatizing birth and I felt like I had failed. I had no one to talk to who understood and no one I could relate to. I loved my midwife (she stayed through the birth despite having the surgeon take over) but she accidentally made me feel worse at my first post birth appointment by telling me it was the scariest birth she witnessed in 20 years. I felt like there was something very wrong with me. I went through terrible PPd, ptsd etc. I wish I had heard Kristy's story back then. I wouldn't have felt so alone. I would have looked at Kristy and known she had done nothing wrong and hopefully would have seen myself in a more positive light. Kristy is so brave, strong, and generous for sharing this. We were not owed her story, but she shared so other women could hear. This is so much better than the hushed way no one would speak about difficult birth stories when my baby was born. Im am amazed and humbled by Kristy in this moment.

[@CakenDrum]

Same girl! My son is almost 3 now, and I've never heard a story so similar to mine. It was actually so comforting to hear her being so honest about her feeling through it all. It's exactly how I felt.

[@mosquito8038]

@@jsan3743 "had to have an a emergency cesarean and I had no pain meds and felt it al" omg what? I am so sorry you went through that but I can not even believe why a C-Section would be done without pain meds. Didn't they work or was there no time to wait? Horrified just by the thought of it. And I'm already scared of needles •.•

[@mamato3rowling338]

Crazy because I am like you I'm feeling her story because I have exact same thing happen but even crazier because now I'm reading your comment and I got pregnant the very first time I had sex a month before I turn 18 probably TMI but anywho I had my daughter when I was 18 she's now 23 and I had the exact same thing happen and although I was expecting to have a normal birth I was 2 weeks overdue had to go into the hospital they started pitocin overnight and the next day I still haven't dilated and my water still hasn't broke the increase my pitocin eventually broke my water for me it resealed they broke it again and with an hour after that which at that point was about 9:30 the second night a nurse was in my room started screaming down the hall next thing I know there's 15 people around me putting oxygen on my face and pushing my whole bed down the hall saying I was at the emergency C-section I was so scared mind you I'm 18 so I'm sure that didn't help but I just started the crying and could not stop I thought something was wrong with my baby I thought I was going to lose her but I will say also after my c-section at a beautiful healthy baby poor Christie but some of our bodies just aren't meant they have babies naturally I guess because three kids later every single time even the second time when I went into labor on my own on time and my contractions we're a minute and a half to 3 minutes apart for 48 hours 2 days with contractions around every two minutes and that one time with my body dilate past 2 cm on its own but also not one time would my water break on its own I literally feel like there's something wrong with my cervix where I just cannot dilate but I also feel blessed to be able to get pregnant at all especially three times when there's people out there like my sister who's ever gotten pregnant on her own and can't have kids and Christy who it took 15 years and didn't think she'd be able to have kids

[@chronicunicorn9002]

31 weeks pregnant today with a baby I was told I could never carry. I’m sobbing. Congratulations mama 💙

[@perfectlyimperfect2368]

That's INCREDIBLE! Congratulations!🎉🎉🎉 Wishing you and baby all the best and hope everyone is happy and healthy!

[@brittb4195]

Congratulations!!! I'm 30 weeks with #4 after being told the same thing. I'm so incredibly excited for you because I can relate 100%. Sending all my love!

[@sarausmani8134]

MORE POWER TO U...Congratulations🥰🥰

[@heathermarie3672]

Huge congrats to you!!!

[@aracelycruz3172]

Congratulations 💗

[@crystalkuhlmann1167]

I feel so honored that you let us into this sensitive, intimate moment of your life. I only cried like a million times. I’ve even kept my husband up to date throughout your pregnancy and everything. You and zack are the epitome of true love and soul connection and I’m so happy God blessed you with the little blessing you deserve. Thank you for letting us be a part of it and being vulnerable. You are going to be the best mommy ever- I can already see it. Thank you for keeping it raw. I love you! 💕

[@willowbenjamin]

Rewatching this year's after having your sweet baby boy. I hate that this happened to you, and how it effected you. But how things are going now, I truly think it happened for a reason. This experience pushed you to get the help you needed with therapy, and focusing on your mental/physical health that you had pushed off for so long. Your baby came into your life for such bigger reasons, such a bigger purpose.

[@jaimefrenchofficial]

I can’t believe I thought I wasn’t going to cry. This story was so incredible. You did so good.

[@natashahudson1544]

SAME 😭

[@mariamckenna808]

What a special story...he is adorable. Enjoy him always.

[@tlwest21]

I wanted to make the sounds with her. I think I want her with me if by some miracle I do get pregnant I need someone in there that completely gets it lol

[@addicted367]

Yes she did. Love both of your channels.

[@jeannierobletto1798]

I cried upon intro! ❤❤ such a beautiful couple Super happy for them! 🤗

[@allisonh2340]

Friendly reminder that your most traumatic experience is YOUR most traumatic experience. You cannot compare traumas. Saying someone else's experience could be more traumatic than yours is minimizing the trauma that you yourself experienced, and no one should feel like they have to do that. Sending lots of healing vibes and love your way. 💕

[@ma-ma-mamary3946]

💯exactly

[@lauren3173]

Dang I needed to hear this today... ❤️

[@MaryWarner713]

I had my daughter 13 years ago and NO ONE talked about what a woman’s body goes through after they give birth. There are millions of books about pregnancy and birth then is like, “ok, you have your baby now, carry on, go be a mom”. I’m so glad that women are willing to discuss postpartum and help women know that they are not alone.

[@RandyButternubs917]

I commented something like this about 2 years ago on another video that everyone will talk about healthy eating while pregnant, exercises, how to get a room ready, items to buy, what bottles are highly rated, what to pack to go to the hospital, and a million other things, but NOT ONCE did anything ever mention what to expect during postpartum. Someone replied to my comment saying I could easily google it and it's my own fault for not being prepared. How does one prepare for something they're not aware of? I understand post surgery healing and such, but I honestly had no idea about the nuances of postpartum recovery until I was thrown into it. That reply to the comment still irks me 2 years later. Loll

[@redheadedprincess8947]

I agree with you 100% I had my daughter 15 yrs ago this July and im still traumatized from giving birth. I instantly had post partum and was treated for it for literally yrs shit even now. The epidural didnt work I was like the exorcist. I swear my head spun. And let me tell you when i finally got my 9lb baby out they didnt even let me see her nm put her on me. Then hrs later i started to hemorrhage and was rushed to the OR for a DNC i passed out and didnt see my baby till the next day.

[@redheadedprincess8947]

@@RandyButternubs917 I dont blame you. It irked me just reading it. So either that person didnt have a baby yet or wasnt blessed with post partum. We may let a comment irk us but we were strong enough to over come what we had to go through. For the most part lol.

[@ericadender4069]

@THISIS THEGIRLI think everyone is different. I'm an OB nurse who is very educated about post partum and was completely blind sighted by it. For me it made me feel I was a terrible mother so I saw those resources through that lens even though I knew better. There was no way I was going to join a support group and tell other women what a failure of a mother I was. That's where my head was. I told no one. I just got lucky that I worked with my OB who recognized it immediately and prescribed me medication before that fog lifted and I saw what was happening. However if I would of came across her and watched another mother go through it without me having to admit I was struggling it would of made a difference. I only have one child for a reason and I could never willingly go through that again. I swear I cried so much my son looked at me like good god woman get it together I'm the one who is supposed to cry all the time not you.

[@shay1330]

I think one of the few content creators speaking about this is also Colleen ballinger you should check her videos out you may relate to her story

[@BRINpeterson]

My son wasn’t breathing when I had him. He came out (at 33 weeks) with his arm over his head and the cord wrapped around both his arm and neck. He was SO blue. They rushed him to the warmer the same way. It was the longest 2 minutes of my life. Hearing that cry after that really is the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. I bawled. Anyone who goes through this absolutely has a piece of my heart. So scary. Glad you had a great outcome 💕

[@pallavipraveen6836]

Your son is healthy now??

[@dellaliz1610]

I’m a doctor who delivers babies, and it’s always so nice to see these stories because it reminds me that even though this is one of many (amazing!) days at work for me, it’s the biggest day of these families lives 😊 So glad you’ve got a healthy baby!

[@jcrlb215]

I’m finishing my undergrad premed degree hoping to be able to do this one day and that’s exactly why I want to do it. I’d love to be able to help someone through one of the most beautiful moments of their lives every day for a living

[@hannahlanai]

I just want to say, you're so brave for committing to your preferences and not wanting an epidural. And then to take it in stride when things didn't go your way. I'm speechless. I don't think I could ever be that brave. Your commitment to wanting to bring your son into the world the way you thought was right was so heart touching. Also, Zack was amazing. I have no words. Girls, get you a man that's that supportive of you. That's that positive and stays with you when you're struggling and puts you first. You guys brought me to tears. Thank you for sharing all of this, I know reliving it can't have been easy

[@hannahlanai]

PS: he's perfect, and you are amazing

[@angelaharrison9585]

I’m a mom of 4, youngest is 12 and oldest is 19. I have never heard the birthing experience described as well as you just did. I hung on your every word. Thank you for not only telling your story but for validating so many others in the process. You did an amazing job and your little man is so precious. Congratulations y’all!

[@user-ct2hu8js8j]

My mom had 4 kids too! I'm the oldest and I'm 19, and the youngest is 12, what s crazy coincidence!

[@fabiolad87]

This!!!

[@emilyandfi44]

Could not agree with you more!

[@leelee2925]

Yes I absolutely agree!

[@megs3019]

Everyone deserves a Zach…. He is absolutely amazing and so in love with her. I love their love❤️

[@sondrahagewood3267]

I can’t imagine criticizing a women over how they choose to give birth. Your story is incredibly traumatic and the strength you have to go through it and then talk about it and share your story with millions of people is incredible. You and all other mothers are incredibly strong and powerful. Much love to you, Zach, and your beautiful baby boy ❤️❤️❤️

[@Krpq17]

Women: “THIS IS THE WORST PAIN ANYONE HAS EVER EXPERIENCED.” While in pain: “I would do it like two more times tho.”

[@ChelzLovesPeanut]

I love that 😊. That’s how much your babies being born are worth it. Crazy right? 🥰

[@r-e_mii]

I find it hilarious when men say kidney stones are comparable to giving birth. Im like "bro...dude just shut up. Just shut the f up".

[@codejoy99]

@@r-e_mii I thought I had my first period when I had a kidney stone. Periods are 5x worse than kidney stones. I can't imagine births. I felt betrayed when I had my first period a few months after.

[@KendallM0219]

@@ChelzLovesPeanutthey asked me right after my daughter was out, if I was ready to do it again. I said yeah I’d do it again 😂

[@NowLeavingNormal]

Ya know you spend years watching this person on your phone or computer, and eventually you feel a closeness to this person you’ve never met, and that doesn’t know you exist. You form a kind of friendship and love for this person. And just like any other relationship in your life you feel for them, and Kristi has such a way of expressing her experiences and feelings. When I tell you a cried watching her go through what she went through, I fucking cried real tears. What you went through, Kristi, was hard. You had a fucking hard labor and delivery. I’ve never felt the things I felt watching you in labor, and recount labor. You are so fucking incredible.

[@sailormewmew95]

This is exactly how I feel to, she’s such a wonderful, amazing person, I’m so sad she had such a hard hard time😭 i care about her so much and I’m so happy they are both safe🖤

[@hollydatsopoulos7998]

Thank you for sharing your story! My husband and I are both infertile, which was devastating for us. However, we are still happy together, and have a very close relationship with our nieces & nephew! I still love hearing other people’s story, even though it won’t happen for us (had a tumor in my uterus, and had to have a hysterectomy. Sad that we won’t have kids, but happy that I’m not in any more pain. Always think about the positive, not the negative.) Congratulations to you both, and your beautiful baby boy! 😊

[@jennifergraham894]

Hearing Kristi say that people negatively said ANYTHING about her birth; hurts me to my soul. She is such a beautiful human being and when I gave birth in Aug 19 and was dealing w/ my own postpartum, watching her videos; watching her joy in everything. Really did help me. I am just so happy for her.

[@shilohivy4590]

It makes me so so mad

[@kaylabea13]

I don’t even want kids but when you were crying and said, “my baby!” I BROKE DOWN CRYING

[@DreahHNM]

ME TOO😭 i don’t want kids but this video made me SOB

[@Deanna417]

Same! The miracle of life is amazing and I appreciate it’s wonder. But I never have wanted kids 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@y.m.or.4053]

Same here, I have no desire to give birth but OMG

[@peypea]

Literally!!

[@faeirybaby]

As someone who's never had the desire to have kids. It warms my heart and I am ELATED to see people who want kids so whole heartedly be able to have them. I can't imagine the fear and strength it takes to give birth.

[@courtneygrier2015]

I don't want kids either and also never had the desire but I see that no matter how you give birth, it's still an amazing process. I love seeing people who truly want kids finally have them.

[@samanthaduke6660]

Same

[@dogboops]

Same here. I will never have children due to choice, but Call the Midwife is one of my favourite 20th century-based period shows.

[@dominiquegeorge9099]

My only hope is that if I ever have children, I just hope to be as lucky to have a husband as supportive as Zach. Congratulations. You are amazing. Thank you for sharing this!

[@Prhmangel]

I hope you do as well. I have had 2 babies with my high school sweetheart and he was just like Zach! It really helps the situation.

[@Alexandrovna22]

Zack is the gold standard of what every partner should do and act when their partner is having a baby. Major props to him for being an amazing husband and support system!

[@amymbeauty8765]

Seriously! Literally the perfect partner.

[@MystiDawn]

Absolutely! I was single by the time I gave birth (long story, I have shitty taste in men sums it up lol) but I had my parents and my grandma. My mom was my saving grace during my labor, but I kinda wish I had the experience of having a supportive partner during that.

[@amymbeauty8765]

@@MystiDawn That was exactly it for me too.

[@-Bellana-]

My husband was terrified lmao he WANTED to be supportive. But when they started my cesarean he wanted to nope tf out.

[@brittanyhenry3410]

I just found out today that I’m pregnant after 3 years of trying.. I cannot explain how beautiful this story has been to follow and relate to. Kristi, I am so fucking proud of you. You did it, momma. Thank you so much for sharing your life. You’re helping so many women, more than you’ll ever know. I can’t wait to hold my miracle baby on my chest. It’s been my dream my entire life. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

[@charliescott768]

Congratulations! 💕

[@roseyp7047]

Congratulations! I hope and pray that I’ll be able to say that one day! 🌈🤱🏻❤️

[@TraciHilbers]

Congrats!! I am about to be a grandma for the first time in about 5 weeks

[@mrsaleksandra2481]

Awww congratulations!!!!! 🥰❤❤❤

[@Lisa-yo6pb]

Congratulations!!! I find out if I'm pregnant tomorrow after my first IVF cycle. It's been 5 years for me.

[@tammyparkes6677]

I felt every word you spoke. With my first baby..... she was in position. But back to back. Posterior. A star gazer. My waters had broken naturally 5 days previous so I had to have the gel and the drip to start my labour....omgoodness the pain! Long story short..... 36 hours in labour and 9cm......I stopped progressing and was rushed to theatre for an emergency c section .....my daughter Emily was born via c section weighing 9lb 2.5 and she is now almost 22 years old and it feels like yesterday. You are amazing! Bl00dy amazing. Congratulations x

[@ItsJustHeathuur]

For the person who has been there as the nurse taking the baby and the person who takes care of them when they are in the NICU, I can truly say I’ve never got to watch the emotions of the family unfold like this. In the moment, it’s all focus on baby. I sobbed. I always knew it was hard and those seconds to minutes feel like ages to us too, but no one has been able to tell the whole story to us like you just did. Thank you for sharing your story to the world even when you didn’t have to 🥺💙 I’ve honestly been terrified of giving birth since the day I found out I was pregnant. This surprisingly helped ease the nerves some in a way that’s hard to explain. Can’t wait for the postpartum video!

[@LindseyGigliotti]

This gave me all the feelings! 1. I’m so happy for you and your hubby. I don’t *virtually* know two more deserving people to be blessed with parenthood. 2. Your experience was so similar to my first delivery. It’s so traumatic and mind fucking when you have a specific plan and it doesn’t go that way. 3. Your little guy is seriously the cutest!!! Big congratulations to you all!!!

[@BreezyBri]

Kristi, I had been enthusiastically sharing your story with my boyfriend ever since you announced your pregnancy. the day your water broke is the day that he left me, and shortly afterwards I found out that I was pregnant. I’ve been terrified since that day, but this story gave me so much peace. thank you ❤️

[@ravendame7]

Oh momma, stay strong, you got this! ❤️

[@brainsthehead]

that is so awful...good luck!

[@cosplayprincess]

Good luck momma! You have got this.

[@ld415]

You got this girl!! He left but you aren't alone & you deserve best which obviously wasn't him anyway. Keep sharing & you will get thru this. Xoxo...or I guess it is air hugs & kisses these days...lol

[@deendrew36]

He was dead weight. You are not alone. I pray that you will get through with flying colours and that your little one will be healthy and a blessing to you. ❤️

[@jasmineseiger9551]

I already knew Alder was healthy and totally okay, but as soon as he came out and wasn’t crying my heart sank. It terrified me just watching it even though I knew he would be alright. Thank you for openly and honestly sharing such an emotional part of your life with us.

[@zoeygroat1560]

Oh my goodness. Zach in the background while you were driving to the hospital, so sweet. I cried the whole video. You were so brave and did amazing. I know this is two years old but still. Thank you for sharing your story ❤

[@mackenziecarbaugh7349]

KRISTI. The storytelling, the obvious care that went into this video. What an incredible gift you've shared with us.

[@DebDeville666]

I remember commenting on your announcement as I was pregnant at the same time but sadly I lost my little baby. I’m 20 weeks pregnant today and this video has me sobbing. I’m so so happy for you and zach. Your the most beautiful mother and I’m enjoying watching your journey. Sending you so much love xxxx

[@amyk343]

Sending you so much love dear. E-hugs.

[@emmad4308]

Condolences on your little baby, that's absolutely devastating and absolutely get therapy if you need it. There's support groups online and just know you are not alone in your loss. But on the other hand, CONGRATULATIONS on your current pregnancy, and I hope everything goes as smooth as possible for you and the bub. I've never had/want kids/ I have aspirations to be the cool aunt, so I don't have any personal experience with pregnancy, but just know this random person is 100% rooting for you.

[@DebDeville666]

Thank you both so much for commenting back, it’s so kind of you both. Xxxx

[@shauna3982]

I’m 20weeks 1 day, due July 19th 🥰

[@bexywexy4040]

I'm sorry for your loss, but congratulations on your rainbow baby xx

[@akj1818]

I’m a 42 year old who always wanted a family. Sadly, that didn’t turn out for me. I tend to shy away from birth stories because they make me feel sorry for myself. But you, Sweet Girl. I e been following you since before you got pregnant. And when you made your big announcement, I was overjoyed for you and you husband. I’ve loved following your adventure through all this, and it hasn’t made me sad at all. I’ve so full of joy for you and your husband, because I know what it is to want it. And you two are so beautiful, and graceful and thankful. Nobody deserves this more than you and your hubby. I’m sorry your birth preferences and hopes didn’t come to complete fruition, but I wanted to Thank you for sharing your journey with me. I’ve lived vicariously thru your miracle. Much Love to you RawBeautyKristi. ❤️❤️

[@anniembus6488]

I don’t know your situation, but.. you’re only 42! It’s not too late!

[@stephaniefernandez4507]

It’s never too late. Did you think about adoption?

[@FLIMGAMINGA]

Sending you good vibrations! Life sometimes surprises us ia a good way.

[@petalchild]

My mom had me at 43 ❤ If you still want to be a mom, it's not too late!

[@tinah3009]

When I was 6, for career day at school, i came in holding a baby doll and said all i wanted was to be a mom. Always wanted children. Dreamed about it. Now I'm 45, very overweight, high blood pressure, type 2 diabetes and have borderline personality disorder. My fiance is 43, lots of past trauma, bipolar, aspergers. We probably shouldn't spread our genes, probably shouldn't be raising children and I probably wouldn't make it safely through pregnancy or childbirth. Very heartbreaking. I've been watching Kristi from the beginning and seeing her get pregnant after 15 years made me elated and depressed for myself. But having watched this whole birth story somehow made me feel like I was there. Made me feel a tiny bit more complete somehow. So happy for her and Zack. Such amazing people. That baby is so blessed to have them as parents. So much love there.

[@spooh75]

I'm only 47 minutes into your birth story and about 3 years late my birth story which I will not share is if my daughter who is now 22 years old I can relate so much to your story and I am so thankful to hear it to even hear you say that it is okay that I felt the way I felt made me feel things I cannot even describe because I feel like you truly understand of course at my time there wasn't trolls on the internet telling me how I Shoulda Woulda Coulda instead there was family and friends and other mothers and it was just as hard so I just want to tell you in return God bless you what you have put on there for the world I cannot imagine how many people it will helped it definitely helped me God bless you and your little one and your husband and all of the wonderful Journeys ahead all of the ups and all of the Downs that will come and thank you for today

[@laluna1597]

"are you having a contraction?" "i don't know anything" "okay"

[@squidthekid2335]

This was prob my fave quote from the whole thing, and there were some good ones haha

[@rhiana7166]

that's the most relatable quote when you're in that kind of pain.

[@CrankyMama44]

Dude...I felt that to my core! When you're contracting like that and people are trying to talk to you and ask questions...I about lost it. Took everything in me not to to respond with obscenities. Lol

[@BlackFeather713]

Accurate lmao

[@samilesamil9159]

When i had my second baby the nurse that was doing my paper work asked me what was my name and i remmember i said i do not know i do not remmember 🤣🤣🤣.

[@itslikelymakeup_]

i dont think i have ever watched a video this long on youtube but i enjoyed every second. thank you for being so vulnerable & amazing & your lil bb is SO cute!

[@Nickoli-pk5es]

From a guys perspective, I want to give a MASSIVE "round of applause" to Zack for being a real man/dad supporting his wife & son during this time. He stepped up to the plate big time! Obviously mom has a way harder role during this time, but a woman learns a lot about the dad during her pregnancy/labor experience. My dad went to a bar while my mom was in labor with me, in fact he wouldn't even pick us up from the hospital when my mom & I were discharged. You were a warrior Kristi! I'm so happy for you & Zack! If I ever run across Zack irl drinks are on me, lol. Well done mom & dad!

[@Adrischessy]

Omg i had a similar experience!! My dad couldn’t be in the same room with my mom when she giving birth to me because he was drunk. Legit the doctors went out to find him and let him know I was born and healthy and he was half asleep LOL

[@helloworld7944]

@@Adrischessy omg if my husband ever did that to me I’d be so pissed😅

[@Bluu_kat]

If my husband did that to me He’d be divorced 😂😂

[@cari8282]

Nickoli 👏👏👏

[@Baider808]

Dude I get that. My dad was asked to leave by a nurse after he kicked my mom out of the bed while she was in labor cause he was tired. He then told the nurse as he was leaving "I didn't want to be here anyway" 🙃

[@deidragarrett1126]

I am 33 years old and I am 7 weeks right now with my first child. I have had so many problems trying to get pregnant and have a baby. I've lost 2 and I am praying that I have this baby and everything be okay. I am so happy God gave u the baby you have always wanted girl. I have been watching you for years. Congrats!

[@averyaveryp]

i swear no matter how many times i see your story i still get teary-eyed.🥺 glad you and baby made it out safe

[@averyaveryp]

also this chair is so cute comfy lookin i love your aesthetic

[@GzlzClaudia]

When she was having the contraction and didn't want Zach to touch her, he took a step back and waited until she was ready to be touched 😭♥️ he did great!!!!

[@glow_with_cindy]

He was amazing! I didn't want to be touched, either. I even punched my husband in the gut during a particularly hard contraction so hard that he had a bruise for weeks 😂

[@Ap0calypse133]

I was there with my labor. My husband tried to grab my hand from gripping the rail during a contraction and I straight denied him. The pain was so intense I didn't want anything else to touch me in fear that the sensation would contribute to the pain.

[@Ap0calypse133]

@@glow_with_cindy and I also bit my husband during a contraction. He didn't fight it. Accepted it fully lol

[@dianetobin]

I recall telling my husband 'please don't ****ing touch me' when he was trying to help with my pain. Any external inputs on top of the pain was just too much. He did well and gave me space when I needed it

[@GzlzClaudia]

@@glow_with_cindy 😂 I guess that's how we share the pain with them lol

[@VIXXIIMCMLXXXVII]

Hearing you cry is the sound of heartbreak. "I don't know anyone there..." "You know me." That's the sound of true love

[@CourtneyLou]

That was such a beautiful moment. That was my cry trigger 😂😭

[@VIXXIIMCMLXXXVII]

@@CourtneyLou totally! Ugh my heart

[@stephaniegunnison5908]

That was when I lost it!! I could feel her terror and it was so heartbreaking!!

[@carolg6598]

Darling, I just want to say you did EVERYTHING you could have done. You didn’t fail. You did what needed to be done. Birth preferences are just that. I chose not to be specific for my birth preferences, because I knew just how fragile those preferences can be. My preference was get me and baby home in one piece.

[@adelinewurzer4533]

same! i do want an epidural & don't want him circumsized though. but mostly i just want him alive, healthy, safe & to come home with his father and i

[@ayeshapatel233]

In one piece 😂

[@jessicamartinez3353]

More people need to talk about traumatic births . To normalize them . Not every birth is like Instagram

[@jenniferford2067]

It’s so true. Downplaying traumatic birth means women aren’t prepared and then when it happens to them they feel like they can’t talk about it. 22 years later I can still remember the attitudes of “you have a healthy baby why are we still talking about this?” I got when trying to process my own traumatic birth experience.

[@PacificMidwest]

Yep 👆👆

[@alexissuarez6360]

Agreed. I literally have PTSD from giving birth to my daughter and people look at me like I’m being “dramatic” when I try and tell them my story. I love that Kristi is opening the conversation

[@codename495]

Even Instagram births aren’t like instagram.

[@shannonl8139]

Amen, amen, amen!!!!