I Have Depression... (Vlog)

Not sure how long I'll keep this up, or if I'm even the vlogging type. I just had a little I wanted to get off my chest.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
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[@gatr2897]

you know, I have something to cheer you up. true story btw. one day little Chris (me) was upset and depressed, trying to find something on the Internet to make him happy. but the internet was filled with negative stuff, but he eventually found you, and watched a video, and you cheered him up! hearing you talk about pokemon was enough to cheer him up, and I bet the same has happened to others, so you are helping other people with their depression. don't you feel pretty good now?

[@tristandd1914]

So I just recently found your account a couple of days ago and I have been watching your videos non stop since, I just wanted to say you seem like a really amazing person and I really enjoy what you are doing with your videos and everything else. You inspire me I just want to say thank you for taking time out of your day to make videos because they really brighten up my day! I really hope you see this comment :)

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Tristan DD Thanks buddy that's great to hear! Glad you enjoy the videos!

[@DestructX]

After every raindance there comes sunny day!

[@mustafamrouweh7873]

Man ...... That was hard to watch I sorry But listen mate you are not alone Let me tell you my story ( if you don't mind ) In 2013 I moved to new school where I was bullied by nearly everyone Later my grandpa died Later my friend died( I swear I'm not lining ) My grads went down and I risked my future and not going to college Yes like any depressed man I've locked on my self started crying for no reasons But then I realized Why am I like this ? Is there no way out ? Hell even doctors said that I was hopeless and I might go crazy someday But NO I said NO I'm better than this So I did things I wanted to do like long walks along the beach and running I also one was reacted to a metal song in public Did I care? No For the first time in tow years I felt like me So yeah just try yo fight it and ......... Ummmmm.....how to out it ??!!! Force your self to do things you like for a while then it'll be your way out of that dark place Trust me and keep on training

[@TreemanChel]

I completely agree, I may not have depression, but I do experience not wanting to do something I know I'll enjoy and be happier afterwards, but feeling lazy. I ignore it against what I'm telling myself and do it anyways. Your tip is also helpful for people without depression too.

[@Skrattmas]

I know this is an old video (23:th of June 2015 to be exact) but I watched it now (22:th of February 2016) and I just think about how awesome you are Liam! And I can say that I have had some deep times when I couldn't stop crying (Well mostly when I was alone because when I was younger I tried to be tough..Didn't went well though): Anyway! That is why I say that friendship is so awesome and I just need to bow for many of your awesome fans that has now gotten you so much. Think that you now live with Ellie in your own house. Think that you now have 29,307 Suscribers (When I write this) And think how much you have grown for doing stuff you love! We friends are gonna support you and listen to you as much as you do for us (And probably so much more!!). I Wish for you the best in your, Ellie and Essie's life and I hope that you feel all the support and comfort that we want to give you! Thank you for being you!

[@EvilAngelSerenity]

I suffer from depression myself. However, I'm technically diagnosed as having Major Depressive Bipolar Disorder. I've suffered from alcoholism, and for a moment in my life I even began cutting. I'm free from all of that now, but it's still a haunting memory of knowing it was easier to deal with physical pain rather than the emotional. At least with the physical pain, you know what to do to stop the pain. But the emotional helplessness..... I couldn't deal. Even my own sister told me "You're a worthless piece of shit drunk, you don't even deserve to live. I could give two shits about you"... I have never fully recovered from her emotional abuse, and her words will haunt me for the rest of my life. All in all, I remind and tell myself everyday "You know you want to get better. You know you want to beat this. I don't want to feel helpless anymore!". Another contributing factor is the all around support of my best friend and boyfriend. He has depression too, although not as excessive in compared to my case. But having that understanding, we both try to help each other in those darker moments. He's also been helping me get back into some old hobbies I used to love doing, such as writing and painting. He's such a positive light in my life and a wonderful reminder that it's ok to be happy and I deserve it just like everyone else.

[@Chaos6ix_]

I don't know if you'll read this since this video was posted about half a year ago, but you really have made a difference in the world. You probably didn't think that you'd reach 100,000 subs but you did and that's a major achievement. That many people have an interest in what you have to say and enjoy watching your videos. You really are the reason I started to do KZbin. You inspired me. I'm keeping up with your ghoul lock series and I saw this and for some reason I watched the entire thing. Some of my friends have depression and I just try to be positive around them and make them laugh. Just surround yourself with things and people you love and you'll be fine and I think that you are doing that with your channel. Thanks for the wonderful job you do.

[@arinavink4520]

Hi Liam, I know this comment is almost a year after you posted this video and I don't know how you are now but still I wanted to leave commend. I am sorry for my Englisch, it is not my first language. But after watching your vid I felt sorry for you but also I can relate. I got a diagnosed when there was also a diagnoses for an eatingdissorter and OCD, that all made me depressed. But after beating it, and do all the stuff I liked I felt better. It took a while but I got there. I hope for you that in a year now things had turned around for you like it did for me. But remember it will get better. :) I hope like I said before you are feeling better already. I enjoy watching all your vids. Keep on training!

[@princesslonesome662]

heey, first of all, you arent boring and second, I have been depressed for years now and my mom too, it's really hard and i kind of do nothing at all all day too, but i think its okaay, as long as you know they are things you can enjoy and if you feel really sad and bad just ( I know it sounds childisch) but think of happy stuff or go watch some random videos on youtube, for me I will go and play pokemon, because it makes me happy and i will need you to post more videos about it XD well more advice you cant get from me i think, but just try to keep smiling and as far as i understood you have a wonderfull person in your live, I think she is your girlfriend, i'm not really sure even though, but do nice stuff with her, because i asume you like being with her

[@zakosborne2713]

Oh my god Liam I never would have picked you to be depressed I have just started watching in the past month and I never would have picked you to be depressed and I am so proud that u have the heart to say all this stuff on camera wow man wow

[@noraa1]

Retch out when you start feeling down even if you think no one cares or that it won't make a difference! You have to have to break your self out of the bubble you put your self in! I know it just keeps and going down but you can stop it you can pull your self out of it! If it's sunny out side go out side if you know someone who always se to understand call them talk to them! This life isn't a solo trip it's a coop ride and just having some one there that you can just open up too can mean all the difference... For me it's like I'm battling my dark side I start crying and feeling sad and I'm like no!? I'm not doing this I have things I need to do and people to see I have people that love and care about me!!

[@StaraptorEagle]

Omg! I was looking at your videos and found this by chance. I'm so sorry you went through this (or still are...)! I was diagnosed too last year, and was given sertraline. Sertraline did some weird crap to me (made me sleepy, made me feel dead, made me forget things, stuff like that). I eventually got a nice job and haven't been too depressed since then. Anyway, yes, I know about the excessive crying. I hate it; it sucks. I try not to think of anything depressing (I had three cockatiels that have passed on, and I hate thinking about them and seeing pics of them. RIP Sunny, Dexie and Shadow). Hope you're better. If not, find something new to do! My mom found the coolest thing: adult colouring books. :D Why not watch a new film, or a new TV series? Try something new! That's what I do when I feel depressed. Heck, if you're crazy, try skydiving. Anyway, I'm rambling.... I know I just found you, but I really enjoy your videos! Keep it up, Liam. :)

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+StaraptorEagle Ⓥ Thanks buddy!

[@StaraptorEagle]

No problem, Liam! Keep it up! :)

[@devanchai7618]

+Ace Trainer Liam hey, sorry im late on this video, but i have had depression/p.t.s.d since i was 3 and will be 15 this year and the things that help me the most are find people you really love (like you and ellie [(thats proper spelling right?]) and let them help you, i know it sounds kinda cheesy and im sorry if its not the best advice but its what help.

[@mustafamrouweh7873]

Sorry my comment was late cause I just saw this video and I'm sorry Look my friend you actually made me want to be a youtuber Well Wanted to do that long ago but you are someone who I take as a role model So I hope you feel better and if you do already I'm really happy for you

[@SakuraUchiha901]

I've had depression for 6 years been through so many different meds and counselling but I'm not the happy energetic dancer I used to be but I'm trying but I'll still have those days I'll lock myself in my house and not want to talk to anyone, and on really bad days I can get annoyed at my two dogs it's not easy living with depression stronger people than me can cope better than me but I do try and I'm sick and tired of people who say stop being depressed when it's not a choice because I know I didn't and nobody else would choose this. If you find a way to handle it let me know because everything my doctors suggest doesn't seem to be helping

[@RengarGengar]

I have been depressed for 15 years then, and I m 21 years old LOL

[@ZehnWaters]

*Hugs* I have depression as well. What I do is just take my medicine. I've been lucky in that Prozac completely brings me back up to par. No side-effects or anything. I'd been so bad I'd tried to commit suicide and it WASN'T a cry for help like most people. I genuinely did not want to live any longer and I didn't want anyone to stop me. I had a religious moment as I had a gun to my head and I saw that I could choose to find the good things in the world, even if it was as simple as being happy it was sunny.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Zehn Waters Thanks for the advice buddy!

[@jimmy1674]

Hi Liam, well done for going to the doctors to gain help with and understanding that you have depression. I know sometimes it can be difficult to come to terms with it and it's great you've got some clarity. I felt the exact same way that you did before going to the doctors and I knew straight away that I had it but it was nice to get it off my chest; which you've done well on here. The main tips I can offer which have helped me out over the past year are the following: exercise as I have found it makes me more relaxed and think more clearly what I'm thinking and how to be more logical. Another thing I've done is picked up learning guitar so that I have some sort of hobby so I'm not sitting alone with negative thoughts running through my mind which has helped me a lot. As with you, money is a big problem for me which did cause me stress but I've found that if I plan my spending on a monthly basis it does ease the tension and helps me to feel more in control of my life and reduces anxiety overall. Finally, having a friend who you can talk to about any problems you have is a massive bonus as a support network like that can do wonders for your overall happiness. I know these work for me and they could work for you, just don't shy away. Keep on with the videos too! :)

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+James Orr Thanks buddy!

[@maxmcleod6817]

Hey man, I hope you're doing well. I've only discovered your channel yesterday! Loving your content so far. It's sad to hear you're having a bad time with depression. I have a friend who suffers from depression too. I was wondering if there were any other interest who had that you could maybe pick up as a hobby? I used to feel confined and restricted with the hobbies I had. I found that longboarding was an excellent remedy to this weird feeling. Perhaps you too could find a hobby that gets you outside? I find it relaxing and gives me the space and time to reflect on where I am in life. I may not know much about depression but I sure as hell respect and support people that do. I honestly hope you get better mate. Keep on training!

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Max Mcleod thanks dude. Glad you're enjoying the videos!

[@AmberBryant-j4q]

Hi Liam, I want to let you that I have been studying psychology for the past six years. At my university, University of Utah, we were given a homework assignment that required us to write a biopsychosocial assessment of you after watching your video. Yes, you are now a study subject, but it was interesting to see how the biological, psychological, and social/sociological aspects of your condition interacted to affect your depression even more. It's encouraging to see that you have social support, especially your partner, many do not have this network. I found over the years as I had suffered depression myself, that serving/helping other people humbles me and it keeps me not think about why I am depressed, it does require effort. Exercise, I've discovered, also helps, it's difficult at first, but it ultimately becomes a habit. Anyways I am delighted to hear that you can talk about depression and even admit the times that you cried, it takes openness and honesty to admit these feelings, thanks for sharing!

[@christopherdatkun8969]

My fiancé also suffers from depression. It is a long road that sometimes seems like it has no end. But you have to hang in there because you are trying to get better. It may take a while to get there, but knowing that you are depressed and wanting to change that is half of the battle. I hope you can get the treatment you need, I hope you can find a therapist that you click with, and I hope you take the following piece of advice. Do not give up on yourself. Anyhow, I just discovered your channel, and I really enjoy your content. Keep your chin up Liam.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Christopher Datkun Thanks dude that means a lot!

[@CHAPPY173]

I'm a huge Pokemon fan. But this video was the first I saw of yours. I went through.. Well still going through something similar. It's just great that you're not letting it get to you and your videos are jut enjoyable to watch, an example to everyone who's going through depression.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Alex Chapman Thanks buddy I really appreciate that. :3

[@mydamnblogmydamnvlog1635]

Boy do I ever feel you there :/ I attempted suicide on the 15th and I'm going through a lot of what you are (15 Grand in debt, struggling to get enough money to get by), but your video helped me a ton, it sort of just showed me that I'm not alone, and somehow, that makes it easier. I hope things turn around for you and me both, I certainly hope you are feeling better soon, and if you ever need to talk to anyone who is going through similar things, my inbox is always open.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+MyDamnBlog MyDamnVlog Thanks a lot dude. That means a lot - same to you. Feel free to drop me a line if ever you need an ear.

[@andrewsurber4010]

Hi Liam, thank you very much for posting this. Although I've never been formally diagnosed, I am someone who is very susceptible to depression as well. My experiences usually involve a severe lack of energy and motivation. Even things like playing video games, or going to the gym, or other things that I know I get genuine satisfaction from, I find much harder to do. And on the occasions where I can force myself into an enjoyable act, I lose energy and interest much quicker than normal. It's actually caused me gain about 40 pounds of weight, which only makes it worse as now I don't like looking at myself anymore. My triggers always seem to be outside sources, something that causes something to go wrong in my life (like my last job and how miserable it was and pushed me so far into debt because they paid horribly). The more severe or lasting the problem, the worse it can be. I am just now starting to turn a few of these things around, and I'm slowly pushing back into a good place. It's not easy, and I'm very lucky to have my family and at least one friend who is willing to push me a little bit to get me back on track and into a happy spot again. It's a huge task to overcome it, but I think we can both push ahead and reach that happiness that will lift that obnoxious weight from our minds and chests (I don't know about others, but I have a hard time breathing too when depressed)

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Andrew Surber I hope things turn around for you soon buddy!

[@MJTheScientist]

Hey Liam! I just discovered your channel today and have been binging your videos while at work (oops), but I want to commend you for reaching out to us on this topic. I developed depression in my teens and have been living with it for about 10 years now. I never tried anti-depressants (mostly because when I was younger, my parents didn't "believe in" mental illnesses). And it's hard. Some days are better, some are worse, but it honestly gets easier the longer you live with it. On the bad days, though, I can spend a week or more struggling to get out of bed, struggling to go to work, to eat, or enjoy my hobbies. I get so tired, all I want to do is shut the world out and sleep. As you said, the motivation to function isn't there, even though I objectively know that eating would be fun, my hobbies would be fun, etc.. It's a form of self-sabotage; something in our brains malfunction, causing dysphoric feelings of hopelessness. There's us, and there's the world, and we are no longer a part of it. The way that I've grown to deal with these "spells" as I call them, is to wait them out. Because I've had depression for so long, I've come to objectively realize that ups always follow the downs. This trend has never been broken. Some downs are worse, more hopeless, they last longer, etc., but they have always given way to a feeling of normalcy after some time. So while I'm down and feel like there's no point, I allow myself to turn into a vulcan of some sort. I handle my life logically, even if I feel nothing, and I remind myself that I will feel again, because that's how the trend has always gone. I force myself to get out of bed, to go to work, to eat, and even to perform some hobby, because the semblance of a "normal life" helps to pass the time. And when enough time has passed, the spell ends and my numbness fades away,;it's like a baptism back into hope. I wake up and shower and am so grateful to be alive. I am aware that the positive outlook will not last; I'm constantly on a pendulum. But I focus on appreciating emotions while I have them. Some people say that optimism is naive, but for some of us, hope is what's keeping us alive.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+MJ TheScientist Thanks for your advice buddy :D

[@andresvalenzuela6765]

I hope you read this because i stumbled upon one of your videos and i instantly thought that you are a unique poketuber and youtuber and probably person as well and i see how you reply a lot so yeah here is my "story" i guess. My dad suffered from depression since about the year i was born so i always knew him that way. Its been 2 years since he decided to leave me and my family to fly away and every day i miss him a little more. That left me with a little depression as well and actually now it has been starting to get a bit worse. I guess that what i would like to say to anybody who is reading this is if you are being attacked by this demon that is depression, battle it with happiness. If there is something you love, dont ever stop doing it because its your gratest weapon against it. For me its writing a lot (i guess i made that point pretty obvious) and music. As for you Liam, keep this stuff going, be yourself and always show love for what you are doing. Hope you read this, lots of love from Chile.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Andres Valenzuela Thanks dude. :)

[@fillphd]

Liam this is an amazing video. Not condescending at all like a lot of others. I hope you're working towards getting over this. I know exactly the feeling but I'm getting better thankfully since I got help which i urge everyone to do!

[@aileyaddams1068]

I take sertraline as well for the same thing and it's been a life saver for me! I'm sorry you have to deal with that:( but when u are all moved in with Ellie and your life is going how you want it, it will be these times that you will take pride in, because you made it! Keep on fighting❤️

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+ailey naugle Thanks buddy!

[@seanwoolley2006]

Hey dude stay strong and just keep your head focused on the positives. I was in a bad position a couple of years ago as i suffered a work related injury that put me out of work for over a year and with the birth of my daughter coming and my partner disabled it was the worst timing ever as we couldn't even afford to park at the hospital for her birth and needed help. The worst thing ever was having to take my daughter to the food bank as i never ever wanted that for her but on the other hand i was thankful they were there. From my experience the little things that make you happy by far in the long term out weigh the bad.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Darth Turtle Thanks buddy!

[@matthewkeys4503]

your videos help me out when I feel low so I hope you get through it man

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Matthew Keys Tha ma dude :)

[@jameszilver8943]

+Ace Trainer Liam Liam just do what u like what makes u happy. or get a plush and hug. u keep me happy so it's my job 2 make u happy👍👍

[@Yugioh257]

I have depression, my advice is to find a hobby that keeps you going. I have swimming and I like to cook and I donate my blood. I want you to know that you're a great friend and you have a good guy. It never truly goes away. It's how you handle it.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Sam Kanter Thanks buddy :)

[@XXronanbabezXX]

Its a very tough problem to deal with, but youre not alone. There is any number of people willing to help in whatever way they can.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

Thanks buddy

[@AceSpadeThePikachu]

I may not have depression, but I am prone to anxiety attacks, which aren't fun, either. Not to mention I also seem to get a lot of low blood sugar attacks lately. I really need to get a blood test soon.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

I'd say do it sooner rather than later. Always better safe than sorry. :)

[@AceSpadeThePikachu]

AceTrainerLiam I'm hoping to see the doctor on Friday. Type 2 diabetes runs in my family, and I am a bit overweight (I know you probably can't see it in my videos, but if I took my sweater off you would), so I have to be tested for it every now and then.

[@SoGraphitesify]

I don't really know how to cope with depression because i have never had it, but my boyfriend has had a light form of it: he had the same problems as you and also had paranoia. I was very worried about his well being and i tried to cheer him in every possible way, but i realized that i was just stressing him. Trying to be happy by any means is pointless, it increases frustration, sometimes you just have to accept that you are sad. Crying is actually good for you, it helps you letting sadness, stress or anger out. I wander if you have gotten better, i hope so!

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Elyssa Flaherty thanks buddy. :)

[@TristanMillerMusic]

Sums me up. Hearing other people's experiences helps you learn about yourself. We gotta do what we love. Keep on trainin' Liam.

[@EwardH227]

Hopefully u get better :(

[@esmee6308]

When I subbed I watched all of your videos except this one, because I'm just not ready to deal with my own. I must have written at least 20 full posts about my experiences and deleted them since I don't know where to start or where to stop, nor do I want to bore anyone with walls of texts. Thing is, I'm disabled, a chronic pain patient and depressed. Healthcare is more or less failing me because surgeons point me to rehabilitation and rehabilitation points me to surgeons and psychiatrist say I need to learn to accept my chronic pain/disability before I can move on. Yet I get no advice as to how I'm suppose to do that. I'm in a relatively high amount of pain every second of every minute of my life. It's also been 2 years and 11 months since I've found any activity enjoyable enough to be worth the pain and it's something I can't just repeat. It's been nearly 5 years since my life has been going nowhere (arguably my whole life since I failed high school because I couldn't handle an osteotomie in my bloody exam year.) Guess all I can say is you're not alone.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Esmee In Wonderland Thanks buddy. Feel free to drop me a message if you need someone to lend an ear!

[@esmee6308]

+AceTrainerLiam Thank you, that's incredibly kind. The same goes for you. :)

[@TrentNumbers]

Depression sucks:(

[@Mialotic]

"it's about you, it's about me, it's about hope, it's about dreams, it's about friends that work together to claim their destiny. It's about reaching for the sky. Having the courage and willing to try. It's about never giving up, so hold you're head up and we will carry on." -Sinnoh League Victors theme When I watched this video, I immediately thought of this song that has helped me get through tough times. I do not suffer depression, but two close family members do and having a support system and something to keep you going and engaged is the best start. Good luck and keep on going! :-D :-D

[@kayleemccracken4381]

Hello there! So, I've only recently discovered your videos, (ever since I've been super sick, which is a different discussion) but I can say that this one is by far the most relatable. Unfortunately, I've also been struggling with depression for a few years, and one of the most frustrating things is when people ask "Why?". Because, truthfully, there isn't an answer. Anyways, I just wanted to thank you for your amazing content, perserverence, humor, etc. I truly hope things work out for you, and I look forward to further content!

[@neras271990]

I also suffer from depression, but it is quite a bit different from what you are experiencing and I hope you get better from it. Also I love your videos they make me laugh quite a bit.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+neras271990 Thanks very much :)

[@neras271990]

+AceTrainerLiam no worries, I know how it feels with dealing with depression for 10+ years and I still haven't coped with it yet so I'm in the same boat

[@jesusdelgadomx]

ay! it sure feels so bad when things don't work the way we would like and I do understand what it is like to be in depression. I hope you are better now and it's so cool to see you alright on your most recent videos.

[@kuruk_war]

Get a poppy! :D

[@katedewhirst5245]

I hope the best for you just don't go down the route Steve Cash from the talking kitty series great guy I was heartbroken when finding out he shot himself to end his struggle with depression he had 69 talking kitty series videos out at the time of his death he died on April 16th of 2020 and his Cat Sylvester cash Died on December 10 of the same year. I think you might like his Talking Kitty Series. Celia DeCosta Cash his wife is his widow and their dog Sheby died in 2021she still has Radom kitty and her grand daughter GG and Radom's son Gibbyson Warning Sylvester was a pottyMouth.

[@jacktomkins9238]

when you feel sad think about poliwhirl full stop (.) see wat did there plz get well soon be happy smile because when you smile .............. a baby is born yep well get well soon plz plz plz SMILE

[@KayleeDavisBlueBox]

Wow... okay. This video was recommended to me when I watched your last one, so that's how I ended up here. I don't want to tell you that I know how you feel, because - well, I don't, nobody does, really - but I definitely feel you. I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder about three years ago, and I'm in therapy ever since (and taking medication as well, with some breaks). I hope you're feeling better now, as it's quite an old video... but, yeah, the motivation drop is a thing, and it's hit me hard as well. The old me loved to read - I used to read more than fifty books a year, I've been such a bookworm - and after depression hit, I've hardly ever enjoyed reading. Couldn't focus, found myself reading the same passage over and over and not registering what I've read at all. What helps... Well, taking care of yourself, certainly - take time to eat properly, take a shower every day (something I struggled with when things were really bad), keep your surroundings clean, exercise a little bit - even a short walk helps. When you're physically well, you're more likely to feel better. There's this acronym I use: when you're feeling bad, HALT - are you 1. hungry? 2. angry? 3. lonely? 4. tired? If any of these apply, take care of those and you should feel better (works 90% of the time). Have someone you can talk with about this stuff, and reach out to them when things get worse (even if you think that they'll be annoyed with you. They usually won't; it's just the depression speaking). That's all I can remember right now. Obvs, if you ever need to talk to someone, I'd be glad to :)

[@D-G0]

Hey Liam, I discovered your channel a couple of days ago and got really into your videos. I had depression two years ago because of personal reasons. But I overcame it and now my life is a lot better. I don't know how you are doing now with it but stay strong man. keep doing what your doing. I enjoy your content man. don't let depression win, just keep moving forward. Hope to see some Pokemon Go videos when it comes out (Hopefully ASAP). Keep on Training Diego C.

[@jamiethegarchomp5087]

I'm 10,I'm kind of depressed but not clinically diagnosed but since I started school I have been getting very sad/Mad/Annoyed when I come home and I feel bad for my mam because we have been getting in lots of arguements with her and I want it to change. But I think it's just stress but it's so annoying Your vids cheer me up a lot thanks, -Jamy

[@manectricman5090]

I have depression as well, and first off, I want you to know how brave you are for talking about this. You probably have a lot more knowledge about this since the video was posted, but just in case, I want you to know that lack of motivation is normal for depression. Things you enjoy become less enjoyable, and it's a lot harder to notice those good things. At the same time, bad things become far more memorable, and eclipse the good things. I'm still finding ways to cope, myself, but funnily enough, Pokemon seems to be a good way for me. X/Y has Pokemon Amie, which may help out in a strange sense. Having your favorite Pokemon laugh, play, and enjoy your company, even digitally, can work as a cute little distraction, at least. Give your Poliwhirl some Pokepuffs and see it all cute and happy. It may not fix it, but it might help boost your mood a little. But above all, the important thing is you voice what's ailing you, if anything, at the particular moment. This doesn't have to be to anyone, though it helps if it is. One trick is to write it down, then destroy the paper. Another is to say it to a pet or toy (as silly as it may seem, the act of talking, itself can help). And if you can talk to someone about it, and are emotionally ready, few things help more than reassurance from a loved one. You aren't alone in this. You have the support of those around you, and all of your subscribers here on KZbin. Stay strong, and always keep in mind how many people you make happy, and how many people are grateful for every video you put out. Have a wonderful day. =)

[@adilamuhammed1536]

Listen to the recitation of the Quran on yourube or somewhere...its so much soothing and relaxing I PROMISE ☺️

[@reikenkayzer]

Hi Liam, i have heard talk of this video from both you and people in the comments ever since I started watching you. And now I have finally watched this. I have not been diagnosed with depression, but I know I have it in one form or another. And I have been very closed off, like going to work because I had to, but then coming home and just wasting my days as you said too. But I can relate so to your situation. I am a writer who obviously loves to write, but some days i just don't feel like it at all, would rather watch some telly or play a game to really escape reality or something. And then I feel bad because I havent written anything in a week or two, and it ia an evil circle. But lately, i don't know why, I have become more sociable, doing stuff with my friends, having friends over. Maybe I just subconciously try to break the mold as it was. But it's been really great. I feel it is a better solution than just watch 3 series of some random show. it's a better destraction at least. I still struggle, and I guess I always will. But I hope at least I can really connect with my friends again, and really be part of a group of friends, which I never really have in the 28 years I have experianced on this blue plant. I don't know if I have any advice, cause I think we are quite similar, bottle every thing up and such. But all I know is that we all need to hang in there, cuz the alternative is so much worse. But it's not so easy to connect with people I don't know at all, something you have experianced in that 12 hour twich stream, so I guess I am just a closed off person. And I see the irony that my comments in your videos are basically paragraphs, because I have a lot of say, I just don't like speaking all that much. All too shy I reckon. But I want to thank you and tell you you should be proud of yourself Liam, because I think we are quite similar and the fact you have put yourself out there with all these videos and your fantastic youtube channel it is just an inspiration to at least me, and i think a whole bunch of people who also follow you. keep doing what you're doing mate. Even though I don't really know you (but I have gotten to know you some through your vids), but I am still proud of you.

[@AlexR05e]

I just found your channel recently. I myself have chronic depression. It really is based on your feel to yourself. Unfortunately part of the depression is that it makes you doubt yourself. It can be rough. I mean, I cried for half an hour the other day because a carrot fell on the floor. I know this is an older video, but I do hope that it gets better for you. It's rough, it can get better. It's something that does stick. Thankfully there are way to deal with it. Honestly, part of why I like your channel is because my biggest coping skill for my mental illness shit is Pokemon. Sometimes I can't pick up my DS for months at a time. Perhaps look into something called the "spoon theory" which applies to a lot of things. Basically it's that you have a certain amount of motivational energy each day (some days less, some more) and even things you like cost these units of energy. Some days making your morning cup of coffee and a shower will take it all up. Some days you could handle a huge event, work, school, and come clean your house. So really it's getting in tune with yourself.

[@astet..2875]

When im unmotivated nor sometimes burned out to do things i love to do or i want to do or i normally do everyday, everytime and when im emotionally unstable/exhausted all I do to lift my spirits up is pray and surprisingly everything slowly turns positively within my atmosphere its like everything turns to your favor.. talking to Him really helps me no medicinal prescriptions or anything.. just by simply let yourself talk to Him spiritually.. it'll surely help

[@pyromaniacabraham]

I know this is an old video, and so you probably won't even see this comment, but please know that you are such a positive influence in all your fans' lives. I'm sure that I am not the only fan of yours who suffers from depression, and I hope that I can speak for all of us when I say that I truly, truly hope that things get better for you and that you overcome your depression. Who knows, as I write this comment it's been like a year since you posted this video, so maybe you've already gotten to a better place. But I know that depression is something that can be a lifelong struggle, so maybe you still haven't figured everything out yet. Depression is so confusing, as you said. I often find myself thinking, "I want to get better, so why can't I?" And honestly, the only tip I can give you is that the only reason why I'm still here is because I learned to find things to look forward to, and those have kept me going. They can be as simple as "oh when i get home from school/work I can finish off that ice cream in the freezer" or something like "my favorite show has a new episode next week, can't miss that." Just find something to hold on to, something to keep you going, even if it's only for another day. I know it's not the best tip; I myself am still trying to figure out my depression, but I truly hope it helps. Please, please, keep fighting. Have a nice day!

[@davidgold3nrose]

Keep busy. Keep active. Keep doing things even though it's hard. I know that on school holidays I tend to get worse, because there is no schedule. I try to make sure I don't spend to much time playing video games or watching TV because not moving around makes me feel worse. Hope I can help

[@fireoxgrounddragon]

Stress is often linked to Depression perhaps the stress you have over paying the bills and such is making you stress out more often which is making you depressed I've heard that exercising can help with depression or just taking care of what's making you stressed out I don't really have the answer to everything I hope it helps

[@notthefirstpoison3232]

I have depression and I am a11 year old kid.I don't know how I got have depression.But the thins that I do to help are:playing video games and also doing sport hope this helps bye.

[@themagicaljennet3487]

I have depression, too :( and really bad anxiety. You're really relatable and I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

[@ctseditz1607]

It's ok Liam I know how you're feeling

[@ethandumar2398]

I feel you man, I really appreciate seeing this video it honesty helps a lot seeing how far you have come (or seem to have come ) it gives me hope for my own life. I really needed to watch this because this is a topic I often struggle with. More often then not I generally feel like it is hopeless.ive tried meds and that didn't work for me, the only relief I have found is things like movies and games to get my mind on something else for a bit, that's the only temporary relief I find, most days I don't even feel like doing that, I don't expect anyone to read this but if you are, all I can say is I honestly hope things get better for you because from where I'm sitting everyday is a roller coaster that you just have to choose to get on or stay in bed all day and not wake up

[@lauraparnham9625]

Were here for you liam ☺ i love you and ill always dream of giving you a hug 😊 dont think negative, think of pokemon and youll be fine. we love you!

[@ctseditz1607]

I also know a couple of friends with depression too

[@thatguitarband7398]

I think empty on the inside and want to die. I scored a 64 on the Goldberg test wich is Severe Depression. I don't know how to tell my mom to go seek help. What do I do ?

[@BBMacsWorld]

I almost had depression when I was at school cause it was filled with a vunch of weirdos that wouldn't leave me alone. Everyone treated me like I was a weirdo which is a little bit true but it made me feel very sad all the time I didn't have any friends and the one person I always hung out with started doing things that I don't agree with so I had to stop hanging out with her. I was always by myself and sometimes I sat in the praying room and cried but I'm free now and I'm happy every day I feel so much better now ☺

[@joeljohnson4073]

I sometimes feel like that but I just usually watch you and get cheered up but I'm just 13

[@tinaha1477]

i hope youre doing better more than one year later. im not professionally diagnosed with anything but i can certainly say that i have depression as well as an anxiety disorder. i lay in bed and cant find anything to motivate me and my anxiety makes me feel so stressed and anxious about not doing anything... its so draining.

[@JonathanMillerMusic]

❤️ Hope things are doing well a year later. I completely empathize with you in this video. I've struggled with depression as well for a long time. Watching and interacting with you now, I really do hope you're doing better in any way possible. :)

[@fireoxgrounddragon]

Also motivation is a bit having to do with mindset it's hard to do when you're in depression but the more you think positive thoughts rather than thinking negative thoughts that stress you out the easier it is to do things that you Want to do it has to a lot to do with your strength and willpower of your mind emotionally

[@angel-bs9ql]

I was looking at your vids and I found this. I feel so sorry for you. That is really sad.

[@davidrask17]

Sorry to hear, Liam.. Hopefully it has gotten better by now but it can cling on for a long time too.. I struggle with it and I too take setraline. It was at its' worst when I went to school but now I'm just doing things I enjoy so it's not as severe. I fear that it may come back again if I step out of my comfort zone. But try to think about the fact that we are many who enjoy your content and support you. You also seem like a great dude that I would love to have as a friend! Good luck with everything, you do fantastic videos. Love to hear your passionate love for Pokémon and I personally would like you to vlog once in a while. You don't need to do it daily or even weekly if you don't want to but I sure would enjoy your vlogs.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+David Rask Thanks buddy :)

[@jaylovesmuffins4826]

Every time you say Ellie, I think of the last of us!

[@pokefanjj6186]

I know how u feel I was diagnosed with depression 2 weeks ago sometimes I just want to drop to the floor and cry but your videos always help me feel positive as I love pokemon. I found that the anti depressants only help to a certain extent. I love your videos so much. I really feel for you. ps I also hate greninja

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+the minecraft gamer thanks buddy! Glad you enjoy the videos!

[@alexkennedy3870]

Having had depression myself, I can definitely relate with everything you said here. Depression is something that I don't think people take seriously enough, unless they've experienced themselves. It's not just a case of "cheer up and deal with it", which so many people have as their attitude towards it. It's very real, and living with it can constantly sap your enthusiasm for life and doing what you love. Mine was definitely aggravated by working somewhere I hated after being made redundant, and everyday I cried at the thought of another day. I was also on sertraline daily and while it did help to start to turn me around it was changing my job and trying to make differences in my life that helped the most. I really admire you for making this video, and I'm really surprised it hasn't had more views, it takes a lot of guts to talk about something which makes most people feel more vulnerable. I really enjoy your videos, and if nothing else, you should take comfort in the fact that no matter what's going on in your personal life, on here you're bringing enjoyment and happiness to thousands of other people. Keep going buddy and don't give up :p

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Alex Kennedy Thanks buddy!

[@zayrenjoamitolledo3330]

hi im experiencing the same and trying to fight if you need someone to talk you can message me

[@BennStorming]

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Bennett A Thanks buddy!

[@TrvisXXIII]

Symptoms of not doing the NoFap challenge

[@VTuberTeej]

Liam, I think I'm going through depression, I don't know. Lol. It all started when I broke up with my partner of 3 1/2 years in February. Ever since then I've been sadder and sadder but I hide it from the people I love and care about because i don't want them to worry or make a fuss about it. And recently I've gained some debts and like you said it feels like it's never ending, there's always set backs, with people asking for money, or more important things come up. And it's actually taken a toll on my physical health too. I'm becoming sick more frequently. And the people around me haven't seemed to notice that internally and behind closed doors I've been struggling and little by little it's starting to show. But I'm trucking along and hoping that it will end soon with my debt being paid off at the end of this month. Wish me luck lol. And follow me on PokeAmino lol @MisdreavusBoy lol

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+TommieCookie Keep your head up buddy, and seek comfort in the people around you.

[@howlcall2580]

I know this video is a few months old, but I randomly came across it and wanted to share my views and what happened with my depression. It took my parents a little over a year to realize there was something wrong with me and then convince me to see a doctor. I didn't want to admit I had depression. I mean, I didn't feel sick. Frankly, I just thought life sucked... I fought with my Mom a lot, I cried for no reason and just didn't care about anything. When I finally saw my doctor he pointed out that I had absolutely no expression. He referred to it as "blank expression". I just never smiled anymore. Perhaps this complete lack of emotion on my part is part of the reason why I had no interest in anything. As you said, I would look at something knowing it'd make me happy but just not be able to do it. I won't deny that I had the thought to end my life a few times before (even after) being diagnosed. But it was always impulsive and the moment usually passed quickly. Again, just because I didn't enjoy life I didn't see the point in living it. I've been on anti-depressants for a few years now and life is amazing. I'm not angry and sad anymore. Looking back I realize the fights with my Mom was because I felt angry for no reason at times and would snap at her. She's long forgiven me for that although I feel bad about it still at times. I've changed my anti-depressant once just before graduating high school, about a year after being put on meds. I could feel myself getting sad for no reason again and losing interest in things I liked. Changing meds fixed that, and then I had to adjust my dosage a few times until it was right. You may get switched around on medications a few times, it takes a while to find the right one for each person as well as the right dosage. and then the human body is always changing, so something you've used for a long time may suddenly need it's dosage changed or switch medications altogether. Don't worry about it if it happens. In my experience it took a few months for the meds to really kick in, and in the mean time I did my best to cope by staying close to people that cared about and supported me. I also cut out some people who I realized were incredibly negative. negative people can't help you become positive I'm afraid. For the first time in my life I stopped and just took care of myself. I've always been very focused on helping other people, and I can't necessarily do that if I'm unstable myself right? Don't worry... Things will get better. It takes time, and some effort at times (Like going to hang out with people you like instead of locking yourself in your room alone) but in the end I think you'll find it'll work out. I do have some days from time to time where I'm depressed though. My "depression days" as I call them. But I've learned to recognize them and not let them get me down. My depression is also the kind that's due to a lack of seratonin in my brain. otherwise known as "the happy chemical". I most likely inherited this depression from my Dad. I hope my extremely long winded rambling helps you feel better about your situation. depression is wide spread and everyone's depression is unique to them. Try not to compare yours to others. If you ever need to talk just message me. :)

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Mackenzie Smith That was helpful. Thanks buddy :)

[@camerondent9390]

My dad has depression from his ex-boss

[@juanrocollazo]

Hey, just recently discovered your channel and immediately loved your work and the way you present yourself. I have a little background with depression both by being a psychology student and by currently experiencing a mild depression myself. It suck definitely, but I guess the best thing we can do is find and surround ourselves with people who are willing to listen to how we feel, and help us find where things have gone wrong I'm our lives, help us see what it is that gives us pain, mainly, helping us understand. I would suggest you prioritize visiting a psychologist more than a psychiatrist or a doctor because the former would try to work with the problem through therapy by working with Liam, the person, while the latter two will probably give you a chemical treatment that will work with the chemical processes in you, but won't solve the issue, just subdue it. This, however, is easier said than done, I know. Psychologists aren't that accesible, especially in terms of money, and medical treatment is a lot cheaper. So the thing I would suggest most, I guess, is doing things that fill you, that make you feel happy and fulfilled, and surrounding yourself with wonderful people that will want to support you. An imaginary hug from the other half of the world.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Juan Collazo Thanks so much. :)

[@ma1ware65]

Make sure your exposed to happiness

[@rowenloucks2484]

I don't know if you're still checking the comments on this video, but I have depression too (along with a few other things...). It can be really hard sometimes. It's really exhausting honestly. When you don't feel like doing anything, I generally either force myself to do them or go to sleep. I find that not wanting to do things I want to do is generally because of how exhausting even normal life can be.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Robyn Loucks It can be tough. Reaching out to those around you is always a good release.

[@MultiLucas18]

I really enjoy watching your videos and my heart goes out to you, I know a comment on a youtube video can't help easily but i pray that you are able to find a way through this, i know it will be hard and difficult for people who don't suffer from it to understand your condition (i hate using that word but can't think of another... sorry). I will send you strength hopefully if you read this comment and i'm sure others are with you as well. Keep on getting through and aim to surround yourself with positivity. Hope you feel better soon man!

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Luke Batson Thanks a lot dude!

[@haukure6769]

One of the better videos I've seen😪

[@ma1ware65]

We are all here for you Liam

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Wildwolf709 thanks :3

[@lindadurrant43]

+Ace Trainer Liam hi liam i had depression last year i was on cipramol for a while but one thing i do know is you need to take it one day at a time and if at anytime you need anything pm me on facebook

[@yurilfu]

hi, i just want to say that this is not your fault, we are living in a hard world and there's so much pressure to feel pleasure. wish you the best!

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+yuri fu Thank you :)

[@JBChimchar1]

This is one of the most real videos I have ever seen. I feel like I could connect to u in soo many levels, not just pokemon. Just a quick background about me. I'm depressed currently. I don't want to get checked up to the doctor bcuz I don't have health insurance due to a termination of my job. Worked with them for 7 years. I'm still jobless for about 2 months now. I got fired bcuz I could not come to work bcuz my dad had to go through a major heart surgery. My dad has multiple illness. I basically come with him 5-6days a week for rehabilitation, doctor's appointments, & treatments. My way trying to get out of my depression is to go back to my art hobby, playing my violin, and making videos on KZbin. Never in a million years that I would ever think to become a youtuber. Hopefully this will be a sustainable and enjoyable side job for me permanently. My best tip is try to hangout with friends just to talk things out. It really helps for somebody to listen. I hope u for the best.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

Thanks buddy. I hope the same for you too, and all the best for your dad.

[@JBChimchar1]

AceTrainerLiam Thank u. Keep doing top 10's. I really like them

[@AceTrainerLiam]

Will do! Thank you so much!

[@TheMrbiggles94]

I love you Liam. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 13. It's been a huge struggle and sometimes I never feel like I'm going to be completely happy. I just have to remind myself that I have a big support system of friends and family to help me though it. Thanks for making this video. Depression is a serious condition and it needs to be talked about more.

[@viekong1907]

Hope your getting better

[@ShmazProducts]

As someone who has had depression for my entire adult life, thank you for talking about this.

[@rocketgruntlitten4558]

Yesterday I was diagnosed with depression this video makes me know that I'm not alone thank you Liam you are a constant inspiration

[@jamesboston3241]

get well soon liam

[@thirdrockfromthesun6230]

Hey Liam, thank you for making this video. I can imagine how hard it must have been. I have been suffering from depression all my life. In the early 90s, I took anti-depressants, which made me feel like a zombie, and so I stopped taking them. I can very much relate to what you are saying about making it out of debt, and then something coming up. I haven't figured out to make depression more bearable. It's just this incredible sadness that seems to be planted in the head where others just have laughs and giggles. I don't know. =) I hope we're all feeling better soon. ;-)

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Third Rock From The Sun Thanks

[@eliasbartos5313]

I just got The username after like 5 minutes of reading that comment

[@KrissRacing]

Well this is sad..

[@hayyden212]

Okay. So Liam, over the last few weeks I've been watching all of your videos and i absolutely love them. You're becoming one of my favourite youtubers, and i see you as a very cheerful and happy person because i can tell when you are making a video that you love to do it. When i came across this i was just very upset to see such a amazing person have to go through with depression, i mean yeah everyone feels depressed now and then,and its hard to get up and do things you don't want to do (which is part of life sadly and i shouldn't be one to talk) but when there IS something you don't want to do that you know you have to do just think of the positive things that come out of doing them, even the small ones. Example,for me i get depressed a lot of the time,i feel discouraged easily and i have anxiety issues (too afraid to make friends or get a job,even drive a car) It takes a bit of time for me but just telling myself all of the great things that can come out of doing things i have been able to overcome my anxiety and do some things that im either pressured into doing or something i just really don't want to do. In the end things always get better,and if you don't want to do stuff because you don't like it,tell yourself what you accomplished no matter how small,after you've done it. ANYWAY sorry for talking a lot but if you need someone to talk to,as a friend i'll be here for you. If you want to talk to me at all just contact me through google + (even though i have no idea how it works) or you can kik me at Hayyden.Koujo

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Hayyden Koujo Thanks buddy. I really appreciate that.

[@hayyden212]

Welcome Liam, always here for a friend.

[@jolteonilife9246]

One dislike wow

[@michaelvermunt5211]

dude, it sucks but honestly I've recently discovered your channel and I absolutely love it. I suffered with depression for a few years :) find a passion and use it. for me it was boxing and that was my venting and release

[@AceTrainerLiam]

+Michael Vermunt Thanks buddy :)

[@michaelvermunt5211]

+AceTrainerLiam I'd love to see an update man :) you're only human and we got to each other along :)

[@ash2.525]

Liam you good now?

[@simbast9726]

Dam

[@oravlaful]

hey Liam, i don't know if you'll ever read this but i have anxiety and i know what is to not have motivation to what you love. for msome months i didn't have any motivation to play my guitar, which is the thing i love the most. it's been almost 2 years since i've been diagnosed and i'm much much better. really, i don't think there are any tips to deal with these problems, you just have to find a way and not give up, and when you notice, you are better. and i want to say that after watching this video i admire you even more. having depression and still posting videos every day and giving attention to your fans and having such a great channel must not be easy. i thank you a lot for not stopping and hope you're doing much better now. keep on training!

[@lukerodford7269]

oravlaful mate I'm suffering from anxiety as well and I'm hating it and like my friends notice it and now the last month has been special but like if u want to talk about it like ik u don't know me but I hate to see people have depression/anxiety then I'm always happy to help somehow and I hope Liam is better now after all this

[@oravlaful]

Lukecario R he seems really better. when did your anxiety start? as for me, i'm really better than i was 2 years ago. gladly. thanks for your comment :)

[@lukerodford7269]

oravlaful it started in September 28th of this year and np bro

[@lukerodford7269]

oravlaful yh it's been a difficult month at home and at school unfortunately:( it must of been an awful 3-4 months for u as well

[@oravlaful]

try your best to keep up with your life as it was before, if you can't that's alright, but know that one day you'll be so much better, even if takes long

[@AlphaWhiteWolfMinecraft]

Sorry to hear mate... How are you NOW? Are you fine now, (two months after this video was uploaded)

[@AceTrainerLiam]

Still feel pretty much the same to be honest dude. The anti-depressants take a while to get into your system, and I'm not really feeling much effect from them.

[@AlphaWhiteWolfMinecraft]

AceTrainerLiam Sorry, mate... Get well soon! Best wishes, from Alpha.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

Thanks dude

[@AlphaWhiteWolfMinecraft]

AceTrainerLiam No need to thank me! You need all of the emotional support right now! By the way, my friend has subbed to your channel. I showed him it and he loves you! Also, he sends you his best wishes too. He might comment on this, hopefully but I REALLY, REALLY hope you'll get better.

[@AceTrainerLiam]

Thanks dude. And don't worry. I'm not letting affect my videos!