i haven’t spoken about this in years (+ how I’ve been feeling recently)

i’m actually pretty nervous to post this online because this week’s video is VERY different from my usual ones. it isn’t a travel vlog of where i’ve been lately or a food review showing you a new place i’ve found in town or a 20 minute visual diary of my friends and i having a jolly good time. this video is just going to be me in my bedroom sitting down and having an honest chat about how i’ve been feeling recently. it felt really good to say things out loud and in the open. i always urge those around me to talk about how they’re feeling and how a problem shared is a problem halved but i’ve let my own feelings bottle up (which makes things worse because it all bubbles away inside and it isn’t very healthy) because i didn’t want to burden others with my problems or bring the tone down after not seeing friends for weeks whilst i’ve been away with work. so this felt good. reaaaal good.
I filmed this last week after coming back from being interviewed for an Instagram bio for this cool project (and filmed the intro today as i felt it needed more context than just me being all WAHHH IDVJSDJVOSDJVSDV on camera ahahah). this was the result.
also, sorry about the messy bedroom. i came straight home to record this and i didn’t stop to jazz up the background. woops.
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[@dejashu]

How have you been feeling recently? Anything you need to let off your chest? For daily stories of what I eat and get up to, I have an Instagram too! instagram.com/dejashuu

[@HeadlessChickenTO]

Got 15 years? 😁 I'm no stranger to having issues and troubles, a huge portion of it being far outside of my control. But I just deal with it; stop, breathe, refocus, and move on...

[@dejashu]

Headless Chicken I’m sorry to hear this but also admire your strength. These things have a way of teaching us a lesson whether it’s to make us stronger or to fully appreciate what’s around us. Hope things will improve soon 💛

[@BackpackingBananas]

I feel even more proud to call you my friend after watching this. You are the strongest, most thoughtful and wisest person I know. To hear how far you've come over the past few years and how you picked yourself up out of such a dark place is bloody inspiring and I'm so very proud of you ❤️

[@dejashu]

You’re going to need to get me more tear-rings with all these emoshie words recently 🥰 I love you! So very much. I’m so lucky to have such a great friend like you in my life and a better person for knowing you. I know you don’t like too much cheese unless it’s in your pasta so I’ll save this for an extra big hug next time 💛

[@Nubianette]

You! 🤗 Just want to hug you! You’re such a sweet spirit, and I feel privileged to watch your work, and to watch your growth! Thank you for sharing!

[@dejashu]

This actually made me go “OHH AWWWW” out loud haha. Thank you for such sweet, kind and wonderful words. Happy I get to share this journey along with you! ☺️

[@Noealz]

no worries, we are here for ya. love the honesty and I think youre a pretty strong person and whatever problem comes your way I am sure you will overcome it.

[@alajode]

Oh Shu, I am SO proud of you for sharing this! You're inspiring as always. You're also one of the sweetest and most positive people I know, and I know how scary it is to share something so personal. This makes me miss you even more and I just want to give you a big cuddle right now. Love you and your emotions lots and lots 💕 Also shout out to your photobombing curtain 😂

[@cliveeariss880]

Shu, your a really true person, clever, funny, loads of talent, and a great friend, and will always be, keep up the amazing work you do, and don't change, thank you for being YOU!!

[@dejashu]

Aw Clive! Thank you so much, such lovely and kind things to say! Made me smile lots ☺️

[@craigkeller]

Work is love made visible...so, Your work is your love made visible. I think your subscribers would agree! Blessings.

[@weshasawi]

Shuuuuuu, most people I think have a complex relationship with food and their body image...etc, this is soooo relatable, thanks for sharing hon

[@azjones7908]

Awww, big hugs. And it looked like the curtain wanted to give you a hug as well!

[@dejashu]

Hahaha, I love thinking that the curtain was trying to reach out for a hug 😅 so cute!

[@desireedawn7]

Shu, you are so incredible. Thank you for being vulnerable with us. You’re the most giving person I’ve ever met, just don’t forget to let someone look after YOU every once in a while when you’re so busy bringing everyone else joy. Love you girl! ♥

[@rxox811]

loved this raw video 💗keep up what you’re doing x

[@dejashu]

Not sure why I was so nervy to post this when I know how sweet and kind you all are! Thank you ☺️💛

[@GingerPhotographyGuy]

I’ve been away for a few days and am just getting caught up on videos! So proud to see you talking about things like this! It’s so so so important! I’m really glad you are at a point where you can look back and see how far you’ve come, keep pressing forwards, keep enjoying food, keep making videos, and keep feeling feelings! Looking forward to many more videos from you!

[@julesn7247]

Thank you Shu for your wonderful videos and for sharing your personal struggles. Food brings us together and so happy that you overcame orthorexia.

[@twix0rz]

So excited for your future. What happened in the past has brought you to this point and made you a lot stronger. Stay amazing!

[@yotagerlie]

You are a true beauty inside and out! I truly adore and cherish your videos. Your personality and energy are so lovely and unique. I wish very much there were more like you. But when something so spectacular is made...it breaks the mold.. There can never be another like you! I'm so blessed and happy to have come across your channel and having you in my life. Even if its just through YT 😊 I always look forward to each and every video you produce. 💞

[@1024specialkay]

love love how genuine you are! I'm so glad you had this little talk with us :) . So proud of you! Really wishing to meet you one day in NYC!

[@sophielaurenti8846]

You are such a strong and beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing your life journry with the world. I wish you much happiness, peace, and wellness.

[@Orlagh]

I get that, I am always the one trying to keep it together too. Hope you're feeling better 💕 your honesty is so refreshing! X

[@jimmyleonardsson]

Hi Shu! It is so brave of you to share your feelings. Especially talking about mental conditions which can be stigmatized. I was diagnosed with OCD (intrusive uncontrollable thoughts) this year and was in a very dark place, but I persevered, got therapy and I recovered. One of the best thing that helped me was to be open about it and talk about it with my friends. And even though It was a very tough thing to go through, I continually persevered, and proved myself my fears were unfounded, and I feel alot stronger today in a way, and I wouldn't be myself without that experience.

[@dejashu]

Hi Jimmy! First of all, thank you for sharing this part of your journey with me and I’m happy to hear that you’re feeling stronger and have gotten help with the condition. As you said, mental health is still stigmatised and the more we keep the conversation going, the more it’ll hopefully educate our society to sit up, take notice and help those in need. I’m so happy you were able to talk through it with your friends and I’m sending over a big big hug to you. Proud of you and your strength! 💛

[@jimmyleonardsson]

@@dejashu Thank you so much for the kind words. I noticed that many friends and colleagues had no idea or had prejudice about the condition (including myself), just thought I was a tidy person who likes symmetry and cleanliness but it couldn't be further from the truth. That's why it is so important to not feel ashamed and hide, but rather own it, open up and be truthful to your self. The road to recovery is long and hard, full with challenges to overcome but also rewarding in many different ways. I'm so glad that you are in a better place now. You have had difficult experiences, had to overcome alot of fears and challenges, but they shaped and molded you into who you are today and you have acquired wisdom and strength! 💙 Be proud and thankful to yourself. Hugs from Sweden! 🤗

[@SYWang-hw5re]

I can relate to ur "all was well" idea. That's the way I see things happened in the world

[@PocketTrailblazer]

Shu you are bloody amazing, it takes real guts to be real & raw and I love this! More of this please! 😉💪

[@dejashu]

Aww thank you, it felt right to do and I’m glad I posted it 💛

[@angelonapoli6560]

Shu You're a Beautiful Person.!!!😊 Thank You so much for sharing.!!👍 We are with You.!!...we❤️You... ciao 🌞

[@dejashu]

Thank you, Angelo! I’m a lucky girl to have such supportive viewers! ☺️💛

[@angelonapoli6560]

@@dejashu .... me..personally anytime i Watch Your videos,i feel nothing but happiness.!!🙂 Big hug to U.!!.... ciao 🌞

[@dejashu]

This makes me very happy to hear this! I’m glad I can help to spread some joy!! ☺️🌞

[@angelonapoli6560]

@@dejashu ... One..or..Two..videos of Shu a Day... keep depression at Bay.!!😁 I'VE been ❤️ Your uploads since Day One.!!...🔆🌞 ciao!

[@dejashu]

I’m no doctor but I like the sound of two Shu videos a day! 😬😬

[@Dream331]

Sharing your story makes you even more amazing Shu! 😁 I think I could already sense there was a deeper story to your journey apart from the incredible food. I feel proud to be amongst your soon to be millions of super fans out here! Hahahaaa Continue to soar Shu! You’re the best! 😁

[@dejashu]

Aw Anthony, thank you. Not sure about the millions of fans but I’m very lucky to have this little space of the internet be filled with such an incredible and supportive community. Really really lucky!

[@Dream331]

Shu well, they’re fools then if they don’t join the community! Hahahaaa 😁 Take care Shu 😁👍🏽

[@HeadlessChickenTO]

It's nice to be able to let it out even if its only in front of a camera. You can get a lot of different perspectives if you post it up. It does surprisingly help take a lot off your chest in ways even talking to friends and family face to face. However speaking from experience, I wouldn't expect old troubles to disappear completely...it scars you almost for life and those emotions do pop up every so often, whatever the trigger. You don't seem to allow it to consume you, and you are stronger for it. Just vent, breathe, handle it, and continue on. Forward is really the only path...

[@dejashu]

True! It helps to make sense of things when you say things out loud to yourself over bottling it up in your head. I don’t expect it to disappear completely and fully aware that the voice never truly goes away. However, I’d much prefer to think with a positive mindset, acknowledge the moments where I don’t feel as strong and learn from it to grow as a person. I’d be happier for it than to constantly live in fear and always be dreading that it’ll take over me again.

[@DirectorToby]

Stay strong Shuuu!

[@dejashu]

Always! Thanks Toby, hope all is well with you! ☺️

[@polos101]

Thank you for sharing this Shu. We all have our emotional days and things that we struggle with, so nice to see you talking about it so openly and honestly. You've come a long way and I'm glad you're feeling better! Sidenote: why am i not following you on instagram?!

[@MattKander]

Shuuuuuuu I just want to reach through and hug the girl now. Will be seeing you soon :)

[@BarronFujimoto]

Thank you for sharing, Shu! 🤍

[@dejashu]

Thank you for taking the time to watch! ☺️

[@jimbrenn8590]

Love the honesty!!!!!

[@robertmaddelena7890]

Shu deep down we are all people with fealings going tru our journeys. We have ups and downs tru it all. Just be content in all things. Apostle Paul said that. And God gets all the Glory being our Creator and Savior. You have so much talent love seeing it on videos.

[@dejashu]

Thank you, Robert! Very true , it’s all part of life and it’s these obstacles that make us the people we are today. Thankful to get to wake up being surrounded by my loved ones ☺️

[@anliu1]

Hi, where did you get your top (white with flower print)? Love it

[@cristinnemacedo4304]

Hello Shu! I started watch your Channel a few months ago because I like the form how you talk about the life. I'm brazilian and I study English in your channel. But is the first time that I realized that you don't have the perfect life, you know? Food, travel, perfect places...I feel like is the first time that i can see (in video) how you are. These days I have the notice that i can't past in a test a lot of important from me and is how I have broked a relationship. Is weirdo, I know. Well, hmm... tks for this video and for show me that the life is not perfect. Bye.

[@khalideloutmani8879]

All about your videos is resume here, I’m inviting you again 🇲🇦

[@dejashu]

I’m not sure what you mean! 😅

[@khalideloutmani8879]

Shu I’m inviting you to visit Moroccan food

[@dejashu]

I may or may not be going in a few months time!

[@khalideloutmani8879]

Shu yes that is Whatever it’s an invitation

[@dejashu]

Thank you ☺️

[@SYWang-hw5re]

Do you know how many times had you mentioned the word "food" during intro part😁