I'm Done w/ Gear Review Videos

[@BennJordan]

Thank you for all the supportive words. A few things I probably could have expanded on: - I am very much open to the idea of making videos with new gear if I'm not speaking in them. The problem is that few companies would want this and it's KZbin algorithm poison. - I should've emphasized this better: No part of me feels like I'm "giving into the trolls" or "letting trolls win". Those who do value this channel will just see more inspiring and educational content, those who exist solely in the geartube community will see one less face on the weekly treadmill of content. - I have no ill feelings towards Polyend, or really anyone in-particular here. When I explain these things to someone who isn't part of this space, I probably sound like Brad Pitt from 12 Monkeys. It's the same ridiculous controversy with the company name changed every few weeks and for some reason I unintentionally volunteered to be the spokesperson for it. - I've managed to make some of the most viewed gear content on this platform this year and lose money in the process. I started an NPO that is bound by law to make all transactions public at the end of the year. I routinely disclosed my friendships and biases. If THAT is considered "shilling", I simply cannot offer more. This already wasn't sustainable. - Finally, in my position, spending money on gear was actually more problematic than receiving or borrowing a prototype because confirmation bias is MUCH stronger, and nobody is immune to it. I will take a bullet for something I spent $400 on while having no emotion at all regarding something that showed up for free.

[@shylohmonster]

Thank you. I reckon I'll be watching your videos regardless of topic because I admire what you have to say and how you say it.

[@allhandsonberk]

I'm collabing with someone sort of near your area on trying to DIY some synth stuff around an organ - loosely based on the chipophone. If in like 6-12 months you're bored and want to hammer on it, lmk. It's about retrofitting *existing* stuff for fun so it's got zero mass commercial viability and is just to be a nerd.

[@bouzoukiman5000]

Hi Benn. The hum might be clogged eustachian tube(s). My chiropractor does acupressure on the area then adjusts a certain part of my spine on the neck and i get a lot of relief. Had it for years and he's really made progress

[@leGroschampion]

I wish you well. And personally, it’s your philosophical/educational videos that got me to your channel, so i’m a happy guy :-)

[@SuperKirby_Gaming]

Thanks for doing these videos Benn. I recently discovered your music through this channel and I've been loving it!

[@Diayse]

I was part of the design team of PolyBrute at Arturia. This was a long development and these always come with their share of frustrations, emotional rollercoasters and so on. You can't imagine how happy and proud I was when I watched your review of PolyBrute.. and for that I am grateful. It pushed me to try and make better instruments. Whatever comes next on this channel will most certainly be great and hopefully will make you a happier person :)

[@ToumalRakesh]

I don't have a Polybrute myself (yet) but I just wanted to tell you that I always felt like a "no compromise" device, made by people who wanted to make the best instrument, and not just to check some boxes and meet some revenue target. I hope to be able to get one someday.

[@asynchronicity]

Much respect that you were on the development team of that remarkable synth✌️

[@KRAFTWERK2K6]

Dude, you all did an amazing job!!! It is still one of the instruments i have on my bucketlist :) You have every right in the world to be proud of what you achieved. It is one of the finest instruments of our times and a amazing fresh breath of air in the Synthesizer world. Thank you for being part of this new golden age of analog synthesizers that we currently live in :D

[@Gibson1976uk]

I recently bought the Minifreak :) Polybrute would be nice but its out of my budget :)

[@Keymandll]

I own a PolyBrute and it's an incredible beast, beautiful and more importantly very intuitive. You guys did an amazing job and thanks a lot for that!

[@jonmakesbeats]

I don’t blame you for making this move, man. While you may not want toxic optimism right now I have a feeling that dropping this and focusing on your documentary and other things that excite you will be a huge breakthrough for you and the channel. Onwards and upwards.

[@synthphilosophy]

I second what the legend said to the other legend. I can't understand why people act so toxic and how the world turned into this type of place. The internet has so many good sides, but so many sad corners. Whatever you do, do what makes you happy. I look up to both of you.

[@boimesa8190]

@@synthphilosophy always been "this type of place" sadly

[@yongamusic]

@jonmakesbeats Toxic optimism? Haha, I like the sound of that.

[@artephank]

I fully agree. While the synth stuff was great, the videos about scams and lately - about Spotify and money laundering in Sweden were epic

[@santpoortmusic]

it's incredible when you see an artist that you thoroughly enjoy and support comment and supports another artist that you thoroughly enjoy and support.

[@seanbrooks2583]

i was a bedroom guitarist / hobbyist for the last 20 years. I had easily 30k in music equipment. i was very entrenched in the youtube culture, following companies release dates and buying and selling gear constantly. I got divorced earlier in the year .. and finally joined a band. Started actually going out with others to play and make music.. I realized 90% of my gear was a waste and pointless. I sold almost all of it . I now look at most of the gear channels for what they are, not entertainment, but commercials to try to push products on you.

[@Lfunk1983]

I feel you man! Sometimes downsizing is a good reset.

[@James-eg3nf]

Totally agree. The more I started gigging, the more I realized that stuff like bespoke pedal boards and boutique equipment was nonsense, and that all of it was eerily similar to the audiophile world.

[@johnjjohningtoniii2439]

Interesting. I had this feeling once that the whole music business is to sell people on the idea that they too could be musicians and that is what guitar stores and other gear stores are. They profit off selling a bull shit dream that never comes true. Spend years and years and thousands on gear, but for what? Imagine if you spent that money and time on what would actually be your career?

[@richarddresden6869]

Nailed it.

[@OrangeNash]

Absolutely right. Years ago, remember hearing that the vast majority of all music gear sold, is never recorded & released and never gigged. And that reminds me of even before then, in a marketing class, being told that when you sell a product such as perfume, you aren't selling a scent. You are selling dreams. And musical gear is much the same. The buyers are buying a dream of becoming a top musician. And in reality, the majority never achieve that. So eventually go looking for the next bit of kit that will get them there. And so on. And something that's surprised me with a few succesful musicians I've known - they don't keep buying the latest thing. There's big selling producers out there still using old versions of Ableton.

[@nivikliriak]

I am, in fact, one of those people going "aw." I'm sorry this content stopped being fun to make, and hope it frees you up to do more of the stuff you do enjoy making! More crazy audio science stuff would be super rad, and I know you're really passionate about those ideas when you get them!

[@JamesOKeefe-US]

Perfectly said!

[@BlauerGMI]

💯

[@TeethToothman]

Christ, you can't even take a sweatshirt off without someone assuming you're doing it to manipulate them. You're a great guy and I love your content! Thank you for everything you do!

[@simonr344]

Gotta remember that the people who leave these types of comments are likely very unhappy and unfulfilled themselves. The people actually worth talking to are out there busy writing music and don't have time to argue on the internet

[@Goodgu3963]

@@simonr344 This is true. However this is also the internet. Everyone get a voice, even if their voice is just being hateful about everything to everyone they can find.

[@stephenroldan5107]

Wow, incredible

[@UsernameXOXO]

@@simonr344Bullies usually are. That doesn't mean they can be ignored.

[@Si_G]

I agree, Ben always comes across as genuine, insightful, and not a fucking terrible gear reviewer. Awww!

[@wilfig]

"Social media made y'all way too comfortable with disrespecting people and not getting punched in the face for it." - Mike Tyson

[@sonicspook007]

Brilliant!!!

[@angermanagementstudios]

My son wrote and recorded his first single earlier this year. At the age of ten. You’d be amazed how many human beings take time out of their day to leave hateful comments on the music video of a TEN YEAR OLD boy taking his first steps into being an artist. It’s a full time job for me to monitor and delete the trolls. Humanity is disgusting.

[@samiirai]

I know, people bad. But you both made a bobo here. Uploading first piece of music to youtube? Ooouch, should have started within a musical community, ultimateguitar, reddit, other music forums. Not one artist ever wrote their first song and had people come up and say it was great, because it wasn't. It doesn't happen like that because you need experience and knowledge to be able to use the tools that is used in writing and producing music. Sure a 10yr old savant kid could write a great piece, but since you have to guard the comment section. I kinda doubt that your kid is a savant, doesn't mean he won't become a great artist, but that shit takes years of dedication. You kinda kicked your kid into the swimming pool before teaching him how to swim. Teach kiddo little bit about swimming before you go swimming next time, ehh? Or at least go swimming somewhere the water is not too deep. The water known as youtube is pretty deep.

[@HenningSprang]

it‘s actually the task of the people running this platform to keep hate away from it. But employing too many people to do that properly (instead of completely erratic AI solutions that block people for nothing and keep people with the most hateful stuff untouched) would mean the owners cannot be billionnaires.

[@jdanielcramer]

Goodluck to you and your son! 🤠

[@ElectronicChateau]

Been teaching my seven year old bits and bobs, he's loving it. Good luck to your son, tell him to keep at it 👍

[@MatTurner-e5r]

DUDE?! Have you been on the internet? Are you that naive to not expect that? I can't believe parents are even comfortable posting their children on KZbin, like get a grip, the world's a fkd up place. It's borderline irresponsible parenting. No sympathy for you, man, give your head a shake.

[@ampspedalspickups]

Happy to see creators recognising these things more and more instead of completely burning out to 0. You have to love what you do and if you end up forcing it you'll feel horrible and it'll probably show in the content and noone wins. Huge respect for acknowledging it and going where your interest takes you, keen to see this doco when it comes out!

[@thedeepblueskys]

I felt the same way about working in the motion picture industry. It was toxic af for me personally, and one day I just looked to an intern and said… hey buddy, come here. I then asked him, do you wanna be on the camera crew and take this free tool belt with all my tools. It’s your’s kid. Make them proud lol. He was shocked, and thought I was playing a prank on him. It was the last day of shooting and I just grabbed my cloths and my coffee maker and walked off into the sunset. Haven’t looked back since. Cheers to all them film crew’s out there, but it’s just not for me. Not cut out for it. So now I just play my synths, samplers, and instruments for my self only. Do a little photography too. Either way, I don’t find a lot of joy in the career side of creative endeavors. Work as a horticulturalist and I’m happy. So this video makes sense to me.

[@ownedbymykitty270]

I felt the same way about making music “professionally”, releasing music, marketing, playing live, etc. After so many years I just realized I didn’t like it. I didn’t like the people either. I’m happier now not being competitive in that way anymore and instead enjoy my life as a teacher and do my music and art on the side for myself. I don’t beat myself over the head for my new track not gaining traction on Spotify, etc. It’s a part of getting older too. I wanted to be an accomplished underground musician and/or visual artist for the longest time but it had become a popularity contest in our current culture and the universe finally told me it wasn’t for me. I was very depressed for some time but then came out at peace with it as I realized I don’t enjoy creative endeavors when they become a job.

[@GodzillaGoesGaga]

Doing creative work when you are inspired is very different to be forced to be inspired by a salary. I feel the same about Engineering.

[@ohiasdxfcghbljokasdjhnfvaw4ehr]

unfortunately, the industry is desirable to work in, and therefore they can treat you like garbage and you'll still do the job.

[@thedeepblueskys]

@@ohiasdxfcghbljokasdjhnfvaw4ehr without a doubt. I totally agree. There’s so much drama on most film sets. Not to mention pretentious behavior at its highest. I did have good experiences 25 percent of the time, but that other 75 percent left a bad taste in my mouth. I don’t regret learning the craft from 9 years of hustling, but in the end I knew it wasn’t my bag.

[@damianwebzyx6613]

@@ownedbymykitty270 so true man … but kitties are helpful 😂😂😂, I know …

[@archangel4747]

I'm sorry you have to deal with such trash, you deserve the best and your passion is unmatched. YT comments are the epitome of degeneracy, those select few haters don't have a life so they trash talk and bring down someone that does. Take your time and please take a break for however long you need, in the end, your mental health matters most and first.

[@IamMonvi]

This is why we can't have good things. I'm glad you're doing what's necessary to take care of your mental health, and I've never understood the toxicity being flung at you. You're a true Chicago gem, my man

[@mariusle3385]

this is a way bigger thing than just in the gear section, this will be a problem or is a big problem already due to how we are connected ourself to the internet

[@stellviahohenheim]

shut up nobody cares

[@3nertia]

We can't have good things because of capitalism and it encouraging all our worst traits 😢

[@DhruvMonga]

@@3nertiamm not sure if we can blame capitalism for all our collective shortcomings haha

[@EytschPi42]

you can NEVER be right... you are so on point about this... if you REVIEW and not DEMO, which is what we do, then you are a shill if you are positive. BUT if you do your job and your criticize, then the fanboys of the product say you are too critical.... what the hell do they WANT from us. This is the hardest part of this job. But you do a good job and you have to read these comments and TRY to not let them get to you.... which isn't easy in ANY way. I get it... it's my day to day.

[@ambientnoisestudios]

Gear reviews are a dime a dozen. Your content on music industry in general is unique and valuable. That is why I follow.

[@RJ_Eckie]

Oddly enough (and maybe selfishly) I’m sort of happy you made this choice. I feel like it’s a rare public acknowledgement of what the online experience is turning into I don’t think I’ve heard any “big names” just come out and go: this is no longer manageable or enjoyable. And I think it’s a good thing that that is now happening because I bet most of us have been feeling these toxic vibes just get out of hand as time goes on Much respect, and be well

[@onlyrealnumber]

Benn, you are an inspiration. To know that someone, anyone, robbed you of a joy you once had for whatever reason is heartbreaking. I hope at the very least you will continue to nerd out about cool gear in a more solitary fashion, though vicariously living through that experience will be missed.

[@thelongvirtuesignal8551]

Come on man, it's not "heartbreaking".

[@onlyrealnumber]

@@thelongvirtuesignal8551 My God... You're right! I forgot to take my cynicism pills this morning. My bad.

[@hoobastank118]

Sorry man! You seem like a great dude! You will always have my support!

[@sinestarproject1023]

dude - its not just the synth community - its the pretty much most of the world, but more so online for obvious reasons. Still, I love you man, i love watching your videos, and I love your voice! plus you are a super bright human being.. so please feel that. Pete xx

[@ohiasdxfcghbljokasdjhnfvaw4ehr]

yeah i dont think is specific to gear related channels at all. all influences experience toxicity, it's just the nature of living in a time where we have free speech and capitalism. though I totally understand not wanting to deal with it. some things just aren't worth fighting, especially when you know it wont change anything. that's why celebrities pay people to interact with their fans for them.

[@UnitSe7en]

Yeah pretty much this. The Internet is a cesspool.

[@robertdabob8939]

This has been called the age of narcissism. A shallowness that's manifested in all the sadistic and toxic online behavior.

[@sn1000k]

I agree, sadly

[@sn1000k]

​@ohiasdxfcghbljokasdjhnfvaw4ehr free speech isn't the issue. It's the combination of hyperindividualism and anonymity (and capitalisms tendency to put us all against each other inherently)

[@molliemicrobe]

I am BEYOND excited for your documentary on The Hum! Such a fascinating subject, people don't tend to recognize noise pollution nearly enough and it lines up perfectly with your previous content about the mechanics of sound. That video about the time/sound perception of animals is an all-time KZbin Classic.

[@stolencoats63]

Just so I'm clear was it the noise that sounded like a synth pad in the background? So there are people that don't hear that if so?

[@crnkmnky]

​​@@stolencoats63 No, that was actual background music. I was thinking more like the noise that refrigerators and air conditioners make when you're trying to record on a mic. But even louder? 🤷🏿‍♀️

[@shitmandood]

I have a high pitched squeal from tinnitus so I guess that doesn’t count.

[@oledokka]

You are one of the good ones - kudos for all the work you do for us! (music is supposed to be about HARMONY not AGONY, people!)

[@TheJanda777]

There is something about that one video you made with the polybrute that really made me start making music again. It was a great showcase of the board and I think you had mentioned spending so long in the flow that you experienced the sunrise. This is what the other reviewers don't do that makes it a special experience coming from you. I'm hoping to still be able to watch in on your musical/personal journeys no matter what you make videos about.

[@ashchap]

100% agree. The polybrute video is the only gear review video I've re-watched multiple times, keep making music and art.

[@orangeActiondotcom]

Completely agree. I have sent it to people who aren't even gear heads or musicians as an example of how its possible to be passionate about a topic without coming off like a brand-obsessed advertising executive trying to 'create a community', whatever the fuck that means.

[@aretwodeetoo1181]

That video was beautiful... Will miss that kind of stuff. But we'll survive.

[@lunarthyme]

totally agree, just want to add that I also feel the same way about Benn's Hydrasynth video and a few of his reverb videos, except when I got the Hydrasynth a few months after watching, it was my first piece of gear ever, and I still play it all the time

[@wsc112782]

Benn, you deserve better than the toxicity. Your best vids are the science doc type of things, hope you continue making those.

[@HisoriSan]

i'm more of a passive watcher but now i almost feel guilty for not letting you know enough, that you videos are real fun to watch and brought lots of interesting points to my thinking about music and gear. sending lots of love man

[@Sool101]

I second that, thanks!

[@adriatic.vineyards]

Jesus Christ man, i had no idea you had to deal with this kind of bs -- I'd naively imagined the worst of it (i.e. threats of doxxing/hacking) was reserved for the biggest and more recognizable channels/names. Hope youre doing okay mentally, i love nearly *all* the content and music you've produced. You're an exceptionally talented musician and an intelligent, elequent and witty speaker, whose voice is surely valued in the KZbin Music Sphere!

[@toesexe5880]

Just found/started watching your channel recently and I’ve been drawn to it because of your ethics when it comes to music and gear. You don’t approach things like you’re trying to sell something and NO ONE does that in this kind of space. I appreciate what you do

[@threee1298]

Sorry you have to deal with this stuff man, KZbin is a lot better with you around, we’re lucky to have you

[@marcohuerta510]

I have watched all of your videos for years and learned so much about modular from you. However, I don't think I ever commented and put in a good encouraging word. For that I apologize. You were there for us, but we were not there for you. You are too good and too talented to be doing this. We were all lucky that you took so much time to give your insights into music making gear, for that I thank you. On to better things! Best of luck!

[@mmoncur]

awww! I have enjoyed your gear videos but my favorite thing is your out-of-the-box projects so I look forward to what's coming. I'm glad you're able to exist on KZbin at all. I started a small channel in a space that is somehow way more toxic than synth tube and honestly the toxicity hit me so hard I quit.

[@dlabrador]

literally watching this after the Play video, which I appreciated. love your work. please don't make decisions based on youtube comments because as we all know they are a cesspool at a level that few other social networks can rival.

[@MyrddinREmrys]

I'm afraid the problem goes beyond the screen when some of these people do active things to interfere with their lives and hurt, damage and/or harass people in their circles or even their family. Unfortunately for whatever reason some of these [blanks] think they're justified in taking extreme action outside the realm of even nasty, unthinking and false comments and accusations. You'll find this in almost any arena of interest now and it's deeply disturbing at the very best.

[@deancoyle]

Comments are easy to write, making videos that are entertaining and educational is hard - keep up the good work!

[@tsluke]

It makes me sad that one of the best synth KZbinrs out there has been chased out by the noise and insanity of people who should step back, get some perspective, and chill out. I am sorry to see you stop producing gear videos. Yours were very helpful to me.

[@BeepsAndBeats]

He calls everyone toxic, proceeds to act toxic by sharing KZbinrs comments and usernames. Oh the irony

[@bb-sw6ur]

@@BeepsAndBeats if he didn't show them, people like you would assert he has no proof that the harassment is occurring.

[@somfierce]

@@BeepsAndBeats ????? KZbin is public website -- it's not like he's "leaking" anything. You are braindead

[@FantasticOtto]

​@@BeepsAndBeats You don't believe people posting in a public forum should risk having their posts highlighted? If what you wrote cannot stand the light of day, don't post publicly.

[@thelongvirtuesignal8551]

Why take it so personal though, the online compliments should do about the same as the online insults : nothing. Avoiding negativity is not going to make you any better at dealing with it. Exposure to it will.

[@braincraven]

This is freaking awesome! I am not a musician but mostly follow you because of your exploration into other scientific, social, and business topics. And of course the ducks! 😍 Congrats on breaking free from the toxicity

[@saoirsecameron]

I’ve been in a lot of toxic online communities: fandoms, political movements, subcultures, etc. I briefly got interested in learning more about music gear and joined some groups, and wow, they truly were above and beyond the worst of all.

[@cary4603]

Your video on how animals perceive us is how we met and has been a topic I was touched by in such a way that it has become a part of conversations I have with people. I am thankful for the unique videos you have brought forth through the exploration of auditory processes. I wish you the best and honestly hope continue to grow and develop your talents!

[@HilbertSpacersson]

We don't deserve you. Thanks Benn for your work! You're probably the most genuine and honest youtuber I know. You usually correct yourself when you notice inconsistencies in future videos, your passion is completely honest. But honestly, these sh***y people are out there and youtube unfortunately attracts "shilldetector9000ers" and cynics like any other public place.

[@geraldhenrickson7472]

My Polyend Play arrived today. I ordered it specifically based on your videos. I think it the best creativity tool for those who are not well-versed in the ways of a groovebox. I love this thing and I am glad that somebody could give me the “straight skinny” on which Polyend model was for me. Thanks for all your videos and I wish you the best in the coming years.

[@BeakFoundry]

The internet has become absolutely riddled with dickheads who think that, instead of just clicking away from something they don't enjoy, they NEED to leave a stupid comment behind. Sorry you've fallen prey to them. Keep up the amazing work with all of your brilliant videos, love all the insights into the music industry that you share!

[@BaddaBigBoom]

I just delete any undesirable comments from my uploads, then again I've only had to do that once or twice.

[@MGMan37]

"Has become" This is always how the internet was.

[@PreacherAtArrakeen]

Yup. It's a cesspool.@@MGMan37

[@endserenading333]

​@@MGMan37 yeah, in fact. it used to be worse.

[@maskddingo1779]

The problem is that ya'll take these people seriosuly. Bro, don't let a rando o the internet affect you. This includes me😂 Grow a pair. The world is a rough place.

[@BlasphemousButler]

I feel you Benn. You're not alone. I had to get out of all my synth subreddits because they've become toxic cesspools of negativity and trolls. I joined them to meet like-minded people and have a good time, but it's like it's gotten too big or something. I'm sorry this has been your experience as well. I hope you get what you need from ditching the toxicity. Luckily, we can all just turn off and disappear into our studios.

[@jarkokoo]

People on synth and music making discussion platforms have unfortunately always been toxic A F. It was the exact same thing when forums were the thing, when IRC was the thing, when newsgroups were the thing and so on. I guess nothing really has changed, unfortunately. The only cure is usually super strict and active moderators or totally closed communities, but in KZbin something like that doesn't exist at all... :(

[@stylusnation]

You’re a good man Benn, honest, insightful, and articulate. It’s a shame there is so much tragic toxicity out there; doubly so that you have been undeservedly subjected to it like this. I look forward to seeing you continue to follow your passion and wish you well.

[@RadicalRumin]

You stand out as a creator that puts effort into being as honest and fair as possible in whatever you do. You've got integrity and I think it shows. It's a shame you'll have to stop doing something you enjoy, but here's to other fun projects! I look forward to what comes next.

[@RobertoVillegas-vincent404]

I fully get the reason you’re getting out of the review side of things. People get strangely tribal when it comes to product stacks and I don’t think it’s because of the product itself, but because they have made that part of their identity and sometimes feel like you’re attacking them. People love to say someone is a shill for something because it makes it way easier to justify why they don’t like something when it just might be as simple as “It just doesn’t work for me in the way I work on things.” Do what you need to do, but do know I’ve always liked your take on music gear as a person who is only sort of into music as a hobby and curious how working musicians view a product.

[@MagnitudePerson]

The internet will always be a shit place filled with toxic people, focus on those that matters on here not the random strangers that hurl insults or scream at you, or spread negativity.

[@parristaylor]

Wow, you're truly a gem. I'm so sorry that you've had to deal with this shit for so long. What a shame that a vocal minority can throw so much trash. Your transparency and honesty has always been inspirational. Stay strong ❤

[@WarriorTier]

No one did gear videos quite like you, and I hope that in some capacity they continue in the future. Appreciate everything you do and all the inspiration you’ve provided over the years!

[@davidrotter3862]

This channel stands alone in authenticity and integrity, not to mention your personal brilliance and time saving insights. You are so valued that any effusive or categorical superlatives will absolutely pale when compared to what you give in any video on any day regarding anything at all. I watch and rewatch and learn. This gift of knowledge and application that you routinely provide to us is invaluable and has no equivalence somewhere else on this platform or any other platform. Much gratitude coming your way from the Pacific Northwest USA!

[@martti7363]

I think we’re all exhausted from gear and things being constantly sold to us when trying to learn production tricks. I don’t blame ya.

[@EnervatedSociety]

You don't have to watch them. It's easy enough. Go to another page. Watch another video. Like turn the screen off. Read a book. Do some calisthenics. Close your eyes. There's endless choices really. There's also channels, smaller channels usually, that just straight talk techniques/composition, ect This isn't one of them BTW.

[@tylerevans1700]

@@EnervatedSociety I think you may have missed the point of the op's comment... *Whoosh*

[@BinauralBae]

I think we're all exhausted of people being absolute fucking dicks more

[@user-ks8ux4ig6b]

I guess I missed it too@@tylerevans1700

[@EnervatedSociety]

@@tylerevans1700 Do tell. What was the point in your view because I don't think I missed the point. I'm disagreeing with the words on the screen. I'm not exhausted from gear and things being constantly sold to me and I'm aware of alternatives. Unless "we" means a specific group of people I'm not aware of the comment is just objectively wrong on that point, and the rest is covered in my previous post. What more could there be to it ?

[@vvstyy]

I was a child growing up with your music benn. Only 10 years old listening to the flasbulb - red extensions of me and my vacant life. Growing up, you were my hero and I even used to tell my dad how I wanted to be like you when I was older. I struggled with bipolar disorder and had problems being normal like other kids and you and the squarepusher were my only 2 artists I even had on rotation. I'm glad to see more people knowing about you, and I do hope your channel grows even more.

[@lasherthirteen7456]

no aphex or BOC bro?

[@oventree]

straight up didn't realize he's the flashbulb until now. wow that's crazy, i love his music so much

[@Benshisan81]

When i see a video of you popping up in my playlist, i always know i am going to have a good time listening to a laidback and cool dude, who loves making music, playing around with toys and always curious to find new ways to make music. As a tv editor and musician myself, i know that good criticism is very important to grow and get better. But some people are just destructive, have no anger management and wanna see your world burn. These ppl have been around since and now the internet gives them a platform. Just saw a video yesterday with the same topic and it's quite sad because you guys put a lot of heart and time into it as well giving your opinions a name and face. I guess that's the stress test every KZbinr has to get through. You can't satisfy everyone. Don't let it get to you and keep on exploring. Cheers Ben (In short: I just love what you do man 😀)

[@CodyGratner]

I’ve been watching your videos for years! The first time I remembering seeing you interacting with people online was on Reddit with the Synthrotek misery where you talked about offering to pay to rebrand gearslutz. I have always appreciated you pushing for a less divisive world we can all make art in. I will miss your gear videos. But, I hope to see more science and adventure videos (you and Cameron in the cave is one of my favorite videos in the last year or so). Please be well!

[@ancientfruit606]

Your genuine being has always shown through so clearly in the almost two decades I've followed your work. Your authenticity and passion is truly so inspiring. No matter what you do I'm sure it will be great.

[@javajini]

Sorry about your experience. I've enjoyed all of your videos that I have watched. Looking forward to your upcoming projects.

[@JayaLove]

One of the things that is cool about your videos is how creative they are. You can and will do that with whatever videos you choose to do.

[@BYAHchase]

You are one of the most transparent and passionate musicians on KZbin. To anyone that made you feel like you are being anything but your sincere self, f**k you. I will never understand why people watch videos just to complain about them. You’re a GOAT, Benn, and so many of us love your content and personality. It’s why us “normal people” (grains of salt and all) that watch content we like… well, watch it. If I don’t like it, I don’t watch it. I don’t care about most sports so I don’t watch much sporting content… who populates their own KZbin feed with content they actively dislike? Sounds like a *SKILL ISSUE* and Benn isn’t the one with said issue… Some of you folks need to get a life or maybe write a song about how you feel because there isn’t much worse cringe than nonproductive “musicians” bagging on real musicians. Unsure how a well priced and cool groovebox is even remotely a hot take. The device involved here is literally called PLAY. I guess your channel isn’t the kind of parasocial drama some of these folks require to find happiness by being a toxic POS behind a keyboard. *BENN YOU RULE - STAY TRUE* ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@LyliJ]

There are some incredibly toxic people in these spaces. When you’re a woman it’s all that much worse (and you’ve made a video about inequality in the industry which I applaud you for 🎉) you’re amazing and big respect for taking care of your mental health and preserving your integrity! Happy new Year 😊

[@hohtogrammi]

Thank you for all your contributions for the synth music community. Your gear videos have influenced my personal selections of gear every now and then - gear that I still hold on to as precious tools for creation. It breaks my heart to see you go but I fully understand your reasons. Take care Benn, looking forward to seeing the documentary and all the other videos you make in the future! ✌

[@EdFedermeyerMusic]

I’m one of those who heard this and thought “awwww”. I enjoy all your videos, even the gear ones. And you’ve learned to string a sentence together pretty well! KZbin is going to be a little bit lesser of a place now without your thoughts on new gear.

[@Wayne_Robinson]

Unfortunately, "this is why we can't have nice things" happens far too often. It's unfortunate but you're probably making the right decision. As an amateur musician composer I'm far from being a gearhead but definitely appreciate seeing & hearing what's new or interesting.

[@llanginger]

Some people suck, your work is consistently great regardless of the focus and while I’m one of those in the “aww” camp, I’m so excited for what’s next!

[@hvhvgitaar]

Sir, You are one of the best KZbinrs around. After a 40 year break I started making music again a few years ago and your channel has always been informative, inspiring and fun. Your passion and unique approach to showcasing “gear” is a joy to see because everyone can tell you love making music. Don’t let a small noisy minority spoil what you enjoy. By the way, the rushed make-up looks fine 😊

[@captainlovett4724]

This is one of your most wholesome videos. I appreciate you just talking about yourself, your background, your ideas and philosophies. I want to see more of this.

[@waveforthefrequencies]

You’ve always been good in my book. I am one of those 29 people out of 30 that are absolutely fine with all of the endeavors you undertake. Lovely stuff. I’ve always thought that you are a fun and down to earth generally smart guy and will definitely support one day in my other YT channel and would love to see any live performances that you are involved in if I ever make it back out to the states.

[@DemMusel]

you are gonna be missed in the gear space, but i can understand and relate to your decision. Really enjoyed your perspective on feature sets and workflow combined with great demo examples. keep up the good work with your channel, whatever formats you choose..

[@Yarckmusic]

Man this world :(, the web :( both love and hate it sometimes... Thank you for all the reviews and we support you whatever you're gonna do next! ❤

[@mrgum6y]

Benn, your content is always top quality. Your opinion and insight are valued. Thanks for sharing the journey. Peace

[@orangeman1131]

Thank you for all you’ve done, Benn. I can’t explain in words, how much joy and information I have received from you. I appreciate everything you’ve done. I loved your recent piece on arrangers. That was fantastic!! Best of luck in the future.

[@bradleyduer]

I learned so much about knobs, buttons, switches, bells, and whistles, and discovered a love for synthesis from watching this channel. Thank you Benn. You are informative and inspiring.

[@haydnmartin7407]

You're one of the only gear reviewers I watch as you review the gear from the perspective of someone who just wants to use it to make music, not for the sake of making a product video. Your perspective is more honest then just about anyone I have seen on this platform and that why I subscribe. I think that having a unique personal perspective will always generate some tension as there is nothing that everyone will ever completely agree on.

[@jordanzish]

Literally the most sincere, interesting, mind-bendingly creative KZbinr in the space, and this is the fucking guy they bully into submission? The internet is a fucking cesspool.

[@jordanzish]

If there's any question in your mind if your gear reviews are inspiring, or fun to watch: I've been in a rut for a while. I keep making the same... samey shit, to the point that I just turn the shit off and walk away... I got about 3/4 of the way through the Play+ video before getting the urge to make something, pulled out my ESX-1 and made the first beat I've actually liked in like 6 months. A little bit of inspiration goes a long way I guess. Anyway, not trying to convince you to keep doing it, because I like the video essays too, and maintaining your sanity comes first, but I just felt the need to share. And dw I came back to watch the other 25% lol

[@mitdemall]

Thanks so much for your old "how to get into modular" video. It made me get a Dfam that is still the heat of my live setup and enabled me for the first time to play live music on my own. This was a moment that changed my life.

[@Calverhall]

Dang, I’m sad things have got this bad that you want to stop. Love your gear videos Benn! 😢

[@quantenmoi]

That was me with the sweatshirt question. I apologized in the Polyend video comments, and I would like to apologize here as well. I actually think Benn is a rare beacon of integrity in this community. For some odd reason I mistakenly thought he was trying to send a religious message with the shirt thing. I know, it really seems foolish now. But I guess I was in some kind of mood. So, unfortunately, I typed before I thought. Even though Benn has proven himself time and again to be upfront and straightforward in all his messages. Anyway, I apologize to you Benn and I apologize to everyone here for adding to the vitriol. That wasn't my intent at all. But I will own it and try my best to do better. Thanks everyone.

[@l.aerosmusic]

i respect the accountability :)

[@Goodgu3963]

It's sadly not often people own up to mistakes and I am glad that you have and have apologized. More importantly thank you for wanting to do better. Apologies are a good start, but future actions are always what really matter.

[@robdavies9478]

I mean, at least you've owned up, but it would be much better if you thought about this shit ahead of time. Was it that important a point to make? Prolly not.

[@Maxmachtmusik]

Hey man, sorry for your (& our) loss! Thanks for being so honest. I always like your perspective on gear, music and music business. Don‘t stop the good work!! But it seems very healthy to stop those gear videos. All the best from germany 🙌

[@intriguedviewer501]

Very suspicious how he had that marker at the end and put it down... what's he hiding? /s

[@brohana]

It's rare I open one of your videos and don't watch it from start to finish, regardless of the topic. Whatever direction you devote your energy to, I'll keep watching.

[@somfierce]

Same here. Channels like Benn's are why I mainly watch KZbin instead of tv

[@MadsenMister]

I don't comment often. However, I am a Public School Teacher in the US, and I can relate to the topsy turvy (to put it extremely fucking lightly) commenting and criticism. I hope you continue to create content, if only to keep us (me) thinking about content and creativity.

[@shanithezimhoni]

I honestly am sad to see the gear reviews go, but im glad you’re doing what’s good for your own mental health. Excited to see what’s coming next!

[@simonboisjoli316]

Man, that was gut-wrenching. I love your channel, I love The Flashbulb and I hope to see and hear more of both in the future.

[@maskingtables]

You have been a blessing in the music World. Greetings from a Long and Mcquade Canada employee... I recommend your videos to several customers every week.

[@ClifBratcher]

Love your dives into gear that's been around for a bit. Your Evolver and Medusa videos got me dusting off gear I hadn't touched in ages.

[@tmappe]

Benn please don’t quit Keep making videos. Doesn’t have to be about gear. I really am enriched by your videos that are about your music research. I love your videos about how animals hear sounds and capturing reverb from tubes in the middle of nowhere.

[@midsoulmusic]

I’m sorry that you’ve had to deal with all this Benn. Your passion always resonate with me with what you do. Abrazos, from your Honduran Friend, now in ATL.

[@funkb0x]

It's the age of envy. Some folks out there have lost the plot. All the best of luck out there. Stay positive! You're awesome.

[@NickBaysingar]

I totally understand your decision. Even if 99.9% of death treats from internet trolls are totally empty, you still have to take all of them seriously for your own safety, not to mention the safety of those who are close to you. You just never know with some people out there. Having to deal with that shit would no doubt be stressful for anyone and I can totally see how it would sap all of the fun out of making gear content. Perhaps I'm one of the few that's sad to see you step away from gear videos. The video you made on the FLKey convinced me to pick one up for myself and I have really enjoyed using it. There were plenty of other videos from other creators on it, but you definitely did the best job of demonstrating all of its capabilities and its unique integration with FL Studio. So I for one have always really appreciated your input on both hardware and software.

[@chrisgarcia901]

Your run doing this was valuable and impactful. All the love man and we all rock with you with whatever you choose to do or not do 💜

[@anconaesselmann]

So sorry you are dealing with so much crap. I must have found your channel a bit after that initial incidence (your Spotify video was my first) and since I normally don't read video comments I had no idea. Absolutely love your content and it makes me sad you ended up not being able to feel comfortable having a financial gain from these amazing and thoughtful videos any more.

[@RecordsQ]

Your album Red extensions of Me, changed my life. Still have it on CD. Godspeed!

[@mazzky1093]

I think this is great. Even though I do it all the time, watching gear review videos makes me feel anxious. It’s like an obsession that doesn’t give me any pleasure and feels like a waste. But your videos on the science of sound leave me feeling like I just had fun learning something, like it was a good use of my time. These are the projects that make me love the KZbin creator community.

[@DerekRNeumann]

Thank you for all the vids thus far. Suggestion for a new series. What if instead of reviewing the gear you explore the synthesis engines and other how it works type content when truly new pieces of hardware come around. For instance, the drone synth was a phenomenal thoughtful and inspiring product vid that also tickled the engineering side of my brain. Cant wait to see whats in store for this channel in the future..!

[@catmasterOP]

Sorry to hear about the bullshit you had to endure. Glad you're moving on in a healthy way!

[@Robilinski83]

Good for you man. I’ve never really watched your gear stuff anyway as I’m a guitarist, but your non-gear stuff is exceptional. Hope you keep that up!

[@tonverfall_studio]

First, I appreciate you making this video and being so frank. Second, thanks for all the gear you've maybe not so much reviewed as in-depth demo-ed. I've certainly benefited from those videos. You can please some of the people, some of the time. Never has that been truer than in social media. Sadly, the small percentage who have zero social skills and a mountain of bile for everyone get on these forums and just spew, and that effs it up for everyone. I think a lot of people are really fed up with how toxic all social media has become. It's like an endless parade of trolls and shitposters. I'm definitely tired of it, and really questioning the value of the various Internet pockets I've inhabited.

[@lukevinciguerra2219]

I don't really have much history commenting but I wish I vocalized my support and gratitude earlier. I wish you the best moving forward and can't wait to see what you have in store. Godspeed, Benn!

[@VIRALBEATS360]

I couldn't believe how many people in the MPC community acted as if you were not qualified to speak on the problems with your MPC Key 61 (that you purchased). The most insane thing to me was how it continued after pulling out your old MPC's, as if all your other gear and experience didn't matter, either. While I know that much of it was due to jealousy, tribalism, and the toxicity of the internet...damn. Here we are the following year, with a totally different piece of gear, set of circumstances, and community. Guess we both saw it coming, with that whole eyebrow crack...sorry. Man, this is a toxic space.

[@Vareso]

Being in the music industry for over 10 years I feel your pain, sometimes people just suck... Who knows why? ... Just keep doing what you love and always push forward! ❤

[@markodesign]

Much respect. I am one of the 29/30 and while this is a loss, I am glad you are only working on stuff that you care about. Your enthusiasm is palpable and one of the many ingredients that make your content so good.

[@nomdeplore7604]

Hey, thank you for what you've done and what you'll do. Gear shmear, I appreciate your wild science question vids more.

[@GuidoGautsch]

Gear shmear is actually a great name for an anti new gear channel 😂

[@ManoOne-Music-Production]

First comment! Thank you for doing what you do. Huge fan 🙏 … (edit watched the video) I’m so sorry to hear what you went through. Know that many many people feel grateful for everything you’ve created. Take care

[@mennovanwijk2967]

Hey man! Gotta say first off, really appreciate how honest and upfront you were in the video. That's some real nerve! My Clarett crapped out on me halfway, so I missed the last part, but I still wanted to share a couple of thoughts with you, might be helpful. I've been in tough spots too, like what you're dealing with now. A while back, I had to decide whether to stay in a 2.5-year relationship or call it quits. Tough call, right? Both choices had their ups and downs, and it's never easy when you're the one steering the ship. So, a friend suggested I just jot down my thoughts on paper, kinda like a pros and cons list. No need for it to be perfect or structured. Man, there's something about writing stuff down that helps clear your head. Definitely gave me some clarity. Hope it might bring you the same. Always worth a try, only takes like a few seconds anyway. I don't think you owe anyone an explanation, or an "excuse", as you said, to anyone. KZbin's really a place of its own. That used to be a good thing... Now, it's just one of the many variables that people use to interact with their lives. I remember when people didn't even know what KZbin was. Good old days. Comment sections were nicer back then too. New generations are rough. Don't take this the wrong way, but I do think you sound conflicted about all this, and to be fair, I completely get why. The folllowing is coming from a good place. Have you ever thought about talking to a therapist or counselor maybe? You'd be surprised what these people could do for you. It's a surprise how much one can get out of just 1-3 sessions even if you're tight on cash. The lessons learned may be invaluable and help you in many other areas of life as well. It's not so much about being in a bad place; it's about keeping your head straight. Furthermore, there you'll be able to talk to someone you can trust that can help you deal with the complex emotions and feelings you may be feeling from somethinhg turned sour like this. The kind of public attention you get, is something they might be able to help you handle and deal with it better too. Thanks for all your work, and best of luck! Cheers.

[@thomnewton9024]

This is pretty sad news. You and Loopop were always the two voices I'd look for when researching anything music tech related. Loopop's vids are a fantastic resource for seeing what a bit of kit can technically do, but your vids always felt like a really inciteful, artist's view. Your video on the Polybrute is a big reason why it is at the top of my dream gear list. The videos have just always really spoken to me and it's a shame that they aren't going to be any more of them. It's a shame that a few people have to go and ruin it for everybody but c'est la vie.

[@deanandthebeans857]

Blimey, yes! Benn's and Loopop's content is amazingly well researched and presented. Who could have an issue with that?

[@deceptaloid]

I'm sad that bad actors sucked the fun out of gear reviews for you, but I also enjoy your non-gear review content far more. Can't wait to see more of it! Keep up the great work!