I’m sorry |depression audio| Ella Dubrin

[@g00fys0up7]

the pain in her voice..

[@mist-wisp_secrets4ever-660]

Irk but she's better now (I think and hope.)

[@imnotrealstillnotreal]

It reminds me of mine

[@Sleepychar0527]

I know it's sad but depression is hard

[@brayanbrayan5155]

Not sorry bay bay vousette pas seryeux avec moi tous

[@dwadmolay4995]

انتي لا تعرفين ما هو الألم

[@marykissel5300]

She doesn't tell anyone...because she thinks that if she doesn't talk.... She wont bother anyone.....

[@_Shweta_Dubey]

That's deep...😭

[@juliaisabel4293]

Mary Kissel that’s me but my reason is I think people will question whyI have it when I have the perfect life

[@ParkJimin-qd6uj]

@@juliaisabel4293 this is thing that ppl can't understand about depression .. Depression just hits you no matter who u are and what life did u live .. Depression is not a choice and also I find it really stupid when some ppl Are like "why are u depressed, why u so sad you have amazing friends, family ..life .." Oh come on nobody have perfect life but depression can make it really hard ..it's sad that some ppl can't understand it and they think it's nothing serious ! They think that u just overplay and u can just live your life peaceful .. They think that if u smile u are okay ! They think if talk and laughs u better ..but u are not ! Depression it's not just come and go ... 🖤Stay strong 🖤

[@roywatson7987]

That also is me. I don't tell anybody because I don't want to bother them. Also, I feel like they won't understand. I've told two people that I need to talk to them, but they've ignored me. Ignored the problem. One person I told that I needed to talk to them with tears in my eyes. The other person I practically told them that I have demons in my mind. I sent her the Rescue Me video by Thirty Seconds To Mars. I need help! I hate my life!

[@juliaisabel4293]

Park Jimin thank u so much. But honestly. People in my school will day “Oh ur such a happy girl and ur just using depression for clout u should be ashamed” like sometimes it can be rlly sad cuz ppl dont understand that u show them ur happy cuz u dont want attention.

[@islandvibes8459]

Sleep is no longer just sleep is a way from escaping reality

[@caitlynjeffries9770]

This is too true

[@stitchesfamily6339]

Yet it so fucking hard to do

[@Lanyaa_]

Z

[@ichigocarameru]

True

[@yourdadscat3182]

it's so true that all day I sleep and all night I'm up

[@ツツ-w1j]

*I'm sorry that I'm not the person you expected me to be*

[@sacofrice7581]

I’m sorry you only notice me when I do something bad I’m sorry I couldn’t be like the popular kids... I’m sorry for what I said about others... I’m sorry that I’m not pretty... I’m sorry that I’m sad... I’m sorry that it looks like I want attention... I’m sorry I can’t fix myself.... I’m sorry that I’m desperate... I’m sorry for living I’m sorry for feeling pain I’m sorry for being me I’m sorry (Edit) sorry I needed to vent... (whoops I said sorry again)

[@darkcheonsa7694]

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[@itzwolfikun7883]

................. *Offers a hug* _(u-u)_

[@itzwolfikun7883]

Starri Leopard Hug? *Offers a hug*

[@qqnxti]

I messed up your 999 likes :>

[@gabby-zo7ud]

But sometimes people have to understand.. depression isn’t always from relationships, or always from parents, or friends, or bullies, but really, in reality... Depression is us. We hurt ourselves. And sometimes, it’s not really our choice.

[@hernan8725]

Gabby H if we had a choice we will choose to be happy

[@carterbrs7337]

Depression can get to you out of nowhere. One moment you're happy, with friends and family, being a normal person like everybody else is. But the next, you start getting these dark feelings and a wave of sadness and shallowness. Like there's no point for your life anymore. That the ones who said they love you, they no longer do. That everything good you were will vanish. That you no longer matter, are cared for, are loved. That you are hated by the world and everybody. Depression isn't something that only happens to someone who've been through trauma or something unfortunate that happened to them. It's just like "poof!" And its there.

[@rebeccawinnie4810]

You are right.

[@amandakalesaran5068]

Thats right :')

[@andreisletters2821]

Yes, depression is us. We have no choice when sadness is behind us pointing a knife at our neck.

[@nursy8919]

I just want to sleep forever maybe then everything will be fine...

[@spicymochi3643]

Same here... I want to fade without a trace so that the ones who love me won’t be reminded of me

[@spacey_cakes9332]

exactly....when I ever even think about this stuff, I wonder how the ones I love would feel, wondering if it was their fault or not when it isn't....

[@gani4211]

I wish I could wipe out someone's memory of me... So I could sleep in peace without anyone stopping me.

[@ina3575]

Same. Idk what to do

[@onbekendeonbekende7964]

Yina Cruz Carranza I love you

[@4dollars99]

Me~ crying Friend~are you ok? Me~ no *smiles* Friend~ walk away Im hurting myself everyday

[@MichaelJacksonfrEaK777]

Same

[@Laylaissleeping19]

Plz don’t do it i used to do it to but I promise u it gets better plz don’t hurt urself

[@saralukac9787]

I do the same and I know this isn't right but it feels like it is. I know that they would care if I'm gone but if I just put a fake smile on they think I'm all right. Well I'm not. Did they all think that I'm always fine, because I'm not. No one is or will be. Everyone have pain.Some people have more pain and some people don't have it that much...I guess I feel it every day so how is it possible not to notice that? Every time they cry I'm the one who helps them and they never care of me. It feels like they don't care at all. But why!?! Have I done a mistake or am I one?

[@lulu5996]

Lol..i like to make myself cry i dunno why?

[@anastasijasimic2668]

that "smiles"

[@kendraplays1101]

I’m fine F-Faking a smile I-Irritated N-Never enough E-Emotional No,no, really I’m fine

[@Aya-gk2ig]

Yeah lol i just stayed up last night

[@-Insane_Rat-]

Same

[@brandonjefferson5898]

I’m Fine Fine Until Next Explosion

[@iamactuallyjesus5127]

This is how many people actually cried | | V

[@ishaesthetics5929]

...💙

[@Dee-jk1my]

How can you cry i havn't cried for week I..i dont know why ps dont say it is just for attention well if it was for attention i would have said it on twitter or something like that pls dont hate me for this comment i am sorry if you think i am a attention seaker sorry..

[@rein9304]

I did

[@iamactuallyjesus5127]

Kackuno . Wow rude

[@iamactuallyjesus5127]

Kackuno yea?

[@aleeza2885]

I was stupid enough to listen to this (with headphones) while doing my homework, with my parents behind me. I had to stop because I was about to break down, and I don't want my parents getting weirded out by me. I'm sorry too. I hope you get through this. I hope *we* get through this together :(

[@ash1118]

Honestly same I’m studying rn and listening to this... but my mom doesn’t care :(

[@buxralabros2160]

Hockeygirl 05 im sorry honey💜 i care

[@goatgaming3956]

min yoonji im at the train tracks right now so its too late for me

[@aleeza2885]

goat gaming no! Please don’t do it. I’m not very good with advice but please don’t. I care about you! You might not believe it but there are people out there that care about you and love you. Please, please don’t do it.

[@aleeza2885]

goat gaming please don’t do it. I swear, I’m starting to burst into tears right now. I care so fricking much.

[@moosya9031]

I... Can't... Stopping cry... Are you ok right now?...

[@EllaDubrin]

I’m doing better. Feel free to contact me at anytime

[@evatsangaridou6828]

Cembenhi no I'm a mess and I just wanna die but I can't do it

[@destyneemayfield6819]

eva tsangaridou me too

[@bluefoxyplayz6280]

Cembenhi Im not...

[@sandracunningham8914]

Ella Dubrin hope u r feeling better

[@jeonkookie1357]

The fact that you're trying your best to be happy, but at the end of the day you still end up crying your self to sleep.

[@jeani8914]

What's sad is the fact that your family believe you when you say "I'm fine" and it hurts😭😭😭😭

[@hazelcotton2755]

I agree,even your friends

[@marissablake851]

I know.........that ALL to well

[@UsmanKhan-dg6cg]

It hurts more than we think

[@desilvajanndrey7157]

They dont even see behind the mask your wearing

[@fazianafadzil8519]

what if they dont even ask😭

[@cristinacolmenero4556]

Same....your not going through it alone....

[@Audrey-tu7xk]

same

[@aaronstoute1595]

😭😭😭😭

[@mist-wisp_secrets4ever-660]

I hope she is okay, I feel the same way, I wish I was there for her and actually talk to her in person.

[@5ive___]

Same..this makes me a little glad, because i know that someone finally understands, when i tell my friends about how i feel they always assume that im lying or pretending...

[@AliyaKhan-kc9ww]

I m sorry 😔😭 I can't be a good sister and daughter no budy knows how much pain inside me i cannot describe the pain in words..... Im sorry😔😭

[@khanagaasooria7165]

Aranka Aliya you're the most stronger person dear...trust me 😣💚

[@babyrye_]

ify:')

[@emilyphoo3826]

Right I am not a good person for anyone.. I wish I could die😄💔

[@khanagaasooria7165]

Eun So you're strongest soul than you imagine dear

[@khanagaasooria7165]

Emily Phoo I wish you to live dear and fight this battle because you're strongest person that I ever seen 💚

[@Deviruichi]

No one can hear my silent cries every night,No one can hear my pain screaming everyday...I just need to hide it with my fake smiles and it will be alright😊

[@kimiseon1001]

Hey I am crying

[@yummychocolate5682]

Same

[@shubnumrahman8150]

Even I used to do these things.

[@Pug4840]

ikr

[@savestation364]

Stay strong sweetiee 💞💞💞💞

[@paque-music]

i love you and that's weird, cause I only hear your voice.. but damn, I relate so much. I'm sorry aswell.

[@cuparemy]

Sven sigh. Sometimes I wish people said things like this to me sometimes.

[@paque-music]

Shadowstaker AJ How are you feeling now ? We love you all. You are perfect as you are, it will get better. Atleast that’s what I’m saying to me ☺️

[@cuparemy]

I'm dying inside. I am everything but perfect. And no it won't get better. I've been depressed for over 5 years and suicidal for 3. I don't believe in fairytales in this broken society. I don't even want to get better. What would I do since I know about killers,accidents,goverments,laws. No thanks. I'm willing to die and that will be the right thing. -abusive parents,friendless status,everyday bullying in school. Have a good life.

[@mist-wisp_secrets4ever-660]

I feel the same way. I'm 12 now and I was like this when I was 6. I love her and I hope she's okay now, way like Way better now. (I have tried to kill myself 12 times and every try I got closer to death but still failed, I really hope she is okay.)

[@cry_baby_foreveer2234]

@@cuparemy please don't give up 😭 you're perfect just the way you are, i love you ❤️❤️❤️

[@lazypotato2928]

I’m sorry I wasn’t the daughter you wanted me to be... I’m sorry I wasn’t the sister you wanted me to be... I’m sorry I wasn’t the niece you wanted me to be... I’m sorry I wasn’t the granddaughter you wanted me to be... I’m sorry for being a mistake... I’m sorry for making you cry... I’m sorry for...just being me... I know I wasn’t the “pretty perfect princess” you wanted me to be... I know I wasn’t the “nice sister” you wanted me to be... I know I wasn’t the “amazing daughter” I was supposed to be... I’m sorry for screwing up... I’m sorry for not being able to do what you asked of me... “It’s okay. Everyone makes mistakes” ... They aren’t “mistakes”...

[@squidwardsplug7062]

This hurt.. this is exactly what i was thinking while watching the video. I just wanna make everyone happy but i always fuck up an disappoint them and now i have nobody by my side i lost my sister; shes my best friend. The time she told me “things will never go back to the way they were” it hurt so bad because it isnt my fault that i an the way i am im sorry i hurt myself im sorry im always sad and im sorry i sleep all day. As your big sister i was supposed to protect you and be there for you but i guess i taught you how to do it on your own. Im so sorry.

[@vivianwu3600]

I know it hurts

[@duhvernice6212]

This is what I'm thinking I wanna tell my family about this but I can't.. They saw my notes about suicidal thoughts but they just mocking me and shout and said "if you wanna die then just die" and my ex leave me because I didn't give him enough attention and it's my fault I miss him so fuking much...

[@jenna9595]

I started crying reading this

[@Skylar016]

This is what I think.. I just don't want to do it anymore... I can't..

[@yandere_gachapumpkin4034]

I couldn’t agree with you more I can’t make people happy People don’t notice my pain People don’t notice my screams People don’t notice my helplessness They only notice my mistakes

[@marissablake851]

Same

[@zoeletteer2731]

Yandere_gacha Pumpkin I feel this

[@azmiiigrab7819]

Yandere_gacha Pumpkin same with me

[@pankajmishra2230]

Same

[@user-ol9ur6jy9i]

Same 😩🔫🔫

[@mokachan24]

The outside me: Can make other people laugh Can smile on any problem Can laugh every time Can't cry I'm happy I can comfort other people Can handle problems I'm positive INNER ME: CANT BARELY SMILE SADNESS AROUND ME CAN'T LAUGH ALWAYS CRY IM NOT HAPPY I CANT COMFORT MYSELF CANT STAY IN THE DARK IM NEGATIVE DO CUTS ALWAYS LIE WANNA DIE EMPTY

[@rajeevrawat5174]

Exactly. I dont think anyone will remember or care. People only care when its too late.

[@shahrammoghaddam659]

Same here...(dont mind my profile pic)

[@yomaddy]

That's me...

[@navinrunjeet5237]

Me too also like this .. I don't want to suffer anymore

[@mohamedosuasiboss9156]

Hello

[@millliebobbeybrownfan5217]

I’m suicidal but I can’t commit suicide bc of how much it can hurt others I just want to go I’m afraid to die but I’m also afraid to live 😭😭😭😭

[@norsyamimi3656]

same , if i kill myself i know i will regret but i dont want to live either😩😩

[@giftedthankful2736]

Trust God and everything will be alright. 😇

[@larsheinzig6455]

Hi nice to meet you

[@trinitycurry9126]

I feel the same I'm in so much pain right now and I don't know how to live but I'm scared to die I hurt so much right now

[@kaataernoudt7690]

like im not living rn im just barely surviving

[@lynn.williams1930]

Mom:You seem down.. Me:I'm fine... Mom:you can talk to me- Sister walks in, they start laughing together Me: I'm not actually fine.. They dont hear me. Ends up walking away.

[@haninmarwan7068]

Basic.brøok Same feeling

[@karishmaantu6063]

My mom doesn't even notice:(

[@lynn.williams1930]

@@karishmaantu6063 awe, if you ever need to talk to someone try talking to close friends! I know it sounds super hard but when you talk about your problems you feel alot better after, and if you feel bad thinking about talking to your friends about your problems write it down and tear it💜

[@xx_deku_fficial_xx1274]

I feel the same way..but the thing is I hide it from my family and friends..

[@rajeevrawat5174]

@@karishmaantu6063 exactly. No one cares.

[@alifiyamiftahuljannah8082]

Everyone: it's gonna be alright. Me: okay. Mom: how's your day? Me: fine, everything is perfect. Heart: u can't lie to me. ~depression every night.

[@jeieace3296]

I feel you

[@qeenxkiera5299]

I have the same feeling

[@muskanasim8247]

no one notices anything. I am shaking all the time, my eating habits er getting worse, but I just have to keep going and pretend like I am totally fine.

[@hmangaihzuali6913]

I'm very good at hiding my pain Sometimes comments are the only place where we can share our pain

[@lynaa3262]

if you need to talk I’m here❤️

[@zsujip]

i wonder how hard it is to hide pain. i know ur pain and struggle are far worse than mine but I just can't seem to hide mine very well. I told a couple of people looking for answers on whether if I'm depressed or not and i keep saying too much. do you have any tips on hiding it? it would make me feel alot better once i hide it :) I hope you are doing better Hmangaih

[@moon-xs6bd]

Even I hide from everyone no one can even imagine that I cried so much. Iam hurting myself. Now I'm tired of crying

[@yatikamanger5773]

True ..the only place where we can..show our inner emotions

[@avanevaeh11]

@@zsujip when you get used to it it’s like a daily routine, and forever will be

[@loveablehn]

Mom:you've never cry,honey Me:hehe My heart:mom,you just don't know..

[@yaabseraa]

Aarmau43 I’m so sorry

[@di24jj69]

mine does know but she walks away

[@di24jj69]

Anorita. R she doesn‘t get me, she doesn‘t listen to me.

[@azizahhisham507]

Me too :')

[@dheydreamin7106]

Me.

[@rainyday8161]

I relate to this on such a deep level.... I needed to hear this

[@mist-wisp_secrets4ever-660]

Same, I hope she is okay.

[@alicexx6628]

The pain in her voice making me feel sad very badly

[@peterzheng5156]

My teacher asks me why I always look blank and sad. I say I’m tired but deep inside I’m suffering

[@rrubyppanther6880]

Yeah......same........

[@RM-ed4ny]

My teachers don’t even care...

[@dominikak3110]

I'm tired is good excuse

[@ItIsMelia]

Felt that

[@mariaalvarado3099]

Same

[@chestnutmae388]

(Mom's calling) me: hello mom: r u sleeping? me: yes, y? mom: r u okay? me: yes, I'm just sleepy, I just want to sleep inner me: mom, help me! It hurts!!

[@dcgamester.]

yes😭 but my mom doesn't care so ..

[@kristenkearney7221]

arjun ___ I feel u:(

[@jadelara3439]

I told my mom and she just dont get it

[@imally3379]

My mom is one of the reasons why I'm like this......she is my mom but she is so toxic with me...

[@jadelara3439]

@@imally3379 I feel you, my mom is the same

[@dannym3764]

That heavy feeling in my chest that I felt while listening to this...like I wanna cry but don’t have any tears left

[@juliamoreno4280]

Heyy, are you okay?

[@dannym3764]

@@juliamoreno4280 hey! Yeah I’m doing much better than I was thank you for checking

[@juliamoreno4280]

@@dannym3764 I am glad to hear that 💕💕

[@deshnahathi4037]

yahh it is feeling same rn to me...no tears left now

[@elliekaboom4098]

Alphabet of depression: A-lone B-etrayed C-uts E-nd of me F-ailure G-ot none by my side H-idden I-nternal pain J-ust leave me K-ill myself L-eftout M-istaken N-ot perfect O-ut of place P-eople don't love me Q-uiet R-eally trying to be okay S-hould i die? T-ired U-gly V-oice is numb W-ith invisible scars X-treamly hurting Y-ou are lucky to not be like me Z-ip my mouth shut and lie

[@olivexxoliverxxx2726]

Really good made my cry but you forgot d no hate

[@yooim1215]

I love this, thanks;))

[@olivexxoliverxxx2726]

@@yooim1215 hewo could you reply im lonely

[@yooim1215]

@@olivexxoliverxxx2726 sure

[@yooim1215]

@@olivexxoliverxxx2726 im lonely

[@Cooldude-vy9nt]

this is literally how i feel. and i feel like the only reason i'm still here is because i just don't wanna hurt people who love me. but i dont want to feel like this, its too much. but i believe that there's hope, and things will get better some day. thank you for that audio.

[@kanekinis2325]

Anna Rivaille same i feel you too

[@mist-wisp_secrets4ever-660]

Same. That is all I have to say, Same.

[@Anna-pt4hl]

Anna Rivaille I feel the same it hurts too much

[@minamuniz2325]

Same

[@sophia-en5ps]

This just makes me want to go and cry alongside her and hug her

[@lilithclawthorne2214]

I know right?

[@notwij]

After I listened to it, I was crying really hard and I could feel her pain. One time my brother actually tried to commit oof by taking 5 sleeping pills in one go. He threw up a lot of blood and I always see him with scars on his arms, I want to help him.. But discussing those kinds of topics with him only makes it worse. I still want to live longer with my brother and I hope he doesn't commit oof.

[@jennifernathania6624]

im taking 12 sleeping pills. i don't even sick , why the heck im not die 😐

[@antarejacetta641]

Me too

[@jennifernathania6624]

@@antarejacetta641 💜💜💜 lets just try our best to stay alive💜💜

[@billrodgers8856]

@@jennifernathania6624 pls dont die 🥺 I feel your pain.. i know how you feel.. I've been there, but things DO get better no matter how many times you dont accept it. I've seen it happen

[@jennifernathania6624]

@@billrodgers8856 thank you , thank you so much💜 , lets try our best to live in this world😊🙏

[@Merle-mi4cu]

I don't understand people disliking this. It's the feelings of someone who just isn't alright and who doesn't want to life but also doesn't want to leave. These are feelings that I have. That many people, especially teens like myself have. And it's not something that you dislike. Iys something you respect because it's damn hard to do something like this and it's really brave.

[@EllaDubrin]

❤️

[@assalamualaikum3959]

Yeah, same words I wanna say, I'm also a teenager and it feels really a tough job to keep myself alive .I can't even describe this feeling .But there is always something which holds me back to commit harm to me because I can't end my life like this...I understand..there r people like me .we r together in this , I respect everybody with their thinking because we don't even know what's going on with them :) their own people called family and friends can't understand them .

[@gleep2751]

the one thing I always say "I'm sorry I'm not good enough"

[@kyrawozny4614]

Deperession sucks. It's never going to go away. Depression is like your drowning and you can't swim up because something is pushing you down, you can't feel anything, nothing matters, you feel like there is no hope what so ever, you just give up. I know how this feels, feels like nobody understands. I know how it feels to be depressed, to feel suicidal. I've cut, I've cried every night trying to cry myself to sleep. I know I can take pill and stuff but that won't make the pain go away! You have to put on this different image, this mask to hide your depression, wear long sleeves to hide the cuts, live a lie. Someone asks "How are you?" I'm depressed, suicidal, in pain, hurt, sad, but you say.... "I'm fine...." When I say those words I wanna cry, I break down because I know I'm lying, I know I'm not "fine"! I just lie so nobody sees how hurt I am! Everyday I stay in my room. I can't get up, I feel safe in my room because it's the only place where no one can see my pain. I know I have someone to talk to though. I can always go to my friends. They are the only ones who understand.

[@nayeliingles9216]

AMEN hai army!!!

[@renatogaspar4074]

I cant do this anymore Sorry!

[@adieslayneruizdevilla5162]

If you need anyone I’m here.. NEVER GIVE UP.. I have depression.. I tried to cut myself, thank god it didn’t show and no blood came out.. I used to cry myself to sleep, Because I thought that when my mom and dad died and family members, I’d be all alone.. and that’s my biggest fear.. I would do anything to no be alone.. when I was like 5 my dad had a virus.. something around his heart.. my parents told me to go away so I don’t have to listen to what I doctor says.. I hav older brother.. so he could listen.. they told him.. he was gonna die.. we went home and weeks later.. my mom had to go to the hospital come back at night o cook dinner and in the morning to drive us to school to school and make breakfast.. when I got to school I blacked out.. I covered my face and cried my grades were also dropping cause of how I didn’t listen I just cried..it’s been 6 years I’m now in 6th grade .. that was when I was in 3rd.. I git bullied and I still do..But that story is for another time.. my life it’s worse everyday.. the stress to be, Good at school, nice, Behave well, etc.. it’s been a lot.. but I have my family and friends and that’s all I need..I still can’t get over my parents ALMOST death

[@somaahamadamin2432]

It really does suck and I really relate to you and the video. BTS and ARMY are with us though, we have to remember that.❤️❤️💖

[@PriyaGupta-mo6po]

I agree with you... It's all about depression.. this time I'm just feels like this...

[@bakuhoe171]

U are much like me.... Depressed and sad always... U want to siucide but u can't cuz of family...u don't want to hurt them but u have to that sucks

[@jooniebear7818]

same :(

[@lyna9863]

how r u now ??

[@suicidal6912]

damn, “family” I yet don’t have one so the word family hits me deep. :/

[@rosalin7747]

How do you know? O.o

[@mistyy6324]

mind=I wanna die ❣ heart=Mom will cry: (

[@mattmorey3808]

the only reason alot of us is still holding on to the small bit of our life forces..

[@denki_kaminari_the_human_c8488]

My mom who literally stars laughing when i cry or get hurt. :/

[@illxscas5387]

I can't hear someone like this. I just can't Can i hug you?

[@itzjayxlaciboo956]

I cried during this video because of how much it related to my life

[@thatkidwithsmellysocks8388]

Please🥀

[@halimaatmanimlihi660]

Please hug me..

[@angelaabby7355]

Please can somebody help me, nobody do it, and I ask it so much, but now i have very bad thoughts on me and my life. i Just want find the last reason for live. Sorry for my english

[@halimaatmanimlihi660]

@@angelaabby7355 im sending a big hug from morocco my dear.. may love, understanding and happiness come to your life sweety..🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

[@aishaghalia1259]

I'm sorry that the world makes you feel this way , I'm sorry that our society is such a terrible place but I'm not sorry for knowing such a girl like you so don't be sorry for your existence ! You are important .. if there's no one care about you say :' I care about me and I don't give a fuck about anyone ' , choose your thoughts and your feelings , don't say that I feel this way and I can't do nothing about it , no ! You can choose how you feel and you can choose if you'll get through this depression or not ! Set a goal in ur life , search for things that matter to you and take care of yourself like instead of starving to get your dream body choose a healthy life style instead ! I'd U're able to choose to stay at home , You are able to choose to get out of the house and do something you love that makes you happy ! Sing ( despite ur bad voice ) , it helps to release feelings , draw ( You can draw Mandalas if you can't really draw ) and Shaw them to ur friends ! You can do happy videos that motivate you and motivate people .. just to something that might help !I know that The world is so fk ugly and disgusting and we can't do nothing about it But it's your choice if you can be a part of it and give up on it cause killing your self will make it much uglier Or you choose to get over ur depression and be a happy person who loves beauty to add some love to this world .. ♥️ please Be stronG ! I was just like you , I admit suicide too many times and I think that the reason that I survived that deep inside I didn't want to or maybe I didn't choose the right pills .. the way I got over my depression for me was that I watched other's misery .. I watched the wars that going on in Palestine and Syria and others and by watching how ugly the world is , my depression started to calm down cause it was nothing infront of other's misery .. then by watching that I setup my life dream which is being a journalist and go to those countries to film and tell people's stories and fight for the right so maybe I can change the world even a little bit .. and here I am now focusing on my studies -despite that I failed on my exams this year and I have to repeat the whole year , I still didn't give up ! And I won't give up ! I know that depression is so big ,I'm not saying that it is easy cause I've been there for years and the moment I tried to get through it , I did it ! The moment I decided it with my heart and my soul and started to do things that helps , I get through it ! So please try ! The world is so ugly sadly so don't be a part of it , fight to be beautiful

[@lies7586]

danm thats a lot of text =.= but its almost poetic kinda the good inention makes me see something god and very inspireng behind this wall of text also... yes... i did read all the text.. Edit: i admire You Can write about this and post it -.- i tried once but delited it cuz it sounded weired

[@aishaghalia1259]

Mejse 1234 no if you think that ur words are inspiring You should go for it and post whatever u want ! ❤️

[@katsuko875]

Salma louhichi I respect the people who do this

[@aishaghalia1259]

@@katsuko875 I really appreciate that ❤️ You make me have more power to resist .. thank You !

[@mist-wisp_secrets4ever-660]

You seriously going to lecture the sad and within pain girl?!?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU, SHE NEED ENCURAGMENT AND SUPPORT, SHE DOESNT NEED YOU TO LECTURE HER!!!! But it is in the past and no one can change the past.

[@lmaohi775]

When you're only 11 years old and u already have depression,anxiety Losing a family member is so heartbreaking A person that u always see and be with and then She/he fades life is short💕

[@Zavalita3]

Lol life been tuff with me but I started to have depression at 12 and latently I’ve been experiencing anxiety not much but. Yeah stay strong baby girl, or baby boy who know what u are but , try the best you can , life’s short and we make it seem long , but try trying something new ❤️ your to young ❤️

[@hobiboba4034]

R u army?

[@hobiboba4034]

I can feel ur pain🥺

[@aki-lm7ii]

Dont worry....I started cutting when i was 10 its gonna be better dont wprry stay safe love everyone :)

[@hobiboba4034]

@@aki-lm7ii u r not alone🙂

[@Ka_lovely]

Bff: Are you okay? Me: I'm "FINE"... Bff: Okay! 😁*Turns around* Me: It hurts really...

[@jaydrianpaiyne3873]

TomTord sinner 478 yep....me everyday....💕

[@kristians8191]

He or She not your BFF if he or she can't see your pain..

[@polarbear7918]

My best friend well I thought best friend, I have been staying way from her because I told that I was in so much pain and how broken I feel and she didn't even care. Then she sends me message making me feel like shit and saying I don't care about our friendship. When I was just saying that I'm so tired and broken that I can't deal with anymore of anything and she just says I don't care about her. I don't understand how people can be so blind to others pain. I cry everything in the bathroom and no notices. When I'm asked if I'm okay, I say I'm fine or I'm tired or I'm okay and they believe it because they don't really care. No does.

[@kristians8191]

@@polarbear7918 Ey bro, u know? Probably, i am just random guy from internet, who can't even write words correct.... But I know, how u feel, i really know.. This ''NOTHING'' inside of us , make us feel such a big pain.. And when i said my best friend(girl) how i feel, she just look at me and said - OK - ... Later she ignored me, because i said about my pain inside me... She didn't even ask why, how, when, she just answered with OK ... And few weeks later, i understand, that u are the only person, who will live with u all your life.. You are the only person, who can understand yourself... Sometimes we need more time, but still someday, we all understand, that every single person in our life is like school class..(New friend=New class) And because of that, we just need love ourselves, don't think about peoples, who see u like creep, ugly kid, weirdo, u are yourself, and u just need love yourself, then u will understand, how beatifull is life, how beatifull you are .. Life is so fucking beatifull... Just love what u do, love what u think, love everything! (Not like hippies, but i hope u understand my message) P.S. I am sorry about my bad english..

[@roywatson7987]

I always say that I'm "ok"

[@shanepolicarpio6444]

I'm ok = I'm not ok! it's nothing = I need you I'm fine = I can't handle it anymore I'm strong = I want to cry I'm so happy = I'm so sad Am i a good liar?🙂 how much longer do i need to lie? do i need to lie for the rest of my life? i can give you some advices but i can't apply it on my self!😥 IM SORRY🥺

[@zipper546]

Hey, I don't know if your still there but how are you? If you dont want to talk about it, just know, I saw your comment, and I wanted you to know I saw you. I know you are here. Sure I'm some stranger, but I know you exist, and I know your not doing well. Keep going. Keep fighting, Shane.

[@vanessaswanson753]

The fact that I’m back to these poems and audios again for the millionth time after I fix what was wrong and it re-breaks again and again it’s to the point I watch and listen to things that should make me feel and I go into a dormant space of nothingness for minutes to hours and it ends with days.

[@brirosario4860]

It's sad how much alot of people relate... Including me

[@chaethesmollbean5573]

I am hugging my phone while listening this... as if trying to comfort the girl , i give free hugs to everyone who's depress 🙌😊💖🙇

[@kunaldahiya4326]

On my way 🤣😇😅

[@cameronturner9847]

My boyfriend found this song and played this song to me, thinking it described me better than any song. Low and behold, I cried into his arms as my heart felt like it was breaking... thank you so much for this song...

[@therev2989]

Me:"I am depression" KZbin:"Oh why dont you watch this?" Me:.....

[@fre737]

Espresso don't cure depresso Sorry I just wanted too say this :

[@aryanaa8943]

The Rev facts

[@jqdxn]

People is what keeps me from everything. Suicide, Cutting , And Crying . (Because my parents and brother would hear me) These type of videos are beautiful and emotional. Respect These Types Of Things , Guys

[@maribelmelissavargas3407]

SneakyMeow Plays your lucky someone can hear you

[@markferguson4395]

You are brave You are beautiful You are amazing You are special You are not alone You are loved Thank you so much for your voice that speaks what I and many can't

[@sanni6560]

I started to cry while listening to this, there was so many things I could agree on♡ Many person knows me as a person who always laugh and smile but in reality I am just hiding my pain, the past couple months have teached me that you can't be always okay or smile and laugh, there must be days when you don't always smile. I had to learn that I cannot always be that one who makes the mood. These days I have been thinking about killing my self but something inside me still said to run after my dreams and even try. But at the same time I am just thinking that why should I even live when in the end i'll die like why should I even go education and everything. I started drinking because of my thought it helps, but at the same time it doesn't. And im 14. I'm sorry if I made any mistakes here, my first language is not english:)

[@isaiahjoiner1625]

This is me too.

[@DestinyzDiddlex]

Person: *Are you okay?* What I say: *Yeah, I'm fine, why?* What I want to say: *No, I feel so numb inside and its like I can't control it. I don't even want to live anymore but I'm scared to die.* It's so strange that we can lie to people so easily, yet grow tired of it so quickly.

[@연지-z5p]

So me...... And everytime i tell the truth. They blame me. And gave advice when they even didn't know the situation and i dont ask for their advice. It's better to keep my mouth close. And hold it tight.

[@whoami1588]

@@연지-z5p i can feel you..

[@BaxyWaxyWooWoo]

I just got in a fight with my friend she thinks ima a jerk but she dose not know how I'm dealing with it on the inside

[@nusayebanuzhat2380]

@@연지-z5p they speak way more than Iistening and understanding

[@연지-z5p]

@@nusayebanuzhat2380 yes haha

[@waeaaakurachimollaaaa8836]

See my problem is I'm afraid to tell my mom and dad and friends what I really feel like. see like... head wants me to say I'm fine... But what me and my heart wants to say, I feel broken inside... anyone else have that problem too...?💔

[@katiab.k9134]

Too

[@vidasoldo6235]

I have the sam problem😭💔😢

[@minasbunker578]

I kept mine in for so long until my mother found me cutting myself then it all broke down

[@alyshiacharles8991]

I just don't like to talk about my problems bc I know nobody can help or they would understand or they will just laugh at me.I have that problem EVERYDAY. 😭

[@hai3130]

Definitely. I am absolutely petrified of the thought of my family and friends knowing. I caved in and told one friend because I'm weak. She was supportive, but we both know those words were lies. It made me feel even more worse because she is dealing with things as well. I dumped my problems on her and the guilt eats me alive everyday. When I reached out to her, and even while confessing my actual personality, I felt so guilty. Tell her that the happy and loving person she knew was nothing but a mask to hide the ugly face of a sad and angry brat. That the jokes I said took on a whole different meaning and put a spotlight on all of my insecurities. The "I feel amazing!" was a lie. I could hear the disappointment in her voice. We didn't speak about it. I haven't talked to her in a while. I've vowed to never let anyone else know. The person that I pretend to be helps the people around me. If my life is to serve others until I die, I will fulfill it to my last breath. Even if I sacrifice my entire being in the process.

[@Solheim-ml3lb]

I'm sorry because I'm not the perfect child Not good enough.. It's so HURT!!

[@sammie875]

I couldn't listen to you because I couldn't focus on what you say But the pain in your voice made me cry

[@rupkathamazumder6962]

It's not break up. It's not betrayal. It's not stress. It's not one sided love. It's not bad grades. It's not hatred either. But it's something.....I can't explain. It's something that hurts like hell. It's something I cannot keep inside me anymore. It's something that makes me scream. It's killing me.....help me.

[@adritasgallery4569]

Depression sucks but even if you're going through a hard time right now,always remember that we and a lot of people are always with you and are supporting you just please don't do anything wrong there is always a sweet end to EVERYTHING god will do something that will make you feel better yes,I don't know that much about depression,anxiety because I have never had it but I'm sure a miracle will happen one day .we are always with you Ella don't worry

[@asmrpreviews7973]

Friend: r u okay Me: yes ! Also me: crying in my room and cutting my legs and arms

[@marie959]

I... I'm speechless....would you take my advice?

[@asmrpreviews7973]

Marie i don’t need advice , my life is fucked up still ty . Do you need advice ? 🖤

[@marie959]

Bud, you don't have to do it......d-dont judge me I've been in the same condition.......please...I beg you..stop it...please stop You'll find the one who will treat you like you deserve....please don't..hurt yourself..... it's not worth it....it will only get worse....I am not judging you...who knows in which condition you are in, I just don't want you to be sad...please..please try to find happiness in everything...and do me a favour...throw away all your cutters/blades...please? I know I'm a stranger and I don't deserve anything...but I don't want you to get hurt.. please..leave it....I seriously beg you It's...toxic..leave it or you're gonna end up having suicidal thoughts...please.. Try believing someone, someone special with whom you can open up your heart to..if I was there with you I would've just simply hugged you but...guess I'm only a stranger who's just scrolling down the comments and trying to help somebody... please leave it..

[@asmrpreviews7973]

Marie you really made me cry , i just need to find hope and sence in why i live .

[@marie959]

@@asmrpreviews7973 ah nah c'mon, I'm just trying to help It's alright if you don't have anybody to share your feelings, I'm still here You can tell me anything you want, and I would looove to help you

[@theeleutheria1053]

Why are videos like this always so...peaceful...to me, like I could have a bad day and come home, listen to these and slowly drift off to sleep

[@kokichioma6716]

The pain in your voice reminds me of myself ......i have that pain in my voice in the middle of the nigth......thinking anf saying things while no one hears me....im glad your doing a little better....

[@ElizabethSanchez-vm4pe]

I need a hug, my parents told mr that I'm a useless daughter and i only give them problems:)

[@ihateu7713]

I can be ur friend share ur pain w me i am ok w that @iamnotcutekitten in wattpad just text me. Have a person to say everything to maybe doesn't work but make u feel even a little better

[@yn4737]

I want to give you a BIG HUG

[@ihateu7713]

@Kackuno 😺

[@alyshiacharles8991]

My mom says I give her a headache and stress just bc I don't like her husband. But its really not that anxiety just comes everytime of the day and its hard to go on.

[@jasminewilli7685]

My parents told me the same... And the pain never left me since then... 😖

[@simransj2108]

So heart touching ..I'm crying actually 😢

[@coenanderson6231]

i’m sorry i can’t be happy when you want me to be.

[@카다아야-r8x]

Coen Anderson im sorry that i never be happy 😭😭😭😭

[@cereberal2044]

MY Life Is like This... I Wish i Had An Life... But I don't... I Know MY Mum Will Be Sad IF i die... Everything Hurts Me... My Friends... My Family... Even My Brothers And Sisters.... I'm Sorry For Everything.... I wish to be better Too...

[@kittykat4551]

Cereberal204 I hope you're doing okay hun I'm here for you stay strong 💛

[@ayomichanisapalestinesuppo8729]

Cereberal204 if you are still alive respond to me and I will help you getting out of that depression

[@cherylnorton8616]

U will get there🙏👍

[@cherylnorton8616]

That was to cerebral...

[@cherylnorton8616]

@@ayomichanisapalestinesuppo8729 that's a real shitty way to speak to someone who already hurts..... If your still alive???? Wtf is wrong with you???

[@yangjw6920]

im already crying even though she hasn’t spoken yet.

[@mollywhelan4125]

I just want people to see through the walls, I want them to hear the things I tell my self, that one day they’ll leave me... like, eventually, most my friends do. I am sad a lot of the time. But I tell myself “I’m just tired.” when I know there’s something wrong. But I have convinced myself I can deal with it by myself... That... I cannot do... I need to learn how to reach out, without feeling scared of letting more pain in. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t feel, any type of pain at all. I just want someone to stay when I say go away... someone to tell me ‘I’m loved and heard’, and not “it’s gonna get better” or “it’s gonna be okay.” Bc it’s not... it’s not okay, I know that now. Don’t say that, don’t... give me that false sense of support. People need to learn how read others eyes and voices, not their words. Bc someone could look happy as can be, but their eyes are dull and their voice is shaking. My best friend can tell when I’m not 100% okay, he makes laugh and wish the world was like him! I have never had someone stick around this long, and it gives hope, that I can be fully happy one day. It’s hard to explain my feelings, bc the sides of my family are very different. Does anyone’s mum every say “okay now your be silly.” Or “ that’s enough crying.” Bc my mum does sometimes. And it kills me, bc I want to keep crying and crying, but she doesn’t understand! You can’t pick what you feel! That’s just bottling it up and that doesn’t help. My dad isn’t a emotion person so... yeah But... I can’t choose to be happy when I feel like I’m drowning in my tears! I can’t help it. So, I’m sorry if crying is my ‘go-to emotion’ and anger is yours mum. I’m not an angry person. I’m a small, sad mush of a human. But I hate being a human, it would be a lot easier to be a dog or bird. I wish I could do something to turn the pain off and be numb, that sounds nice... no pain. I have been hurt so much as a kid, i was born an emotional wreck. So, either you piss off with your “sticks and stones can break my bones, but words will never hurt me!” Thats bullsh*t, a broken bone heals, a broken heart forever has cracks. I hope someone can relate to me xox

[@nevaehgarner1801]

The Dragon Rebellion I can

[@nevaehgarner1801]

I know how it feels to lose someone but one day you’ll see there is always sunshine at the end of the day .and know things will get better.just believe.ok and if u need someone to talk to you got me ok I know we don’t know each other but we can get through the monsters and demons u have cause when u give in to them it causes you hArm u start hurting yourself and it’s not good for your heath

[@janlovescats]

i can relate. i was starting to cut because l was really depressed & im still struggling with it.. Cutting isnt a trend.. its an addiction for me.. 😭

[@카다아야-r8x]

Dora :3 me too i trying to cut my pulse 😭😭 ididnt control my pain

[@카다아야-r8x]

Dora :3 but right now im ok now 😊☺🙂

[@BaxyWaxyWooWoo]

I just wish I could do that but I would hurt to many people

[@dhanubamaniya3544]

Same here babe.... Cuts gives us "a peace "...but all said that it is a trend... 😇

[@mysryuza]

Everything said in the video hits so close to home for me. No words could describe how accurate this is. I can’t help but cry.

[@xox_emily_xoxx9639]

I can relate and by the way you got a beautiful voice and I’m sorry too ❤️

[@iloveboomers5862]

“I’m not only hurting myself, I’m hurting you and... I hate it, I hate it so much, I’m sorry. I wish that I could be a better person..” that line hit me.

[@kourtneymcelwee6670]

I pray whomever wrote this changed their mind and decided to keep living🧡

[@chrisd8747]

That's deep ....

[@tinecchin]

I can feel you right now. I'm crying every night thinking I'm not enough and worth it 😕

[@Katiemariethomas5034]

"i'm sorry that i'm not the daughter you wanted me to be" this really hit me hard because ever since i've had depression i've been violent and been a bully to my parents... especially my mum.. i wish i could take it all back now.. (i'm crying as i type this) but i can't take it back and can't travel back in time to fix things.. i feel so usless!

[@beezander5443]

*girlfriend calls* GF: hey, you ok? Me: yeah, I'm ok, you? GF: I'm ok, thanks for asking Me: anytime Inner me: ...save me from the pain...help me...please help me...I'm so scared and I'm in so much pain...please someone help me...

[@keairawhissell990]

I feel you trust me I have to do this every time I feel like I'm dying inside because I don't 1 have the courage and 2 because I don't want her to worry about me

[@ellepenne6397]

I strongly relate to this audio

[@seemanihar5041]

I can understand..

[@iitoxicdxvil.4702]

You are wonderful just the way you are. Nothing can change that. We are always here for you, and we accept you for who you are, and we always will. Please be happy, and think of all the people that care. We all do.

[@saltzbeauty4611]

I felt this so deep within my soul. Ella please know you are not alone. I have felt this way my entire life and I’m 25. You can’t give up, you must keep going. I know that sometimes that pain is so heavy that it feels like you’re being crushed but I promise every day isn’t as dark as those times. You are beautiful and it’s not your job to fix everything. I know it feels like if you were just a little better, a little stronger that you could fix situations and people around you but you can’t. And that’s ok. You were not born to live so long and then commit suicide. You have a purpose on this earth. One day you will do amazing things. Just believe. One day you will run across a girl just like yourself as I am now and your understanding of her pain could be what she needs to keep going, to know she’s not alone.

[@sela9717]

Don't feel sorry Be you Be yourself What you are is normal No need for change Be who you are please, and it's enough because you is you. For who judge us, Don't you ever live to impale their expectation. Your living to be who you are today. If you love someone your accepting them for who they are. That's what I believe.

[@정은미-r9b]

My mom: you're too young to feel like this. What I want to say: then go to school with me, watch me cut myself, watch me cry myself to sleep everyday, watch me cry because of everything I've done wrong, watch me ask my myself why my step brother never visited us in Christmas or to New Years, watch me blame myself for when my ex BFF left me, *watch me get numb after I cry* What I say: you never know until you see it mother My mom realizing all that I wanted to say (that I accidentally said out loud): *sweetie...*

[@jaedawestenberg8495]

If my dad would know how much he hurts me would he still do it cus i know that he sometimes feels that way to

[@sushmarawat5510]

At least you can be free with your family. I can't.

[@teahyungkim9533]

they says they don't know me.. wait..do you ever wanna know me?

[@Mimi-bf9vm]

Your mom after listening : sweetie And My mom after listening : you ungrateful bitch

[@teahyungkim9533]

@@Mimi-bf9vm true sis

[@taylorlea2485]

When I said "I'm sorry I'm not the daughter u wanted me to be" that got me that hurted

[@Kokoby123]

I love you, we love you, there are so many ppl who love you.. You don't have to say that u're sorry.. we understand you.

[@difalhasan8269]

Even if its painfull, breaking you, and everything feel not okay for you, you still deserve for happiness. You're not alone dear..

[@zenubalshowali977]

I just wanna hug you! lift your head up, keep it up and breathe! without the dark we couldn't see the stars. smile! :)

[@pandalionuwu]

"do you really wanna die or do you just wanna feel ok." deep 💔

[@MCbobbster]

Thank you for showing me im not the only one who feels this way. Thank you you for being you. Thank you for helping not only me but us all. Showing emotion is healthy. I hope this helped you like it did us. I hope your ok. I hope that you are good. I thank you from my heart and being. So remember this stranger is happy and thanks you for showing him its okay to be sad. I just wanted to say. Thank you for being a person there when no one was. So thank you very much.

[@amdope2235]

Yup! It's really somehow give me peace! Now feels am not the only one feeling this!

[@sunshinegibson8176]

You speak from the heart and from a lot of others out there that feel the same.

[@liloumongenie2510]

your voice is beautiful, your words hit me too because I feel that ...

[@cereal0sauce169]

The fact that this was from the heart and not rehearsed🥺🥺🥺

[@christianybarra1116]

Stay strong. Dont be sorry for something that you can't control. Im not, i feel the same way you do. Look for the light.

[@ethereal8213]

I know exactly how you feel. I was crying and wanted to hug you the whole time.

[@gloriababy4575]

I am sorry..... Ufff!!! Those words Makes me to cry....... 😣....

[@veryberry9078]

I hope everyone who is dealing with depression find happiness 💜

[@aya_chan9783]

I always feel that im cursed with depression 😔 but i was never honest with anybody if i was ok cause even if i was sad they will not care

[@adanvaldez8139]

I know exactly how she feels. Its alot to be going through. Especially right now, in this generation. We all need help physical, emotional, and mental.

[@imeneouali7772]

Yes but how

[@TheNBKingTTV]

I know how you feel. I cut from stress, depression and everything that's wrong in my life disappears with the blade. The reason we're like this is cause we really know the reality. We know it the end it doesn't matter, we'll die anyway, so what's the point? It's part of how we're like this. We know the reality.

[@ellbllaze]

glad i've found this video, all those words, belongs to you.. this is the most painful feelings on my life, i lost all people who i loved. i dont know reasos why i have to stay alive anymore😔

[@imenemina6919]

She actually said what i feel that make me cry along and i want to find the girl and hug her cuz i'm throught everything she said

[@annabutzke3433]

Are you ok? If you want to Talk i am here for you😙 this Video is Made of so many Feelings it made me cry and it reminds me of myself😔

[@EllaDubrin]

I’m okay for now :)

[@mist-wisp_secrets4ever-660]

@@EllaDubrin .....ummmm hey Ella can I hug you pls. Your words touched my heart. I can relate to your pain. Thank you so much for this audio. Can I pls give you a hug or get a hug from you. Your words left me crying. 😢😢😢

[@swethaa8822]

I can feel u

[@seemanihar5041]

I'm not okay ..

[@ines276]

@@seemanihar5041 same....