i miss my old life

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click the like button if you can. Idk that helps too. or the notification bell thing. i still need help okay? im not Mister B*ast over here..
this video is about missing the past, forgiving people temporarily, being hyper, feeling love, divorce, Pete Davidson and Kim Kardashian and Shawn Mendes and Camilla
Cabello (seriously), it really has it all, in a big way. people are freaking out. it’s cringe. hello?

[@mytoecold]

Okay honestly..what’s your biggest nostalgia moment? Like the one that always pops up in your head? Either a meaningful one or even better, one of those memories where it feels like, “Why do I even keep thinking about this so much? It seems fully irrelevant.” I know it’s kinda corny when KZbinrs do comment prompts because it’s like “Dude are you even gonna read this? I know you’re just out here spending your money and ignoring me.” But I’m genuinely curious because I kinda love reading people’s super specific memories that have stuck with them for whatever reason. Anyway I’ve been reading through these comments and i can’t even convey how meaningful it is for me to be able to make videos again recently and see people resonating with what I’m saying. Especially stuff that I thought was too specific to even mention. I get so stressed over making KZbin videos and want it to be perfect so badly and obsess so much but when someone says it made their day better or something and it seems like they mean it I literally go “Aw” out loud at my computer and feel less alone myself. I read so much of it even when I don’t reply. It’s always been hard for me in life to feel heard or connected to people but sometimes this does it, maybe that’s unhealthy or “parasocial” or whatever but it feels nice sometimes. I feel like it’s my purpose on earth, corny but I’ve been feeling that lately again. Who knows IDK

[@deeperconcepts]

Drew, when you started posted again, it made me so incredibly happy. I remember watching an old video of yours called “heartbreak” years ago, and resonating so deeply with what you said and how you described the feelings that accompany heartbreak. You make everyone laugh and have the best sense of humor Drew!! Your videos are also helpful for my depression. Sorry this is all over the place i havent slept yet. Gn :)

[@deeperconcepts]

Oh shit i didnt think of a nostalgia moment hmm. Hold on!

[@deeperconcepts]

Sorry way too tired to even remember what I’m talking about rn but ill be back dawg

[@KateCarew]

When I was a kid, a very long time ago my sweet little Rockwellian town had a Main Street with everything on it, and there I was with a Hi-C juice box full of Ecto cooler visiting the old couple who had a teddy bear store, then I’m grabbing a burger and fries at the counter of the BEST little hamburger joint in America, followed by a pop in to the bakery where a yellow smiley face cookie was waiting for me…all the way to the library, where I got my arm stuck in the drop box because I had to return things lest I get a fine but the second the dark crystal slipped from my fingers I remembered I $500 from my grandma in the crevasse. So there I stood, clinging while a mom in a minivan comes up, inquires and I fibbed, I LIED my way through the exchange but little did I know she was headed two doors down to the police who came and greased me up, extracted me and took me home to my mom who had no idea I was even gone for SIX hours, four of which were attached to the library wall. I’m an only child…she had no clue and said “she’s just really quiet, she’s also really independent, it’s a safe town” they agreed and let it all go. How surreal, and oddly maybe the best memory from my childhood because it hits all the high notes, my sweet town, my childhood home that I can still smell…I can taste the cheese from that burger on that wax paper. I weep over this time weekly. Also, I’m 43, she/her. I’m late GenX but relate more to millennials. Actually, I relate to GenZ quite a bit. Am I immature? No. Childlike is not the same as childish. I am a nurse becoming a teacher because midlife nostalgia is super agonizing. I can’t get over garbage pail kids and bike riding through alleyways, things always look better in the rear view mirror.

[@KateCarew]

Also, thank you Drew. Even if you don’t understand how someone in their forties can relate to you you’ll find out one day that time is immensely short and how you feel right now won’t ever change.

[@mytoecold]

nobody has commented on the little secret I hid in the video yet :( im honestly done. like why do I even have a camera

[@mytoecold]

Im jk. this is a safe space for me to joke around, and humor is therapeutic for me tbh so its wild to me that everyone is jumping all over me for having fun. jk again. I hope you liked this text content.

[@kim-xn1qu]

@@mytoecold love u drew

[@martha7522]

@@mytoecold i love you drew. you’re my little tommy.

[@kellyb1420]

@@mytoecold lol 😂 THIS IS A SAFE PLACE FOR ALL OF US! lol sadly, 🤦‍♀️ lol 😂

[@jojorabbitt]

Drew you’re so artistic! you should make videos of you doing more art because I like it would be fun to art with you. K byeeee

[@doshimona]

it's nice to hear someone articulate how nostalgia can be sometimes viscerally painful. cause i often feel like people don't get what i mean when i talk about that feeling. hope you're doing well drew! :)

[@skyedots]

I relate to what he said 100%. Ive been obsessed with the past because it's how I cope I guess. For some reason the years 2010, 2011 and 2012 in my mind are so nostalgic and sweet. I wish I could go back to that time. Not only because I was just a young teenager but I just miss that time in general. But I have to keep telling myself if I spend all my time dwelling on the past then how can I enjoy the present? The present will soon become the past so I have to enjoy it. It is indeed very painful.

[@mytoecold]

I hope you are too I think your name is actually pretty cool

[@gagaluver83]

@@skyedots wow I can relate so heavily to everything you said!! the same exact thing is happening to me except the years for me are 2008,2009,2010,2011. Those were the years when I was in middle school and I have such an attachment to those memories. I just remember being such a carefree, happy preteen surrender by a close group of friends. I think one of the reasons im so stuck in that time is because when I view myself now I realize im no longer that happy carefree person I was and it hurts so bad because I just crave to be that again. I crave to be back to a time we’re I didn’t have depression, severe anxiety and the pressure of being an adult. 😞

[@doshimona]

@@mytoecold thank you! i picked it myself :)

[@MissteriousOne]

This is how I am about nostalgia. I think about the past, the good times so much. I get sad over it. Those were the best years when there was so much less stress and my mental health was amazingish. Now 😔

[@kate6849]

Not that he’ll see this probably but even the first few seconds of watching a new Drew video (and even an old Drew video) just automatically makes so many peoples day better, feels like a phone call with an old friend. Ty Drew :)

[@dorothygriggs315]

This is your grandma. Good video, Drew!

[@helloimellieful]

I've tried to put this into words for years. Thank you.

[@helloimellieful]

@@dorothygriggs315 Also Hi Grandma 🥰

[@mytoecold]

Kate I saw it. but only because you went viral and are now the top comment/newfound fellow celeb. congrats this will be soo hard and confusing for a bit but I know you'll pull through

[@deefhead8440]

@@dorothygriggs315 nu-uh

[@maidelie]

I'm 62 and just discovered you. I went and watched many of your videos, from the first to the most recent. I love them. Extreme nostalgia washes over me when I put my feet up on a wall. I recall the time I was hyperaware of my feet on the wall of the bedroom my sister and I shared. I was lying in my twin bed after school when I was in second or third grade-how much I loved how it physically felt, my feet on the wall, my back on the bed-and at the same time I realized my parents were aliens, then realized they were not, then knew that they would someday die. I cried a couple of silent tears. I had been reading a book in which some entity was in a tree. This entity had been wandering around the town. It might have been Harold, but I think it was a more advanced book than the purple crayon.

[@hospitalgal101]

I don’t even know how to say this. Listening to Drew talk actually feels like someone is speaking my mind. His thoughts make so much sense to me. I wish I had someone like him to text at 4 am

[@theoutsiderjess1869]

Drew' video feels like how my minds operate at 3am 😭😂

[@skyedots]

I relate to everything he says. Just two days ago I had a breakdown because of basically what he said about nostalgia. I cried to myself over the fact that the past is gone and you can't do anything about it. Time goes by and it will never be the same again. I legit had a breakdown over this. I even relate to what he said about being nostalgic for last year. Its nuts but I somehow miss it? I miss not having to do anything because we all had to be inside. Even the weirdest things he says Im like Yes. Yes thats true LMAO

[@hospitalgal101]

@@skyedots yesss. I need a group text for People Who Think Like Drew

[@hospitalgal101]

@@theoutsiderjess1869 right??? He’s reading my literal brain waves

[@kate6849]

@@hospitalgal101 YES omg there should be an insta group chat 💀😂

[@NaomiVictorias]

This is the most relatable video ive ever watched IN MY LIFE

[@NaomiVictorias]

Also - you are nostalgia for me, you remind me of the 'old youtube', like the good old days... that's why I always come back to watch you 👼

[@Faerienice]

Fr

[@mytoecold]

so I'm guessing you've never seen David after dentist then.

[@Maggiemae33]

The most relatable comment I have ever read.

[@chatnoir9038]

Same. I love these videos, they are very special to me and unlike any other videos I watch on this godforsaken website. With these vids, I'm like a little raccoon who finds an apple or smth and grabs it with its freaky little raccoon hands, dips it in some water and scurries away into its little trashcan home to enjoy it.

[@hurley460]

I think you're the only youtuber I can watch that just talks. It's usually boring for most people but you actually say real things. You don't just talk about your highlights, but your struggles too. And not in a cringy attention seeking way. I feel like you're just living life questioning everything. And I love it. I'm here for it.

[@ZeldaFeb]

It makes me feel more normal when he talks about his strangely specific but very relatable struggles

[@ellyse1574]

You summed him up perfectly!

[@fofo-4555]

This video actually smart. When he said that we missed our past because it feels like movie and not a real life situation my mind was literally blown. You are way smarter then you think drew! Your videos always make me feel better

[@ellyse1574]

I feel like you’re verbalising what it’s like to be an overthinker and I love it, you bring a whole new entertainment level to KZbin in such a relatable, timeless way.

[@supakawaii69]

absolutely agree

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

I feel like everyone has these thoughts tbh

[@loyael]

He goes so much in depth and everything is accurate while making it funny

[@ABornot2B]

Thing is Drew knows but doesn't realize that the content he's putting out is beyond relatable and comforting which is how his anxiety is manifesting. I want nothing more than an endless supply of these videos (and I'm sure I'm not the only one) but I do NOT want you to feel stressed or pressured to constantly make them

[@marisa4299]

This. Amen 🙏🏼

[@intellectualAquarius]

It’s so comforting knowing someone else feels the same way I do about nostalgia. I think about being 14-15 daily because it was an easier, more fun time and I have so many fond memories of those years. I’m fully aware that not all of it was great, but I frequently think about how I wish I didn’t have the responsibilities I have now and that my friends didn’t move hours away where I can’t see them every weekend. Even though thinking about the good, fun times I had years ago makes me sad because they’re gone, it still gives me a brief moment of warmth and comfort.

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

Whenever I think abt that I try to think abt how excited I was to be an adult and try and romantise adult life again ig

[@farttooter]

me but with ages 3-12 which is a large range but i stg those first years of consciousness were my peak

[@hyp3rview]

it’s so funny that this video is about nostalgia because ever since i found drew in like 2009 when i was like 7, i’ve watched him nearly every week (especially during the height of the pandemic when i felt like i needed a friend) and seeing drew is always very nostalgic to me, while still feeling ever present and always relevant to me and where i am in my life by being able to grow up with him. he is such a light in so many people’s lives. i love you very much drew!

[@mytoecold]

omg that's the most wild thing I've ever heard

[@ChristinaMoralesMindfuqed]

Daaaaaaaamn i was 14 and just started high school and found anime 🥲😭

[@noahfence6838]

@@ChristinaMoralesMindfuqed me too, now I’m 23 🥲

[@charliecrane287]

me too!!

[@MyNothing001]

@@mytoecold SHE'S RIGHT. THANK YOU MR TWIGHLIGHT

[@tiafp]

Ever since hitting 25, my nostalgia has been unbearable. And it's exactly like you said, I'm nostalgic for LAST YEAR when i was...working the worst job ever? miserable? sitting on my couch? LIKE WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME. But you just made me feel a little bit normal. Thank you! Also, that nostalgia moment...I could actually SEE my hand-me-down Geox sneakers kicking the gravel below me as I finished out my 14 minute mile. Thank you for that memory. All american rejects 5ever bby

[@sofiaabm]

OMG SAME im so nostalgic for March 2020 because it was the last time anything happened in my life (corona). Like, sometimes I catch myself being nostalgic for when I was in class and everyone was talking about covid and about if we would have class the next week. THAT was the last exciting thing that happened in my life. my life is shitttt

[@violetlighttarot]

i'm 16 and i feel this way... like why does 15 seem so far away and glorified? it's been like this since i was like 8 tho

[@leehoon1730]

@@violetlighttarot im 16 in January and i just feel so confused like 2018 was not that long ago or the fact that i have lived so long?? but 2018 actually WAS long ago

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

@@violetlighttarot Just wait till your 20 wishing you were 18 again

[@violetlighttarot]

@@user-np8yf8fj2w ill be 20 and a half wishing i was twenty again... it's the way my brain works. it's terrible

[@BaileySuttonMusic]

As a 31 year old, I also recall being around 25 and having intense almost crippling bouts of nostalgia for my younger years. I think your mid 20s are a big time of change. As you learn to grow up, friendships start to take on new forms and it can be hard to accept. It’s not that I never have those moments of nostalgia anymore, but I think with time I have grown to really love a lot of things about the way things have changed and feel way more at peace about it now. Just wanted to share for any other confused mid 20 year olds because i know it can be scary, but it can also get a whole lot better ❤️ Thanks for the video Drew!

[@abbymay1682]

I needed to hear this today, thank you.

[@frostyskeletons8950]

I appreciate this.

[@lemonz0880]

thank you for this!. im 20 and i already HATE IT 😭 but this is giving me hope!

[@lc4life369]

I just turned 31 on Thanksgiving this year 😂 I remember feeling the same way. I remember being sooooo depressed about missing my childhood actually. Idk how old I was, It was probably in my early 20s. I still miss it at times, especially if something reminds me of my childhood or I have a dream about my past and I'll sort of miss it. But now that I'm older I don't ever get really depressed about it like I did in my 20s.. I think it has alot to do with settling in, getting used to the responsibility and life not being so new and scary like it was before. And I really enjoy being a mother and watching my child grow. Next time I'm sure it'll be me very depressed about missing my childs childhood. Or the years when I had good health (when I'm way older). I think your right about the mid 20 thing but I have a feeling it happens more than once In your life. Especially when your children grow up.

[@kafalotofeao462]

"Nostalgia is truly one of the great human weaknesses. Second only to the neck" - Dwight Schrute

[@cruisematt8585]

Drew I’m a 40 year old mom of two grown men and about to have my first granddaughter but like it or not I’m still going to watch your videos lol. My sons and I have watched you since you were like 19 and we absolutely adore you. You’ve helped me especially because I have crippling depression and you have seriously been someone I could relate to. Thank you for that and God bless

[@JapaneseOAKtree]

Honestly, inducing belly laughs isn’t the only thing that indicates that something is funny. This whole video is funny because it’s relatable and viewers are pleasantly surprised that someone out there can be spot on about articulating this specific type of nostalgia. Like you are here talking about your own experience, but people leave after this video and just start reviewing their own nostalgic feelings for the rest of the day and maybe before they fall asleep at night and that’s a gift that you’ve given us.

[@justethan2731]

Drew is genuinely the only person I can listen to rambling on for hours and I still manage to understand and process everything he’s saying

[@yeahitsevelyn]

right!! likeee i’ve been watching him for 6 years and i never once was not fully engaged watching his videos .. i luv him

[@whatshallwedonext]

This is too relatable Drew! I honestly live in the past to the point where it's actually unhealthy.. I have even gone as far as buying things that I remember from the past or if I'm unable to do that, look at pictures of them on Google. All in a desperate attempt to relive those moments again even for just a second but it never quite scratches the itch. It's almost like an addiction, needing to smell a smell that you remember or to hold something that you remember or going back to visit specific places that you remember etc. Then when you realize that those moments are gone forever and they will never happen again it is genuinely heartbreaking. This is the longest comment I've ever written but I had to lol! Just know you're not alone in feeling this way Drew! :)

[@lc4life369]

Just a suggestion. But maybe it's more of a problem with change than it is an addiction. But I could be totally wrong, I don't know anything about you. Or maybe you are looking for a certain feeling like someone with addiction looks for. Is that what you meant? I have a totally different issue where I can't let anything go from my childhood because I'm worried I will regret it and miss it. But I don't have that problem with new stuff. Every once in awhile I go through my old stuff that I still have, (like look at it, read stuff I used to write ect) it's like looking at old pictures to me. I don't know what to call it but it's usually a certain mood that I'm in that causes me to want to do it. (I keep it all in totes that are in a closet). So maybe it's not a "hard time with change" thing like I suggested actually. Idk what it is. It's probably more like looking at old pictures type of thing, exept with stuff instead of pictures.

[@Samantha_Lee]

I'm the same!! I always look up old toys I used to play with and just look at photos of them

[@mollyjackson4476]

You just made me feel so much less alone. You're not alone, what so ever. We're all just a super messy family over here and I love every single one of you so much.

[@supersmoothify]

I can relate to this comment sooo much, it hurts.

[@melaniemartinez8898]

Oh my god me too. I was tempted to buy a Tamagotchi or even the cologne I gave my high school ex-boyfriend.

[@ChoiSeung1987]

Depression disguised as nostalgia is such a great description of what I’ve been feeling for a long time now.

[@Chickon273]

i have been having that feeling when you mentioned the walgreens of “nostalgia for now” a lot lately. i’m a barista at a really cute coffee shop and was just telling my coworker “isn’t it weird to think that for the rest of my life, when people ask me about my twenties i will say ‘when i was young and in school before i had a career i used to work in this coffee shop and it was so much fun. i didn’t realize how nice my life was then’” idk that is also specific but i completely relate to what you’re saying

[@chuckyDLuffy]

god i get this, this is how i feel too when im in the middle of some random mundane task, like wow imagine someday when i tell people about this theyll be like wow you were once a normal person?? kinda nice n weird

[@connorjakobs44]

not sure if this is even a good thing for you to hear or if it'll be comforting or anything but you are exactly what my brain sounds like all of the time and it's very nice for ME to have someone who seems to operate the same way as my permanently overthinking anxious self so

[@mimi_imfat]

Drew explains my thoughts so well that i don’t know if he is a real person or just a coping mechanism my mind created

[@charris16726]

Drew has such an amazing way of conveying such big, meaningful, and very relatable feelings in a way that is actually easy to digest. Like I think I’m watching a fun silly video but every single time I end up thinking “wow this is exactly how I’ve been feeling”

[@acoolgirl.402]

i knoww right

[@lc4life369]

Yessss I feel the same way but couldn't put it into the right words to express how I feel about his content. You said it perfectly though.

[@chimichanna]

I love hearing Drew talk in such a mentally healthy way. It’s like he went through a dark tunnel and made it out the other side. ❤️

[@alliesworld9135]

I love how you don’t just tell me about your anxiety but literally SHOW me in your thought process out loud. I can really relate and it sooths me.

[@bevjohnson143]

god i feel the nostalgia/depression mix thing so hard. im also 26 & i feel like the pandemic worsened it because time feels like it paused but also didn't pause at all?? so i feel like i'm super behind on life and a lot of time was just dumped into the void?? yeah anyway good video thanks drew

[@rejkk]

Oh my god same. I'm 27 and I feel like I'm still supposed to be 25 and but also like 33 at the same time.

[@madimusic21]

this is weirdly a comment I could have easily left :o I feel the exact same wayyy and I am 26 too lol. Anyways I just wanted to share that I feel the same and your comment stuck out to me

[@thatlittlegingerb1tcH]

SAME. We should start a support group

[@carlysmarlyson]

THIS! Or like you’re just waiting for things to go back to normal but time is still passing so all of a sudden it’s like “wow it’s already almost 2022”

[@rinichi14]

Also this video described a really specific feeling I've been having for a really long time and it was the most comforting thing

[@mytoecold]

means a lot im so glad

[@--DelaneyElise--]

Counselor here! Staying in the present is a very real way to keep yourself moving forward. It's called "mindfulness" and there are actually several things you can do to help yourself stay in the present if you feel yourself getting pulled into the past OR if you're having an anxiety attack. Try "grounding" where you name 5 things you can see, 4 things you can feel, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell, and 1 thing you can taste. See if it works for you! I'm always rooting for you, Drew!

[@aaronthemeatman]

I hope Drew knows how genuinely special he is. I’ve never met someone with a similar situation energy, he’s the only person on the planet that I would listen to ramble for my own amusement and one of the only content creators I watch because I want to and not because I want to distract myself. I feel like I’m in a safe space when I watch him.

[@YOUAreTheSecretToLife]

He's literally the only person I watch who I actually slow the playback speed instead of speeding it up.. I don't wanna miss anything lol

[@potio1648]

facts

[@gayfield420]

you are really great at explaining your thoughts and feelings with analogies. i struggle with words a lot to the point where it doesn't even feel worth it to explain myself, but you just word everything so perfectly

[@peepycat]

us

[@kindleurie6845]

I didn’t know anyone else has that euphoric love feeling. Every drew video is like a healing therapy session

[@zachminter6570]

I literally could be going through the most traumatic, depressive, anxiety-ridden month of my life and would look back at it in a year and be like, hmmm take me back.

[@ChristinaMoralesMindfuqed]

Aw hell naw bruh u trippin

[@zachminter6570]

@@ChristinaMoralesMindfuqed Ik I cant help it

[@theresecallison3430]

My nostalgia moment is sometimes the way the air felt and smelled walking to class in college. The feeling of starting something for the first time and being nervous but excited. I can definitely relate to how nostalgia romanticizes the past. It’s like logically I know that time wasn’t perfect and there was so much shit going on, but there’s some innocence in the past that feels sweet. Also drew- you’re naturally funny snd entertaining, even when you’re being wistful and vulnerable with your feelings. Don’t be so hard on yourself when uploading stuff like this because your audience loves you no matter what you post :)

[@katherineloughry1021]

That is so weird- I was legitimately about to comment the exact same thing. I remember being in college, especially in 2015 during my freshman year, and there was something about the smells and the sounds when walking to class- especially in the spring- that I remember so vividly. I went to a relatively large university, so the moments I remember most are the ones where there weren’t many people at all walking to class, so it felt like I was alone, almost. My college days were both the best and worst of times, honestly, but now that I’m graduated, working, and about to get married and have my first child, this is the kind of thing I think about. What a beautiful topic. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

[@shaunacardwell]

I feel like once you turn 25 the nostalgia just goes into overdrive. Can’t imagine what I’ll feel like at 50. Oh god.

[@compassionandhumility]

I think you start leveling out a little around 40, if you work on being happy with yourself. lol

[@EmEm78]

For me, it eased off in my late 30s, when I made some drastic life changes for the better. Looking back, I think the nostalgia was so strong because I was pretty unhappy in my "present day" life at the time. Since improving my life, the overwhelming yearning for the past has completely gone away.

[@_lil_lil]

I started feeling nostalgic at 13, and it's just gotten worse. :/

[@carolinam1573]

It's fine. it's not that bad.

[@rachael02126]

I can say with honesty that Drew is the Aristotle of our generation

[@alev10101]

“that’s not even nostalgia that’s just depression” jesus drew

[@cosmicembryo]

YOU DESCRIBED EVERYTHING I’VE BEEN FEELING LATELY, LIKE IT’S INSANE HOW ACCURATELY YOU’VE EXPLAINED MY THOUGHTS

[@tortellinicat]

An issue I'm having is feeling like time is moving too fast. I turned 28 this year and while I'm looking forward to my 30s, I feel like I didn't fully experience the past few years, and it makes me a little sad. I think that's normal with aging, but the pandemic definitely made that worse.

[@cursedcookies]

I'm around the same age and feel about the same minus looking forward to my 30's lol I feel like my last chances at enjoying my 20's was/is stolen from me. I always say I'm too young to feel this old.

[@ellyse1574]

Yes so relatable! I’m also terrified of ageing yet so terrified I’m not properly enjoying my youth there are so many emotions and epiphanies too it’s like a roller coaster being in your 20s lol

[@karleyj9706]

I'm 23 and I feel like my youth was robbed from me lol. I'm living with my parents right now, I don't have anything figured out yet, and I think I'm about to end my 4 year relationship. I guess I'm trying to say I'm also sad for what my life used to be... we're all together in that feeling.

[@kimberlyc.2318]

I have never related to anyone like I relate to you Drew. And yes I have a huge problem with nostalgia. I'll be nostalgic for times in my life where I was sad and depressed and be like "I wish I could go back to that moment and be happy" ... I hope other people can relate to this.

[@aspenisthebest]

I can. My nostalgia hurts but it isn’t so bad anymore like it used to be which is a relief

[@devilishly0angelic]

im always feeling nostalgic for being a teen even though it was literally awful lol

[@bulkeh]

The bit about the celebrity-connection dream is SO spot on for me right now my jaw dropped. Every night for the past month I dream about a celebrity that I didn't even know I liked, but it's such a comforting dream I keep going back to it because everything in the world feels like it's ending and I have nothing else that gives me any hope, except this tiny dream that makes me feel good in the moment, but awful when I wake up and realize it's not real.

[@foxsden12]

drew don’t know if you’ll see this but i was thinking some thoughts realized dang. you’re genuinely a philosopher. not even joking, or being facetious on the very serious topic of the thought of life itself , but you are a philosopher. The way you articulate your views of life and meaning are astounding and might i say revolutionary. The body is mere but thy mind is a boundless stretch of open plains immeasurable myriads of horizons , the reach of a rocket far beyond Mars to galaxies unseen and yet you grasp on with perseverance and wide eyes.

[@xmelissaxx]

I can't stand how much I relate to your rant about the random euphoric energy that comes out of no where. Its the strangest thing. It happens to me out od no where. Tears will start flowing

[@JeromEnCo]

Holy shit that part about feeling nostalgic about last year is so extremely relatable, I was in a kind of a shit place last year and even though I am positive that I feel better now, I still look at that time through nostalgic-colored glasses. Didn't expect someone else to say it exactly how I felt it, ly drew x.

[@darrianhinds9922]

You described it perfectly, I feel heartbroken I can’t relive the past.

[@WoahNelli]

Drew, I’m such a nostalgic person I feel you.

[@mindknives86]

i swear to god watching and listening to drew talk is like a therapy session for me, he speaks from the heart about so many things i relate to and struggle with. this is why we love you so much drew!! happy holidays, stay safe 💗

[@corinnebrockway5101]

This video made me laugh, made me go “hmm”, and also made me feel less alone because I’ve been struggling with nostalgia lately too. Love you, Drew!

[@CassiCow]

Hits hard.. this past year has been hell. My anxiety skyrocketed. My depression hit an ATL. My big thing with nostalgia right now is I don't remember my childhood but I've been regaining memories this past year. Thanks for the laughs.

[@gagaluver83]

I’m soooo glad you talked about nostalgia and the past drew. I’m also one of those people that has such a weird relationship with the past/nostalgia. I’m constantly either thinking about the past or talking about it. I always feel like myself and everything around me were so much better in the past even tho the past I’m thinking about was a rollercoaster of emotion. It’s insane how nostalgia can change your perception of a certain year/years and make you believe everything back then was sooo freaking amazing but when you REALLY think about it shit wasnt all that great. I always struggle with looking back in my life with rose colored glasses on. I’m happy I’m not the only one because I feel like I alwayssss bore my friends when I’m constantly reminiscing.

[@111whitepony111]

Watching this channel unfold since it’s conception has been so amazing. You’re almost all that’s left from when KZbin was real and so fun. Now you’re marrying that with hyper-honesty and vulnerability. You’re amazing Drew.

[@tommy4420]

Nothing makes me more happy than when I get a notification that Drew posted

[@deeeznutz1494]

I love your profile pic 💀

[@ashleighcote]

Christmas time especially makes me super nostalgic. I just remember the feeling of Christmas time as a kid and as an adult it can feel like you’ll never have that same type of feeling.

[@soconfused3616]

I'm not that old but I can remember the year when the Christmas magic was gone and it was devastating

[@Tiffany__B]

I honestly don't think i have ever heard nostalgia being described as perfectly as you did in this video, it's like you put into words everything i have ever felt and experienced regarding nostalgia, you're incredible

[@arianaovoxo]

Drew oh my goodness you've spoken what I've actually been feeling for so long, I feel like I've been battling and fighting off dissociation for months. I feel like I've been in a months long nostalgia daydream. So much that I can't even remember if something actually happened or if it was just something that happened in my head. It's so painful, it makes it hard to find anything good about the moment I'm in now. You're definitely not alone in how you're feeling.

[@BigDummyBeach]

Drew, at literally every life stage you get more and more relatable in such an oddly specific way. V nice to know somebody else relates :')

[@Stiiizyz]

A wise young woman once said, there is no such thing as going “back” to normal. There are only new normals. Don’t live like we are back to normal. Live for your new reality to get the most out of it. Xoxo

[@11noriluv11]

Does anyone else use nostalgia to romanticize their life? It’s something I’ve noticed I do and it honestly feels great

[@karleyj9706]

how do you do this? i always just get sad or pretend i'm still there :')

[@allyson--]

I think you can use nostalgia to over-value a memory and applaud its significance in your life. And just be like "wow I was a part of that, I am the main character for having these sexy life experiences" or "wow things were so much better then - I am part of the superior generation for participating in that shared experience" Or you can use nostalgia to romanticize sadness or pain that had a purpose or was associated with a person or project you love. Like applauding your own strong devotion to someone for the infrequent highs it gave you. Or like missing a time you were so sad because you were also working so hard & earning more money then. Stuff like that

[@allyson--]

Or in 15:06 timestamp, Drew speaks about imagining how a current moment will become nostalgic to others or yourself in a few decades with anesthetics & the state of technology & lifestyle

[@karleyj9706]

@@allyson-- wow that was very well written. thank you that makes sense

[@turbokong8869]

"it's moving like it's a ghost.... im just shaking" drew you are a beacon of comforting humour to a fellow person on a billion mental health meds lol

[@merakiminx]

Drew, you beautiful human being. It's been over 10 years and I still come back to your videos because they resonate with me so much. Your unfiltered train of thoughts make me feel heard and understood. You are wonderful and should be protected at all costs. Thank you for existing. Still hoping for more music from you soon!

[@followtheowl1]

You said so many things in this video that is exactly how I've been feeling ! I'm 24 and have been following you for years. I totally feel not fitting into Millennials or Gen Z. 24 has been one of the weirdest years of my life. I've been going through the same kinda Nostalgia flashbacks and the feeling that everything was better back then. It's such a strong feeling and it does make me depressed a lot of the time. I just want to say you aren't alone Drew, Also thank you for always being your genuine self after all these years ♥️🖤♥️🖤

[@harleylogan1796]

How does drew always put my thoughts into words. His videos are always so comforting bc he can just say everything I’ve thought in my life.

[@highestalien]

The reason the past is coming up is because you’re healing!! You’re no longer repressing your memories or thoughts, so everything that has been repressed is coming back up. Analyze the thoughts, and let them go. Proud of how far you’ve come Drew. Much love to you zaddy

[@RenateRainbow]

As a 27 year old I definitely relate to the weirdness of not relating to millennials or Gen z. It really adds to the uncomfortable sense of not belonging anywhere, so that’s fun. Also I knew what you were going to say about super glue before you even said it because even that was so damn relatable.

[@Anna13Tonks]

I'm 26 but I mostly relate to millennials, aren't we millenials anyway?

[@aurorag3089]

@@Anna13Tonks 94 or 95 is the cut off for being a millennial so we are legit on the cusp. I dont really identify with either group and I was so glad to hear someone else talk about it cause I didn't know how to put the feeling into words.

[@Twitch.lovelystar_x]

27 is grown... Sadly time to grow up now :) shoulda grown up a little while ago but it's ok... Better late than never xoxo

[@sallyenglish5929]

@@Twitch.lovelystar_x you’re obviously very young

[@Twitch.lovelystar_x]

@@sallyenglish5929 you're obviously very quirky n a pick me girl :)

[@waterhorse97]

When I was in college I didn’t have any friends, and my home life was really difficult. When I’d get done with my classes I wouldn’t want to go home (commuter lol) and I didn’t have any friends I could go to, so I’d just sit on the hood of my car in my college parking deck and watch the sunset. It’s so strange bc at the time I felt so unbearably lonely, but now I feel so deeply nostalgic for it. Like just the memory of it feels so peaceful and bittersweet

[@terratonic]

I've been thinking about this very same thing lately, how I've felt a little nostalgic about 2020 as if it wasn't one of the worst years of my life...we do tend to romanticize the past as people, and focus on the memories that made us feel good (like for me, my memories of listening to music during quarantine and it being like a companion and support). But I also feel as though my nostalgia for difficult times is borne out of gratitude. Almost like, it happened, and it sucked, but I'm glad to be here now and I wouldn't be if I hadn't gone through that thing and toughed it out.

[@theelusiverainbow]

Oh, that's an excellent point that I'd never thought of!

[@beanjuicesoup8580]

drew, you hit the nail on the head with the nostalgia segment. the all american rejects are super nostalgic for me (i stil love them to this day!) and the picture you painted with nostalgia really resonated with me. you are a genius and so creative! you're amazing and so, so loved. please never forget that. don't punish yourself for being you ❤️❤️❤️

[@Vontigon]

I feel like we remember nostalgia fondly because it’s familiar, but also because we’ve done it. We’re not there in the moment making every decision that’ll affect what that memory in the future, we’re just experiencing the aftermath that we’ve already successfully completed. Regardless of how bad that memory is, nostalgia makes it impossible to lose or fail or say the wrong thing or whatever because we’ve already done it, we know the outcome. Thanks so much Drew for voicing the things I always think of subconsciously but never spend the time considering further. It’s fascinating how much you encompass the cusper thought process (25 year old here), and it’s shocking how similar we all are in this weird grey area

[@rocioosunabeltran9227]

Wow. Your comment truly spoke to me. It was very well put and... I don't know, it all made sense as I read it. It gave me a weird sense of comfort. Thanks

[@starlitcentaur]

honestly felt the "forgiving people temporarily" thing. there's a person who's out of my life and i KNOW who hurt me. even if it wasn't of malicious intent, they did. and i find myself, depending on my day and how i'm feeling, forgiving them-or feeling an intense rage. when i forgive, i feel nostalgic of good times and long for closure. but when it's the opposite, all i can do is scrape and claw for answers. why couldn't it have been different? tends to feed the fire of my self hatred in a way, using it as a "you must've deserved it" excuse despite knowing, logically, i didn't. i don't know. i hate having a heart that sees everyone as people. as much of a blessing that it is, it helps me empathize so much easier, (maybe even too much,) i hate how it's hard for me to completely antagonize the ones that wrong me. again, it does tie into that little voice in my head that hates my guts, but moreso it's just irritating. goddamn it why do i care so much about everyone and why do i wish them all a good life?? not sure what i'm really trying to explain here. i call myself pessimistic, but maybe i'm more optimistic outwardly than i realize.

[@stlowcl]

I feel that so much. It's like that for me with every person who hurt me Some days I am actually able to forgive them wish them well and think like wow now the bad feeling is finally gone and then one week later I get reminded of it and feel RAGE And then I notice I'm STILL not over it and it sucks Like what do I need to tell myself to finally free myself from that

[@LyaJen]

Wow I didn’t know anyone else felt this way. As a people pleaser with abandonment issues and anxiety, this is now what I realize to be a recurring thing in my life. Narcissists and people pleasers often gravitate towards each other…. Unfortunately. Do not hate your heart, we need more love, compassion and empathy in this world. It is not your fault that other people take advantage of you

[@starlitcentaur]

@@stlowcl exactly!! it's like.. i'm over it. i know i'm better off now, and it's clear to me why it has to be this way-but there's still such a feeling of.. longing? wishing for closure? it's infuriating

[@starlitcentaur]

@@LyaJen totally understand as i have abandonment issues n anxiety as well.. i really do love how i am and the compassion i feel, it's just frustrating at times. wish more people were like this 💜

[@stlowcl]

@@starlitcentaur yes!!! I really hope thah we can overcome this maybe it takes more time

[@abx7092]

Drew and it being the holiday season will fill anyone’s heart. Drecember.

[@aleesiauh]

that's honestly so perfect

[@yeaokaysure]

Drew, you are the first person to ever describe my top tier panic attack symptoms. Heart pounding, I’m GOING to die. I’m very happy that I haven’t had one of those in a couple weeks. But my god, it’s so nice to hear someone explain them accurately. Can’t stop moving? Same. I have gotten on the treadmill before while panicking because I could. Not. Stop. Moving. Love you much. Thank you for sharing with us.

[@stephanierosario19]

Watching Drew always gives me feel a sense of comfort 😌...my brain is him ...he is me...I am him...only difference is he doesn't hide it and I freaking love it...Drew confirms that I'm not the only one...I love you Drew thank you for being who you really are

[@nikoleannkelly]

I started using a thyme-smelling face wash, the acne-free Mario Badescu wash to be exact; and realized that my preschool smelled similar, they probably used an essential oils cleaning solution or something. When I smelt it I immediately felt comforted and loved like a little kid again. It was so cool. I use the face wash all the time now lol.

[@user-yy9xu6pu2d]

This is so sweet

[@Symora]

I am nostalgic for the time in my life where I was relatively young and watched Cartoon Network all day while it was still good before I would start meeting more people and realising how mean they can be. It’s people like you that make me hopeful I will find kindness one day. Love you

[@emmab3342]

Whenever Drew posts a video it feels like this little moment of understanding, where like... I'm floating aimlessly through outer space into the vast and expanding darkness of own my own depression when suddenly I see someone else in an astronaut suit float by and we lock eyes and high five briefly before continuing to float out separate ways. Also I am a fellow millennial / Gen z ‘cusper’ and I relate a lot.

[@juanis8219]

dude this comment. you should write. also i can’t wait till you start feeling better, and drew too, cause you will :)

[@Lochnes420]

*You coming back has made my 2021! Seeing you is like seeing an old bestie! 💚❤️💚❤️*

[@huntercrunch94]

This is so relatable. Like I think I’ve been so obsessed with the past and how much I miss it because I’ve felt lost the past few years, working crappy jobs to get by because I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I miss when things were simple and nothing was expected of me. Being a kid was so easy, and now every day is so stressful, and I’m overcome with thoughts about how I’m 27 now, still don’t have a career, I’m still single and haven’t given my parents any grandchildren. It sucks not having your shit together but it’s nice to know I’m not alone at least.

[@amy8780407]

I related so much to drew almost a decade ago and here I am still relating to drew from every aspect. Drew radiates such genuine and honest thoughts and I will never not be thankful for his ability to be so open and aware of life’s difficulties. At least once every week I binge watch all of Drew’s videos because no matter how hectic and crazy they may seem to some they are so calming to me. We love you Drew!!!!

[@hallemccartney12]

I honestly can’t even put into words how comforted this made me feel because you put into words how I’ve been feeling I think all of 2021 and I do look back on 2020 and am like wow I miss

[@66whit66]

I feel like nostalgia has gotten even worse during and "post" pandemic. It still seems like life will never feel the same.

[@saraj7197]

The nostalgia part was so relatable. I find myself longing for the past, even though in those moments I was pretty miserable. Younger me would’ve loved who I am today, but I still can’t seem to shake the desire for the past. I attribute some of it to losing the freedom and lack of responsibility that comes with childhood. Now life is so heavy with work, and chores, financial, and family and other adult responsibilities. I long to be stress free

[@SophieMaria13]

I’ve never been able to put these thoughts and feeling into words, but this is exactly it, Drew. Thank you.

[@sofiasolimeo318]

omg I was thinking about how nostalgic I've been in the last few years TODAY and then I watch your video and you articulate the feeling perfectly, I was honestly starstruck. Had a great laugh at the kidnapped by wolves part and the part about being nostalgic for last year feels so relatable, I find myself constantly doing it. Thank you for this video it really made me feel less alone

[@Thawah]

"Your memories can't have feelings in them" That just hit me so hard. I mentally paused from watching the video and for a few seconds didn't register anything else you said, because my brain was like... whoa. Explains so well why we see the past through rose tinted glasses.

[@snowyohwy]

I can’t believe how much I was able to relate to this video. I obsess over the nostalgia I feel and am always thinking about the past, when things were better. Hell, I even have playlists on Spotify of music I’d listen to during those times. I always thought nobody would understand me if I tried to put that into words lol??? Anyways, I’m glad you’re uploading

[@Paper_Flowers]

I’m 25 and your “Nostalgia Test” honestly got me. 7th grade listening to Move Along by All American Rejects specifically while walking the track in December- I had an MP3 Clip though if anyone remembers those lol Edit: I’m almost done with the video now and I just want to say I feel a lot of what you said soooo much. It’s like…I don’t even know if I’m actually missing what I think I’m missing- Am I missing the actual thing/person or am I missing the feeling that came with the first time I experienced it if that makes sense? Or is it both? Or neither??? And the sun seems dimmer, laughter isn’t as strong, everything seems….so sad. Everything is. And it all makes me sad now. And it honestly just makes me question existence so much- everything does and always has tbh but idk it’s like passion from everything is gone. I don’t just mean people either. You aren’t alone ❤️

[@gagaluver83]

Gosh you literally hit the nail on the head for me with that last paragraph.I always think back to when I was a preteen/teen and I just remember everything being so much better. I remember genuinely laughing and having fun while now I swear I have to force myself to actually laugh and enjoy things. Specially now around the holidays I remember back then loving Christmas soooooo much and truly being so happy during the entire month and now December just feels like any other month to me. I just to love decorating for Christmas and now it feels like such a hassle to do. Not only that just like you said I swear Christmas as a whole just feels so weird now a days.

[@vgacoralreef]

i’ve been going through a very dark time in my life. all of your videos and your words resonate so much with me. you help me feel like i’m not alone. i feel so isolated and your charisma, intelligence, and unique take on the nuances of the human experience help me feel like i’m valid and alive, and closer to humans overall since everyone is commenting how they relate to this. sorry it’s really late and i had a panic attack all day and this comment lowkey sounds creepy

[@sleepdrifterr]

i’m 18 almost 19 and i found drew back when i was like 9/10 ish. drew you are the one youtuber i will always love and support. thanks for existing and making me laugh. ur so relatable even when u ramble and it’s nice to share the same random thoughts with someone else. :)

[@lipglosskitten26]

I call this feeling homesick, but I'm home. I have had this feeling my whole life... I can remember everything and the nostalgia is deep. I can tell you what I did this day 10, 5, 2 etc years ago, my dream, the smells, the weather and what songs on the radio were popular, I remember what I ate and wore... clothes, lipstick etc. But with that comes a deep and sometimes debilitating sadness. I long for what was, can relive my memories and moments. I can't explain it good enough, it's so real and comes with so much!!

[@11lingvvl]

Drews humour is top tier no one can convince me otherwise 💀

[@josselyngranados5196]

So I'm a 20 year old recovering addict in their first year of being clean and this is EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL RN, I'm stuck in a nostalgia loop about when I was still using lots of drugs, I keep feeling that was the good times and it was literally the worst time of my life lol

[@itsbritwit]

I always have nostalgia for awful times in my life also. So strange. Proud of you tho friend

[@celinahelene8106]

Drew is so smart.he knows lots of big words.and he can use them correctly in a comedic way yet still an intelligent and kooky way if that makes sense

[@matthewknight3063]

One of the mantras I repeat to myself is “stay happy there”, and although some times are harder than others, it does help me stay in the present more. Even if I’m not happy, I have to reassure myself that what is happening now is better in a lot of ways than what happened before.

[@FrenchFriesStephanny]

Thank you for sharing this.

[@elliejones6599]

And THIS is why you are my favorite creator on KZbin. It’s not about consistency, or clickbait-it’s about being you. Whatever that means right now. I appreciate you more than you’ll ever know, Drew. You inspire me all the time. Keep up the good work, you’ve got this.

[@helenaoliveira4174]

it always wonders me how good you are describing feelings I have had that I would never know how to describe. Great vid

[@Amyislikecool]

I have never had someone go into my mind and take my thoughts and feelings and actually articulate them and be able to hear them back. I'm overwhelmed genuinely. Definitely not only hm'd but lol'd several times and never knew I needed you consistently to be able to actually have a breath of fresh air.

[@abbadab2101]

I’m 21, almost 22, and really struggling to figure it out. It’s such an odd age. I feel so aimless, I know that it’s normal to feel that way at this age, but it just sucks, I’m like an adult but not, and I just don’t know what I’m doing when I feel like I should have everything figured out. I feel really alone a lot of time time but since you’re a bit older than me your words feel comforting - especially when you speak about being present. Thanks for making videos. :^)

[@sadrock3209]

Drew, I’m not even kidding sometimes I watch a single videos of yours 10 times or more… bc you just feel like a good comfort friend through the screen when I don’t want to talk to anyone else.

[@zombabie5444]

Ive been feeling so nostalgic over my cringe phase in middle school lately. 😭I still love all the things that I was into, 6 years ago, but it really isn’t the same at all. I miss being a tween and going to school and being able to smell the cold morning walks and listen to my surroundings. I miss the feelings I used to get when I would get really excited over the things I onced loved so much and how much I was apart of it. Seeing and remembering it now only makes me want to go back so bad because of how much I miss those strong feelings and comparing that moment in my life to the present, the past seems so much easier and comfortable compared to now. If I could teleport and live in those moments just a little longer I would 💀