I Quit Medicine - Leaving Medical School & My BS/MD Program (My Story & What's Next)

[@kritikasingh8886]

Hi Lydia, thank you for sharing your story. I just want to say you're so much more than medicine. When I first came to UA, believe it or not, you were one of the first students I interacted with. Your warmth and encouragement made me feel like I could succeed and thrive at the university. People like you are rare to find, and I am not talking about your scientific caliber or passion for medicine, but rather your love for seeing others succeed and being a positive beacon of energy. I am so sorry you didn't receive the same love and encouragement you give to others, but I’m happy that you were able to recognize your worth. Hopefully, your video can bring awareness to the toxic culture at UA and the pre-med community in general.

[@lola-sz8gq]

I NEVER EVER EXPECTED THIS WATCHING YOUR WHOLE JORUNEY BUT YOU ARE SO TALENTED AND CAPABLE I KNOW WHEREVER LIFE TAKES U U WILL SOAR

[@enargovesker3507]

Thank you for sharing your story! It’s incredibly brave and inspiring to hear your perspective and I am glad you are prioritizing your wellbeing above all else. Thank you for being who you are and I wish you the best in the future!

[@molly4760]

I’m so proud of you for sharing this and making that difficult decision! So happy that you’re doing what’s right for you!! I’ve loved following your journey and your videos and zumba classes have always given me so much motivation and joy. Can’t wait to see what’s next for you girl! :)

[@Nevernight0707]

I never thought I'd see the day you leave. I'm happy you're making the right decisions for yourself, Lyd. Stay strong

[@tracyliebermann7691]

As a mother of a 20 year old who watched your acceptance video years ago- I applaud you. Regardless of the path you choose, continue to shine your light bright- you are so right dear, life is just so fragile and when you feel the peace that comes with a bold decision such as this and you have strong family support- you will thrive- there is no doubt in my mind- you are a difference maker

[@zynaazim5517]

hey lyd- i just want to say I am so proud of you for being able to speak your truth. I am so sorry that fellow premeds were not able to honor you as you deserve, and the despicable things just go to say more about them rather than you. I am honored to have followed your journey since your senior year of high school (and my junior year of high school!) I know you'll go so far in the humanities or wherever you choose- as someone who is a STEM major and a humanities minor there are always so many new fields to look at aside from the sciences! I am so grateful I stumbled upon your channel a few years ago and i'm so excited to see where this channel will go and where your journey will lead you, Lyd!! you're such a motivation to me and I'll be cheering you on from here! a little update on me: got perfect scores on my french exams, got an A- on my lit essay, and i'm somehow doing well in college! no shows yet with the equestrian team but we finished 3rd overall so far for the fall season! recruitment is coming up for my sorority so I'm super excited to meet new PNMs! As always I send SO much love and many bisous and hugs, Lyd

[@levileonidas613]

Lydia, when I first say saw your acceptance videos about a year ago I knew academically you would thrive, but I’m 20 years older than you and I worried about your innocence being torn in this world of medicine. I commend you for taking control of your life and not pushing through just to see if things would change for too long. Your an excellent student and I know you will crush any avenue you choose to pursue in life. For life is not linear and it would be nice to know why things work out the way they do after so much time, effort and energy put into something but the creator of all things is our guide and you are definitely in-tuned with your inner being. Keep listening to yourself and continue to say enough when it’s enough. From this video I’ve seen the growth and maturity in such a short time with what you allow us to see. You young people really motivate me to be better and to think more critically of myself to take risk and go after the desires of my heart. Don’t worry none of us know what we’re doing but all you can do is do your best. Keep going and thanks for sharing your story and life with us strangers. I hope you find your happiness and peace as you move forward. Sounds like your going to grad school lol 😂 curious to see what’s next. Blessings to you!

[@meghavarshinikrishnaswamy2511]

Hey Lydia. I have always felt a lot of joy and support every minute in your zumba classes. I am sorry to hear what a struggle it has been in the program. You are an accomplished and motivated person, and I have no doubt that you will shine in no matter what career path you choose. All the very best for the future. I will miss you.

[@emilyvoss5114]

Way to follow your heart Lydia! I really don’t comment on videos but just wanted to encourage you in your exploration! I always thought medicine was for me but in undergrad I didn’t take a single prerequisite course because I thought I wasn’t smart enough. I went on to open my own brick and mortar photography studio right after graduation and had a successful business for 11 years. I couldn’t shake the desire to be on medicine and just started medical school at the age of 33. That all to say there is always time to explore and chase dreams. And if you decide to come back to medical school at some point it will always be there as an option!

[@krutiprasanna489]

Having a nurturing environment that also makes you mental stable is very important alongside the educational aspect. If you feel that any environment is unhealthy..you owe it to yourself to walk out and that is the most respectful thing you can do to yourself. I genuinely appreciate the courage you have built through all these experiences. I am rooting for you!

[@realsophonline]

Wow this is unexpected but so brave of you to share!! Someone will watch this who is going through the same thing, and will find hope in you.

[@BSMDLyd]

That’s the hope 🙏 thank you so much!

[@Amy18120]

Hey Lyd, you were an inspiration to me regarding college. I am not interested in becoming a doctor but your work ethic, studying habits, and routines have helped me tremendous as a college freshman. I am sad to hear you will be taking a pause on your medical journey, you would have been a fantastic doctor, a true kind heart, intelligent, bright. Hope things go well for you in the future.

[@laurenap_]

This is so valid. I also initially went into undergrad as a pre-med, I felt ended up switching into computer science/ more engineering which was more tailored to my own interests. Life is a journey and I’m so proud of you. It’s not easy and you deserve to be happy and enjoying your life in & outside of academia:)

[@manasvinireddy5767]

You are an amazing human, you deserve everything amazing. You are so brave and congratulations for the new journey🥰, can’t wait for future updates❤

[@laritza8284]

Hey Lyd I just wanted to say that following your gut and intuition is the best thing you can do for yourself, don't put so much pressure on finding out what you want to do in life! Let it come to you through being curious:) I had no idea what I wanted to do when I was your age (didn't even care for college) and then suddenly out of nowhere at 24 I started my pre vet journey! Follow your heart and do things to please yourself❤ I can't wait to see you grow!! And since you're still in school I would love to see your study techniques, your work ethic is insane!! I love it. I'm wishing you peace happiness and clarity girl!! You got this

[@aanikaram]

I am so proud of you for making this decision. Also thank you for sharing this, I needed to here your message.

[@lea2767]

Lydia I’ve followed your journey from your acceptance reaction video and I wish you the very best. You’re so smart and give off very kind vibes, I hope everything gets better for you. It takes real strength to be able to remove yourself from a situation you’d thought was best for you for a very long time but this is the first step that will open up so many doors for you. So many opportunities and experiences await you, there’s something so empowering about knowing your future is in your hands ⭐️

[@caiag]

I got my medical license like four days ago, why is yt recommending me this. On a serious note though: take your time. I saw how passionate you looked after shadowing and that is the most important thing. Listen to your mentors, distance yourself from medicine for a while and explore your interest in humanities. It is not true that we should pursue medicine only if we cannot see ourselves doing anything else, we are complex human beings and we like many things. Medicine is just one of our passions and we may or may not choose it as a career. It will be fine. I had the same crisis during my first year, I wanted to quit everything to sudy Latin lol I ended up staying because of my classmated and now I love what I do. Because yes, making friends at med school is essential and I'm sorry to hear you did not find your people at this program.

[@danavarrone]

this video just came across my recommended page out of nowhere and im glad it did. i am so inspired by your insight and integrity. so many would choose to chase money or the perceived notion of success, and cause themselves moral injuries they will never be able to recover from in the process. to ignore your passions, emotions, and/or curiosity is to betray yourself, and im so glad you have chosen to save yourself from that pain. some of these comments are so unsympathetic or misunderstanding your points and i'm sorry to you for that. life is too short to be miserable. i am of the personal belief that there is nothing this world can offer you that is worth sacrificing your wellbeing/health (physical or mental). at the end of the day, you are living your life for YOU. you have proven you are capable time and time again, and you have now proven you are the expert on what is best for you, I hope you never doubt that. insight like this into your own life is so valuable. i am confident you will find your way, and I hope you are too. Whether it's medicine, another field of stem, humanities, art, or any other field you find, if it brings you fulfillment and contentment, you are in the right place. you will not run out of time to find the right place for you. i am wishing you all the best, thank you for sharing your story.

[@stargard8657]

Lessons learned early can be such a gift. You are a bright person and unfortunately, ppl for whatever insecure reasons get jealous of your success. It is easier to be a target if you are active on social media but, you know what, you should live your life the way that makes you happy. It just sucks that people don’t know their boundaries. But in trying to please them, you should never abandon your personal success. Changing environments can be so helpful and an underrated method to treating a malignant situation. In this case, you made a fantastic decision. Taking your time to carefully decide your career cannot be stressed enough.

[@Dailan1946]

Good on you for making the call. A lot of people don't realize that when you force yourself to adapt and adjust, and force yourself to fit into something that isn't right for you, you loose a piece of yourself that is not easy to get back (if ever). I'm a resident on my fourth and final year, and while I ultimately found a specialty that I love and a group of people at work that I for the most part like working with, the years of sacrifices and time spent in medicine did take a part of me away that I don't know if i'll ever get back, and a part of me grieves for that.

[@2134knees]

I really needed this today.

[@richardclark2414]

Oh Dear , I never comment but I'm genuinely saddened by this. Lydia I wish you true happiness as you have given us your followers. Thank you for taking us along for the ride.😔

[@BSMDLyd]

Thank you Richard !

[@yara1206]

So sorry u had to go through this . I have followed u since ur college acceptance. U have strong work ethics and a smart kid. U don’t need this program to succeed. So happy u took a stand against toxicity.. Goodluck to u ! I am sure u ll excel !!

[@shelbsey]

Lydia I've been watching you since your original college admissions decisions video. I also happen to be an Academic Advisor/Counselor at a large university similar to U of Arizona. I am sorry that you have experienced what you have so far. I work very closely with college students and I can confidently say that you are much too mature for them at this stage haha. Even though you all are technically adults, there is still so much maturing that needs to happen. You have also always seemed so confident and sure of your path. The average college student can definitely feel threatened by that. I hope that whichever path you choose brings you nothing but peace and happiness!!

[@Eggniw27]

There are so many awful comments, and it's disheartening to see you go. I love your content, but I understand this isn’t about us-it’s about you. It’s incredible how much of an impact one’s environment and peers can have, especially when most people focus solely on the academic side. Your response was eloquent and well-spoken. I’m still processing everything you shared, and I can’t imagine what you've been going through. I’m glad you prioritized your well-being and didn’t let negativity push you to a breaking point. Wishing you all the best, Lydia.❤

[@BSMDLyd]

Thank you so much, I truly appreciate your kindness here. I saw you supporting me in another thread and the original poster must have deleted it but I wanted to thank you for your kindness and depth ❤️

[@sb4247]

Congratulations for having so much perspective as such a young age, holding for a long time while you were having doubts and eventually following your instincts and trusting the future! With your rigor and motivation and positivity, I am sure you will be successful any path you choose!

[@BoiseTriathlete]

When I was in college 31 years ago, my best friend and roommate suddenly died. At the time I was pursuing a triple major, but that crushed me. Like you, I tried to push through by sheer force of will … until I couldn’t. I, too, took real actions to leave, but my family and professors intervened to reduce my course load and even designed a research class for the next semester that would allow me to focus on what I loved most. From experience, I can tell you that at the time I saw no other option until those around me acknowledged my suffering and provided an environment of healing. Many in the comments will be quick to agree and support whatever you decide. In my experience, having other viewpoints made out of kindness was invaluable. From what you have shared with us, you’ve been enthralled with medicine since you were very small - you’ve had this passion your whole life. I truly hope you have sought out help from professors you respect and admire. Perhaps they know of options you haven’t imagined. I am truly hoping you heal and take the best path forward.

[@HH-me3zh]

I am so proud of Lydia! This is truly a blessing in disguise! I am excited for your next chapter and so glad that you will be taking us along with you on this ride!

[@saikikatt]

Your ability to make such a difficult decision and share your thoughts is so commendable! I respect the hell out of your decision and I'm looking forward to seeing what you come out with next!

[@scriyon]

So so proud of you! Thank you for sharing this ❤

[@sleeper2222]

lydiaaaa I LOVE YOUR KZbin VIDEOS and i think so highly of you. your setting a fantastic example by prioritizing YOURSELF. keep making youtube videos!!!!!!

[@julienalexander6113]

I completely agree with your thoughts about the university and Tucson overall-that's why I'm finishing my final two semesters online. I'm on the traditional path and an older student, so I can relate to what you're saying about the people; I've noticed it as well. I'm moving to Washington state to focus on living life fully while staying committed to finishing these last two semesters strong with the goal of getting into medical school. You made the right choice, and I wish you all the best. Take care. 😊

[@BSMDLyd]

Thank you for your support, wishing you the best in your final two semesters and best of luck on your med school apps! You got this!

[@wethenorth6437]

You are so young and have many fulfilling years ahead of you to aspire to be everything you want to be in whatever field you choose and I'm sorry that you encountered so many toxic people. As an older female I have come to learn to trust my inner instinct which has led me away from several unhealthy situations and people and I don't regret it for one second. What I found hard to learn is that what other people think doesn't matter and now I have the mantra that if they don't align with my values, feelings and ethics then they don't deserve an ounce of my consideration or my big heart. Go out there and be bold, forge ahead and above all else remember that you are unique and you are enough and with hard work and perseverance you will realize your dreams and find the "people" who were meant to be in your life for all the right reasons. Best of luck to you young lady.

[@io9371]

Lydia, I am so sorry to hear how you were treated. While not in the same boat, I had a similar experience in giving up my guaranteed seat in a highly competitive and sought-after program. This was two years ago and I am now graduating next semester. Even now, as I thought I had figured myself out, I am still learning so much more through my mentors, and just as they have encouraged me I want to encourage you - hold onto that life-long desire to learn. Do not let anyone try to stop you. I would have never been in the seat I am in now had I not followed my instincts and gone to where I was more comfortable and happier. I guarantee that as long as you let your passion fuel you - you will end up wherever is perfect for you.

[@sciencesimplified3890]

I was very overwhelmed with toxicity during medical school. From faculty and preceptors, I honestly hated life and was extremely miserable. But its just a TRANSIENT season in your life, you'll one day blink and before you know it youre a physician. Honestly, if I were you I would not give up on medicine. I only had a high school degree when I was 26 years old, but now i'm a physician. You have PLENTY of time. It is absolutely in the realm of possibility to become a physician (certainly with your grades). It feels like yesterday when I was facing all that damn toxicity and wanting to quit, but its over now and in hindsight it all goes by so quickly and am so glad I continued through. There are many fulfilling careers outside of medicine and only you know what's right for you, but its just a shame that the toxic culture forces out so many hard working students. Note, if you do end up applying to medical school, delete this video. Medical school Admission committees are petty and will take offense

[@danavarrone]

im glad you were able to find happiness in an environment that is so degrading and overwhelming, but this is not the case for everyone, nor should it be. it was your choice to make an immense sacrifice of your time and happiness in the hopes of finding fullfillment at the end of the long, winding road, but this was your luck, and many others are not so lucky. for quite a few, the road only gets more narrow and suffocating. this was the choice you made for YOURSELF, and im happy it worked out for you, but just because it did, doesnt mean it will for everyone. by telling someone to keep pushing forward despite being pressed up against what seems to be an immovable object means you are potentially damning them to a life of regret and agony. you found the right place for you, and once again, im happy for you. but your right place is not the right place for everyone. saying things will get better for her because they got better for YOU is very self centered. she has clearly done a monumental amount of soul searching and questioning her path, and she made her choice and chose a better one for herself. unlike you, im not going to say what I think she should or shouldnt do, or what I would do if I was her, because i'm not and it doesnt matter what I would do. its her life and her choice.

[@YuanTao-n8h]

Hi Lyd, I applaud you for your courage and I wish you an awesome and fulfilling life :) I made the same decision to drop out of a BA/MD program in a top 25 school when I was 21, and I met with a mentor who made the same decision as myself a decade ago from the same school that the program director connected me with. The key is staying true to who you are: "He who loses wealth loses much; he who loses a friend loses more; but he that loses his courage loses all." - Miguel de Cervantes. I want to share with you that if you live by this courage and live a life true to yourself, it is incomparably better than the alternative. I also want to share with you that as you live, this will not be the first nor the last time you will be called upon to stand up for yourself and use this courage. You have to make a conscious decision to stay true to yourself and live by this courage every single day for the rest of your life - which is not easy, but it is much more worthwhile than the alternative of losing your courage and losing all. :)

[@Her-s9j]

I came into my program as a premed and soon realized that the program from my school never treated students as students but as numbers. Students are often pitched against each other rather than encouraged to improve together. Long story short, I am no longer premed and I am in a field that I love so much and enjoy so good for you for realizing this early!

[@michelemiller41623]

So proud of you for choosing you! It’s a hard thing for a lot of people to do. I will continue to watch your journey. You’re going far 😊

[@humzahahmad2818]

I'm sorry to hear about what you had to go through. You're an amazingly intelligent and ambitious person, and the fact that you were able to put up with these struggles for so long is truly remarkable. There's no doubt that you're going to be an amazing doctor that any medical setting would be lucky to have. Those "friends" at UofA who were just trying to use you will realize what a mistake they made seeing you as nothing more than a tool for their plans when you're leagues ahead of them one day.

[@reddbendd]

That's just how human beings are. It's not abnormal for people to try to gain things from social interactions, it's literally just basic human psychology. Do you think they came to school to make friends or something? It's almost like you're suggesting they should have been doing something else, instead of trying to reach their goals. Which just seems backwards & illogical. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rational_choice_model#Rational_choice_theory_in_social_interactions supporting evidence to my claim

[@BSMDLyd]

Thank you so much, Humzah. Grateful for your support

[@solitarynerdette]

You are so switched on and sound like you have a very supportive family, which is fantastic. It's hard when things don't work out the way you planned, but I'm sure you will find where you fit! I hope you can relax a little now and enjoy being a twenty year old uni student without the toxic environment.

[@DylanSlater-tu7hy]

I and many others look up to you and I want to thank you for sharing this message that so many of us need to hear. I am wishing you happiness in your future.

[@KathyMurray-g3y]

What a strong and beautiful soul you are. Good for you in following your inner voice. I will be looking forward to your new adventures

[@JohanKavanal]

This BSMD journey really touched me in a way that made me aspire to be like you. Your journey to medical school kept me up longer than I'd like to admit and I've watched your decisions reactions video at least 10 times at this point. Thank you for making me dream while finding what I truly loved and I will continue and hope to be on this same track you were on but create a different environment from the one that you unfortunately had to go through. I wish you all the best of luck for your mental health and hope you find what truly inspires you as you finish up your Bachelors. I'll be on the channel every step of the way!!

[@truelight77]

Lydia, right on for listening within and being deeply honest with yourself. Your commitment to honesty has been one of the consistent themes I’ve seen throughout your story - it says so much about your character. Seriously 👏🏼👏🏼. Keep honoring your inner wisdom. You’re on the right track. Hope you keep sharing your story!!

[@aholmes225]

This is an awesome video! You are so wise beyond your years, sad to hear the environment was so toxic. I wish you all the best and can't wait for another video when you are ready !!

[@seasonoffaithministry9902]

I am so happy for you. You have to do what is best for you and your mental wellbeing. Follow the passion that lies deep within your heart and always be true to yourself and the decision that you have made. You are beautiful, profoundly intelligent, and blessed. Continue moving forward. Can’t wait to see what you do next. Your biggest cheerleader. God’s continual blessings upon you and your precious and beautiful blessed life. You’re in my prayers❤️

[@cheetahgoldenfire]

Good luck to you. It is clear you're very intellectual and mature for some one only twenty. This is the perfect time to explore who you are and find what's sets your heart and mind on fire. You may decide to come back to medicine if that is your thing or you may not seeking more in the arena of the humanities whatever you choose I wish you success and prosperity and happiness and community.

[@mjr7269]

Hugs for you, Lydia.

[@sthuthidas859]

I’m proud of you for taking this step! This is most definitely a hard decision, and at the end of the day you have to do what’s best for you. I am sorry about the things you had to endure while at the University, and I hope that wherever life takes you, you are treated in the best possible way. Best of luck to you!!

[@MrBjorn6]

.Wow I'm in shock 😮. This is my girl who got into Brown PLME and went to Arizona because she didn't want to go into debt. She wise beyond her years. This was a very sad story. But yet very real. When picking the right college you have to find a place that feels right for the individual.

[@carstenbotts6304]

Good for you, Lydia! I am so proud of you. This must have been such a tough decision, and there will be many times in your life when you think you made the wrong decision. But I assure you that there will be more times when you will think you made the right decision. Trust me. I'm 49. As long as you love what you do and keep a positive attitude, you'll do great!!

[@kathleenduggan9955]

No judgment here. You must do what you think is best. No one can live your life but you. And after watching this video I know for certain that you will succeed in whichever path that you choose to take

[@BSMDLyd]

Thank you for your support!

[@CarolFague]

Wow! So shocked but 100% behind you! What a brave and mature decision! Hope you don’t stop making videos, excited to see where life takes you with it without medicine. ❤️

[@mo-ft3ml]

Lydia, we're here for you. I'm sure all of us are here because we admire you- not just academically, but as a person! I am so in awe of your clarity and I'm excited to see you make strides in this world

[@BSMDLyd]

This means a lot, thank you 💐

[@BTguy]

Wonderfully mature video. It’s crazy that a 17 year can be expected to know what they want to do for the rest of their lives at such an early age and I personally think these programs are a bad idea in general. Years ago, I wrote an essay in my high school newspaper detailing how I wanted to be a Biomedical Engineer when in fact I had no idea what it actually meant (I think I thought that the name sounded cool). College in general should be a time of exploration where you try to figure out next steps. I got my degree in chemistry and briefly thought about getting a PhD until my 3rd year of college when I realized that I didn’t want to be in a lab for the rest of my life. No offense to chemists, but I’m a people person and I realized then that I wanted to go into medicine. I was 22 when I started medical school and at the time the average age of my classmates was 26…. so fortunately I was surrounded by a much more mature group than you certainly have been (there was even a 52 year old grandmother in my class). Even then I had a few medical school classmates who I would never let touch me as a physician in the real world …. so realize that not everyone is likely to have the same level of commitment and dedication that you have shown the last 2 years. I would say it’s way too early to make decisions at the age of 20. Maybe put medicine on the back burner while exploring something else as you can always come back to it. You’re going to do great no matter what you do !!! I have a sixth sense about these things.

[@isabellatochinikiehl3693]

You are so mature!! Congratulations on your big move!! I loved the vídeo!! Sending love and admiration from Brazil 🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷

[@fairsi1]

Sorry to hear about your experience. Hope you find a place fits you.

[@dorothy2063]

You most likely just need a good break and to live life outside of medicine until you are called back and when your heart tells you to return Find peace within alternate encouraging environments ✨🙌🏼👍🏼

[@sanjivthompson1182]

I am sad to hear I enjoyed your journey ❤ best of wishes.

[@amampersanda]

Hi, Lydia! Just wanted to leave a message to let you know that are you being seen and heard and this reached me in a deep-hearted compassionate way. Thank you for sharing your decision and about the topic of social hardships in college despite constant adapting and pivoting even in places you didn’t feel you belonged. I relate a lot. Thank you for sharing. Lots of support 🫶

[@amampersanda]

@ hi! how are you? I get why one might generalize a video announcing leaving a pre-professional program with having a bad attitude (even suggesting one should have a surgery for it LOL) and I don’t understand what values you might have and maybe whether or not you have an upbringing and beliefs aligning with more traditional, rigid expectations than another person might for academic and career pathways, but I’m curious what this has to do with my attitude and me commenting on a KZbin video confirming that Lydia’s content was seen and heard and that I resonated with some of her points. I have not surrendered that I relate fully nor that I am leaving my programs or nor that I am struggling with the same things (because everyone’s experience is a cocktail of different victories and struggles) but I only suggested that I have had similar feelings as any other empathetic, compassionate human being who listens to others in conversation would- to bring validity to her argument and some positivity in this community rather than toxicity which was a point that Lydia made. I see that you have commented similarly to other commenters in this comment section. I’m wondering how you are doing.

[@Beck-Stein]

Obviously this was not an easy decision. Lots of jealous losers out there unfortunately. I do not think medical school has changed much since I’ve attended. There was a well demarcated hierarchy in medicine and the superiors let you know. Borders on bullying. Again, I doubt it’s changed much at all. You seem very qualified and should be accepted into another med school no problem.

[@lisalin5604]

Sending you so much love❤

[@jsullo22]

I am sorry you had to go through that. I've been following your story since your first videos and really wish you all the best. I'm glad you have adjusted to something that suits you better and hopefully is more supportive. Hope to continue to follow your journey and best of luck 💐

[@Jordynfire]

Yes! Good for you! You are so very mature for your young age. When I was in my early 20s I tried going to college and I just couldn’t do it. I tried to go to college 3 different times throughout my 20s but I never knew what actually wanted to do and I am not exactly super smart. I am now 33, happily married and a mom to four kiddos. Sometimes there’s more important things than just academics and that’s the beauty of life. Hopefully you find what you are meant to do in life! I’m rooting for you! Take time to be young and figure things out how YOU want to! ❤❤

[@Kate-i8i9t]

Instead of condemning the university or program as a whole, consider reflecting on the actions and choices that have led you to your current feelings. There are underlying reasons why you might feel out of place within this program. The application process is designed to select qualified candidates for medical training; however, if you perceive the environment as toxic and struggle to form connections, it may be worthwhile to recognize that this experience could be more indicative of personal challenges rather than a systemic failure.

[@danavarrone]

i think you missed the point of this video entirely

[@sthuthidas859]

Did u watch the video? Maybe put the subtitles on if that helps 😊

[@johannatipsu2680]

❤So proud of you

[@gruel_summer]

Firstly, I support your decision and I'm proud of you for making the best choice for you! I love that you're exploring the humanities! I'm planning to study medical humanities, or biological anthropology, with a focus on bioethics. You may enjoy related course work from that discipline. Hopefully you'll still take us on your new journey. This stranger is proud of you!❤

[@Amanda.Cooper]

Good luck in all your endeavors! Sorry you went through that at such a young age. Hope you find your path and yes you have time. I wonder if there are instances where one could be apart of the application cycle and apply to other med schools? Not saying you should do that but info for a future bsmd person. Maybe the bsmd programs should be abolished all together. That's a lot one so young has to do.

[@paulliang-tt6ig]

I always have a dream of becoming a physician but due to my academic inability, i just graduate with 1.8 gpa. When you say you want to walk away one of the most desirable dream jobs for plenty of people, I was in total shock and disablief. But after hearing you thoughtful claim, healthy mental health is indispensible part of life. I think it's much more important to maintain a good mental health and personal well being. I hope you will discover you true likenness beside medicine, it could be singing, teaching, commerce, research, law , design or anything that you really enjoy.

[@waitingtobe]

I can’t wait to see what your next steps are! Also, where is your cat? I just realized I haven’t seen it.

[@DiariesByNora]

You are iconic; you are the moment. You are what your peers want to be. You are a trailblazer, Lydia!! You set the standard and stand out from the rest. Stay driven and focused on being the best version of yourself. Keep your circle tight, as not everyone will share your intentions or have your best interests at heart. Push forward with confidence, knowing that not everyone is as genuine or driven as you are. Your accomplishments are just beginning. Embrace every opportunity to grow, stay true to yourself, and continue to spread your kindness. The world is waiting for the incredible things you'll achieve. 🤍

[@svnvoo]

THEN WHAT WILL U BE DOING INSTEAD OF PREMEDD😭😭😭 PLEASE U INSPIRE ME TO BE A PREMED WHATS GOIN ON :((( Im literally applying as premed this application cycle D;

[@TheIronAviator]

why do you say "toxic social enviroment of the university as a whole"? i'm a sophomore at uofa and i was considering transferring to a school much closer to home, but havent thought about it much recently. i will say though it is difficult to find people as ambitious and academically motivated as i am though...

[@reddbendd]

she's basically complaining about the way humans interact with her, which she can just ignore. She's also complaining about how she doesn't like the way human beings interact in general, which you can read about here. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rational_choice_model#Rational_choice_theory_in_social_interactions

[@californiankarina]

I feel like this is a common experience with pre meds. It’s so competitive no one is nice to another and all of the social interactions are monetary and transactional interactions. Pre med is known to be toxic 😭

[@Ryan-bv5ox]

⁠@@reddbenddI think it’s very difficult to “just ignore” behaving like that, especially when it’s all around you in a college setting like that

[@TheIronAviator]

@@californiankarina ah, im not pre-med but i appreciate ur response

[@mylifeaszoey2335]

@@reddbendddid you miss the part where she mentioned those people who were rude to her admitted that they would watch her vlogs as soon as the drop? When I don’t like someone I definitely don’t sit there and stalk their socials, those people are psychos and it really scares me that they will be allowed to treat people in a few years.

[@WildeJean-v7v]

you speak so eloquently

[@Thatguy-mo8jd]

Jeez just say why you didn’t do it. You highlight how toxic the rat race is but then go on to explain why basically you are the only one with good motivation and how insanely qualified you are. This came off tone deaf.

[@mylifeaszoey2335]

It’s not really tone deaf if you understand the environment of healthcare professionals in this country. As soon as someone criticizes the faults of the system or the behavior of others, toxic premeds will be quick to point out that the person “just can’t hang” or that they are just “too soft for healthcare” . She’s pointing out that neither of those things are true and that she wants a more supportive environment.

[@Thatguy-mo8jd]

@ she could explain that very easily without also overloading the viewer with her supreme knowledge and “most qualified student an admissions officer has ever seen” examples

[@maroonhorizon1693]

I think she’s a high schooler that’s why

[@Eggniw27]

Your comment is both selfish and disgusting. She doesn’t owe you an explanation. A toxic environment can destroy even the strongest person, and she's not some robot built to endure abuse for your entertainment. People who push themselves past their limits often don’t make it out alive. Have some respect. Highlighting her academic achievements was important because it shows the issue isn’t about academics-it’s about the environment. This is valuable for prospective applicants, who make up most of her audience.

[@Thatguy-mo8jd]

@@Eggniw27 Wow, selfish and disgusting for explaining the irony of her response lol

[@bentleyodk]

🫂

[@maroonhorizon1693]

This week will be the week of “quit medicine” clickbait. Lol 😆

[@georgegonis3643]

R u kidding me

[@Eggniw27]

Your comment was unhelpful

[@Bigcheese6875]

Give me a break. You left cuz you found a way to make money easy.

[@Ryan-bv5ox]

This is really brave, and It’s amazing that you were able to make such a big decision and I applaud you for your transparency in your decision. I’m in the Humanities at UA currently and if you plan on shifting majors at UA or another college, I find the people in humanities or adjacent majors to be very sociable and kind. The people being nasty in your comments are completely out of place as you have every right to decide the path within your own life, and what you’ve chosen to do took a lot of strength. I really hope that you are able to find happiness in your future academic endeavors! 🫶

[@Ryan-bv5ox]

@@rajinlaxus3835hope you realize humanities is a very broad area of study; it can range from law to gender studies. she wants to spend her life and academic career is completely within her own jurisdiction! go watch someone else if it bothers you to watch someone figure out their life. ❤️

[@BSMDLyd]

Thank you so much for the uplifting message. I appreciate your kindness 🙏