I Thought I Was DYING, But I Had POSTPARTUM ANXIETY- Here's My Story

If you've been following me over on Baby Rabies over the last 7 years, you've likely heard me at least mention my struggles with postpartum anxiety and OCD at some point. I've tried to be open about it for nearly as long as I've recognized it in myself. Here is my first first blog post about it back in 2011-
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*THE POSTPARTUM SUPPORT INTERNATIONAL HELP LINE PHONE NUMBER IS 1-800-944-4733****
You can read all my other blog posts on the topic here-
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I feel a sense of obligation to talk about this because I may have never sought treatment had it not been for the women who came before me and shared their own stories.
I never realized postpartum ANXIETY or OCD were real diagnosis. I didn't ever feel "depressed" so it never occurred to me the anger and the worry and the obsessive fear I felt had anything to do with my mental health. I assumed that I was just a BAD MOTHER. How awful, right?
So you can imagine my relief when I read this and recognized, finally, that what I was feeling was actually something that could be treated. I wasn't a bad mom, I was sick. PLEASE BOOKMARK THIS and share it and refer back to it!
THE SYMPTOMS OF POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION & ANXIETY (IN PLAIN MAMA ENGLISH) www.postpartump...
I white knuckled my way through it with my first baby, and I regret that, but I didn't even know something was wrong with me then. I finally got help when my 2nd baby was 9 months old. I had plans in place after the birth of my 3rd and 4th baby- prescriptions on hand and ready to fill.
It never got easier to get through it, but it did get easier to fill those prescriptions.
If you recognize any of these symptoms in yourself or someone you care about, please reach out to a medical care provider- your family physician, your OB, or even ask your pediatrician for a recommendations if you need one.
PLEASE NOTE that PPD/PPA does not always hit those first few weeks. Mine never hit until my babies were between 4-6 months old, long after I "aced" that 6 week postpartum screening.
Postpartum Support International is another amazing resource www.postpartum....
Their POSTPARTUM HELP LINE number is 1-800-944-4733
#postpartumdepression #postpartumanxiety #mentalhealth

[@faithtalks8622]

Oh my god. When she said " I've made the wrong choice I never should have been a mother" that's what had me bawling because this thought isn't true it's just a symptom of the anxiety. It's crazy to have a stranger on the internet take the words out of my brain that nobody else around me understands. Thank you so freaking much and I'm also want to not take medicine. But I think I'm going to stop being stubborn and just try it

[@adriannetaylor6133]

This video has helped me so much! I just had my 2nd daughter a month ago, and I literally have those same symptoms-that constant fear that I’m going to die that invades my mind no matter how much I try to shake it. I had the anger and weight loss with my first daughter. and it just hit me now that I had anxiety then too. Now that I know what it is, I can focus on getting better.

[@Madameo8]

Crying through this entire video. Currently suffering and seeking help. Thank you for this video.

[@courtneydrummond7738]

I have suffered anxiety my entire life, but after my first was born my anxiety took a massive turn for the worse. I had the same obsessive thoughts you did and wouldn't leave my living area during the day when my husband wasnt home. I would just stay "safe" in that one room all day long and I wouldn't go to the kitchen even for food or water. It was so scary, but I got on medication and it was like the world opened up to me. When I felt the anxiety come back after having my twins, I got back on Zoloft asap! It made the new baby stage far easier and more enjoyable. I was still on the Zoloft when I found out I was surprised pregnant with baby #4, due in 5 weeks. I have weaned off the Zoloft, but I plan on going back on after he's born. I feel like a better me when I am on it. I am absolutely a better mom on it. I hate when I get so frustrated over typical toddler stuff my twins do. I agree the messages about PPD are great but the anxiety part needs as much of a spotlight. I wasn't sad, I was just anxious and terrified.

[@Kayyy8585]

Courtney Drummond Did your anxiety get worse in the beginning when you started on the Zoloft ?

[@preyaahmed3733]

Hi I have a question did you also had headeach it’s been more than 4 months I still have headeach

[@georgiamitchell7948]

@@preyaahmed3733 i experience headaches. I feel like my postpartum is creeping back.

[@preyaahmed3733]

@@georgiamitchell7948 I understand you it’s been more than 7 months I still have anxiety and panic attack

[@Evelyn-vv6cs]

How long did you take Zoloft for

[@aricabergeron313]

I have had anxiety for a long time and was obsessed with the thought I was dying that I literally brought on symptoms of a heart attack. I got all checked out and they found nothing so I finally listened to my family members with them telling me it was anxiety . I got CBD oil, started meditation and reiki and it’s sooooo much better now!!! It’s so scary that anxiety can do to you and literally ruin your life ! So glad you are doing better! Very important to take care of yourself and recognize when you need help 💓

[@Kayyy8585]

arica bergeron I am thinking about trying CBD oil too ! How do you take it ? Have you noticed a big difference ?

[@aricabergeron313]

It is an oil that comes with a dropper I take about 10mg 3 times a day you it has literally changed my life! No more obsessive thoughts. No more symptoms at all! CBD oil is completely safe you cannot overdose and it’s actually good for you! Good for your heart etc I got the original formula www.cwhemp.com/all-charlottes-web-cannabinoid-hemp-cbd-supplements

[@Kayyy8585]

arica bergeron that’s wonderful. Thanks for sharing. I’m so happy to hear it helped you !!! :)

[@houseofharris5312]

Did you start off with lower doses first? Or did you go straight to 10 ML ?

[@aricabergeron313]

House Of Harris straight to 10 ml I’m prob up to 20 at this point

[@brittany8577]

I realized I had PPA when my son was a baby bc I was terrified to drive alone with him, even with a mirror in the back seat. The 1st time I drove alone with him he was 8 weeks and I pulled over FOUR times to check on him and we only drove 7 minutes away. I also couldn't shower with him being in another room I'd have a panic attack if I couldn't hear him. I also obsessed over germs. We went to a cook out when he was about 10 weeks old & watching everyone pass him around and holding him I was SCREAMING inside with such anxiety. I have never been that anxious of a person until I had my son. I refused medication though. My son is now 3 and I'm still batteling with the anxiety to the point that it's making me depressed. Finally considering medication. I've been watching videos to make me feel better and feel not so alone. My appointment is coming up and I'm excited for the relief & mad that I didn't consider medication sooner. Instead I just allowed myself to suffer for 3 years. Thank you for this video.

[@greciasalazar2273]

Hello, reading this 3 years later, how were you able to get medication? Where did you go, a normal health provider or to a psychiatrist?

[@mszebs2815]

I needed to hear this. I am currently suffering from this. Glad to know I am not alone and I can get through this x

[@ErinDox]

I had PPA with both of my boys. I had my first son in 2018 and by 8 weeks I was a mess. Ridiculous thoughts and fear. I felt that panic feeling you have when you almost rear-end someone in your car, but like every day. The smallest things would set it off. I got on Zoloft but it made me do crazy stuff in my sleep, like hit my husband... which caused even more anxiety. After dealing with it for around 9 months, I stopped breastfeeding and started feeling more like myself. About 6 months later I got pregnant with my 2nd son. About 8-10 weeks after having him I started recognizing the same symptoms and feelings but they became more intense. I tried reaching out early but of course all of this onset right around Christmas and I couldn't get in to see my Doctor. Not to mention my husband and I got Covid at the hospital while having my 2nd son then my parents got Covid so I had absolutely no help dealing with this postpartum anxiety with a brand new baby and a 2 year old. On my moms last day of quarantine, I finally broke down mentally and landed in the ER. This video speaks to my soul. I cry every single time I tell my story. Even after meds and my trip to the ER, I was still having panic attacks for 2-3 weeks. I would wake up with a pounding heart and sweating. I would just try to crawl into my sheets and physically claw at them. I couldnt get away from it. I was prescribed Lexapro and Hydroxyzine and am still taking both, but have been weaning down to very low dosages. My youngest is 16 months. Never thought I would get through any of it but here we are. hearing stories like this, makes me feel less crazy and it definitely needs to be talked about more, and health care providers need to be more aware of the severity and onset that can present at any time. Totally different from the "baby blues" that everyone says it is.

[@TaintedBeautifully]

How are you doing now? I am struggling so bad. Just had baby 7 a week ago. 😢

[@bobbig.8090]

I thought I was alone thank you to all the strong women who battle with this everyday. I’ve been dealing with this for over a year and have been in therapy for about 6 months.

[@BeingBetter]

Update: I DID recovery from my postpartum anxiety, and I no longer have agoraphobia.

[@amass30]

So proud of you!

[@ljnv]

Nice how long did it take

[@leanaf5172]

howww

[@katelynwilson7397]

Thank you!!🙌 Every part of this resignate with me. Feel like this is me talking. I did not recognize it with my first but going through it now for months postpartum and recognizing all of my symptoms.

[@midwestbadger2503]

Postpartum anxiety makes me nervous for having more children. It truly is debilitating. Hugs to you-thank you for sharing this. I too was like nope, I don't need medications. Kind of like i'm too good for them. But I am truly glad I started them, they are a necessity for me to be able to function on the most basic tasks and life as a mom, a wife, an employee, a friend, a sister, etc. Zoloft has been my saving grace.

[@allisontolbert1141]

I felt the same way about having more kids. The wean down time from my meds and trying.to get pregnant was long enough for the symptoms to come back. but once I got pregnant they went away! I'm 34 weeks pregnant now with my second and my ob told me she can start me on prozac at 36 weeks and it wont effect breastfeeding or I can wait to see if the symptoms return. I felt such a wave of relief knowing I dont have to feel that way again. I'm going to wait a few weeks post partum before starting the prozac incase I'm okay this time. Fingers crossed!

[@LO1990LO]

Do u still take the meds?

[@jesus1st713]

You literally explained what I've been experiencing. 😢 😭 Thank you foretelling your story. No one really talks about this. God bless you. 🙏

[@jalynndonald5636]

IM SO GLAD THAT I WAS ABLE TO RELATE TO THIS OMG !! it feels so much better

[@erikahespinozah5160]

Thank you for sharing this. I had a very similar experience and it completely rocked me. I ended up with this thing called derealization due to the overwhelming anxiety and I thought I was going to actually loose my mind. Lucky, I got help right away and am feeling much better. Still have day to day maintenance but so much easier than where I was.

[@TheMistressCelerian]

So, I’m just now in the thick of it. I’m constantly worried that I’m not a good enough mom, I could barely get out of bed and felt like I had an anchor on my back. I got put on Lexapro with my doctor. It seems to be kind of helping, but anytime I hit my period I’m at my worst. I know I’m a good mom, I’m not a perfect mom, but I constantly beat myself up and act like I can’t do anything correct. I’m also super forgetful, and scared. It’s like an out of body experience for any time I have a fit. This is my second child and I am eight months postpartum. I’ve never been depressed, this is not postpartum depression, this is postpartum anxiety and I just hope that I can get through it. My constant fear of me dying and not being there to see my kids grow is also an every day battle. I also battle working and being able to focus. I hope everyone is improving, or if there’s anyone in the same situation as me, I’m here to support you and we can make it through this together. Having two kids during Covid, really didn’t help either!!! I quit eating every time I start having fits, so I went from 119 pounds to 109. deep down, yeah I feel kind of pretty again, but at the same time I know I’m not myself and I’m not my best me. Hopefully, because my love for my children, I can succeed through this. Especially, remembering to love myself.

[@jackiesmokes8769]

I’m literally experiencing everything you’ve experienced ive been think I’m just going mad lol my daughter is about to turn 11 month I’m noticing it’s getting worse. But I’m so happy I found your video ! Thank you for sharing your story!! ❤️

[@allisontolbert1141]

It's so nice in a weird way to know there is someone out there who could fathom what my thoughts were. I wouldnt let my son near any windows for the longest time bc I was like omg some deranged person is gonna see him and shoot him, or a stray bullet will hit him in his head and I'd see over and over on replay his tiny little head bursting like JFKs. And I would feel the emotions that would come with that and hear myself screaming untill I moved him from windows. And it was a thousand other scenarios similar to it. I also had 3 separate times where I thought I had some cancer or tumor and paid lots of money for a mammogram even after my dr said I was fine. I had a panic attack at work and drove myself to the hospital thinking I was having a pulmonary embolism from my c cection. The er dr didnt have my history enough to diagnose it as a anxiety attack I didnt find out till much later thats what it was. He was just happy all my tests were negative. After a year of this my GP helped me talk out my problems and wrote me a script for prozac. It made me my old self after about 60 days. I had never ever heard of PPAnxiety. I wish it was included in all the baby books. Maybe I would have reached out sooner instead of thinking I was just a weakling who couldnt handle motherhood.

[@bobbig.8090]

Thank you for sharing

[@nicolerose6659]

This brought tears.. I relate so hard. It’s so scary but comforting knowing other people feel this way & that I’m not crazy.

[@andreabarborikova1605]

Thank you so much for sharing this! This is exactly me right now!

[@theversatileexperience2145]

First off, your gap is gorgeous 😍 I am 5 months postpartum and currently experiencing this. Constantly thinking something bad is going to happen to me, my baby or my family. And this pandemic isn’t making it any better

[@wildeats_and_whimsy]

I am really struggling at 5 months postpartum, mainly fears of myself, yes! We don't hear about this enough.

[@toolisgodd]

I was just diagnosed with PPA and I'm just crying throughout this video because I can relate completely. I thought I was a horrible mother with the rage I would feel and I would obsess all the time about my daughter being too hot or too cold at night and would stay up going in her room making sure the room wasn't too hot or too cold and I would just stay up and watch the temperature on the monitor a few times throughout the night. I'm on medication now and it's helping but I am thinking therapy is my next step. Thank you for making this video. I don't feel so alone ❤️

[@cloftin2010cl]

Wow , same!! I’m bawling watching this and realizing this is exactly what I’m going through😭😭 I’m so happy to know I’m not alone too!!🙏🏽

[@Iam_isissymone]

Based on this title. I just want to say thank you!! I’m going through this and it’s scary 😢

[@melissawells2502]

I will always owe it to you for basically saving my family. I waited until my third was 2 years old, because I just thought I hated being a mom. I finally got medicated then and it took about a year and a half to feel like myself again. I had no idea post partum anxiety was even a thing. Until I read a blog post by you. I cried through the whole thing. My mom had post partum depression with me 36 years ago, and ended up hospitalized for two weeks, but I wasn't depressed, and I didn't know what I was dealing with. The intrusive thoughts, the red hot anger that never stopped.

[@BeingBetter]

I never recovered from my postpartum anxiety, 3 years ago, and now I am housebound with agoraphobia.

[@elizabethdorchester5307]

Being Better prob isnt aniexty then

[@BeingBetter]

@@elizabethdorchester5307 I have Bipolar 1, is that what you mean?

[@elizabethdorchester5307]

Being Better hi firstly i hope your ok . I think you have a severe vitamin defincy and you need magnisum. Calcium. B12 . B6 . Vit d . K2 and if you invest i these and take a high dose for 6 weeks your see a huge difference. Huge . Pls let me know x

[@elizabethdorchester5307]

Being Better also fibrosis i think

[@BeingBetter]

@@elizabethdorchester5307 So I have researched every single nutrient that you mentioned. I take 400 mg magnesium daily, 500 IU vitamin D, drink raw milk for calcium, and take 100 mg of K2. Also take a B complex. I am not deficient in any of those. I really wish my case was that easy. I made a video showing all the supplements I take kzbin.info/www/bejne/gaDYf6tobpl0jNE Also my postpartum psychosis story is on the channel. Let me know what you think.

[@jacquelineswanson3821]

Thank you for sharing your story it helps to hear other moms stories.

[@natashamoss1290]

Anyone else experience chest pains constantly? I’ve been checked nothing wrong but it happens daily been told it’s post patrum anxiety

[@latayathomas1986]

Hi yes I’ve been experiencing for 3 months along with feeling I’m going to die. How r you now?

[@tonipittman416]

Love your story. Helped me out a lot.

[@yeseniagutierrez7132]

Thank you so much for sharing. I’m going thru it now. We are not alone

[@shayj3373]

TY so much for sharing... Goodness, family creating is no small feat!!

[@jes44444]

Thank you so so much for this . You are an inspiration. I’ve been struggling , until tonight I didn’t realize my intrusive thoughts were intrusive . But I have been feeling the disconnect from my baby girl ( was was born at 33 weeks , I had lost her twin sister at 5 months ) and I figured it was just because we didn’t get to have the initial bonding time since she was in the NICU , and I had suffered a tragic loss and I was mothering a toddler at the same time . I feel myself wondering why I hadn’t been wanting to be around my family or why I was so angry when my tired baby cried . I’m heartbroken, but at the same time I’m so glad I know I’m not alone and can seek help in the morning . Thank you so so so much ❤️

[@cess8566]

Thank you for sharing your story. It helped me realize that I should get help.

[@lucyvalentine8876]

Many thanks for your video hun I can relate to ALL of this I have mild anxiety I have a 10 year old son and 3 month old and everything you have said has happened your video has helped so much! I have Kalms and rescue pastilles take the pastilles every now and then. All the best and hope this feeling subsides as this isn't me I am a strong person but this has a hold over me. Merry Xmas xx

[@QuaileneShmadams]

This happened with me too, my first was just random horrible what ifs to the point that I couldn’t sleep and with my second I just felt like I wasn’t doing the best that I could when I was really pushing myself way too hard.

[@pamelahupp6065]

Thanks so much for sharing your story! I really needed to hear this, especially about the part about medication treatment. I sincerely appreciate your transparency! I feel like there maybe hope and those exact medicines might help me. Thanks again! 😊

[@DanielaL702]

I feel like I have both postpartum depression and anxiety.. 😓

[@ssmajlesi]

Bless your heart for sharing this🙏🏼❤️

[@Isnit_lovely]

This is me. Thank you for sharing this 😢

[@michellemaesabuero6030]

This is what I feel right now

[@mikeadyer]

My anxiety and panic attacks have gotten bad right after birth that I thought I was having a stroke and a heart attack

[@Palmerfam1]

Are you better now? I'm going through the same thing.

[@vickysauvedemers2376]

im going through the same thing, how did you get through it

[@georgiamitchell7948]

@@vickysauvedemers2376 Take deep breathes. Take it one day at time. Do things to distract yourself like listen to music, talk to a friend or family member. Keep doing things that you love. Talk to your obgyn and ask for counseling. Invite friends over to help. You will get through this. I know you will. Just take one day at time. I know its easily said than done. Just remember that you do matter and you are loved.

[@latunahtarea4453]

I am going through this right now, i just wish things will get back to normal

[@mikeadyer]

@@latunahtarea4453 everything will be okay love I promise , this too shall pass - do you have any other social media ? Follow me on Instagram we can talk if you like you’re not alone my @ is miiikeaaaa

[@sonalisubbaiah23]

OK this explains alot with what I'm going through.....

[@lauraalder9395]

I've just had a daughter 7 weeks early by emergency cesarean, I've suffered anxiety all my life I feel I have this.time to go doctors I think.thankyou for your video

[@karend4526]

Thank you for letting me feel less alone.

[@elizabethdorchester5307]

Karen Daubert get checked dont trust the doctors

[@TheWellNourishedHomemaker]

thank you so much

[@kaelatate392]

I have post partum ocd I’m obsessing over my thoughts !! It’s so annoying and I get it really and before my period 🤦‍♀️ it’s so exhausting

[@savannahsimpson8074]

Thank you for sharing. I just had my third child and I am suffering from postpartum anxiety. I started Zoloft and am looking into counseling.

[@itbelikedatbihh5549]

L G. Wait your ppa got bad when baby was 5 months?

[@agirl9040]

Mine got bad out of know where when my baby was Turing two months I never had it before.

[@Maureen_sounds]

Are you better now mama

[@Kayyy8585]

Thank you for sharing this :)

[@SuperDuckyWho]

Going through this right now with a 5mo. Holy shit is sucks. Constant anxiety something will happen to him, suddenly thinking about all those horrible things while I'm feeding him or giving him a bath... and this random anger at my husband/mom. Will meds help with the obtrusive thoughts? Those are the worst. I can't stand it.

[@monsibb]

A doctor will give you the treatment for your particular situation and beleive me: those thoughts will dissapear when the medication begins to act . Its a matter of time and patience. You are not alone, just take your treatment as prescribed from your doctor and if you have any problem, never doubt in calling him.

[@kyleekendall209]

Thank you for sharing.. I am going through this rn. Glad I am not alone

[@drawingstuff1989]

your my saviour I think Ik what I’m struggling with now

[@aquezada2254]

Brought me to tears. I have a 1 year old and I have very very bad pp depression and anxiety. I already was aware but I’m at my complete breaking point. So bad that I have daily suicidal thoughts. I know I have to go on medication but I have no insurance and don’t qualify for medical even though we can’t afford to get me insurance. So it’s a struggle trying to pull myself out when I can’t afford to get help.

[@amaduah7895]

Praying for you girl!

[@allthingsmelody3209]

How do u feel now?

[@aquezada2254]

@@allthingsmelody3209 Not suicidal anymore but definitely still have anxiety and depression. Thank you for asking. ❤️

[@zeezee5740]

Thank you for this video! Ive always had anxiety , it became worse after my 1st born he was 3 1/2 months premature stayed in nicu for 156 days , anyhow i never got help because it was "managble " fast foward had a baby 5 years later and my PPD IS THROUGH THE ROOF , i cant even walk outside without feeling an overwhelming sense of fear ! I feel like im always going to die , i ened up in the ER for a sever panick attack i couldnt believe it ! I dont even enjoy driving my body feels so overwhelmed by fear and anxiety , i cry to my husband like something is wrong with me , i got my blood check and had "normal labs " i knew something was wrong with me when i would have an anxiety attack by leaving my house , but would be fine by staying inside it wasnt making sense to me , at this point i said you know what I might actually need some kind of intervention

[@Tinakeepitcool]

I could of wrote the same message for myself, that part of fear when leaving your house, fear of driving, im 5 months postpartum although its a lil less than before, at least now i can drive to places near my home, we will get better, how do you feel now?

[@zeezee5740]

@@Tinakeepitcool hello I literally just seen your message pop up ! Yes there are so many things they don’t tell people about post partum , I’m actually doing well now I spoke with my doctor and they had put me on a low dose of lexapro , I’m the kind of person who doesn’t like taking pills and things like that but I literally said you know what maybe I’ll see what happens it took about 3 weeks to kick in and I can’t believe how normal I feel lol , I’m still on the medication but a low does basically I was diagnosed with not post partum depression but post partum anxiety and the serotonin levels in my brain were too low the lexapro basically balances it out , I really feel like my normal self it’s so bizarre how medications can help you , the side effects are minimum some people eat more some people eat less mine is off and on but the only lousy side effect is when you first start taking. It you’ll be very sleepy but after about a month you’ll feel better , if your five months post partum I would give it some time , if your experiencing intrusive thoughts and extreme anxiety or fear then you should ask about a prescription I feel like it saved my life , God bless

[@preyaahmed3733]

I have a question can you also feel sick when you have postpartum depression and anxiety I always feel sick

[@jasminealexis3562]

Hey im currently going thru postpartum anxiety and YES it makes you feel sick :(

[@anastasiahernandez8239]

Ugh me too 😓

[@emilyallnutt9499]

Thank you so much for sharing! I am experiencing so much anxiety the past few weeks with my 3 month old. Did you decide to stop Zoloft due to side effects? I feel like not getting on medication, but might need the help.

[@jennymontelongo5032]

What does your anxiety look like now?

[@divinenature1981]

What was the side effects you had from the lexapro?? Ive recently started taking it and i just feel awful.

[@jacindaupton9772]

I am going through this right now as well after having my son he’s 13 months now but when he was about 6 or 7 months I started having headaches then panic attacks then constantly worrying I was dying (brain tumours, breast cancer and so on) I still have those thoughts I still suffer from headaches but after seeing a doctor and he told me about postpartum anxiety. My mind was blown I had no idea that was a thing ! I am now on counselling and on medication and I’m slowly starting to feel like myself again. I want to have more children but I’m scared and I just want to know did you ever feel scared about having more kids ?

[@juditfang5268]

Jacinda Upton I’m in the same shoe with my second son, he’s 1 now and I have symptoms since my milk came in ( day 4 after he born) I started to having chest pains, choking feeling in my throat! I got checked out and they said I have baby blues and it will go away by 6-8 weeks! Well it get worst to the point that I thought I’m gonna die and when I was pumping and put the milk in the freezer the only thing I had in my mind that how long my husband can feed the baby with breast milk after I die! It was horrible and started killing my feelings too! I had no patience to my older son who’s 7 I started to be angry and worrying about my health constantly! After 7 months I stoped breastfeeding and started to feel better, probably my hormones got better and 2 months later I got pregnant and freaked out my symptoms came back and I’m angrier then ever BUT only for like two weeks when my missed period suppose to come 🤷🏽‍♀️ and for an other 2 weeks i’m like almost “normal” again! It’s interesting what hormones can do to our brain and it’s a very sad and dangerous sickness! I’m not sure what I’m gonna do after this baby but I don’t feel like I wanna breastfeed (the guilt is kicking) but I want my hormones back to normal as soon as possible and I’m thinking about therapy too, I heard it can teach me how to calm down how to act when I’m having a panic attack!

[@emilygriffin5077]

Jacinda Upton same! My son will be 2 this coming Feb. (2020) and ever since I gave birth I developed health anxiety. It has gotten worse over time. Every small ache and pain was fatal and is fatal to me. Headache is a brain tumor. I thought I had a mass in my throat. This anxiety has caused me physical sensations that can’t be explained! I thought I had cancer and MS. Basically has taken over my life. A doctor put me on a small dose age of Lexapro. 3 nights later I had the rarest side effects from the pills an ended up in the ER. It was awful. I just want my life to go back to normal. I beg for it. I hope we all find the help we need. Before my son I had ZERO anxiety. Didn’t care about any pains I had. So care free and happy. I’m a totally different person now and am SO afraid to have any more kids.

[@agirl9040]

Emily Griffin omg same!!! After have my 3rd child 2 months postpartum I started feeling like this! I was in the ER every week thinking I was dying and I’m still dealing with it I’m 3 months postpartum and I have headaches and dizziness. I finally made an appointment with my ob

[@user-ww6yz7vl5b]

@@agirl9040 what have you done 8 feel the same

[@preyaahmed3733]

@@emilygriffin5077 omg I am in the same position as you trust me after having a baby I always feel sick my muscles twitch I get so scared I have headaches heart palpitations I hate having this I never had this before I’m so sad the whole time

[@carlacook8355]

Did you ever take anxiety medication WHILE you were pregnant? Or just after?

[@selenacastellanos45]

I am currently sitting at a mental help facility getting help for the 1st time in 5 years. My last baby is 5 months and I’m at the point where I don’t feel like myself, and I’m constantly worried. I was so against any kind of medication but I believe now it may help. Thank you for this video, in some way it brought me peace to know I’m not alone.

[@evaruiz2711]

Hi Selena i am going through this right now at 3 months postpartum and I understand you so much.

[@agirl9040]

I’m 3 months postpartum and I’m dealing with anxiety:(

[@MaryamElGhonemy12]

Selena how are you now?

[@evelynvillegas4892]

Same here my baby is almost 6 months and I am suffering so much. I have had bad anxiety, panic attacks, heat palpitations since she was 2 months old. I didn’t want to go the medication route but I have to because I cannot enjoy life. Did you end up taking medication? I hope your going better 🙏🏼💕

[@LO1990LO]

@@evelynvillegas4892 do u mind giving an update?

[@breadcake3698]

I have it and don't know what to do

[@Aesthetic_leen]

My doc has prescribed SSRIs for my anxiety and physical symptoms of anxiety like globus sensation and chest pains... Is it useful for the same? Are there chances of relapse after stopping or completely the course... Also did u have any physical symptoms like me ?

[@atulalkr2867]

Yes exactly globus sensation,chest pain , stomach pain ,all anxiety related but nothing medically wrong

[@SweetlyAnointed]

Literal tears....thanks

[@Mastewalshurube]

Thanks for sharing you are an inspiration. I went through a lot I wasn't even sure wat was really going on with me thanks 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏👌👌

[@zuhriyebeyazit3031]

Hi sweet mother! May I ask you which kind of medication you use? I am currently suffering from anxiety...I am from Europe and I'll be very lucky when you answer, thank you!

[@SuperAngelsonfire]

This is what I’m currently dealing with 😢 I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. I know things sound silly when I say them out loud but I still can’t stop obessing over all the ways people or myself might die it’s ridiculous like I don’t even know what to say this is so me!

[@sussaayy661]

I can relate to this, I feel exactly the same it sucks so bad 😢

[@jasminealexis3562]

@@sussaayy661 are you over it if so how did u cope W it 🥺

[@sussaayy661]

@@jasminealexis3562 hey girl I actually started therapy and it helped out a lot. If you’re going through something similar I would highly suggest therapy

[@michellequezada4619]

Can u still get postpartum depression and anxiety if your baby is 10 months ?

[@antoniolesaldo5068]

Yes

[@BriAjinaee]

My baby just turned 1 on august 31st and literally a week after his bday I started having Anxiety out of nowhere.

[@georgiamitchell7948]

@@BriAjinaee Do you take anything for it?

[@BriAjinaee]

@@georgiamitchell7948 they tried to put me on anxiety medication but I feel like the side effects were worse than the actual anxiety and depression so I stopped taking them. I’ve been meditating and praying and I haven’t had any anxiety in a while but I feel like it’s more stuff going on with me that’s causing my depression.

[@georgiamitchell7948]

@@BriAjinaee same here. I was prescribed celexa but I didn’t take it. I feel like it’s something else like my body never feels good and my head always hurt.

[@preyaahmed3733]

I have a question can people have postpartum depression when they have an abortion

[@MaryamElGhonemy12]

Yes

[@preyaahmed3733]

@@MaryamElGhonemy12 how do you know plz let me know because I have bad anxiety and I get panic attack 😢😢

[@dailymommy3476]

Im on my second kid I literally just called and asked to be put on medication because im dealing with this.

[@michelemoravec1880]

❤

[@tarasmith6265]

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