I Took a Monstrous Amount of Mescaline Cacti at a "Woke" Ceremony & Instantly Regretted It

[@Psyched.Substance]

This is probably my favourite trip story EVER! I’m sure you can see why lol. You can watch the uncensored version on Patreon: patreon.com/psychedsubstance for the stuff we can’t show here. Cheers!

[@narvi5779]

@slateran checking his channel, it seems both him and his wife have used substances as early as 2 weeks ago? And from another comment, I also heard his wife tripped with him on this occasion? So I'm amusing his family life is fine? So is there a real problem, or is there a misunderstanding somewhere, either on my end, or your end. I'm pretty sure his video 2 weeks ago is with his wife, or maybe they aren't married. I'm not sure about the relationship status, but they seem together and are doing fine

[@crtnn]

I understand that this is a lot of work and in order to keep being able to put that work into, you'll have to get some financial legitimation out of it. But I'm not a big fan of paywalling the uncensored content. I appreciate your content a lot and I'll happily donate, but not because of the content I'll get out of supporting.

[@crtnn]

​@@666slateran666 Why the hell are you even talking (Or discussing) the private life of a person you absolutely don't know. This is completely irrelevant for you and everyone reading this and you don't know anything besides the little stuff that adam shared on here quite some time ago. Wtf? Also: I'd think its legitimate to say that someone wants to stop with the toxic and addictive stuff they got used to (Like Kratom, stimulants, alcohol, whatever) especially since the way these substances are used in the context of addiction has toxic influences on your life and social relations. Its a completely different thing with stuff like psychedelics, due to the non-toxic nature of them and also due to it not being a comparable addiction context. Thus, the way you'd use psychedelics and the way that they influence your life is completely different. This comparison is idiotic, lol. I also highly doubt that Adam, or anyone else, is actually "addicted" to psychedelics. Some may like the experiences a lot, and thus they probably want to repeat them (Some more often than others). But that's not really addiction in the way that Kratom, other opioids, stimulants, alcohol cause addiction. Never heard of anyone eating psychedelics every day because he feels that he has to in order to feel okay (Excluding microdoses, those don't really give you any psychoactive effect that could be desired). Stupid comments imo, don't even know why I brought up the time to actually answer to this.

[@wamlartmuse]

Great video Mr. Adam!

[@wamlartmuse]

@slateran Adam's issues were never psychedelics, it was addictive substances. If you've been watching, you should know his doctor prescribed him psychedelics..

[@chinacat3818]

i guess my natural instinct is to not kill the vibe. because when I was going through an intense ego death experience on acid, I was laid up on the couch in the fetal position 100% certain that I was dying thinking I should definitely call an ambulance, but then I looked around at all my friends tripping and having an amazing time and was like no dude I'll just die I don't wanna ruin their fun with an ambulance lmao

[@jackadam01]

Lmfao that sounds funny af

[@chinacat3818]

@@jackadam01 boy i laugh about it now but it was seriously beyond terrifying unable to put into words lol

[@paekaumahana]

That's terrifying, heck. I wish you had a well recovery after that ❤

[@urgurlcicid2824]

😂😂😂😂😂

[@lamondferry217]

I once tried a weed for the first time before alcohol or nicotine and I inhaled three big hits or four and when I was standing my whole visual field turned into a green visual snow for a sec and I never felt so different so I sterted to panic and wanted to call an ambulance but then I knew we all would get into big troble so I just sat and waited for the drug to wer off

[@adamb306]

A mantra I've always held in my mind when going into a harsh come up is "It will all be waiting for you when you get back..."

[@michaelmeyers7147]

That’s really good

[@adamb306]

Thanks! I didnt come up with it, the mushroom told me.

[@SamMaki-v2g]

Similar to yours, mine is “let the drugs do their thing” yours seems a bit more philosophical tho

[@Arek15Arek]

When I did salvia, my mind just went "Remember, if a tiger attacks you, it's probably not real".

[@cathy7382]

What does that mean

[@artmanjohn2]

I'm giving away my age here, but back in late 1968 or early 1969, I took a purple barrel of an eight way hit of Purple Owsley Acid made by Owsley Stanley himself that was less than two days old. The ego death your talking about, this happened to me, in spades and this wasn't even close to my first experience with LSD. It was unbelievable and to this day, 55 years later, I can honestly say it was the most beautiful, spiritual and most profound experience I ever had in this lifetime. I literally can remember it like it was yesterday and it always makes me feel close to life in ways that are beyond language or even thought that is still with me today, 55 years after the fact! Thanks for sharing!

[@Hhn945]

Welcome to drugs

[@NickCageDrippp]

@@Hhn945 *acid

[@HashbrownGokusan]

How are you now after it all?

[@hannahwillis9838]

Don’t be ashamed to give away your age 🥰 age is beautiful. Thank you for sharing this experience, that is really beautiful. LSD has helped me feel that connection that you mention, and shrooms have helped me realize that things aren’t always so serious. Psychedelics are such great buddies to help stay sane, in a sometimes insane world!

[@artmanjohn2]

@@hannahwillis9838 Thanks for the kind words, I'd just turned 19 around this time, it was an exciting time to be alive, a lot going on back those days for sure! Feel blessed. ((:

[@nathanaelhill5027]

You know what is absolutely beautiful about this video, the tips you give in the first half on how to keep your experience from turning into a bad trip is extremely helpful for anxiety as well. With my panic disorder the whole premise is based on me feeling like I’m not in control and I’m losing my mind, and it is quite similar to an ego death trip in the sense that my mind thinks it is losing its touch with what I’m comfortable with and who I am, so I panic, but these tips are exactly how I’m trying to fight it. Letting go of everything you know and think you know, and becoming okay with the thought of losing your mind, letting whatever happens happen to you, is the absolute most powerful thing a person can learn and experience. Might I say the most terrifying thing, as I have to experience the feelings daily and nothing scares me more.

[@yanifree114]

My heart hurt to read what you’re going through on a daily basis. I don’t know if you’ve ever called out to Jesus? I have, many times in my life, and there’s power in the name, even if you don’t believe. My prayer for you: Philippians 4:7

[@TheWaveSon]

Trust the universe/God/Self ❤

[@nikkiellery759]

I used to experience this daily for years. I found flooding and leaning into it and egging it on more stopped it really intensely. I couldn't imagine a day without several of these waves taking me out completely. Flooding the therapy, it worked for me. I feel what you said deeply.

[@Mikehatespigs]

Same here I'm currently trying to get off benzos for the first time in 15 years since I started the prescription 2 days in 3 days most I can get no matter what I tell myself and know I'm supposed to be ok it still starts to make my chest tight heart speed and breaks me down into being scared again I don't get it idk ended up taking another quarter pill idk feel pretty different like ego death compared to where I was before I started trying to stop

[@FarlessBlue]

Adam, once again you've taken 38 minutes away from my life; splendid story telling, my friend!

[@Despin7a77]

love this lol

[@RoaringJaguar]

Totally worth it!

[@pressure6360]

Ong

[@coltenmoores2263]

It’s easy to watch something you can relate too.

[@imjustaguy8232]

As Donald Trump would say, "Sad.."

[@alyssaawilliams]

My first mushroom trip when i was 17, we were outside all day. It was lovely. When we came back to my home we decided to hang out in the empty basement suit. Then my friend came down and she left and i went upstairs and it was the first time i was infront of a mirror. I cried because i felt so beautiful. Not in an egotistical way, like thats how "god" sees me. It was the first time i ever truly loved myself. To this day, i always love looking in the mirror.

[@jessicapatton2688]

I’ve done that before on e! That was the only time I saw myself as really really beautiful!! And no, it’s not in an egotistical way either

[@4069ish]

I have experienced ego death twice. I was so glad I put sticky notes around the house telling me I was tripping and everything is good. Do not call anyone hahaha. I was alone.

[@pricklycats]

I used to trip alone but I usually only do it with my gf now so I always kind of have an escape and just focus on cuddling or something. I find I don't get much out of it solo anymore it's way more useful when there's someone to talk to. Or I'll just end up laying staring at the ceiling for 5 hours lol.

[@crybabygbc1026]

@@pricklycats ohhhh man that's what I did last time lol I laid in my bed and tried to go to sleep listening to music but would just stare at the ceiling tripping balls. I still have those same mushrooms in my closet 6 months later and I haven't touched them.

[@LinguisticLifeform]

Damn, following those thoughts is exhausting. Take refuge in pure awareness and let them all pass. Why energise more thoughts, even positive ones to the tornado of identification? A meditation practice is so important in these realms

[@britnizta]

Agreed!!

[@frankhlebogiannis5186]

Repent and believe the gospel! I used to watch your videos often but you need Jesus not drugs. That goes for everyone that does these types of drugs!

[@RefriedBaby]

The eagle cry after accidentally saying "eagle death" made me laugh way too hard 🤣 11:56

[@nahfrfrfrfrfr]

it's bc r/drugscirclejerk makes fun of eagle deaths

[@aeezem]

@@nahfrfrfrfrfr shut up your eagle is probably cant even fly! na must stay jenkem for life

[@pricklycats]

@@nahfrfrfrfrfr I actually remember the original post where someone accidentally typed "eagle death" lol probably from autocorrect or something

[@pricklycats]

or they were just tripping balls

[@SkyrenOfficial]

@@pricklycats Or all of the above, possible and impossible.

[@Dia-gnosis]

So you learned that you need something to look forward to. Maybe you need this in life too and your tendency to addict manifests as an attempt to fill a hole created by an absence of meaning in life, that is exactly the kind of thing i mean by meaning. The storyline of your life, short and long term is crucial in determining your happiness. Terrence might say “are you the hero of your own story adam?” Expand your conception of possibility through spiritual contemplation and you might just end up re-directing all this energy away from this nihilistic action plan of addiction and wasted potential and towards a path of being truly alive, in alignment with all you know god would approve of if he did exist, which he might.

[@easypeezie4494]

It’s the worst when you start to internally panic and start wondering how bad you’re about to freak, out and hoping you can hold it together 😂

[@z.s.7992]

Yeah. If you try to fight it it definitely gets a lot worse. Sometimes you just need to go with it and eventually each wave will pass.

[@starboiklem8381]

@@z.s.7992 yeah exactly i do that with cannabis, i know it's weaker than psychedelics but god damn can it make you freak out hahah

[@apothecurio]

@@starboiklem8381 Getting intensely high seems to be good practice for practicing how to let yourself go and just get carried away to where the drug wants to take you.

[@starboiklem8381]

@@apothecurio yes indeed it is.

[@apothecurio]

@@starboiklem8381 Thank you for solidifying that. I have yet to try any psyche's yet.

[@MrKABOOMLP]

This was one of the most entertaining and lesson rich storys you ever told!

[@evanfoster3053]

Adam, it sounds like Jasmine had a trip much more similar to that of the other trippers. Not as intense. Is there a chance we could get a duo video where she shares some of her experience? Maybe a q/a with both of you?

[@proggigs]

Man your energy and storytelling was just top tier in this one

[@jfish5036]

Since November I've had 3 significant trips that has given me everything I needed in my life. The first helped me grieve the death of my little brother, the second helped me with my relationship with my sons mother, and the third one gave me a path to take in life and the motivation to start moving on the path as well as the confidence to know that this is my path and I will succeed in the ways that I need to.

[@LS57v1]

Worst ego death I've ever experienced was when I stupidly thought I could get away with a quick DMT trip while waiting for the Acid to kick in. At first it was really cool but it instantly took a sharp turn when I obviously took too much acid. Got stuck in a loop that felt like it lasted centuries with only minutes passing, I would pass out and wake up over and over while it seemed like no time passed at all, the next part is the scariest experience of my life. I passed out again only to not wake up this time. It was darker than anything I've ever seen. I was aware I was there but it was the only thing I was aware of. I existed but at the same time I also didn't and I was aware of it. 100% killed my fear of death, as to me nothing will ever be scarier than existing in complete nothingness

[@petya7105]

sounds like you were thrust unprepared into the 7th jhana (of 8,) the samadhi of nothingness. from the buddha's description: ""With the complete transcending of the Sphere of Infinite Consciousness (the 6th jhana,) thinking, 'There is no-thing,' one enters and remains in the Sphere of No-thingness."

[@grantwoodford4927]

I've experienced this plane. And transcended it into full color, living the death of 3 past lives. Seen peices of their life, their death, and what they couldn't seen after. Also last night I experienced the realm of nothing, but it was something. The void turned into the darker colors and I experienced vision as if I was a camera, fixed on objects, jumping from thing to thing, focused on group of people that were on a journey and I followed them. And watched their numbers dwindle too just 2. And then as the dmt was hyping down to base level, they became aware of my presence, they smiled and faded back into the void.

[@gandalf8216]

Sounds like my experiences with 5-Meo-DMT. But instead of a dark void, it was this white noise. And it's not existence, because there is nothing else other than that white noise could contrast with. There was just a white noise. Forever. Then I was born back into reality, or something. Everything before that now feels like a dream I just can remember really well. Eternity sucks. When religious people promises me eternal life, I shake my head because they don't know what they're talking about.

[@redearth8256]

Sounds like the womb of creation. Infinite potential from where everything springs

[@tabascobeats]

sounds like an overdose

[@Soaring_Seajay]

I just wanted to say this video is fantastic. The editing is on point and made me laugh. I’m not done yet but sorry to hear you weren’t feeling great. Thank you for this!

[@Denmosocial]

Big way to start 2023 Adam. We are rooting for you

[@taha7538]

So let me get this straight … a couple months ago this guy made a video about how his family left him cuz his usage was out of control so he said he was gonna fix himself … and now I’m back and he’s making he same videos trying the same shit 😂

[@tygo3157]

listen, you being apparently as strong and resilient as you are, you mentioning the takeaway of the trip being “see the good in things”, should be all you need to overcome your addiction. You quite literally conquered your mind when not even being close to controlling it. Just imagine what you can do when in control. Overcoming your addiction is just one of many things that you can and should do. Hope you see this and great video as always.

[@phoenixschuman5770]

He’s talking about taking psychedelics, which can actually help to recover from addiction

[@veryspoicy]

@@phoenixschuman5770 not when you take them as much as this guy does

[@CVZ_]

@@phoenixschuman5770 not in his case buddy

[@tsunamisurfer7325]

Tygo, very well stated

[@magicmanmartinez9367]

I'm addicted to your mom bro what should I do

[@bobsiddoway]

It’s interesting you talk about forgetting. Every time I’ve take more than 1.5g mush, I forget I took anything. My wife is the polar opposite. Very interesting

[@psilocybinrebrandinginitia8068]

That feeling you get. All of us get it at one point or another if you prefer the higher dose journeys. It's that voice that says, "this is it, you've really gone and done it this time. You've finally taken it too far and now this is just life now"

[@Ratkwad]

i had that thought once on 600ug of needlepoint and laughed my ass off for about an hour, was great being mad and happy about it

[@trueekko]

​@@RatkwadI've never gotten high from crochet before .... How long did it take?

[@jessicapatton2688]

Lol u sound just like me. I’m not happy until I’m scared lol

[@z.s.7992]

I had ego death a few times. I ate three hits of acid that ended up being way more potent than I had thought. I saw myself die a million ways a second it felt like. Things like having my hands cut off in a sawmill by being put on the actual saw. Having cops shoot through the door. Having a heart attack. Having the building I was on the seventh floor of bucking all around and falling out the window and crashing on the ground. Being shot into the sun....crazy shit. Then I was just gone...thoughts and language no longer existed...self was gone...I had no feelings....I was just viewing images that were extremely scary.

[@jkm1059]

That’s not Ego death, that’s just disturbing visions.

[@narvi5779]

@JKM what is ego death? From the description it definitely sounds like his ego died 💀💀💀 bro literally said "then I was just gone...self was gone"

[@JoshMcLemore]

@@jkm1059that’s definitely an ego death, when you’re that deep on such a high does of acid you have no comprehension of your reality in a solid way, i can’t put it into words. my last acid trip was 600ug and that shit will change your view on everything and you will latch onto whatever fear or questioning you’re going through

[@TheRandomshite123]

@@narvi5779 the psychonautwiki demystifies a lot about psychedelics if you need an explanation but basically high doses of psychedelics can completely supress your memory both short and long term so you have no access to them but are still generating new memories so you can remember what happened. As far as why it's called ego death, your ego, or who you are as a person is based on your memories, having no access to them will completely remove your self identity, combine that with the inability to tell where you end (in the metaphysical sense) and the environment begins and you get ego death

[@xxbubblesxx1165]

A 3g shroom trip had similar but I saw my brother dieing nothing I could do over and over gettyhit by a train then saw me dieing getting shot by cops getting stabbed by my next door neighbor homeless guy breaking in and beating me I stayed up that night thinking it was actually going to happen

[@kentyiluminada7676]

i almost had an ego death but i didn’t take anything i was just going through extreme anxiety/spiritual experiences, like going crazy but at the same time i knew i wasn’t crazy, hallucinations and everything. At one point i felt like i was physically and mentally dying like i was gonna rest or be liberated from my ego /pass out , but then my mind took over and started thinking “you’re dying “ fear took over for a second , then i was okay with dying because i was going through extreme suffering , but i got an out of this world fear that i was going to die and go to hell , so that’s when my ego fought to stay alive . i still wonder what would be if i actually had an ego death , i was ready to die but i wasn’t ready to die and live in hell for eternity lol

[@tommyfishbone1303]

I hardly ever get body sensations/"flashbacks" from others descriptions, but this was good. Bravo 👏

[@damonddailey349]

Us Kiowa's have Peyote Meetings and they can be very rough cause we eat a few buttons then take a big spoon full of powdered buttons, and a big cup of liquid. That is definitely a rough ride and I've done DMT and tripping for over 9 years because it became atleast 14 hour trip. All night thing.

[@deadbeats4894]

This is why I don't trip with strangers in wierd environments. *Lots of people pointing out the splinter in Adam's eye while ignoring the log in their own. Why exactly are you watching this? It's 100% never been a channel on addiction or recovery.

[@Noise_floorxx]

Im making a Reddit post about something similar to this right now. People fail to see the humanity in people and minimize them down to a single phrase, action, word, day, whatever. Its like we fail to see the complexity of people and instead of realizing that something about them triggered you and trying to figure out why, we just bash them or judge them. I dont think we will continue to advance if we shame and judge

[@jasonrojas3592]

Unfortunately, there are a lot of miserable people. People who have never experienced true freedom, don't know peace, don't understand consciousness..... I've noticed a trend- People don't like it when others are enjoying life more than they are.

[@lunaticzeroone]

@@Noise_floorxx so true

[@Noise_floorxx]

@@lunaticzeroone i am sort of struggling to get the wording right. Its super long and I would like it to be shorter and more concise but I think maybe there's no way around it being long.

[@Jamalquentinjr]

Agreed. I have 10 years of experience w psychedelics. I've researched and took precautions for each Substance as well as my body response to each one. This isn't an addiction or recovery channel. Seems to me all these individuals are projecting their fears and lack of self control. My last trip was 2 years ago and I'm planning one this year. Gonna make it a great one with meditation and full enhanced experience to move up to the next level of my spiritual development. As a Luciferian this is nothing more than a tool, how you use it is entirely your responsibility.

[@MahouBakaW]

I've wanted to dip my toes into psychedelics, but can't find a source. Especially DMT I want to try one day. But I'm just a afraid introvert that's always afraid I'm gonna get caught by the cops if I do try to get some

[@ai_robozen]

Ego death is useless if you go back to the same bullshit and just on a ride of drug after drug…that’s pleasure seeking which is ego based

[@justinwhite3220]

He’s been doing this for almost 20 years straight. You know he can’t stop and has 0 intentions to slow down. Forced Rehab is the only way. Enough is enough

[@yummyjackalmeat]

6:50 To answer your reasoning for being at the ceremony "to gain insight about your addiction personality" you just have to listen to yourself at 3:00 "I was of the mind that if you don't take a monster dose, nothing is gonna happen" I think that's all the insight you need for your addiction personality bro.

[@jeremycasper5181]

I had a 7 gram penis envy ego death just like this and yeah I didn’t surrender I went to the fear and omg was not good but it was also the most transformative experience I have ever had in my life

[@jaylaborgne8804]

i watch you when im on psychedelic journeys, you always calm me. help me focus on the good and bring it back to myself. thank you adam, love your content.

[@victorgoes4368]

Dude. I know this was supposed to be serious and all (and it indeed is), but this was so freaking hilarious. You're one hell of a psyched-storyteller. Thanks for sharing. It was awesome.

[@IwannaHugTrees]

He is awesome 👌

[@rmx6737]

Sorry to say this but you definitely suffer from addiction issues due to the sheer lack of fulfillment you probably feel from your life... I mean you take drugs for a KZbin channel... That's not exactly the most fulfilling job for the soul. Stop reaching for androgenous chemicals to help you through your issues (EVEN IF THEY ARE PSYCHEDELIC) it's not a good strategy. Any issue you face can be overcome through tools you already have in your mind, you just need to access them.

[@locoguy420]

Why does it sound like you projecting onto him

[@rmx6737]

@@locoguy420 Mate, why are you defensive over another man you have never met and doesn't even know you?? Strange that...

[@locoguy420]

@@rmx6737 m8 why are you projecting onto a man you've never met and doesn't know you? Strange that..... (stupid argument you wanker lmao)

[@scotty2tone]

@@locoguy420 yeah I'm sure OP is projecting the fact that his family left him because of his addictions. Get real dude. Remember that Adam has 2 kids and a baby mama that won't speak to him. Edit: seriously, what do you think OP is projecting? I don't even think you know what that means other than a grown-up version of "I know you are but what am I"

[@jamessumter7538]

Eagle death lmao 🦅

[@oliverstarling97]

I dont think his ego died😂

[@gradygraeber7600]

You find yourself checking a channel everyday to see if a new vid has been put up and this is one and I love it every new video entertaining

[@MichaelSplatkins]

My main tactic when faced with overwhelming terror and confusion during a trip is to remind myself that it ends in a matter of hours. Time can mean absolutely nothing in that moment, but I recognize that the unwanted experience will end. Then I just surrender to observing my experience and not spinning out on the random anxieties that pester my negative trips.

[@tugaykaya7738]

Where do you get your Steroids from? I might try to but don't know where to get from yet

[@glitchyatheist]

Adam, you gotta fire your thumbnail guy. Seriously. Its not the algorithm making you lose traffic. It's these basic over the top dramatic thumbnail titles that have a boomerang effect

[@beautifuldisaster4045]

I just did a mushroom trip and completely relate to this. I actually thought I would induce a bad trip with the way I was thinking. I have been struggling with loving myself and deal with the misery of depression. I didnt know what would come of this trip, but to my surprise it was the best trip Ive ever had. Yes there was some bad parts where I looped and saw aliens, but I told myself that there had to be more than this and that mushrooms are suppose to make you be happy. After that I relaxed and let it take me on a roller coaster of happiness. All smiles and laughter. I lost my body and felt like I turned into a light that became one with whatever felt like a good vibration. Shit is crazy. I couldnt believe that I could be happy like that again. Now being normal and human again, I feel immensely humble. I may even start micro dosing.

[@roomueller7305]

yeah it tbh put me in a better mindset than I had been prior. May I ask how you saw aliens?

[@naomio.7503]

How many mg did you take?

[@beautifuldisaster4045]

@@roomueller7305 the first hour was the most intense part and I quite literally felt like the universe was fucking me. Passing me around to different dimensions... As I was warping I saw these 3 alien faces looking down at me like their faces were divided in sections? So it was like seeing a broken mirror and there was an alien on each shard. And they were huge and I was just an entity? Yes they were the typical ones youd see but more grey with a hint of green. Nothing more happened than that.... I just felt in that moment that everything was out of my control. They were just studying and watching my soul.

[@beautifuldisaster4045]

@@naomio.7503 I hadnt tripped in a few years prior to this, so this was almost like a new experience again. It's crazy bc I only took an eighth, 4 mg and it was the strongest shit. There were many caps in that batch.

[@rocoH98]

You are so easy to listen to, been watching your videos for years! Keep up the hard work and struggle!

[@АлтайскийКазак]

Out of the near thousand trips I’ve had, only 2 were terror trips. When I was 16, I took 6 insanely potent electric koolaid tabs on no tolerance. I completely ceased to exist, almost like I’ve heard a 5-MEO trip is. The peak consisted of my entire life flashing before my eyes in a manner I can only describe as a movie reel before everything just went black in a way I can’t really remember. When I came to after the peak, I was in hell. I had this relentless urge as strong as the urge to vomit when sick to stab myself in the jugular. But I held out for 3 hours before I called my friend. He knew exactly what to say. In a matter of minutes, the relief took me from a hell trip to the most blissful heaven trip I’ve ever had.

[@MrJustin0919]

Just curious, what kind of things did he say to help? I had a similar experience regarding the urge to stab myself and I'd like to know how to deal with those scary intrusive thoughts in the future

[@shrrade]

What did he say to you?

[@bl473r]

Dude just go to therapy ffs....

[@catatestrophe7499]

Therapy doesn’t help anybody.

[@bl473r]

@@catatestrophe7499 that's what you think...

[@EricNelson-ik6ir]

Help him, his ego needs "MORE" attention... LOL!

[@sandrag8656]

Totally reminds me of my very intense mushroom "horrortrip". Same kind of ego dissolution, same fears, been completely on my own, completely lost.... until ego had lost all it's power to fight. From my experience the key is not looking forward to something, it's letting go and be ready to face whatever follows, and to die. MUCH more easy said than done, because eternity in this hell feels so real. But that was what instantly changed my trip to an "enlightenment" experience. Think this is what you are chasing Adam. Ultimately it's not about having a joyful trip, but about "coming" home and total clarity.

[@deecomposed]

how much did you take ??

[@roomueller7305]

same thing happened to me. It also made my "psychic" abilities far stronger to the point I could nearly control it. I've had normal precognition here or there fairly often but just glimpses. Mushrooms allowed me to literally predict a lot of things before they happened, even helped me make decent money sports betting lol.

[@sandrag8656]

@@deecomposed Not that much, 2g dried cubensis. Was much more intense than expected from 2g. Was my second trip, more than 25 years ago.

[@theprogressivewest]

Been doing a lot of research on mescaline and San Pedro/Wachuma recently planning for my first mescaline trip so this video is very timely for me.

[@turgidity_city3204]

Research the spelling...

[@realitychannelswitch5144]

We understand what he is trying to say. No need to correct such a simple mistake...

[@markovracarevic2014]

Never heard anything else about adams relapse and if it messed with his family situation at all. Obviously a private thing but I hope all is going well in your life adam

[@kingperson7373]

What do you mean Asian voice?

[@annmxri3]

"im getting rid of his addiction" HELP ME

[@cathy7382]

Will pray turn to the Lord

[@jordant.teeterson3100]

Did you get off the drugs?

[@soulsharts]

Any time I've had a "challenging" time while on a psychedelic, I always tell myself that it always ends. I've never been in a bad place for long.

[@MichaelSplatkins]

Exactly what I just posted. :) The trips always end eventually. Even if the whole thing was nightmarish it will stop. Then I can relax into my experience and move beyond the anxiety and terror. That's usually when I switch to a more positive facet of the trip.

[@Pyroific]

totally agree. I had my first "bad" trip a week ago by accidentally taking way too much and just kept telling myself it will end eventually, nobody has ever died from too many mushrooms and just kept telling myself you're okay until I was able to calm back down. but man was that moment of panic/fear intense for awhile.

[@nathanaelashnonmusic2615]

Puscifer is a perfect band for challenging trips imo. "Find a way, through, around, or over" walking the razors edge. Such beauty in these experiences.

[@wolfsesthenighteye499]

You and of herb and altars are my favorite story tellers. Hell Adam you should watch her channel!!!!

[@Yakerbb]

Damn that's cool did you spend time with your 2 young children too?

[@scotty2tone]

His kids could never understand him unless they take 600ug geltabs while rolling and on ket

[@robertfletcher3092]

hmmm.... killed ego, but ego back full force. wtf

[@quandaledingle7414]

Fundamental misunderstanding of what ego death actually is

[@KJC143]

I genuinely laughed a lot while watching this and I really needed that. I kept picturing you pacing back and forth, arms folded, shaking your head going "nope uh uh nope I did NOT sign up for no orgy" thank you for sharing this wonderful story and I'm glad you're ok

[@christianholmesblabs2894]

ADAM OUT THERE VOYAGING TO THE SHADOW REALM! LFG MY GUY!!!!!

[@velvia7880]

Clock time isn't important when you're tripping :D

[@acclimate_hiphop]

Top tier editing lmao

[@ramen2486]

Ayahuasca sounds terrifying but beautiful

[@keyboardcarrot]

Damn thats one of the best stories of your channel.

[@koagurl]

Great video sir! Had me on the edge of my seat, slowing my own breath & laughing out loud when you spoke about the lady with the crystals! You are an amazing storyteller! 🖤🙌

[@rosabarkss]

I started laughing so hard after 21:00... Just too relatable 😅🤣😭 Correction: cry laughing after 24:30 because it is too relatable. I'm the kind of person that laughs when they are extremely uncomfortable 🥹 you are very good at describing your experiences... That anime comparison 😂😂😂

[@tyluna7692]

right on! like that ending ;)

[@emfe4193]

Great video! I really love these story time videos, it’s always so interesting to listen to you

[@leoFrom407]

Agreed 👌

[@joaoxytos6916]

youtube decided to give me this video right after i watched "i´m not okay" and its a rollercoaster of emotions, almost crying in one video to pure joyfull laughs at the other :D

[@percdestroyer3071]

Wasn’t he just talking about how his drug use was out of control again , yet it hasn’t seemed to slow down since ?

[@percdestroyer3071]

@@Sp_acecowboy idek , not tryna hate on him, just conceded a little bit

[@rgingeri]

I needed to hear the advice you gave about being positive. Thank you. We can breathe through anything.

[@jeffswope1511]

Your take away should inspire us all. I’m consciously trying to resonate in a positive bandwidth these days also. Feels good

[@purplekys1536]

damn i wish i get to experience peyote sometime in my lifetime!

[@cactusscone]

I hope you do too🌵🌵🌵best of luck brother

[@angrypastabrewing]

Same

[@Infohazard321]

Stop taking drugs, you're ruining your life for clout

[@Aum_shantishantishanti111]

Adam , I felt like I was going through the trip with you , the fear part , the ego dissolution , the terror , my god it brought me back to my bad trip . But I do have to say , the last part was the best when you talked about choosing to see the good 👍, I’ve since decided to chill on this route for a bit and instead rely on faith and spirit to guide me towards healing and a breakthrough without the use of these substances although I am grateful for them . They Propelled me towards seeking the truth of my being .

[@ltamha]

Sorry, I know your comment is 3 months old but I just wanted to wish you well in your journey with your faith. The only times I've ever been anywhere close to happy sober in a long time wet when my faith was solid and I was clean. I relapsed and I'm back in a bad pattern but knowing its possible to return there if I work on my own trauma and try improve myself with the aim of being who my god wants me to be and can use to help others. Tldr, good luck and stay strong, loving (to yourself and those around you) and faithful and you'll do great moving forward :). I wish you all the best for the future 🙏.

[@neeegarrr4316]

It’s honestly so hard to have a weird thought and fight that urge to make it like reality while tripping anyone else feel that or just me?

[@zephinhmusic6766]

I get that too🤣 I also get the feeling when I'm tripping on shrooms that I fell asleep and I'm in a lucid dream but I'm actually awake 🤣 it's so crazy but I honestly don't mind it, it makes me feel like I don't have to take things as seriously because I think I'm dreaming 🤣

[@adub_gaming]

I can REALLY appreciate this experience story telling. ESPECIALLY the last 5 minutes because i relate to that so hard. I have been personality tested and was the ONLY one who was positive arrogant lol. We always know but need to learn/experience it for ourselves anyways.

[@TheRealAAN]

Did it do anything for addiction?

[@Official_Doobie_Dan]

i had a ego death experience at lala… i reverted to talking like a child.. aging backwards i returned to normal after words but it took weeks maybe years to feel the same as before

[@RoaringJaguar]

And here I am thinking I was gone on NYE… 👀

[@halhar]

you are such a wonderful storyteller i could sit and listen to you talk about anything honestly. thank u for sharing your experience xox

[@kilmcm45]

Don't give in to astonishment....I believe Terrance McKenna said? That ...this won't last forever mantra ...lol ...that and....I'm conscious now so even if I'm dead..... apparently something comes after life on Earth.....and that's good news. Ya.... I've been there! 😅

[@andrewabrams3408]

U helped me and friends safely navigate psyches thanks mr substance

[@dieterromanwicht6]

yes everything right you said...till you lost someone you love

[@angrypastabrewing]

His problem is that he is addicted yo these drugs

[@angrypastabrewing]

His problem is that he is addicted to these drugs

[@Intrajtom]

As tradition on new years, we dose at least 5 grams of mushrooms

[@robertnewman4072]

I have not had mesc since the 90s,It was amazing!

[@chadmills5530]

I love how these experiences show us how big of an asshole we really are, and we have to throttle that shit back man

[@bryandraughn9830]

I was always a little suspicious of mescaline until I finally tried a hit. I think it might have been better than L. It was SO much fun! It was synthetic. Really good stuff. Im no longer suspicious of it. That's for sure. I was watching fucking coat hangers spiraling around like a ferris wheel and the walls were leaning in over my shoulders helping me watch. The whole world was breathing heavily and I was SO freaking happy. I just couldn't believe how happy I was.

[@dewtor23]

ive always wanted to trip but never found anything around :c

[@absoluteabsence5973]

Dude really talking about ego death, then makes fun of people for not being as open as him... lol

[@dashagazo8508]

This is exactly how I felt when I took an eighth of some crazy mushrooms on an empty stomache at age 15- I went into the trip asking to see the truth. I didn't know who I was or what anything was- no concept of anything, no concept of concept even - extreme fear- remember thinking if I never existed, how can I be dying? What is death? What is a dream? Who is I? It seemed like it was never going to end, behind my eyelids I had intense vibrant moving fractals- I felt like I was in the in-between- not here nor there. When I came out of it it was the biggest relief and the most grateful I was to just be. Ever since that first crazy intro to psychedelics I am careful and micro dose

[@narvi5779]

I can't imagine what this is like, I did the same thing at 15 but maybe ate a gram or 2 and it was the most intense moment of my life, but it wasn't "nothing" I was just flying around 3d geometry at roller coaster speeds feeling overwhelming emotions and confusion. I can't believe some 15 year olds go in doing 5 grams for their first time. Absolutely insane

[@dashagazo8508]

@@narvi5779 right? My friend took 5 grams at that age and said it was an amazing trip, I wonder if I had taken more if I would've just been fully immersed and less terrified- like Terence McKenna says Because I truly didn't know who I was anymore, and I was not expecting or trained on ego death which made it more intense for sure It's definitely impacted me

[@pricklycats]

@@narvi5779 I've had mushrooms where 2 grams felt like 4 grams on weaker shrooms. Not all mushrooms are equal. Which is why I prefer synthetic psychedelics because mushrooms are hard to dose properly (not to mention the uncomfortable stomach feeling you can get from eating mushrooms).

[@pricklycats]

@@dashagazo8508 You probably just had super strong mushrooms. I had some one time a long time ago that blew everything else out of the water, you could trip decently hard off like 1 gram. And I wasn't new to drugs at that point my less experienced friends had to take like half a gram lol

[@pricklycats]

@@dashagazo8508 I took like 1.5g and there were literally letters floating off of pages when I was trying to read it was insane

[@poppyguy]

Bojak is you ?

[@bluesy666]

Looks like you killed it many times and still coming back , just saying ;)

[@mckayla5435]

Sounds like sum they'd make a Netflix show out of LMAO

[@usernamenotavailablee]

Yay a new Adam video! You actually make my day so much better whenever I see new content from you

[@nychris2258]

I love san pedro. Used to be available on ebay.

[@flippinkatbug]

as someone who can no longer do psychedelics (schizoaffective) i find solace in your videos so tyvm for continuing to make content 😊

[@DonKynos]

Cannabis induced psychosis here. Really miss psychedelics. Also miss my own Dexedrine prescription, unfortunately I abused it. Dexedrine post acute withdrawal was the main reason I started smoking.

[@jayjohns1391]

I'm diagnosed differentiated schizophrenia, 5 personality disorders, chronic panic attacks and major depression. The only medication that has helped with the least side effects have been psychedelics. Not everyone's vibe for sure, but for me this type of experience has been more effective than benzos or antipsychotics

[@dylansmith1844]

Have you ever thought of…. Not doing drugs ? It seems like you aren’t willing to do the hard work of healing your body and mind and instead continually turn to quick fixes, miracle substance, plant medicines. Have you tried a gentler, less ego filled approach ?

[@Kategan]

"Come on now, let's all take some mescalineeee!"

[@Sonic-gy7kq]

On one of the most intense mushroom strains out there (PE Melmac) and one of my highest dosages I had the same thing described at 32:00 . It’s like u could understands someone’s ego,intentions, energy. I was looking at people not tripping as they were a walking version of their ego, which is kinda what we are.

[@crazycat1122]

This is so amazing an funny at the same time. I totally know what you where feeling hahahhaha so fucking funny how many times i was questioning if i was even an real person lived this video

[@Balibaliadashi]

I love this channel so much!