I transitioned, and here’s what happened.. (my detransition story)

[@craftwolzip5356]

What teenagers today aren’t being allowed to do is understand that almost all teenagers girls and boys, go through a difficult period when we are ‘transforming’ into adults! Some girls will never be ‘feminine’ in some ways and the same goes with boys and masculinity. That’s fine we figure it out as we go, as a teen I wasn’t a real tomboy but I wasn’t a ‘girly girl’ either but as the years went on I embraced my feminine traits. It takes years, decades to figure out who we are! I am 60 and still am 🤔.

[@tansywelsh1636]

Im 57, and started feeling comfortable in my body in my 30's. Was so jealous in high school of all the girls with curves. Didn't really look super feminine until my late 20's early 30's. This had nothing to do with finding god. Everyone is different and that's ok. You don't start realizing that until you are older. If that's one thing I'd pass onto young people I would, its just something you need to go through at your own pace. Just love yourself.

[@ajdaplohl6642]

@@tansywelsh1636but why do some people feel if they are not enough feminine or enough masculine what made them question their gender? Why can’t we accept that there can be masculine women and feminine boys and they don’t need surgery? Example: masculine women embrace her masculinity without transion. I seek an advice or education from someone much older and wiser then me.

[@nonawolf7495]

Moms don't realise the damage they inflict on their daughters when they chastise them for not being "girly" enough. It plants seeds of doubt in a young mind... Please parents - just love you kids for who they are - not who you want them to be. Praying for you, Maddy. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@Faith.M22]

The “girly girl-look” is just something society has created. We, women don’t have to look a certain way in order to feel like a real woman. Everyone is different.

[@Lissa71]

Exactly

[@erenjaeger1738]

Obviously not. It represents femininity for women.

[@lurklingX]

MAN but that stereotype is so ingrained tho. i think the difference with maybe nonbinary vs trans is just.... if you consider yourself in a society that's DIFFERENT, maybe diff standards or stereotypes, do you *still* feel like your gender is wrong, personally? i think a lot of people would say no. and that trans is a smaller percentage of people. and that these days for some reason a lot of people are being led to think almost anything divergent IS trans, and that's not the case. is it a fad? idk. it kinda looks that way and seems bizarre. trans i'd almost say is the roughest road, esp because surgery can be involved. so it's like.......... why skip over the evaluation of other conditions aside from trans, just based on invasiveness and struggle. my dudes, take the time to EVALUATE! :( it's so hard to watch people try to reverse. it's a struggle. esp if certain surgeries are done. hurts to watch.

[@nataanda2486]

Yesss🎉

[@eilisniaisi5954]

I wear all clothes made for males and have since I was a child , still a woman , but I don’t feel like a woman ( how does one feel like a woman?)

[@BohemiAnnA]

I found you on IG last year. I’ve watched you becoming a beautiful mama bear. I’m also a follower of Jesus Christ, as you are. You’ve blessed me beyond belief with your courage and love. God bless you.

[@cominghome1624]

Thank you so much!! God bless you sister❤️

[@SamuraiXensei]

I’m currently transitioning and I’m being told to stop/de-transition. Thanks for sharing your story Maddy.

[@pollyester6639]

Please stop. You will grow into yourself. It’s timing. I had 4 brothers and felt lesser, rubbish, hated being a girl growing up. The future as a woman felt daunting. 22 I fell in love. A life time later good career moves, seen as strong an formidable woman. I now see that strength I wanted became mental strength. But dear friend I’m now in the menopause and the changes I’m am experiencing is what young transitioners will force their bodies into, sterility, oestoporosis, increased risk of stroke, atrophy and linked to bladder issues. If you are a female don’t do this.

[@jamisonfawkes8537]

fellow detrans woman here, sending you so much love. religion had nothing to do with my detransition, but i’m happy you’ve found the path that’s right for you. congrats on becoming a mom!!

[@laurac2783]

I think I start to get this madness. So instead of fighting stereotypes we are destroying kids to reinforce the stereotypes.

[@alaakela]

Bc unmaking stereotypes is free. But some ppl make big money on transisioners. And will for the rest of their life.

[@plusminus_c]

Poor you girls of today. I was a girl in the 80s, I climbed trees, I collected rocks, spiders and bugs, and I hated skirts. I played with boys and loved the colors blue and red. So what. Nobody questioned my gender. At 16 I wore skirts and felt very feminine. Now at 49 I wear pants, skirts, male underwear… so what. I am so glad I grew up in a quite „genderless“ time and without social media.

[@heatherwiner2883]

I grew up in the 80s and did all of these things as well. I wanted to be a boy because I thought my mother would love me more as she did my brother. I never thought about actually becoming a boy. I did grow up with a girl who was very much into playing with boys and even at my young age I knew she was so much more than just a tomboy as I was. I did not have the words for it then as a kid but she did grow up to be a member of the LGBTQ group. But, she is still very much a woman.

[@Hope-zz9eq]

being a tomboy does not mean that a girl wants to be a boy. Hearing you talk about your childhood is a similar story many girls have without ever wanting to occupy a man's body.

[@streaming5332]

Exactly

[@marieparker3822]

There is no one 'correct' way to be a girl or woman. There is no one 'correct' way to be a boy or a man. There is nothing wrong with being a 'tomboy' or 'butch' girl. There is nothing wrong with being a 'camp' boy. There is nothing wrong with being L, G or B.

[@JuneBug_87]

Amén.🙏🏿

[@FCLaney]

I always say how can you love a second version when you never loved the original. Congrats on your daughter and your new growing family, that’s a blessing! Bless you all and many more!

[@Nspyrd]

I remember the first time my then young daughter came inside with tears as she had been called a "tomboy" and knew it was an insult but didn't know what it meant. That she hated dresses, dolls and "girly" things never occurred to me to reflect her gender identity. Instead, I explained to her that being a "tomboy" meant she was as fearless as a boy, unafraid of adventure. She went back outside and proudly proclaimed that "yes, she WAS a 'tomboy' and there was nothing they could do about it!" She's a grown woman now with children of her own and she STILL likes to fish, hunt, explore nature (bugs, critters, etc.)!

[@deniseganey6890]

This is exactly how everyone around us raised their children. No one made a big deal about it . Children have Thier very own interests and it's up to parents to quide and support. It's not all black and white. One extreme or another. Let kids learn and approach their world on their own accord . Help facilitate good self esteem by uplifting them . Up

[@et_vous_brute]

I'm a trans man, but thank you for sharing! I'm glad you seem to have figured out what's right for you :)

[@suzanneclose4415]

Where do they get the ridiculous notion that real girls don't climb trees? We all climbed trees when we were kids. It is not a gender thing its a childhood thing. Same with arm wrestling , sublings, friends ,, all genders. Wearing baggy clothes is not a gender thing either. She could have been saved from a lot of grief if her mother told her that she was beautiful. Did she? Anyone else? Kids need affirmation + reaffirmation that they are beautiful & smart etc. Too much negative and corrupt influence + not enough positive in young peoples lives.

[@CosyKitty]

I still climb trees when I get a chance to and I'm 25f

[@shweefranglais7900]

A familiarly sad story. I'm glad you have realised that it is fine to be a female with masculine characteristics. Your story needs sharing. All detransitioner stories are helping to put this message out. I am not anti-trans as it works for some but for the majority it is not the answer as you have realised.

[@Exzeteos]

“For the majority it is not the answer”? Can you back that up with data?

[@FirstLast-dl8rt]

I don't think any of them can back it up with data, they are basically describing a man is a woman and vice versa since looks and biology don't matter

[@kay54321]

I am anti-trans and I thank God for your life. God made you a woman for a reason. I was a tomboy, and my siblings would say stop behaving like a man. Now I'm a real sissy. I believe your environment contributed to it. ❤❤❤

[@christinee3126]

Thank goodness my childhood was years ago, because i was a tomboy and wanted to be just like my older brothers. Today i probably would have been encouraged to transition. Luckily i was left alone and puberty made me realise i was okay being a girl, but I've never been a girly girl. I only wear a dress if i feel i should! Jeans and shorts all the way. It's evil what youngsters are being encouraged to do now.

[@tjord]

live their truths? some people make mistakes about what they want. that's okay, and people who transition, and detransition because the experience wasn't right for them, are okay too. i didn't make a mistake transitioning. i'm happier than ever, and it's THANKS to medical science and compassion from those who WANT to understand, and care. just because something wouldn't work out for you doesn't mean you get to deny that right to everyone.

[@DAJ2000]

I love how you kept bringing your questions to God and listening to hear the response. That's a good lesson to take to heart.

[@MichaelaTrue]

Chills. Maddy thank you for sharing your story; It is so so needed in our world and culture today. I too transitioned and detransitioned but at a much younger age. Praying that many young women find your video and realize the solution to their pain and inner turmoil ISNT to transition. Praise God for His provision and unfailing love in our lives--- I'm sure Christ will contiue to work in the hearts of others through your story!

[@joane24]

I'm from Eastern Europe raised in the 90'. I world never consider myself a tomboy, rather I always felt kind of girly, etc. And yet I LOVED and DID climb trees, play in woods, run around in nature, etc. I always find it so strange that so many Americans consider girls liking climbing trees tomboyish 😳. Is this a cultural thing? Can't girls in America climb trees and play in nature? To me, activities like that are absolutely genderless. 🤷‍♀️

[@stridersmythe8860]

VERY SIMPLE, you can be as you described, being girly yet climbing trees and masculine activities, thats a Tomboy. no insult no problem. Knew many Tomboys , no one cared.

[@joane24]

@@stridersmythe8860 Where I'm from a 'tomboy' would be a girl who had a more masculine behavior/'energy', just more masculine ways of acting. Climbing trees or just playing in nature was for both genders, girls were running around or climbing trees, and no one would ever consider that a 'masculine' activity. Soccer or playing guns/war, things like that, it would be masculine, but nature, never.

[@hinkle3634]

Sadly it's become increasingly more unpopular to let children play outside. Since the 90s sidewalks become empty and no one sends their kid to walk to the grocery store anymore. When people hear about a child gone missing in their state everyone thinks their kid will be next. Overly protective to the children's detriment honestly

[@FirstLast-dl8rt]

Yes, exactly, you can be anything you want. See how that works?

[@terryblais9128]

It is because pure souls like yours exist in this quarantine that we call Earth that makes the whole rollercoaster trip worth making. Keep being you little sister. Do your best. Shepherd the weak through this valley of darkness and remember to smell the flowers as you ride out this test. Nice job. Happy Trails!

[@Ur-Fancy-Butler]

I love this,growing up a tomboy you are still allowed to be a girl,I’m a girl and I’m happy as a girl,I might not be super feminine but there is nothing wrong with being feminine or masculine!

[@DL-up9pr]

I’m a woman that has been married 42 years to my husband. I worked along side my husband doing work that ‘men’ do. Hard labor. I know men who don’t or had not worked at the level I did. I know women that work like I did. Hard rough labor. But at the end of the day we’re still women and proud of that.

[@conniea4594]

I was a tomboy growing up and my best friend was a boy and I always wanted to do boy things and hated wearing dresses but not once did I even think of transitioning to a boy. Girls should not think they have to be a feminine girly girl yo be a woman. I loved being a tomboy but never wanted to be anything else. And I was very okay with it.

[@CarolineSaysStuff]

Thank you for having the courage to tell your powerful story. I know there are people out there who want to silence detransitioners, especially those who found God. Keep standing strong, with the help of Christ. God bless you!! 🙏❤️

[@siane2127]

Hi Maddy. That was interesting because you were exactly the same kind of young girl that i was. Not girly at all but feeling pressure to be feminine and lady-like. The difference between us is that I had these problems over 40 years ago! There were no options, no solutions, and of course no internet to help me feel less alone. In one way, I'm glad. If I had been faced with the opportunity to transition, I think I would also have chosen to do that. And it would have been the wrong option for me too. I'm 57 now, I have 4 kids (some probably older than you!) It's taken me my whole adult life to be ok with the kind of woman I am - a rather masculine one. But the best part of my life has been having my kids, I would have been lost so many times without them. Keep speaking out, please. Your courage and honesty is what some people need to hear right now.

[@joanaloneathome]

i'm happy you found your truth, truly. but please remember, religious and non-religious folks alike, you are all perfect the way you are. only you can know what is right for you. if you have found your path and are happy where you are at no god or deity will (nor should) deny you your happiness. faith (no mattter the religion) should be about love. if that doesn't enclude the many varieties of human existence, i'm not sure it is worth suffering (and praying) for.

[@MegF142857]

I'm glad that I grew up when there was no such concept in society as transgender or ability to switch genders. I was also a tom boy type girl. I'm basically still a tom boy adult as an old married lady now. -- I hope young women learn they can just be themselves & not feel they need to conform to gender stereotypes. I don't think we can change our sex.

[@BORNtoLOVEmusic]

Wow, what a powerful and encouraging story! Thank you for sharing your experience. Would love to hear more. ❤️

[@teresaschihuahuas]

I was a tomboy. Trying to keep up with my older brother. I actually have always enjoyed playing with boys. Less drama. More adventures. I’m 64 now. Been married for over 40 years, birthed 5 children, adopted 5 more, 17 grandchildren. So glad transitioning was not an option.

[@charliewhite7596]

Don't know u but proud of you

[@RomanGabewrongwayed]

Even tho I’m Trans and ACTUALLY sTrans- I believe this generation and the next to come are going to make LOTS of similar mistakes in this department!! There has never been a time where ppl are more depressed, mentally unstable, confused, looking to fill the void, addicted ECT I blame society’s collapse, technological advancement and lack of teaching the importance of fundamental self love acceptance kinship and emphasis on inner peace and self transformation! To Transcend enlightenment! Love and peace! Life is eternal, energy is unbroken & we know not what we do!

[@KingdomeBleachers]

What an amazing story. One great thing about being a parent and ongoing sanctification, is that you can identify the mistakes your parents made and do your best to do better for your kids, with all the humble hope that they will do better for their kids as well. Thanks for sharing a part of your story. And remember: parenting is building and creating. It has always done a better job for me at satisfying that creative urge that music, the arts or in your case: androgyny and trans may have temporarily have filled. You are able to build the culture within your own home and give the very best parts of you to your children. I wish you all the best.

[@justnerdystuff]

I started crying when you said, "I gave them the spirit of Love". That's EXACTLY what happened to me, except I was given the spirit of love. We are Christians and taught our children what the Bible says about homosexuals. When my daughter was in their Junior year of college, they either texted me or announced it on FB. It broke my heart because they had just been home two days earlier and didn't tell me face to face, even after I had told them while they were here that I would never stop loving them, no matter what, because I kind of suspected something like that. I cried so hard when I saw the text, that my youngest child thought that my mom had died or something like that. As a Christian, I didn't know what to do, so I cried out to God and asked Him what I should do because I couldn't see myself rejecting them in any way. I have a relationship with God and have had a relationship with God for at least 30+ years at that time, so I know His voice. And He said "As much as you love Hannah, I love her more." He had to say that to me twice because a week later I cried out to Him again regarding this (I don't know, maybe I thought He would give me a different answer?") and He said the same thing "Jennifer, as much as you love Hannah, I love her more." That TOTALLY set me free. It was like a huge weight was taken off my shoulders. I realized it is NOT my job to judge people, it IS my job to LOVE people. So God has given me a Spirit of Love and, I know a LOT of ministers of God, who truly love God, and have a relationship with God, and they have at least one child who is a homosexual. And they ALL have responded with that same Spirit of Love. And have accepted their children plus their partners in love. I still don't understand it, but we don't get to understand everything - we just get to obey and follow His leading. THANK YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH FOR YOUR TESTIMONY - I'm still loving and believing this for my children.

[@missjhia]

This was so beautiful 🙏🏾🙌🏾👏🏾 my mom welcomed me and my now ex partner with LOVE and although we are not together and my lifestyle remains the same, I KNOW that God LOVES me too. 😊

[@ngoziokafor5682]

@@missjhia God does not love sin….let’s stop fooling around okay.. If you lots are determined to do what you want to do then keep God out of it cos His laws are the same yesterday,today and tomorrow. Sodom and Gomorrah was destroyed by God for that same lifestyle!

[@jonpoulda3362]

@@ngoziokafor5682 You’re an idiot. First, prove to me the Bible is the word of god and not simply a book, written by men, to control weaker men. Can you do that? Of course you can’t. Second, Sodom and Gomorrah was about RAPE, which was a common war tactic in Biblical times… a form of ultimate humiliation. It had nothing to do with same sex people loving one another. The way you nuts twist things, to excuse your own bigotry, while ignoring the parts of the Bible you dislike, is disgusting. Get back under your rock.

[@missjhia]

@@ngoziokafor5682 make sure you aren’t cursing, lying, fornicating, backstabbing, or being a hypocrite. Make sure you have never held grudges or most important cast judgment. lol. Make sure you aren’t out here being a jezebel sleeping with other women’s husbands missy. God blesses me, everyday all day. I can also guarantee that my tick marks on heavens chart far above exceed yours. 😉

[@ngoziokafor5682]

@@missjhia I acknowledge that when I do all all you’ve listed,I am SINNING and have to repent ASP. The question to you and your ilk is when you indulge in sexual pension do you realize they are sins you need to repent of….or do you justify and deceive yourself with buzz-words like “love is love”,”do not Judge” et al while continuing in that sin and encouraging others in your misplaced sense of “love” to continue? The day of reckoning is at hand and unfortunately many will be caught napping and unaware.

[@manchitas3531]

Dear gawd, I am so grateful this craze was not around when I was growing up a tomboy. Today at 61, I am thankful. I would have poisoned and mutilated my body too

[@nightreader1264]

Me too- 59 years old now.

[@Angelica-uo7bw]

Same, I grew up with all brothers. Wanted nothing more than to be exactly like them. I'm glad we didn't have Google or pharmaceutical companies telling us we were men just bc we liked to play in the dirt and not wear dresses. Today I absolutely LOVE everything about being a woman and cherish the memories I had and continue to have with my brothers. If my childhood were today, Dr's would tell my mom that I should be a boy. They gotta make that $$. Women don't walk around in dresses, high heels, full make up, hair done everyday. Women are here in many forms. It depends on where your looking.

[@liorasitelman1856]

I’ve never had gender dysphoria issues and have always been traditionally girly girl but still find these stories fascinating

[@sophielesher8002]

my tomboy childhood sounded like yours, we’re KIDS. it’s so normal to feel this way/have these thoughts. and puberty sucksss for everyone. they lied to and preyed on you and put you down a destructive path

[@Eplovesjesus]

Jesus delivered me from addiction, childhood trauma and so much more! He is a deliverer of anything and everything that encompasses chaos.. I’m so happy to hear He left the 99 to find you, his one lost sheep. So happy for you, friend

[@jonpoulda3362]

Jesus didn’t do anything. You did the work.

[@Eplovesjesus]

@@jonpoulda3362 no my friend. He did everything and continues to strengthen me and reveal himself to me. Give him a chance and you’ll see what I mean.

[@elouise5593]

​@@jonpoulda3362 Go away, troll. You seem to take a perverse delight in bashing the beliefs of others. If you were that secure in YOURS, you wouldn't be continually bashing theirs.

[@ngoziokafor5682]

@@jonpoulda3362 Being a nuisance must be your job description….stop forcing your unbelief down the throats of others.

[@amintz0969]

Maddy, thank you for sharing your testimony! I am so grateful for you.

[@annemariegerun7955]

Maddy, your story/testimony is so encouraging! God is faithful and I am so happy that you and He have such a strong relationship together. Jesus changed my whole life back in 2005 when I got born again. I didn't struggle with the same issues that you did, but Jesus took away all my strongholds immediately and I have NOT fallen back into any of them since! Thank you for sharing your story and I pray that your bond with the Lord grows deeper daily. God bless you sweet girl.

[@pisgah2715]

We all go through things when we are younger and just trying to find ourselves. It's not easy and I'm glad you found the spiritual guidance that helped you in the moment and going forward to enable you to be happy.

[@AgnusDeiGloria]

Lord bless you Maddy for your courage and honesty to say the things that people are not ready to hear. Ik with every view this video has impact on people and begins the renewal of ones view on the world. I hope all is well with you and your baby. Praying for both of you good health and the Lords favor upon you. God bless

[@jenniferhooper6471]

I don’t know why this came up in my feed but I’m so glad it did. I’m a 50ish Christian homeschool mom. Can I just say how brave you are to tell your story? Thank you. It helps me understand the younger generation and issues my kids could face. I’m so glad you had that encounter with God. He loves you so much, no matter where you are in life. You are a blessing to this world. Keep speaking out. You’re a good speaker and could bring others to Christ!

[@RootsOfEden911]

I grew up a tomboy in the 80s and still doing "boy" stuff (like 4 wheeling) but am and always have been a girl. I'm sorry this happened to you. So glad you got Jesus! We have to get back to our roots! ;)

[@emilyhotwheels]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. May others be inspired to have these courageous conversations. Much love to you, Maddy. God bless 🧡

[@missymisiuk4942]

God healed me when I was an alcoholic. One day I just stopped. I totally understand His power and ability to make us new instantly. Praise God that you recognized the blessing He was bestowing upon you. Stay strong in His word and thank you for sharing your miracle and praying you continue to bless others through your testimony.

[@AbigailLarrison]

What is wrong with being a tom-boy. When we embrace the unique expression of who we are in the world, we will find our purpose and true joy. Thank you so much for your story!

[@HansLemurson]

I agree. Ain't nothing wrong with that. I was raised in a feminist household and was always taught that a woman doesn't have to be constrained by the expectations of society and should be free to be herself. Being transgender is different from that though, and is very badly misunderstood, and people confuse gender nonconformity with an inner gender identity that differs from the body. The maddening thing is you can't truly see the difference from the outside. I guess one simplistic way to put it is that there's a big difference between "not wanting to be a woman" and "wanting to be a man". Are you running _away_ from something, or running _towards_ something? Too many detransitioners were trying to run away...but you can never escape yourself. That said, Maddy's story sounds pretty transgender. But it's never as clean a break as all that, and everybody has the right to choose what is right in their life and commune with god in their own conscience. She chose to be a woman again, and that's something we all must respect.

[@princesstm]

I thank God for you and your testimony! May He bring you more blessings

[@marthashoultz7253]

Maddy, you''r'e a beautiful girl, and I'm so glad you feel comfortable now in your own body. Your little girl is so lucky to have a mom like you! Thank you so much for sharing your story. It will help other girls in the same situation.

[@annestep6741]

I just watched your birth story and I am so happy for you. Thanks be to God! I pray you continue to have a wonderful, fulfilling life.

Your sharing was so important. Even to think about the labels that have been created lately and that are imprisoning us more than freeing us in the end.... and I think I come to the conclusion that label is an illusion of liberation... it is something that makes us feel belonging, but at the same time it is something that makes us try to fit into the pattern created for that label... in the end... the illusion that we have freed ourselves to be another, when we are again imprisoning ourselves in something else. I also feel that the terms masculine and feminine could no longer be used, as they adjectivize terms that are already adjectives in themselves. And what defines these terms shouldn't be used either. Wearing make-up is not feminine, just as wearing baggy pants is not masculine. Society has been shaping these names and trying to fit us in for millennia, but these patterns of fitting in change from era to era.... as in the Renaissance, wearing make-up and wigs was something that noble men and women did.... Anyway, it's very sad that they try to fit us into patterns and names... I've always been a person. A person who never quite fit in with what was imposed by “being a woman” or the standard of a body that should “be a man's”, and that's fine... but even so, the dysphoria came from the shapes my body took on, because in adolescence it changes a lot. It was only when I was 30 that I started to really like my body and no longer feel some of the dysphoria I used to feel about it...

[@io132]

I going to steal that: a label is only an allusion of liberation … so perfectly stated.

[@carlapierle8623]

You have an amazing testimony!!! You hit the nail on the head. God made you perfect the way you were born. I wish more kids would hear this truth over the rhetoric the devil is putting in activist's minds to spread over social media and in schools. I was a tomboy in the 60's and 70's. HATED being a girl. In today's environment they would have brainwashed me into thinking I needed to transition. I do feel like Christians get a bad reputation regarding acceptance of Trans, Gays and Lesbians because some do not know how to separate their love for the person from the person's actions. There is a way to demonstrate your love for someone without embracing or condoning their lifestyle. It doesn't have to be all or nothing.

[@DorianPaige00]

Did you want a cock and balls? Perhaps a hairy chest?

[@raimeyewens7518]

I think a lot of tomboy type girls go through that. I remember puberty hitting me early when I was 10 and my mom giving me a bra and I hated it. Getting my period was a nightmare to me. I felt awkward and I didn’t like it. I’m thankful it was the 80’s and I didn’t have anyone in my ear trying to convince me I was really a boy. I got over that feeling and I’m definitely a woman. With so many detransitioners we see a lot of them just needed some time or therapy. Not medication and surgery.

[@carlapierle8623]

@@raimeyewens7518 Yes! I waited as long as possible before being forced to wear a bra. I never developed much over an "A" cup anyway. My mom didn't even tell me about periods! I was at school (7th grade) when I started and FREAKED OUT that I was bleeding. Fortunately I had friends who knew what was happening and calmed me down.

[@DorianPaige00]

@@raimeyewens7518 Did you want balls and a cock? How about a hairy chest and deep voice? I was male and borderline precocious as well but didn't grow out of it. And thankfully I was smart enough to be mild anorexic and curtail the growth spurt. If I didn't, I wouldn't have a transition to come back to and that's what all of you "wait it outers" want. I can just hear them. "Why would a grown-ass man want to be a woman? Who does he think he's foolin?" I male but I don't mourn the man I didn't become. Yes, there is discomfort but your not behind the door with the patient, therapist, and family. The point is that some of us are so uncomfortable with it that we can't function even after a few years or a decade or so. It shut me down as I'm not into penetrative sex in any capacity so I'm out. I had a rough early part of my life, want a romantic relationship, and now get shut out because I don't want to wank a load, or pop a cherry, or get buggered, or do the buggering. You think talking about this is vile; now you know how I feel. Perhaps I can't compartmentalize but I've talked and tried a dozen different psychologists with about half telling me not to mention what I mentioned in this paragraph. I guess I offended or perhaps hit an Achilles heel. Anyways I present as I always wanted which is as my youthful male self even at 47. I've had an orchiectomy and take estrogen as HRT and about as close to a modern day eunuch as you could get. Let psychologists do their job and don't tie their hands behind their back by legally removing the option of transgender medicine.

[@jenlong8289]

Thank you for your honesty, and your willingness to share your story! I hope and pray that this reaches many more people out there who are struggling with the same issue and can find the love of Jesus like you did!💕

[@cobblecattt]

Wow. Thanks for your honesty, vulnerabilities, introspection and sharing it for the world. ❤

[@juanad5041]

Thank you so much for your story. I am so very, deeply happy for you, for knowing the love of Jesus, and also for finding out that you don't have to be anybody else's idea of a woman, that you can be your own, true self as a woman. I have your same, almost exact story (tomboy, deeply, painfully wanting to be a boy) but never transitioned and I did not take hormones because I'm a 70-year-old grandmother who did not live in an age when physical transitioning was available although a few famous people had surgically transitioned but they were practically unheard of, and almost freakish. So I lived my secret real identity only in my very real daydreams and fantasies my entire life, while outwardly walking through the motions of being a girl and then woman. But I became used to being that female because it became second nature (because I was acting that way all the time). And that female came to know Jesus in the hippy culture, got married to a wonderful guy, had three kids and many grandkids, all the while very attached secretly to my hidden boy world, until one day out of the blue, God lifted that boy part of me out of me, so gently and delicately that I didn't know it happened. I realized it days later, that I had not engaged in my secret boy world (deep, intense fantasy) or (even more shocking) I had not even thought of my secret boy self! It was truly a miracle! I don't know why God chose to do that when he did, just 10 years ago. I'd become a Christian when I was 19-years-old, so I'd been living that secret life all through my Christian life, and could not stop. I'm thankful for all God has done in my life, and so thankful for what he has done for you.

[@erikaamerica4546]

I’m glad you’re finding yourself. I’m tired of the push to make young women think they should be men just because they don’t fit the mould of typical female.

[@olekslander]

A.I. just tried to write a reply for me. Beware, everyone. A.I. is experimenting with deep fake commentary.

[@teresaschihuahuas]

Being a tomboy was so much fun!

[@allenwood9343]

I just watched this, on my TV, so now I'm on my phone so I can comment. You are an amazing and beautiful child of God. Full of courage and grace. Never forget that. Thank you for sharing this and saving lives.

[@sharbean]

7:40 Is so powerful. That is what everyone needs to hear. Not just people with gender dysphoria. Everyone. We all need this. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. That very brief statement sums it all up. God be with you and keep you strong and at peace, Maddy.

[@christinemclatchie]

Thank you for sharing Maddy! Your story is a wonderful testimony to what is possible with the help of God the Father who loves you so much! ❤❤❤

[@Rosebird2]

I’m a detrans woman myself and I see similarities for ALOT of other detrans women … especially with the part of being more masculine then the traditional woman, thanks for sharing your story… I’m also considering on making a video sharing my own but not sure yet 👍

[@7jandi7]

We are not cookie-cutter we are beautiful individually wrapped. Being a women is not about the exterior presentation.. it's not pink clothes high heals or a passive personality.. it's most definitely not others expectation of us.... being a female born woman is not duplicatable its a "essence an energy and connection to a higher realm of spirituality" it's the ability to maintain balance in a storm... when centered in our core it's the ability see into the future, its humanity ... the essence of nurture... Seeing and hearing Abuse can create the necessity to withdraw our essence even become opposite to protect our selves.. feeling unsafe requires a persona of masculinity if there is no one to protect our hearts and bodies,. Because we all arrive with the ability to lean into masculinity, or femininity as a tool we use it. On a subconscious level, we are all just trying to survive in this world. We are designed perfectly in a ravenous world.

[@erenjaeger1738]

Yup. I've seen many and always say "I was tomboy" sad shit.

[@animetoonshd3889]

I pretty much had the same experience. I stumbled upon a trans video in 2016 and I also binged them. I was 10 years old at the time. I ended up dressing the way I wanted to and it’s not like I suddenly didn’t want to transition anymore, but I ended growing out of the life goal of becoming a guy. I’m very happy now actually and I don’t regret anything. I’m not feminine and I’ll probably never be very feminine but I like the way I am now and I did it by myself. No pronouns can make me happier

[@mdtyt-4me]

So many need to hear your story. You are a beautiful woman! Thank you for sharing💟

[@alexj.4984]

Thank you for sharing your story. There is nothing wrong with wearing boys clothes and competing with boys. I think it's awesome. Happy for you that you found your way in the end! 😊

[@livinginsynegy]

I grew up without the internet and I totally wanted my brother's life because he was adored and I wanted nothing happened to him and everything happened to me. He had fun, I had to do a bunch of crap I hated doing. If transgender was a thing and the internet was invented I would have wanted to be a boy. But it wasn't because I didn't want to be a boy, I just wanted his privilege. and not a menstral cycle or the world sexualizing me. Which none of that happened to him.

[@janebaker4912]

This

[@hankenson]

New subscriber here. Your story is so powerful! Thank you for posting.

[@pandorasaidoops]

Sometimes I wonder if the rigid views of gender roles and gender presentation maintained by conservatives and some sects of Christianity perpetuates these feelings of not fitting in and exploring other identities. I’m a Christian, but don’t fit the feminine mold perpetuated by the fundamentalist church I grew up in. Praying for you and your journey. You’re beautiful.

[@itplop]

Great insight!

[@shanimarais9695]

What a beautiful testimony Matt. I pray that God will continue to work in your life, that He will guide you, protect you and keep you under His loving wing. God is already using you on such a huge scale... just by bringing everyone your story. Continue on this beautiful path. Be the change you want to see in the world, just as Jesus led by example, so too are you. The more WE live good lives and treat ppl the way we want to be treated the more they will follow suit. You are beautiful, you are worthy and above all else... YOU ARE LOVED! Sending you so much love and keeping you in my prayers, all the way from South Africa 🇿🇦 ❤

[@deborahneale7048]

I'm 69 and I was a tomboy. I was jealous of boys as you were also but I never wanted to BE a boy when I was a teenager. Never been a christian or needed to talk to god. Things were different in those days.

[@annagitana1]

Society’s emphasis on gender roles and constructs can lead to people from very religious backgrounds believing that, since they don’t match society’s expectations about gender, and are disapproved of by family and friends as a result, they must be the opposite gender. Leave kids alone. Let them wear what they want and play how they want to play. They’re just kids. It doesn’t have to mean anything.

[@HansLemurson]

Agreed. There'd be a lot fewer detransitioners if people people were more forgiving about gender nonconformity.

[@Eviepossible]

Wow! God is so good! I have listened to many detransitioners stories but this was such a special one because of how directly and powerfully God spoke to you and you listened. Thank you for sharing your testimony!

[@JewishKeto]

Thanks for sharing your story. I went through a phase of thinking maybe I was trans MtF. I lived as a woman for 2 years, took estrogen, ect. But I realized what I really was is lonely and not dysphoria. I since detransitioned.

[@twinkletoes6290]

Your voice is so important right now. What a beautiful testimony about your journey to God and loving yourself! Sending you love and well wishes! ♥️♥️

[@ace6285]

I’d say I had much of the same preferences as a kid and a teenager. however, I never thought I had to conform to the ‘girly-girl’ style or interests. I felt it a challenge to present myself as I felt natural to me and that as I was a female, it was up to others to accept me as I was. Still do. Like everyone, I have had mixed acceptance throughout life. Who hasn’t? No surgery, no pharmaceuticals, no alterations of any sort. Stay away from experts. Be yourself.

[@deboralizek476]

Thank you for your video. I’m trying to talk to my daughter about self love but she insists I’m transphobic , it’s been really hard , I missed my kid and I’m really afraid I’ve lost her to gender ideology.

[@TennTema1015]

Bless you and may you get your child back. People don’t usually address how this fractures family bonds. 🙏🏾

[@MelixArgentina]

I think you have to love her the way she is now, whether she ends up transitioning or not. Going against her/him is only going to strain the relationship.

[@ninofromcanada4296]

(( 👋🏼. )). I LOVE HOW YOU SAID ‘GOD. LOVES YOU THE WAY HE CREATED YOU’ ,,, NEED WE SAY NOOO MORE ❗️

[@according-to-lc]

Thank you for sharing your story. Your voice matters and your faith is inspiring! I'm subscribing.

[@Woodman-Spare-that-tree]

It’s not compulsory to wear a dress if you are female.

[@DynamicBailey]

I don’t know why this video popped up into my feed but for some reason I decided to watch it. You are absolutely precious and I know that you are going to touch a lot of souls with your videos. In whatever way that is, I know it’s going to be good. For you and for them💖

[@giraffezebra2698]

Thanks for sharing your story. You are so right. There is no one way to be a boy or to be a girl. There is nothing wrong with a woman with masculine traits or a man with feminine traits. This message needs to be shared, but unfortunately the activists have louder voices. US President Biden calls the activists parading around naked on the White House lawn “brave.” No, YOU are brave, and I pray that you and your daughter have a wonderful life. God bless you both.

[@oliviarogers2808]

I'm sorry for the commenters trying to bash your religion, people are forgetting how to respect others' views. Don't let anyone tell you what you can and can't believe in. I'm glad you're happy.

[@julietamez3276]

Congratulations on becoming a mom! And congratulations on finding how to love yourself for who you are and finding God's love for you! I'm happy for you! Thank you for sharing your story. I hope others who are trying to figure out their own feelings will follow your example. You are so right, its ok to not be a girly girl or a manly man, just love yourself for who you are.😊

[@NoloMamps]

Hi Maddy, this was beautiful to watch ❤ Thank you so much for sharing your story and your testimony. This filled my heart up and I’m so warm inside. That love and peace from Christ that you speak of!!!! ❤❤❤ Thank you for touching my spirit today.

[@MsAwesome6814]

My mom is a tomboy, always has been and still is. She’s straight and had two kids. Still dresses like a cute boy, she loves her sneakers and jeans and always has her hair up in a bun. She has a bunch of brothers and was always the princess but she was raised on a farm and rode shotgun in her dad’s truck. Nothing about that made her a boy.

[@badkarma3828]

@@MsAwesome6814 well i'm guessing your mum didn't spend her life wishing she was a boy, started hormones, lived as a man until she found god and left her gf. Don't oversimplify everything based on unrelated personal experiences. Ofc gnc ppl exist that has nothing to do with transness

[@horrorfan2000]

Your mom needs to grow up because being a Tom boy is for young girls.

[@kizarizaum1]

Your story is so amazing!! I try to tell people if you question things you will always get the truth and guidance if I trust and have a conversation with God. As you witnessed He does answer. And when you said you had a daughter I was so elated with Joy. God does love us and shows us when we acknowledge and choose Him. Stay Blessed

[@pamlacooper3288]

Thank you Maddy. It’s a thing I went through in my head only. I remember wanting to be a boy at that age. At some point I realized that it was a rebellion to the restrictions of being a girl. I knew at 10 years of age that to be a woman was a disadvantage. Relatable in my small way, thank you again.

[@nmartin5551]

Absolutely! Most places, people and times, males have the better deal! But I’m from a time when the transition thing was extremely rare. That isn’t all bad, now that we see this trend. But I’m in the camp that you shouldn’t be allowed to change your body and hormones until you have actually approached sexual maturity. Nobody gives a crap what I think, but adolescence is a disaster at the best of times. How can you make life choices at that time.

[@lilac.moonlight]

”Tom boy” is such a weird expression in english! I live in Europe and speak 6 languages, but there’s no similar expression in any of them. It ’s also so sad that real, wild and absolutely normal women feel ”wrong” if they aren’t interested in makeup and showing of their bodies - I think it’s partly an effect of media etc. brainwashing about how women should look like and behave all sexy. Interesting story of self discovery, you are amazing! All the best 🙌

[@melissamoonchild9216]

thats amazing you speak 6 languages! Im struggling just to learn Japanese 😭

[@augenmaugen]

Beautifully powerful, thank you so much.

[@marydickey1350]

Wow. What an amazing story. What courage to tell your story. Keep your ears tuned to Christ and your relationship with him strong. You will be able to face anything.

[@QueenAmethyst55]

"Any way, I was talking to God" .... How wonderful is that sentence alone. Communicating with the heavenly father and hearing his loving replies. ❤❤❤

[@abrahamlincoln3699]

We use to call this being a Tomboy!!! I’m in my 50’s and I was a major tomboy including wearing button down shirts and pants.. We were taught you didn’t care about what people thought so no big deal, sticks and stones I was first female to play on boys city basketball and so on.. Lots of fist fights.. But I always knew God did not make mistakes so if he made me this way it was for a purpose!!! He needed me to be a strong female.. think about the pioneer women or female police officers.. As it turns out I produce too much testosterone and my daughter has the same thing.. I never considered it a problem but rather apart of who I am.. You have a purpose!! He created you specifically this was so you could handle what he has for you.. Hang in there.. Focus on the strengths he gave you.. My daughter turned out to be a police officer and she is Great at it .. I’m proud of you for stopping and listening to God.. Hang in there and your path will become clear..

[@tcreative8030]

All of this is so sad. Let kids be kids and discover who they are at different stages of their lives. These should Not be decisions children make.

[@traceykinsman7727]

You are very brave to bring forward your truth. You've spent so many years hiding and now you are truly free! Enjoy your life now that you have peace.

[@happyappy19931]

The truth. Not her truth.

[@sarralemon]

Very happy for you. And yes you dont have to wear dresses or makeup. Plus your pretty naturally.

[@aneneschreuder5820]

You are such an amazing woman, "They overcame by the blood of the lamb and the word of their testimony" Thank you for sharing, it gave me understanding .

[@PrettyTangerine]

Thank you very much for sharing your story, you're really brave! I wish you the best, you're such a nice person

[@catastrophic_biz3608]

Wow this is a great testimony. It aligns with many other peoples stories. I never had a problem with trans people but I do have a problem with the way it’s being spread. Not because of acceptance of trans people but the way it’s been making kids THINK THEYRE TRANS. I really don’t how a lot of people in the community are making kids and teens think they’re trans over reasons like you describe. I see it a lot. “Not everybody fits the gender box”. They usually describe a dislike of gender norms and for some reason they believe they’re forced to conform to it strictly. “Traditional gender is very limiting”. Some of the older ones have an anti-patriarchy agenda behind it. Trauma is also often implied, mostly through the parental enforcement of gender roles, or having abusive/neglectful parents or lack of a parent. lot of them also admit to having autism or ADHD which is a HUGE red flag. Go into any woke informational gender video and you’ll find comments and testimonies like that. Heck I forgot the channel but there’s a guy who said you’re a different gender if you don’t like wearing dresses all the time. It’s crazy, kids are basically being taught there’s something wrong with them for being themselves. Not conforming to gender roles is a bad reason to be trans because gender non conformists are EVERYWHERE, and most of them don’t have a preferred gender identity. In fact most people ARE gender non-conforming in some way, Yet they live day-to-day without even caring for gender identities. So why is it so important NOW? I do know of people who don’t regret transitioning and that’s okay, some people really do need it and we should be respectful. But I’m afraid that because of the shady information out there, there’s going to be a lot detransitioners.

[@AshtasticAcrobat]

This story was so beautiful. Thank you for being bold enough to share this ❤❤❤❤❤❤ May God/Jesus continue to shower His love and blessings on you

[@MackMud]

Thank you for your honesty. Please continue to tell your story!

[@christinesmith3025]

More.folks need to hear your story - it could help.alot , I mean alot of people- thank u for being u- !-

[@madelinebrennan9636]

I was a tomboy too (though I liked playing with dolls) and it strikes me as odd that people don't realize there is a full spectrum in girlhood and in boyhood of those that feel very to mostly to a little of one gender or another or both, and this is why I worried about my friend's child transitioning at such a young age because she (at the time) didn't fit it with how others defined being a girl. I'm not saying the transition was wrong for this person but I wondered if they grew up feeling it was ok to feel...however! as any gender, if they would feel the need to have surgery and change their body.

[@ZebaKnight]

I'm an atheist, but I believe that you are speaking your truth. I'm glad that you found your way to a better way of life, however it happened. Yes, it's possible to be an unfeminine female or an unmasculine male and still be a fine, decent, valuable, worthy human being.