I want to live | Between You & Me Ep 1.

[@kaorijoy]

"I need to make my head a better home" is a bar.

[@DemetriusHarmon]

In "Between You and Me" series premiere, Demetrius lets us into the struggle of not seeing value in his life in his youth but experiencing a new desire and will to live. And what comes with that, the fear, the uncertainty, changing of habits etc.

[@NaysNook_]

Lord I thought it couldn’t love and admire you any deeper than I did but this video just had me breaking down. I think you’re amazing! Even on the days when you don’t want to keep pushing, just know that so many people are hoping and praying you do!

[@gwynnethconroy5916]

Pls keep these videos coming🙏

[@kikibara1]

I saw your “break ups are hard” video before you took it down and it genuinely electrified something in me. As soon as i was done i went to send it to someone and it was gone lol… it was sooooo truthful. So deeply resonant. I subscribed to your channel with notifications on hoping you might reupload it and not wanting to miss it again.

[@iheartkristal]

i hope he reuploads it too! it seemed so powerful and i only saw a glimpse of it

[@nekudarkenxRikuxXxda]

This! I would love to see it!

[@Cyphalis]

Man I wish I saw it now

[@dream7941]

i was planning on watching it too omg💔

[@slugsiemuu3201]

I can't tell u how fucking good it felt, to hear that someone else is fighting with themselves too. Like it feels bad to feel better just because someone else is suffering too, but it really helps to know that someone else is working on themself and then falling back to the same old habits and feeling like they didn't make any progress. I know I HAVE made progress but during those times I get SO blinded by my failure(s) that I can't focus on all the great work I did. I recently got into a couple fights/arguments with my fiance and the first fight, we realized he needed to help me more and care more, the next fight or two I cant even remember, but the last fight, the last fight, I realized I started hating myself again, but this time, it wasn't my outer self, my beauty, my body, no, this was my inner self. I started to hate myself so much I started projecting that hate onto him without realizing it. I struggle with myself every day and it is so terrible, but it's really just because I don't appreciate myself, I was never taught to, so idek how to fr. But im going to try, I am trying. Thanks man.

[@juice4them]

I just quit my job yesterday because I felt mentally unable to continue working there. I don’t know what I’m going through but this summarizes how I’ve been feeling. Thank you for sharing it means a lot to know I’m not alone. I needed to hear this.

[@themarishow3124]

i think it’s about decorating your head like a home, a place that you love. Good vibes, decor, memories & pictures.

[@EliiOrmond]

This is my favorite KZbin video I've ever watched. I relate to how you feel completely. Thank you for your transparency

[@gabe-ep3fk]

When you were talking about wanting to be here now, its such a weird feeling. Like I never planned to make it this far so I feel kind of behind. Just lost. Never had any goals or a career in mind but I did want one. I just have no notion of what it is to want to live. We live and we learn I guess.

[@Bambamthanku]

This was much needed, 😢 vent to us while at your lowest and vent to us at your highest

[@itstaviab611]

i wish i saw your breakups are hard video before you took it down, but this video is striking a nerve for me because i don’t even know if i wanna be here. i’m going through so much right now with nobody to talk to. i just feel like im drowning. i wanna feel how you feel. wanting to be here.

[@TheSupremeSpoon]

I don’t know what you’re going through, but finding the reason to be here is the reason to be here. It doesn’t have to happen now, as good as that would be, but the fact that you relate to wanting to *want* to be here is proof enough you’re still trying. As tiring and exhausting and infuriating as it is, when we have nothing left, all we can do is keep trying. Much love.

[@JayOkami]

Thank you. Just hearing you talk about your own experiences and thoughts resonated with me. I feel that same tiredness at 25 but i learned to live for myself in the mindset that I’d miss out on experiences and seeing what i can accomplish in the future. You might not have given us the answers but you have us something to connect and understand. You will find that willingness to live for you. I hear it in how you speak bro, you will find it.

[@collageascensio9QC]

Needed this man. You definitely not alone. I’m 32 and even though I know I’m not by myself…the waves come and go 😢. Thank you for being vulnerable with us

[@LivingUnusual]

I know there are you own thoughts but it feels like you’re speaking for me and to me at the same time, look forward to seeing how the progression of your life and these series goes❤

[@nealnelson7831]

Just a bag of thoughts but it’s nice that you have like a place where you could just say whatever you want and people can understand or at least try to understand you

[@essenseofsin]

thank you for sharing, i’ve felt very similar feelings and have truly been working on living and not just surviving. i feel so young yet so old at times because of all i’ve been through but that’s the journey. i’m trying to accept it and tell myself i deserve to truly live and you do too. pls keep this series coming 🙌🏾

[@willieroland5814]

this video helped, I never talked about how I feel but hearing how you talk about yourself made me feel I’m not alone.. I experience the same anxiety, last few months I got so stuck in my mind and I stopped eating cuz I just couldn’t do it. I viewed myself as the enemy and it sucks.. I want to be better

[@trayoungmusic]

love these videos makes me feel like I’m not alone. 💙🙏🏾

[@ITSASHLEYPATRICE]

You always take the words right out of my mouth when it comes to describing those low moments and those dark thoughts. Thank you for creating these videos. Blessings on your mental health journey😘❤

[@koyasays]

The rain!!!!! It came in at the perfect time. 🩵

[@MJ-oq6sm]

So DOPE! Love and appreciate the transparency 🫶🏽 Thank you

[@LaniBabyXo]

When I needed it the most… thank you for this Meech sincerely ❤

[@theaniyahsimone]

You spoke to my soul with this. Thank you❤

[@zariyahburnside1130]

Dramatic indeed 😂🫶🏾

[@powermiller855]

Thank you for sharing bro it'll get better 🙏🏽

[@calvinhill9328]

This video helped me, THANK YOU

[@DrummnFizz2]

Much love to you my brotha 💯💚

[@bluejayfilms5368]

This video hits me deep on so many levels

[@marcy2k1]

Demetrius, thank you so much.

[@RandomFam-nm1wb]

We love you and keep you head up brother there away a way to turn and it nothing it’s learn what to do in life

[@rockstarsnvrdie]

thank you.

[@julienmills9375]

We love you meech

[@BenHardyYT]

Your changing the world Meeh

[@unclepacho]

listening to you, i feel heard .

[@unclepacho]

'' if it is outta my hands, it should be outta my mind too ''

[@zariyahburnside1130]

I’m sat🧘🏾‍♀️

[@Phanumb]

Thanks for sharing. Sending love, I appreciate you.

[@__UJ]

Great vid

[@Mayyyybluee]

Listening to you, your being HEARD

[@str33t.lights]

I love you broski. I feel you

[@wrldtk]

thank you and i love you bro

[@SierraThePoet]

this came at such a perfect time. Been struggling with not being where I wanna be coupled with so much other stuff and felt like no one’s ever felt this way then I find someone who not only gets it but can articulate just how im feeling. Ty for the wisdom 🤎

[@John.Monroe]

Love to everyone in these comments and everyone who may benefit from this ❤❤

[@senseiikj]

This was a nice dialogue w self

[@TrevorBlow]

Love you bro ❤

[@immanati1831]

I want to want to live for myself too. I’m jus 17 and I’m tired too 😂 like shit “How bad is this gon get typa thing” I just feel like I’m just failing in my life now. Like I feel my life going downhill on a steep slope and I feel like I can’t stop it. I think it comes from the fact that I’m not doing good in school at all. Like it’s to the point where I’m like “Well fuck I ain’t doin good already why should I continue going anymore?” I used to actually do good and this same thing happens ALLL the time each year. I do good in the beginning and then reality sets in “This is the same from last year” and then boom. Grades drop so easily. So I just stop trying. And this is tainting other things in my life. Taking care of myself for example. I haven’t been eating nor drinking as much water as I should be. Hell I woke up today and I ain’t even drink no water or eat. My sleep schedule fucked up and I can’t be bothered to fix ts. It’s crazy how failing at one thing can fuck you up with other things as well. You described ts perfectly. It’s a virus that spreads. I want to be able to try again because I feel like at this moment in time I can’t try. I’m just unable to because I don’t care about me anymore. I’m not alive for me anymore. And that’s another problem I have. I’m not living for me at this point. Ts might sound corny but like that’s reality for me. I’m not alive for myself because I can’t be bothered to care about myself. I want to be able to live for me and care more about me because if I continue to experience life like this I’m going to hit rock bottom and I’ll never be able to get back up again. Maybe I’m jus not making sense but I guess I needed some way to vent. Just talkin

[@zariyahburnside1130]

First to watch ig? I hope you’re okay meech! The title kinda scared me lol

[@calvinjones9023]

You’re not bro, I’ve had suicidal thoughts too. I never acted on them luckily. But that thing you said about fire really stuck with me. Cuz I be thinking about fire as a way out but now I appreciate the warmth itself more than the destruction it can cause.

[@calvinjones9023]

You’re not crazy, everybody else is tho

[@ki11acam_23]

Thank you.

[@Wilbucker67]

i hear you meech.

[@MsTaLaiah]

There’s no such thing as effort without growth. 😮‍💨 I needed that msg need the way my life is set up I’m tirrrrrrred and I need to know what’s the point besides me realizing Life is a relentless bully…anyway. I have so many comments but I’m new here and don’t want to leave 13 comments. Basically, I haven’t gotten to the part where I know life is good or I’ll be good and that’s what I’m holding on for. But since you said it still can be up and down and still very scary-I know not to believe it’ll get better and stay that way. That makes me more tired now that I think about it. I just need to know there’s a point to all this BS and so far it’s just very ghetto to me, being a human. And it’s s u p e r hard for me to speak about myself so when I do I hope the listener will understand. They don’t. Or when I hear ppl share like you just did, I hope to see similarities so I can have hope that’s actually based on something mostly real. I’ve always found that I can relate but there’s prob never gonna be anyone with a similar life experiences as me. I think I so badly don’t want to be misunderstood so I don’t feel alone but that exacerbates it. I appreciate you so much for sharing. I could never, but it’s my goal. Eventually. I’m choosing for the first time to honor my comfort level. I’ve spent my entire almost four decades of life pressuring myself to operate like I’m “supposed to” and have never been able to see myself or acknowledge my efforts and appreciate myself. It’s so not healthy. It’s so destructive. It’s so sad bec I had no idea until this week, so that’s my default mode: breeze past what I want or need and get it done if someone would benefit. This is also why I’m tired. I pushed myself too far for too long. Thanks again. Clearly I needed a safe place to vent. 🥹🤎✊🏽

[@lMylesJohnsonl]

Love this

[@kraziimeme]

Thank you

[@IsThatShawno]

deep

[@ashantiacevedo5281]

Open question. Do you cherish the fight against not wanting to live or would you be better off never having to fight this battle?

[@destinywalker4477]

🎬

[@chevrandyw4903]

Did anyone else get the number at the bottom of the video. That shit so thoughtful.

[@Office97]

you gave only answers for me sir

[@MrNobodyLand]

If you see this, don’t give up.

[@RandomFam-nm1wb]

And this set up was raw maybe think about getting into professional filming

[@gerrenalexander4749]

I want to comment first but this seems like a serious video so lemme watch

[@zariyahburnside1130]

@@gerrenalexander4749 ig now we fight to the death? Idk

[@gerrenalexander4749]

@@zariyahburnside1130 That’s what it seems like, how you wanna do this?

[@zariyahburnside1130]

@@gerrenalexander4749 *casually activates shadow clone jutsu*

[@LandAirWaterBUREAU]

I want to help you live

[@RandomFam-nm1wb]

Movies king Vader tip shi

[@yikes6346]

[@richieyuukyou]

love this format meech. you special

[@babypluto222]

love you meech. you've saved so many people. thank you for lettin us know that we matter.🩵

[@GeekGhostGamerTop]

🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 that's what's up @DemetrriusHarmon That's what's up