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There are good days and there are bad days. The day my host brother died was a bad day.
It was bad because not only was he gone, but I didn't understand why and I kept thinking about what I could have done to prevent it. I had a mosquito net, bug repellent, and malaria prophylaxis, all things that could have kept him safe and healthy.
I will always feel guilty about that because I'll always believe that there was a small chance that I could have saved him.
PCV and RPCVs are told to prepare themselves for feeling guilt and shame because they will always have more than the villagers they serve and they will always have a way to come back home and be safe.
But no matter how much they tell you or how many stories you hear, it doesn't really get easier.