i wrote a song about reading too much as a kid (live)

this is a song i wrote about growing up reading too much to escape your real life and then developing skewed expectations of what life would be like from the books you read. it's one of my most personal songs; for that reason, i thought it was best to share in a live one-take recording. i hope you enjoy!
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LYRICS:
at the tender of age of seven, i begged my parents to buy me my own library card
i wanted books that’d keep me up all night, and they became my kryptonite
instead of people, ‘cuz talking was hard
i’d bring my books with me to lunch, so that I didn’t have to run
‘case the pages built a literary shield
from the forces that rejected me, those who’d never protected me
and for a while, it all just felt so real
yeah, things were great, things were fine
but the magic had to run out sometime...
so here i am at twenty-one
my live has finally begun,
but i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter
i’ll accept this part of me:
the poorly adapted literary freak
with no happily ever after now
ever after now
and so when the time came up, for me to finally fall in love
i set my expectations way too high
it turned out i was no protagonist, that boys weren’t a fan of this
and so i slowly learned that i should hide
from the reality that was consuming me:
that i’d never be like the girls they’d write
so here i am at twenty-one
my live has finally begun,
but i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter
i’ll accept this part of me:
the poorly adapted literary freak
with no happily ever after now
ever after now
maybe we don't all get happy endings,
or maybe that's just how it works
and for that reason i can't keep defending
my own little universe,
my own little universe
(here i am)
i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter
i’ll accept this part of me:
the poorly adapted literary freak
with no happily ever after now
ever after now;
ever after now.

[@whynotread394]

Pls..... Pls.... Do this as an official audio as well. You're amazing I literally adore both of your other songs, as a Greek mythology enthusiast and fiction reader everything you've wrote is relatable.

[@j.mayamusic]

bestie, i have some news -- it comes out tonight at midnight on all platforms!! i hope you enjoy it

[@sapphicknight6791]

The fact that I was this kid. My expectations were extremely high and I always thought that I'd never find a guy for me. Then I found out I was a lesbian and it makes a lot of sense girs always live up to the expectations and surprise you so damn much.

[@Jennifer-hu1yk]

Just found Achilles Heel on Spotify, and now I have Achilles Heel and Thanatos on repeat. All day. Love this!!

[@elizabethorswell1177]

Omg this is so incredible!! I’ve listened to both of your songs and they are my absolute favorite as a fellow Greek mythology nerd. As someone who is also writing their own songs as a young person and hoping to go big, any advice?

[@j.mayamusic]

Fellow Greek mythology nerds unite!!!! :') Oh man, it's flattering to be asked for advice!!! I'll tell you the best advice I've gotten: don't be afraid to tell the truth, no matter how nerve-wracking it might be to share

[@elizabethorswell1177]

You don’t know how much that means to me. Thank you so so much. One of my biggest dreams is someday to see my songs next to yours on Spotify. Thank you for giving me the encouragement to hopefully make it there!!

[@esraerbay4695]

This really hit home for me. I didn’t know you had a youtube channel, but I’m definitely here to stay. Absolutely beautiful work, all of it. The way you catch emotions in your music is always amazing to hear

[@dakcap]

Seriously you're so incredibly talented!! Thanatos has been on repeat all day every day

[@j.mayamusic]

WOOOO so glad to hear!

[@jaimemerino1239]

I’m literally crying, that define me in many ways,thank you for doing for own kind of art, I love it and I hope you the best 🌈💜❤️

[@mertku4]

after I saw the a part of the song on tiktok I went on the internet to just listen to thet part on loop but for my luck you posted the song 7 months before the release. no complaints. its perfect

[@georgia2993]

There's definitely a reason there are no dislikes, this is incredible!

[@juditb196]

You have no idea how much i listened to the snippet on tiktok. It hits home every single time. I hope someday it will be on spotify. Here's to poorly adapted literary freaks!

[@joshuapetersen9645]

Yay! Love finally getting to hear the whole thing!!!!! Can’t wait to see you blow up on this platform too!!!!

[@j.mayamusic]

Yay!!!!! That means the world :')

[@rainbowleprechaun1000]

So I’m not the type to get goose bumps or anything like that when I hear people (other than my fiancé) sing. HOWEVER, I got goosebumps listening to this. You have an amazing voice. I would buy your album. You’re awesome.

[@jayb8682]

Just found out about you a week ago and love end of us and Achilles heel 💚 can't wait to hear this on spotify

[@j.mayamusic]

Welcome to the fam Jay!!!!!

[@greenteawithhoneyandcream7173]

Can't wait to start hearing this on the radio

[@montserratalmaraz6194]

I can't wait to hear this on Spotify! I am completely astounded by how much this song just resonates with me and so many others. You are amazing!

[@StephenJones2]

Wow. Watching this, I feel like I'm witnessing the birth of a star. I have a deep appreciation for those who write their own lyrics and music, which is furthered when they happen to have an amazing voice. Adding on top of that, your lyrics are so original and clever. I may not be the target demographic, but I'm a fan!

[@idropkickedthatchildinself1927]

Question how can someone sound so good! You sound absolutely amazing and gave me chill I love this song so much and I can kind of relate to the book part

[@ajl0322]

You sound as amazing as ever Maya! I'm trying to get the covers posted on my account soon.

[@j.mayamusic]

Sending love to you

[@manarmokhtar9344]

This is really underated , you are so talented keep going ♥ I really loved this song the meaning behind it is beautiful and not many people have talked about this before , I'm looking forward to the official audio ♥

[@aadrongarg3599]

I've heard your other songs, i know * nothing * about Greek mythology but i totally relate with this song! I am * the * embodiment of this song (at least the way I am in school) i love your work ❤️ I don't know if anyone else can relate but this kinda makes feel seen a little bit, so thankyou for that!

[@cassstefani5877]

omg i love this!!! literally describes me so well!! it’s great!!

[@muzi_3029]

Ok so I've literally fallen in love with both of your songs. Personally I just LOVED Thanatos beats and that subtle guitar. Love love love it and really waiting for more of your songs to drop

[@yanntingnot2437]

I really love this song it something that really speaks to me along with all your other songs i really like to read especially Greek stories I can't wait for this song to be officially released

[@viiib3sss]

I loved this❤️😭

[@j.mayamusic]

Thank you so much angel!!!!

[@evynkidd595]

I've been waiting for this one!!!!! you go girl!

[@lunaeverglow8103]

Omg this is amazing 🤩 I relate so much

[@valeriafigueroa4174]

I love this song so much! It’s really good

[@j.mayamusic]

So glad to hear!!! Thank you angel!

[@salsabilmahdjoubi1266]

I love this !!!!! Please release it !! As soon as possible! Please! Love you !

[@j.mayamusic]

It is officially coming everywhere March 11th!!!!!! I can't wait for you to hear it!!

[@patronus4460]

This song is beautiful :) I really resonate with your lyrics

[@Emma_davis1892]

I love this!

[@samlocr388]

i loved your song. I wish you could recorder it properly and upload it to spotify or smt.... It´s such a relatable song

[@j.mayamusic]

i have some good news for you, bestie -- it comes out *tonight* at midnight!!!!

[@hadiyafaeem6292]

youre so talented

[@mischapowell8366]

Omg I relate to this song soooo much thank you for bringing this into my life

[@lilianarios-garcia2185]

beautifully done! looking foward to your growth

[@m9552]

I found your song on tiktok and I love it so much ♥️ Please continue writing amazing songs like this on

[@Kian.murphy007]

Honestly this is such s good song with such a powerful meaning

[@ydbn272_92]

This song speaks to my soul ♥️

[@nethaliakarsha7843]

I love the lyrics

[@sofiabruder]

this is amazing and sadly so ture

[@marianaestanqueiro4392]

pls drop pls drop pls drop!!

[@Maria-rd9co]

Hello!! Will your new songs be on Spotify soon? Can't wait to have them on replay:)

[@michellegarritano1787]

When Is out the official version? I love so much this song❤️😍🥰

[@j.mayamusic]

The official version is officially coming March 11th to all platforms!!!! You can actually pre-save it now at lnk.to/librarycard

[@starsgalaxy8187]

I can from tik tok I love it💕💕💕

[@sarahoque1871]

Put ms. protagonist on your channel. That song is dope

[@j.mayamusic]

you are so sweet!! so glad you like the song

[@nethaliakarsha7843]

Can u please make this an official song

[@j.mayamusic]

it is now available everywhere! lnk.to/LibraryCard

[@kth6442]

Yo wtf girl why ain't you famous?¿!!!! Your voice is gold underlined with silver adorned with precious stones!!! Like HOW?????? anyways hi....meet me, your new subscriber

[@markuskadaste6805]

is there Any time frame you can give us when its out on spotify? If its ever out on spotify.

[@rachaelelizabethbam5087]

It's on spotify now!

[@j.mayamusic]

it's officially coming march 11th to all platforms!!!!! you can presave it now at lnk.to/librarycard

[@vibhudixit2536]

Have you read percy Jackson

[@urvashibagohil1643]

LYRICS: at the tender of age of seven, i begged my parents to buy me my own library card i wanted books that’d keep me up all night, and they became my kryptonite instead of people, ‘cuz talking was hard i’d bring my books with me to lunch, so that I didn’t have to run ‘case the pages built a literary shield from the forces that rejected me, those who’d never protected me and for a while, it all just felt so real yeah, things were great, things were fine but the magic had to run out sometime... so here i am at twenty-one my live has finally begun, but i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter i’ll accept this part of me: the poorly adapted literary freak with no happily ever after now ever after now and so when the time came up, for me to finally fall in love i set my expectations way too high it turned out i was no protagonist, that boys weren’t a fan of this and so i slowly learned that i should hide from the reality that was consuming me: that i’d never be like the girls they’d write so here i am at twenty-one my live has finally begun, but i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter i’ll accept this part of me: the poorly adapted literary freak with no happily ever after now ever after now maybe we don't all get happy endings, or maybe that's just how it works and for that reason i can't keep defending my own little universe, my own little universe (here i am) i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter i’ll accept this part of me: the poorly adapted literary freak with no happily ever after now ever after now; ever after now.

[@urvashibagohil1643]

LYRICS: at the tender of age of seven, i begged my parents to buy me my own library card i wanted books that’d keep me up all night, and they became my kryptonite instead of people, ‘cuz talking was hard i’d bring my books with me to lunch, so that I didn’t have to run ‘case the pages built a literary shield from the forces that rejected me, those who’d never protected me and for a while, it all just felt so real yeah, things were great, things were fine but the magic had to run out sometime... so here i am at twenty-one my live has finally begun, but i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter i’ll accept this part of me: the poorly adapted literary freak with no happily ever after now ever after now and so when the time came up, for me to finally fall in love i set my expectations way too high it turned out i was no protagonist, that boys weren’t a fan of this and so i slowly learned that i should hide from the reality that was consuming me: that i’d never be like the girls they’d write so here i am at twenty-one my live has finally begun, but i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter i’ll accept this part of me: the poorly adapted literary freak with no happily ever after now ever after now maybe we don't all get happy endings, or maybe that's just how it works and for that reason i can't keep defending my own little universe, my own little universe (here i am) i can’t seem to find my way to the next chapter i’ll accept this part of me: the poorly adapted literary freak with no happily ever after now ever after now; ever after now.